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how_o affable_a and_o courteous_a be_v he_o and_o yet_o how_o severe_a against_o sin_n what_o meekness_n and_o humility_n in_o his_o own_o cause_n and_o yet_o what_o courage_n and_o magnanimity_n in_o the_o cause_n of_o god_n shine_v in_o he_o how_o much_o holy_a fear_n and_o self-jealousie_n and_o yet_o how_o much_o christian_a boldness_n and_o confidence_n be_v he_o possess_v with_o what_o a_o inflexible_a and_o strong_a bend_v of_o heart_n for_o god_n against_o sin_n seem_v he_o to_o have_v and_o yet_o how_o flexible_a and_o comply_v with_o other_o for_o their_o good_a be_v he_o he_o do_v not_o as_o some_o take_v christ_n to_o ease_v himself_o of_o his_o work_n or_o to_o secure_v his_o lust_n sincerity_n his_o sincerity_n but_o to_o kill_v they_o and_o to_o quicken_v he_o to_o duty_n his_o peace_n of_o conscience_n be_v maintane_v not_o by_o peace_n but_o war_n with_o sin_n it_o be_v not_o only_o from_o but_o also_o in_o god_n he_o have_v not_o only_a form_n of_o christ_n in_o his_o life_n and_o picture_n of_o he_o in_o his_o fancy_n but_o also_o the_o image_n of_o union_n with_o and_o love_n for_o christ_n in_o his_o heart_n he_o affect_v not_o so_o much_o to_o entangle_v his_o thought_n in_o dispute_n about_o the_o controversy_n of_o religion_n as_o to_o get_v the_o power_n of_o it_o stamp_v on_o his_o soul_n his_o faith_n do_v not_o lie_v level_a with_o worldly_a interest_n but_o oppositie_n thereto_o he_o climb_v not_o as_o some_o â—o_z the_o top_n of_o a_o high_a profession_n without_o â—â—â—ing_v a_o deep_a foundation_n in_o self-denial_n he_o borrow_v not_o as_o to_o many_o the_o mask_n of_o religion_n to_o conceal_v a_o rot_a heart_n but_o be_v unsatisfied_a in_o his_o heart-inquiry_n after_o grace_n till_o he_o arrive_v to_o such_o a_o full_a measure_n thereof_o as_o be_v 〈◊〉_d attainable_a by_o any_o hypocrite_n hâ—â—_n dâ—yly_a progress_n in_o mortification_n of_o sin_n seem_v very_o remarkable_a mortification_n his_o mortification_n and_o conspicuous_a he_o know_v full_a well_o that_o one_o reign_v lust_n will_v darken_v and_o harden_v his_o heart_n yea_o bring_v all_o into_o captivity_n and_o therefore_o dare_v not_o gratify_v any_o lust_n in_o the_o least_o he_o be_v content_a to_o give_v up_o his_o lust_n to_o death_n for_o christ_n who_o give_v up_o his_o soul_n to_o death_n for_o he_o he_o think_v it_o not_o much_o to_o part_v with_o a_o belove_a sin_n for_o a_o belove_a saviour_n yea_o he_o seem_v to_o take_v more_o pleasure_n in_o subdue_a his_o unlawful_a desire_n than_o other_o do_v in_o the_o fulfil_n of_o they_o and_o lest_o his_o flesh_n shall_v impose_v on_o his_o more_o noble_a part_n he_o innure_v himself_o to_o many_o bodily_a severity_n and_o deprive_v himself_o of_o such_o natural_a refreshment_n which_o other_o too_o much_o indulge_v themselves_o in_o yet_o do_v he_o not_o content_v himself_o with_o external_a mortification_n but_o maintain_v a_o daily_a conflict_n with_o the_o whole_a body_n of_o sin_n in_o corrupt_a nature_n yea_o he_o will_v oft_o blame_v himself_o much_o for_o spiritual_a sin_n as_o infidelity_n pride_n etc._n etc._n which_o other_o can_v least_o blame_v he_o for_o his_o crucifixion_n to_o the_o world_n be_v not_o less_o visible_a world_n his_o crucifixion_n to_o the_o world_n he_o seem_v to_o have_v acquire_v a_o great_a indifference_n of_o spirit_n for_o thing_n indifferent_a to_o give_v perish_v thing_n but_o perish_a affection_n as_o our_o bless_a lord_n give_v his_o heaven_n for_o he_o so_o he_o think_v it_o not_o much_o to_o give_v his_o earth_n for_o his_o lord_n he_o can_v not_o part_v with_o christ_n for_o any_o worldly_a good_a and_o therefore_o be_v willing_a to_o part_v with_o all_o for_o christ_n the_o believe_a view_n he_o have_v of_o future_a glory_n darken_v the_o world_n glory_v to_o he_o so_o that_o he_o seem_v to_o admire_v nothing_o but_o approach_a glory_n or_o what_o relate_v thereto_o poverty_n in_o christ_n way_n be_v great_a riches_n to_o he_o than_o a_o flourish_a state_n in_o the_o way_n of_o sin_n he_o know_v how_o to_o abound_v in_o his_o want_n by_o content_o want_v what_o the_o lord_n think_v not_o fit_a for_o he_o and_o thereby_o crucify_a his_o desire_n he_o make_v the_o cross_n of_o christ_n easy_a to_o he_o his_o desire_n be_v low_a and_o therefore_o his_o spirit_n high_a above_o the_o frown_n and_o smile_n of_o this_o low_a world_n he_o seem_v better_o please_v in_o his_o mean_a condition_n than_o worldling_n be_v in_o the_o high_a his_o mind_n be_v too_o great_a to_o put_v a_o great_a value_n on_o the_o nothing_o of_o this_o life_n he_o bring_v his_o natural_a desire_n into_o a_o narrow_a compass_n and_o thence_o gain_v a_o great_a enlargement_n of_o spirit_n by_o his_o long_a suffering_n he_o gain_v a_o great_a dexterity_n and_o skill_n in_o bear_v the_o cross_n by_o starve_a sin_n cross_n his_o art_n in_o bear_v the_o cross_n and_o crucify_a his_o heart_n to_o the_o world_n he_o take_v out_o the_o sting_n of_o his_o suffering_n he_o know_v that_o the_o divine_a will_n be_v more_o eligible_a than_o his_o own_o and_o therefore_o he_o endeavour_v to_o conform_v unto_o it_o as_o well_o by_o passive_a as_o active_a obedience_n he_o know_v he_o can_v not_o glorify_v god_n more_o then_o by_o be_v content_a that_o god_n glory_n shall_v gain_v by_o his_o private_a loss_n he_o dare_v not_o make_v sin_n a_o shelter_n against_o suffering_n or_o bear_v false_a witness_n against_o god_n by_o repine_v under_o the_o cross_n he_o be_v not_o so_o well_o please_v with_o sin_n as_o to_o prefer_v it_o before_o suffering_n or_o so_o ill-pleased_n with_o suffering_n as_o to_o fly_v from_o they_o when_o call_v thereto_o he_o innure_v himself_o to_o the_o yoke_n of_o christ_n and_o so_o gain_v the_o art_n of_o bear_v his_o cross_n his_o conscience_n continue_v under_o a_o lively_a sense_n of_o sin_n and_o that_o make_v he_o dead_a and_o in_o a_o measure_n senseless_a as_o to_o suffer_v his_o will_n be_v so_o far_o break_v as_o that_o it_o can_v cheerful_o bend_v and_o submit_v to_o the_o cross_n yea_o welcome_a cross_n when_o in_o god_n way_n when_o god_n bring_v he_o into_o any_o affliction_n or_o suffering_n he_o wait_v there_o till_o god_n bring_v he_o out_o he_o know_v himself_o to_o be_v nothing_o and_o that_o make_v he_o bear_v any_o thing_n from_o god_n with_o contentment_n and_o by_o know_v his_o own_o vileness_n he_o learn_v to_o justify_v god_n in_o every_o cross_n his_o spirit_n be_v generous_a and_o noble_a like_o that_o of_o the_o eagle_n which_o be_v not_o clamorous_a when_o it_o want_v food_n he_o study_v passive_a obedience_n as_o well_o as_o active_a to_o be_v well-pleased_n with_o what_o god_n do_v as_o well_o as_o to_o do_v what_o be_v well-pleasing_a to_o god_n he_o have_v a_o fit_a disposition_n for_o the_o cross_n which_o make_v that_o easy_a to_o he_o which_o seem_v into_o llerable_a to_o other_o as_o he_o dare_v not_o make_v man_n lord_n of_o his_o faith_n so_o neither_o of_o his_o happiness_n by_o dote_v on_o their_o smile_n or_o fear_v their_o frown_n but_o as_o worldly_a man_n content_v themselves_o with_o the_o world_n without_o god_n so_o he_o endeavour_v to_o content_v himself_o with_o god_n without_o the_o world_n he_o have_v his_o present_n want_v supply_v by_o ordinary_a or_o extraordinary_a mean_n and_o therefore_o conceive_v light_v his_o duty_n to_o trust_v god_n for_o the_o future_a he_o know_v he_o have_v more_o of_o the_o creature_n than_o he_o deserve_v and_o therefore_o be_v not_o anxious_a about_o have_v more_o he_o be_v much_o take_v up_o about_o the_o weighty_a thing_n of_o eternity_n and_o therefore_o little_o concern_v about_o these_o low_a thing_n he_o have_v many_o generous_a and_o noble_a disposition_n but_o no_o one_o appear_v more_o illustrious_a and_o visible_a in_o he_o god_n his_o zeal_n for_o god_n after_o his_o conversion_n than_o zeal_n for_o his_o master_n service_n and_o the_o good_a of_o soul_n oh_o what_o a_o rare_a and_o excellent_a quality_n be_v a_o public_a spirit_n for_o god_n and_o how_o much_o be_v this_o holy_a man_n invest_v herewith_o how_o little_o do_v his_o flamen_n zeal_n care_n to_o live_v when_o the_o honour_n of_o his_o great_a lord_n seem_v to_o bleed_v and_o die_v what_o a_o meek_a and_o patient_a spirit_n have_v he_o as_o to_o injury_n do_v unto_o himself_o and_o yet_o how_o impatient_a and_o zealous_a be_v he_o as_o to_o injury_n do_v unto_o his_o lord_n how_o modest_a and_o backward_o be_v he_o in_o his_o own_o cause_n and_o yet_o how_o magnanimous_a and_o forward_a in_o the_o cause_n of_o god_n how_o little_o be_v it_o in_o the_o power_n of_o the_o great_a man_n to_o frown_v he_o out_o of_o duty_n or_o flatter_v he_o into_o sin_n what_o a_o masculine_a courage_n