towards_o i_o i_o be_o much_o grieve_v at_o the_o coldness_n and_o the_o carelessness_n of_o my_o affection_n towards_o thou_o each_o object_n of_o charity_n be_v a_o opportunity_n of_o mercy_n if_o i_o neglect_v it_o i_o be_o unkind_a to_o thou_o my_o saviour_n cruel_a to_o my_o neighbour_n injurious_a to_o i_o own_o soul_n i_o be_o not_o â—ord_n but_o steward_n of_o thy_o outward_a blessing_n and_o it_o be_v now_o just_a with_o thou_o to_o call_v i_o to_o a_o strict_a account_n if_o any_o of_o thy_o saint_n suffer_v which_o thou_o send_v unto_o i_o for_o relief_n their_o suffering_n thou_o will_v sure_o require_v at_o my_o hand_n as_o each_o cup_n of_o cold_a water_n which_o i_o have_v give_v in_o thy_o name_n shall_v not_o lose_v its_o reward_n so_o each_o farthing_n which_o i_o owe_v unto_o thou_o in_o thy_o member_n will_v assure_o require_v its_o everlasting_a punishment_n i_o have_v be_v too_o careful_o solicitous_a for_o the_o thing_n of_o this_o life_n too_o cares_o 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to_o thy_o precept_n but_o from_o my_o unbelief_n of_o thy_o promise_n thou_o bid_v i_o give_v and_o have_v promise_v it_o shall_v be_v give_v unto_o i_o good_a measure_n shake_v together_o press_v down_o and_o run_v over_o luke_n 6.38_o thou_o command_v i_o not_o to_o be_v weary_a in_o well_o do_v and_o have_v promise_v that_o in_o due_a time_n i_o shall_v reap_v if_o i_o faint_v noâ—_n ephes_n 6.9_o if_o i_o do_v believe_v the_o one_o i_o shall_v glad_o perform_v the_o other_o and_o who_o word_n shall_v i_o take_v lord_n if_o i_o dare_v to_o question_v thou_o all_o thy_o bless_a promise_n be_v yea_o and_o amen_o the_o begin_n sweet_a the_o end_n certain_a as_o thou_o have_v a_o bottle_n for_o my_o tear_n and_o a_o bag_n for_o my_o transgression_n so_o thou_o have_v also_o a_o book_n for_o my_o alms-deed_n act_n 10.4_o not_o one_o of_o they_o shall_v be_v forget_v but_o even_o the_o very_a lest_o of_o they_o shall_v be_v gracious_o accept_v glorious_o reward_v not_o for_o my_o work_n sake_n but_o for_o thy_o promise_n sake_n no_o for_o my_o own_o sake_n but_o for_o my_o saviour_n sake_n lord_n i_o can_v merit_v nothing_o at_o thy_o hand_n but_o by_o thy_o own_o mercy_n and_o now_o lord_n let_v i_o examine_v what_o i_o have_v gain_v by_o my_o want_n of_o charity_n i_o have_v exchange_v heaven_n to_o enjoy_v earth_n i_o have_v part_v with_o thou_o my_o saviour_n in_o who_o be_v all_o the_o treasure_n that_o be_v true_a and_o crernall_a for_o the_o very_o base_a part_n of_o earth_n which_o be_v vain_a and_o uncertain_a i_o have_v lose_v those_o bless_a opportunity_n of_o do_v good_a which_o can_v never_o be_v recall_v and_o together_o with_o they_o those_o reward_n of_o thou_o which_o shall_v never_o be_v enjoy_v i_o have_v offend_v thou_o my_o god_n grieve_v thy_o saint_n burden_a i_o own_o conscience_n and_o be_v a_o utter_a enemy_n to_o my_o own_o salvation_n as_o my_o affection_n have_v be_v freeze_v towards_o other_o so_o have_v i_o just_o find_v the_o gift_n and_o grace_n of_o thy_o holy_a spirit_n decay_v daily_o in_o my_o own_o soul_n my_o love_n cold_a to_o thy_o law_n my_o ear_n deaf_a to_o thy_o precept_n my_o mouth_n dumb_a to_o thy_o praise_n my_o faith_n dead_a to_o thy_o promise_n my_o hope_n faint_v my_o zeal_n languish_v my_o joy_n perish_v these_o be_v the_o sad_a and_o sure_a effect_n of_o want_n of_o charity_n the_o beginning_n sinful_a the_o progress_n dangerous_a the_o end_n desperate_a lord_n if_o those_o heavenly_a spirit_n who_o very_a name_n import_v their_o ardency_n of_o love_n to_o thy_o glory_n be_v yet_o find_v cold_a enough_o in_o thy_o sight_n with_o what_o horror_n and_o confusion_n of_o face_n will_v those_o wretched_a soul_n appear_v before_o thou_o who_o have_v not_o be_v so_o much_o as_o lukewarm_a in_o thy_o service_n by_o thy_o grace_n lord_n i_o will_v therefore_o henceforth_o make_v a_o godly_a improvement_n of_o all_o future_a opportunity_n of_o do_v good_a wharsoever_o thy_o allowance_n be_v unto_o i_o of_o these_o outward_a blessing_n i_o will_v dedicate_v some_o due_a proportion_n of_o it_o unto_o work_n of_o mercy_n and_o cheerful_o and_o thankful_o trust_v thou_o my_o god_n with_o the_o sustentation_n of_o my_o body_n upon_o who_o bless_a protection_n i_o safe_o rely_v for_o the_o eternal_a preservation_n of_o my_o soul_n my_o heart_n my_o hand_n my_o tongue_n my_o action_n shall_v be_v always_o ready_a to_o relieve_v the_o necessity_n to_o promote_v the_o good_a of_o thy_o child_n and_o as_o this_o happy_a resolution_n have_v have_v its_o beginning_n from_o thy_o grace_n so_o shall_v its_o aim_n be_v whole_o at_o thy_o glory_n bless_a lord_n such_o be_v thy_o gracious_a goodness_n unto_o thou_o that_o thou_o even_o prevent_a they_o with_o thy_o blessing_n while_o they_o call_v upon_o thou_o thou_o be_v ready_a to_o answer_v and_o before_o they_o speak_v unto_o thou_o thou_o be_v willing_a to_o hear_v lord_n i_o be_o thy_o child_n and_o be_o therefore_o bold_a to_o crave_v a_o 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my_o deadness_n and_o my_o dulness_n unto_o work_n of_o mercy_n repair_v my_o sinful_a breach_n by_o thy_o present_a grace_n o_o let_v the_o fervour_n of_o my_o future_a charity_n become_v a_o please_a sacrifice_n to_o expiate_v my_o former_a misery_n to_o reconcile_v my_o soul_n in_o christ_n to_o endless_a mercy_n amen_n chap._n 37._o upon_o the_o deceitfulness_n of_o the_o heart_n in_o the_o performance_n of_o holy_a duty_n nothing_o be_v more_o common_a among_o christian_n than_o to_o be_v delude_v by_o the_o show_n of_o holy_a action_n the_o heart_n of_o man_n be_v deceitful_a above_o all_o thing_n who_o can_v know_v it_o holy_a performance_n be_v usual_o accompany_v with_o hellish_a temptation_n when_o the_o ship_n of_o our_o soul_n be_v under_o sail_n and_o have_v the_o fresh_a way_n for_o heaven_n we_o have_v then_o most_o need_v to_o look_v to_o our_o steerage_n to_o have_v a_o eye_n to_o the_o compass_n and_o landmark_n which_o of_o our_o holy_a duty_n which_o be_v the_o ship_n we_o sail_v in_o to_o the_o port_n of_o happiness_n have_v not_o their_o rock_n to_o split_v upon_o or_o remoraes_n to_o hinder_v they_o or_o cross_a wind_n to_o divert_v they_o or_o leak_n to_o sink_v they_o or_o sea_n to_o overwhelm_v they_o when_o we_o arrive_v at_o any_o small_a measure_n of_o goodness_n we_o many_o time_n rest_v in_o it_o and_o grow_v secure_a upon_o it_o if_o grace_n carry_v we_o on_o far_a we_o be_v too_o apt_a to_o believe_v that_o we_o be_v far_o better_o than_o our_o neighbour_n that_o we_o be_v high_o in_o god_n favour_n and_o can_v but_o deserve_v his_o fatherly_a protection_n his_o liberal_a remuneration_n and_o so_o by_o this_o secret_a insinuation_n of_o pride_n in_o our_o heart_n we_o have_v
worst_a room_n in_o thy_o house_n be_v too_o good_a even_o for_o the_o best_a of_o we_o yet_o decency_n of_o place_n may_v be_v take_v with_o modesty_n if_o not_o seek_v with_o emulation_n during_o the_o time_n of_o this_o holy_a dispensation_n i_o will_v call_v my_o thought_n unto_o a_o strict_a attendance_n and_o make_v it_o part_n of_o my_o precedent_a prayer_n that_o i_o may_v satan_n be_v ever_o most_o busy_a when_o our_o intention_n be_v most_o holy_a which_o when_o he_o can_v divert_v he_o labour_v to_o corrupt_v and_o by_o this_o mean_n when_o i_o desire_v to_o grow_v better_a i_o become_v worse_o how_o careful_a ought_v i_o to_o be_v to_o avoid_v his_o cunning_n who_o can_v cozen_v i_o in_o my_o best_a action_n my_o soul_n shall_v more_o delight_v itself_o with_o the_o matter_n than_o my_o ear_n with_o the_o melody_n of_o thy_o sacred_a note_n church-music_n will_v be_v then_o true_o sweet_a unto_o i_o when_o my_o outward_a joy_n be_v subservient_fw-fr to_o my_o inward_a man_n sinful_a weakness_n shall_v not_o make_v i_o slight_v thy_o holy_a ordinance_n if_o my_o pastor_n have_v fail_n i_o will_v pity_v and_o pray_v for_o he_o but_o not_o despise_v he_o if_o i_o look_v into_o my_o own_o soul_n i_o shall_v there_o find_v work_n enough_o to_o repair_v my_o own_o ruin_n this_o lord_n shall_v rather_o move_v i_o to_o extol_v thy_o mercy_n in_o uphold_v my_o own_o step_n to_o lament_v the_o sadness_n of_o my_o brother_n misery_n lord_n let_v i_o never_o think_v myself_o better_a than_o another_o because_o i_o know_v not_o how_o soon_o i_o may_v become_v worse_o i_o shall_v willing_o continue_v in_o that_o fold_n where_o thou_o have_v place_v i_o and_o hope_v to_o remain_v there_o with_o comfort_n till_o thou_o shall_v lead_v i_o out_o with_o safety_n while_o i_o be_o at_o thy_o feed_n i_o be_o happy_a one_o of_o thy_o morsel_n well_o digest_v with_o humility_n and_o thankfulness_n will_v yield_v i_o better_a nourishment_n than_o that_o other_o food_n of_o my_o own_o find_n the_o very_o mean_a of_o thy_o minister_n may_v afford_v i_o patience_n and_o that_o heavenly_a grace_n with_o thy_o blessing_n to_o boot_v be_v a_o great_a advantage_n if_o i_o receive_v thy_o sacred_a word_n with_o cheerfulness_n with_o earnestness_n of_o heart_n my_o obedience_n shall_v be_v accept_v my_o zeal_n reward_v while_o i_o be_o within_o thy_o wall_n i_o shall_v account_v that_o gesture_n most_o decent_a that_o be_v most_o humble_a and_o those_o ceremony_n most_o necessary_a that_o be_v most_o suitable_a to_o obedience_n all_o matter_n of_o doctrine_n which_o be_v necessary_a to_o salvation_n ought_v to_o be_v guide_v by_o thy_o sacred_a word_n which_o be_v the_o only_a rule_n of_o faith_n all_o matter_n of_o discipline_n which_o be_v necessary_a only_o to_o obedience_n be_v therefore_o leave_v to_o thy_o church_n care_n that_o as_o thou_o be_v one_o so_o thy_o church_n may_v be_v one_o in_o that_o bless_a union_n of_o love_n which_o be_v the_o bond_n of_o peace_n and_o now_o o_o lord_n if_o thou_o shall_v call_v i_o to_o a_o strict_a account_n for_o all_o my_o misdemeanour_n in_o thy_o sacred_a worship_n with_o what_o confusion_n of_o face_n must_v â—needs_o appear_v before_o thou_o how_o many_o evil_a suggestion_n how_o many_o idle_a imagination_n how_o many_o sinful_a object_n have_v i_o often_o entertain_v to_o divert_v my_o thought_n from_o thy_o service_n i_o have_v too_o often_o sin_v in_o absent_v thy_o house_n but_o more_o often_o and_o more_o grievous_o in_o frequent_v it_o by_o come_v careless_o and_o out_o of_o custom_n by_o unbeseeming_a gesture_n cold_a prayer_n heartless_a hear_n profane_a scoff_a curious_a censure_v and_o even_o in_o the_o best_a of_o my_o performance_n by_o serve_v thou_o my_o god_n by_o half_n all_o this_o i_o hearty_o bewail_v and_o earnest_o desire_v thy_o pardon_n and_o forgiveness_n for_o it_o lord_n let_v this_o day_n rest_n of_o my_o body_n bring_v to_o my_o remembrance_n that_o eternal_a rest_n of_o my_o soul_n let_v i_o not_o now_o think_v my_o own_o thought_n speak_v my_o own_o word_n do_v my_o own_o action_n but_o come_v before_o thou_o with_o a_o sanctify_a and_o humble_a soul_n with_o a_o wound_a and_o contrite_a spirit_n repel_v all_o evil_a suggestion_n remove_v all_o idle_a imagination_n divert_v all_o sinful_a object_n enlighten_v my_o understanding_n rectify_v my_o will_n strengthen_v my_o memory_n subdue_v my_o affection_n that_o i_o may_v rejoice_v in_o thy_o love_n delight_n in_o thy_o law_n long_o for_o thy_o presence_n rely_v on_o thy_o promise_n thirst_v for_o thy_o grace_n and_o be_v for_o ever_o bless_v in_o thy_o glory_n amen_n chap._n 6._o upon_o our_o return_v from_o god_n house_n and_o the_o neglect_n of_o private_a duty_n lord_n he_o that_o know_v thou_o will_v undoubted_o delight_v to_o serve_v thou_o if_o i_o call_v thy_o sabbath_n a_o delight_n my_o thought_n in_o this_o day_n will_v be_v pure_a my_o word_n gracious_a my_o action_n holy_a that_o soul_n which_o can_v joyful_o familiarize_v itself_o with_o thou_o in_o this_o life_n may_v well_o be_v fearful_a to_o be_v see_v of_o thou_o in_o that_o to_o come_v when_o i_o serious_o consider_v what_o a_o rich_a favour_n i_o enjoy_v how_o great_a a_o distance_n i_o be_o at_o from_o thou_o my_o god_n how_o sweet_a a_o mercy_n thou_o afforde_o i_o to_o speak_v unto_o thou_o i_o can_v but_o confess_v my_o own_o unworthiness_n if_o i_o regard_v not_o what_o i_o hear_v if_o i_o rejoice_v not_o to_o recall_v thy_o bless_a word_n to_o my_o remembrance_n how_o dreadful_a be_v that_o voice_n that_o speak_v in_o thunder_n and_o how_o severe_a the_o word_n that_o then_o be_v speak_v how_o bless_a be_v this_o still_a music_n of_o the_o gospel_n and_o how_o delightful_a to_o my_o wound_a spirit_n lord_n let_v this_o raise_v my_o soul_n above_o the_o reach_n of_o earthly_a vanity_n let_v this_o encourage_v i_o to_o heavenly_a chearfullnesse_n in_o heavenly_a duty_n to_o be_v joyful_a in_o read_v fervent_a in_o prayer_n frequent_a in_o meditation_n constant_a in_o all_o that_o knowledge_n will_v make_v woeful_o wise_a which_o teach_v i_o to_o know_v and_o not_o to_o do_v thy_o will_n meditation_n be_v the_o life_n of_o hear_v practise_v the_o life_n of_o meditation_n and_o a_o sincere_a heart_n the_o life_n of_o practice_n when_o i_o look_v into_o my_o life_n past_a i_o find_v it_o to_o be_v all_o sin_n when_o i_o consider_v of_o my_o life_n present_a i_o can_v but_o confess_v it_o to_o be_v all_o shame_n i_o be_o still_o so_o far_o from_o grow_v better_a that_o i_o be_o become_v much_o worse_o this_o be_v that_o bless_a day_n which_o concern_v my_o peace_n if_o i_o embrace_v not_o this_o happy_a opportunity_n i_o may_v just_o fear_v these_o gracious_a offer_n will_v be_v hide_v for_o ever_o from_o my_o eye_n each_o word_n that_o i_o hear_v thy_o day_n be_v of_o weight_n if_o i_o become_v not_o more_o holy_a by_o my_o heavenly_a improvement_n by_o it_o i_o shall_v certain_o 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but_o behold_v i_o in_o the_o beauty_n and_o perfection_n of_o thy_o blessed_a son_n teach_v i_o o_o lord_n to_o see_v the_o rebellion_n of_o my_o own_o wicked_a heart_n by_o his_o perfect_a obedience_n my_o sinfulness_n by_o his_o righteousness_n my_o misery_n by_o his_o mercy_n forgive_v my_o many_o and_o sinful_a compliance_n of_o nature_n which_o have_v make_v i_o a_o stranger_n to_o thy_o grace_n and_o my_o own_o happiness_n the_o great_a neglect_n of_o my_o obedience_n unto_o thy_o command_n have_v just_o call_v for_o the_o great_a and_o heavy_a load_n of_o my_o affliction_n the_o careless_a withdraw_n of_o my_o affection_n from_o thou_o my_o god_n have_v occasion_v the_o sad_a departing_n of_o thy_o holy_a spirit_n from_o i_o o_o that_o my_o loss_n of_o tear_n
labour_v to_o be_v powerful_a in_o my_o prayer_n to_o study_v to_o be_v humble_a zealous_a earnest_a even_o importunate_a in_o my_o devotion_n to_o let_v no_o sinful_a thought_n pass_v i_o without_o a_o sigh_n no_o sinful_a action_n without_o holy_a contrition_n no_o divine_a favour_n without_o devout_a and_o thankful_a acknowledgement_n that_o soul_n which_o be_v true_o sensible_a of_o the_o burden_n of_o sin_n will_v hasten_v unto_o that_o heavenly_a help_n that_o can_v give_v it_o ease_v and_o that_o heart_n which_o be_v once_o true_o inflame_v with_o thy_o love_n will_v ready_o instruct_v â—he_n tongue_n to_o be_v zealous_a in_o thy_o praise_n lord_n let_v i_o first_o seek_v my_o own_o heart_n before_o i_o presume_v to_o come_v before_o thy_o mercy_n seat_n lest_o if_o i_o recall_v it_o not_o from_o the_o vanity_n of_o this_o life_n my_o very_a prayer_n become_v sin_n and_o so_o while_o i_o expect_v a_o blessing_n i_o deserve_v a_o curse_n let_v no_o vain_a excuse_n no_o barren_a pretence_n of_o this_o life_n persuade_v i_o to_o intermit_v this_o holy_a duty_n lest_o carelessness_n and_o coldness_n in_o devotion_n beget_v in_o i_o a_o loathe_n of_o that_o course_n which_o by_o constant_a practice_n will_v become_v my_o constant_a comfort_n i_o ord_n make_v i_o to_o consider_v of_o the_o sweetness_n of_o the_o excellency_n of_o this_o gift_n that_o i_o may_v daily_o labour_v to_o improve_v it_o to_o my_o soul_n eternal_a happiness_n that_o when_o i_o often_o fall_v as_o i_o needs_o must_v through_o the_o weakness_n of_o the_o flesh_n thou_o o_o lord_n in_o mercy_n may_v restore_v i_o through_o my_o bless_a importunity_n of_o spirit_n with_o grief_n of_o heart_n lord_n i_o confess_v that_o my_o great_a neglect_n of_o this_o holy_a duty_n have_v most_o just_o occasion_v the_o great_a abatement_n of_o thy_o holy_a spirit_n in_o i_o and_o long_a withholding_n of_o thy_o outward_a blessing_n from_o i_o lord_n give_v i_o yet_o a_o heart_n to_o serve_v thou_o and_o then_o take_v from_o i_o what_o thou_o will_v i_o desire_v nothing_o with_o out_o thou_o for_o i_o know_v assuredy_o that_o with_o thou_o i_o can_v but_o enjoy_v all_o thing_n needful_a for_o i_o o_o make_v i_o to_o bewail_v my_o own_o unworthiness_n my_o drownsiness_n my_o dulness_n my_o carelessness_n my_o much_o untowardness_n in_o thy_o service_n create_v in_o i_o a_o clean_a heart_n o_o lord_n and_o renew_v a_o right_a spirit_n within_o i_o that_o i_o may_v praise_v thou_o with_o alacrity_n and_o fervency_n of_o soul_n that_o i_o may_v be_v daily_o ravish_v with_o contemplation_n of_o eternity_n and_o hourly_o satisfy_v my_o thought_n with_o apprehension_n of_o the_o sweetness_n of_o my_o present_a safety_n of_o my_o future_a glory_n lord_n make_v i_o every_o day_n more_o earnest_a in_o this_o holy_a duty_n o_o give_v i_o such_o affectionate_a desire_n such_o holy_a long_n such_o insatiate_a appetite_n such_o earnest_a importunity_n of_o heart_n for_o heavenly_a grace_n that_o i_o may_v not_o only_o beg_v of_o thou_o but_o even_o wrestle_v with_o thou_o for_o this_o blessing_n although_o the_o sinful_a desire_n of_o my_o corrupt_a flesh_n go_v halt_v to_o the_o grave_n be_v merciful_a unto_o i_o o_o lord_n for_o my_o soul_n trust_v in_o thou_o and_o in_o the_o shadow_n of_o thy_o wing_n will_v i_o make_v my_o refuge_n until_o these_o calamity_n of_o sin_n and_o misery_n be_v overpast_v lord_n hear_v the_o voice_n of_o my_o humble_a petition_n when_o i_o cry_v unto_o thou_o when_o i_o hold_v up_o my_o hand_n towards_o thy_o mercy_n seat_n show_v thy_o servant_n the_o light_n of_o thy_o countenance_n and_o save_v i_o for_o thy_o mercy_n sake_n ps_n 28.2_o ps_n 31.18_o chap._n 31._o upon_o the_o great_a neglect_n of_o read_v the_o sacred_a scripture_n alas_o my_o soul_n how_o unbeseeming_a thy_o profession_n be_v this_o thy_o backwardness_n to_o holy_a duty_n how_o long_o will_v thou_o grovel_v on_o this_o element_n of_o earth_n how_o long_o be_v cheat_v with_o these_o counterfeit_a commodity_n these_o childish_a toy_n of_o outward_a enjoyment_n what_o sweetness_n can_v thou_o find_v in_o those_o thing_n which_o favour_n of_o corruption_n what_o comfort_n in_o those_o joy_n which_o be_v but_o vain_a vexatious_a toilsome_a transitory_a who_o seem_a beauty_n be_v sudden_o pass_v never_o return_v o_o let_v this_o move_v thou_o to_o delight_v in_o that_o which_o can_v pass_v to_o remember_v whence_o thou_o be_v and_o whether_o thou_o be_v go_v that_o thou_o may_v thereby_o raise_v thy_o thought_n to_o immortality_n look_v upon_o the_o beauty_n of_o those_o sacred_a leaf_n and_o thou_o will_v loathe_v the_o falsehood_n of_o this_o world_n embrace_n thou_o may_v there_o find_v the_o sum_n of_o all_o that_o be_v or_o be_v or_o be_v to_o come_v conduce_v to_o thy_o real_a happiness_n there_o be_v nature_n unbowel_v hell_n open_v and_o heaven_n unveil_v thou_o may_v there_o see_v the_o creature_n to_o be_v vanity_n thyself_o misery_n thy_o saviour_n felicity_n thou_o have_v there_o his_o counsel_n to_o guide_v thou_o his_o wisdom_n to_o instruct_v thou_o his_o power_n to_o sustain_v thou_o his_o gift_n to_o encourage_v thou_o his_o threaten_n to_o admonish_v thou_o his_o mercy_n to_o allure_v thou_o his_o judgement_n to_o deter_v thou_o his_o holy_a spirit_n to_o comfort_v thou_o there_o be_v antiquity_n strangeness_n truth_n in_o history_n wonder_v in_o miracle_n amazement_n in_o prophecy_n foundness_n in_o precept_n sweetness_n in_o promise_n each_o syllable_n contain_v in_o this_o book_n be_v matter_n of_o eternal_a moment_n take_v heed_n therefore_o that_o thou_o pass_v by_o no_o portion_n of_o thâ—s_n sacred_a volume_n light_o nor_o prye_v into_o any_o presumptuous_o holy_a diligence_n be_v often_o blessed_v with_o heavenly_a knowledge_n and_o humble_a ignorance_n with_o heavenly_a grace_n lord_n see_v that_o thy_o word_n be_v in_o itself_o so_o excellent_o rich_a and_o in_o its_o use_n so_o absolute_o good_a with_o what_o earnestness_n of_o soul_n ought_v i_o to_o embrace_v it_o with_o what_o holy_a diligence_n peruse_v it_o with_o what_o devout_a cheerfulness_n and_o constancy_n of_o heart_n apply_v myself_o unto_o it_o these_o high_a perfectiou_n shall_v religious_o oblige_v i_o to_o repair_v my_o former_a neglect_n by_o my_o present_a promise_n of_o my_o future_a performance_n no_o day_n shall_v henceforth_o pass_v i_o without_o some_o time_n allot_v for_o this_o holy_a exercise_n custoâ—_n will_v make_v it_o easy_a profit_n sweet_a if_o the_o troublesome_a affair_n of_o this_o lise_fw-fr do_v sometime_o to_o my_o soul_n grief_n disturb_v i_o in_o it_o by_o thy_o grace_n assist_v they_o shall_v never_o divert_v i_o from_o it_o what_o be_v borrow_v from_o this_o bless_a task_n by_o enforce_a necessity_n shall_v be_v repay_v with_o advantage_n by_o the_o next_o happy_a opportunity_n lord_n all_o be_v but_o vanity_n and_o mere_a nothing_o in_o compare_n of_o thou_o and_o thy_o service_n if_o i_o can_v be_v willing_o holy_a i_o shall_v never_o be_v joyful_o happy_a bless_a lord_n so_o sanctify_v my_o sinful_a soul_n that_o i_o may_v joyful_o perform_v those_o promise_n i_o make_v unto_o thou_o that_o i_o may_v daily_o dedicate_v some_o part_n and_o portion_n of_o my_o sinful_a hour_n to_o read_v some_o portion_n of_o thy_o sacred_a scripture_n o_o let_v they_o ever_o be_v the_o joy_n of_o my_o joy_n the_o life_n of_o my_o life_n the_o light_n of_o my_o eye_n and_o comfort_n of_o my_o heart_n lord_n turn_v away_o my_o eye_n from_o these_o outward_a enjoyment_n lest_o they_o behold_v vanity_n and_o quicken_v i_o in_o thy_o way_n give_v i_o a_o humble_a soul_n that_o i_o may_v read_v thy_o bless_a line_n with_o holy_a fear_n and_o awful_a reverence_n that_o i_o may_v be_v pious_o delight_v with_o they_o and_o happy_o instruct_v by_o they_o give_v i_o a_o discern_a soul_n that_o i_o may_v see_v the_o wonderful_a thing_n of_o thy_o law_n that_o i_o may_v true_o love_v it_o and_o delight_n in_o it_o that_o my_o heart_n may_v be_v inflame_v by_o it_o and_o my_o tongue_n be_v ever_o talk_v of_o it_o o_o let_v thy_o statute_n be_v my_o song_n in_o the_o house_n of_o my_o pilgrimage_n that_o i_o may_v walk_v in_o thy_o way_n with_o constancy_n that_o i_o may_v run_v in_o thy_o race_n with_o fervency_n amen_n chap._n 32._o upon_o the_o neglect_n of_o divine_a meditation_n what_o do_v thou_o here_o on_o earth_n o_o my_o soul_n why_o be_v thou_o so_o perplex_v with_o the_o care_n and_o sorrow_n of_o this_o sinful_a life_n so_o careless_a of_o the_o joy_n in_o that_o to_o come_v who_o can_v judge_v he_o likely_a to_o inherit_v heaven_n that_o love_v not_o to_o think_v of_o it_o thou_o may_v measure_v thy_o degree_n of_o grace_n by_o thy_o desire_n of_o glory_n if_o thy_o thought_n be_v not_o often_o and_o earnest_o take_v up_o
that_o as_o our_o sin_n have_v provoke_v thou_o to_o anger_n so_o our_o tear_n may_v move_v thou_o to_o compassion_n that_o thy_o mercy_n may_v be_v magnify_v our_o misery_n relieve_v our_o sorrow_n comfort_v o_o let_v not_o these_o bitter_a aggravation_n of_o thy_o judgement_n extort_v from_o we_o the_o least_o measure_n of_o impatience_n nor_o beget_v in_o we_o the_o least_o degree_n of_o distrust_n let_v we_o neither_o complain_v of_o thy_o justice_n nor_o despair_n of_o thy_o mercy_n but_o quiet_o and_o thankful_o rely_v upon_o thou_o and_o in_o thy_o bless_a hour_n enjoy_v a_o sweet_a enlargement_n by_o thou_o lord_n pity_v the_o forlorn_a condition_n of_o thy_o son_n and_o daughter_n in_o affliction_n repair_v their_o outward_a loss_n by_o thy_o inward_a grace_n that_o what_o be_v want_v to_o they_o of_o these_o earthly_a comfort_n may_v be_v abundant_o supply_v in_o thy_o heavenly_a joy_n forgive_v the_o great_a disturber_n of_o the_o peace_n of_o this_o thy_o zion_n lord_n open_a their_o eye_n that_o they_o may_v see_v how_o much_o they_o have_v err_v from_o thy_o way_n lord_n sanctify_v their_o heart_n that_o they_o may_v speedy_o return_v unto_o thou_o and_o be_v for_o ever_o gracious_o accept_v of_o thou_o o_o that_o thou_o will_v give_v we_o one_o heart_n and_o one_o voice_n that_o we_o may_v serve_v thou_o without_o cease_v that_o we_o may_v be_v all_o true_o humble_v before_o thou_o and_o true_o joyful_a in_o thou_o restore_v i_o for_o thy_o rich_a mercy_n sake_n unto_o that_o bless_a union_n of_o love_n which_o be_v the_o bond_n of_o peace_n that_o as_o thou_o our_o god_n art_n one_o so_o thy_o distress_a church_n may_v be_v one_o thy_o divide_a people_n one_o their_o wish_n and_o desire_n their_o prayer_n and_o tear_n their_o action_n and_o endeavour_n one_o for_o thy_o glory_n the_o church_n safety_n and_o the_o nation_n happiness_n that_o we_o may_v have_v peace_n with_o thou_o our_o god_n peace_n with_o our_o enemy_n peace_n with_o our_o own_o 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our_o sin_n and_o thou_o alone_o be_v able_a to_o relieve_v we_o to_o thou_o therefore_o we_o address_v our_o sinful_a soul_n for_o mercy_n and_o forgiveness_n o_o thou_o that_o be_v the_o bless_a shepherd_n of_o our_o err_a soul_n that_o come_v into_o the_o world_n to_o seek_v and_o to_o save_v those_o that_o be_v lose_v have_v mercy_n upon_o we_o o_o thou_o that_o have_v espouse_v we_o unto_o thyself_o and_o have_v give_v we_o thy_o love_n have_v mercy_n upon_o we_o o_o thou_o that_o call_v we_o to_o come_v unto_o thou_o and_o embrace_v we_o when_o we_o be_v come_v receive_v our_o prayer_n lord_n give_v we_o prepare_v heart_n to_o meet_v thou_o in_o this_o holy_a duty_n quicken_v our_o benumb_a soul_n with_o holy_a fervency_n that_o our_o devotion_n may_v ascend_v unto_o thy_o gracious_a presence_n lord_n thou_o have_v promise_v to_o be_v near_o unto_o all_o those_o which_o call_v upon_o thou_o with_o sincerity_n and_o faithfulness_n of_o heart_n for_o thy_o bless_a promise_n sake_n we_o most_o humble_o beseech_v thou_o let_v our_o humiliation_n be_v comfortable_a our_o prayer_n acceptable_a in_o full_a assurance_n of_o the_o sweetness_n of_o thy_o mercy_n towards_o we_o we_o be_v now_o bold_a to_o become_v petitioner_n unto_o thou_o for_o this_o thy_o sick_a servant_n who_o life_n be_v draw_v near_o unto_o the_o grave_n blessed_a lord_n god_n it_o be_v thou_o that_o kill_v and_o make_v alive_a that_o bring_v down_o to_o hell_n and_o raise_v up_o again_o we_o most_o meek_o beseech_v thou_o therefore_o for_o thy_o rich_a and_o tender_a love_n sake_n to_o thy_o elect_n to_o mitigate_v that_o bitter_a curse_n which_o thou_o have_v lay_v upon_o we_o all_o in_o adam_n lord_n look_v upon_o his_o affliction_n and_o his_o travail_n and_o forgive_v he_o all_o his_o sin_n give_v he_o sure_a patience_n to_o endure_v with_o meekness_n whatsoever_o thou_o be_v please_v to_o inflict_v upon_o he_o lord_n lay_v no_o more_o upon_o his_o feeble_a body_n than_o thou_o shall_v make_v he_o able_a for_o to_o bear_v impose_v no_o more_o upon_o his_o wound_a spirit_n than_o thou_o in_o mercy_n shall_v support_v he_o under_o forsake_v he_o not_o o_o lord_n our_o god_n be_v not_o thou_o far_o from_o he_o let_v he_o remember_v that_o this_o chastisement_n of_o thou_o be_v common_a to_o thy_o dear_a child_n that_o thou_o hide_v thy_o face_n from_o he_o but_o for_o a_o small_a moment_n but_o with_o everlasting_a kindness_n thou_o will_v have_v mercy_n on_o he_o lord_n settle_v and_o compose_v his_o thought_n for_o thy_o kingdom_n let_v no_o disturbance_n of_o this_o life_n distract_v those_o bless_a meditation_n which_o invite_v the_o weary_a soul_n to_o rest_n and_o quietness_n let_v he_o now_o see_v and_o joyful_o believe_v that_o thou_o will_v order_v all_o these_o outward_a thing_n to_o thy_o own_o glory_n and_o the_o good_a of_o those_o that_o have_v relation_n to_o he_o let_v he_o free_o forgive_v all_o injury_n on_o earth_n and_o hearty_o desire_v to_o meet_v his_o 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cast_v himself_o upon_o the_o righteousness_n of_o he_o in_o who_o alone_o thy_o wrath_n be_v full_o satisfy_v lord_n give_v he_o a_o serious_a and_o a_o true_a remorse_n of_o conscience_n for_o his_o many_o and_o his_o great_a offence_n lord_n jesus_n grant_v that_o they_o may_v not_o now_o appear_v unto_o the_o terror_n and_o amazement_n of_o his_o sinful_a soul_n o_o let_v he_o now_o remember_v that_o it_o be_v thy_o precious_a blood_n which_o purge_v he_o from_o all_o iniquity_n that_o thou_o o_o bless_a saviour_n be_v become_v unto_o he_o righteousness_n and_o holiness_n and_o sanctification_n and_o redemption_n lord_n comfort_n and_o assist_v he_o in_o this_o last_o and_o great_a trial_n of_o his_o faith_n and_o because_o the_o sensible_a decay_n of_o his_o infirm_a body_n and_o the_o violent_a disturbance_n of_o his_o sickness_n will_v not_o suffer_v he_o to_o call_v upon_o thou_o with_o digestednesse_n of_o mind_n and_o quietness_n of_o spirit_n we_o therefore_o humble_o pray_v thou_o to_o sustain_v and_o comfort_v he_o even_o in_o his_o great_a weakness_n and_o extremity_n bless_a god_n let_v the_o sorrowful_a sigh_v of_o thy_o sick_a prisoner_n now_o come_v before_o thou_o o_o let_v thy_o bless_a spirit_n which_o be_v in_o he_o put_v up_o humble_a supplication_n to_o the_o father_n for_o he_o o_o satisfy_v he_o with_o thy_o mercy_n and_o that_o soon_o let_v those_o happy_a sigh_n and_o groan_n which_o can_v be_v express_v become_v a_o please_a sacrifice_n of_o thankfulness_n to_o thou_o and_o a_o sweet_a savour_n of_o eternal_a rest_n to_o his_o depart_a soul_n o_o thou_o that_o be_v the_o god_n of_o power_n protect_v he_o from_o the_o fury_n of_o that_o roar_a lion_n who_o be_v now_o seek_v to_o devour_v he_o o_o thou_o that_o be_v the_o bless_a saviour_n of_o the_o sinful_a world_n compassionate_a his_o
therefore_o for_o if_o thy_o faith_n be_v weak_a yet_o it_o be_v live_v if_o it_o be_v languish_v it_o will_v assure_o recover_v more_o strength_n if_o there_o be_v blossom_n now_o there_o will_v be_v fruit_n hereafter_o these_o happy_a beginning_n will_v have_v gracious_a proceed_n bless_v câ—dings_n consider_v what_o thy_o god_n have_v promise_v by_o his_o holy_a prophet_n i_o will_v not_o break_v the_o bruise_a reed_n nor_o quench_v the_o smoke_a flax_n isay_n 42.3_o let_v not_o the_o smart_a therefore_o of_o thy_o conscience_n trouble_v thou_o remember_v who_o it_o be_v that_o search_v it_o i_o have_v wound_v thou_o say_v god_n and_o i_o will_v heal_v thou_o i_o have_v break_v thou_o and_o i_o will_v bind_v thou_o up_o thou_o be_v therefore_o wound_v that_o thou_o may_v be_v heal_v thou_o be_v therefore_o break_v that_o thou_o may_v be_v bind_v up_o that_o sore_o which_o be_v insensible_a be_v ever_o most_o dangerous_a and_o that_o wound_v which_o smart_v most_o be_v most_o capable_a of_o remedy_n bless_a lord_n i_o now_o feel_v to_o my_o unspeakable_a comfort_n that_o thou_o have_v wound_v i_o with_o the_o terror_n of_o thy_o law_n that_o thou_o may_v heal_v i_o with_o the_o comfort_n of_o thy_o gospel_n that_o i_o be_o therefore_o bruise_v with_o the_o burden_n of_o my_o sin_n that_o i_o may_v be_v ever_o ease_v by_o the_o merit_n of_o my_o saviour_n suffering_n all_o my_o imperfection_n be_v he_o all_o his_o righteousness_n be_v i_o i_o may_v bold_o challenge_v it_o thou_o will_v not_o deny_v it_o i_o may_v safe_o plead_v it_o thou_o can_v not_o refuse_v it_o consider_v yet_o further_o o_o my_o soul_n what_o thy_o bless_a saviour_n say_v unto_o thou_o i_o be_o the_o resurrection_n and_o the_o life_n he_o that_o believe_v in_o i_o though_o he_o be_v dead_a yet_o shall_v be_v live_v and_o whosever_v live_v and_o believe_v in_o i_o shall_v never_o die_v joh._n 11.25_o 26._o how_o can_v thou_o doubt_v now_o o_o my_o soul_n when_o thy_o saviour_n bid_v thou_o believe_v and_o live_v what_o can_v thou_o fear_v when_o thou_o have_v his_o promise_n for_o thy_o safety_n heaven_n and_o earth_n shall_v pass_v away_o but_o not_o one_o tittle_n of_o his_o word_n shall_v fail_v let_v not_o the_o number_n of_o thy_o sin_n affright_v thou_o for_o it_o be_v his_o blood_n which_o cleanse_v we_o from_o all_o iniquity_n 1_o joh._n 1.7_o 9_o let_v not_o the_o nature_n of_o thy_o sin_n amaze_v thou_o for_o though_o they_o be_v red_a as_o scarlet_a yet_o he_o will_v make_v they_o white_a as_o snow_n let_v not_o the_o long_a continuance_n of_o they_o stagger_v thou_o for_o at_o what_o time_n soever_o a_o sinner_n do_v repent_v he_o of_o his_o sin_n from_o the_o bottom_n of_o his_o heart_n i_o will_v blot_v they_o out_o of_o my_o remembrance_n say_v the_o lord_n ezech._n 18._o thy_o conscience_n shall_v not_o trouble_v thou_o for_o be_v justify_v by_o faith_n we_o have_v peace_n with_o god_n rom._n 5.1_o the_o devil_n can_v hurt_v thou_o for_o who_o shall_v lay_v any_o thing_n to_o the_o charge_n of_o god_n elect_v it_o be_v god_n that_o justifi_v who_o be_v he_o that_o condemn_v it_o be_v christ_n that_o die_v yea_o rather_o that_o be_v rise_v again_o who_o be_v even_o at_o the_o right_a hand_n of_o god_n who_o also_o make_v intercession_n for_o we_o rom._n 8.32_o 33._o nay_o which_o be_v the_o sum_n of_o all_o god_n himself_o in_o justice_n can_v condemn_v thou_o for_o there_o be_v no_o condemnation_n to_o they_o which_o be_v in_o christ_n jesus_n who_o walk_v not_o after_o the_o flesh_n but_o after_o the_o spirit_n rom._n 8.1_o his_o justice_n be_v satisfy_v his_o mercy_n magnify_v his_o name_n be_v for_o ever_o glorify_v lord_n let_v this_o teach_v i_o to_o rely_v with_o comfort_n on_o thy_o bless_a promise_n and_o to_o walk_v worchy_n of_o they_o in_o my_o religious_a performance_n to_o manifest_v my_o increase_n of_o grace_n by_o my_o increase_n of_o goodness_n to_o fix_v my_o heart_n whole_o upon_o thou_o to_o love_v thou_o to_o fear_v thou_o to_o honour_v thou_o and_o assure_o to_o rest_v in_o thou_o when_o thy_o grace_n shall_v enable_v i_o to_o delight_v in_o thy_o fear_n my_o sin_n can_v never_o persuade_v i_o to_o despair_v of_o thy_o favour_n my_o peace_n will_v be_v then_o inviolable_a my_o joy_n unutterable_a my_o happiness_n unalterable_a bless_a lord_n god_n when_o i_o consider_v of_o the_o wretchedness_n of_o my_o own_o corruption_n in_o nature_n i_o be_o even_o ready_a to_o despair_v of_o thy_o love_n but_o when_o i_o look_v upon_o the_o blessedness_n of_o my_o condition_n in_o christ_n i_o be_o then_o encourage_v to_o sue_v to_o thou_o for_o mercy_n and_o forgiveness_n although_o thy_o justice_n be_v severe_a against_o one_fw-mi as_o i_o be_o a_o grievous_a sinner_n yet_o thy_o mercy_n be_v most_o sweet_a unto_o i_o in_o my_o saviour_n i_o now_o tremble_v at_o thy_o judgement_n yet_o i_o rejoice_v in_o thy_o promise_n although_o thy_o law_n speak_v never_o so_o terrible_o thy_o curse_n be_v never_o so_o many_o thy_o plague_n be_v never_o so_o grievous_a thy_o wrath_n never_o so_o tempestuous_a yet_o in_o the_o sweet_a mercy_n of_o my_o saviour_n i_o be_o able_a to_o abide_v they_o all_o o_o lord_n my_o god_n i_o abhor_v myself_o i_o accuse_v myself_o i_o condemn_v myself_o i_o be_o now_o ready_a with_o thy_o wrath_n to_o seize_v upon_o my_o sinful_a soul_n and_o cast_v it_o down_o to_o everlasting_a misery_n lord_n unto_o thou_o only_o i_o appeal_v for_o mercy_n and_o forgiveness_n sweet_a jesus_n accept_v of_o i_o and_o interpose_v thy_o bless_a merit_n for_o i_o enrich_v my_o soul_n with_o thy_o suffering_n be_v ever_o present_a with_o i_o and_o eternal_a comfort_n to_o i_o o_o holy_a and_o for_o ever_o blesss_v spirit_n thou_o that_o sanclifie_v the_o soul_n of_o thy_o elect_n assist_v and_o strengthen_v i_o quicken_v and_o revive_v my_o droop_a say_v increase_v my_o hope_n cherish_v my_o love_n foment_n those_o die_a spark_n by_o the_o sweet_a breathe_n of_o thy_o bless_a spirit_n that_o they_o may_v zealous_o break_v forth_o into_o a_o pure_a and_o fervent_a flame_n of_o holy_a affection_n to_o thy_o great_a glory_n and_o my_o own_o eternal_a happiness_n amen_n chap._n 30._o upon_o the_o great_a neglect_n of_o the_o duty_n of_o prayer_n lord_n when_o i_o serions_o consider_v how_o manifold_a and_o great_a my_o fail_n be_v when_o i_o think_v of_o the_o shortness_n and_o uncertainty_n of_o life_n of_o the_o solemnity_n of_o death_n of_o the_o eternity_n of_o happiness_n or_o misery_n after_o death_n and_o by_o all_o these_o of_o the_o necessity_n usefulness_n and_o excellency_n of_o prayer_n i_o may_v well_o wonder_v that_o i_o be_o ever_o from_o my_o knee_n my_o life_n be_v all_o sin_n and_o have_v therefore_o need_v to_o be_v all_o sorrow_n the_o greatness_n and_o continuance_n of_o my_o sin_n have_v add_v to_o the_o greatness_n and_o continuance_n of_o my_o misery_n and_o there_o be_v none_o but_o thou_o o_o lord_n that_o can_v relieve_v i_o there_o be_v no_o come_n to_o thou_o but_o by_o prayer_n and_o no_o prayer_n powerful_a with_o thou_o but_o that_o which_o be_v fervent_a this_o be_v â—hat_n eye_n of_o my_o affection_n that_o wound_v the_o heart_n of_o thy_o compassion_n this_o be_v that_o holy_a violence_n that_o take_v heaven_n by_o force_n that_o surprise_v thy_o mercy_n that_o manacle_n thy_o justice_n that_o wrestle_v with_o thy_o love_n and_o will_v not_o let_v thou_o go_v without_o a_o blessing_n this_o be_v my_o strong_a armour_n to_o defend_v i_o my_o daily_a food_n to_o sustain_v i_o my_o safe_a repose_n to_o refresh_v i_o my_o sweet_a content_n for_o ever_o to_o delight_v i_o bless_a lord_n how_o wonderful_a be_v thy_o desire_n to_o man_n how_o gracious_o do_v thou_o provide_v for_o he_o how_o daily_o be_v thou_o mindful_a of_o he_o thy_o word_n instruct_v i_o thy_o promise_n allure_v i_o thy_o grace_n sustain_v i_o thy_o sacrament_n strengthen_v i_o thy_o visit_n comfort_v i_o thy_o embrace_n ravish_v i_o and_o as_o if_o all_o this_o be_v not_o yet_o enough_o to_o manifest_v thy_o favour_n towards_o i_o so_o unspeakable_a be_v thy_o love_n so_o earnest_a thy_o desire_n unto_o i_o that_o thou_o have_v even_o give_v i_o thyself_o to_o be_v overcome_v by_o i_o lord_n thou_o be_v all_o love_n when_o i_o strive_v with_o thou_o for_o mercy_n i_o overcome_v thou_o by_o thyself_o how_o great_a be_v thy_o goodness_n how_o tender_a be_v thy_o mercy_n unto_o man_n for_o who_o sake_n thou_o contend_v even_o with_o thy_o own_o essence_n thou_o have_v give_v thy_o son_n to_o die_v for_o i_o and_o in_o he_o thyself_o to_o be_v overcome_v by_o i_o lord_n let_v this_o teach_v i_o to_o renew_v my_o acquaintance_n often_o with_o thou_o to_o
folly_n in_o our_o hand_n sin_n in_o our_o mind_n and_o shame_n in_o our_o action_n that_o prayer_n be_v very_o rare_a that_o be_v not_o sick_a of_o some_o distemper_n that_o charity_n very_o pure_a that_o can_v admit_v of_o no_o mistake_n and_o that_o performance_n very_o perfect_a that_o be_v not_o soil_v with_o some_o filth_n of_o wickedness_n how_o willing_a be_v our_o thought_n to_o wander_v in_o our_o prayer_n how_o cold_a and_o careless_a be_v we_o in_o they_o and_o how_o remil_n in_o the_o performance_n of_o they_o where_o be_v that_o constancy_n that_o fervency_n that_o holy_a importunity_n of_o spirit_n that_o be_v require_v of_o we_o in_o this_o holy_a exercise_n which_o of_o we_o can_v true_o say_v that_o throughout_o the_o whole_a course_n of_o his_o whole_a life_n hitherto_o he_o ever_o put_v up_o one_o prayer_n unto_o almighty_a god_n that_o be_v not_o cumber_v with_o distract_a thought_n that_o need_v not_o a_o present_a pardon_n i_o tremble_v at_o my_o own_o and_o grieve_v at_o other_o fail_n o_o let_v my_o severe_a censure_n of_o my_o brother_n sin_n be_v assure_v sign_n of_o my_o best_a love_n how_o far_o be_v we_o even_o the_o very_o best_a of_o we_o from_o that_o purity_n and_o perfection_n of_o soul_n which_o become_v this_o holy_a duty_n and_o yet_o how_o ready_a be_v we_o even_o the_o very_o worst_a of_o we_o to_o believe_v ourselves_o sufficient_o holy_a assure_o happy_a we_o content_v ourselves_o usual_o with_o the_o very_a shell_n and_o husk_n and_o outside_n of_o religion_n with_o show_n and_o shadow_n of_o devotion_n with_o customary_a cold_a prayer_n intermit_v undigested_a reading_n careless_a inconsiderate_a meditation_n hypocritall_a pharisaical_a fasting_n popular_a alms-deed_n have_v only_o the_o show_n of_o godliness_n but_o deny_v the_o power_n thereof_o all_o these_o and_o whatsoever_o else_o be_v like_a to_o these_o be_v odious_a to_o god_n abominable_a to_o good_a man_n and_o most_o destructive_a to_o their_o soul_n that_o be_v delude_v by_o they_o when_o by_o the_o sweet_a assistance_n of_o the_o heavenly_a goodness_n and_o gentle_a breathe_n of_o his_o bless_a spirit_n we_o be_v draw_v near_o to_o our_o haven_n when_o the_o aguish_a distemper_n of_o the_o soul_n be_v abate_v and_o her_o native_a and_o radical_a heat_n be_v grow_v strong_a and_o vigorous_a when_o the_o fervency_n of_o our_o zeal_n be_v a_o rich_a evidence_n of_o the_o liveliness_n of_o our_o faith_n of_o the_o certainty_n of_o our_o hope_n of_o the_o perfection_n of_o our_o charity_n when_o our_o affection_n be_v inflame_v with_o god_n love_n and_o our_o action_n aim_v only_o at_o his_o glory_n when_o we_o be_v grow_v up_o to_o that_o happy_a state_n of_o grace_n that_o our_o conscience_n be_v pure_a our_o resolution_n godly_a our_o conversation_n unblamable_a although_o we_o dare_v not_o then_o propose_v these_o base_a and_o by_o respect_n these_o outward_a aim_n unto_o out_o self_n yet_o how_o cunning_o and_o close_o will_v corruption_n real_a in_o upon_o we_o even_o in_o these_o very_a bless_a act_n of_o grace_n this_o be_v too_o true_o prove_v too_o sad_o experience_v even_o by_o the_o very_o best_a of_o christian_n lord_n in_o thy_o rich_a mercy_n give_v we_o eye_n to_o discern_v it_o heart_n to_o avoid_v it_o how_o often_o may_v we_o find_v pride_n in_o our_o humility_n lust_n in_o our_o desire_n of_o chastity_n our_o own_o private_a end_n in_o our_o proposal_n of_o god_n public_a interest_n when_o we_o bear_v a_o part_n among_o the_o mourner_n of_o zion_n when_o we_o be_v cast_v down_o for_o some_o humane_a frailty_n we_o present_o conceive_v high_o of_o our_o own_o holiness_n and_o very_o mean_o of_o other_o in_o their_o relation_n unto_o happiness_n while_o we_o have_v seek_v to_o become_v better_a by_o the_o proposal_n of_o some_o strict_a rule_n to_o preserve_v chastity_n have_v we_o not_o many_o time_n become_v worse_o by_o poison_v those_o very_a desire_n by_o unclean_a thought_n and_o unclean_a action_n how_o many_o while_n they_o have_v sincere_o aim_v at_o god_n glory_n by_o the_o holy_a proposal_n and_o happy_a performance_n of_o some_o real_a good_a for_o the_o benefit_n of_o his_o child_n have_v be_v secret_o surprise_v with_o the_o by-end_n of_o their_o own_o deserve_a praise_n lord_n how_o ready_o have_v i_o now_o meet_v with_o my_o own_o sin_n to_o thy_o great_a glory_n and_o my_o own_o deserve_a slame_n i_o willing_o confess_v that_o i_o be_o guilty_a of_o all_o this_o and_o infinite_o more_o than_o this_o even_o these_o very_a line_n be_v witness_n against_o i_o of_o my_o secret_a corruption_n o_o let_v this_o my_o sorrowful_a confession_n purchase_v for_o i_o thy_o free_a and_o full_a remission_n that_o thou_o may_v have_v the_o glory_n i_o the_o comfort_n of_o these_o weak_a endeavour_n and_o now_o lord_n see_v i_o be_o thus_o impure_a and_o sinful_a in_o my_o own_o eye_n even_o in_o the_o very_o best_a of_o my_o performance_n how_o loathsome_a must_v i_o needs_o appear_v in_o thy_o sight_n who_o be_v purity_n itself_o and_o can_v not_o behold_v iniquity_n bless_a lord_n as_o thou_o have_v give_v i_o the_o light_n of_o thy_o word_n to_o discover_v i_o unto_o myself_o so_o give_v i_o also_o the_o sword_n of_o thy_o spirit_n to_o deliver_v i_o from_o myself_o deliver_v i_o o_o lord_n from_o the_o evil_a man_n from_o my_o ownsecret_a corruption_n and_o unknown_a abomination_n although_o i_o be_o unto_o my_o own_o soul_n both_o ruin_n and_o destruction_n yet_o let_v my_o bless_a saviour_n be_v unto_o i_o safety_n and_o salvation_n search_v my_o heart_n o_o lord_n and_o try_v my_o reins_o o_o let_v no_o base_a and_o by-respect_n inhabit_v there_o to_o rob_v thou_o of_o thy_o honour_n no_o false_a and_o vain_a respect_n to_o cheat_v i_o of_o my_o present_a holiness_n and_o future_a bappiness_n pardon_v and_o pass_v by_o the_o secret_a and_o unknown_a error_n of_o my_o sinful_a life_n suppress_v the_o great_a disturbance_n turbance_n of_o my_o corrupt_a affection_n although_o they_o many_o time_n prevail_v against_o i_o yet_o let_v thy_o save_a grace_n lord_n be_v sufficient_a for_o i_o lord_n make_v i_o pure_o and_o entire_o holy_a let_v i_o love_v holiness_n neither_o for_o fear_n of_o thy_o punishment_n nor_o for_o hope_n of_o thy_o reward_n but_o for_o thy_o sake_n only_o o_o my_o god_n who_o be_v holiness_n itself_o let_v i_o never_o think_v myself_o holy_a enough_o but_o forget_v all_o those_o holy_a action_n which_o be_v past_a and_o press_v hard_a forward_o towards_o the_o mark_n for_o the_o rich_a price_n of_o the_o high_a call_n in_o christ_n jesus_n lord_n crown_v my_o holy_a desire_n with_o happy_a performance_n and_o bless_a perseverance_n that_o at_o the_o end_n of_o my_o race_n i_o may_v receive_v the_o end_n of_o my_o hope_n the_o salvation_n of_o my_o precious_a soul_n and_o that_o for_o his_o sake_n and_o perfect_a holiness_n by_o who_o i_o trust_v these_o weak_a and_o sinful_a endeavour_n of_o i_o shall_v be_v gracious_o accept_v and_o faithful_o reward_v amen_n chap._n 38._o upon_o the_o unruliness_n of_o the_o tongue_n with_o necessary_a caution_n to_o restrain_v it_o lord_n thy_o servant_n david_n be_v say_v to_o be_v a_o man_n after_o thy_o own_o heart_n and_o yet_o i_o find_v he_o set_v a_o watch_n before_o his_o lip_n that_o he_o may_v not_o offend_v with_o his_o congue_n if_o such_o a_o choose_a vessel_n as_o he_o have_v so_o much_o need_n of_o circumspection_n what_o holy_a caution_n have_v i_o need_v to_o use_v what_o strict_a rule_n to_o observe_v who_o be_o so_o far_o from_o david_n purity_n that_o i_o be_o nothing_o else_o but_o wilful_a impiety_n i_o be_o so_o far_o lord_n from_o be_v at_o union_n with_o thou_o that_o i_o be_o even_a enmity_n itself_o against_o thou_o in_o vain_a have_v holy_a david_n set_v a_o watch_n before_o his_o lip_n unless_o he_o have_v first_o set_v a_o guard_n upon_o his_o heart_n where_o the_o fountain_n be_v impure_a the_o stream_n can_v never_o be_v wholesome_a if_o the_o heart_n be_v full_a of_o sinful_a corruption_n the_o tongue_n will_v soon_o overflow_v with_o corrupt_a and_o sinful_a communication_n lord_n i_o need_v none_o other_o proof_n of_o this_o point_n than_o my_o own_o sinful_a fail_n how_o often_o have_v i_o provoke_v thou_o to_o anger_n and_o displeasure_n against_o i_o by_o that_o usual_a but_o most_o fearful_a sin_n of_o swear_v of_o which_o with_o shame_n and_o sorrow_n i_o confess_v my_o young_a year_n be_v sad_o guilty_a since_o when_o time_n and_o experience_n have_v add_v more_o light_a to_o my_o mind_n but_o thou_o o_o lord_n especial_o more_o grace_n to_o my_o heart_n when_o i_o will_v have_v leave_v it_o to_o my_o great_a grief_n i_o can_v not_o and_o have_v not_o that_o thy_o save_n and_o prevent_v grace_n restrain_v my_o
deprave_a nature_n this_o sin_n have_v doubtless_o be_v a_o sad_a memorial_n to_o my_o grave_n such_o be_v the_o power_n of_o sin_n once_o grow_v habitual_a o_o let_v my_o sorrowful_a confession_n be_v the_o reader_n useful_a instruction_n that_o thou_o may_v have_v the_o glory_n i_o the_o shame_n of_o my_o mis-doing_a lord_n i_o have_v often_o sin_v against_o thou_o by_o my_o wretched_a violation_n of_o the_o truth_n in_o envious_a detraction_n from_o the_o good_a of_o my_o neighbour_n vainglorious_a aggravation_n of_o my_o own_o ability_n censorious_a taxation_n of_o my_o brethren_n infirmity_n indulgent_a diminution_n of_o i_o own_o iniquity_n i_o have_v often_o grieve_v thy_o good_a spirit_n by_o which_o thou_o have_v seal_v i_o up_o unto_o the_o day_n of_o redemption_n by_o my_o vain_a and_o idle_a communication_n by_o my_o rash_a and_o sinful_a exprobration_n by_o my_o weak_a and_o froward_a objurgation_n to_o the_o great_a dishonour_n of_o thou_o my_o god_n to_o the_o cominuall_a grief_n of_o thy_o saint_n to_o the_o sad_a disturbance_n of_o myself_o all_o this_o to_o my_o heart_n grief_n have_v i_o often_o do_v and_o by_o all_o this_o i_o may_v now_o plain_o see_v how_o much_o i_o have_v hitherto_o be_v the_o servant_n of_o sin_n and_o satan_n how_o great_a a_o enemy_n to_o thy_o glory_n and_o to_o the_o good_a of_o my_o own_o soul_n but_o now_o lord_n by_o thy_o assistance_n my_o special_a care_n shall_v henceforth_o be_v to_o allow_v myself_o no_o liberty_n of_o speech_n but_o what_o be_v aim_v at_o eternity_n if_o my_o heart_n be_v heavenly_a my_o word_n will_v be_v gracious_a my_o action_n holy_a my_o end_n happy_a and_o that_o all_o this_o may_v be_v so_o indeed_o by_o thy_o grace_n lord_n i_o will_v observe_v with_o carefulness_n and_o constancy_n these_o follow_a caution_n 1._o before_o i_o speak_v i_o will_v consider_v that_o i_o be_o in_o thy_o bless_a presence_n that_o what_o be_v once_o â—pâ—kâ—n_o can_v never_o be_v recall_v but_o be_v record_v for_o eterternity_n 2._o that_o each_o idle_a word_n must_v be_v account_v for_o and_o that_o my_o whole_a life_n hitherto_o have_v be_v little_a else_o but_o vain_a and_o empty_a discourse_n tend_v much_o to_o thy_o dishonour_n the_o hurt_n of_o my_o neighbour_n and_o without_o mercy_n in_o christ_n the_o destruction_n of_o my_o own_o soul_n 3._o that_o there_o be_v no_o true_a testimony_n of_o a_o graceless_a heart_n than_o a_o licentious_a tongue_n that_o if_o i_o be_v not_o holy_a in_o my_o discourse_n i_o can_v never_o be_v happy_a in_o my_o action_n 4._o that_o it_o be_v impossible_a for_o those_o prayer_n to_o be_v please_v to_o god_n which_o be_v offer_v up_o with_o that_o sinful_a member_n that_o be_v so_o shameful_o defile_v with_o evil_a and_o corrupt_a communication_n among_o man_n 5._o that_o if_o i_o make_v a_o mock_n at_o christianity_n by_o have_v only_o a_o form_n of_o godliness_n in_o my_o outward_a action_n but_o deny_v the_o power_n thereof_o in_o my_o usual_a conversation_n god_n will_v one_o day_n pay_v i_o home_o by_o show_v i_o the_o richness_n of_o his_o suffering_n but_o deny_v i_o the_o benefit_n thereof_o and_o the_o sweet_a enjoyment_n thereby_o 6._o that_o without_o helinesse_n no_o man_n shall_v see_v the_o lord_n and_o that_o such_o as_o be_v my_o common_a and_o most_o accustom_a discourse_n in_o my_o life_n i_o may_v well_o fear_v will_v be_v my_o last_o and_o most_o uncomfortable_a expression_n at_o my_o death_n 7._o unto_o all_o this_o i_o will_v add_v the_o shortness_n misery_n and_o uncertainty_n of_o a_o sinful_a life_n the_o horror_n and_o amazement_n of_o a_o wretched_a death_n the_o extremity_n and_o eternity_n of_o torment_n after_o death_n lord_n when_o my_o heart_n be_v thus_o guard_v by_o thy_o grace_n my_o lip_n i_o trust_v will_v be_v ever_o open_a to_o thy_o praise_n bless_a god_n if_o thy_o holy_a angel_n dare_v not_o give_v rail_v accusation_n against_o the_o devil_n if_o thy_o sainss_n in_o patience_n possess_v their_o own_o soul_n and_o their_o speech_n he_o season_v with_o salt_n administer_a grace_n to_o the_o heart_n of_o the_o hearer_n if_o thou_o the_o bless_a saviour_n of_o the_o world_n when_o thou_o be_v revile_v revile_v not_o again_o but_o as_o a_o lamb_n before_o the_o shearer_n so_o open_v thou_o not_o thy_o mouth_n with_o what_o comfort_n can_v i_o now_o appear_v before_o thou_o with_o what_o confidence_n expect_v a_o blessing_n from_o thou_o with_o grief_n and_o sorrow_n i_o confess_v that_o my_o heart_n have_v ever_o be_v full_a of_o corruption_n and_o naughtiness_n my_o mouth_n full_a of_o curse_v and_o bitterness_n my_o daily_a discourse_n full_a of_o folly_n and_o uncleanness_n the_o whole_a course_n of_o my_o life_n full_a of_o misery_n and_o wickedness_n o_o that_o my_o head_n be_v water_n and_o my_o eye_n a_o fountain_n of_o tear_n that_o i_o may_v weep_v day_n and_o night_n that_o i_o may_v mourn_v continual_o for_o my_o own_o and_o other_o sin_n lord_n purify_v my_o heart_n and_o rectify_v my_o tongue_n that_o both_o may_v be_v accept_v of_o thou_o and_o now_o and_o ever_o gracious_o direct_v by_o thou_o lord_n i_o acknowledge_v my_o fault_n and_o my_o sin_n be_v ever_o before_o i_o o_o let_v the_o sorrowful_a remembrance_n of_o my_o sin_n invite_v thou_o to_o a_o sweet_a remembrance_n of_o thy_o mercy_n that_o thou_o may_v have_v the_o praise_n and_o i_o the_o comfort_n of_o thy_o gracious_a pardon_n lord_n let_v my_o heart_n be_v inflame_v with_o thy_o love_n and_o my_o mouth_n fill_v with_o thy_o praise_n that_o i_o may_v sacrifile_v my_o soul_n unto_o thou_o that_o i_o may_v sanctify_v my_o soul_n before_o thou_o by_o devout_a thought_n by_o gracious_a word_n and_o godly_a action_n that_o so_o i_o may_v with_o joyfulness_n and_o thankfulness_n appear_v in_o thy_o fight_n not_o only_o all_o the_o day_n long_o but_o even_o all_o my_o life_n long_o that_o thou_o my_o god_n may_v be_v glorify_v thy_o saint_n delight_v and_o my_o sinfnll_a foul_a eternal_o comfort_v amen_n chap._n 39_o upon_o holy_a revenge_n for_o sin_n with_o motive_n and_o encouragement_n thereunto_o lord_n i_o have_v ever_o be_v too_o apt_a to_o revenge_v the_o small_a injury_n offer_v unto_o i_o by_o other_o in_o relation_n to_o my_o outward_a condition_n and_o too_o remiss_a in_o that_o holy_a revenge_n of_o those_o great_a and_o insufferable_a wrong_n which_o i_o daily_o and_o hourly_o obtrude_v upon_o my_o own_o soul_n this_o plain_o show_v i_o to_o have_v be_v too_o much_o savour_v of_o flesh_n and_o blood_n too_o little_a mindful_a of_o thy_o kingdom_n and_o the_o righteousness_n thereof_o that_o soul_n which_o be_v true_o sensible_a of_o its_o own_o injury_n will_v by_o thy_o grace_n be_v daily_o mind_v of_o its_o own_o redresle_n and_o that_o sinner_n which_o be_v uncapable_a of_o slight_a offence_n will_v in_o time_n become_v insensible_a of_o great_a my_o great_a enemy_n be_v those_o of_o my_o own_o household_n the_o world_n may_v allure_v i_o the_o devil_n persuade_v i_o but_o it_o be_v i_o own_o false_a heart_n alone_o that_o betray_v i_o and_o my_o own_o corrupt_a nature_n that_o enslave_v i_o my_o great_a care_n shall_v therefore_o be_v to_o bend_v my_o strong_a force_n against_o my_o own_o corruption_n to_o labour_n much_o to_o subdue_v my_o affection_n and_o to_o take_v a_o holy_a revenge_n upon_o my_o sinful_a action_n not_o to_o satisfy_v thy_o justice_n but_o to_o implore_v thy_o mercy_n that_o i_o may_v thereby_o true_o manifest_v my_o perfect_a hatred_n against_o sin_n and_o the_o sincerity_n of_o my_o soul_n to_o thy_o service_n there_o need_v none_o other_o motive_n to_o invite_v i_o to_o this_o holy_a duty_n than_o the_o woeful_a breach_n sin_n have_v daily_o make_v in_o my_o soul_n such_o as_o without_o mercy_n will_v never_o be_v repair_v this_o be_v too_o sad_o prove_v by_o the_o sensible_a decay_n of_o goodness_n and_o the_o too_o powerful_a growth_n of_o ungodliness_n in_o my_o corrupt_a heart_n as_o it_o be_v easy_a for_o that_o castle_n to_o stand_v a_o close_a siege_n that_o be_v well_o fortify_v mane_v and_o victual_v so_o be_v it_o impossible_a for_o that_o fort_n to_o hold_v out_o long_o which_o make_v no_o resistance_n lord_n as_o my_o own_o spiritual_a ruin_n have_v hitherto_o be_v cause_v by_o my_o own_o neglect_n so_o by_o thy_o gracious_a assistance_n my_o own_o repair_n shall_v be_v begin_v and_o finish_v by_o my_o present_a desire_n and_o future_a endeavour_n that_o time_n which_o i_o have_v lose_v by_o former_a carelessness_n and_o coldness_n in_o religion_n i_o will_v endeavour_v to_o redeem_v by_o holy_a vigilance_n and_o christian_a fortitude_n and_o that_o i_o may_v sincere_o be_v what_o i_o intend_v with_o willingness_n of_o heart_n i_o offer_v up_o this_o solemn_a vow_n unto_o
frailty_n commiserate_v his_o infirmity_n forgive_v his_o iniquity_n lord_n purge_v he_o by_o thy_o precious_a blood_n clothe_v he_o with_o thy_o own_o righteousness_n enrich_v he_o with_o thy_o bless_a merit_n and_o plead_v they_o to_o thy_o father_n for_o he_o o_o thou_o holy_a and_o for_o ever_o bless_a spirit_n who_o be_v the_o pure_a fountain_n of_o eternal_a love_n be_v present_a with_o he_o relieve_v and_o comfort_v he_o in_o all_o these_o bitter_a pang_n of_o his_o last_o hour_n endue_v he_o with_o a_o willingness_n and_o cheerfulness_n to_o leave_v this_o transitory_a life_n and_o crown_v he_o with_o eternity_n of_o joy_n in_o that_o to_o come_v and_o now_o o_o lord_n we_o come_v unto_o thou_o for_o ourselves_o who_o be_v here_o at_o this_o time_n upon_o our_o sinful_a knee_n before_o thou_o lord_z open_z our_o eye_n that_o we_o may_v serious_o consider_v of_o that_o last_o and_o solemn_a hour_n of_o our_o departure_n lord_n sanctify_v our_o heart_n that_o while_o we_o be_v encompass_v with_o sinful_a flesh_n we_o may_v lament_v our_o often_o fail_n and_o infirmity_n and_o every_o day_n be_v more_o and_o more_o desirous_a to_o go_v home_o to_o thou_o who_o be_v the_o god_n of_o spirit_n lord_n give_v we_o grace_n that_o we_o may_v walk_v sober_o and_o righteous_o and_o holy_o as_o become_v thy_o child_n that_o at_o the_o resurrection_n of_o the_o just_a our_o soul_n and_o body_n may_v enjoy_v the_o bless_a consummation_n of_o their_o endless_a happiness_n lord_n hear_v our_o prayer_n and_o let_v our_o cry_n come_v unto_o thou_o for_o thy_o name_n sake_n for_o thy_o promise_n sake_n for_o thy_o bless_a son_n sake_n amen_n the_o conclusion_n bless_a lord_n god_n by_o who_o only_a mercy_n i_o have_v finish_v this_o imperfect_a work_n as_o i_o begin_v it_o by_o thy_o goodness_n so_o i_o desire_v to_o end_v it_o with_o thy_o praise_n lord_n accept_v of_o it_o and_o gracious_o afford_v thy_o blessing_n to_o it_o let_v not_o the_o weakness_n and_o the_o sinfulness_n of_o i_o the_o instrument_n be_v the_o reader_n discouragement_n but_o give_v glory_n and_o honour_n to_o thou_o the_o agent_n for_o of_o thou_o and_o through_o thou_o and_o to_o thou_o be_v all_o thing_n to_o thou_o be_v praise_n for_o ever_o amen_n soli_fw-la deo_fw-la gloria_fw-la for_o the_o comfort_n and_o assistance_n of_o those_o that_o be_v ready_a to_o depart_v this_o life_n i_o have_v hereunto_o add_v the_o die_a confession_n of_o mr._n anthâ—ny_n sadler_n minister_n of_o god_n word_n at_o westthorock_a in_o essex_n of_o which_o i_o be_v a_o earwitness_n obiit_fw-la vicesimo_fw-la die_v maii_n anno_fw-la 1643._o the_o lord_n have_v lay_v a_o gracious_a and_o a_o gentle_a visitation_n on_o i_o i_o do_v acknowledge_v with_o a_o thankful_a heart_n that_o this_o weakness_n of_o body_n this_o languish_a of_o nature_n these_o painful_a day_n and_o night_n be_v from_o he_o for_o misery_n come_v not_o out_o of_o the_o dust_n neither_o do_v affliction_n spring_v out_o of_o the_o earth_n job_n 5.6_o ah_o my_o friend_n little_o do_v man_n think_v how_o much_o the_o great_a disturbance_n of_o sickness_n how_o much_o he_o pain_n and_o infirm_a tie_n of_o a_o dec_fw-la ie_v body_n distract_v those_o bless_a thought_n those_o sweet_a and_o happy_a meditation_n which_o the_o trouble_a soul_n desire_n the_o spirit_n be_v willing_a but_o the_o flesh_n be_v weak_a lord_n jesus_n strengthen_v the_o inward_a man_n and_o lay_v no_o more_o upon_o this_o sinful_a bâ—dy_n than_o thou_o in_o mercy_n shall_v enable_v it_o to_o bear_v i_o be_o now_o very_o persuade_v that_o god_n have_v purpose_v to_o determine_v my_o day_n his_o bless_a will_n be_v do_v even_o so_o lord_n jesus_n come_v quick_o he_o that_o look_v into_o his_o life_n past_a that_o ransake_v his_o soul_n and_o call_v to_o mind_v the_o sinful_a fail_n of_o his_o youth_n will_v find_v it_o very_o hard_a and_o difficult_a to_o make_v his_o call_n and_o election_n sure_a i_o have_v earnest_o desire_v to_o leave_v no_o corner_n of_o my_o soul_n unsearched_a and_o i_o find_v myself_o to_o be_v a_o very_a great_a and_o wretched_a sinner_n i_o have_v commit_v grievous_a sin_n very_o grievous_a sin_n such_o sin_n as_o be_v not_o fit_a to_o be_v name_v before_o god_n saint_n i_o have_v examine_v my_o soul_n by_o each_o particular_a commandment_n and_o i_o find_v myself_o guilty_a of_o the_o breach_n of_o all_o and_o that_o in_o a_o high_a manner_n especial_o consider_v that_o weighty_a function_n god_n providence_n have_v call_v i_o unto_o i_o have_v not_o only_o sin_v against_o my_o own_o soul_n but_o against_o the_o soul_n of_o other_o too_o who_o i_o have_v corrupt_v by_o my_o ill_a example_n and_o that_o very_a often_o and_o now_o when_o i_o look_v upon_o the_o glass_n of_o the_o law_n and_o there_o see_v my_o own_o vildness_n i_o find_v god_n justice_n and_o my_o own_o desert_n even_o ready_a to_o surprise_v and_o cast_v i_o down_o into_o the_o nethermost_a hell_n and_o that_o most_o righteous_o but_o o_o see_v the_o goodness_n of_o a_o gracious_a god_n i_o now_o come_v to_o lay_v hold_n upon_o the_o promise_n but_o how_o not_o without_o repentance_n not_o presume_o i_o apply_v they_o not_o in_o a_o general_a but_o particular_a way_n i_o do_v not_o only_o believe_v that_o christ_n jesus_n come_v iâ—_n to_o the_o world_n to_o save_v sinner_n but_o i_o believe_v also_o that_o he_o die_v for_o my_o sin_n and_o rise_v again_o for_o my_o justification_n god_n have_v promise_v and_o all_o his_o promise_n be_v yea_o and_o amen_o that_o he_o will_v not_o forsake_v those_o which_o trust_v in_o he_o nay_o he_o have_v bind_v himself_o unto_o it_o by_o a_o oath_n by_o two_o immutable_a thing_n which_o can_v fail_v his_o truth_n and_o his_o holiness_n heb._n 6.18_o and_o god_n have_v say_v that_o he_o which_o confess_v and_o forsake_v his_o sin_n shall_v find_v mercy_n 1_o joh._n 1.9_o i_o acknowledge_v they_o i_o confess_v they_o i_o be_o grieve_v for_o they_o i_o forsake_v they_o i_o abhor_v themwhat_o shall_v i_o do_v more_o god_n require_v not_o more_o of_o i_o tear_n these_o pause_n be_v supply_v with_o tear_n and_o yet_o for_o all_o this_o i_o can_v find_v myself_o assure_v of_o his_o favour_n methinks_v this_o sorrow_n be_v not_o so_o hearty_a as_o it_o ought_v to_o be_v and_o yet_o i_o know_v and_o steadfast_o believe_v that_o if_o god_n do_v not_o work_v with_o i_o this_o sorrow_n can_v not_o be_v and_o where_o he_o work_v there_o can_v be_v nothing_o want_v i_o know_v that_o the_o most_o righteous_a man_n alive_a can_v perform_v this_o work_n so_o perfect_o as_o he_o ought_v and_o therefore_o i_o believe_v that_o he_o which_o be_v ascend_v up_o on_o high_a have_v do_v it_o for_o i_o in_o that_o full_a and_o ample_a manner_n which_o be_v able_a to_o appease_v his_o father_n wrath_n and_o i_o now_o trust_v that_o by_o his_o perfect_a obedience_n this_o imperfect_a work_n of_o i_o shall_v find_v a_o gracious_a acceptation_n this_o be_v my_o hope_n and_o this_o my_o belief_n nay_o i_o can_v go_v yet_o a_o little_a further_o to_o strengthen_v my_o assurance_n that_o my_o peace_n be_v make_v with_o god_n i_o every_o day_n and_o every_o hour_n do_v pray_v unto_o my_o saviour_n to_o intercede_v his_o father_n for_o i_o and_o if_o i_o implore_v he_o he_o will_v intercede_v his_o father_n and_o if_o he_o intercede_v his_o father_n he_o can_v be_v deny_v o_o my_o god_n impute_v my_o sin_n to_o he_o transfer_v his_o righteousness_n to_o i_o and_o then_o i_o know_v i_o shall_v appear_v a_o glorious_a soul_n before_o thou_o amen_n finis_fw-la the_o content_n chap._n 1._o upon_o the_o sinfulness_n of_o our_o thought_n touch_v the_o sacred_a deity_n with_o holy_a caution_n to_o order_v our_o devotion_n aright_o pag._n 2._o chap._n 2._o upon_o the_o consideration_n of_o god_n love_n and_o man_n unthankfulness_n a_o meditation_n suit_v to_o the_o morning_n pag._n 9_o chap._n 3._o upon_o the_o consideration_n of_o divine_a providence_n a_o meditation_n for_o noon_n pag._n 14_o chap._n 4._o upon_o the_o consideration_n of_o the_o sinfulness_n shortness_n and_o uncertainâ—y_n of_o life_n a_o meditation_n suit_v to_o the_o evening_n pag._n 17_o chap._n 5._o upon_o our_o approach_n unto_o god_n house_n with_o necessary_a caution_n for_o our_o behaviour_n there_o pag._n 20_o chap._n 6._o upon_o our_o return_v from_o god_n house_n and_o the_o neglect_n of_o private_a duty_n pag._n 24_o chap._n 7._o upon_o the_o want_n of_o due_a preparation_n for_o receive_v of_o the_o lord_n supper_n pag._n 27_o chap._n 8._o contain_v pious_a ejaculation_n at_o the_o time_n of_o receive_v pag._n 30_o chap._n 9_o contain_v a_o brief_a meditation_n and_o pious_a thanksgiving_n after_o our_o receive_v pag._n 31_o chap._n 10._o upon_o a_o journey_n undertake_v and_o the_o many_o danger_n incident_a thereunto_o pag._n 32_o chap._n 11._o contain_v pious_a meditation_n and_o zealous_a ejaculation_n after_o a_o journey_n pag._n 34_o chap._n 12._o upon_o the_o great_a danger_n of_o security_n pag._n 37_o chap._n 13._o upon_o the_o great_a danger_n of_o prosumption_n pag._n 41_o chap._n 14._o upon_o quench_v of_o the_o motion_n of_o god_n holy_a spirit_n pag._n 47_o chap._n 15._o upon_o the_o consideration_n of_o god_n peculiar_a providence_n to_o his_o child_n pag._n 51_o chap._n 16._o upon_o sinful_a anger_n and_o the_o great_a disturbance_n thereof_o pag._n 55_o chap._n 17._o upon_o man_n inordinate_a love_n to_o the_o creature_n pag._n 58_o chap._n 18._o upon_o the_o sin_n of_o uncleaness_n with_o encouragement_n to_o avoid_v it_o pag._n 63_o chap._n 19_o upon_o immoderate_a mirth_n and_o the_o great_a inconvenience_n thereof_o pag._n 67_o chap._n 20._o upon_o the_o great_a danger_n of_o defer_v the_o hour_n of_o repentance_n pag._n 75_o chap._n 21._o upon_o servile_a fear_n and_o the_o danger_n thereof_o pag._n 79_o chap._n 22._o upon_o the_o great_a neglect_n of_o reckon_v daily_o with_o our_o thought_n and_o the_o benefit_n lose_v thereby_o pag._n 84_o chap._n 23._o upon_o unchristianlike_a dullness_n in_o affliction_n pag._n 87_o chap._n 24._o upon_o uncheerfulnesse_n in_o christianity_n with_o encouragement_n to_o avoid_v it_o pag._n 91_o chap._n 25._o upon_o man_n sinful_a frailty_n in_o the_o hour_n of_o temptation_n with_o motive_n to_o make_v resistance_n pag._n 94_o chap._n 26._o upon_o the_o infirmity_n of_o the_o saint_n pag._n 97_o chap._n 27._o upon_o desertion_n pag._n 101_o chap._n 28._o upon_o sudden_a danger_n pag._n 106_o chap._n 29._o upon_o the_o weakness_n of_o faith_n and_o sinfulness_n of_o thought_n tend_v to_o despair_n pag._n 107_o chap._n 30._o upon_o the_o great_a neglect_n of_o the_o duty_n of_o prayer_n pag._n 111_o chap._n 31._o upon_o the_o great_a neglect_n of_o read_v the_o sacred_a scripture_n pag._n 114_o chap._n 32._o upon_o the_o neglect_n of_o divine_a meditation_n pag._n 117_o chap._n 33._o upon_o unchristianlike_a dejectedness_n in_o poverty_n pag._n 119_o chap._n 34._o upon_o sickness_n and_o ungodly_a repine_v thereat_o pag._n 122_o chap._n 35._o upon_o the_o misery_n of_o life_n and_o blessedness_n of_o death_n pag._n 126_o chap._n 36._o upon_o the_o great_a neglect_n of_o opportunity_n in_o do_v good_a to_o the_o saint_n pag._n 131_o chap._n 37._o upon_o the_o deceitfulness_n of_o the_o heart_n in_o the_o performance_n of_o holy_a duty_n pag._n 135_o chap._n 38._o upon_o the_o unrulinesse_n of_o the_o tongue_n with_o necessary_a caution_n to_o restrain_v it_o pag._n 140_o chap._n 39_o upon_o holy_a revenge_n for_o sin_n with_o motive_n and_o encouragement_n thereunto_o pag._n 144_o chap._n 40._o upon_o the_o bless_a condition_n of_o the_o saint_n with_o motive_n and_o encouragement_n unto_o godliness_n pag._n 147_o a_o comfortable_a prayer_n to_o be_v use_v at_o the_o point_n of_o death_n by_o the_o visitor_n of_o the_o sick_n pag._n 157_o finis_fw-la