not of this Ioye but Gods children who know the worth of it will not value it with all the world For worth it passeth all vnderstanding and for use it guardeth the heart and mind in the sauing knowledge of the Lord Iesus Christ. It is sweete in our life but shall bee more sweete at our death then we shall see his face not frowning but smiling on vs wee shall not bee amazed but rejoyce when hee commeth with his messenger death to loose our bands Who can conceiue Simeons joye when hee song Now letteth thou thy seruant depart in peace Hee could neuer haue so spoken of death without this Peace and a sure ground had hee for his eyes did see his armes did carrie and his heart was full of the Saluation of God the Prince and pryce of this Peace It is a guard in our life and a bridge at Death to set vs safe ouer the gulfe of miserie and enter vs in Heauen 5. Wee are fooles about Happinesse OUr greatest folie is where wisedome should bee greatest euen in the choose and pursute of true Happinesse Wee cannot heere possesse all thinges and yet confusedlie wee couet them when wee choose one of them it is not the best but the worst of all in so farre as wee make it our best God is to bee sought aboue all hee may bee seene and found of all yet the most part knoweth him not and seeketh him not They professe wisedome but they practise folie herein they are not spiritually daintie either in choose or their affection any thing contenteth them The base lump of the earth and vanities of it are felicitie to them And though there be some choyse blessings in the world they light rather on the trash than on the good substance As they passe by God himselfe to his gifts so among his gifts they misse the corne and choose the chaffe Neither doeth their folie stand heere it can imagine to it selfe an happinesse in this miserable miscarrying This is indeede a fooles Paradise a conceate plat-formed by our selues we are delighted with these vanities and captiued by them which proueth our naughtinesse Raw and racklesse choosing maketh faint pursuing True Happinesse as all true good hath an alluring and drawing vertue and the godly by their inclining yeelding dispositioÌ„ to it are made partakers of it to their happines Their care about it is as far aboue other cares as it selfe excelleth other things If this rule bee applyed to mankinde how few shall bee found in the way of true Happinesse Professe with men and imagine with themselues as they will there is none appearance that either they haue found the alluring power of it or rendred themselues in their greatest desire and care for the obtaining of it It deserueth the flower and prime of all our labours and their smallest remaines may serue other trifles But when this order is inverted such men lye as fast in miserie as they are blinde and lazie in the pursute of true Happinesse If true good haue drawen vs forceblie to it selfe then wee cannot but seeke it earnestlie This is true Wisedome to passe by all thinges that wee may finde God To count these deceiuing imaginations about Happinesse to bee tyrranous foolries in the midst of so manie euils in the world to find out the good and among so manie goods to finde out the true and best good euen our good God and rest on him 6. Death surpriseth the most part of mankind MAnie are on their death-bed before they thinke rightlie of life They are going out of the world while they begin to know wherefore they came in it Wee come in it for this great businesse to saue our Soules in the Faith and obedience of God but when wee haue time to doe it we forget that busines and then begin to thinke of it when the time appointed is gone We spend much time in doing nothing and more in doing euill but little or none in that great matter wherefore wee were borne The life of sinne is in vs before the life of God and fearing the owne ejection preoccupyeth the other and taketh all time to it selfe And mortalitie seasing on vs in our conception before our perfect life subjecteth vs to inevitable death before wee liue the life of God The Soule must bee in perplexitie at the houre of death that seeth the day spent and that assigned businesse not begun A Traueller that seeth the Sun setting when hee is entring on the journey must bee agast the Euening of the day and morning of the taske doe not well agree together All the time that remaineth is too short for lamenting the losse of bygone time and if Gods mercie did not infinitelie exceed our euil none could be saued after such a neglect Time bygone cannot returne but may be redeemed and this redemption is not in the extent of the worke but in the equiualence of it God worketh not by such lent proceeding as hee doth in them that spend their time well but at-once hee perfecteth them as hee pardoneth their sinne so he perfecteth their sanctification Though God doe this in some yet he biddeth all use their time well while it goeth The fruitfull use of it may cost vs the losse of manie trifling joyes but that shall bee recompenced with solide fruite Fearfull will that encounter be when grimme Death findeth a man in sinne carelesnesse he must cry in the bitternes of his heart Hast thou found me mine enemie But when it findeth vs in our worke and at peace with God pleasant will bee that meeting It is Gods messenger to loose vs out of the yoake and bring vs to our promised and exspected reward How joyfullie shall that Soule goe to God that hath so liued as euer in the worke wherefore it came in the world When the Conscienâ—e at death saith to God Lord I beare this man record that hee hath worne himselfe and spent his time in seruing and obeying thee This testimonie is sweetâ— in our life when wee lye downe at night wearie of our labour ryse earlie to it againe and are crossed for our fidelitie in it but more sweete in our death That man is blessed whose way and journey time busines breath goe altogether The Apostle closeth all sweetlie I haue run my race I haue keeped the faith hencefoorth is laid for mee the Crowne of Glorie Hee who liueth the life of the righteous shall die the death of the righteous and shall not bee surprysed of Death 7 The great profite of prayer SOme spirituall exercises augment light as Reading Hearing conference other augment life and affection as Meditation and Praise but Prayer is for both It openeth the minde to see more clearelie and softneth the heart to bee more sensible the light of God shineth then most fullie when wee see our God and our selues in his light and the fixing of our minde on him cannot but draw our heart to him the more clearelie wee see
the rich answereth roughlie Prov. 18 23. Wee count it our happinesse that our dead and gracelesse Nature is quickned and renewed by the free and powerfull Grace of Christ. All their pleading is for a priuiledge to Nature and when all is deepelie pressed that priuiledge is nothing but hardnesse of heart than which there is no greater plague in man a libertie to fall frō Grace and to resist it They shall neuer craue blessings to mee who take that for a priuiledge and blessing to man which is the heauiest but the just plague of God on man But both these pleaders are condignelie rewarded by their Clients Defenders of Grace haue not their gages to to seeke and Natures proctors haue such gaine as shee can giue The mater abideth not in questioning the persons are discerned before the question bee debated Magnifiers of Grace proue children o◠Grace and praisers of Nature sticke still in Nature It is kyndlie to euery thing to respect the owne originall and Benefactor as it is respected of them I content my selfe with Scripture to call Christ both the Author and the Finisher of Faith Heb. 12. 2. And to professe before men and Angels that I am saued by the Grace of Christ. Ephes. 2. 5. And with holy Antiquitie to be then most sure when I ascriue all the worke of Saluation to the mercie of God and the merite of Christ Iesus 44. Conceat of Wisedome is great folie COnceat of VVisedome is a dangerous Counseller while we intend our businesse wee thinke all is rypelie aduised but in the proceeding and at the end we find weakenes we thinke then both of our Witte and worke that we might haue aduised done better that with some close Resolutiō to see better to businesse following But the next affaires finde vs in that same folie and are a new matter of after-thinking and Repentance and our first Conceate misleadeth vs as of before Corrupt Counsellers haue neede of reformation there is no more corrupt Coūseller in our Soule than this conceat So long as it is Father to beget or Mother to bring foort◠and the Nurse to foster our businesse there can neither bee hope of good successe in our adoes or of amendement of our error Conscience of our weaknesse imploring of Gods assistance and warinesse in our proceedings are better Directors When wee distrust our selfe and relye and in call on God for a blessing we shall either finde that blessing which wee aske or contentment in the lacke of it But Conceat debarreth the blessing and doubleth our miscontentment in the lacke Hee cutteth himselfe off both from Gods direction and blessing in his adoes who conceateth strongely of his owne wisedome But he is compassed of both who resteth on God As his mercie offereth so his justice decerneth the saue-guyding of him who distrusteth himselfe trusteth in God But it is the worke of his justice to desert the selfe-conceated wise man Hee gaineth much who dependeth on God His businesse are begun sweyeth and accomplished by GODS wisedome whereas the other left to himselfe must wrestle with difficulties of affaires and of crossing Prouidence The best way to bee wise indeede is to be conscienciouslie humble vnder sense of folie but the strong conceate of Wisedome is extreame madnesse 45 Dead to the world THe world is wise in the owne generation but God turneth their wisedome to folie it affecteth men as they are sette towards it the Worldlings with loue and the godlie with hatred These affections it testifieth by answereable actions honouring the beloued worldlings and troubling the hated godlie But it is foolish in both and most in this second If it did not so vexe the godly it might possibly insnare them to byde in it The Worldes fowning and flatterie is more dangerous than her frowning and her open hostilitie is the securitie of the Sainctes It is Gods great mercie to vs who turneth their injuries to our mortification Wee are called to renounce the World and it rageth thereat and preassing either to retaine or recall or destroy vs it chaseth vs out of it selfe All their contesting with vs putteth vs further from them than wee were before their hatred and injuries worke a contempt of the worlde in vs This maketh a diuorce and in end a Death to the world I take this as a dying and crucifying to it when by the Grace of God my Soule doeth neither conceiue their folies nor account or receiue them beeing suggested When the heart neither willeth nor affecteth them the memorie remembreth them not the mouth cannot vtter them according to the worlds formalities and the whole man hath a vnfitnesse to walke in their fashions Hee is liuing to God and God liueth in him who is so dead to the World 46. The right placing of our affections HOw foolishlie are our affections actions placed Christ appointed the matter and order for them both Seeke first the Kingdome of God and all these earthlie thinges shall bee casten to you Matt. 6. 33. And the Apostle Set your affections on things aboue and not on things on earth Colos. 3. 2. Heauen is first and most to bee sought The Earth both least and last but man inverteth that order hee is not farre trauelled nor high minded The earth is at hand and hee goeth no further as an home borne child he bydeth in the house as a shell-snaile he sticketh to the wall The Heauen the great first thing scarcelie entreth in his heart the renting cares of the world doe so pester it that the thoughts of heauen cannot goe through that throng Earthly thoughts salute him first in the morning busie him all the day lay him downe in his bed and play in his fansie all night The thoughts of God and his Kingdome finde none accesse Hee is all where hee should bee least or rather nothing He is little or nothing where hee should bee most hee maketh that his taske which hee should but touch by the way and hee blenketh but a squint on that which hee should continually meditate Many are busied about impertinent thinges with Martha and farre moe about impious things but few with Marie choose the part that shall neuer bee taken from them Luke 10. 42. By this I know the right situation of my Soule when God and his thoughts take vp all the roumes of it It is best to set the earth and her trash at as base an account as in situation it is vnder our feete 47. Contemplation and practise ought to bee joyned COntemplation and Practise make vp compleete Christianitie God hath joyned them as the Soule and bodie requireth them joyntlie and he who separateth them offereth a lame sacrifice to God and is scarce halfe a Christian The first as the eyes directeth vs the second as the hands and feet performeth that direction Theorie alone is as the eyes without feete and hands and practise without a solide knowledge is as strong legges and nimble handes
vanities and that far more because her applause is her vainest vanities And others possiblie shift themselues both of her vanitie and loue and yet are not fastned on a better Hee is foolish who loseth one thing findeth not another But the truelie godly man seeth and followeth a better world in this wicked one wee haue in this visible world an Heauen and Starres Earth Aire and Creatures for our temporall vse But the spirituall eye taketh vp an higher one Hee seeth GOD for his Sunne and from his Face taketh his Light from his Loue his Warmenesse from his Presence his Seasons It is light and Day when he shyneth on our Soule in the Face of Christ It is Night horrible darknesse when he hydeth his Face The course of his times run not as in the world The heauenly Day may fall at the midst of the naturall night heauenly Summer and Haruest in the midst of the naturall winter Euen at mid-night it is mid-day in that Soule where God maketh our reines to teach vs knowledge All Seasons are numbered by his Fâ—ce allcaneâ—lie The earth of this world is the Rocke of Syon Iesus Christ. No stabilitie or rest to the Soule but in him The Aire is the sense of his Fauour and the comfortable Creatures are his Saintes who walke with him in righteousnesse and holinesse This heauenlie world is better than that visible one and will remaine when the other is destroyed It is a strange conceate in them who by an odde Prospect seeth an earth and cities and men in the Moone That fiction and fansie is verified in this Trueth The spirituall man seeth this heauenly world in the temporall one And with that same light hee seeth an hellish world in this visible one For what is Sathan abusing the world and leading it in euill but erecting of a world of his owne in the defacing of this created world These are solide groundes to make vs strangers on earth and Burgesses in Heauen when wee take vp these worlds distinctlie And the more cleerelie wee see them there will bee lesse difficultie to forsake the euill and â—eeke the good one Let the men of this world reckon their Seasons Tymes and Occasions by this world that they see Our reckoning is better and surer by that supernaturall one They change their Almanackes from time to times But our Sun of Righteousnesse shall distinguish our Seasons and shine vpon vs both in this life and in Heauen This sight is the worke of a new light and is to be found only in the new man whom God hath ordained for the new Heauen and for the new Earth His Calender is neither directed by Starres in heauen nor Tydes in the Sea nor Horologes on the Earth His Sunne and starres is Gods Face his Tydes are the ebbing and flowing of the influences of Grace And his Horologe the secret yet the strong motions of Gods Spirit showing the increase of Grace in the owne periods though the promouing of it bee oft-ten hid from vs. This Earth is a sort of mids betweene Heauen and Hell and yet both of them haue their image beginning in it We are called to forsake the euill and seeke the good and what worse than Satan and sinâ—e and the wicked And what better than GOD his Grace and his Sainctes If wee see these distinctlie we shal be the more enabled to moue our selfe from the euill to the good This sight is the worke of Grace but the naturall man taketh all confusedly he neither seeth nor seeketh better than the world And if he make any distinction it is false hee forsaketh good as an euill and cleeueth to euill as his happinesse 100 God is the dwelling place of the godly Soule EVerie Creature hath the owne element and rest for dwelling securitie and delight therein they are both frequentlie and pleasantlie It is a meanes to try our state by our resort and rest The Worldling is euer in the world there is no difference betweene him and the Earth but that the one liueth and the other doth not and this that liueth is worse than the other because hee liueth in sinne The godlie Soule resteth on God in all businesse it looketh to him and all the thoughts of it end in him to him aboue all it returneth resteth pleasantlie in him and from him it can not bee rent All beeing and businesse out of him is a vexation and our greatest labour is sweete by this onelie that it goeth to him and is acceptable to him God dwelleth in that Soule that cannot rest but in him hee hath loued it from eternall and called it in time to himselfe that is so taken with him and his delights No rendeuous is so known to any Creature and vsed of it as God is to that Soule that resteth in him A proofe of this rest is God resting in vs In all the world he found not rest but in man When he created the Heauen and the Earth all Beasts and Fowles he rested not til he created man his Benjamin his last Creature in worke but his first in affection there hee rested as in the end of his Creation His delight is to dwell with men and among men with the godlie for them onely of all mankinde hath hee assumed to union in Christ. If we find him dwell in vs then surely we dwell in him we may easilie know if Christ dwell in vs except we bee Reprobats 2. Cor. 5. There is great wisdome in choosing the best Lodging We lodge now conuenientlie in our Bodie but at Death it will cast vs out and the worlde our pleasant House will decay Wee rest now in our contentmentes but must flitte from them But God can neither decay nor cast vs out and at Death wee shall still abide in him We neede not then flitte from him but ascend and bee more joyned to him Wee cannot haue Tabernacles heere nor abide no not in the beginnings and growth of Grace which is now our contentment but shall bee receiued and bide in euerlasting Mansions that are in him Man naturallie inclineth to two things his beginning and end His beginning recalleth him by right of his Originall The fishes will visite the place of their spawning yeerelie And men of an hurte health returne to their natiue soyle as the aire which they took in at their birth gaue them the first outward matter of their naturall Spirits so the vse of it may bring them backe againe to their first integritie The end calleth vs to it by right of perfection the pryse of the runner the house of the Traueller are earnestlie desired So is it to the godly Our beginning in Grace is in God The Riuer of liuing waters flowe out from the Sanctuarie from vnder the Throne of GOD and the Lambe The Grace of election hath no latter beginning than eternitie nor lower discent than heauen and turneth vs vp to it againe The waters of life which Christ giueth vs
chase Thee from the Earth O my Soule Miseries made Pegans to desire death but they saw not a Glorie to come God hath enlightned thee in the face of Christ thou knowest that there is Glorie layed vp for thee in the Heauen thou belieuest it hopest for it thou hast tasted it and is vnder a longing desire of it Call thy selfe to minde of the dayes of olde when either a sense of mercie or more usuallie affliction sent thee to God did hee not then allure thee to the wildernesse and speake to thine heart Hosea 2. 14. Wast thou not then vnder his liberall hand as a small vessell vnder a large Fountaine Did not his joyes so abound in thee that thou could neither receiue them all nor keep them in the measure that thou receiued them Tell me what was then thy comfort Thy God so sensible to thee in that diffusion of his loue that thou wast in a sort drawen out of thy selfe at least drawne out of mee Could thou either holde thine affection off God or containe it when it returned to thee Could thou lodge it or God that it brought with it or that sense of him and joye that it reported to thee Did not thy bodie partake of that thy joy with a sweete complacence it rested on that sense and was glad to bee so honoured as to bee a lodging of a Spirit which had so sweete and friendlie an intercourse with God When his loue shed abroad in thee could not abid in these boundes whither was thy griefe greater that so good a God should bee at any time displeased by thee or thy joye because hee was then reconcealed to thee Then atonce were the deepe groanes both of griefe and joy but more of joye than griefe and of joye for that holy griefe for offending so good a Father If thou remember these excessiue joyes why doest not thou mak good use of them They were not giuen thee for that time only but for this that is now What were these tastes first fruits but as the wine grapes that the Spyes broght out of Canaan They were so great that they could not beare them in their hand but were a burden to two men When these two senses of spirituall joy Sonlie griefe reported their burthen of an excessiue sweetnesse was not that a taste of the fruite of Canaan If a Cluster of that Land be so sweete so great to thee What shall thou finde when thou enters in that Land How can thou but loue that Land that hath such fruits long for the fulnesse of that fruite that is so sweete to thy taste when thou wast vnder that sens◠thou was more in God than in thy selfe and more in Heauen than on Earth Since the remembrance of it doeth both present the Image of it and waken it selfe againe in thee Be of good courage enter and possesse the Land God hath discouered it to thee off the toppe of Nebo and Pisgah Thou hast tasted the fruite of it by the report of the Spyes Lay hold on it by the hand of thy loue longing desire God hath cast downe the walles of Iericho before thee and hath wounded the world the sonnes of Anake at thy conuersion and daylie is killing the sonnes of Harapha in thy daylie battells Bee strong and goe fordward for God is before thee Consider by the satietie of the tastes how great a satietie thou shalt haue in Heauen when the smallest blinke of Gods face made thee patientlie to beare forget thy greatest affliction what shall that full presence worke in thee In his presence is fulnes of joy and at his right hand are pleasures for euermore Psal. 16. If thy taste bee vpright thou cannot but long for that fulnesse thou must welcome the Messenger that calleth thee to it How can I but long for a change betwixt two so contrare estates present miserie grieueth mee and future Glorie gladeth me in hope The Earth thrusteth mee from it and the Heauen allureth and draweth mee to it Who can indure such a violence of an out thrusting earth and alluring Heauen Sathans snares doe vex mee heere beneath and the sweetnesse of Christ pulleth mee aboue Naturall miseries made naturall men to desire Death and shall I not desire it more who haue an hope and sight of Glorie which they knew not I will not bee as a Meteor in the Aire betweene them two but I resolue to leaue the Earth that I may goe to Heauen Who can either delight to abide in such an Earth or refuse to goe to such an Heauen All things here inforce a remouing Our life a weariesome journey our walking in it laborious and it selfe a way and not our end And while wee are heere we are absent from God But in Heauen all is contrare our life shall bee pleasant without labour It is our end and not the way Our home in the presence of God This is sufficient to chase thee from Earth and sette thy desires on Heauen Art thou walking in the valey of the shaddow of Death yet feare not euill for God is with thee and in thee and thou in him Can a man that is in God die the death No more than Life can die can that man die that liueth in God As wee are in Christ wee are in life and that life of his euen himselfe can not die so farre art thou from dying in him at death that thou liueth more by death and in it than before it None can take that frō me on the Earth which God is keeping for mee in Heauen My life is not in this bodie nor in the world but in God in heauen It is hid with Christ in God Coloss. 3. 3. And the life that I liue I liue by the Faith of the Sonne of God Galat. 2. 20. My death commeth not so much of paines thrusting mee out of this bodie as of that life and fountaine of it in God sucking and drawing my Soule to it and that not to slay or destroy it but to quicken and perfect it Consider thy selfe art thou not dwyning and dying in this life when sinne liueth in thee and stayeth thee from good and compelleth thee to euill The Bodie though an helpe as it is boared through by the windowes of fiue Senses yet it is an hinder to thy proficiencie perfectiō of knowledge doing A Cage suffereth the Bird to looke through the wyres yet it is a prison to keepe it from libertie When thou art loosed from that cage thou shalt haue greater light in libertie As Christ himselfe ouercame Death so will he doe in mee Sathan did hound it at him as his last and most fearefull mastiue but he destroyed it they went together in others grippes to the Graue but Christ did strangle it in the owne dungeon Hee arose and left it behind him as a conquered and triumphed Enemy he did not that for himself but for vs his owne Bodie will doe it in euerie one
of the whole man God hath chosen the mid way to translate the Soule the best part to dissolue the bodie so Gods threatning is keeped thou shalt die and thou shalt returne to dust the example of Christ in death is followed our best part is translated for our happinesse and the assurance of the bodies reunion and a way to all Death in this respect is not penall but premiall in a sort not of Gods anger for our sinne to punish vs but of his mercie for our well to perfect vs. Oft-times God giueth vs plaine documents heereof if wee would obserue them euery twenty foure hours we haue cleare proofes of foure things 1. Our Life in the day time when we are busied in our Calling 2. Our Death at Euen when wee rest from our labours 3. Our Buriall when wee goe to bedde wee are not casten in them nor our garâ—ments pulled off but wee goe in quietnesse and lay our garments downe in order intending to take them vp againe 4. Our Resurrection when wee rise in the morning more vigorous to our Calling than when we lay downe then wee shall behold his face in righteousnesse and when wee awake shall bee satisfied with his Image Psal. 17. The sentence of Death in bodilie paines hath taught mee many thinges 1. The mortalitie of my body which must once bee ouercome and yeelde to them and so turne to dust this Cottage of clay so oft and so hardlie beaten must once fall Many haue a strong desire to liue long and turneth this naturall desire in a conceate that as they would and may so they shall liue longer Though there bee necessitie of Death in a decaying bodie and the spending of the life yet that desire and hope of life groweth euen with the decay of life But the holie desire of Immortalitie will eate out that fleshlie desire and the sense of daylie mortalitie will cut off that false hope 2. The immortalitie of my Soule in that vnder such paines it can haue the own free working on God If in a body so diseased it can seeke him and finde rest in him shall it not beeing separate from the bodie haue a more free working 3. The loue of God in deliuering mee from damnation How often haue I cryed in the midst of my paines O how farre am I bound to thee my Redeemer who hath deliuered mee from the fire of Hell If a short and light paine vnder thine hand in loue bee so heauie how intollerable is that paine of soule and bodie eternallie vnder thy wrath 4. That thy loue can stand well with affliction thou hast made light to arise to mee in darknesse and caused thy countenance to shine on mee in Christ and giuen me great peace in my Conscience in my greatest extremitie O what a Iewell is a good Conscience in affliction Though no man want his slips and infirmities yet he may eschew the grossest sinnes though none can attaine to a legall perfection yet hee may haue an Evangelicall perfection in Faith Repentance and begunne obedience When the Soule darre attest God as witnesse and appeale him as Iudge to its sinceritie In intending nothing but his Glorie In inquiring his will as the way to that Glorie And endeuouring to doe according to his knowledge for that good end Then in some measure wee may say with Ezechiah Remember O Lord how I haue walked before thee in trueth and with a perfect heart The conscience of these things haue so taken vp my Soule that my paines at the greatest are mitigate that holy and heauenly diuerting of my Spirit by so sweet and spirituall influence sometimes beguyleth my bodilie sense that it doeth but tolerablie affect mee The present sense of thy loue in mine acceptation in Christ and assurance of Glorie to come are strong ingredients to temper the greatest paines in this life And it is a profitable paine in the bodie that both occasioneth the seeking and bringeth out the feeling of the health of the Soule in thy sensible loue It hath also giuen mee a new Experience of Death surelie Death to the Sainctes is not as the most part take it 1 not a destruction but a deliuerie 2 It is both my last affliction and my last deliuerance from all miseries 3 It is both an end of this life and the beginning of my life of Glorie in Heauen 4 In it selfe it is a curse but to the Sainctes a blessing in him who hath ouercome it 5 I finde it both a dissolution from the world and of Soule and body and of euerie part of the bodie from other and my first great union with GOD the Sainctes and Angels 6 It is both my death and perfect birth day I haue now a seeming life but I liue not perfectlie till I die the New man shall then come foorth to a glorious libertie in the face of God 7 It is my last and greatest pollution my bodie is sometimes and by partes affected with weaknesse and Death turneth all in a lumppe of vyle and lifelesse clay and yet it is my first and greatest purgation Many purgations spirituall hast thou giuen mee in this life in Baptisme the Laver of Regeneration from sin in euerie act of Faith purifying the heart in euerie act of Repentance washing mee in the blood of Christ in euerie exercise of spirituall worship clensing mine handes in innocencie to compasse thine Altar But this is the great and last purgation when I am cleansed from all sinne In that same instant when my Soule and body doe separate all spiritual blemishes are separated from mee That is the worke of thy Spirit in mee hee knoweth no vncleane thing can enter in Heauen and therefore at my last breath he will giue me the last full cleansing and last degree of sanctification I tremble not at the fire of Purgatorie The enemies of the crosse of Christ are justlie so punished by that their errour when Christs Blood hath cleansed mee from all guiltinesse of all sinne and his sanctifying Spirit hath purged out the nature of it And his perfect obedience hath relieued mee from all punishment there is neither place nor use for that purging or rather tormenting fire after this life 8 Death is in it selfe the most terrible of all terrors but I find it in Christ most desireable The wicked doe tremble at the thoughts of it they see it onelie in the fearefull respects as a destructioÌ„ a curse an end a death a dissolution a pollution Therefore they abhorre it and the mention of it is to them as the hand-write on the wall was to Beltashar But thou shewest to mee these pleasant respects of death as a deliuerie a blessing a beginning a birth an union a purgation They haue none but fearefull grounds they are yet in Nature vnder the Law vnder sinne without Christ and vnder an euill conscience but thou hast layed better grounds in mee and put mee vnder Grace and vnder the Gospel vnder remission of
sinne in Christ and in a good Conscience What wonder that the godlie and wicked vpon so contrare grounds and respects haue so contrare thoughts and desires of Death Thou hast builded my Soule vpon these best grounds and filled it with consideration of the best respects of Death therefore it is that I loue it and desire it as thy Messenger in mercie for mine eternall good As Laban welcomed Abrahams seruant and said Come in thou blessed of the Lord so I sette mee not to flee but occure to it not to shune it but to welcome it Nothing affrayeth man more at the sight of Death than vncertaintie of his estate after it Euerie one at death is as a man on an edge of an high Hill all must leepe but euerie one knoweth not where he shall light To the wicked the valley is darke and mistie they know not what shall become of them after Death dulefull is the parting of that Soule and bodie that part vnder sinne and wrath At best they are in this confused vncertaintie not knowing their future estate and if they haue any knowledge it is all spent in mutuall accusing coÌ„demning at the last day and mutuall tormenting in Hell as authors and furtherers of sin Their Soule curseth their bodie because it was too readie an instrument to execute the wicked desires of it And the bodie shall curse the Soule because it was an euill guide to misleede it in sin They liue now in coÌ„cord mutuall flatterie of other which is nothing but their conspiracie against God But when both are sensible of their estate they shall curse other mutuallie As they part at Death so shall they bee joyned at the last day and curse other eternallie in the Hell vpon the same grounds But to the godlie all things are contrare They know whither they goe after Death and their Soules and Bodies at their parting blesse one another for their joynt happinesse in the state of Grace and in mutuall testifying of their seuerall labour in the Lord for attaining that happinesse They part full of the peace of God full of the desire of their reunion and full of the hope of it and eternall Glorie thereafter Thou hast blessed mee with this certainetie For my bygone condition thou perswadest me of my Calling and Election and hast made them sure in me by thy constant working since thou called mee to Grace For my present estate I finde my selfe vnder thy fauour in Christ reconcealed to thee in him as one of thy called and chosen Ones For my future estate I know that my Redeemer liueth and that hee shall stand at the latter day vpon the Earth And though after my skinne wormes consume this bodie yet in my flesh shall I see God whom I shall see for my selfe and not another for mee though my reines bee consumed within mee Iob. 19. 25. I know that if the earthlie house of this Tabernacle were dissolued I haue a building of God an house not made of hands in Heauen 2. Cor. 5. 1. Many seeke certaintie of vncertainties to secure their worldlie state on Earth and neglect their spirituall state in thee But all fastening in the world is loosnesse and a losing of a better But I seeke for a certaintie of that better substance By the Grace working Faith in mee thou hast made mee more certaine what shall become of my Soule and bodie after Death than I am of my goods in the world I haue no promise of their particular state thy Prouidence will secure it selfe of them and they may possiblie fall in the hand of mine enemies But as for my Bodie I know it shall rest in hope in the dust till the Resurrection and my Soule shall bee carried to Abrahams bosome Thou hast tolde mee whither I shall goe when I die euen to that Land of Light and Libertie to these Mansions which Christ in the Heauen hath prepared for mee And for thy loue and desire to bee with thee in them I visite them daylie When at euening morning and midday yea seuen times a day I call on thee my Father in Heauen then am I visiting these Mansions I cannot bow my knee religiouslie to thee but mine heart is then with thee adoring thee in the Heauen of heauens In the time of thy worshippe when I seeke thy face though my Bodie bee on the Earth yet my Soule is beholding thy face thereby acquainting my selfe with the light of thy countenance which I hope to enjoye for euer Thou knowest I counted not these for dayes of my life wherein I did not often draw neare to thee on the throne of Grace almost continuallie setting thee before mee and disposing my Soule and bodie as worthie of thy sight Shall I not then know that way after Death which I daylie haue troden in my life Or shall that light which now leadeth mee in the darknesse of this life be put out at Death I must die but it will not die to mee Thy face that now inlightneth mee shall send out a more glorious splendour in the houre of my Death than euer it sent in this life There is no feare of darknesse in the path of Death when the discouered face of God in mercie shineth on mee and perfectlie inlighteneth mee in that glorious light When bodilie senses doe faile the spirituall sense and sight succeed in their perfection I haue in this life but a small candle lighted at the meanes of Grace in reading hearing and meditation But when these meanes end and mine outward senses doe cease from their work I shall take light immediatelie from God himselfe hee worketh by his ordinance so long as their necessitie or vse remaineth but when these end he commeth in himselfe and worketh more fullie I neede not bee grieued nor my friends cry out in the bitternes of heart when my senses faile The light that I looke for in Death shall as farre exceed my present light as the Sunne in his full beautie at mid-day exceedeth the light of a small candle I shall finde no darknesse in the passage of Death since I am in Christ Hee who is in him shall not walke in darknesse but shall haue the light of Life The immediate â—ight of God needeth not the use of outward meanes It shall bee no losse to mee when perfection supplieth and succeedeth imperfection Thou hast also acquainted mee with Death and made mee feele in some beginnings and resemblance that same which I will finde at his dint that sentence of Death putteth mee to the hight of Resolution and I am vnder thine hand as Isaak vnder the hand of Abraham bound and layed on the Altar and know nothing but that the stroke will come I am readie for it and looke for none other than dissolution But thou knowest thy thoughts concerning mee If thou spare mee at this time this lesson is profitable that thou hast shewed mee the face of Death and yet brought mee backe againe As tender and louing