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shall_v that_o hour_n be_v present_v before_o thou_o as_o if_o it_o be_v before_o thy_o eye_n wherein_o thy_o soul_n go_v out_o of_o thy_o body_n shall_v be_v judge_v for_o all_o thy_o work_n word_n and_o thought_n this_o therefore_o ought_v thou_o even_o at_o this_o present_a to_o enjoin_v thy_o self_n that_o thou_o may_v live_v so_o even_o now_o to_o the_o end_n thou_o may_v be_v find_v so_o prepare_v be_v thou_o will_v thyself_o to_o be_v prepare_v whensoever_o death_n shall_v undoubted_o come_v it_o be_v the_o property_n of_o a_o most_o sottish_a and_o senseless_a heart_n to_o defer_v amendment_n of_o life_n to_o that_o time_n when_o time_n expire_v when_o thou_o can_v live_v no_o long_o when_o now_o thou_o be_v not_o to_o amend_v thy_o life_n but_o to_o appear_v before_o god_n as_o thou_o be_v already_o amend_v sure_o not_o sin_n only_o but_o even_o all_o thing_n do_v leave_v thou_o go_v out_o of_o this_o life_n thou_o be_v not_o then_o proper_o say_v to_o leave_v thy_o sin_n when_o thou_o can_v now_o sin_v no_o more_o but_o if_o while_o thou_o have_v ability_n to_o sin_n thou_o cease_v from_o sin_n true_a repentance_n be_v never_o to_o be_v call_v late_o but_o this_o which_o be_v defer_v to_o the_o end_n of_o thy_o life_n it_o be_v to_o be_v fear_v that_o it_o be_v seldom_o true_a for_o if_o through_o fear_n of_o damnation_n only_o be_v even_o now_o to_o die_v thou_o sorrow_v and_o be_v ready_a for_o the_o avoid_n of_o punishment_n to_o perform_v any_o task_n be_v it_o never_o so_o extreme_a to_o obtain_v pardon_n thou_o sorrow_v not_o out_o of_o charity_n in_o that_o thou_o have_v offend_v god_n but_o out_o of_o self-love_n for_o that_o thou_o wish_v to_o thyself_o good_a and_o not_o evil_a for_o thou_o sorrow_v because_o thou_o have_v bring_v to_o thyself_o eternal_a damnation_n by_o thy_o sin_n whereas_o if_o thou_o right_o sorrow_v for_o this_o only_a will_v thou_o sorrow_n in_o that_o thou_o so_o disobedient_a unto_o i_o so_o unthankful_a to_o i_o so_o reproachful_a to_o i_o have_v not_o exhibit_v due_a honour_n and_o reverence_n unto_o i_o who_o thou_o ought_v with_o all_o affection_n to_o have_v honour_v whatsoever_o shall_v befall_v thou_o whereas_o now_o forasmuch_o as_o thou_o only_o sorrow_v for_o thyself_o if_o danger_n be_v avoid_v or_o no_o revenge_n on_o sin_n inflict_v thou_o will_v never_o lament_v though_o thou_o have_v offend_v i_o a_o thousand_o year_n together_o charity_n true_a repentance_n which_o reconcile_v the_o soul_n unto_o i_o spring_v from_o charity_n and_o bewail_v this_o especial_o that_o she_o have_v so_o great_o and_o grievous_o contemn_v and_o offend_v i_o her_o best_a great_a gracioust_a and_o most_o faithful_a lord_n god_n her_o creator_n and_o redeemer_n hence_o i_o say_v be_v his_o heart_n wound_v for_o as_o much_o as_o so_o unthankful_o so_o disobedient_o and_o so_o proud_o be_v buâ—_n dust_n and_o nothing_o he_o have_v lift_v up_o his_o head_n against_o i_o whosoever_o therefore_o desire_v to_o die_v happy_o let_v he_o as_o my_o a_o postle_n admonish_v he_o live_v sober_o just_o and_o holy_o a_o evil_a death_n follow_v not_o a_o good_a and_o just_a life_n but_o precious_a in_o my_o sight_n be_v thâ—_n death_n of_o my_o saint_n yea_o after_o what_o sort_n of_o death_n soever_o they_o die_v that_o be_v whether_o they_o die_v by_o water_n or_o fire_n or_o in_o bed_n but_o to_o prepare_v thou_o all_o the_o better_a for_o death_n life_n the_o meditation_n whereof_o be_v the_o life_n of_o every_o wise_a man_n take_v here_o along_o with_o thou_o this_o short_a exercise_n by_o which_o every_o one_o may_v instruct_v and_o address_v himself_o that_o he_o may_v take_v a_o course_n to_o be_v find_v in_o that_o state_n in_o which_o he_o may_v not_o fear_v to_o die_v wholesome_a admonition_n teach_v a_o christian_a how_o to_o die_v well_o whatsoever_o die_v thou_o will_v wish_v that_o thou_o have_v do_v do_v the_o same_o even_o now_o whatsoever_o thou_o will_v have_v do_v do_v not_o 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that_o thou_o fear_v death_n because_o thy_o soul_n guilty_a of_o evil_n in_o herself_o foretell_v what_o torment_n shall_v befall_v she_o after_o death_n distemper_n if_o any_o of_o these_o shall_v be_v in_o thou_o thou_o ought_v to_o abhor_v pursue_v and_o with_o all_o thy_o endeavour_n to_o free_v thou_o of_o they_o for_o which_o purpose_n and_o the_o better_a effect_v of_o so_o glorious_a a_o design_n it_o may_v help_v thou_o much_o to_o imitate_v my_o step_n embrace_v my_o cross_n and_o with_o rigour_n of_o mind_n and_o with_o holy_a hatred_n commence_v against_o thyself_o to_o denounce_v war_n upon_o all_o thy_o vice_n to_o have_v a_o purpose_n to_o sin_n no_o more_o frequent_o and_o infatigable_o to_o renew_v the_o same_o with_o no_o infirmity_n or_o
selfsame_o soul_n and_o to_o the_o end_n thou_o may_v more_o clear_o understand_v these_o thing_n i_o will_v have_v thou_o to_o know_v that_o the_o source_n and_o fountain_n of_o all_o my_o sorrow_n be_v that_o high_a and_o ineffable_a divine_a dispensation_n whereby_o it_o be_v forbid_v i_o that_o the_o influence_n of_o my_o glory_n and_o fruition_n thereof_o which_o be_v in_o the_o superior_a faculty_n of_o my_o soul_n shall_v redound_v to_o the_o inferior_a for_o otherwise_o she_o have_v feel_v no_o sorrow_n but_o because_o this_o influence_n be_v by_o the_o divine_a dispensation_n prohibit_v i_o therefore_o do_v i_o at_o once_o perfect_o enjoy_v all_o joy_n according_a to_o the_o superior_a faculty_n and_o perfect_o suffer_v and_o become_v most_o vehement_o afflict_v according_a to_o the_o inferior_a faculty_n and_o thus_o miraculous_o have_v the_o power_n of_o my_o father_n join_v anguish_n with_o great_a sweetness_n and_o high_a power_n with_o low_a weakness_n because_o that_o 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