not I am a liar and where then is the honor of my truth but mercy pleaded if he dye where is the honor of my Grace and mercy Why now wisdome puts in a surety and that â—…oes for the principal Righteousness and peace have kissed each other How can this be Gods justice and righteousness did require that man should give satisfaction but this is all reconciled in Christ he reconciled God and man together Fourthly The greatest good coming out of the womb of the greatest evil Sin is the mother of all evil You will say can any good come out of such a womb as this It is true it cannot naturally come but God did so order it that it should be the occasion of it Were it not a wonder to see grapes come of thorns and Olives of thistles such a wonder you may see in Christ. You may see out of the sin of man comes great glory to God and good to man First Great glory to God for had not man sinned neither Gods justice nor mercy had been so magnified His justice had not been seen at all in a manner in punishing the offenders but 't is eminently seen in punishing of Christ who dyed for sinners This is a louder demon stration of the Justice of God than if God had turned all heaven and earth into confusion upon the sin of man Again hereby is way made for magnifying Gods mercy The sin of man as God hath ordered it hath given way to God in the demonstration of his mercy in forgiving and his justice in punishing It could not have bin thought that God had been of so gracious a nature able to put up such great affronts as man had given him had not sin given him occasion to magniâ—… his mercy Secondly Again as the sin of man hath given occasion to the advancing of Gods glory so for the promoting of mans good By this man is raised to a higher state of happiness and felicity than ever he should have been Now there is a nearer conjunction between God and man than ever was before the fall or ever should have been had it not been for the sin and fall of man Before it was said that man was made a little lower than the angels but now it may be truely said that he is so much higher than the Angels more nearly joyned to God Had man continued in innocence he had had onely a lengthening out of his temporal life in paradise but now by his sin Christ hath opened the door of heaven to him O then wonder at the power of Christ Fifthly Perfect justice raging against perfect innocence You know that God is perfect in his Righteousness and justice A God of truth and without iniquity just and right is he And yet notwithstanding his perfect Justice was set against his own son in whom there was nothing but perfect innocence He was the Lamb of God a lamb without spot and blemish full of grace and truth No guile was sound in his mouth and yet you know how the wrath of God brake out upon him It brake out upon him to the very uttermost that if he would but put himself into the room of man he must dye for it tho Justice it self said I find no fault in him yet he must dy all could not save him but if he will stand between God offending man and take our sins upon himself though he had none of his own yet justice takes hold of him Let me say as the Apostle behold the goodness severity of God Goodness to thee but severity unto Christ. O what had come upon you if you had been to bear the blow you see how Justice runs upon the Son of God and fals upon him and tears him to the ground and le ts out his blood and would not spare him though he were the only belovedSon of God O consider how fearful a thing it is to fall into the hands of the living God! You read how when Daniels enemies were cast into the Lions den that they brake all their bones before they came to the bottome of the den O how wouldst thou have been torn had the Justice of God taken hold of thee Sixthly Insinite wisdome at cost upon meer worthlessenesse God expects the blood of his own Son which was of insinite value to redeem worthless man Would you not wonder to see a wise man to be changing Pearls for pebbles yet here it is a greater wonder the wise God redeeming by the death of his own Son sinful man out of the hands of his own justice Why what is man are not all the nations of the world as nothing before him and yet upon this nothing this vanity is Gods insinite wisdome at this cost that he might save us from eternal death Seventhly The Son of the Blessing made to be a curse Gal. 3. 13. Christ hath redeemed us from the curse of the Law being made a curse for us Observe it 't is not said he was ACCURSED for us but a CURSE for us Christ hath delivered us from the curse but how by taking the curse upon himself You know the curses of the Law that were denounced against sinners all these curses met together upon one Jesus Christ. How is the book of Gods word full from one end to the other with Curses against sinners what a load then was there upon the back of Christ when all these curses met together upon him what a wonder is it that God should be cursing of his own Son to hear God say all my curses shall meet upon thee cursed shalt thou be in thy body and cursed shalt thou be in thy soul. To hear the great God speaking thus to his own Son go thou Cursed I will engage my Justice and wrath against thee to torment thee and put thee to death O what a sight was this yet thus it was with Jesus Christ. He had as many torments as members and all the torments that he endured had the curse of God in them Eighthly The Father of mercy forgetting his Bowels to his own Son VVe read of a very strange thing that was done by the King of Moab 2 Kings 3. 27. When he saw that the Battel was too sore for him c. he took his own Son that should have reigned in his stead and osfered him for a burnt offering what a strange sight was this yet there is a greater wonder than this to be seen in Christ to see God sacrificing his own Son and offering him up for a burnt-offering to appease his wrath against sinful man O shall not your hearts stand a wondering at this to see he that was a God of mercy to have no mercy for his own son he that had bowels of pity for you to have no pity for his Son O behold and wonder By this time I hope you are convinced that Christ is wonderful A SACRAMENTAL Speech grounded on Eph. 3. 19. And to know the love of Christ which
such a change as from being lost to be found A sinner in his Natural state is a lost man in a lost condition but when he is recovered by conversion he is found again The Son of man is come to seek and save that which was lost And so in this Luke 15. What was this lost sheep and lost groat and lost Son What was the meaning of all this but the recovering of lost Souls So that its a great change a coming from death to life from being lost to be found If our gospel be hid 't is hid to those that are lost that is for the present they are lost but when they are converted then of lost they are found Use. Is it so blessed and glorious a change that God doth work in the condition of a believer when he bringeth him to himself no less than from being dead to be alive from being lost to be found Then you that are believers rejoyce in and be thankfull for that blessed and happy condition that God hath translated you into Ah brethren how may you look one upon another and consider what God hath done for you 1. How that you were dead and are alive again You were diseased yea dead creatures diseased full of all that may render you miserable all diseases are met together in a poor sinner Now that God hath recovered thy diseased soul yea thy dead soul and brought thee to life again Oh what matter of joy is this How should you wonder at so great a change as this We read that at the Miracles that our Saviour did upon the diseased there was great astonishment among the people they were amazed at this but here are more miraculous cures than those the cure of dead souls is more than the cure of dead bodies O Brethren if all the diseased that Christ had cured should have confer'd together what strange stories would they have told One would have said I was born deaf and he said Ephatha and my ears were opened Another I was born blind and he anointed mine eyes I washed and received my sight Another I was thirty eight years under a disease and by a word of his mouth I was healed Another I was eighteen years in a sad condition and by a touch of his garment I was cured And so of the rest Ah brethren you were not onely diseased but dead and Christ hath recovered you O! what matter of thankfulness is here You that are believers should not look one upon another without wondering What should move you to wonder if not this It will be a strange change when we shall see all the sons of Adam come forth at last out of their graves when we shall see those that were buried in the great deep brought forth by the power of Christ and made all appear together this will be a strange change But the change of dead bodies is not so great as the change of dead souls O how should you praise God that hath raised you from so great a death as this How is it that we are taken up no more with wonderment for this that he hath done for our souls God doth rejoyce over it it is heavens joy when a lost sinner is found And doth God and Angels take notice of it and rejoyce and do you not take notice of it O what ingratitude is this This should excite sinners to â—…eed their return to God for this will rejoyce heaven and earth Shall I leave my wine saith the Vine whereby I make glad the heart of God and man I may say truly the recovery of a sinner makes glad the heart of God and man not onely will Christians and Ministers rejoyce over thee when thou turnest to God but God himself will rejoyce over thee when thou returnest he will call for the fatted Calf c. O the Mirror of unthankfulness that is upon our hearts that we should be no more moved with any work that God hath done upon our souls You that are converted and wrought upon by Sanctification one would think that you should be able to enter upon no other talk than this to tell what God hath done for your Souls My brethren if while we are here together we should see our dead friends that have been dead ten or twenty or thirty years agoe to eat and drink and walk and talk and converse with us how should we be astonished at it And how would they wonder one at another One that dyed at such a time and another that dyed at such a time and here they live again and talk again But now here is a greater wonder than this here are dead souls and they are brought together and live again and talk again O! me thinks you should wonder to see one another restored from so great a death Obj. But you will say how shall I know that I am recovered from death to life Ans. I shall give together the Characters and the priviledges of you that are recovered from death to life that so your evidence and comfort may be promoted together And there are these four that belong to you First He hath raised you from a state of corruption and rottenness to a state of health and holiness You know a state of death is a state of corruption the grave is a place of rottenness and putrifaction You that lye in your old lusts still certainly you have no portion or part in this matter But you that are changed are brought from this state a state of sin is a state of corruption The Scripture every where speaks of sin by the Metaphor that carries in it the highest pitch of filthiness Psal. 14. 3. They are altogether become silthy or stinking And so in Job 15. 16. How much more abominable and silthy is man which drinketh in iniquity like water Man in his natural state is a most silthy creature no comparison is 〈◊〉 to set forth the odiousness of his condition before he is sanctified by grace and the reason is because he drinketh in iniquity like water As the fish doth swim in and take in water naturally so sin is his very element wherein he doth naturally live as it were Thus the Apostle Rom. 3. 13. Their throat is an open Sepulchre And so our Saviour compares the Pharisees to to whited Sepulchres But now you that are believers God hath raised you from a state of Rottenness to a state of health and holiness Grace is the health of the soul Holiness is the soundness of the soul. An upright heart is a sound heart O beloved what a priviledge is this to be translated from a state of corruption to a state of holiness O what cause have you of thankfulness that can find the stamp of God again upon your souls you are highly favoured indeed whom God hath priviledged with this There is all that is desirable in grace and holiness Riches Wealth beauty all How often do we read of the beauty of Holiness And so of its
REMAINES OF That Excellent Minister Of JESUS CHRIST Mr. Joseph Alleine BEING A Collection of Sundry Directions Sermons Sacrament-Speeches and Letters not heretofore Published All tending to promote Real Piety LONDON Printed for Peter Parker at the Leg and Star in Cornhil over against the Royal-Exchange 1674. The Epistle READER THere needs no more to commend this Book Remains of Mr. Joseph Alleine to thee but to assure thee that it is his own and though a Posthumous yet no spurious birth Though some parcels come to thee with this disadvantage onely as they were taken from his mouth as he preached yet much of it was written with his own hand If thou hast tasted that divine and warm spirit which run through his other Writings already published it will sure set thee a thirsting after what els hath drop'd from the same holy lips or hands The labours of a man of God so mighty in the Sriptures and in the power of God will not be either unuseful or unacceptable though what thou hast here be but fragments yet thou wilt find them to be of the same bread with those loves which have been already dealt out to thee by the same hand The Publisher hath gathered up these fragments it being pity they should be lost For my part I have not had the time to read through the whole Book since it came to my hands but have so far lookt into it that I Judge it to be singularly useful for the engaging thee in and directing and quickning thee to that even spiritual active life which will be both thy beauty and thy comfort That the spirit of the living God which so eminently furnished the head fired the heart and filled up the life of this holy man may so animate these holy lines that they may become effectual to the forming their very Image upon thy soul and life is the prayer of Thy Friend in Christ Richard Alleine June 11th 1674. A Table of the several Treatises contain'd in this Book I. The Art of dying well Grounded on Luke 19. 20. with 15 several directions thereunto II. A discourse about self-Examination on Psal. 4. 4. pag. 1 III. A Sermon on Deuteronomy 32. 46. p. 29 IV. A serious call to Christians to win Souls to Christ with helps there unto on Proverb 11. 30 p. 47 V. A Sermon on Revel 3. 1. with ten parting Counsels p. 61 VI. A Sermon on Psal. 74. p. 83 VII A discourse made by Mr. Joseph Alleine unto his people at Taunton the night before his departure from them p. 99 VIII A Sermon preached in order to the Sacrament on a Sacramental day on Luke 2. 10 11. p. 119 IX A thanksgiving Sermon preached July 1665 at Mr. R. Ms on Psal. 147. 20 p. 137 X. A Sacramental Speech grounded on Psal. 40. 7. p. 167 XI Another Sacramental speech on Isa. 9. 6. p. 185 XII Another Sacramental speech on Eph. 3. 19. p. 195 XIII Another Sacramental speech on Eph. 5. 2. p. 201 XIV Another Sacramental speech on Mat. 15. 28. p. 215 XV. Another Sacramental speech on Mark 1. 15. p. 227 XVI Four several Letters to his most beloved people in Taunton p. 237 XVII A Practical Case on Phil. 3. 13. 14. p. 263 XVIII A discourse on Psal. 144. 3. p. 279 XIX Heavens joy and triumph on Luke 15. 23 24. p. 297 XX A Letter sent by him to an intimate friend p. 310 The Art of Dying well Luk. 12. 19 20. Soul thou hast much goods laid up for many years But God said Thou fool this night shall thy soul be required of thee Qu. SInce no man hath one dayes certainty of his life what may we do to be secured from being surprised by death 1. Sit loose from the world that you may be able to packup â—…nd be gone upon sudden warning Here was the folly and misery of this rich man that he had set his heart upon the world his mind did run upon his Barns and upon his Belly his Goods were his Gods he wiâ—…hes no other felicity than to eat and be merry If you would be sit for your great Journey to your long home you must lay aside every weight and in special the incumbring and intangling and insnaring clog and burthen of worldly affections you must take heed to your selves least at any time your hearts be over-charged with surfetting and drunkenness and the cares of this life if you would not have that day come upon you unawares It is said there is a 〈◊〉 whose heart is in his Belly would there were no such Monsters among men Certainly that man whose heart is in his Belly or on his Cosfer that Idolizes his friends or his reputation is no more fit for the assaults of Death than the unhappy Trojans buryed in Sleep and Wine for the Invasion of the well-appointed Greeks or the secure Laish for the subtle Danites or the Shechamites when sore and unwieldy for the Sons of violence and Instruments of cruelty Study to be Crucifyed to the world to use all earthly comforts in a mortifyed manner as those that are taking their long leave and let Death find you dead besore-hand and then let it come when it will and do its worst 2. Intrench not on Gods Prerogative in carving out the future time Reckon not upon hereafter this was the unhappiness of this rich fool he counts upon many years God had given him much goods and now he is so bold as to cast upon many merry dayes to spend them but God is angry at his usur pation and since he would presume to be his own carver God rebukes his boldness and will shew his Prerogative and will cut him short enough this night shall thy soul be required Remember your times are in Gods hands improve with all possible diligence your present allowance he gives you wealth to lay up for hereafter but he keeps your time in his own hands so that you shall not know one day whether you shall ever have another or be allowed to live till the nâ—…xt cast not upon to morrow Live this day well When shall we learn to practice the received Lesson to live every day as if it were our last Blessed men that we should be if we would but live up to this short rule Christians why are our lives so far wide of our rules and principles Doth Conscience witness that you live up to this If the rule be good why do you not daâ—…ly study to consorm to it is it not a shame that a heathen should teach you think saith he every morning when thou risest I may never lye down again and every night thou lyest down it may be I may never rise again when thou goest out I may never return when thou comest in I may never more go out Christian let it be thy serious thought every morning I will spend this day for eternity 3. Store up in Heaven â—…pace and see that you be rich towards God It was the want
Conscience accuse thee shew it thy pardon and that will quiet it Secondly He hath sent thee a Patent for heaven this hath Christ given you that are believers he hath made over to you in his Gospel a sirm conveyance of heaven So that I may say a believer hath as true a right to heaven as Christ can make him yea as Christ hath himself You are they that have endured in my temptations and I appoint unto you a Kingdom as my Father hath appointed me c. Now believers can you tell the worth of this token can you cast up the worth of endlesse glory can you tell what God and heaven is worth then you may tell me what this token is worth never was there such a token sent as this is Thirdly He hath sent thee the golden chain of the Jewels and bracelets of thy graces As when the servant of Abraham went to take Rebeckah for wife to Isaac he gave her bracelets c. So hath Christ to you he hath given you the chain of all the graces These are the Jewels he hath adorned you with Dost thou find any faith love c. in thee though it be like a grain of Mustard-seed and like a spark on the hearth O blesse the Lord Christ upon the bended knees of thy soul that he hath given thee this He hath done more for thee in this than he hath done for all the world beside O how thankful should you be that have received such a token from him Christian when ever thou dost feel the operation of the spirit of Christ within thee let this mind thee of the love of him that hath sent thee all this Fourthly He hath sent thee the seal and testimony of his spirit Hast thou received the spirit of adoption teaching thee to cry Abba Father It was he that sent it Hast thou so sure a guide as the sweet compassionate spirit so loving a Counseller as the spirit of Christ in thee O take notice of the love of Christs in sending him to thee Fourthly His testament is the evidence of love beloved it is impossible for me to utter or you to conceive the riches of Christs love expressed to you in his testament his Covenant herein Christian thou mightest read the strange love of Christ to thee in that he hath given thee his testament and delivered it to thee as his act and deed sealed with his own blood O how much did David make of this It was the last words of that sweet singer of Israel Although my house be not so with God yet be hath made with me an everlasting Covenant ordered in all things and sure and this is all my sa'vation and all my desire 2 Sam. 23. He had all that heart could wish sor in this Covenant O Christian hath Christ given thee his covenant O make much of this covenant 't is a sweet token indeed O the great priviledges and sweet immunities that are conveyed to believers here freedome from sin from the guilt and power of sin Freedome from misery from the wrath of God the curse of the law from the sting of death from the evil of the world from the danger of hell And beside all this what legacies hath he given thee in the covenant God for thy Father himself for thy Saviour his spirit for thy comforter and sanctifier his Ministers for thy teachers his ordinances for thy furtherance in grace there he hath given thee thy adoption and assurance for heaven Do but look over this and say if thou canst that Christ hath not loved thee Fifthly His Blood is a stream of love dost thou doubt of the love of Christ do but look upon him on his crosse how his feet and hands and heart are pierced thou mayst see the love of Christ flowing out of every part Use Now since Christ hath so loved you you that are his people do you love him again O where should you bestow your love place your affections fix your hearts but here I shall give you two motives He desires your love and he deserves your love First Consider he desires your love You have seen a little how Christ doth love you and what doth he expect but that you should love him again and can there be any thing less that he could require O methinks thou shouldest give up thy heart to Christ. This is all that he expects for this love that you should love him again This Christ will accept and nothing short of this will he accept Love cannot be satisfied but by love again It must be paid in its own coyn Cant. 8. 7. If a man would give all the substance of his house for love it would be utterly contemned As no Treasure in the world can buy love purchase love so no sufficiency in the world will be sufficient for love unlesse you give love your love again 1 Cor. 13. 3. Now Christian be perswaded then to give away thy heart out of hand to Christ. O bestow thy love upon him wherehast thou such a thing in thee but that thou shouldst love Christ doth any man plant a vineyard and not expect to eat of the fruit of it hath he put love into thee and doth not he expect that thou shouldest love him Secondly He deserves your love I may say of him as they of the Centurion he is worthy thou shouldst do this thing for him for he loveth our nation Worthy is the lamb that was slain to receive honor and strength c. He is worthy to receive all that you can give unto him If there were any thing else that were worthy of your love there might be some excuse that you did not bestow it upon Christ. But alass there is nothing here that doth deserve your love As Paul said was Paul Crucified for you c. so may I say were these things crucified for you but Christ was crucified for you he hath deserved your love This is he that came in to the world to seek and to save That came and found you naked and dead and wounded and then let out his blood and cured you This is he that when he came you spit upon him and refused him yet he would not be put off from you so but he would do you good How often hath he come and refreshed you with the refreshings of his love how often hath he taken you into his galleries and filled you with his secrets you that are believers may remember the places where he hath given you visits and made you tast of the powers of the world to come A SACRAMENTAL Speech grounded on Math. 15. 28. O woman great is thy faith WE have read many noted and remarkable stories of sundry great exploits that have been done by the renowned worthies of the world but there are no exploits nor atchievements so renowned as those that been done by faith The Scripture give us many instances of this kind and shews us how greatly the Lord Jesus Christ was pleased
necessarily diverted from writing to you the week foregoing The Lord teach you to live upon these cordials in these sorrowful dayes Fare you well dear brethren farewell in the Lord. I am yours in the bonds of the Lord Jesus Christ. To the much beloved the flock of Christ in Taunton grace and peace Most Loving and beloved YOur prisoner in the Lord hath sent these lines to salute you and to call upon you or rather to beseech you to walk worthy of the high calling in which you re called in Jesus Christ. Beloved our word with you hath not been yea and nay uncertain and unstedfast The prison sounds sorth to you the same doctrine that the pulpit ever did the Lord give you to hear and recieve from the prisoner that which was not so thorowly embraced from the preacher But what doth the prison preach it preaches repentance to you God hath called to you from the pulpit often and now he sendeth to you from the prison that you should repent Who is so deaf as not to hear the louds cals of the living God to England that they should repent you have long had Moses and the Prophets but now the Lord hath sent you as it were what Dives asked that one should come to you from the dead and testifie to you that you should repent From the dead I say for you know that in the sence of the Law your Ministers are dead But being dead we yet speak yea our death our removal our silence doth speak and all speaks the same thing that you should repent O that I could lift up my voyce to you that your streets your houses your ears your hearts might be fil'd with this cry repent O Taunton repent and turn Repent O profane or else your iniquities will be your ruine Repent O professors or else the Lord will not repent of the evil that he is about to bring upon us The Lord now ringeth that thundring peal in your ears Cleanse your hands ye sinners purifie your hearts ye double-minded Draw nigh unto God and he will draw nigh unto you Be afflicted and mourn and weep let your laughter be turned into mourning and your joy into heaviness Humble your selves in the sight os the Lord and he shall list you up O hear the voyce of the Lord. He that hath an ear to hear let him hear Repent O back sliding Children or else the Lord will fill you with your own wayes Speedily make up the breach and endeavor to repair your decayes to regain your ground and recover your first love O at last bethink your selves from whence you are fallen and repent and do your first works Repent O sluggard when wilt thou awake out of thy sleep what hath God kindled a fire in his Church ready to devour us all and wilt thou sleep with the house on fire about thine ears What wilt thou not ply thy bucket and settle to thy work to purpose wilt thou lye still and see the Tide coming in upon the whatâ—…ot pluck thy handout of thy Bosom nor rise out of thy bed-sloth when the Almighty thunders from heaven and scaters his lightning and and sends abroad the tokens of his displeasure repent O Laodicean The Lord calleth to thee to be zealous and repent Away with this lukewarm profession Away with this heartlesse listlesse livelesse Religion The Lord hates this halting and halving in Religion As good not at all as not to purpose Never dream that lazie wishes and idle complaints and key cold prayers will carry it Judge in your own selves is this the seeking knocking striving fighting running wrestling that the Scripture every where requires as necessary to all that would be saved but especially necessary at such a day of rebuke as this is O quicken your selves call up all your powers and put you every man his strength to the rope Cry mightily as Nineveh did Humble your selves greatly before the Lord as Manasseh did Let prayer be made without ceasing night and day if ever you mean to pray open the prisons and recover your spiritual priviledges Repent O thou of Sardis that hast a name to live but arâ—… dead The name may serve to deceive thy self and to deceive others but God will not be 〈◊〉 ed he searcheth the heart O prepare for â—…is search and for his scrutiny Wo unto thâ—… is he pronounce of thee and write against thee as against â—…elshazzar thou art weighed in the balance and sound wanting Hear the voyce of the living God hear and live Remember what you have received and heard and hold fast and repent and be watchful and strengthen the things that remain and are ready to dye lest the Lord come upon you as an enemy at unawares Repent O worldly professor that hast Christ in thy mouth and Mammon in thy heart Ah what a Demas wilt thou quickly shew thy self except thou repent howsadly will the fears of loosing thy estate betray thee How surely will the cares of this world choak thee how surely will the prevailing love of earthly things undo thee except thou repent O study the vanity and vexation of the Creatures the emptinesse insufficiency transitorinesse of present enjoyments the superlative excellency of Jesus Christ and his exceeding great reward till thy very heart do breath with the Martyr none but Christ and with Paul doubtless I account all things but losse c. O sinner pray over and study over these things till thy heart be brought to a low esteem of perishing things Walk so osten with death till thou art dead to the world and canst look upon it as a man would that should peep out of his grave Repent O sleeper that livest in carnal security and layest not to heart the asflictions of Joseph Doth the whole world ring of Gods Judgments upon England and dost not thou awake yet and call upon thy God is the Church afflicted and tossed with tempests and not comforted and yet art not thou rouzed up is the ship even filled with water and the disciples crying Master save us we perish and all in jeopardy and yet art thou unasfected is our Lord ready to be betrayed into the hands of Sinners and wilt thou sleep on now art thou not yet come to thy sences Alass that there should be such a disease as security going now at such a time as this now methinks the dumb should speak and the dead should wake VVas the tongue of King Craesus his son dumb from his birth loosed when he saw his Father about to be murdered and shall the Children of Zion see the knife even at the throat or heart of their mother and yet be silent and unmoved but what do I dwell on particulars the Lord calleth on all men every where to repent Repent O ossicers that you have not been so vigilant in the ossices which you have born and in fulfilling the oaths that you have taken in repressing of abounding sins as you should have been This guilt