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6._o of_o the_o nature_n and_o quality_n of_o divine_a love_n and_o wherein_o it_o exceed_v all_o other_o love_n p._n 10._o that_o our_o love_n to_o god_n ought_v to_o precede_v and_o exceed_v all_o other_o love_v p._n 16._o that_o the_o soul_n can_v take_v pleasure_n in_o nothing_o until_o it_o meet_v with_o satisfaction_n from_o its_o maker_n p._n 24._o that_o many_o may_v have_v their_o eye_n love-proof_n and_o their_o heart_n shut_v up_o against_o all_o the_o assault_n of_o fondlove_n p._n 30._o the_o misery_n of_o those_o who_o have_v yield_v to_o the_o passion_n of_o love_n and_o the_o glory_n of_o soul_n which_o have_v overcome_v it_o p._n 39_o how_o we_o may_v avoid_v the_o snare_n of_o love_n p._n 44._o that_o outward_a ornament_n shall_v not_o invite_v our_o love_n p._n 53._o that_o when_o all_o love_v fail_v the_o love_n of_o god_n remain_v p._n 55._o temporal_a good_n can_v content_v the_o soul_n and_o therefore_o deserve_v not_o our_o love_n p._n 61._o the_o soul_n complain_v of_o her_o condition_n and_o misery_n by_o reason_n of_o the_o darkness_n and_o ignorance_n of_o sin_n p._n 77._o the_o soul_n solitude_n and_o content_n in_o her_o separation_n from_o the_o great_a enticement_n of_o the_o world_n p._n 72._o the_o soul_n admire_v the_o infinite_a riches_n of_o her_o saviour_n love_n in_o take_v humane_a nature_n upon_o he_o p._n 83._o the_o soul_n check_v herself_o for_o her_o backwardness_n and_o too_o much_o neglect_v of_o her_o saviour_n invitation_n p._n 92._o the_o soul_n repent_v the_o time_n that_o ever_o she_o be_v cloister_v up_o in_o the_o wall_n of_o clay_n and_o throw_v into_o the_o dungeon_n of_o that_o corrupt_a mass_n of_o flesh_n p._n 96._o the_o soul_n call_v to_o mind_n the_o infinite_a love_n of_o her_o saviour_n bewail_v her_o ungratefulness_n and_o the_o coldness_n of_o her_o return_n p._n 104._o the_o soul_n break_v into_o sigh_n and_o dissolve_v into_o desire_n for_o the_o presence_n of_o god_n p._n 111._o the_o soul_n fill_v with_o heavenly_a love_n send_v forth_o the_o pure_a flame_n of_o her_o affection_n p._n 117._o the_o soul_n contemplate_v and_o set_v forth_o her_o folly_n in_o hazard_v eternal_a joy_n by_o prefer_v earthly_a vanity_n p._n 124._o the_o soul_n be_v ready_a to_o sink_v under_o the_o weight_n and_o apprehension_n of_o her_o sin_n bemoane_v the_o weakness_n of_o her_o faith_n and_o desire_n help_v from_o her_o saviour_n p._n 130._o the_o sinsick_a soul_n can_v take_v no_o rest_n until_o she_o be_v further_o reconcile_v to_o her_o saviour_n p._n 140._o the_o soul_n be_v ravish_v upon_o the_o return_n of_o her_o saviour_n presence_n p._n 150._o the_o soul_n be_v readvance_v on_o the_o wing_n of_o faith_n send_v up_o her_o choice_a affection_n towards_o heaven_n p._n 159_o the_o soul_n in_o a_o frenzy_n break_v out_o into_o admiration_n of_o god_n love_n in_o be_v free_v from_o the_o misery_n of_o everlasting_a flame_n p._n 164._o the_o soul_n be_v sensible_a of_o its_o former_a mercy_n sit_v weep_v under_o the_o cross_n of_o her_o saviour_n and_o resolve_v to_o partake_v with_o he_o in_o his_o suffering_n p._n 169._o in_o imitation_n of_o our_o saviour_n great_a patience_n under_o his_o passion_n the_o soul_n resolve_v for_o ever_o to_o yield_v a_o humble_a submission_n to_o his_o will._n p._n 181._o of_o love_n in_o general_n if_o we_o go_v about_o to_o describe_v fond_a love_n what_o better_a resemblance_n may_v we_o have_v then_o to_o that_o man_n who_o be_v bite_v with_o a_o tarantula_n or_o have_v eat_v a_o weed_n which_o be_v call_v sardoa_n and_o so_o laugh_v himself_o to_o death_n be_v murder_v by_o that_o which_o look_v like_o merriment_n or_o like_o a_o mouth_n wound_v with_o a_o sting_n dip_v in_o honey_n the_o taste_n enjoy_v what_o the_o touch_n suffer_v or_o may_v we_o not_o compare_v it_o to_o he_o who_o through_o too_o much_o wantonness_n be_v tickle_v to_o his_o grave_n and_o sure_o have_v we_o as_o many_o eye_n open_v towards_o heaven_n as_o 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