Patience a better and sweeter life than rest and joy § 14. But alas how deaf is Flesh to Reason Faith hath the Reason which easily may shame all contrary Reasoning but sense is unreasonable and especially this inordinate tenacious Love of present Life I have Reason enough to be willing to depart even much more willing than I am O that I could be as willing as I am convinced that I have Reason to be Could I Love God as much as I know that I should Love him then I should desire to depart and to be with Christ as much as I know that I should desire it But God in Nature hath here laid upon me some necessity of aversation though the inordinateness came from sin Else Christ had not so feared and deprecated the Cup Death must be a penalty even where it is a gain and therefore it must meet with some unwillingness Because we willingly sinned we must unwillingly suffer The Gain is not the pain or dissolution in itself but the happy consequents of it All the Faith and Reason in the World will not make Death to be no penalty and therefore will not take away all unwillingness No Man ever yet Reasoned or Believed himself into a Love of Pain and Death as such But seeing that the gain is unspeakably Greater than the Pain and Loss Faith and Holy Reason may make our willingness to be Greater than our unwillingness and our Hope and Joy than our Fear and Sorrow And it is the deep and effectual notice of Goodness which is God's way in Nature and Grace to change and draw the Will of Man Come then my Soul and Think believingly what is BEST for thee And wilt thou not Love and Desire most that which is certainly the BEST To Depart and to be with Christ is far better or rather to be chosen § 1. TO say and hear that it is far better to be with Christ is not enough to make us willing Words and Notions are such instruments as God useth to work on Souls but the convincing satisfying powerful Light and the inclining Love are other things The Soul now operateth ut forma hominis on and with the Corporeal Spirit and Organs and it perceiveth now its own perceptions but it is a stranger to the Mode of its future Action when it is separated from the Body and can have no formal conception of such conceptions as yet it never had And therefore its Thoughts of its future â—â—ate must be Analogical and General and partly â—range But General notices when certain may be very powerful and satisfie us in so much as is needful to our â—onsent and to such a measure of Joy as is suitable to this earthly state And such notices we have from the Nature of the Soul with the Nature of God the course of Providence and Government of Mankind the internal and external conflicts which we perceive about Mens Souls the Testimony and Promises of the Word of God the Testimony of Conscience with the Witness of the sanctifying Spirit of Christ and in it the Earnest and the foretast of Glory and the beginnings of Life eternal here of all which I have before considered § 2. The Socinians who would interpret this of the state of Resurrection only against plain evidence violate the Text Seeing Paul expresly speaketh of his Gain by Death which will be his abode with Christ and this upon his departure hence which in 2 Cor. 5. 7 8. he calleth his being absent from the Body and present with Lord And Christ to the penitent Thief calleth his being with him in Paradise And Luke 16. in the Parable of the Steward Christ intimateth to us that wise preparers when they go hence are received into the Everlasting habitations as he there further tells us Lazarus was in Abrahams bosom § 3. Goodness is primaria mensurans vel secundaria mensurata The first is God's perfect Essence and Will The second is either properly and simply Good or Analogical The former is the Creatures conformity to the Will of God or its Pleasingness to his will The later is 1. The Greater which is the wellfare or perfection of the Universe 2. The Lesser which is the Perfection of the several parts of the Universe either 1. In the nobler respect as they are Parts contributing to the Perfection of the whole or 2. In the lower respect as they are Perfect or Happy in themselves or 3. In the lowest respect of all as they are good to their fellow Creatures which are below themselves § 4. Accordingly It is far better to be with Christ I. Properly and simply as it is the fulfilling of God's will II. Analogically as it tendeth to the Perfection of the Universe and the Church III. And as it will be our own good or felicity IV. And as it will be Good to our inferiour fellow Creatures though this last be most questionable and seemeth not included in the meaning of this Text Somewhat of these in order § 5. I. It is an odious effect of Idolatrous SELFISHNESS to acknowledge no Goodness above our own FELICITY and accordingly to make the Goodness of God to be but formally his Usefulness Benovolence and Beneficence to his Creatures which is by making the Creature the ultimate End and God but the Means to make the Creature to be God and deny God indeed while we honour his Name As also it is to acknowledge no higher goodness formally in the Creature than its own felicity as such As if neither the pleasing of God's will nor the Perfection of the Church and World were better than we are We are not of our selves and therefore we are not chiefly for our selves and therefore we have a higher Good to Love That is simply Best which God willeth Therefore to Live here is Best whilest I do live here and to depart is best when the time of my departure cometh That is Best which is which is the work of God The World cannot be Better at this Instant than it is nor any thing Better which is of God because it is as he willeth it to be But when God hath changed them it will then be Best that they are changed Were there no other Good in my departure hence but this simple Good the fulfilling of God's will my Reason telleth me that I should be fully satisfied in it But there is also a subordinate sort of Good § 6. II. For my change will tend to the perfection of the Universe even that Material Good or Perfection which is its Aptitude for the use to which God hath created and doth preserve it As all the parts the modes the situation the motions of a Clock a Watch or other such Engine do to the ends of the Artificer Though God hath not told me particularly Why every Thing and Mode and Motion is as it is I know it is all done in perfect Wisdom and suited to its proper use and end If the Hen or Bird knoweth
blessed to be under the Love of Christ p. 881. Excitations Desires p. 182. 3. Communion with Angels and Saints by reception p. 188 More of the good of Vnion and Communion as distinct from singular Propriety p. 190. 5. The constitutive Reasons from our heavenly Practice p. 195. Better works for us there than here proved What they are in general What particularly I. Concordant praising God Excitations and Petitions p. 169. II. The blessed probably used for the good of men and things below p. 198. Their Opinion rejected that assert the cessation of sense proof Objection from Bruits answered The concluding Application p. 202. A Breviate of the helps of Faith Hope and Love for a dying Man I. The Gospel Evidence on 1 Tim. 3. 16. p. 260. II. A Breviate of the proof of supernatural Revelation and the Truth of Christianity p. 262. III. The difference between the World which I am leaving and the World which I am going to With Reasons of my comfortable hope p. 283. IV. More Reasons and Helps of my Faith and Hope p. 289. V. A discourse of the sensible manifestation of the Kingdom of Christ at his Transfiguration which is expounded and applied for the help of Faith and Patience p. 300. VI. Short Meditations on Rom. 5. 1 2 3 4 5. Of the shedding abroad of God's Love on the Heart that we may rejoice in hope of the Glory of God p. 360. THe exercise of Three sorts of LOVE to God to Others and to my Self afford me a Threefold satisfaction conjunct to be vvilling to depart I. I am sure my departure vvill be the fulfilling of that Will vvhich is Love it self vvhich I am bouâ—d above all things to Love and Please and vvhâ—â—â— is the beginning rule Antonineâ—ould â—ould hence fetch good Thoughts of Death II. The World dieth not vvith me vvhen I die nor the Church nor the Praise and Glory of God vvhich he vvill have in and from this World unto the end And if I love others as my self their Lives and Comforts vvill novv be to my Thoughts as if I vvere to live my self in them God vvill be praised and honoured by Posterity vvhen I am dead and gone Were I to be annihilated this vvould comfort me novv if I lived and died in perfect Love III. But a better and glorious World is before me into vvhich I hope by Death to be translated vvhither all these Three sorts of Love should rap up the desires of my ascending Soul even the Love of my self that I may be fully happy the Love of the triumphant Church Christ Angels and glorified Man and the Glory of all the Universe vvhich I shall see and above all the Love of the most Glorious God Infinite Life and Light and Love the ultimate Amiable Object of Man's Love in vvhom to beperfectly pleased and delighted and to vvhom to be perfectly pleasing for ever is the chief and ultimate end of me and of the highest vvisest and best of Creatures Amen THE INTRODUCTION PHIL. 1. 23. For I am in a streight between two c. I Write for my self and therefore supposing the sense of the Text shall only observe what is useful to my Heart and Practice It was a happy state into which Grace had brought this Apostle who saw so much not only tolerable but greatly desirable both in living and dying To live to him was Christ that is Christ's interest or work To die would be gain that is His own interest and reward His streight was not whether it would be good to live or good to depart Both were good But which was more desirable was the doubt I. Quest But was there any doubt to be made between Christ's interest and his own Ans No if it had been a full and fixed competition But by Christ or Christ's interest he meaneth his work for his Churches interest in this World But he knew that Christ also had an interest in his Saints above and that he could raise up more to serve him here Yet because he was to judge by what appeared and he saw a defect of such on Earth this did turn the Scales in his Choice and for the work of of Christ and his Churches good he more inclined to the delay of his reward by self-denial Yet knowing that the delay would tend to its increase It 's useful to me here to note That even in this World short of Death there is some good so much to be regarded as may justly prevail with Believers to prefer it before the present hastning of their reward I the rather note this that no temptation carry me into that extream of taking nothing but Heaven to be worthy of our minding or regard and so to cast off the World in a sinful sort on pretence of mortification and a heavenly mind and life I. As to the sense the meaning is not that any thing on Earth is better than Heaven or simply and in itself to be preferred before it The end is better than the means as such And perfection better than imperfection But the present use of the means may be preferred somtimes before the present possession of the end And the use of means for a higher end may be preferred before the present possession of a lower end And every thing hath its season Planting and Sowing and Building are not so good as Reaping and Fruit gathering and Dwelling But in their season they must be first done II. Quest But what is there so desirable in this Life Ans 1. While it continueth it is the fulfilling of the will of God who will have us here And that 's best which God willeth II. The life to come dependeth upon this As the life of Man in the World upon his Generation in the Womb Or as the reward upon the work or the Runners or Souldiers Prize upon his Race or Fighting Or as the Merchants gain upon his Voyage Heaven is won or lost on Earth The possession is there but the preparation is here Christ will judge all men according to their works on Earth Well done good and faithful Servant must go before Enter thou into the joy of thy Lord I have fought a good Fight I have finished my Course goeth before the Crown of Righteousness which God the righteous Judge will give All that ever must be done for Salvation by us must here be donc It waron Earth that Christ himself wrought the work of 〈◊〉 Redemption fulfilled all Righteousness became our Ransom And paid the Price of our Salvation And it 's here that our part is to be done And the bestowing of the reward of God's work who we are sure will never fail There is no place for the least suspicion or fear of his misdoing or failing in any of his undertaken work But the danger and fear is of our own miscarrying lest we be not found capable of receiving what God will certainly give to all that are disposed Receivers To distrust God is heinous sin and
folly But to distrust our selves we have great cause So that if we will make sure of Heaven it must be by giving all diligence to make firm our Title our Calling and our Election here on Earth If we fear Hell we must fear being prepared for it And it is great and difficult work that must be here done It 's here that we must be cured of all damning sin That we must be Regenerate and new Born that we must be pardoned and justified by Faith It 's here that we must be united to Christ made wise to Salvation renewed by his Spirit and conformed to his likeness It 's here that we must overcome all the temptations of the Devil the World and the Flesh and perform all the duties toward God and Man that must be rewarded It 's here that Christ must be believed in with the Heart to Righteousness and with the Mouth confessed to Salvation It 's here that we must suffer with him that we may reign with him and be faithful to the Death that we may receive the Crown of Life Here we must so run that we may obtain III. Yea we have greater work here to do than meer securing our own Salvation We are 〈◊〉 of the World and Church and we must labour to do good to many We are trusted with our Masters Talents for his Service in our places to do our best to propagaâ—e his Truth and Grace and Church and to bring home Souls and Honour his cause and edifie his Flock and further the Salvation of as many as we can All this is to be done on Earth if we will secure the end of all in Heaven Use I. It is then an errour though it is but few I think that are guilty of it to think that all Religion lieth in minding only the Life to come and disregarding all things in this present life All true Christians must seriously mind both the End and the Means or way If they mind not believingly the End they will never be faithful in the use of means If they mind not and use not diligently the Means they will never obtain the End None can use Earth well that prefer not Heaven And none come to Heaven at Age that are not prepared by well using Earth Heaven must have the deepest esteem and habituated love and desire and joy But Earth must have more of our daily thoughts for present practice A Man that travelleth to the most desirable home hath a habit of desire to it all the way But his present business is his travel And Horse and Company and Inns and Waies and Weariness c. may take up more of his sensible Thoughts and of his Talk and Action than his Home Use II. I have oft marvelled to find David in the Psalms and other Saints before Christ's coming to have expressed so great a sense of the things of this present life and to have said so little of another To have made so great a matter of Prosperity Dominions and Victories on one Hand and of Enemies Success and Persecution on the other But I consider that it was not for meer Personal Carnal interest but for the Church of God and for his Honour Word and Worship And they knew that if things go well with us on Earth they will be sure to go well in Heaven If the militant Church prosper in Holiness there is no doubt but it will triumph in Glory God will be sure to do his part in receiving Souls if they be here prepared for his receipt And Satan doth much of his damning work by men If we escape their temptations we escape much of our danger If Idolaters prospered Israel was tempted to Idolatry The Greek Church is almost swallowed up by Turkish Prosperity and Dominion Most follow the powerful and Prosperous side And therefore for God's cause and for heavenly everlasting interest our own state but much more the Churches must be greatly regarded here on Earth Indeed if earth be desired only for Earth and Prospirity loved but for the present welfare of the Flesh it is the certain Mark of damning carnality and an earthly mind But to desire Peace and Prosperity and Power to be in the hands of wise and faithful men for the sake of Souls and the increase of the Church and the Honour of God that his Name may be hallowed his Kingdom come and his Will done on Earth as it is in Heaven this is to be the chief of our Prayers to God Use III. Be not unthankful then O my Soul for the Mercies of this present life for those to thy Body to thy Friends to the Land of thy Nativity and specially to the Church of God I. This Body is so nearly united to thee that it must needs be a great help or hinderance Had it been more afflicted it might have been a discouraging clog like a tired Horse in a Journey or an ill Tool to a Workman or an untuned Instrument in Musick A sick or bad Servant in an House is a great trouble And a bad Wife much more But thy Body is nearer thee than either and will be more of thy concern And yet if it had been more Strong and Healthful Sense and Appetite would have been strong and Lust would have been strong and therefore danger would have been greater and Victory and Salvation much more difficult Even weak Senses and Temptations have too oft prevailed How knowest thou then what stronger might have done When I see a thirsty Man in a Feaver or Dropsie and specially when I see strong and healthful youths bred up in fulness and among temptations how mad they are in sin and how violently they are carried to it bearing down God's rebukes and Conscience and Parents and Friends and all regard to their Salvation it tells me how great a Mercy I had even in a Body not liable to their case And many a bodily deliverance hath been of great use to my Soul renewing my time and opportunity and strength for Service and bringing frequent and fresh reports of the Love of God If bodily Mercies were not of great use to the Soul Christ would not so much have shewed his saving love by healing all manner of diseases as he did Nor would God promise us a Resurrection of the Body if a congruous Body did not further the welfare of the Soul 2. And I am obliged to great thankfulness to God for the Mercies of this life which he hath shewed to my Friends that which furthers their joy should increase mine I ought to rejoice with them that rejoice Nature and Grace teach us to be glad when our Friends are well and prosper Though all in order to better things than bodily welfare 3. And such Mercies of this life to the Land of our Habitation must not be undervalued The want of them are parts of God's threatned Curse and godliness hath the Promise of this life and of that which is to come and so is profitable to
The Crown will come in its due time And Eternity is long enough to enjoy it how long soever it be delayed But if I will do that which must obtain it for my self and others it must be quickly done before my declining sun be set O that I had no worse causes of my unwillingness yet to die than my desire to do the work of life for my own and other mens Salvation And to finish my course with joy and the Ministry committed to me by the Lord. Use VI. And as it is on Earth that I must do good to others so it must be in a manner suited to their state on Earth Souls are here closely united to Bodies by which they must receive much good or hurt Do good to mens Bodies if thou wouldst do good to their Souls Say not Things corporeal are worthless Trifles for which the receivers will be never the better They are things that nature is easily sensible of And sense is the passage to the mind and will Dost not thou find what a help it is to thy self to have at any time any ease and alâ—crity of Body And what a burden and hinderance pains and cares are Labour then to free others from such burdens and temptations and be not regardless of them If thou must rejoice with them that rejoice and mourn with them that mourn further thy own joy in furthering theirs and avoid thy own sorrows in avoiding or curing theirs But alas what power hath selfishness in most How easily do we bear our Brethrens pains reproaches wants and afflictions in comparison of our own How few thoughts and how little cost or labour do we use for their supply in comparison of what we do for our selves Nature indeed teacheth us to be most sensible of our own case But Grace tells us that we should not make so great a difference as we do but should love our Neighbours as our selves Use VII And now O my Soul consider how mercifully God hath dealt with thee that thy streight should be between two conditions so desirable I shall either die speedily or stay yet longer upon Earth Which ever it be it will be a Merciful and Comfortable state That it is desirable to depart and be with Christ I must not doubt and shall anon more copiously consider And if my abode on Earth yet longer be so great a Mercy as to be put in the Ballance against my present possession of Heaven surely it must be a state which obligeth me to great thankfulness to God and comfortable acknowledgment And surely it is not my pain or sickness my sufferingâ— from malicious men that should make this Life on Earth unacceptable while God will continue it Paul had his Prick or Thorn in the Flesh the Messenger of Satan to Buffet him and suffered more from men though less in his Health than I have done And yet he gloried in such Infirmities and rejoiced in his Tribulationâ— and was in a streight between living and dying yea rather chose to live yet longer Alas it is another kind of streight that most of the World are in The streight of most is between the desire of Life for fleshly interest and the fear of Death as ending their felicity The streight of many is between a tiring World and Body which maketh them aweary of living and the dreadful prospect of future danger which makes them afraid of dying If they live it is in misery if they must die they are afraid of greater misery which way ever they Look behind or before them to this World or the next fear and trouble is their Lot yea many an upright Christian through the weakness of their Trust in God doth live in this perplexed streight aweary of living and afraid of dying between grief and fear they are prest continually But Paul's streight was between two Joys which of them he should desire most And if that be my case what should much interrupt my Peace or Pleasure If I live it is for Christ for his Work and for his Church for Preparation for my own and others everasting felicity And should any suffering which maketh me not unserviceable make me impatient with such a work and such a life If I die presently it is my gain God who appointeth me my work doth limit my time and sure his glorious reward can never be unseasonable or come too soon if it be the time that he appointeth When I first engaged my self to preach the Gospel I reckoned as probable but upon one or two years And God hath continued me it above Forty four with such interruptions as others in these times have had And what reason have I now to be unwilling either to live or die God's Service hath been so sweet to me that it hath overcome the trouble of constant pains or weakness of the Flesh and all that men have said or done against me But the following Crown exceeds this pleasure more than I am here capable to conceive There is some trouble in all this pleasant work from which the Soul and Flesh would rest And blessed are the dead that die in the Lord Even so saith the Spirit for they rest from their Labours and their Works follow them But O my Soul what need'st thou be troubled in this kind of streight It is not left to thee to choose whether or when thou wilt live or die It is God that will determine it who is infinitely fitter to choose than thou Leave therefore his own work to himself and mind that which is thine whilst thou livest live to Christ and when thou diest thou shalt die to Christ even into his blessed Hands So live that thou maist say It is Christ liveth in me and the life that I live in the Flesh I live by the Faith of the Son of God who loved me and gave himself for me And then as thou hast lived in the comfort of hope thou shalt die unto the comfort of Vision and Fruition And when thou canst say he is the God whose I am and whom I serve thou maist boldly add and whom I trust and to whom I commend my departing Soul And I know whom I have trusted Richard Baxter's Dying Thoughts Philippians 1. 23. For I am in a strait betwixt two having a desire to depart and to be with Christ which is far better or for this is much rather to be preferred or better § 1. MAN that is born of a Woman is of few daies and full of trouble He cometh forth like a Flower and is cut down He fleeth also as a shadow and continueth not And dost thou open thine Eyes upon such a one and bringest me into Judgment with thee saith Job ch 14. v. 1 2 3. As a Watch when it is wound up or as a Candle newly lighted so Man newly conceived or born beginneth a motion which incessantly hasteth to its appointed period And an Action and its Time that is past is Nothing So vain a thing would
see in the brutish Politicks of Benedictus Spinosa in his Tractat. Theolog. Polit. whither the Principles of Infidelity tend If sin so overspread the Earth that the whole world is as drowned in wickedness notwithstanding all the hopes and fears of a life to come what would it do were there no such hopes and fears § 10. 3. And no Mercy can be truly known and estimated nor rightly used and improved by him that seeth not its tendency to the End and perceiveth not that it leadeth to a better Life and useth it not thereunto God dealeth more bountifully with us than worldlings understand He giveth us all the mercies of this life as helps to an immortal state of Glory and as earnests of it Sensualists know not what a Soul is nor what Soul-mercies are and therefore not what the Soul of all bodily mercies are but take up only with the carkass shell or shadow If the King would give me a Lordship and send me a Horse or Coach to carry me to it and I should only ride about the fields for my pleasure and make no other use of it should I not undervalue and lose the principal benefit of my Horse or Coach No wonder if unbelievers be unthankful when they know not at all that part of God's mercies which is the life and real excellency of them § 11. 4. And alas how should I bear with comfort the sufferings of this wretched life without the hopes of a life with Christ What should support and comfort me under my bodily languishings and pains my weary hours and my daily experience of the Vanity and Vexation of all things under the Sun had I not a prospect of a comfortable end of all I that have lived in the midst of great and precious mercies have all my life had something to do to overcome the temptation of wishing that I had never been born and had never overcome it but by the belief of a blessed Life hereafter Solomon's sense of Vanity and Vexation hath long made all the business and wealth and honour and pleasure of this world as such appear such a dream and shadow to me that were it not for the End I could not have much differenced men's sleeping and their waking thoughts nor have much more valued the waking than the sleeping part of life but should have thought it a kind of happiness to have slept from the birth unto the death Children cry when they come into the world and I am often sorry when I am wakened out of a quiet sleep especially to the business of an unquiet day We should be strongly tempted in our considering state to murmure at our Creator as dealing much hardlier by us than by the Brutes if we must have had all those cares and griefs and fears by the knowledge of what we want and the prospect of death and future evils which they are exempted from and had not withal had the hopes of a future felicity to support us Seneca and his Stoicks had no better Argument to silence such murmurers who believed not a better life than to tell them that if this life had more evil than good and they thought God did them wrong they might remedy themselves by ending it when they would But that would not cure the repinings of a Nature who found it self necessarily aweary of the miseries of life and yet afraid of dying And it is no great wonder that many thought that pre-existent Souls were put into these bodies as a punishment of something done in a former life while they foresaw not the hoped End of all our fears and sorrows O how contemptible a thing is man saith the same Seneca unless he lift up himself above humane things Therefore saith Solomon Eccles 2. 17. when he had glutted himself with all temporal pleasures I hated life because the work that is wrought under the Sun is grievous to me For all is vanity and vexation of spirit § 12. II. I have often thought whether an Implicit belief of a future happiness without any search into its nature and thinking of any thing that can be said against it or the searching trying way be better On the one side I have known many godly women that never disputed the matter but served God comfortably to a very old Age between 80 and 100 to have lived many years in a chearful readiness and desire of death and such as few Learned studious men do never attain to in that degree who no doubt had this as a Divine Reward of their long and faithful service of God and trusting in him On the other side a studious man can hardly keep off all Objections or secure his mind against the suggestions of difficulties and doubts and if they come in they must be answered seeing we give them half a victory if we cast them off before we can answer them And a Faith that is not upheld by such evidence of Truth as Reason can discern and justifie is oft joyned with much secret doubting which men dare not open but do not therefore overcome And its weakness may have a weakening deficiency as to all the graces and duties which should be strengthened by it And who knoweth how soon a temptation from Satan or Infidels or our own dark hearts may assault us which will not without such evidence and resolving Light be overcome And yet many that try and reason and dispute most have not the strongest or most powerful Faith § 13. And my thoughts of this have had this issue 1. There is a great difference between that Light which sheweth us the Thing it self and that artificial skill by which we have right Notions Names Definitions and formed Arguments and Answers to Objections This Artificial Logical Organical kind of Knowledge is good and useful in its kind if right like Speech it self But he that hath much of this may have little of the former And unlearned persons that have little of this may have more of the former and may have those inward perceptions of the verity of the Promises Rewards of God which they cannot bring forth into artificial reasonings to themselves or others who are taught of God by the effective sort of Teaching which reacheth the Heart o◠Will as well as the Understanding and is a Giving of what is taught and a Making us such as we are told we must be And who findeth not need to pray hard for this effective Teaching of God when he hath got all Organical Knowledge and Words and Arguments in themselves most apt at his fingers ends as we say When I can prove the Truth of the Word of God and the Life to come with the most convincing undeniable Reasons I feel need to cry and pray daily to God to increase my Faith and to give me that Light which may satisfie the Soul and reach the end § 14. 2. Yet man being a Rational wight is not taught by meer Instinct and Inspiration And therefore this
that is every where but by a peculiar operation and relation And so holy Souls being under a more felicitating operation of God may well be said to have a Nearer Union with him than now they have § 35. 〈◊〉 And I observe that as is aforesaid all things have naturally a strong inclination to Union and Communion with their like Every clod and stone inclineth to the Earth Water would go to Water Air to Air Fire to Fire Birds and Beasts associate with their like And the noblest natures are most strongly thus inclined And therefore I have natural reason to think that it will be so with holy Souls § 36. 3. And I find that the inordinate Contraction of Man to himself and to the interest of this Individual-Person with the defect of Love to all about us according to every creatures goodness and specially to God the Infinite good whom we should love above our selves is the very sum of all the pravity of man And all the injustice and injury to others and all the neglect of good works in the world and all our daily terrours and self-distracting self-tormenting cares and griefs and fears proceed from this inordinate Love and Adhesion to our selves Therefore I have reason to think that in our better state we shall perfectly Love others as our selves and the selfish Love will turn into a common and a Divine Love which must be by our preferring the common and the Divine Good and Interest § 37. And I am so sensible of the power and Plague of selfishness and how it now corrupteth tempteth and disquieteth me that when I feel any fears lest individuation cease and my Soul fall into one common Soul as the Stoicks thought all Souls did at death I find great cause to suspect that this ariseth from the power of this corrupting selfishness For Reason seeth no cause at all to fear it were it so § 38. 4. For I find also that the nature of Love is to desire as near a Union as is possible And the strongest Love doth strongliest desire it Fervent Lovers think they can scarce be too much One. And Love is our Perfection and therefore so is Union § 39. 5. And I find that when Christians had the first and full pourings out of the Spirit they had the ferventest Love and the nearest Union and the least desire of propriety and distance § 40. 6. And I find that Christs prayer for the felicity of his disciples is a prayer for their Unity Joh. 17. 22 23. And in this he placeth much of their Persection § 41. 7. And I find also that man is a sociable nature and that all men find by experience that conjunction in societies is needful to their Safety strength and Pleasure § 42. 8. And I find that my Soul would fain be nearer God and that darkness and distance is my misery and near communion is it that would answer all the tendencies of my Soul Why then should I fear too near a Union § 43. I think it utterly improbable that my Soul should become more nearly united to any creature than to God though it be of the same kind with other Souls and infinitely below God For God is as near me as I am to my self I still depend on him as the effect upon its total constant cause And that not as the fruit upon the Tree which borroweth all from the Earth Water Air and Fire which it communicateth to its fruit but as a creature on its Creator who hath no Being but what it receiveth totally from God by constant communication Hence Autonine Seneca and the rest of the Stoicks thought that all the World was God or one Great Animal consisting of Divine Spirit and Matter as Man of Soul and body Sometime calling the supposed Soul of the World GOD and sometime calling the whole World God But still meaning that the Universe was but one Spirit and Body united and that we all are parts of God or of the Body of God or Accidents at least § 44. And even the Popish Mystical Divines in their pretensions to the highest Perfection say the same in sense such as Benedict Anglus in his Regula Perfectionis approved by many Doctors who placeth much of his Supereminent Life in our Believing verily that there is nothing but God and Living accordingly Maintaining that all creatures are nothing distinct from God but are to God as the Beams are to the Sun and as the Heat is to the Fire which really is it self And so teaching us to rest in all things as Good as being nothing but Gods essential will which is himself resolving even our sins and Imperfections accordingly into God so that they are Gods or None § 45. And all these men have as fair a pretence for their conceits of such a Union with God now as for such an Union after death For their Reason is 1. That God being Infinite there can be no more Beings than his own But God and the smallest Being distinct would be more Entity than God alone But Infinity can have no addition 2. Because Ens Bonum Convertuntur But God only is good And if we are notwithstanding all this distinct Beings from God now we shall be so then For we shall not be Annihilated and we shall not be so advanced as to be deified and of creatures or distinct Beings turned into a Being infinitely above us If we be not Parts of God now we shall not be so then But if they could prove that we are so now we should quickly prove to them 1. That then God hath material divisible parts as the Stoicks thought 2. And that we are no such parts as are not distinct from one another but some are tormented and some happy And 3. That as is said it will be no abatement of the misery of the tormented nor of the felicity of the blessed to tell them that they are all parts of God For though the manner of our Union with him and dependance on him be past our comprehension yet that we are distinct and distant from each other and have each one a joy or misery of his own is past all doubt Therefore there is no Union with God to be feared by holy Souls but the utmost possible to be highliest desired § 46. And if our Union with God shall not cease our Individuation or resolve us into a Principle to be feared we may say so also of our Union with any common Soul or many If we be Unible we are Partible and so have a distinct though not a divided substance which will have its proper Accidents All Plants are parts of the Earth really united to it and radicated in it and live and are nourished by it And yet a Vine is a Vine and an Apple is an Apple and a Rose is a Rose and a Nettle is a Nettle And few men would be toiled Horses or Toads if it were proved that they are animated by a common Soul § 47.
than long ago Am I at the highest 〈◊〉 Man on Earth can reach and that when I am so dark and low Is there no growth of these apprehensions more to be expected Doth the Soul cease its increase in vigorous Perception when the Body ceaseth its increase or vigor of sensation Must I sit down in so low a measure while I am drawing nearer to the things believed and am almost there where belief must pass into sight and love or must I take up with the passive silence and inactivity which some Fryars persuade us is nearer to Perfection and under pretence of Annihilation and Receptivity let my fluggish Heart alone and say that in this neglect I wait for thy Operations O let not a Soul that is driven from this World and weary of Vanity and can think of little else but immortality that seeks and crys both Night and Day for the heavenly Light and fain would have some foretast of Glory and some more of the first Fruits of the promised joys let not such a Soul either long or cry or strive in vain Punish not my former grieving of thy Spirit by deserting a Soul that cryeth for thy Grace so near its great and unconceivable change Let me not languish in vain desires at the Door of Hope nor pass with doubtful Thoughts and Fears from this Vale of Misery Which should be the Season of Triumphant Faith and Hope and Joy if not when I am entering on the World of Joy O thou that hast left us so many consolatory words of Promise that our joy may be full send O send the promised Comforter without whose approaches and heavenly Beams when all is said and a thousand Thoughts and strivings have been assayed it will still be Night and Winter with the Soul § 19. But have I not expected more particular and more sensitive Conceptions of Heaven and the State of blessed Souls than I should have done and â—emained less satisfied because I expected such distinct Perceptions to my satisfaction which God doth not ordinarily give to Souls in Flesh I fear it hath been too much so A distrust of God and a distrustful desire to know much Good and Evil for our selves as necessary to our quiet and satisfaction was that sin which hath deeply corrupted Man's Nature and is more of our common pravity than is commonly observed I find that this Distrust of God and my Redeemer hath had too great a hand in my desires of a distincter and more sensible Knowledg I know that I should implicitely and absolutely and quietly trust my Soul into my Redeemers Hands of which I must speak more anon And it is not only for the Body but also for the Soul that a distrustful care is our great sin and Misery But yet we must desire that our Knowledge and Belief may be as distinct and particular as God's Revelations are and we can Love no further than we know and the more we know of God and Glory the more we shall love desire and trust him It is a known and not meerly an unknown God and happiness that the Soul doth joyfully desire And if I may not be ambitious of too sensible and distinct Perceptions here of the things unseen yet must I desire and beg the most fervent and sensible Love to them that I am capable of I am willing in part to take up with that unavoidable ignorance and that low degree of such Knowledge which God confineth us to in the Flesh so be it he will give me but such Consolatory foretasts in Love and Joy which such a General imperfect Knowledge may consist with that my Soul may not pass with distrust and terrour but with suitable triumphant Hopes to the Everlasting pleasures O Father of Lights who givest Wisdom to them that ask it of thee shut not up this sinful Soul in darkness Leave me not to grope in unsatisfied doubts at the Door of the Celestial Light Or if my Knowledg must be General let it be clear and powerful and deny me not now the lively exercise of FAITH HOPE and LOVE which are the stirrings of the New Creature and the dawnings of the everlasting Light and the Earnest of the promised Inheritance § 20. But we are oft ready to say with Cicero when he had been reading such as Plato that while the Book is in our Hands we seem confident of our Immortality and when we lay it by our doubts return so our Arguments seem clear and cogent and yet when we think not of them with the best advantage we are oft surprized with Fear lest we should be mistaken and our Hopes be vain and hereupon and from the common fear of Death that even good men too often manifest the Infidels gather that we do but force our Selves into such a Hope as we desire to be true against the tendency of mans Nature and that we were not made for a better World § 21. But this fallacy ariseth from mens not distinguishing 1. sensitive fears from Rational uncertainty or doubts 2. And the mind that is in the darkness of unbelief from that which hath the Light of Faith I find in my self too much of fear when I look into Eternity interrupting and weakening my Desires and Joy But I find that it is very much an irrational sensitive Fear which the Darkness of Man's mind the Greatness of the Change the dreadful Majesty of God and Man's Natural aversness to die do in some degree necessitate even when Reason is fully satisfied that such fears are consistent with certain safety If I were bound with the strongest Chains or stood on the surest Battlements on the top of a Castle or Steeple I could not possibly look down without fear and such as would go near to overcome me and yet I should be rationally sure that I am there fast and safe and cannot fall So is it with our Prospect into the Life to come Fear is oft a necessitated Passion When a Man is certain of his safe Foundation it will violently rob him of the comfort of that Certainty Yea it is a passion that irrationally doth much to corrupt our Reason it self and would make us doubt because we fear though we know not why And a fearful Man doth hardly trust his own apprehensions of his safety but among other Fears is still ready to fear lest he be deceived Like timorous Melancholy Persons about their Bodies who are ready still to think that every little Distemper is a mortal Symptom and that worse is still near them than they feel and they hardly believe any words of hope § 22. And Satan knowing the power of these passions and having easier access to the Sensitive than to the Intellective Faculties doth labour to get in at this back Door and to frighten poor Souls into doubts and unbelief and in timorous Natures he doth it with too great success as to the Consolatory acts of Faith Though yet God's Mercy is wonderfully seen in preserving many
Either no Dreams or vain or troublesom Dreams are much more common And to say that Rest and Ease is my pleasure is but to say that my daily labour and cares are so much greater than my waking pleasure that I am glad to lay by both together For what is Ease but deliverance from weariness and pain For in deep and dreamless sleep there is little positive sense of the Pleasure of Rest itself But indeed it is more from Natures necessitated inclination to this self-easing and repairing means than from the positive pleasure of it that we desire sleep And if we can thus be contented every Night to die as it were to all our waking pleasures why should we be unwilling to die to them at once 5. If it be the inordinate pleasures forbidden of God which you are loath to leave those must be left before you die or else it had been better for you never to have been born Yea every wise and godly Man doth cast them off with detestation You must be against Holiness on that account as well as against Death And indeed the same Cause which maketh men unwilling to live a Holy life hath a great hand in making them unwilling to die even because they are loth to leave the pleasure of sin If the wicked be converted he must be gluttonous and drunken no more he must live in Pride Vain-glory Worldliness and sensual pleasures no more and therefore he draweth back from a Holy life as if it were from Death itself And so he is the lother to die because he must have no more of the pleasures of his Riches Pomp and Honours his Sports and Lust and pleased Appetite no more for ever but what 's this to them that have mortified the Flesh with the affections and lusts thereof 6. Yea it is these forbidden pleasures which are the great impediments both of our Holiness and our truest pleasures And one of the Reasons why God forbiddeth them is because they hinder us from better And if for our own good we must forsake them when we turn to God it must be supposed that they should be no reason against our willingness to die but rather that to be free from the danger of them we should be the more willing 7. But the great satisfying Answer of this Objection is that Death will pass us to far greater pleasures with which all these are not worthy to be compared But of this more in due place § 5. III. When I die I must depart not only from sensual delights but from the more manly Pleasures of my Studies knowledge and converse with many wise and godly men and from all my pleasure in Reading Hearing publick and private Exercises of Religion c. I must leave my Library and turn over those pleasant Books no more I must no more come among the Living nor see the faces of my faithful Friends nor be seen of Man Houses and Cities and Fields and Countreys Gardens and Walks will be nothing as to me I shall no more hear of the Affairs of the World of Man or Wars or other News nor see what becomes of that beloved Interest of Wisdom Piety and Peace which I desire may prosper c. Answ 1. Though these delights are far above those of sensual Sâ—â—ners yet alas how low and little are they How small is our knowledg in comparison of our Ignorance And how little doth the knowledge of Learned Doctors differ from the thoughts of a silly Child For from our Childhood we take it in but by drops and as trifles are the Matter of childish knowledge so Words and Notions and artificial Forms do make up more of the Learning of the World than is commonly understood and many such Learned men know little more of any Great and excellent Things themselves than Rusticks that are contemned by them for their ignorance God and the Life to come are little better known by them if not much less than by many of the unlearned What is it but a Child-game that many Logicians Rhetoricians Grammarians yea Metaphysicians and other Philosophers in their eagerest Studies and Disputes are exercised in Of how little use is it to know what is contained in many Hundred of the Volumes that fill our Libraries Yea or to know many of the most glorious Speculations in Physicks Mathematicks c. Which have given some the Title of Virtuosi Ingeniosi in these times who have little the more Wit or Virtue to Live to God or overcome Temptations from the Flesh and World and to secure their everlasting Hopes What pleasure or quiet doth it give to a dying Man to know almost any of their Trifles 2. Yea it were well if much of our Reading and Learning did us no harm and more than good I fear lest Books are to some but a more honourable kind of temptation than Cards and Dice Lest many a precious Hour be lost in them that should be employed on much higher matters And lest many make such knowledge but an unholy natural yea carnal Pleasure as Worldings do the Thoughts of their Lands and Honours and lest they be the more dangerous by how much the less suspected But the best is it is a pleasure so feâ—â—ed from the sloathful with Thorny labour of hard and long Studies that laziness saveth more from it than Grace and holy Wisdom doth But doubtless Fancy and the Natural Intellect may with as little Sanctity live in the pleasure of Reading Knowing Disputing and Writing as others spend their time at a Game at Chess or other ingenious sport For my own part I know that the Knowledg of Natural things is valuable and may be Sanctified much more Theological Theory And when it is so it is of good use and I have little knowledge which I find not some way useful to my highest ends And if Wishing or Money would procure more I would wish and empty my Purse for it but yet if many score or hundred Books which I have read had been all unread and I had that time now to lay out upon higher thing I should think my self much richer than now I am And I must earnestly pray The Lord forgive me the Hours that I have spent in reading Things less profitable for the pleasing of a Mind that would fain know all which I should have spent for the increase of Holiness in my self and others And yet I must thankfully acknowledge to God that from my youth he taught me to begin with things of greatest weight and to refer most of my other Studies thereto and to spend my days under the Motives of Necessity and Profit to my self and those with whom I had to do And I now think better of the Course of Paul that determined to know nothing but a Crucified Christ among the Corinthians that is so to converse with them as to Use and Glorying as if he knew nothing else And so of the the rest of the Apostles and Primitive Ages And
part not Rem sed aliquid Rei in which sense Sanchez truly saith Nihil scitur But then shall I know even as I am known Not a God knoweth us for our knowledge and his must not be so comparatively likened but as Holy Spirits know us both now and for ever we shall both know and be known by immediate intuition If a Physician be to describe the parts of Man and the latent Diseases of his Patient he is fain to search hard and bestow many Thoughts of it besides his long reading and converse to make him capable of knowing and when all is done he goeth much upon Conjectures and his knowledge is mixt with many uncertainties yea and mistakes but when he openeth the Corps he seeth all and his knowledg is more full more true and more certain besides that it is easily and quickly attained even by a present look A Countrey Man knoweth the Town the Fields and Rivers where he dwelleth yea and the Plants and Animals with ease and certain clearness when he that must know the same things by the study of Geographical Writings and Tables must know them but with a General an unsatisfactory and oft a much mistaking kind of knowledge Alas when our present knowledge hath cost a Man the study of Forty or Fifty or Sixty Years how lean and poor how doubtful and unsatisfactory is it after all But when God will shew us himself and all things and when Heaven is known as the Sun by its own Light this will be the clear suâ—â— and satisfactory knowledge Blessed are the Pure in Heart for they shall see God Mat. 5. And without Holiness none can see him Heb. 12. 14. This sight will be worthy the Name of Wisdom when our present glympse is but Philosophy a love and desire of Wisdom So far should we be from fearing Death through the fear of losing our knowledge or any of the means of knowledge that it should make us rather long for the World of Glorious Light that we might get out of this darkness and know all that with an easie look to our joy and satisfaction which here we know with troublesome doubtings or not at all Shall we be afraid of darkness in the Heavenly Light or of Ignorance when we see the Lord of Glory § 6. And as for the loss of Sermons Books and other means surely it is no loss to cease the means when we have attained the end Cannot we spare our Winter Clothes as troublesom in the heat of Summer and sit by the hot Fire without our Glores Cannot we sit at home without a Horse or Coach Or set them by at our Journeys end Cannot we lie in Bed without Boots and Spurs Is it grievous to us to cease our Physick when we are well Even here he is happier that hath least of the Creature and needeth least than he that hath much and needeth much Because all Creature commodities and helps have also their discommodities and troublesomness And the very applying and using so many remedies of our want is tedious of itself And as God only needeth nothing but is self-sufficient and therefore only perfectly and essentially happy so those are likest God that need least from without and have the greatest plenitude of internal goodness What need we to preach hear read pray to bring us to Heaven when we are there § 7. And as for our Friends and our converse with them as Relations or as wise religious and faithful to us he that believeth not that there are far More and far Better in Heaven than are on Earth doth not believe as he ought that there is a Heaven Our Friends here are wise but they are unwise also They are Faithful but partly unfaithful they are holy but also alas too sinful They have the Image of God but blotted and dishonoured by their faults They do God and his Church much service but they also do too much against him and too much for Satan even when they intend the Honour of God They promote the the Gospel but they also hinder it Their weakness ignorance errour selfishness pride passion division contention scandals and remisness do oft so much hurt that it is hard to discern whether it be not greater than their good to the Church or to their Neigbours Our Friends are our helpers and comforters but how oft also are they our hinderers troubles and grief But in Heaven they are altogether wise and holy and faithful and concordant and have nothing in them nor there done by them but what is amiable to God and Man And with our faithful Friends we have here a mixture partly of useless and burdensom Persons and partly of unfaithful Hypocrites and partly of self-conceited factious Wranglers and partly of malicious envious underminers and partly of implacable Enemies And how many of all these set together is there for one worthy faithful Friend And how great a number iâ— there to trouble you For one that will indeed comfort you But in Heaven there are none but the Wise and Holy No Hypocrites no burdensom Neighbours no treacherous or oppressing or persecuting Enemies are there And is not all good and amiable better than a little good with so troublesome a mixture of noisome Evils Christ loved his Disciples his Kindred yea and all Mankind and took pleasure in doing good to all and so did his Apostles But how poor a requital had he or they from any but from God Christ's own Brethren believed not in him but wrangled with him almost like those that said to him on the Cross If thou be the Son of God come down and we will believe Peter himself was once a Satan to him Matth. 16. and after with Cursing and Swearing denied him And all his Disciples forsook him and fled And what then from others could be expected No Friends have a perfect suitableness to each other and roughness and inequalities that are nearest us are most troublesom The wonderful variety and contrariety of apprehensions interest educations temperaments and occasions and temptations c. are such that whilest we are scandalized at the discord confusions of the World we must recal our selves and admire that all ruling Providence which keepeth up so much order and concord as there is We are indeed like People in crowded Streets who going several ways molest each other with their jostling oppositions Or like Boys at Foot-ball striving to overthrow each other for the Ball But it is a wonder of Divine Power and Wisdom that all the World is not continually in mortal War If I do men no harm yet if I do but cross their Wills it goeth for a provoking injury And when there are as many Wills as Persons who is it that can please them all Who hath Money enough to please all the Poor that need it or the Covetous that desire it Or who can live with displeased men and not feel some of the fruits of their displeasure What day goeth over
cryed up and his Party praised as the chiefest Saints But all that tendeth to the praise of those that he dissenteth from and accounteth adversaries to the Truth is distastful to him as a complying with iniquity and a strengthning of the Enemies of Christ And all that uncharitableness which he expecteth from us against others is as much expected by others as against him and such as he This Day while I am writing these words my Pockets are too full of Letters sent me on one side importunately charging it on me as my duty to conform to the Oaths Declarations Covenants and Practises now imposed or else to give over preaching which would please them and on the other side vehemently censuring me as guilty of grievous sin for declaring my judgment for so much of Conformity as I have done and charging me by Predictions as guilty of the Sufferings of all that are otherwise minded for communicating in the Sacrament and the common Prayers of the Church and others in the mid way persuading me equally to bear my Testimony against unjust Separation and Persecution and to endeavour still if possible to save a self destroying People from the tearing fury of these two extreams And how should I answer these contrary expectations or escape the Censures of such expectants And it hath pleased God who Thirty Years and more hath tryed me by humane Applause of late in this City where multitudes of Persons of contrary Minds are like Passengers in crowded Streets still jostling and offending one another to exercise me with mens daily backbitings and cavils And so many have chosen me for the subject of their Discourse that I may say as Paul 1 Cor. 4. 9 10 c. We are made a Spectacle or Theatre to the World and to Angels and to men We are Fools for Christs sake but ye are wise in Christ c. Did I not live out of the noise in retirement and taken up with pain and expectations of my change what an annoyance to me would it be to hear Religious Persons that have a God a Christ a Heaven to talk of to abuse their Time and Tongues in so much talking of one so inconsiderable and that hath so little to do with them or they with him while with some overvaluing me and others still quarrelling I am the matter of their idle sinful talk The Persecutors for divers Years after first silencing if not still and the Separatists for two or three Years last past have been possessed with so strange a jealousie and quarrelsom a disposition against me that they seem to take it for their Interest to promote my defamation and for much of their work to search what may afford them any matter of accusation in every Sermon that I preach and every Book that I write And though the fury of the Persecutors be such as maketh them much uncapable of such converse and sober consideration as is needful to their true information and satisfaction yet most of the more Religious Cavillers are satisfied as soon as I have spoken with them and all endeth in a putarem or non putarem For want of accurateness and patience they judge rashly before they understand and when they understand confess their errour and yet many go on and take no warning after many times conviction of their mistake Even in Books that are still before their Eyes as well as in transient words in Sermons they heedlesly leave out or put in or alter and misreport plain words and with confidence affirm those things to have been said that never were said but perhaps the contrary And when all People will judg of the good or evil of our words as they think we have Reason to use them or forbear them how can we satisfie men that are out of our hearing and to whom we cannot tell our Reasons Most men are of private narrow observation judge of the good or hurt that our words do by those that they themselves converse with And when I convince them that my decisions of many questions which they are offended at are true they say It is an unseasonable and a hurtful truth and when I have called them to look further abroad in the World and told them my Reasons they say Had these been all set down men would have been satisfied And on how hard terms do we instruct such Persons whose narrow understandings cannot know obvious Reasons of what we say till they are particularly told them And so to tell men the Reasons of all that such can quarrel with will make every Book to swell with Commentaries to such a bigness as they can neither buy nor read And they come not to us to know our Reasons nor have we leisure to open them to every single Person And thus suspicious men when their understandings want the humbling acquaintance with their ignorance and their Consciences that tenderness which should restrain them from rash judging go on to accuse such needful Truths of which they know not the use and reason And what Man living hath the leisure and opportunity to acquaint all the ignorant Persons in City and Countrey with all the Reasons of all that he shall say write or do Or who that writeth not a Page instead of a Sentence can so write that every unprepared Reader shall understand him And what hopes hath that Tutor or School-master of preserving his reputation who shall be accounted erroneous and accused of unsound or injurious Doctrine by every Schollar that understandeth not his words and all the reasons of them But God in great Mercy to me hath made this my Lot not causing but permitting the sins of the contentious that I might before death be better weaned from all below Had my temptations from inordinate Applause had no allay they might have been more dangerously strong Even yet while Church-Dividers on both extreams do make me the Object of their daily obloquy the continued respects of the sober and peaceable are so great as to be a temptation strong enough to so weak a Person to give a check to my desires to leave the World It is long since Riches and worldly Honour appeared to me as they are as not rendring the World much lovely or desireable But the Love and Concord of Religious Persons hath a more amiable Aspect There is so much Holiness in these that I was loth to call them Vanity and Vexation But yet as Flesh and Blood would refer them to selfish Ends and any way value them as a Carnal interest I must so call them and number them with the things that are Loss and Dung Phil. 3. 7 8. Selfishness can serve itself upon things good and holy And if good men and good Books and good Sermons would make the World seem overlovely to us it will be a Mercy of God to abate the temptation And if my Soul looking toward the heavenly Jerusalem be hindred as Paul was in his Journey to Jerusalem Act. 20. 21. by
tell me The Church cannot yet spare you There is yet this and that necessary work to be done There is this and that need c. But 1. Is it we or God that must choose his Servants and cut out their work Whose work am I doing Is it my own or his If his is it not he that must tell me what and when and how long And will not his will and choice be best If I beâ—â—eve not this how do I take him for my God Doth God or I know better what he hath yet to do And who is fittest to do it The Churches Service and benefits must be measured out by our Master and Benefactor and not by our selves 2. What am I to those more excellent Persons whom in all Ages he hath taken out of the World And would mens Thoughts of the Churches needs detain them The poor Heathen Infidel Mahometane Nations have no Preachers of the Gospel And if their need prove not that God will send them such no Countreys need will prove that God will continue them such Many more useful Servants of Christ have died in their youth John Janeway preached but one Sermon Joseph Allen and many another excellent Men died young in the midst of his vigorous successful labours Both of them far more fit for God's work and likely to win Souls and glorifie God than I am or ever was However their greater Light was partly kindled from my lesser Yet did both these under painful consuming languishings of the Flesh die as they had long lived in the lively triumphant Praises of their Redeemer and joyful desires and hopes of Glory And shall I at Sixty seven Years of Age after such a life of unspeakable Mercies and after almost Forty four Years of comfortable help in the Service of my Lord be now afraid of my reward and shrink at the Sentence of Death and still be desiring to stay here upon pretence of further service We know not what is best for the Church as God doth The Church and the World are not Ours but his not our desires but his will must measure out its Mercies We are not so Merciful as he is It is not unmeet for us to desire many things which God will not give nor seeth it meet to grant the particulars of such desires Nothing ever lay so heavy on my Heart as the sin and misery of Mankind and to think how much of the World lyeth in folly and wickedness And for what can I pray so heartily as for the Worlds recovery And it is his will that I should shew a Holy and Universal Love by praying Let thy Name be hallowed Thy Kingdom come and Thy will be done on Earth as it is done in Heaven And yet alas how unlike is Earth to Heaven and what Ignorance Sin Confusions and Cruelties here reign and prosper And unless there be a wonderful change to be expected even as by a general Miracle how little hope appeareth that ever these Prayers should be granted in the things It maketh us better to desire that others may be better But God is the free disposer of his own gifts And it seemeth to be his will that the permitted Ignorance and Confusions of this World should help us the more to value and desire that World of Light Love and Order which he calleth us to prefer and hope for And if I am any way useful to the World it is undeserved Mercy that hath made me so for which I must be thankful But How long I shall be so is not my business to determine but my Lords My many sweet and beautiful Flowers arise and appear in their beauty and sweetness but for one Summers time and they murmur not that they flourish for so short a space The Beasts and Birds and Fishes which I feed on do live till I will have them die And as God will be served and pleased by wonderful variety at once of Animals and Vegetables c. So will he by many successive Generations If one Flower fall or die it sufficeth that others shall Summer after Summer arise from the same root And if my Pears Apples Plums c. fall or serve me when they are ripe it sufficeth that not they but others the next Year shall do the same God will have other Generations to succeed us Let us think him that we have had our time And could we overcome the Grand too little observed Crime of SELFISHNESS and could Love others as our selves and God as God above all the World it would comfort us at Death that others shall survive us and the World shall continue and God will be still God and be glorified in his works And Love will say I shall live in my successors and I shall more than Live in the Life of the World and yet most of all in the eternal Life and Glory of God And God who made us not gods but poor Creatures as it pleased him doth know best our measures And he will not try us with too long a Life of Temptations lest we should grow too familiar where we should be Strangers and utterly Strangers to our home No wonder if that World was ready for a deluge by a deluge of sin in which men lived to Six Seven Eight and Nine hundred Years of Age Had our Great Sensualists any hope of so long a life they were like to be like incarnate Devils and there would be no dwelling near them for the Holy Seed If Angels were among them they would like the Sodâ—mites seek furiously to abuse them Nor will God tire us out with too long a life of earthly sufferings We think short cares and fears and sorrows persecutions sickness and crosses to be long And shall we grudge at the Wisdom and Love which shortneth them Yea though holy duty it self be excellent and sweet yet the weakness of the Flesh maketh us liable to weariness and abateth the willingness of the Spirit And our wise and merciful God will not make our warfare or our race too long lest we be wearied and faint and fall short of the prize By our weariness and complaints and fears and groans one would think that we thought this life too long and yet when we should yield to the call of God we draw back as if we would have it everlasting § 12. Willingly submit then O my Soul It is not thou but this Flesh that must be dissolved this troublesom vile and corruptible Flesh It is but the other half thy meat and drink which thy presence kept longer uncorrupted going after the excremental part Thou diest not when Man the compositum dieth by thy departure And as thou livest not to thy self I die not to my self whether I live or die I am the Lords He that set up the Candle knoweth how long he hath use for the light of it Study thy duty and work while it is Day and let God choose thy time and willingly stand to his disposal The Gospel dieth
how to make her nest to lay her Eggs secretly together when and how to sit on them till they are hatched and how to feed them and preserve them and when to forsake them as sufficient for themselves without her help c. If the Bâ—c know when and whence and how to gather her Honey and Wax and how to form the repository Combs and how to lay it up and all the rest of her marvellous Oeconomy shall I think that God doth he knoweth not what or what is not absolutely the best Doth he want either Shill or Will or Power And should the Stone grudge to be hewed the Brick to be burnt the Trees to be cut down and sawed and framed the Lead and Iron to be melted c. when it is but to form an useful Edifice and to adapt and compose every part to the perfecting of the whole Shall the Waters grudge that they must glide away and the Plants that they must die and half die every Winter and the Fruit and Flowers that they must fall or the Moon that it must have its changing motions or the Sun that it must set and rise so oft c. when all is but the action and order which maketh up that harmony and perfection which was designed by the Creator and is pleasing to his will § 7. III. But lawful self-love is yet further herein gratified The Goodness expressed in the Text is that Analogical subordinate Good which is mihi Bonum my own Felicity and that which tendeth thereunto It is most Reasonable to Love God best and that next which is likest him if known And why should it not be the easiest and the sweetest But experience findeth it so easie to Love our selves that certainly if I firmly Believe that it is best for me I shall Desire to depart and be with Christ And have I not reason to believe it § 8. The Reasons of it I will consider in this order I. The general Reason from the Efficients and the Means II. The Final Reasons III. The constitutive Reasons from the state of my Intellect and its Action and Fruition there IV. The constitutive Reasons from the state of my Will V. The constitutive Reasons from my practice there leaving out those which the Resurrection will give me because I am speaking but of my present departure unto Christ § 9. And 1. That is best for me which Love itself my heavenly Father designeth and chooseth for my good I hope I shall never dare to think or say that he is mistaken or that he wanted Skill or Love Or that I could have chosen better for my self than he doth if he had left all to my choice Many a time the wise and good-will of God hath crossed my foolish rebellious will on Earth And afterward I have still perceived that it was best usually for my self but always for a higher good than mine It is not an Enemy nor a Tyrant that made me that hath preserved me and that calls me hence He hath not used me as an Enemy The more I have tried him the better I have found him Had I better obeyed his Ruling will how happy had I been And is not his disposing and rewarding will as good Man's work is like Man and evil corrupteth it but God's work is like God and uncorrupted If I should not die till my dearest Friend would have it much more till I my self would choose it not constrained by misery I should rejoyce and think my life were safe O foolish sinful Soul if I take it not to be far better to be at God's choice than at my own or any Mans And if I had not rather that he choose the time than I. Be of good cheer then O my Soul it is thy Fathers voice that calls thee hence His voice that called thee into the World and bid thee live that called thee out of a state of sin and death and bid thee live hereafter unto him That called thee so oft from the Grave and forgiving thy sins renewed thy strength restored thee to the comforts of his House and Service and hath so graciously led thee through this howling Wilderness and brought thee almost to the sight of the promised Land And wilt thou not willingly go when infinite fatherly Love doth call thee Art thou not desirous of his presence Art thou afraid to go to him who is the only cure of thy fears What was it but this Glory to which he did finally Elect thee Where dost thou read that he Elected thee to the Riches and Honours of this World or to the pleasures of the Flesh But he Elected us in Christ to the heavenly Inheritance Eph. 1. 3 4 c. Indeed he Elected thee also to bear the Cross and to manifold sufferings here But is it that which thou preferrest before the Crown That was but as a Means unto the Kingdom that thou mightest be conformed to Christ and reign with him when thou hast suffered with him If God choose thee to blessedness refuse it not thy self nor behave thy self like a refuser § 10. 2. And surely that state is my Best which my Saviour purchased and promised me as best As he bought me not with Silver and Gold so neither to Silver and Gold Did he live and die to make me Rich or advanced in the World Surely his Incarnation Merits Sacrifice and Intercession had a low design if that were all And who hath more of these than they that have least of Christ But he purchased us to an incorruptible Crown to an Inheritance undefiled that fadeth notaway reserved in Heaven for us that are kept by God's Power through Faith unto Salvation 1 Pet. 1. And is it Heaven that cost so dear a price for me and is the End of so wonderful a design of Grace and shall I be unwilling now to receive the gift § 11. 3. That sure is Best for me for which God's Holy Spirit is preparing me That for which he is given to believers And that which is the End of all his holy Operations on my Soul But it is not to Love this World that he is persuading me from Day to Day but to come off from such Love and to set my Heart on the things above Is it to love this life and fleshly interest this Vanity and Vexation or rather to love the invisible Perfection that this blessed Spirit hath done so much to work my Heart And would I now undo all or Cross and frustrate all his Operations Hath Grace been so long preparing me for Glory and shall I be loath to take possession of it If I am not willing I am not yet sufficiently prepared § 12. 4. If Heaven be not better for me than Earth God's Word and Ordinances have been all in vain Surely that is my Best which is the Gift of the Better Covenant and which is secured to me by so many sealed Promises and which I am directed to by so many sacred Precepts
sin and discord But there a whole Heaven fulâ— of blessed Spirits will flame for ever in perfect Love to God to Christ and one another Go then go willingly O my Soul Love joineth with LIGHT to draw up thy desires Nature inclineth all things unto Union Even the lifeless Elements have an Aggregative motion by which the parts when violently separated do hastily return to their Natural adhesion Art thou a Lover of Wisdom and wouldst thou not be united to the Wise Art thou a Lover of Holiness and of Love itself and wouldst thou not be united to the Holy who are made of Love Art thou a hater of enmity discord and divisions and a Lover of Unity here on Earth and wouldst thou not be where all the just are One It is not an unnatural Union to thy loss Nothing shall be taken from thee by it Thou shalt receive by it more than thou canst contribute It shall not be forced against thy will It is but a Union of Minds and Wills a perfect Union of Loves Let not natural or sinful selfishness cause thee to think suspiciously or hardly of it For it is thy happiness and end What got the Angels that fell to selfishness from Unity And what got Adam that followed them herein The further any man goeth from UNITY by SELFISHNESS the deeper he falleth into sin and misery from God! And what doth Grace but call us back from sin and selfishness to Gods Unity again Doâ—e not then on this dark divided World Is not thy Body while the parts by a uniting Soul are kept together and make One in a better state than when it is crumbled into lifeless dust And doth not death creep on thee by a gradual dissolution Away then from this sandy incoherent state The further from the Center the further from Unity A Unity indeed there is of all things but it is One heavenly LIFE and LIGHT and LOVE which is the true felicitating Union We dispute here whether the Aggregative Motion of separated parts as in descensu gravium be from a Motive Principle in the part or by the Attraction of the whole or by any external impulse It is like that there is somewhat of all these But sure the greatest cause is like to do most to the effect The body of the Earth hath more power to attract a Cload or Stone than the intrinsick Principle to move it downwards But intrinsick Gravity is also necessary The superior attractive Love and Loveliness must do more to draw up this mind to God than my intrinsick Holiness to move it upward But without this Holiness the Soul would not be capable of feeling that attractive influx Every Grace cometh from God to fit and lead up my Soul to God Faith therefore believeth the heavenly state and Love doth with some Delight desire it and Hope gapeth after it that I may at last attain it They that have pleaâ—ed against Propriety and would have all things common in this World have forgotten that there is a Propriety in our present Egoity and Natural Constitution which rendereth some accidental Propriety necessary to us Every Man hath his own bodily parts and inherent accidents and every Man must have his own Food his own Place Cloathing and Acquisitions his own Children and therefore his own Wife c. But that the greatest Perfection is most for Community as far as Nature is capable of it God would shew us in making the first Receivers of the extraordinary pourings out of his Spirit to sell all and voluntarily make all common none saying This or that is my own which was not done by any constraining Law but by the Law or Power of uniting Love They were first all as of one Heart and Soul Act. 4. 32. Take not then thy inordinate desire of Propriety for thy Health but for thy Sickness Cherish it not and be not afraid to lose it and measure not the heavenly felicity by it Spirits are penetrable They claim not so much as a Propriety of place as Bodies do It is thy weakness and state of Imperfection now which maketh it so desirable to thee that thy House should be Thine and nones but thine thy Land be Thine and nones but Thine thy Cloaths thy Books yea thy knowledge and grace be Thine and Nones but Thine How much more excellent a state were it if we were here capable of it if we could say that all these are as the common Light of the Sun which is mine and every ones as well as mine Why are we so desirous to speak all Languages but that we might understand all men and 〈◊〉 understood of all and so might make our sentiments as common as is possible Whence is it that men are so addicted to talkativeness but that Nature would make all our Thoughts and passions as common aâ— it can And why else are Learned men so desirous to propagate their Learning and Godly men so desirous to make all others wise and godly It seemeth one of the greatest calamities of this life that when a Man hath with the longest and hardest study attained to much knowledge he cannot bequeath it or any part of it to his Heir or any Person when he dieth but every Man must acquire it for himself And when God hath sanctified the Parents they cannot communicate their Holiness to their Children though God promise to bless them on their account Much less can any Man make his Grace or Knowledge common Nature and Grace incline us to desire it but we cannot do it For this end we Talk and Preach and Write for this end we study to be as plain and convincing and moving as we can that we may make our Knowledge and Affections as common to our Hearers and Readers as we can And O what a blessed work should we take Preaching and Writing for if we could make them all know but what we know and love what we are persuading them to love There would then be no need of Schools and Universities A few Hours would do more than they do in an Age. But alas how rare is it for a Father of excellent Learning and Piety to have one Son like himself after all his industry Is not the heavenly communion then desirable where every Man shall have his Own and yet his Own be common to all others My knowledge shall be mine own and other mens as well as mine My goodness shall be my own and theirs My glory and felicity shall be mine and theirs And theirs also shall be mine as well as theirs The Knowledge the Goodness the Glory of all the heavenly Society shall be Mine according to my Capacity Grace is the Seed of such a state which maketh us all one in Christ neither Barbarian nor Scythian Circumcision nor Uncircumcision Bond nor Free by giving us to love our Neighbours as our selves and to love both our Neighbours and our selves for Christ and Christ in all Well might Paul say All things yours But it
yet Man's internal Sense is far more excellent than the Bruits and thereby is an advantage to our Intellection Volition and Joy here in the Flesh And that in Heaven we shall have not less but more even more excellent Sense and Affections of Love and Joy as well as more excellent Intellection and Volition but such as we cannot now clearly conceive of § 13. Therefore there is great reason for all those Analogical collections which I have mentioned in my Book called The Saints Rest from the present operarations and pleasures of the Soul in Flesh to help our Conceptions of its future pleasures And though we cannot conclude that they will not unconceivably differ in their manner from what we now feel I doubt not but feel and rejoice we shall as certainly as Live and the Soul is Essential Life and that our Life and Feeling and Joy will be unconceivably better The Concluding Application § 1. I am convinced that it is far better to depart and be with Christ than to be here But there is much more than such conviction necessary to bring up my Soul to such desires Still there resisteth 1. The natutural averseness to Death which God hath put into every Animal and which is become inordinate and too strong by sin II. The remnants of Unbelief taking advantage of our darkness here in the Flesh and our too much familiarity with this visible World III. The want of more lively fortasts in a heavenly mind and love through weakness of Grace and the fear of Guilt These stand up against all that is said and words will not overcome them what then must be done Is there no remedy § 2. There is a Special sort of the Teaching of God by which we must learn so to number our Days as to apply our Hearts to Wisdom Without which we shall never effectually practically and savingly learn either this or any the most common and obvious easie Lesson When we have read and heard and spoken and written the soundest Truth and certainest Arguments we know yet as if we knew not and believe as if we believed not with a slight and dreaming kind of apprehension till God by a special Illumination bring the same things clearly to our Minds and awaken the Soul by a special suscitation to feel what we know and suit the Soul to the Truth revealed by an influx of his Love which giveth us a pleasing sense of the Amiableness and Congruity of the things proposed Since we separated our selves from God there is a hedge of separation between our Senses and our Understandings and between our Understandings and our Wills and Affections so that the communion between them is violated and we are divided in our selves by this Schism in our Faculties All men still see the demonstrations of Divine Perfections in the World and every part thereof and yet how little is God known All men may easily know that there is a God who is Almighty Omniscient Goodness itself Eternal Omnipresent the Maker Preserver and Governour of all who should have our whole Trust and Love and Obedience and yet how little of this knowledge is to be perceived in mens Hearts to themselves or in their Lives to others All men know that the World is Vanity that Man must die that Riches then profit not that time is precious and that we have only this little time to prepare for that which we must receive hereafter And yet how little do men seem to know indeed of all such things as no Man doubts of And when God doth come in with his powerful awakening Light and Love then all these things have another appearance of affecting reality than they had before as if but now we began to know them Words Doctrines Persons Things do seem as newly known to us All my best Reasons for our Immortality and future Life are but as the New-formed Body of Adam before God breathed into him the Breath of Life It is he that must make them Living Reasons To the Father of Lights therefore I must still look up and for his Light and Love I must still wait as for his blessing on the Food which I have eaten which must concoct it into my living substance Arguments will be but undigested Food till God's effectual influx do digest them I must learn both as a Student and a Beggar when I have thought and thought a Thousand times I must beg thy Blessing Lord upon my Thoughts or they will all be but dulness or self-distraction If there be no Motion Light and Life here without the Influx of the Sun what can Souls do or receive or feel without thy influx This World will be to us without thy Grace as a Grave or Dungeon where we shall lie in Death and Darkness The eye of my Understanding and all its Thoughts will be useless or vexatious to me without thine illuminating Beams O shine the Soul of thy Servant into a clearer knowledge of thy Self and Kingdom and Love him into more Divine and heavenly love and then he will willingly come to thee § 3. 1. And why should I strive by the fears of Death against the common course of Nature and against my only hopes of Happiness Is it not appointed for all men once to die Would I have God to alter this determinate Course and make sinful Man immortal upon Earth When we are sinless we shall be immortal The love of life was given to teach me to preserve it carefully and use it well and not to torment me with the continual troubling foresight of Death Shall I make my self more miserable than the Vegetatives and Bruits Neither they nor I do grieve that my Flowers must fade and die and that my sweet and pleasant Fruits must fall and the Trees be uncloathed of their beauteous leaves until the Spring Birds and Beasts and Fishes and Worms have all a self-preserving fear of Death which urgeth them to fly from danger But few if any of them have a tormenting fear arising from the fore-thoughts that they must die To the Body death is less troublesom than sleep For in sleep I may have disquieting pains or dreams And yet I fear not going to my bed But of this before If it be the misery after Death that 's feared O what have I now to do but to receive the free reconciling Grace which is offered me from Heaven to save me from such misery and to devote my self totally to him who hath promised that those that come to him he will in no wise cast out § 4 But this cometh by my selfishness Had I studied my duty and then remembred that I am not mine own and that it is God's part and not mine to determine of the duration of my life I had been quiet from these fruitless fears But when I fell to my self from God I am faln to care for my self as if it were my work to measure out my Days and now I trust not God as I should do
and to enter the Holy Celestial Society should be no more joyfully affected with these hopes And that I should make any great matter of the pain and langishing and perishing of the Flesh when it is the common way to such an end O hateful sin that hath so darkned and corrupted Souls as to estrange and undispose them to the only state of their hoped happiness Alas what did Man when he forsook the Love and Obedience of his God How just it is that this Flesh and World should become our Prison which we would make our home and would not use as our Lord appointed us as our Servant and way to our better state Though our way must not be our home our Father would not have been so strange to us in the way if we had not unthankfully turned away from his Grace and Love § 9. It is to us that know not the Mysteries of Infinite Wisdom the saddest thought that ever doth possess our Minds to consider that there is no more Grace and Holiness knowledge of God and communion with him in this World That so few are Saints and those few so lamentably defective and imperfect That when the Sun shineth on all the Earth the Sun of Righteousness shineth on so small a part of it and so few live in the Love of God and the joyful hopes of future Blessedness and those few have so low a measure of it and are corrupted and troubled with so many contrary affections Infinite goodness is not undisposed to do good He that made us capable of Holy and Heavenly affections gave us not that Capacity in vain And yet alas how little of God and Glory taketh up the Hearts of men But Man hath no cause to grudge at God! The Devils before their fall were not made indefectible Divine Wisdom is delighted in the diversity of his Works and maketh them not all of equal excellency Free will was to act its part Hell is not to be as good as Heaven And sin hath made Earth to be next to Hell So much Sin so much Hell What is sin but a willful forsaking of God And can we forsake him and yet love him and enjoy his love God's Kingdom is not to be judged of by his Jail or Gibbets We willfully forsook the Light and made the World a Dungeon to our selves And when recovering Light doth shine unto us how unthankfully do we usually entertain it We cannot have the conduct and comfort of it while we shut our Eyes and turn away And what though God give not to all men an overcoming measure nor to the best so much as they desire The Earth is but a spot or point of God's Creation not so much as an Ant hillock to a Kingdom or perhaps to all the Earth And who is scandalized because the World hath an heap of Ants in it yea or a Nest of Snakes that are not men The vast unmeasurable Worlds of Light which be above us are possessed by Inhabitants suitable to their Glory A Casement or Crevise of Light or a Candle in this darksom World is an unspeakable Mercy yea that we may but hear of a better World and may seek it in Hope we must not grudge that in our Prison we have not that presence of our King and pleasures of the Kingdom as innocent and free Subjects have hope of Pardon of a speedy deliverance are great Mercies to Malefactors § 10. And if my want of the Knowledge and Love of God and joyful communion with the heavenly Society by my Prison and as the Suburbs of Hell should it not make me long for the Day of my Redemption and the glorious liberty of the Sons of God My true desires of deliverance and of Holiness and Perfection are my Evidences that I shall obtain them As the Will is the Sinner so it is the obstinate continuance of a Will to sin which is the bondage and the cause of continued sin And a continued Hell is continued sin as to the first part at least Therefore they that continue in Hell do continue in a sinning Will and so continue in a Love and willingness of so much of Hell So far as God maketh us willing to be delivered from sin so far we are delivered And our initial imperfect deliverance is the way to more If pains then make me groan for ease and sickness make me wish for Health why should not my remnants of Ignorance Unbelief and Strangeness to God occasion me to long for the Day of my Salvation This is the greatest of all my troubles And should it not then be the greatest wearying burden from which I should earnestly desire to be eased As Grace never doth hurt efficiently and yet may be ill used and do hurt objectively as to them that are proud of it so sin never doth good efficiently and of itself and yet objectively may do good For sin may be the Object of Grace and so to use it is not sin My unbelief and darkness and disaffection and inordinate love of this life do of themselves most hinder my desires of deliverance and of a better life but objectively what more fit to make me a weary of such a grievous state Were my unbelief and earthly mind predominant they would chain my affections to this World or if I were constrainedly weary of a miserable life I should have no comfortable hopes of a better But as it is the Nature of my sin to draw down my Heart from God and Glory it is the nature of my Faith and Hope and Love to carry it upward and to desire the heavenly Perfection Not to love Death but to love that which is beyond it And have I been so many years in the School of Christ learning both how to live and die begging and studying for this Grace and exercising it against this sinful Flesh and shall I now after all find Flesh more powerful to draw me downward than Faith Hope and Love to carry my desires up to God! § 11. O God forbid O thou that freely gavest me thy Grace maintain it to the last against its Enemies and make it finally victorious It came from thee it hath been preserved by thee it is on thy side and wholly for thee O let it not now fail and be conquered by blind and base Carnality or by the temptations of a hellish conquered Enemy without it I had lived as a Beast and without it I should die more miserably than a Beast It is thine Image which thou lovest it is a Divine Nature and heavenly Beam what will a Soul be without it but a Dungeon of Darkness a Devil for malignity and dead to Holiness and Heaven without it who shall plead thy Cause against the Devil World and Flesh without thy Glory Earth is but Earth without thy Natural Efficacy it would be nothing without thy wise and potent Ordination it would be but a Chaos and without thy Grace it would be a Hell O rather deny
others groping for it in the dark wandring and lost in the clearest Light where the illuminated can but pitty the Blind but cannot make them willing to be delivered What is Heaven to me but GOD GOD who is LIFE and LIGHT and LOVE communicating himself to blessed Spirits perfecting them in the Reception Possession and Exercise of LIFE and LIGHT and LOVE FOR EVER These are not the Accidents but the Essence of that God who is Heaven and All to me should I fear that Death which passeth me to Infinite Essential Life Should I fear a darksom passage into a World of perfect LIGHT Should I fear to go to LOVE itself Think O my Soul what the Suns quickening Light and Heat is to this lower corporeal World Much more is GOD even Infinite LIFE and LIGHT and LOVE to the blessed World above Doth it not draw out thy desires to think of going into a World of LOVE When LOVE will be our Region our Company our Life More to us than the Air is for our Breath than the Light is for our sight than our Food is for our Life than our Friends are for our Solace And more to us than we are to our selves and we more for it as our ultimate end than for our selves O excellent Grace of Faith which doth foresee and blessed Word of Faith that doth foreshew this World of LOVE Shall I fear to enter where there is no WRATH no fear no strangeness nor suspicion nor selfish separation but LOVE will make every holy Spirit as dear and lovely to me as my self and me to them as lovely as themselves and God to us all more amiable than our selves and all Where LOVE will have no defects or distances no damps or discouragements no discontinuance or mixed disaffection but as LIFE will be without Death and LIGHT without Darkness a perfect everlasting Day of Glory so will LOVE be without any hatred unkindness or allay As many Coals make one Fire and many Candles conjoined make one Light so will many living Spirits make one Life and many illuminated Glorious Spirits one Light and Glory and many Spirits innaturalized into LOVE will make one Perfect LOVE of GOD and be LOVED as One by God for ever For all the Body of Christ is One even here it is One in initial Union of the Spirit and Relation to One God and Head and Life 1 Cor. 12. throughout Eph. 4. 1. to 17. and shall be presented as beloved and spotless to God when the great Marriage Day of the Lamb shall come Eph. 5. 24 25 c. Rev. 21. 22. Had thou not given me O Lord the LIFE of Nature I should have had no conceptions of a Glorious everlasting Life But if thou give me not the Life of Grace I shall have no sufficient delightful inclination and desire after it Hadst thou not given me Sight and Reason the Light of Nature I should not have thought how desirable it is to live in the Glorious Light and Vision but if thou give me not the Spiritual Illumination of a seeing Faith I shall not yet long for the Glorious Light and beatifical Vision Hadst thou not given me a Will and Love which is part of my very Nature itself I could not have tasted how desirable it is to live in a World of Universal perfect endless LOVE But unless thou also shed abroad thy LOVE upon my Heart by the Spirit of Jesus the Great Medium of LOVE and turn my very Nature or Inclination into Divine and Holy LOVE I shall not long for the World of LOVE Appetite followeth Nature O give me not only the Image and the Art of Godliness the approaches towards it nor only some forced or unconstant acts but give me the Divine Nature which is Holy Love and then my Soul will hasten towards thee and cry How long O Lord How long O come come quickly make no delay Surely the fear of dying intimateth some contrary Love that inclineth the Soul another way and some shameful unbelief and great unapprehensiveness of the Attractive Glory of the World of LOVE Otherwise no frozen Person so longeth for the Fire none in a Dungeon so desireth Light as we should long for the heavenly Light and Love God's Infinite Essential SELF-LOVE in which he is Eternally delighted in himself is the most Amiable Object and Heaven itself to Saints and Angels And next to that His Love to all his Works to the World and to the Church in Heaven speaketh much more of his Loveliness than his Love to me But yet due Self-love in me is his work and part of his natural Image and when this by sin is grown up to excess through the withdrawing of a contracted narrow Soul from the Union and due Love to my fellow Creatures and to God I must also I cannot but enquire after God's Love to me and by this my desires must much be moved For I am not so capable of ascending above Self-interest and Self-love as in the state of Glorious Union I shall be I am glad to perceive that others do love God and I love those most that I find most love him But it is not other mens love to God that will be accepted by him instead of mine Nor is it God's Love to others which yet rejoiceth me that will satisfie me without his love to me But when all these are still before me God's Essential Self-love and Delight his Love to his Creatures especially the Glorified and his Love to me also even to me a vile unworthy Sinner what then should stay my ascending Love or discourage my desires to be with God And dost thou doubt canst thou doubt O my Soul whether thou art going to a God that loveth thee If the Jews discerned the great love of Christ to Lazarus by his Tears canst not thou discern his Love to thee in his Blood It is never the less but the more obliging and amiable that it was not shed for thee alone but for many May I not say as Paul Gal. 2 20. I live by the Faith of the Son of God that hath loved Me and given himself for me Yea it is not so much I that live as Christ Liveth in me And will he forsake the Habitation which his love hath chosen And which he hath so dearly bought O read often that triumphing Chapter Rom. 8. and conclude What shall separate us from the Love of God If Life have not done it Death shall not do it If leaning on his Breast at Meat was a token of Christ's special love to John is not his dwelling in me by my Faith and his living in me by his Spirit a sure token of his love to me And if a dark saying If he tarry till I come what is that to thee raised a report that the beloved Disciple should not die why should not plain Promises assure me that I shall live with him that loveth me for ever Be not so unthankful O my Soul as to question
by his life Having loved his own to the end he loveth them and without end His Gifts and Calling are without Repentance When Satan and thy Flesh would hide God's love look to Christ and read the golden words of Love in the Sacred Gospel and peruse thy many recorded experiences and remember the convictions which secret and open Mercies have many a time afforded thee But especially draw nearer to the Lord of Love and be not seldom and slight in thy contemplations of his Love and Loveliness Dwell in the Sun-shine and thou wâ—lt know that it is light and warm and comfortable Distance and strangeness cherish thy doubts Acquaint thy self with him and be at peace Yet look up and oft and earnestly look up after thy ascended glorified Head who said Tell my Brethren I ascend to my Father and your Father to my God and your God! Think where and what he is and what he is now doing for all his own and how humbled abased suffering Love is now Triumphant regnant glorified Love and therefore no less than in all its tender expressions upon Earth As Love is no where perfectly revealed but in Heaven so I can no where so fully discern it as by looking up by Faith to my Father and Saviour which is in Heaven and conversing more believingly with the heavenly Society Had I done this more and better and as I have persuaded others to do it I had lived in more convincing delights of God's Love which would have turned the fears of Death into joyfuller hopes and more earnest desires to be with Christ in the Arms in the World in the life of Love as far better than to be here in a dark a doubting fearing World But O my Father Infinite LOVE though my Arguments be many and strong my Heart is bad and my strength is weakness and I am insufficient to plead the cause of thy Love and Loveliness to my self or others O plead thy own cause and what Heart can resist Let it not be my word only but Thine that thou lovest me even me a Sinner speak it as Christ said to Lazarus Arise If not as thou tellest me that the Sun is warm yet as thou hast told me that my Parents and my dearest Friends did love me and much more powerfully than so Tell it me as thou tellest me that thou hast given me life by the consciousness and works of life That while I can say Thou that knowest all things Knowest that I love Thee it may include therefore I know that I am beloved of thee and therefore come to thee in the confidence of thy Love and long to be nearer in the clearer sight the fuller sense and joyfuller exercise of Love for ever Father into thy Hand I commend my Spirit Lord Jesus receive my Spirit Amen AN APPENDIX A Breviate of the Helps of Faith Hope and Love A Breviate of the proof of Supernatural Revelation and the Truth of Christianity 1 TIM 3. 16. Without Controversie great is the Mystery of Godliness God was manifested in the Flesh justified in the Spirit seen of Angels preached to the Gentiles believed on in the World received up into Glory THese are the Creed or Six Articles of the Gospel which the Apostles preached § 1. I. God manifested in the Flesh of Jesus is the first and great Article Believe this and believe all No wonder that believing that Jesus Christ is the Son of God is so often made in Scripture the description of saving Faith the Title to Baptism and Pardon and Salvation the Evidence of the Spirit c. He that truly and practically believeth that God came in Flesh to Man and that Christ is the Fathers Messenger from Heaven must needs believe that God hath a great value for the Souls of men and for his Church that he despiseth not even our Flesh that his Word is true and fully to be trusted that he who so wonderfully came to Man will certainly take up Man to him Who can doubt of the Immortality of Souls or that Christ will receive the departing Souls of the Faithful to himself who believeth that he took Man's Nature and hath glorified it now in Heaven in union with the Divine Who can ever have low Thoughts of God's love and Mercy who believeth this And who can prostitute his Soul and Flesh to wickedness who firmly believeth that he took the Soul and Flesh of Man to sanctifie and glorifie it § 2. II. The holy Spirit is the Justification of the Truth of Jesus Christ He is Christ's Advocate and Witness to the World He proveth the Gospel by these five ways of Evidence I. By all the Prophesies Types and Promises of Christ in the Old Testament before Christs coming II. By the Inherent impress of God's Image on the Person and Doctrine of Christ VVhich Propria luce sheweth itself to be Divine III. By the concomitant Miracles of Christ Read the History of the Gospel for this use and observe each History IV. By the subsequent gift of the Spirit to the Apostles and other Christians by Languages wonders and multitudes of Miracles to convince the VVorld V. By the undeniable and excellent work of Sanctification on all true Believers through all the VVorld in all generations to this day These five are the Spirits VVitness which fully justifieth the certain Truth that Jesus Christ is the Son of God § 3. Quest But how are we sure who our selves never saw the Person Miracles Resurrection Ascension of Christ that the History of them is true Answ 1. We may be sure that the Spectators were not deceived II. And that they did not deceive them to whom they reported it III. And that we are not deceived by any miscarriage in the historical Tradition to us § 4. I. It was not possible that men that were not mad that had Eyes and Ears could for three Years and a half believe that they saw the Lame the Blind the Deaf and all Diseases healed the Dead raised Thousands miraculously fed c. and this among crouds of People that still followed Christ if the things had not been true One Man's Senses may be deceived at some one instance by some deceitful accident But that the Eyes and Ears of Multitudes should be so oft deceived many years in the open Light is as much as to say No Man knoweth any thing that he seeth and heareth § 5. II. That the Disciples who received the Apostles and Evangelists report of Christ were not deceived by the Reporters is most evident For 1. They received it not by hearsay at the second hand but from the Eye and Ear Witnesses themselves who must needs know what they said 2. They heard this report from Men of the same Time and Age and Countrey where it was easy to examine the case and confute it had it been false 3. The Apostles appealed to crouds and Thousands of Witnesses as to many of Christ's Miracles who would have made it odious had it not been
true 4. They sharply reproved the Rulers for persecuting Christ which would provoke them to do their best to confute the Apostles for their own justification 5. Christ chose men of no great human Learning and Subtility but common plain unlearned men that it might not be thought a deceit of Art 6. Yea he did not make much more known to them before his Death than the bare Matters of Fact which they daâ—ly saw and that he was the Christ and Moral Doctrine his Death Resurrection Ascension and Kingdom of Heaven they knew little of before But experience and the sudden coming down of the Spirit suddenly taught them all the rest 7. They taught not one another but were every one personally taught of God 8. And yet they all agreed in the same Doctrine when they were dispersed over the World and never differed in any one Article of Faith 9 They were men that had no worldly Interest Wealth or Dominion to seek 10. Yea they renounced and denied all worldly Interest and sealed their Testimony by their Sufferings and Blood and all in hope of a heavenly reward which they knew that Lying was no means to obtain 11. Had they plotted to cheat the World for nothing the sin is so heinous that some one of them would have repented and confest it at least at death which none of them did but died joyfully as for the Truth 12. Paul was converted by a Voice and Light from Heaven in the presence of those that travelled with him in his persecuting design 13. But yet it is a fuller evidence that the Doctrine which they delivered as from God beareth a Divine Impress that as the Light it is its own Evidence 14. And for the more infallible conviction they that testified of Christs Miracles did the like themselves to confirm their Testimony they spake with Tongues which they never learnt They healed all Diseases even the shadow of Peter and the Clothes that came from Paul did heal men They raised the Dead And they that in all Countries converted the Nations by their own Miracles attesting the Miracles and Resurrection of Christ must needs compel the Spectators to believe them 15. Yet more than all this those that believed them were presently enabled to do the like in one kind and degree or other The same extraordinary gift of the Spirit fell upon the common multitude of Believers by the laying on of the Apostles hands So that Simon Magus would fain have bought that Power with Money And when men witnessed Christ's Miracles and wrought the like themselves and those that believed them had and did the like either Healing Tongues Prophesie or some wonders it was sure an infallible way of testifying 16. When wrangling Hereticks quarrelled with the Apostles and would draw away Disciples to themselves by disparaging them they still appealed to the Miracles wrought by these Disciples themselves or in their sight as Gal. 3. 1 2 3 5. And as Christ when the Jews said he did all by Beelzebub when he cast out devils askt them By whom do your Children cast them out Which had it been false would have turned all the People from them 17. Their adversaries were so far from writing any Confutation of their Testimony that they confest the Miracles and had no shift but either to blaspheme the Holy Ghost and say that they were done by the Devil or else by persecution and violence to oppress them As if the Devil were Master of the World and could remedilesly deceive it against God's will or God himself would send or suffer a full course of Miracles remedilesly to deceive the World which is to make God like the Devil Or as if the Devil were so good as by Miracles to promote so holy and amiable and just a Doctrine as that of Christianity to make men wise and good and just and kill their sin So that this blasphemy of the Holy Ghost makes Satan to be God or God to be Satan 18. All the cruelty powers Learning and Policy of their Adversaries was not able to stop the progress of this Testimony much less to prevail against it III. It is then most certain that the first Witnesses were not deceived by Christ nor Believers after deceived by them The next Question is whether we be not deceived by a false historical Tradition of these things Had we seen them all our selves we must needs have believed but at this distance we know not what misreports may interven what Eye-sight and hearing was to them that Tradition is to us Now the Question is Is it certainly the very same Fact and Doctrine which they received and which we receive And here let it be premised that there is no other way of assurance than that which God hath afforded us that the reason of Man could have desired 1. If we would see God and Heaven and Hell this is not a way suitable to the state of Probationers that live in Flesh on Earth Angels live by vision and fruition of Glory And Bruits by sense on sensible things But reasonable Travellers must live by reason and by believing certain Revelation 2. If God will send his Son from Heaven to ascertain us and we will believe no more than we see our selves then Christ must dwell on Earth to the end of the World he must be in all places of the Earth at once that all may see and he must die and rise again before all men in all Ages And how mad an expectation is this 3. Or if all that deliver us the History must work Miracles before our Eyes or else we will not believe them it is still most absurd Will you not believe that the Laws of the Land are genuine or that ever there were such Kings as made them unless he that tells it you work Miracles Shall not Children believe their Parents or Schollars their Tutors unless they work Miracles 3. I must premise that there is three sorts of Tradition I. Such as depends on the common Wit and Honesty of Mankind And this is very much to be suspected wickedness folly and lying being grown so common in the World II. Such as depends on the extraordinary skill and honesty of some proved men And this deserveth much belief but it is but an uncertain humane Faith III. Such as depends on Natural Necessity and cannot possibly be false we have both these last to ascertain us of the Gospel History This resteth on a distinction of the Acts of Mans Will Some of them are mutably free and these give no certainty Some of them are naturally and immutably necessary and Man can do no otherwise and these give even natural Infallible certainty Such are To love ones self to love felâ—city to hate torment and misery c. And to know that which is fully manifest to our sound Senses c. When men of contrary Interests and temper all confess the Truth of known things about which their Interests stand cross it is a
Physical evidence of Truth On this account mens agreement about Natural Notices is infallible It seems strange that all the World from Adam's time are agreed which is the first second and third c. day of the Week and not a day lost till now It could not be otherwise Because being a thing of Natural interest and notice if any Kingdom had lost a day by over sleeping or had agreed to falsifie it all the rest of the World would have shamed them Thus all Grecians Latines Englishmen c. agree about the sense of Words for if some would pervert them the rest would detect it Thus we are certain that the Statutes of the Land are not counterfeit For men of cross interests hold their Lands and lives by them and if some did counterfeit them the rest would by interest be bound to detect it Arg. 1. There can be no effect without an adequate cause But in Nature there is no cause that can make all men agree to assert a known falshood or deny a known Truth against all their known interest therefore there can be no such effect Arg. 2. A necessary cause will necessarily effect But where mens known Interest obligeth them to agree of a known Truth this is a necessary cause of certain credibility therefore it hath a necessary effect You know who were your Parents and when and where you were Born c. by such Tradition in a lower Degree This dependeth not on pretended Authority nor on meer honesty but on natural necessity Having premised this I come to prove that we have such Tradition of Physical infallible evidence that the Faith of the present Church in the Essentials is the same which the first Churches received infallibly from the Apostles 1. The World knoweth that ever since Christ's Ascension all that believed in him were Baptized as all Abraham's Covenanting seed were Circumcised And what is Baptism but a Profession of Belief in Jesus Christ as dead risen and glorified and a devoting our selves in Covenant to God the Father Son and Holy Ghost All that ever were Christians by solemn Vow profest this same Faith And this is such a Tradition of Christianity as humane Generation down from Adam is of the same humanity in the World 2. They that were Baptized were Catechized first in which the three Articles of Baptism were opened to them of which Christ's Death Resurrection and Ascension were part And this hath been an undeniable Tradition of the same Faith 3. The Summ of the Christian Faith was from the beginning drawn up in certain Articles called the Creed which expounded the three Baptismal Articles and all Churches on Earth had the same in sense and most in Words and all at Age that were Baptized professed this Creed Which is as full a Tradition of the same Belief in Christ's Birth Death and Resurrection Ascension and Glory as Speaking is a Tradition of the same humane Nature 4. Before Christ's Ascension he instituted the Office of the Sacred Ministry which Friends and Foes confess hath continued ever since And what is this Ministry but an Office of publishing the Gospel of Christ his Life Death Miracles Resurrection Grace c. What else have they done in all Ages in the World So that the Office is an undeniable Tradition 5. Christ and his Apostles instituted the Weekly Celebration of the Remembrance of his Resurrection on the Lord's days Friends and Foes confess the History that the first Day of the Week hath been kept for such Memorial ever since through all the Christian part of the World Which proveth the uninterrupted belief of Christ's Resurrection as a Notorious Practical Tradition 6. Christ and his Apostles ever since his Resurrection instituted Solemn Assemblies of Christians to be held on those Days and at other Times Once a Week was the least through the Christian World And what did they meet for but to Preach hear and profess the same Christian Faith 7. It was the constant custom of Christians in their Assemblies and their Houses to sing Hymns of Praise to Jesus Christ in remembrance of his Resurrection c. Pliny tells Trajan that this was the practice by which Christians were known by their Persecutors Which is a Practical Tradition 8. Jesus Christ instituted and all Christians to this Day have constantly used the Sacrament of Christ's Sacrifice called the Eucharist to keep in remembrance his Death till he come and profess their Belief that he is our Life And as the constant Celebration of the Passover with all its Ceremonies was a most certain Tradition of the Egyptians Plagues and Israelites deliverance more than a bare written History would be so hath the Lord's Supper been of the uninterrupted belief of the History of our Redemption by Christ 9. The Church hath from the beginning had a constant Discipline by which it hath kept it self separate from Hereticks who have denied any Essential Article of this Faith Which is a sure Tradition of the same belief 10. None question but Christians have from the beginning been persecuted for this same Faith and in Persecution made Confession of it Persecutors and Confessors then are both the Witnesses of the Continuance 11. When ever Hereticks or Enemies have written against Christians their Apologies and Defences shew that it was this same Faith that they owned 12. Most of the adverse Hereticks owned the same Matters of Fact 13. The Jews were long before in Possession of the Books of the Old Testament which bear their Testimony to Christ 14. The Books of the New Testament have by certain Tradition been delivered down to this present Day which contain the Matters of Fact and Doctrin the Essentials Integrals and Accidents of the Faith 15. No Enemies have written any thing against the Matter of Fact of any Moment 16. Yea the Jews and other bitterest Enemies confess much of the Miracles of Christ 17. Martyrs have cheerfully forsaken Life and all in confessing it 18. God by his wonderful Providence hath maintained it 19. The Devil and all the Wicked of the World are the greatest Enemies to it 20. The Holy Ghost hath still blest it to work the same holy and heavenly Nature and Life in all sincere and serious Believers Quest This proveth infallibly the Tradition of the same Faith in the Essentials But how prove you that the same Holy Scripture is delivered as uncorrupted Answ All the Bible is not brought down so unchanged as are the Essentials of our Religion When there were no Bibles but what Scriveners wrote no wonder if oversight left few Copies without some of their slips There are hundred of various Readings in the New Testament and of many no Man can be certain which is true But none of them are such as make any difference in the Articles of our Faith or Practice nor on which any point of Doctrine or Fact dependeth And the words are necessary but for the Matter which they do record And 1. All Ministers and all Churches
misery The Perfection of it will be there our perfect Holiness and Joy XXIV Here though the VVill itself be imperfect we cannot be and do what we would There VVill and Deed and Attainment will all be fully perfect XXV Here by Ignorance and Self-Love I have Desires which God denieth There perfect Desires shall be perfectly fulfilled XXVI Here pinching VVants of somthing or other and troublesom Cares are daily burdens Nothing is there wanting and God hath ended all their Cares XXVII Sense here rebelleth against Faith and Reason and oft overcometh Sense there shall be only Holy and no Discord be in our Faculties or acts XXVIII Pleasures and Contents here are short narrow and twisted with their contraries There they are objectively pure and boundless and subjectively total and absolute XXIX Vanity and Vexation are here the Titles of transitory things Reality Perfection and Glory are the Title of the things above XXX This VVorld is a point of God's Creation a narrow place for a few Passengers Above are the vast capacious Regions sufficient for all Saints and Angels XXXI This VVorld is as Newgate and Hell as Tyburn some are hence saved and some condemned The other VVorld is the Glorious Kingdom of Jehovah with the Blessed XXXII It was here that Christ was tempted scorned and crucified It is there where he Reigneth in Glory over all XXXIII The Spiritual life is here as a Spark or Seed It is there a glorious flame of Love and Joy and the perfect Fruit and Flower XXXIV VVe have here but the first Fruits Earnest and Pledge There is the full and glorious Harvest and Perfection XXXV VVe are here Children in Minority little differing from Servants There we shall have full possession of the Inheritance XXXVI The prospect of Pain Death Grave and Rottenness blasteth all the Pleasures here There is no Death nor any fear of the ending of felicity XXXVII Here even God's VVord is imperfectly understood and Errours swarm even in the Best All Mysteries of Nature and Grace are there unveiled in the World of Light XXXVIII Many of God's Promises are here unfulfilled and our Prayers unanswered There Truth shineth in the full performance of them all XXXIX Our Grace is here so weak and Hearts so dark that our sincerity is oft doubted of There the flames of Love and Joy leave no place for such a doubt XL. By our unconstancy here one Day is joyful and another sad But there our Joys have no interruption XLI We dwell here with sinful Companions like our selves in Flesh There holy Angels and Souls with Christ are all our Company XLII Our best friends and helpers are here in parst our hinderers by sin There all concur in the harmony of active Love XLIII Our Errours and Corruptions make us also hurtful and troublesome to our Friends But there both Christ and they forgive us and we shall trouble them no more XLIV Selfishness and cross interests here jar and mar our conversation There perfect Love will make the Joy of every Saint and Angel mine XLV A militant Church imperfectly sanctified here liveth in scandal and sad divisions The glorious Church united in God in perfect Love hath no contention XLVI Sin and Errour here turn our very publick Worship into jars The Celestial harmony of joyful Love and Praise is to Mortals unconceivable XLVII VVeak blind and wicked Teachers here keep most in delusion and division There glorious Light hath banished all Lies deceit and darkness XLVIII The wills of blind Tyrants is the Law of most on Earth The Wisdom and Will of the most holy God is the Law of the heavenly Society XLIX Lies here cloud the Innocency of the Just and render Truth and Goodness odious All false Judgments are there reversed and Slander is silenced and the Righteous justified L. Government is here exercised by terrour and violence But there God ruleth by Light Love and absolute Delight LI. Enemies Reproach and Persecution here annoy and tempt us All storms are there past and the Conquerors crowned in joyful Rest LII The Glory of Divine Love and Holiness is clouded here by the abounding of Sin and the greatness of Satan's Kingdom upon Earth But the vast glorious heavenly Kingdom to which this Earth is but a Point and Prison will banish all such erring Thoughts and Glorifie God's Love and Goodness for ever LIII This is the World which as corrupted is called an Enemy to God and us and which as such we renounced in Baptism and must be saved from That is the World which we seek pray and wait for all our lives and for which all the tempting Vanities of this must be forsaken LIV. This Body an World is like our riding Clothes our Horse our Way and Inn and travelling Company All but for our Journey homeward The other is our City of Blessedness and Everlasting Rest to which all Grace inclineth Souls and all preserâ— Means and Mercies tend LV. The very ignorance of Nature and Sensible things makes this life a very Labyrinth and our Studies Sciences and Learned Conversation to be much like a Dream or Popet Play and a Childish stir about meer Words But in Heaven an Universal knowledge of God's wonderful Works will not be the least of the Glory in which he will shine to Saints LVI Distance and Darkness of Souls here in Flesh who would Fain know more of God and the heavenly World and cannot doth make our lives a burden by these unsatisfied desires There Glorious Presence and Intuition giveth full satisfaction LVII Our sin and imperfection here render us uncapable of being the Objects of God's full complacential Love though we have his benevolence which will bring us to it But there we shall in our several measures perfectly please God and be perfectly pleased in God for ever LVIII All things here are short and transitory from their beginning posting towards their end which is near and sure and still in our Eye so short is time that Beings here are next to nothing the Bubble of worldly Prosperity Pomp and fleshly Pleasure doth swell up and break in so short a Moment as that it Is and and Is not almost at once But the heavenly substances and their work and Joys are crowned by Duration being assuredly EVERLASTING Such O my Soul is the blessed Change which God will make The Reasons and Helps of my Belief and Hope of this Perfection 1. NAtural Reason assureth me that God made all Creatures fitted to their intended use Even Bruits are more fit for their several Offices than Man is He giveth no Creature its faculties in vain Whatever a wise Man maketh he fits it to the use which he made it for But Man's Faculties are Enabled to think of a God of our relation and our duty to him of our hopes from him and our fears of him Of the state of our Souls related to his judgment of what will befall us after Death reward or punishment and how to prepare for it
that I understand and by willing that I will c. 2. I am sure by these Acts that I have the power or faculties to do them For none doth that which it cannot do 3. And I know that it is a substance that hath these powers For nothing can do nothing My Soul then being certainly an intellective Volitive Vital substance 1. I have no reason to think that God who annihilateth not the least Sand will annihilate so noble a substance 2. Nor that he will destroy those Powers which are its Essential form and turn it into some other thing 3. Nor that such Essential powers shall lie as dead unactive and so be continued in vain 4. There remaining therefore nothing uncertain to natural Reason but the continuance of Individuation to separate Souls 1. Apparitions and Wirches cases have put that out of doubt notwithstanding many Fables and Delusions 2. Christ hath put it more out of doubt 3. While substance faculties and acts continue it is the errour of our selfish state in Flesh which maketh any fear too near a Union which shall end our individuation The greatest Union will be the greatest Perfection and no loss to Souls XVII God's wonderful Providences for the Church and single Saints on Earth are such as tell us of that love and care which will bring them afterwards to him XVIII The Nature of God taketh off the terrour of my departure much I am sure I shall die at the will and into the Hand of Infinite Essential Love and Goodness whose love should draw up my longing Soul XIX I am going to a God whose Mercies have â—ong told me that he loveth me better than my dearest Friend doth and better than I love my self and is a far better chooser of my lot XX. As he hath absolute right to dispose of his own so indeed the fulfilling of his Will is the ultimate end of all things and therefore most desirable in itself And his will shall be fulfilled on me XXI I go to a glorified Saviour who came down to fetch me up and hath conquered and sanctified Death and made it my Birth-day for Glory and taketh me for his dear bought own and interest and is in Glory ready to receive his own XXII I go to that Saviour who on the Cross commended his Spirit into his Fathers Hand and taught me with dying Stephen to say Lord Jesus receive my Spirit XXIII I go no solitary untrodden way but follow all the Faithful since the death of Abel to this day save Henoch and Elias who all went by Death into that glorious World where I shall find them XXIV I have so long groaned under a languid Body and in a blind distracted and by Man uncurable World where Satan by Lies Malice and Murder reigneth in alas how many and specially am so weary of my own darkness and sinful imperfection that I have great reason to be willing of deliverance XXV I have had so large a share of Mercies in this World already in time and manifold comforts from God that reason commandeth me to rest in God's time for my removal XXVI I shall leave some fruits not useless to serve the Church when I am gone and if good be done I have my end XXVII When I am gone God will raise up and use others to do his appointed work on Earth And a Church shall be continued to his praise And the Spirits in Heaven will rejoice therein XXVIII When I am gone I shall not wish to be again on Earth XXIX Satan by his temptations and all his instruments would never have done so much as he doth in the World to keep us from Heaven if there were not a Heaven which Conquerors obtain XXX When darkness and uncertainty of the manner of the action and fruition of separated Souls would daunt me it is enough to know explicitely so much as is explicitely revealed and implicitely to trust Christ with all the rest Our Eyes are in our Head who knoweth for us Knowledg of Glory is part of fruition And therefore we must expect here no more than is suited to a life of Faith XXXI All my part is to do my own duty and then trust God obeying his commanding will and fully and joyfully resting in his disposing and rewarding will There is no rest for Souls but in the Will of God and there with full Trust to repose our Souls in Life and at Death is the only way of a safe and comfortable departure XXXII The glorious Marriage day of the Lamb cannot now be far off when the number of the Elect shall be compleat and Christ will come with his glorious Angels and will be glorified in his Saints and admired in all Believers and there shall be a New Heaven and a New Earth wherein dwelleth Righteousness and that Kingdom shall come where that which God hath prepared for them that love him Eye hath not seen Ear hath not heard nor hath it entred into the Heart of Man to have a formal full conception of it Come Lord Jesus come quickly Amen Fear not then O my Soul to lay down this Flesh Mercy hath kept it up for my preparing work but O what a burdensom and chargeable a Companion hath it been Is it better than the dwelling place of perfect Spirits O what are my groans and all my cold and faint Petitions and my dull Thanksgiving to their harmonious joyful Praise If a Day in God's Courts be better than a Thousand what is a Day yea what is Everlastingness in the heavenly Society and Work O how hateful a thing is darkness and unbelief when the remnants of them thus stop poor Souls in their ascent And make us half unwilling to go home What! unwilling to be with my glorified Lord Unwilling to be with Saints and Angels who are all Life Light and Love Unwilling to see the Glory of Jehovah O foolish sinful Soul Hath Christ done so much to purchase the heavenly Glory for thee and now art thou unwilling to go into the possession of it Hast thou been seeking and praying and labouring and suffering so many Years for that which now thou seemest scarce willing to obtain Dost thou not judge thy self unworthy of Eternal Life when thou no more desirest to enjoy it All this is long of thy too much adherence unto SELF and SENSE Thou art still desiring sensitive satisfaction and not content to know thy part wouldst know that for thy self which Christ knoweth for thee As if thou couldst better trust thy self than him Fear not weak Soul it is our Fathers good pleasure to give thee the Kingdom Trust infinite Power Wisdom and Love Trust that faithful gracious Saviour who hath so wonderfully merited to be trusted Trust that promise which never deceived any one and which is confirmed by so many Miracles and by the Oath and by the Spirit of God Whenever thou departest from this house of Flesh the Arms of Mercy are open to embrace thee yea
Polititical Government of the wicked Kingdoms of the World ruling them by men that are ruled by him And as Christ came to cast him out of mens Hearts by his sanctifying conquering Spirit so also to cast him out of the Political Government of the Kingdoms of the World and to bring them under the Laws and Officers and Spirit of Christ and rule them by heavenly Power and Love as his own Kingdoms that he may bring them to Perfection in one Celestial Kingdom at last And in this sense we pray Thy Kingdom come § 4. To make men believe that he is the heavenly King sent from God to cast down Satans Kingdom was the great business of the preaching of the Gospel This he would demonstrate as by all his Miracles which shewed him to have the Victory of Devils and to be the Lord of Life so also by visible Apparition in Glory And as it is said 1 Joh. 5. 7 8. that there are three Witnesses in Heaven and three on Earth so here Christ would have three heavenly and three earthly Witnesses of his Transfiguration From Heaven he had the Witness 1. Of a Voice proclaiming This is my beloved Son in whom I am well pleased hear him 2. Of Moses the chief Lawgiver 3. And of Elias the chief Prophet to tell us that the Law and the Prophets are his prognosticating Witnesses But Hear him notifieth to us that Christ and his Gospel are to be heard above the Law and the Prophets and to teach us more than they could teach us The Law was given by Moses with its types and shadows but Grace and Truth the substance so typified are by Jesus Christ § 5. Light and Glory are often of the same signification Christ was transfigured into a lucid glorious appearance of Body He tells us by this that he would have us have some sort of Idea of his Kingdom fetcht from sense many Apparitions of Angels have been in lights Christ appeared to Saul in a visible light Act. 9. So did he to John Rev. 1 c. God and the Lamb are the Light of the New Jerusalem It is an inheritance of the Saints in Light Some seem to me to think too basely of Sense and too far to separate it from Intellectual Spirits both as to Power Act and Object And all because they find it in lower Creatures They might accordingly deny substantiality to Spirits because Bruits are substances The higher have all the Perfections of the lower either formally or eminently It is not a Spirits Perfection to be insensible or to have nothing to do with sensible things but to be eminently sensible and to be Superiour Agents on lower sensibles GOD IS LOVE And LOVE is Complacency And a high degree of Complacency is Delight or Joy So that God is Essential Infinite Joy But without that drossie quality which is proper to Souls in Flesh and all that Imperfection which belongs to Creatures Can we tell what it is to enter into our Masters Joy or Joyfully to love and praise him without any sense I rather think that as vigorous Youth maketh men capable of more delight than decrippt languid â—ainful Age and Sickness so Heaven shall by perfecting our Natures make them capable of unconceivably more joy than any on Earth is capable of And as we shall have Sense in Exaltation as to power and act so we shall have sensible Objects God himself delighteth in all his works and so shall we we must not on pretence of taking the heavenly Jerusalem to be meerly Spiritual deprive our selves of all the sensible Idea's of it which God's description offereth to uâ— Light is sensible Christ glorified there is sensible Moses and Elias were sensible to Peter James and John Lazarus and Abraham were sensible to the Man in Hell Luke 16. Stephen saw Heaven open and Christ sitting at the right Hand of God And all Eyes shall see him at his glorious return Heavenly Glory is not enjoyed only by meer THINKING and knowing nor as in a Dream but by the most eminent Intellectual sensation exalted and invigorated § 6. Say not then O my Soul that this Kingdom of Glory is so far above thee that thou canst have no Idea of it Think not that it is therefore unmeet for thy desiring and joyful hopes because thou canst not know what it is Hast thou no conception of the difference between Light and Darkness If thou hadst been but one Year kept in absolute darkness wouldst thou have no desiring thoughts of light The Blind think themselves half dead while they are alive Indeed the Faculty and Object must be suitable Light may be too great for our weak Eyes as heat may be torment in an unsuitable degree but when our Souls are perfected they will be suitable Recipients of a more glorious Light than we can here endure Moses is not there covered in a cleft of the Rock because he could see but as the back parts of God's Glory We must see here but as in a Glass but there as Face to Face Though these Organical Eyes as Spectacles shall be laid by we shall have Media more perfect suitable to our perfect state And as I can think of Heaven as a Region of glorious Light so can I think of it as a place and state of Life and Love I know somwhat of the difference of Life and Death and that a living Dog is better than a dead Lyon And I have felt what it is to love my Friends and thence to desire their near communion as my delight And can I then have no Idea of that World where Life Light and Joyful Love are the very Element of Souls as Water is to the Fishes And as I can have some Idea of that state in general so may I of the state of the perfected Spirits of the Just which are there They are con-natural to their proper Element They are Essential created Life Light and Love And they want not substance to be the Basis of those formal Powers nor Objects on which to exercise them Think not then that Heaven is so far unconceivable as not by any Idea to be thought of If we have no Conception of it we can have no desires of it and no delightful hope What can we conceive of more certainly than of Life and Light and Love of a Region and of Persons essentiated of these Do we not know what Knowledge is and see what Light is and feel what Life and Love are But it 's true that our Conceptions hereof are lamenmentably imperfect and so they must be till Possession Fruition and Exercise perfect them Who knoweth what Light or Sight is but by Seeing or what Knowledge is but by knowing Or what Love and Joy are but by loving and rejoicing And who knows what Perfect Sight Knowledg Love and Joy are but by perfect Seeing Knowing Loving and Rejoicing No Man by an intuitive or immediate perception But some abstractive Conceptions of it we may have by
reasoning deduction from that poor Degree which we here in the Kingdom of Grace possess Can I perceive substantiality in the dark terrene appearances which are but mutable lifeless matter agitated and used by invisible Powers and shall I think of those unseen powerful substances as if they were less substantial for being Spiritual or were not Objects for a knowing Thought Are the Stars which I see less substantial than a Carkass in a darksom Grave The Lord that appeared in shining Glory hath Members in their measure like himself and hath promised that we shall shine as Stars in the Kingdom of his Father If some degree of this be here performed in them who are called the Children of Light and the Lights of the World how much more will they shine in the World of Light They that call Light a quality or an Act must confess it hath a substance whose quality or act it is Alas what a deceived thing is a sensual Unbeliever who spendeth his Life in the pursuit of fugitive shaddows and walketh in a vain shew and thinks of Spiritual glorious substances as if they were the nothings or delusions of a Dream § 6. Christ Moses and Elias here visibly appeared as three distinct individual Persons This tells us that it is a false conceit that Death ceaseth Individuation and turneth all Souls into one of which before Perfect indivisible infinite Unity is proper to God From this One is multiplicity Reason forbids us when we see the numberless individuals in this World and see also the numerous Stars above to imagine that all the Worlds above us have so much of Divine Perfection as to be but one undivided substance and to have no multiplicity of Inhabitants Yea some of those Sadduces hold that the Stars are Worlds inhabited as the Earth is And why then should they think whither soever Souls go that they cease their individuation When they go among individuals But Christ hath confuted them even to Sense Moses is Moses still and Elias is Elias still And all our Friends that are gone to Christ are the same still that they were and may be called by the same Names Abraham Isaac and Jacob are the same in Heaven and Lazarus was Lazarus in Abraham's bosom When we lay by Flesh and are uncloathed we put not off our personality Every one shall receive his own reward according to what he hath done in the Body when every one must give account of his own works and talents Why then may I not with distinct conceptions and joyful desires look after the Souls of my departed Friends that are now in the Celestial Kingdom Though malignity hath scorned me for naming some few in my Saints Rest being such as the Despisers hated yet I forbear not on such accounts to Solace my self by naming more but because they are more than it 's fit to number In all places where I have lived how many excellent Souls though here they were not perfect are gone to Christ How sweet is the remembrance of the communion which I had with many of them in Shrewsbury and other parts of Shropshire Of many at Dudley and the adjoining parts Of Multitudes at Kiderminster Bewdley and other parts of Worcestershire Of abundance at Coventry and other parts of Warwickshire And of many where I have sojourned in other parts of the Land And above all in London and the adjoining parts As Mr. How hath elegantly exprest it in his excellent Character of my excellent and dear Friend Mr. Richard Fairclough What a Multitude of Blessed Saints will arise at the last Day out of London and this Earth is as it were hallowed with the Dust and Relicts of so many blessed Souls But it 's Heaven that is spangled with these Spiritual Stars The place honoured with them and they with it and all by Christ We are like Infants or Lambs or other young ones that cry for their Dams if they be but out of sight though they are never so near if they see them not they cry as if they were not or had forsaken them As Christ told his Disciples that it was needful for them that he departed from them and yet their Hearts for this were sorrowful till the Holy Ghost came upon them as better than Christ's fleshly presence to prepare them joyfully to follow him so we think of our Friends as almost lost to us by separation till the heavenly Spirit tell us where they are and prepare us to desire to be with them § 6. Elias hath a Body now in Heaven and so hath Henoch But can we think that only two or three that are there with Christ do so much differ from all the rest as to have Bodies when the rest have none Is there such a dissimilitude of Saints in Heaven What are two or three in such a Society Doubtless their Bodies are not corruptible Flesh and Blood but such Spiritual Bodies as all Saints shall have at the Resurrection But are they in Heaven such visible and shaped Bodies as they appeared on the Mount The same difficulty poseth us about the risen Body of Christ He would not have Mary touch him because he had not yet ascended to his Father He could appear and vanish from their sight at his pleasure And yet Thomas handled him and felt that he had Flesh and Bones That Body of Flesh ascended visibly up toward Heaven And yet it is not Flesh and Blood in Heaven but a Spiritual Body For it is not worse than he will make his Members What shall we say to these things We must say That we are not capable of knowing them but have Reason to be thankful that we may know so much more necessary for us But yet it seemeth probable that the Bodies of Christ and Henoch and Elias were changeable according to the Region in which they were to be Christ could take up a Body of Flesh and Blood and immediately change that state of it into a pure incorruptible Spiritual Body as it entered into the incorruptible Spiritual Region And so God did by Henoch and Elias As Paul saith that we shall not all die those that live till Christ's appearing but we shall all be changed And yet if Elias have business on the Mount he can put on the cloathing of a grosser Body to be so seen of men and can lay it by or return to his more invisible Spiritual state when he returneth to the place from whence he came And no wonder when Angels and the Ancients say Christ before his Incarnation assumed Bodies suitable to their several businesses on Earth yea such as could eat and drink with men when yet they dwelt not in Heaven so coursly cloathed § 7. But how came Moses to have a Body on the Mount who is said to have been buried and therefore took none with him into Heaven We must still remember that we enquire of things above our certain knowledge But in humble conjecture we may say That it 's no
to many almost unsufferable trials But I can tell such by some experience that bodily pain and torment is a far greater trial which none of them is secured from and requireth greater strength of Faith obediently to accept it at the Hand of God And others can tell them that the violence of temptations and the terrours of God on a wounded Conscience and troubled Soul are yet far harder than all these And these are the saddest because they make the mind unfit at present to improve them and to refer them to Holy Ends and Uses Christ in all his Agony and even when he cryed out on the Cross My God my God why hast thou forsaken me had his Intellectuals free and perfect to know the Nature the Reason the uses and end of all his Sufferings But so have not many poor distressed troubled distracted Souls O how great a part of Christianity is it to understand and rightly bear the Cross Most of our care is how to escape it or to be delivered from it rather than how obediently to bear it § 10. Experience of a suffering painful state is a great help to our understanding of the Gospel It taketh off from me the scandal of Christ's Cross and helpeth me to perceive the great use and reasons of it when I am under sufferings O what need have I of such an example as Christs All the parts of his suffering are as useful to teach me how to suffer as the Ten Commandments to teach me what to do That he was put to fly from proud domineering Pharisees false Teachers and worldly Rulers and to converse most with the Poor in Wildernesses or obscure various places That he was hated and persecuted for doing good and accounted a Sinner for neglecting mens Ceremonies and Traditions That he was hardly believed even by them that saw his Miracles And his own Disciples were so slow in learning and that in his suffering they all forsook him and fled and one denied him with Oaths and Curses All these are instructing Instances That Christ's natural though sinless aversation to Death and Suffering and his fear should be so powerful and the sense of God's punishing Justice so terrible as to make his Soul sorrowful even to the Death and cast him into an Agony where he swate Water and Blood and to pray thrice that the bitter Cup if possible might pass from him which he came into the World to drink all these also are teaching parts of the Sufferings of Christ That Rulers and Priests and Souldiers and the Rabble should agree to Scorn him Cloth him in derision Spit on him Buffet him Scourge him make him their Jeast that came to save them that they should make a Sinner of him that never sinned but came to destroy it and save men from it yea to make him no less than a Deceiver a Blasphemer and an usurping Rebel against Caesar and write this last as his Accusation on his Cross thinking to leave his Innocency no Vindication or Defence for the Lord and Saviour of the World to undergo all this is very instructing to a suffering Believer That he should as such a Malefactor be reviled on a Cross and numbred with Transgressours and his side be pierced and he there cry out to his Father as forsaken by him That thus dying he was buried and his Soul went to the place of separated Souls and yet into Paradise they are excellent Lessons which may be learnt from all this I am not to suffer for others nor to make God's Justice a satisfying Sacrifice for sin as Christ did But I must suffer God's Fatherly Corrections and the castigation of paternal healing Justice I must be saved as by Fire and pass through this Purgatory that I may be refined I must suffer from Christ and for Christ for my sin and also for Righteousness sake And I must with a filial Justification of God's Holiness and chastening Justice bear his indignation because I have sinned against him I am predestinated to be conformed to Christ's Image in suffering and in sanctity Rom. 8. 30. c. Yea I must count all things loss for the excellency of the knowledge of Christ Jesus my Lord for whom I must not refuse to suffer the loss of all things and count them Dung that I may win him and be found in him and not only know the power of his Resurrection but also the fellowship of his Sufferings and be made conformable to his Death Phil. 3. 8 9 10. Paul rejoiced in such infirmities and in his Sufferings for the Church filling up that which was behind of the afflictions of Christ in his Flesh Col. 1. 24. Peter bids us Rejoice in as much as we are partakers of Christ's Sufferings that when his Glory shall be revealed we may be glad also with exceeding Joy 1 Pet. 4. 13. If we suffer with him that we may also be glorified with him Rom. 8. 17. It is a great gift to suffer for his sake Phil. 1. 29. It is for the Kingdom of God that such suffer 2 Thess 1. 5. It is happiness and joy to suffer for Righteousness sake for well doing 1 Pet. 2. 10. 3. 14 17. 4. 15 16 19. Mat. 5. 10 11. It is the sufferings of Christ that abound in such that their consolations may abound 2 Cor. 1. 5. But alas I suffer much more for my own sin than for Christ and Righteousness But even this also by the Cross of Christ is sanctified and made a great remedy against my Sin As Christ suffered for our sins and yet merited by his Suffering so if we accept the castigatory punishment and Exercise Repentance and Mortification in our suffering and an obedient submission to the Rod God will take this as acceptable Service and bless it to our further good § 11. But how is it that Christ is said to learn obedience by the things that he suffered and so to be made perfect Heb. 5. 8 9. was he unlearned and imperfect before He had no culpable imperfection But his satisfactory mediation was imperfect till it was all performed It was not perfectly done and when it was done he thereby was constitutively made a perfect Mediator as he said upon the Cross It is finished And as his humane Nature received additional acts of knowledge as he grew up and conversed with more Objects and so is said to increase in Wisdom as Adam knew the Creatures when he saw them so he had a new acquaintance with Obedient suffering when he was under the experience of it and is said to learn it in that he now exercised it And should not my suffering be God's School should I not learn obedience by it Surely as it smartly tells me of the evil of former disobedience so it calls me to remember in whose hands I am and with whom I have to do and what is my duty in such a state God can do no wrong to his own He will do nothing finally hurtful to
his Children In all our afflictions he is said to be afflicted to signifie that he afflicts not willingingly or without our provocation Justice is good and holiness is good and it 's good for us to repent and be weaned from the Flesh and World And all good must be loved and the means as such Sharp Heart-breaking Sermons are unpleasing to Nature and yet to be loved for their use And afflictions are God's powerful Sermons The proud and hardened are forced to hear them who scorn and prosecute Preachers for speaking the same things And shall Believers under sufferings be untaught Words are but Words but stripes go by forcible sense unto the Heart Obedient submission to the greatest pains is a serious acknowledgement of God's Dominion and of his Wisdom and Love and the certain hopes of a better life Impatience hath in it somwhat of Atheism or Blasphemy God is not duely acknowledged and honoured Job's Wife would have had him thus purposly provoke God to end his misery by Death As if she had said Speak no more well of him by whom thou sufferest so much nor honour a God that will not help thee But Patience saith Mic. 7. 7. I will look unto the Lord I will wait for the God of my Salvation my God will hear me Impatience sheweth a misunderstanding of God's dealing with the afflicted but patience yieldeth because it understandeth whence all comes and what will be the fruit and end A Man that is let Blood for his life is not impatient with the Chyrurgion but a Beast will strive and a Swine or Child will cry Our burdens are heavy enough of themselves Impatience maketh them heavier and is more painful than the thing which we suffer Some have gone mad with crosses which oft to another would have been light Patience is our cordial and nepenthes yea the Health of the Soul by which it is able to bear its infirmities In our patience we possess our Souls Luk. 21. 19. whatever else we lose we lose not our selves He that keepeth his Faith and Hope and Love by patience keepeth his Soul But the impatient lose themselves as if their other losses were not enough A poor Man singeth that gets his living only by his Day-labour When a Lord or Knight would be tormented with sorrow if he were reduced to his degree Striving under our yoak and burden maketh it Gall the more And we cannot so hopefully or comfortably pray for deliverance from the pain which we make our selves as from that which God layeth on us Though also there we must pray for the Grace that must save us from our own impatience Patience preventeth many sins which impatience causeth Hard thoughts of God if not hard and unseemly Words Job sinned not nor charged God foolishly Impatience tempteth men to think that Piety and Prayer are in vain and to condemn the Generatition of the Just and to leave off Duty and say Why should I wait on God any longer yea and to venture on false and sinful means in hopes of deliverance and ease Were it to men we have much to allay our impatience But against God impatience hath no just excuse Infinite Power Wisdom and Goodness can do nothing that deserveth blame We have God's Promise that All things shall work together for our good And is he not to be trusted Or is the means of our good to be accused Impatience is unseemly for them that believe that heavenly Rest and Glory are at hand where all their pains and sorrows will end Were a Man on the Rack and were sure to have all that he desired after it he would the more easily endure it Why else did the Martyrs so patiently suffer It 's incongruous to complain of any thing that brings a Man to Heaven Christ was himself Innocent and yet accused not God for his sufferings But we suffer justly for our faults and it 's so much less than they deserve that the sins which we suffer most for are said to be forgiven us in that the everlasting punishment is forgiven Should we so often sinfully please the Flesh and yet must it not smart Shall we so often grieve the Spirit of God and not be grieved Shall we lose our time neglect our duty forget our home fall in love with the World and yield to temptations and defile our Souls with filth and vanity and must not correction tell us of our sinful folly If we suffer for our faults and bear it patiently it is not thanks worthy 1 Pet. 2. 20. Our merciful Father doth use to shame us for our impatience by the blessed end of our Afflictions The End that God made with Job shewed the reasonableness of his Patience When our afflictions are over do not all Believers see cause of thankfulness for them and say It is good for me that I was afflicted The pain is past and the benefit remaineth And if all that 's past was Mercy to us why should we much fear that which is to come Heaven will end all and shame impatience for ever Our patience is much of our perseverance What a deal of labour do those impatient men lose that learn and pray and are somwhat Religious and have not patience at the last assault to bear the trial but fail when they seemed to be near the Crown Hold out then poor desponding Soul Lift up the Hands which hang down and the feeble Knees and run with patience the Race which is set before thee looking to Jesus who for the joy that was set before him endured the Cross God will not deceive thy hopes Sin hath brought pain and death on Man but Christ hath sanctified it and is the Lord of Life Yet a little while and the heavenly Possession shall turn thy sorrows into everlasting Joy and thy moans and groans into thanks and praise and there shall be no more sickness pains or death O foolish unbelieving Hearts that cry out of suffering and fear deliverance that would fain be free from all affliction and yet fly from the only state of freedom That are impatient under their calamity and yet afraid of passing to the only rest § 12. But it is neither Pain alone nor Death alone that will sufficiently try our strength and exercise our Faith and Patience It must be Great Pain and often Long in order to a certain or expected Death These two conjunct were the Case of Christ The torment of his Agony Scourging Crucifying Piercing and Desertion and the certainty of Death that followed Great pain with hopes of recovery and ease may be born even by a worldly Man Because there is still the worldly hope of better and so there is no denial of All while Life it self is not denied We must receive the Sentence of Death in our selves if we will find that we trust in God alone and trust him as one that raiseth the Dead that is for another and better life As long as a Man hath any hope of life
and ease a Man's Faith is not tried to the uttermost by actual forsaking all And yet an easy Death alone doth not fully try a Man For they that know that all must die may submit to this who cannot bear long pains before it But great and long pains and the Sentence of Death together are the trial And if God will so try me why should I repine Flesh will groan but the Mind may obediently submit It is but Flesh that Flesh that hath tempted and imprisoned my Soul I have too much loved it and am too loth to leave it And is it not Mercy from God to make me weary of it God is engaged against Idols that is all that is loved and pleased before him and if any thing that 's likest to be this Flesh It 's corruptibility tells us that both its pleasure and its pain will be but short Long pain is usually tolerable And intolerable pain will conquer Nature and not be long The Grace of Christ is sufficient for us and his strength is manifested in our weakness when he will not take the Thorn out of our Flesh though as Christ and Paul did we pray thrice or oftner And to be impatient with Death is to repine that we are born Mortal men and to fly from Heaven and all true Hopes and all the Felicity purchased by Christ And is this renouncing the World and trusting Christ for Life everlasting And why fear we that which endeth all our pains and fears A true Believer never suffereth so much but his Mercies are far more and greater than his sufferings His Soul is united to Christ His hopes of Heaven have a sure Foundation He is sealed up to Glory Rest and Joy are near at hand And former Mercies should not be forgotten And should not such men patiently endure O what a shameful contradiction is it to choose Heaven as our only Portion to believe in Christ for it and to seek it as the business of all our lives and yet to be loth to die that we may obtain it and to fly with fear from that which we so seek and hope for What a contradiction is it to call God our God and Father the God of Love and to call Christ our Gracious glorified Redeemer and yet to Fly from his presence with distrustful fear Almighty love may correct us may kill us but it cannot finally hurt true Believers So much of Moses and Elias discourse of the Sufferings and Death of Christ § 13. Sure it is not true that the Souls of the Fathers before Christ's coming did not enter into Heaven but lay in some inferiour Limbus For Moses and Elias came from Heaven their shining glory shewed that and their discourse with Christ and the Voice and glory that went with them And it is not to be thought that they were separated from the rest of the Souls of the Faithful and with Henoch were in Heaven by themselves alone and the rest elsewhere Though it 's said that God's House hath many Mansions and there are various degrees of Glory yet the blessed are all Fellow-Citizens of one Society and Children in one Family of God And they that came from East and West shall sit down with Abraham Isaac and Jacob in the Kingdom of God and Lazarus is in Abraham's bosom and the believing Thief with Christ in Paradise § 14. It seems that Moses and Elias appeared thus to fore shew the Resurrection of Christ and of the Faithful and to make it easier to the three Disciples to believe it Why should they doubt whether Christ should rise when they saw Moses that was risen before him And why should they doubt of the Resurrection of the Faithful and the Glory following when they saw these glorified Saints Some think that this Apparition was for the strengthening of Christ himself whose humane Nature had use for such Ministry also of Angels But it 's more certain that it was for the strengthening of the Disciples Faith and of ours by their Testimony As it 's said Joh. 12. 30. This Voice came not because of me but for your sakes § 15. It is much worth our noting in what a Communion this Specimen of the Kingdom of Heaven was represented in the holy Mount Here was a Voice of God and a glimpse of his Glory Here was our Redeemer in a glimpse of his Glory Here was a Moses and Elias in a glimpse of their Glory And here were three beloved Disciples yet in the Flesh and in weakness of Faith which needed such confirmation God our Father and our Saviour the Saints of Heaven and those on Earth are all of one Society or Kingdom there is a near relation and a near communion among them all When the Eternal Word disdained not so wonderful condescension as to come to us in the form of a Servant even of a poor despised Crucified Man it 's less wonder that Moses and Elias should come down as his Witnesses and Servants Heb. 12. 23 c. The heavenly Jerusalem and City of the Living God of which we are Enrolled Burgesses or Heirs hath many parts There is the Assembly of the first Born and innumerable Angels and the Spirits of the Just made perfect and Jesus the Mediator of the New Covâ—nant and God the Judge of all O what holy glorious joyful Company shall we have above Christ and his Angels will not despise the least of Saints § 16. But what was the Introduction to this Apparition and Transfiguration It was Christ's praying Luk. 9. 28 29. He went up into a Mountain to pray and as he prayed he was transfigured Surely this is written to invite and encourage us to pray We are in greater need than Christ It 's folly in Unbelievers to think Prayer vain because God is unchangeable We are not unchangeable And the exercise of Faith dependance on God and true desires being the Conditions required in a due Receiver maketh those Blessings become ourâ—s which else we had been uncapable of God who commandeth fervent Prayer hath promised to answer it Though we must not think to be the Rulers of the World nor have whatever our Flesh or solly doth desire because we ask it earnestly yet true Prayer is the appointed way for obtaining what we need and is best for us and we are fitted to receive And as Christ had this wonderful return to his Prayers his Servants have experience that their choicest Mercies for Soul and Body have come this way § 17. Though the three Disciples were admitted to this glorious Society how different was their case from that of Christ and Moses and Elias In the beginning of the heavenly concourse they were asleep with heaviness Even while this glorious Company stood near them Alas such is our infirmity in Flesh and such a Clog are these earthly Bodies to us that when God is present and Heaven is before us and we have the greatest cause to watch and pray a heavy weary sluggish Body even
misery make them intollerable to themselves But it is not because they have seen a glimpse of Heaven on Earth or tasted the sweetness of Holy society and work but because their Bodies are in Health their Purses full their Appetites pleased and their inferiours do their wills and honour them This is all the Heaven that they love and to leave all this is the Death which they abhor and fear And they will not hear God and the experience of all Mankind befooling them till near the Night that their Souls shall be required and then Whose will all their Treasure be § 28. But yet it was a greater part of Peter's dotage to think of Tabernacles for Christ Moses and Elias and of detaining of heavenly Inhabitants upon Earth If you should offer the lowest Saint in Heaven an earthly Kingdom in exchange for his Condition with what disdain would he despise the offer Christ's Kingdom was not of this World nor would Moses and Elias change their lot with Alexander or Caesar Poor trifles allure us and seem somwhat to us as toys to Children while we are dreaming in the Flesh but if once we be delivered and see what the Celestial Glory is what a change will it make upon our judgments We fear now in the dark to go unto that World of Light and are loth to put off the rags of Flesh and to depart from a known though a dirty falling habitation But if we get to Heaven we shall be loth to return to Earth again and to be so coursly cloathed When once we are there a World would not hire us to come back into this corruptible Body till God will make it Spiritual and Incorruptible Our Friends whose Death we passionately lamented would be loth now to change their company for such as we are or their abode for such a wicked World as this or their work for the best of ours on Earth No wonder that departed blessed Souls appear not to their friends on Earth Most Apparitions are of Devils or miserable Souls to whom it is no loss or condescension Were I once in Heaven could I possibly be willing to be turned again into a Bedlam World and laid under the Feet of blinded pride and raging madness and live among Sodomites called Christians whose God is their Belly and who glory in their filthiness and shame and mind nothing with love but earthly things and are bitter Enemies not only to the Cross but to the Government of Christ Would I be again among Dogs and Swine Yea Devils in Flesh who hate and persecute the Regenerate Seed and all that will not receive their mark and be as mad bad as they would I again be groaning here in pain or tired with a weary Body and more with a feeble sinful Soul weak in Faiâ—h Cold in Love of doubtful Hope and imperfect Duty Would I be here again in the prospect of a Grave with fear of dying as strange as now to the heavenly Felicity Lazarus will not come from Abraham's bosom for the rich Man's Wealth and Belly-pleasure no not to warn his sensual Brethren Had Peter seen Heaven as he saw the Glory on the Mount he would never have made so blind a motion for Christ Moses and Elias to continue there who have so much better a habitation § 29. But this glorious Apparition was but short As the Glory of God's back parts to Moses which did but pass by Presently a cloud cometh and separateth the company and ends the pleasant sight When Christians receive some extraordinary sense of the Love of God some sweet foretasts of promised happiness they must not look that this should be ordinary or always so When some fervent Prayer is extraordinarily answered and a Sacrament sweetned with unusual drops of heavenly sweetness or a holy Discourse or Meditation hath raised us higher than ever before we must not expect that this should be our constant diet and God should thus feast us all the Year The times of fasting also have their turn Moses did not dwell on Mount Horeb nor Mount Nebo or Pisgah from whence he saw the Land of Promise God's Children do not always laugh and sing while they have their sinning times they will have their suffering and crying times How suddenly doth the Lark come down to the Earth who before was soaring out of sight and singing pleasantly in the higher Air as if it had been aspiring towards the Sun A luscious diet is not best for such as we that have so many corruptions to be cured by cleansing means Cordials must not be all our Physick unwarrantable expectations of greater or more continued Joys then we are meet for is injurious both to God and to our selves Desires of more we may and must have But those desires must look up to Heaven where indeed they may be satisfied 30. The joy of these Spectators was turned into Fear saith the Text when they entered into the Cloud No wonder The change was sudden and great from a sight of the Kingdom of God in Power unto a dark Cloud Just now they seemed almost in Heaven and presently they knew not where they were From glorious Light to a kind of Prison of obscurity Such changes here we are liable to The same Soul that lately tasted of transporting joy may lie in terrour hardly resisting temptations to despair The same Person that was confident of the Love of God may be quickly not only doubting of it but sinfully denying it The same that had assuring evidence of sincerity may shortly conclude that all was but Hypocrisie The same that was triumphing in the sense of Love may cry out O miserable Man that I am And the same that magnified the Grace of Christ may say The day of Grace is pastâ— Especially if either the Tempter get the advantage of a Melancholy Body or of casting the Soul in to renewed guilt of some wounding sin or into impatient discontents with the things that befal it in the World There is a stability in the Essentials of Holiness It 's Life eternal that is here begun But alas the degrees of Grace the exercise of it the evenness and integrity of our obedience and accordingly our Comforts are lamentably liable to change Even as all worldly things are mutable to the ungodly though their harden'd Hearts are too little changeable Expecting nothing but joy from God or expecting more than we are meet for maketh our dejections the greater and more grievous None are cast lower with terrour trouble and almost despair than some that have been most transported with joy When some other Christians of an even conversation have an evenness and constancy of Holy Peace though no such joys § 31. The Cloud separated the Company Moses and Elias are seen no more no nor the Glory of Christ But yet Christ is not separated from them His ordinary presence still abideth with them Christ doth not leave the Soul when extraordinary joys do leave it It loseth not
him when he promiseth and hear him before the worldly wise when he teacheth us the way to God Hear him for he knows what he saith Hear him for he is true and faithful and infallible Hear him for he is the Son of God the greatest Messenger that ever God sent Hear him for he purposly came down into Flesh that he might familiarly teach us Hear him for none else in the Word hath made known the things of God like him and none can do it Hear him for he meaneth us no hurt He is our dearest Friend and Love itself and saith nothing but for our Salvation and promiseth nothing but what he will perform Yea Hear him for every Soul that will not hear him shall be cut off Hear him therefore if he contradict thy fleshly Appetite Hear him if great or small if any or all shall be against it Hear him if he set thee on the hardest work or call thee to the greatest suffering Hear him if he bid thee take up the Cross and forsake all and follow him in hope of a reward in Heaven Hear him if he call thee to lay down thy Life for none can be a loser by him Hear him now in the Day of Grace and he will hear thee in the day of thy Extremity in the day of Danger Sickness Death and Judgment when the World forsaketh thee and no ones hearing else can help thee § 37. But I was not one that saw this Vision Had I seen it my self it would have satisfied me and confuted all my doubts Answ But it is the will of God that the Ministry and Testimony of Man shall be a means of our believing It 's Faith and not Sight that must be the ordinary way of our Salvation Else Christ must have shewed himself and his Miracles Resurrection and Ascension to every one in the World that must believe in him And then he must have been visible at once in every Kingdom Parish and Place on Earth and continued so to the end of the World and must have died risen and ascended many Millions of times and in every place They that will put such Laws on their Lawgiver before they will believe in him must be saved without him and against him if they can This is more unreasonable than to tell God that you will not believe that there is a Heaven or Hell unless you see them But God will have us live and be saved by believing and not by sight And he will use Man for the Instruction and Salvation of Man and not send Angels with every Message § 38. But Why did Christ shew this Vision but it Three of his Disciples Answ He is not bound to tell us why But we may know that a sight of heavenly Glory is not to be ordinarily expected on Earth Why did God shew the back parts of his Glory to none but Moses no not to his Brother Aaron Why did he speak to him only in the Bush and in the Mount Why did he translate none to Heaven without dying but Henoch and Elias Why did he save but Noah and Seven with him in the Ark These are not things ordinary nor to be common to many § 39. But by this it appeareth that even among his Twelve Apostles Christ made a difference and preferred some before the rest Though he set no one over the rest in any Governing Authority yet some of them were qualified above the rest and esteemed and used by him accordingly Peter is called the first and it seems was qualified above the rest by his more frequent speaking and familiarity with Christ and his Speeches and Miracles after the Resurrection Though yet the Faction that said I am of Cephas or I am of Paul was rebuked as Carnal so far was Christ from directing the Churches to end all difference by obeying Peter as their Supream Ruler James and John are called the Sons of Thunder They had some more eminent qualification than the rest So that James was the first Martyred Apostle and John the Disciple whom Jesus specially loved Ministers of the same Office and Order may much differ in Gifts and Grace in labour and success and in God's acceptance and reward and in the Churches just esteem and love All Pastors were not such as Cyprian Basil Gregory Nazianzene Chrysostome or Augustine And the rest must not envy at the preference of Peter James and John Andrew seems to be Peters Elder Brother and knew Christ before him as Aaron was Elder Brother to Moses and yet must give God leave to choose to give pre-eminence to whom he will § 40. But Why did not these Three Apostles tell any of this Vision till after Christ's Resurrection Ans Christ did forbid it them And it was according to the Method of his Revelation He would make himself known to the World by degrees and more by his Works than by bare Words And these works were to be finished and all set together to be his convincing Witness to the World And the chief of these were his Resurrection Ascension and sending down the Holy Ghost The Apostles could not say till then Jesus is risen ascended and hath given us the Seal of the Spirit therefore he is the Son of God Christ first preached Repentance like John Baptist And next he told them that the Kingdom of God by the Messiah was come and was among them And then he taught them to believe his Word to be sent from God and to be true And he taught them the Doctrines of Holiness Love and Righteousness towards men And he wrought those Miracles which might convince them that what he said or should say deserved their belief But yet before his Resurrection his Apostles themselves understood not many of the Articles of our Creed they knew not that Christ was to die for sin and so to redeem the World by his Sacrifice nor that he was to Rise Ascend and Reign and Intercede in Glory And yet they were then in a state of Grace and Life such as Believers were in before Christ's Incarnation And sure no more is required of the Nations that cannot hear the Gospel But the Resurrection was the beginning of the proper Gospel State and Kingdom to which all before was but preparatory then by the Spirit Christianity was formed to its setled Consistence and is a known unalterable thing And it is a great confirmation to our Faith that Christ's Kingdom was not settled by any advantage of his personal Presence Preaching and Persuasion so much as by the Holy Ghost in his Apostles and Disciples when he was gone from them into Heaven § 41. But how are we sure that these three men tell us nothing but the Truth Ans This is oft answered elsewhere The Spirit which they spake and work'◠by was Christ's Witness and theirs They healed the Sick raised the Dead spake various Languages which they never learnt and Preached and Recorded that Holy Doctrin committed to them by Christ which
This Nature and its faculties and powers are not made in vain II. Reason assureth me that all men are bound by Nature to prefer the least probability of a Life of Everlasting Joy before all the Prosperity of this World and to suffer the loss of all this short Vanity to escape the least possibility of endless misery And Nature hath such notices of Rewards and Punishments after Death that no Man can say that he is sure there is no such thing From whence it followeth that all men are bound by the very Law of Nature to be Religious and to seek first and most their Salvation in the Life to come And if so It 's certain that there is such a thing to be obtained Else God had made the very Nature of Man to be deceived by itself and to spend the chief part yea all his life through labour and suffering for that which is not and so made his greatest duty to be his greatest deceit and misery And the worst men should be least deceived But all this is not to be imputed to our wise and good Creator III. The universal sense of Moral Good and Evil in all Mankind is a great evidence of another life The vilest Atheist cannot abide to be accounted a Knave a Lyer a bad Man nor will equal a vicious Servant with another All would be thought good who will not be good And doth not God make a greater difference than Man And will he not shew it IV. The World is actually ruled much by the hopes and fears of another life and cannot well be ruled without it according to the Nature of Man But the Almighty most Wise and most Holy God needs not and will not rule the World by meer deceit V. The Gospel of Christ hath brought Life and Immortality into a clearer Light than that of Nature And it must be by believing in Christ that we must have our full satisfaction O what hath God done in the Wonders of Redemption to make us sure And against the doubts that are apt to rise from some hard particular Text of Scripture it must be considered I. That Christ and his Apostles did put the ascertaining Seal of the many uncontrolled Miracles to the Gospel Doctrin primarily which Doctrin 1. Was delivered and sealed Eight years before any of the New Testament was written and almost Seventy before the last 2. And Christ did not speak in the Language that the Gospel is written to us so that being but a Translation as to his own Words the Matter is the thing first sealed II. And that it was the two Legislator-Mediators Moses and Christ who came with the great stream of uncontrolled Miracles It being necessary that men should have full proof that a Law or Doctrin is of God before they believe it But the Priests and Prophets after Moses and the Preachers and Pastors of the Christian Church who were not Commissioned to bring men any New Laws or Gospel but to proclaim and teach that which they received needed no such New Testimony of Miracles III. The Belief of every particular Priest or Prophet after Moses or every Pastor after Christ and his Apostles was not of the same degree of necessity to Salvation as the belief of the Law and Gospel itself Therefore though all the Holy Scripture be true the Law and the Gospel must be much differenced from the rest IV. The History of the Law and Gospel have full ascertaining historical Evidence or else there is none such in the World Therefore the Doctrin must be true V. The Prophesies fulfilled prove the Gospel true VI. And the Divine Impress on the whole VII And the sanctifying work of the Spirit wrought by it in all Nations and Ages on serious Believers is a constant Divine attestation VIII And as my Faith hath so sure a Foundation it confirmeth my Faith and Hope that it hath been so long and great a work of God by his Word and Spirit on my Soul to raise it to believe and love and desire that Holy state of Perfection and Fruition which I hope for That which hath made me so much better than I else had been and turned my Heart and Life though imperfectly to things above the Pleasures of the Flesh must needs be of God And God would never send his Grace to work my Heart to Deceit and Lies and give me such Graces as shall all be frustrate His Spirit is the Earnest and first Fruits of Glory IX And all the course of Religious and Moral duty which he hath commanded me and in which he hath employed my life were never imposed to deceive me I am sure by Nature and Scripture that it is my Duty to love God and my Neighbour to desire Perfection and to serve God and do good with all my time and power and to trust God for my reward believing that all this shall not be in vain nor that which is best be made my loss O blessed be God for Commands and Holy Duty For they are equal to Promises Who can fear that he shall lose by seeking God X. As God hath sealed the Truth of his Word as aforesaid so he hath by an instituted Office and Ordinance sealed and delivered to my self his Covenant with the gift of Christ and Life in Baptism and the Lord's Supper XI He hath given me such a love to Holy Things and Persons that I greatly long to see his Church in perfect Light and Love and Concord Oh how sweet would it be to see all men Wise and Holy and Joyfully praising God Every Christian longs for this And therefore such a state will be XII I have found here the great benefit of the Love and Ministry of Angels such as is described in Psal 91. They have kept me Night and Day which confirmeth my hope that I shall dwell with them for I love them better than men because they love and serve God better XIII That low communion which I have here with God by Christ and the Spirit in his answer to my Prayers Supports Comforts Experiences tends to more XIV The pleasure which I have by Love in thinking of the happiness of my many many many holy departed Friends and of the Glory of Christ and the heavenly Jerusalem is sure some hopeful approach towards their state XV. When I see the Fire mount upward and think that Spirits are of a more sublime and excellent Nature than Fire And when I see that all that is done in this World is done by Spiritual unseen powers which move this gross and drossie Matter it puts me past doubt that my Soul being a Spirit hath a vast and glorious World of Spirits to ascend to God hath by Nature put into all things an aggregative uniting inclination Earth hath no other natural motion The ascent of Fire tells us its Element is above And Spiritâ— naturally incline to Spirits and holy Spirits peculiarly are inclined to the Holy XVI I am sure 1. By understanding