obstinacy He raised thee from thy fall by his power he instructed he enlightened thee with his wisdome he brought thee from the tempestuous sea of this world to the port of a calme conscience and planted thee in a land of religious conuersation Yet thou notwithstanding either vnmindfull or vnkind hast exalted thy heart and thereby lost that wisedome which should haue made thy worship and seruice acceptable to the LORD Thou knowing his will hast beene negligent in performing the same albeit thou knowest that Cursed is hee who doeth the worke of the LORD negligently Yea thou hast not done it at all thou hast manifestly and manifoldly transgressed his will and therefore art most worthy to be beaten with many stripes Thou hast forsaken his seruice who is so bountifull that he rewards a cup of cold water with eternall life and thou hast serued sinne which giueth no wages but death but eternall death Oh wofull wages it were far better to goe vnpaid and serue for nothing O Lucifer who saidest in thy heart I will climbe vp into heauen Thou must humble thy selfe so low as hell or else neuer looke to encounter mercy Knowest thou not that rebellious ingratitude giueth limits to mercy where else were iustice Who should receiue iudgement if mercy did alwaies wait vpon sinners Goe to then deiect thy selfe abiect wretch creepe among moathes and wormes abase thy self to the very gates of despaire in regard of this thy obstinate vnkindnesse Open thy vnderstanding draw all pensiue conceits greedily into thy soule and pine away in a consuming langour Sith thou hast lost thy ioy make much of thy sorrow sith thou hast no comfort but in complaints bestow them largely Oh! what a heauie burthen is heauinesse to the soule It is more ponderous then the whole masse of the earth It is more poisonous then the breath of the Cockatrice It murmureth against GOD It prouoketh to blaspheme It prouoketh to despaire It turneth all matter of solace and ioy into mountaines of lead to weigh vs downe It admitteth neither contentment nor quiet But as to many sicke persons all sweet things seeme bitter so to those who are vnder the arrest of heauinesse all meanes either of delight or of comfort are turned to matter of torment and disquiet And verely my miserie did so deepelie drowne my memorie and whole minde in sorrow that all the remembrance of GODs promises lay ouerwhelmed with the thicke throng of discomfortable thoughts and heauinesse would haue altogether ouerborne and beaten me downe had not Faith and her sweet sister Hope come to my reliefe and with most comfortable countenance and speech thus sustained me So so this worketh kindly and as it should this working of the medicine giueth very good assurance of health Alasse weake wretched sinners how are ye deceiued by your sottish sence The poisonous pleasures of sinne which bane the soule you sweetly swallow without distaste but you cannot rellish feare and sorrow the principall expellers of this poison At these you make a sowre face you can no waies enforce them downe Whereas a soule once infected with sinne cannot possibly be recouered to the state of Grace but it must first be bruised and broken betweene feare and griefe as a graine of corne is grinded betweene two milstones And this moouing of the soule betweene feare and griefe referred to GOD maketh a broken and contrite heart which he doth neuer despise And this is that contrition which is the first part of true Repentance O louely feare O sweet sorrow O happy hand which was so heauie vpon thee suffred thee not to lie sencelesse in thy sinnes heaping to thy selfe wrath against the day of wrath Let it be a comfort a great ioy vnto thee that this heauy hand hath raised and pulled thee out of the ordure of thy sinnes If heretofore thou hast beene vnthankefull be thankfull now and thy former vnthankefullnesse shall not be remembred The multitude of his benefits is so far from dismaying that it may much assure thee For he who hath so loued thee will not now leaue thee He who hath begun his worke in thee will in time expedient expedite the same VVhat is more vsuall in noble natures then to follow their owne fauours then to loue those most vpon whom they haue bestowed greatest benefits to heape many honours vpon such as haue beene first aduanced by them And hath not the most noble nature said that To them who haue more shall be giuen Againe what naturall cause beginneth a worke and leaueth the same vnfinished The vertue of seed ceaseth not in the leafe not in the flower vntill it hath brought foorth seed to a perfect ripenesse The bird neuer forsaketh her yong vntill shee see them able both to flie and to prouide for themselues Doeth nature compell inferiour causes to perfect their effects and shall not the cause of all causes bee mooued by his most infinite goodnesse and loue to finish the worke which hee hath begunne Are not all the workes of the mighty GOD perfect Hath not the same infinite goodnesse and loue sayd It is my worke to doe the will of him that sent mee that I should make perfect his worke Feare not then hee who hath begun to loue thee will neuer change but will persist to loue thee to the end the same goodnesse that moued him to conferre many gifts and blessings vpon thee will mooue him to perfect all by giuing thee euerlasting life For wherefore did he turne thy heart from sinne wherefore did hee prouoke thee to Repentance but because hee purposed to make thee cleane But as thou doest expect that GOD will not leaue his worke vnfinished in thee so breake not off thy worke in the middest with him Thou hast attayned to contrition in a moderate degree but rest not there proceed now to confesse thy sinnes which is the second part of true Repentance For sinnes are like a burning aguâ— which commonly breaketh foorth at the lippes So long as the heat remayneth within it searcheth and anguisheth all the entrailes but when it breaketh foorth at the lippes it is an assured signe of health Goe with vs then and wee will bring thee before his presence Acknowledge there thy sinnes Hide none of thy transgressions from him Leaue feare behinde for milde and mercifull is the LORD hee turneth to those who turne vnto him but take sorrow with thee and season thy confession therewith Sorrow will make thy confession not only not offensiue but pleasing to him VERSE V. I will acknowledge my sinne vnto thee and mine vnrighteousnesse haue I not hid 1 The second forme of Repentance 2 The cause of GODS seuerity against vs. 3 How we should present our selues to GOD. 4 A Confession 5 Betweene great and infinite there stands no proportion 6 Faith and hope our guides and companions to GOD. 7 Whereto a sinner is like 8 How offensiue sin is to GOD. 9 How we must satisfie 10 How we commonly
to kindle O desire of my soule thou knowest my tribulations my thoughts lie naked in thy sight thou seest how for thee my heart sorroweth my breast sigheth mine eie weepeth my body fainteth and my soule languisheth And wherfore tariest thou wherfore dost thou prolong my longing wherefore dost thou martyr me with delay VVhy sufferest thou me thus long to be vexed Is the cause heereof in thee or is it in my selfe Are thy mercies spent is thy louing kindnesse at an end wilt thou no more bee intreated by sinners or am I only cancelled out of thy conceit No no I doe not so feelinglie want thee I doe not so ardentlie desire thee as my case requires Verelie the cause is in my selfe and not in thee There is some trespasse in my teares my sorrow is seasoned with some sinne thou seest some cause for which I cannot see thee else wouldest thou not thus estrange thy selfe else thus thou wouldest not giue me ouer I am rather vnworthy to entertaine thee then thou vnwilling to come vnto mee VVell then I will still stir vp the coales of my dull deuotion I will heape on more fewell I will not cease blowing vntill it rise to a full and constant flame I will not entreat onely but I will importune thee I will wrestle with thee as Iacob did with the Angel I will not let thee goe vntill thou blesse me VERS IIII. Turne thee O LORD and deliuer my soule Oh saue me for thy mercies sake 1 A Prayer 2 The pleasures of this life how vnprofitable they are 3 The great distance betweene GOD and a sinner 4 How brought together 5 How grieuous it is to be separate from GOD. 6 An earnest desire of the soule after GOD. 7 The absence of GOD worse then his anger 8 How GOD is to be desired 9 What mooueth GOD to pitie and relieue 10 The great mercy of GOD. 11 To whom his mercy is properly due 12 Mercy to sinners is a due 13 GOD is most liberall and wherefore 14 How wee should desire GOD to turne to vs his face O Come mercifull LORD come and turne vpon me thy fauourable face come exercise vpon me the worke of mercie Regard me not as sinfull but as sorrowfull for my sin punish not my offences but pity the weaknesse from whence they proceed pity the distresse whereinto they haue cast me pitifullie regard my weakenesse and distresse For I feele my soule plunged in a vast sea of sinne I feele how fast it sinketh how violentlie it is swallowed I haue greedily grasped at the floating comforts of this life but I finde no stay in them I finde they rather pester then releeue me I finde them like a flash of lightning in a darke stormy night which serueth to shew the present infelicity and to increase the horror of ensuing darknesse And therefore doe I now streine out my voice and stretch foorth my hand vnto thee for helpe Gladlie would I turne to thee but I am not able for there is so great a distance betweene a sinner and thee that by his owne forces he cannot return and come neere thee Depart from thee and adhere to euill of our selues we may but we cannot forsake euill and turne to thee but by thy speciall power No man by his proper vertue is able to saue and consequently to iustifie himselfe thy grace must alwaies preuent him thou must first call him before he be able to cal vpon thee The beginning of our conuersion must be from thee from thy preuenting and inciting grace And therefore turne to me and then shall I be turned to thee Turne vnto me not by any change in thy selfe for thou art immutable but turne to me by thy goodnesse and grace and I will turne to thee by repentance and amendment of life Oh! how grieuous is it to bee separated and estranged from thee what good can comfort what euill will not annoy when thou art turned away Thou art the rock of my faint faith the anchor of my wauering hope the center of my languishing desire and loue In thee I trust vpon thee I relye I am so earnest in desiring thee that I neither desire nor almost thinke vpon any other thing But where art thou In what cloud doest thou hide thy selfe what meanest thou to suspend thy comfort so long to punish my desire so much with delay Wherefore hidest thou thy face and takest me for thine enemie Albeit thou art angrie with me yet would not I haue thee depart from me I had rather enioy thee angrie then not at all because thou art most extreamely angrie when thou turnest from vs. When thou art angrie and present then doest thou instruct vs then reforme vs but when thou turnest from vs then thou giuest vs ouer then thou leauest vs to innumerable and vnauoidable euils Albeit my friends forsake me albeit my enemies persecute me albeit all the societies of men and of Diuels tumult against mee yet doe not thou forsake me doe not thou depart from me For woe to them from whom thou departest But take heed O troubled soule and consider well what thou requirest of the LORD Art not thou a sinner a grieuous sinner is not GOD a searcher of sinnes a grieuous punisher of grieuous sinnes Doest thou not pray to him to turne away his face from thy sinnes Did not holy Iob say where shall I hide me from thy countenance because I haue sinned And wouldest thou haue him turne his face to thee being a most heynous sinner Yes yes I know well enough what I desire I know that GOD hath more faces then one He hath a face of Maiestie which no man can see and liue This face I cannot see He hath a face of iustice This face I would not see It is terrible to sinners this face is vpon them who doe euill to destroy their memoriall from the earth But hee hath another face of compassion and mercie And this face is like the Sunne exceeding full both of beautie and of vertue This face hee hideth from sinners This face I desire to be displayed vpon me be it neuer so cloudie neuer so angrie the anger of this face is to make sinners pure LORD make this face to shine vpon mee and be mercifull to mee LORD this face doe I seeke oh hide not thou thy face from mee nor cast away thy seruant in displeasure Come come gracious LORD with-hold no longer O water of life O shower of our saluation distill into mee one drop of thy dewe Seeing I am nothing without thee let me taste the benefit of being thine I desire thee and not thine for thy selfe not for thy gifts I desire thee onely not thee for any thing nothing for thee nothing with thee nothing beside thee Come deliuer my soule from the chaines of sinne wherewith I am bound to satisfie the rigour of thy iustice by eternall death and damnation Deliuer me from long custome
of sinne deliuer mee both from the pleasures and cares of this world which are cables to tye me fetters to hold mee captiue from turning to thee Deliuer my soule and saue me First deliuer my soule from present distresse then addresse me in the right way of thy saluation It is true that there is no desert no goodnes in me that should any wayes mooue thee to pitie or relieue mee For I haue loosely abandoned thee I haue trayterously conspired against thine honour I am altogether vnworthy but in wrath and reuenge to bee regarded of thee But I entreat thee by thine infinite goodnesse which is sufficient to abolish all the sinnes in the world euen in the lowest descent of humilitie for thy mercies sake I beseech thee to saue mee LORD I crie to thee in the confidence of thy mercies and not of my merits whereto no saluation but eternall death and destruction is due And if thou wilt not absolutely be entreated yet this word mercie is a maine argument to mooue thee or to assure me at the least that thou wilt saue me For thou art merciful both inwardly in thy selfe outwardly to others It is thy proper nature to beê merciful it is more proper for thee to do good to impart thy selfe to al things then it is for the Sun to enlighten then for the fire to giue heat thou canst not but exercise the actions of mercie But vpon whom vpon righteous persons what needeth that For they haue no miserie because they haue no sinne which only is misery which onely needeth mercie Is it then vpon small offenders is it to a certaine degree and measure of sinne Why but thou art exceeding mercifull infinite in mercie no lesse infinite in mercie then in nature for thou art mercy Verely as the rich man oweth his reliefe to the poore and the greater his riches are the greater is his debt as also the more poore a man is the more right hee hath to demaund reliefe euen so the greater thy mercies are the more must thou exercise the same vpon miserable sinners and the more miserable and sinfull a man is the more boldly may he come to thee for mercie The miserable sinner ouercharged with sinnes may confidently make his suit vnto thee to doe thy duty to exercise thy action to take away his misery to impart to him thy mercie that where sinne abounds grace also may more then abound Men doe therefore giue sparingly or at the least in some measure because the more they giue the lesse they reteine but thy treasure cannot be either exhausted or diminished thou departest with nothing by imparting to others by giuing abundantly thou hast nothing the lesse Thou art a fountaine of pitie and mercie from whence innumerable streames proceede the waters whereof are infinite both in quantitie and in vertue as well to cure our wounds and infirmities as to wash away our filthines and refresh our weakenesse O infinite fountaine how canst thou bee dried O sweetnesse O sacietie of desires what languishing soule came euer to thee and was not both cured and clensed and fully refreshed Doubtlesse O Lord thou art exceeding mercifull and wilt both readily and largely distribute thy mercies among offenders Thou wilt deliuer them saue them if they turne vnto thee if with penitent hearts they desire thy mercie Thou art more liberall to giue then they can be either desirous or willing to receiue VERSE V. For in death no man remembreth thee and who will giue thee thankes in the pit THE wisedome of GOD bindeth our assurance 2. To what end man was created 3. The time of life limited for repentance 4 Paine causeth forgetfulnesse of any thing but of it selfe 5. As after death repentance is vnprofitable so at the instant of death it is very doubtfull 6. The discommodities of late repentance AND it is not onely thy mercie which bindeth my reason but also thy wisedome For I am thy creature the worke of thy hands the worke which thy wisedome hath framed to some end Thy wisedome hath framed nothing in vaine nothing but to some end without attayning which end it should not perish But it is all one if I had beene created for nothing and in vaine and if I should not attaine to the end for which I was created To what end then did thy Wisedome create mee in this World Certainely that I should know thee and that by knowing thee I should loue thee and that in louing thee I should neuer cease to remember thee neuer cease to praise thee neuer cease to sorrow when I offend thee To this end I was created and I am desirous to accomplish this end I am desirous to be an instrument for extolling thy praise and setting foorth thy glory But in case I die thus charged with sinne before thou turnest thy mercie to me before I turne to thee by repentance what honor will thereby rise to thee what benefit to my selfe How shall I then partake of thy goodnesse How shall I publish and praise the same For so long as we enioy the benefit of life We nay repent we may leaue our sinnes we may returne to the state of grace But after death followeth iudgement when no error can be either repented or repaired but euery man shall suffer according as hee hath done In this liâ—e we may both dispose our selues and incite others to blazon thy praise but in the dungeon of death who will thanke thee who will thinke on thee who will sing thy praises in the bosome of Hell This is not a proper place for the sweet harmony of thy praise for the ioyfull memoriall of thy name Thy praise consisteth in a thankefull publication of thy grace goodnesse and mercie But this is the house of horror heere thy full furie and vengeance inhabite here can bee neither thankfull nor ioyfull remembrance of thee It is familiar to the pleasures of this life if they be great to cause vs to forget both thee and our selues But we are far lesse sensible of pleasure then of paine paines are more sharpe to vs in a high degree then pleasures are sweet Sharpe paines doe so strongly affect the bodie they doe so viòlently possesse the minde that it cannot once thinke of any other thing Who may then remember thee as he should being vnder the hand of thy terrible wrath Who shall either loue thee or laud thee in the ouglie den of death where the eies are possessed with hideous hurlemeÌ„ts the eares with desperate fruitles wailings all the faculties and parts both with intolerable and endlesse torments VVhere nothing is either suffered or done but effects of thine implacable wrath Assuredlie they are cursed by thee who are condemned to this place and heere againe they curse and blaspheme thee For this cause the wiseman exhorteth vs to turne to thee to forsake our sinnes and to make our prayers before thy face But what is it to do all these
we bring all we lie to the holie Ghost which is a most fearefull and heauy sinne One hooke sufficieth to take the fish one snare to fetter the soule But the Deuill is a most cunning angler a verie expert fowler he casteth manie baites he pitcheth manie snares in our pathes If we remaine intangled in any one if by sincere repentance we free not our selues from all we shall be sure to be his prey If we acknowledge not our sinnes we acknowledge not GODS mercies in forgiuing our sinnes we we are vnworthie to haue that debt remitted which we are vnwilling to confesse So much as we conceale of our sins so much do we adde ingratitude to iniurie and despight Wee double the wrong that wee haue done if to disability for discharge we adde falshood in our accompt Let vs first make our true accompt then we shall find GOD so easie as rather to offer then to be entreated not only to forbeare what we are not ready but to forgiue what wee are not able to discharge VERS III. Whilest I helde my tongue my bones consumed through my dayly complayning 1. WE cannot be ignorant of our sinnes 2. Originall sinne the seed of all actuall sinne 3. Dull sence of sinne makes vs slow and heauy to confesse them 4. Whereby the soule is more deepely soyled 5. Too much sence of sin makes vs either fearefull or ashamed to confesse them 6. The sottery of sinners in concealing their sinne 7. Want of confession how dangerous it is 8. It draweth variety of punishments vpon vs. 9. Wee often complaine but not as we should 10. Punishments to what end they are sent 11 Wherefore GOD called Adam and not the Diuell 12. GODS violent voyce in calling sinners 13. Whereto sinners may be compared 14. It is a great mercy of GOD to bee trauayled in this life and wherefore 15. Troubles are GODS husbandry c. I MY selfe haue heeretofore beene either negligent or ashamed to confesse my sinnes For I could not bee altogether ignorant the checke of my owne conscience did often aduertise me that my soule was drenched in two Stygian streames of corruption originall and actuall the one deriued to me by descent the other proceeding from my proper will For by reason of the fall of our first parent his bloud was atteint and corruption was so fast fixed in his nature that hee transmitted that leprosie to all who euer descended from him This is the seede of all actuall sinnes this is in power all sinnes in the world Not onely if wee act the wicked motions thereof but if we yeeld consent vnto them if without consent we take pleasure in thinking of them then they turne to actuall sinnes But these delights haue so swarmed in my soule that I could not but feele the viperous brood within me I haue so often entertayned them with consenâ— so often eyther in deed or by endeuour brought them foorth into action that I could not but see the hideous heape And yet I alwayes wanted either remembrance or disposition to cast vp my reckoning and to confesse them Sometimes the Diuell did stupifie and benumme my soule and then I had little or no feeling of my sinne then sinne lay concealed in me then either I entertayned no thought or else was dull and carelesse to acknowledge my sinnes But as how much the longer any filthy liquor standeth in a vessell so much the more is the vessell fouled and stayned and so much the more hardly can the foule staines bee rubbed cleane So the longer time that poysonous sinne remayned in my bosome with a quiet and vncontrouled custome the more was my vnhappy soule soyled therewith the more deepe staines were printed therein and the more hard to be defaced Sometimes I was so sensible of my sinnes so apprehensiue both of the number deformity of them that I became thereby either ashamed or afrayd to confesse them to the LORD to desplay them before those beautifull eyes which are much offended with such impure obiects The shame and the feare which the Diuell tooke away when I committed sinne hee restored againe when I should confesse them And as an expert captaine who besiegeth a fort doeth first blocke vp all passages by which it may receiue any ayd so the Diuell did in such sort beset and besot my soule that he stopped all the wayes by which repentance might relieue it I was easily perswaded not to stirre the vnsauory puddle not to digge the filthy dunghill of my sinnes to the bottome For who can answer the iust charge Who dares thinke vpon the iust punishment for his offences In this life hee may expect whole armies of euils and death which is to others the port of their tempestuous nauigation to him will seeme a gulfe both of intolerable and eternall torments So I sottishly sought to hide my sinnes in my own obliuion I did foolishly flatter my selfe that thou O LORD wouldest neuer remember what I did forget that my offences locked vp in my owne silence should bee close shut from thy knowledge or regard I vainely thought that by not speaking or not thinking of my sinnes I should most readily extinguish the memory of them But as fire the lesse vent it hath the more furiously it burneth And as a festred and rotten sore not opened and cleansed which the Patient doth not vnfold to the Chyrurgian and both desire and endure his helpe putrefieth and enflameth the more and the more doeth the corruption both penetrate and spread So my sinnes whilest they were smothered within my owne conscience whilest they were not by confession layd open to thee did not onely more terribly anguish and torment me but did deeply infect the very substance of my soule The contagion of sinne did spread like a leprosie ouer euery part the strongest vertues were infected therewith all the faculties were drawne to a habite of euill They did not only anguish me but they did waste and consume me they drew thy heauie iudgements vpon me the dangers which they brought vpon mee were no lesse then was the disquiet For I felt in my soule besides the sharpe sting of my conscience the heauie blowes and more heauie threats of thine indignation Many calamities thou didst also cast vpon my body vpon the issue of my affaires And so sharpelie didst thou visit mee both outwardlie and within that failing or at least fainting in body and minde I sunke downe vnder the charge and melted my languishing soule into moane My calamities daily encreased and therewith also my complaints I complayned dayly but duly rightly I did not complaine For I saw into what miseries I was deiected I saw to what mischiefe I did bend my pace but I neither endeuoured nor intended to cut off either the cause of the one or course of the other I did not search into the state of my soule I did not vnderstand it I did not lay it open before thee I did not blame I
For there is not one among the sonnes of Adam but his necessities require that hee pray often to thee both for pardon and reliefe Whosoeuer thinketh that he hath no need deceiueth himselfe and in very truth stands most in need Then doe we begin to bee iust when wee begin to see our owne vnrighteousnesse and the further wee proceede in the one the more shall wee encrease in the other And they shall pray vnto thee and onely vnto thee because thou onely forgiuest sinne Remission of sinnes is so great a worke that it is a case reserued onely to thee thou onely forgiuest sinne who onely art offended by sinne No creature whether in heauen or vpon earth hath priuiledge to pardon the least sinne the forgiuenesse of the least sinne requireth no lesse vertue then the creation of all the world In creation nature is giuen in iustification grace which in many degrees exceedeth nature If no man bee of power to giue nature to things much lesse is any man of ability to giue grace When the king of Syria sent Naaman his seruant to the king of Israel that hee should cure him of his leprosie the king of Israel tore his garments and said Am I a GOD that I should cure a man of his leprosie But assuredly if no power but of GOD was able to cure a bodily leprosie no inferiour power can cleanse the loathsome leprosie of the soule For this cure must all men resort to GOD. But this they must doe in a seasonable time they must apprehend occasion which no wise man either fearing thee or louing himselfe will suffer to escape For as opportunitie at some times of our life is fairely offered to all so if it bee not taken when it comes it can neuer be ouertaken when it is gone This time is whilest thy treasures are opened whilest thou maist be approached whilest thou maiest bee found whilest thou proclaymest thy pardon whilest thou repellest no man whilest thou inuitest all whilest thou almost entreatest sinners loaden and perplexed with their heauie charge to come to thee for releefe If in this time they pray vnto thee the floud of thy furie shall not inuolue them they shall not be swallowed in the rauenous gulfe of thine indignation But if they suffer this time to slippe if they be so held down with sensual either pleasure or sloath that they will not awake out of the slumber of sinne that they will not arise and pray vnto thee another time shal then succeed when the full streames and stormes of thy displeasure shall violently breake foorth and sodainely enwrappe all those who either through negligence which is ill or through obstinacy which is worse perseuere in their licentious life And the longer it be before these flouds come vpon them with the greater fury will they fall Euen as riuers the greater distance they runne from their springs the more waters they gather with the greater violence they run Or as the longer a man to be drawing a bowe the neerer he drawes the arrow to the head and with the greater strength it flieth from his hand At that time they who now may haue easie accesse shall not be able to approch thee they shal be driuen away they shall be commanded with a sad bitter curse to depart from thee Thou who now keepest open house wil then perpetually shut vp doores thou who now artfull of pity plentifull in reliefe wilt then finally iudge and afterwards eternally punish Pharaoh did hardly oppresse and detaine the people of Israel a long time no intreatie no punishment could mooue him to permit them to depart he pursued them with an army euen into the sea But when he saw the waters comming vpon him he acknowledged the power of GOD and said Let vs flie for the LORD fighteth for them Then he repented then he would haue gone back but it was too late The water flouds came vpon him too fast sentence of death had then passed against him then GODS wrath and the waters came vpon him together When the floud-gates of GODS fury are opened vpon vs it will so violently driue vs both from his fauour and face that it will be impossible for vs to approach him Againe they who let slip the time of their youth of their health and of their strength and with varietie of delaies driue off to reconcile themselues to GOD vntill by age or by sickenesse they become weake vntill they arriue to the last period of their liues they are in danger to deceiue themselues They are in great danger that either their hearts will be so hardened with long custome of sin that true repentance cannot sinke into them or else that the feeblenesse of age the paines of sickenesse the dismaidnes of death the horrour of sinne the terrour of iustice and a thousand like perplexities as so many floud-gates will rush vpon their soules and altogether ouerwhelme them so as they shall not be able to approach neere to GOD. For being rowled in these streames it cannot but be doubtfull at the least that they who in former times were forgetfull of GOD should then be forgetfull of themselues that they who had no will to repent whilest they had power to sinne when they are vnable to sinne should haue a very weake either will or ability to repent that GOD will then as little regard their cries as they did formerly regard his callings Not vpon any change in him but by reason of defect in themselues Because their complaints and cries at that time and happilie their sobs sighes and teares are not a voluntary motion of the will but a violent enforcement vpon necessitie They are rather effects of amazement or of despaire then of any liuely and powerfull repentance Verely it is little better then desperation to sinne vpon confidence of repentance in times to ensue There is little either proofe or thanke in the amendement of our will when we are past either the pleasure or the power to proceed in sinne VERS IIII. Thou art a place to hide mee in thou shalt preserue me from trouble thou shalt compasse mee about with songs of deliuerance 1. THe effects of repentance in regard of the penitents 2 The protection of GODS Mercy 3 The protection of his power 4 The protection of his prouidence 5 As GOD hath manifested himselfe to vs three of his attributes are most excellent his goodnesse his wisedome and his power 6 And of these his goodnesse is most excellent and glorious 7 GOD communicates his goodnesse and wherefore 8 A thankesgiuing 9 The goodnesse of GOD an assured defence 10 The debility of humane forces 11 How sustained 12 The goodnesse of GOD not only defendeth but maketh victorious 13 A short prayer 14 The godly are free from the delights of this world 15 Free also from the dangers 16 They cannot perish and wherefore BVT as for me I will speedily and in good time runne vnto thee as vnto
side walled with rockes aboue beaten with terrible tempests You must be not onlie skilfull but carefull of your course you must alwaies beare your hand on the helme your eie on the compasse lest it come to passe that you neuer escape If you doe not this for the loue of GOD doe it then for the loue of your selues whereunto by all rules of reason and nature you are stronglie bound If you doe not loue or regard your good at lest bee not in loue with your euill The loue of miserie is farre worse then miserie it selfe Assuredly in case you continue in this carelesse course in case you still beare your selues either desperate in running from GOD or dull and heauie in comming to him in case neither his benefits can allure nor his chasticements enforce you to a change of life he will cast his plagues vpon you so thicke as haile which will make you more miserable then you can imagine VERS XI Great plagues remaine for the vngodly but who so putteth his trust in the LORD mercy embraceth him on euery side 1. GODS heauie hammers vpon obstinate sinners 2 The multitude of GODS punishments 3 The seuerity of them 4 It is most easie for GOD to pardon sinnes and wherfore 5 It is not possible but that penitent persons should be forgiuen 6 The confidence of true penitents 7 Their saciety 8 Their ioy 9 Albeit the contray appeares 10 Penitents enioy most perfect pleasure in this life and wherefore 11 The pleasures of the wicked are worse then brutish 12 Penitents aâ—e blessed in their chasticements 13 The first reason hereof 14 The second reason 15 The afflictions of this life are both momentany and light 16 A short prayer CErtainely if you wil not embrace this friendly aduice If you esteeme these warnings to be of no weight If blinded either with dulnesse or with malice you perseuere in your sinnes If neither benefits nor scourges can hold you in obedience If neither promises nor threats can any deale mooue you If you can be reteined in order neither by hope nor by feare If like vntamed beasts you still wildlie runne through the thorny thickets of all vices and esteeme euerie lustfull thing lawfull to be done hee hath heauier hammers to breake your obstinacie to bridle your boldnesse and pride and to beate downe your rebellion against him Verely not the starres in the firmament not the sands of the earth not all the creatures in heauen and vpon earth are so manie in number so vnresistable in force as are the punishments which the obstinate shall endure Their infelicity houereth ouer their heads their curse traceth them step by step vntill it shall ouertake them in hell Here the most pleasant retreits are full of hideous hurlements nothing but terrours torments and teares without intermission or end Here is griefe without remedie complaint without pity repentance without mercy Here death alwaies liueth and life alwaies dieth death here life are immortall together life in dying and death in enduring Here both body and soule shall eternally liue in eternall death they shall liue together in a double death and both eternall the death of sinne and the death of punishment due to sinne On the other side they who contemne the vanitie of the world and apply themselues onlie to GOD they who repent them of their sinnes be they neuer so great if they doe not despaire shall vndoubtedlie be receiued to pardon and mercy For this is most easie for GOD to doe by reason of his goodnesse and the greatnesse of his mercies in comparison wherof all the sinnes of the world are nothing so little as a point in regard of the largest circumference as one sparke of fire in comparison of the vast Ocean So as if the greatest sinner in the world be penitent If he desire and sue for mercie all the water in the sea cannot so easilie extinguish one sparke of fire as the mercies of GOD will abolish his sinnes Verelie if a good man will be mercifull to his beast our good GOD will much more bee mercifull to his creature to his seruant to his childe Yea it is not possible but that mercy should be imparted to them that repent For the infinite mercies of Almightie GOD abound in all places they fill all things if they be not excluded and locked foorth But nothing excludeth mercie but impenitencie and hardnesse of heart And therefore if a man be penitent mercie will foorthwith enter because the impediment is remooued because nothing then remaineth in the soule which may resist or repell mercie If the window be opened the roome will be light and if the floudgates be vnbarred the streames will presentlie ouerflow But they who haue receiued mercy who are vnder the protection and guard of grace in what assurance doe they stand how boldlie do they walke with what confidence are they caried in all the passages of their life Mercy encreaseth confidence and coÌ„fidence againe encreaseth mercy As guiltines is the cause of feare so from mercie proceedeth confidence As all wickednesse is full of feare so the iust is confident as a Lion And whosoeuer receiueth mercie they shall be filled therewith They shall be so filled as they shall ouerflow they shal be enuironed with mercy on euery side And being vnder the peace protection of mercie hauing firme trust that their sins are forgiuen O good GOD to what felicitie are they aduanced what treasures are there in heauen which shall not be opened and imparted to them They shal be placed by the side of GOD they shall be apparrelled and adorned with so great glory so great happines shal be heaped vpon them as the spirit of man is vnable to apprehend much lesse to expresse The desire the hope the full faith and assurance hereof cannot but worke in them incredible ioy before they attaine the full fruition euen whilest they are vpon their passage to it Oh! with what cheerefulnesse with what delight doe they either remooue or surmount all difficulties which lie before them Howsoeuer their trauaile seemeth troublesome and hard yet the loue of their iourneyes end maketh it not onely tolerable but delightfull The onely thought of the end of their trauaile seasoneth all the meanes with sweetnesse through which they are enforced to wrestle to that end It may be conceiued indeed that the iust are plagued and that the wicked chiefly flourish in this life It seemeth to be so but it is not so It is so onely in appearance and shew but in very deed it is not so They are either blinded with grosse mists of ignorance or abused with deceiuable colours and shewes who thinke it so It appeareth so only to those who are so rowled vp in flesh and bloud that they esteeme nothing good or euill but that which appertaineth to the body Assuredly they whose sinnes are forgiuen enioy the most perfect pleasure euen in this life which in this sort doeth plainely appeare As the inward
my secrets to all the world The longer time I haue liued the more I finde my life couered and ouergrowen with sinne euen as a riuer the further it runneth from the head the more waters it gathereth and the greater doeth the streame encrease or as a man riding in dustie waies the further hee rideth the more dust he gathereth vpon him I can finde in my selfe no light of goodnesse no calme of righteousnesse I haue bin so loaden with the yron yoake of the Diuell the troupes of my sinnes so muster vpon mee that out of the depth of my miserable estate I am enforced with sighes groanes and teares to cry vnto thee Oh! I am a most grieuous sinner I thinke my selfe the most grieuous sinner in the world I think my self which I tremble to speake a more grieuous sinner then the Diuell himselfe For albeit the Diuell participateth of all sinnes whereto he draweth miserable men yet of his owne nature he is not a glutton not a drunkard not sloathfull not libidinous not coueteous of riches or honoâ—s or any other worldly thing For because nothing is affected with that which is not agreeable to the nature thereof it followeth that a spirituall substance cannot bee affected with goods properly corporall but onely with those which are spirituall But in affecting spirituall goods there can bee no sinne vnlesse the rule of a superiour be thereby transgressed and this is by the sinne of pride in being disobedient to a superiour and in affecting a singular excellencie But consequently enuie may ensue by enuying the good of others whether in GOD or in man as a hindrance to their proper ends But so enuy must not be taken for a passion but for a will wrestling against anothers good And hereby it appeareth that the Diuell properly and in his owne nature sinneth onely in pride and in enuie which onely are pure spirituall sinnes But besides these I haue committed so manie other sinnes that I am both vnable and vnworthy particularlie to confesse them much more vnworthy to receiue pardone for them I haue made so great ruine and waste in all the faculties of my soule that it seemeth impossible they should be repaired Oh wretch what haue I done what did I entend to haue done The law accompted those beasts vncleane which did not chew the cudde not lesse vncleane cleane are they who will not ruminate and consider either the condition of their present state or what in future is either necessarie or in aduenture to ensue But alasse I neuer thought on my danger vntill all hope of remedie was past I neuer regarded my steps vntill I was in the snares of hell And now what death can I feare when I haue lost the life of my soule without which any other life is death and which maketh death a pleasant passage to life Being deepely wounded with the greatest griefe what sence can I haue of ordinary euill my deepe miseries haue drowned both my minde and my memorie in so deepe sorrow that all hope of reliefe is ouerwhelmed with the thicke throng of present discomforts And yet I will not cast downe my hope in the LORD I will not despaire of his gracious helpe For he hath not cast me downe to cast mee away hee hath not thus terrified mee to the end I should abandone all hope to the end I should be swallowed vp in the monstrous mouth of despaire but rather he calleth mee to him to the end that I should call vpon him The first worke that the LORD did in the conuersion of Saint Paul was the casting of him to the ground whereby thou doest instruct vs O LORD that our deiection in our selues is the first step of our aduancing to thee And assuredly thou wouldest neuer haue giuen me this grace to be sorrowfull if thou haddest not therewith intended to giue me life And therefoâ—â— albeit I bee cast downe to the verie gates of hell yet will I call vpon thee to raise mee againe albeit I bee crushed and broken to pieces yet will I call vpon thee to heale mee I can neuer bee so low driuen neuer so ouercharged with sorrow or with feare but still I will call vpon thee for comfort For what other remedie haue wee feeble wretches tossed in the vaste gustie sea of this world beaten with most raging tempests driuen among so many rockes and shelues so many infernall monsters gaping to deuoure vs what other remedie haue wee I say but to call and crie to thee with the distressed disciples awake LORD least wee perish Assuredly if out of these depths of danger and distresse we cry not out to thee for helpe then are we neere the greatest depth that can bee then are wee slipping into the depth wherein Cain was eternally swallowed then are wee readie to roare out his cursed complaint my sinnes are greater then can be forgiuen It is true Cain indeede thy sinne in it selfe was very great but in comparison of the infinite goodnesse of GOD it was not great Thy sinne might haue bin pardoned well enough but thy opinion and conceit that it did exceede the mercies of GOD that impious opinion so long as it stood could not be forgiuen Thy despaire was a greater sinne then the murther of thy brother thy despaire was the cause wherefore the murther of thy brother could not bee forgiuen Thy damnable repentance left no place for repentance to life The same trace followed they whom the Prophet described to speake in this manner Our sinnes are vpon vs and in them we consume how then should wee liue But O Omnipotent GOD is this a good reasoning with thy goodnesse My sinnes are vpon me how then shall I liue Desirest thou then the death of a sinner desirest not thou rather that sinners should liue I know rightwell that my sinnes are vpon me But I expect againe thy mercie vpon my sinnes My iniquities I know are gone ouer my head but they haue not ouergone thy goodnesse They are a burthen too heauie for me to beare and therefore I resort to thee who hast promised to ease me My sinnes shall neuer driue me to despaire but rather to repaire to thee for reliefe But is it not vsuall that GOD listneth not to sinners that he turneth away his eare and will not heare them Yes verelie But this is by reason of the cry of their sinnes this is when the cry of their sinnes drowneth the cry of their complaints Fauorable LORD stop thine eare I beseech thee against the crie of my sinnes but graciously incline it to the cry of my complaint Silence my sinnes LORD for a while bid them stand aside vntill I haue fullie confessed them to thee vntill I haue manifested my contrition for them and then let them appeare againe if they will for then they shall not appeare alone They shall be then accompanied with my teares and my griefe which will abate if not abolish their crie They shall not then prouoke thy
be committed which by this redemption is not discharged And this is true in regard of sufficiencie but in regard of efficacie it perteineth only to the elect who are the Church the true house and familie of Israel But there can bee no offences either for number so great or for qualitie so grieuous but this redemption is sufficient for them Can this redemption which is of infinite value bee restreined to any limits of offences Shall not hee whose arme is neuer shortned be alwayes able to forgiue Shall not he who forgaue to one debtor 10000. talents be alwayes willing to forgiue verely in case that debtor had owed more talents vpon his submission more had bin forgiuen Such is the pitie of almighty GOD towards miserable men that hee neuer reiecteth their vnfained repentance albeit a sinner be at the height of euill let him in singlenesse and sinceritie of soule turne to the LORD and he shall be embraced If you finde in the Scriptures any sinnes termed vnpardonable as the sinne against the holy Ghost the sinne vnto death for which wee are forbidden to pray you must not vnderstand it as if they could not bee pardoned in case the sinner did vnfainedly repent for this were no better then bitter blasphemie But such sinnes are said to bee vnpardonable because they deserue blindnesse and hardnesse of heart and to bee depriued of the effectuall ayde of Grace because the sinner neuer either turneth or stoppeth but alwayes runneth forward from badde to worse Let their eyes bee blinded that they see not and euer bowe downe their backes Let them fall from one wickednesse to another and not come into thy righteousnesse Not that GOD doeth positiuely blinde any man or bowe downe their backes but priuatiuelie in that hee doeth not enlighten and direct them His sufficient ayde hee denieth to none but by reason of some eâ—ther heinousnesse or obstinacie in sinne hee denyeth his most speciall and effectuall ayde to some Hereupon their sinnes are sayde to bee vnpardonable because albeit they might repent yet they did not Wherefore O man to bridle thy broad bouldnesse in sinne vnderstand that there are certaine periods and bounds which when sinners exceede GOD leaueth them destitute sometimes by denying his effectuall ayde sometimes by abridging the terme of their life For the bloudie and deceitfull man shall not liue out halfe their dayes When the number of sinnes prefixed by GOD are once exceeded when the measure runneth ouer when the sinner hath digged his owne pitte Death shall come hastily vpon him and take from him both the present and future life at once Verely hee that hath appointed barres for the proud waues of the sea hath also set limits and termes to thy sinnes hee hath prefixed limits for his effectuall grace but his aboundant redemption is alwayes sufficient And therefore O feeble sinner albeit thou hast offended the most High and conspired against his Maiestie albeit thou hast forsaken his Law and forgotten his benefits albeit thou hast harlotted with thy owne humours and fouled his honour vnder thy feete in a word albeit thou hast merited more torments then hell canne afford yet neuer despaire neuer bee terrified by thy weake suspicions But abstaine from thy sinnes let thy will abhorre them and then approach with trust to the throne of mercie and assuredly thou shalt finde grace not onely sufficient but effectuall for all thy sinnes For then thy Redeemer by his inualuable blood will free thee from the seruitude of sinne whereto thou haddest voluntary sould thy selfe then will hee take vpon him the paine which thou haddest incurred then discharge the obligation which thou haddest forfeited But herewith thou must bee incorporate into the family of Israel namely the Church of GOD thou must with Nathaniel be an Israelite indeede in whom is no guile for to these onely this redemption pertaineth Thou must earnestly endeauour first to bridle thy sensuall appetites and by degrees to mortifie them Thou must serue GOD in righteousnesse and both constantly and closely adhere to him by loue So shalt thou bee rightly disposed to participate of thy redemption so shall riuers of heauenly riches flowe into thy soule But whosoeuer is a stranger to this house of GOD or liuing therein is no part thereof whosoeuer I say doeth eyther obstinately or carelesly perseuer in sinne and neuer regard to disingage himselfe by repentance hee shall neuer participate of the infinite treasure of this redemption the floudes of GODS mercies and of the merits of his Redeemer shall neuer enter or approach his soule they are sufficient but not effectuall for his discharge And further so ample and aboundant is this redemption that thereby the LORD will deliuer his people not onely from their sinnes and from eternall punishments due to their sinnes but hee will finally free them from the miseries and calamities which in this life driue in their faces Or if hee deferre this deliuerance for a time yea if hee stay vntill hee deliuer them at once from the calamities of the world and from the world it selfe yet is hee present with them all the meane time hee refresheth them with his spirit he sprinckleth the diuine dewe of his Grace vpon them which maketh aswell their life as the calamities of their life not onely tolerable but sweete For they who beleeue although they be faint and feeble hearted yet they know that neither death nor the diuell shall preuaile against them because GOD is their Redeemer This is the office of GOD thus will hee haue to doe with sinners to abolish their sinnes to abolish either their miseries or the sence of their miseries and to create in them rigâ—teousnesse and life And furthâ—â— the LORD doth not only eyther end or ease our miseries but he doeth more he conuerteth them to our good It is a propertie of the greatest goodnesse to change the nature of euill and to conuert it into good If a vine bee not pruned it runneth out into superfluous stemmes and branches and growes feeble and fruitlesse in the end Bee content therefore that thy desires be pruned with afflictions It is painefull to bleede but it is mortall to wither In this life pascimur patimur wee are so nourished with the blessings of GOD that therewith also wee are nurtured with his crosses And shall I tell thee O my friend shall I acquaint thee with an infallible experience how all the calamities of this life may not onely bee endured but vtterly broken how thou mayest obtaine a most glorious conquest This is worth the knowing and by assistance of grace not vneasie to bee done The Apostle findeth in one man two the spirit and the flesh the minde and the members the soule and the body These are so chained together as they make but one and yet so contrary as they make two They are so contrary as the life of the one is the death of the other the raising vp
in thy selfe art perfectly good and doest nothing but good yet to a sinner thou art grieuous thy goodnesse can doe no other then trouble and torment him not through any euill influence from thee but by reason of euill disposition in himselfe And therfore O gracious goodnesse O mercifull LORD O louer of mankinde not onely in pity pardon my weakenesse but in power remoue it that I may bee strong and able to enioy thy goodnesse that thy goodnesse be not greeuous vnto me LORD I resort vnto thee not only as to a Iudge for pardon but as to a Physitian for cure My weakenesse hath taken a deepe surfet of sinne and it is now growne to a desperate disease All the faculties of my soule are infected and the poyson is dispersed through all the members of my body I can feele no strength I can feele no quiet not onely my feeble parts but they that are most strong are troubled alike Haue mercy vpon mee and heale mee O GOD Haue mercy vpon my imperfection and heale my infection I humbly entreat thee Let thy mercie extend not only to pardon mee but to heale mee not onely to pardon my sinnes that are past but to make mee strong and able against sinnes heereafter For what good will pardon doe mee if presently I returne to my sinne againe What will it auaile that I bee washed if foorthwith I plunge my selfe in the mire LORD I present my selfe vnto thee in the lowest degree of humility and griefe my eies charged with teares my breast with sighes my tongue with complaints my whole bodie with disquiet Let thine indignation now cease looke vpon mee with a more calme countenance Helpe me vp and I will rise hold me vp and I will stand comfort and confirme my sin-oppressed sences Haue mercy vpon me and heale me giue me thy health and strength that vnder confidence of thy mercy I may boldly looke thy iustice in the face VERS III. My soule is also sore troubled but LORD how long wilt thou delay 1 THE torments of the soule how great they are 2 The effects of vnfayned contrition 3 A resort to GOD. 4 How offensiue sin is to GOD. 5 Wheâ—efore sinne is the cause of trouble 6 A prayer 7 The cause of GODS delay 8 The remedie AND yet the trouble of the bodie might bee borne well enough a mans courage may suffice to beare out any bodily griefe but who can beare the vexation of the soule The paine of the body is but the body of paine the sorrow of the soule is the soule of sorrow Now thy terrours haue also surprised my soule Not onely my body is cruelly crushed both with the sence of my sin and feare of thy wrath but my soule also is very grieuously afflicted with the one and affrighted with the other This soule which thou hast created to praise thee is astonished to behold thee astonished to thinke on thee this soule which is the breath of thy mouth is vnable to endure the breath of thy displeasure this soule which thou hast created to represent thy likenesse hath no liking no power to sustaine thy presence The loue thereof is extinguished with feare it hath neither roome nor respite to hope in thee In thee it dares not rest assured in any other thing it cannot For assuredly whensoeuer earnest and vnfained contrition seazeth vpon the soule it disturbeth all ioy it taketh away pleasure in any thing but teares it permitteth not to thinke on any thing but what is terrible And as they who are in danger of shipwracke cast ouer board their rich and best esteemed Merchandises to saue their liues so they who are tossed with the tempest of GODS anger to saue their soules doe not onelie abandon but hate those things which formerly were either most delightfull or deere vnto them Out alas how am I oppressed into what perplexities is my poore sorrow-beaten soule plunged how is it abandoned how are all the powers thereof laide waste The vnderstanding is darkened the will dazled the memory confounded the courage broken and beaten downe dread and amazement haue dulled my sences But aboue all my conscience is goared with the sting of sinne It anguisheth it lanceth it stretcheth it teareth it crucifieth the very heart of my soule It stirreth all vpside downe Verely I finde it to be very true That the heart of a sinner is as the raging sea which neuer hath rest The waues whereof are alwaies in motion and one alwaies dashing against another I leade a life euer dying and I feele a death neuer ending all my choice is concluded in this whether I will stand still without helpe or stirre any waies without hope And as a fearefull Doue shaketh at the roaring of thunder and shrinketh into some obscure hole supposing it self most safe when it is least seene so my amazed soule trembling at the dreadfull sound of thy threats looketh about for some place of retreit either to defend or to hide it from thy furious face It would flie from thee but it knoweth not whither it would be protected against thee but it knoweth not by whom O my GOD I cannot flie from thee but by flying to thee And therefore I flie from thee offended to thee appeased I flie from thee through the gate of thy iustice and I flie to thee thorow the gate of thy mercie I flie from a iust reuenging Iudge to a mercifull and indulgent father whose goodnes is infinite whose mercie is a spring a streame an Ocean that cannot be exhausted the goodnes no lesse liberall then the mercie is abundant O sweetnesse of desiâ—e O safetie of soules open to me thy distressed suppliant Let thy fauour receiue me running from thy furie Let thy pitie protect mee against thy seueritie comfort my troubled soule with one gentle cast of thy countenance for I shall neuer recouer againe either my safetie or my quiet vntill I recouer thy most louing and louely looke For sinne is so offensiue so odious vnto thee that wheresoeuer thou findest it thou canst not affoord a kinde countenance thou must needes turne away thine amiable eies thou wilt not displaie thy beautie vpon so filthie a dunghill And this is the cause why wee are so troubled For when thou turnest away thy face they shall be troubled Assuredlie the vexation of my soule can haue neither end nor ease vntill thou turnest to mee thy appeased countenance All other appliancies are as the handling of vlcers and wounds they doe but draw more humours to my sore they rather inflame then any waies asswage it But how long O LORD how long will thine indignation how long O LORD shall my anguish endure how long wilt thou with-hold thy comfort from me Thou who hast alwaies beene slowe to wrath art thou slow now to lay downe thy wrath Thou who hast euer beene patient art thou now become inflexible Is thine anger no lesse hard to quench now then heeretofore it hath beene
things bâ—fore thy face euen in this life in which time thy face shineth vpon vs in which time wee walke before thy face and may easilie obtaine thy mercie But the wicked after death are cast behind thy backe they are drowned in perpetuall obliuion neuer to be remembred either for pardoÌ„ or forbearance They are as the handfull behind the backe of the Mower which no man gathereth When hay falleth before the face of the Mower it maie be gathered vp againe but when it falleth behind his backe it is not regarded it is cast awaie and perisheth During this life whilest wee are before thy face we may easilie be recouered and restored to mercie but afterdeath no hope of reliefe no expectation but of iudgment The LORD commanded that if any man had sold a house in a walled city within a yere he should haue power to redeeme it But after the yere his power to buy it againe was cut off Now if for the pleasures of sin we haue sold our eternall habitatioÌ„ not made with hands we haue power to redeem it by repentaÌ„ce during the yere of our life that tearm expired we haue no abilitie to recouer it again Then shall that of the Prophet take place Doest thou shew wonders among the dead or shall the dead rise againe and praise thee shall thy louing kindnes be shewed in the graue or thy faithfulnes in â—estruction shall thy wondrous works be shewen in the darke and thy righteousnesse in the land where all things are forgotten Assuredlie as after death teares are fruitlesse repentance vnprofitable as after death no mercy is to be expected nothing but misery nothing but wrath so is it doubtful very daÌ„gerous that our teares sighes groanes are of little force at the verie neere approach of death whether by age or by extremities of disease For at that time when our powers are either distracted or spent when wee lie either struggling or panting vnder the arrest of death when no part is free either from the sence or feare of his cruell gripe we may well be said to be in death or at least wise in such a condition and state as doth lesse participate of life then of death And therfore it is doubtfull at the least lest at that time we shall not remember thee lest our repentance at that time shal be too late A good husband will repaire his house whilest the weather is faire and not deferre vntill Winter shall approach a carefull Pilote will furnish his ship whilest the seas are calme and not staie till tempests are in rage and a prouident man will repent his sinnes in the seasonable time of health and strength and not protract vntill he be in the very armes and embracements of death when manie occasions may cut from him either his mind or power or time to repent For we haue iust cause to feare that if we would not when we might we shall not be able when we would that by our will to doe euill we maie happilie loose the power to doe good that in trouble and necessitie we shall not find that helpe which in prosperitie and peace we did not endeauour to prouide This hath our Sauiour declared by a familiar example For that no king making warre with one stronger then himselfe but will indeauour to haue peace whilest his enemie is farre off And not expect vntill the sword shall threaten his throat Darest thou then O vnfortunate worme O improuident sinner Who makest war against the omnipotent LORD who hath all the powers in heauen earth and hell at his command darest thou I say deferre the making of thy peace with him vntill the point of his furious approach Vntill the very houre of his encounter How vaine is thy confidence How sottish thy sence Wherefore wilt not thou make thy peace in time whilest he is far off Wherfore wilt thou not intreat his mercy before thou coÌ„mest to feele his power Assuredly the day will come when thou shalt goe from chamber to chamber from one auoidance to another to hide thee and yet shalt find neither couert nor defence Alas who dares trust to the broken reede of extreame sickenesse or age bruised by originall but altogether broken by our actuall sinnes Repentance is often vnprofitable euen in the best time and state of our life by reason of defect of a right intention therefore we haue good cause not to trust to this late and last time of repentance For if Esau could not finde repentance albeit hee sought it with Teares how reasonable may wee suspect our extreame late seeking for repentance Not because true repentance is euer too late but because late repentance is seldome true as proceeding rather from feare then from loue from necessitie rather then from willingnesse and desire rather outwardly pretended then intended from the heart LORD turne to me and deliuer my soule Enlighten my vnderstanding from this grosse darkenesse free my desires from these massie yron fetters of â—inne That I may turne to thee in the seasonable time of sanity and strength and not deferre the waighty worke of my repentance vntill either by long custome of sinne or by debilitie of bodie and minde I shall not be able to thinke on thee VERS VI. I am weary of my groning euery night wash I my bed and water my couch with my teares 1. ASsurance from the Iustice and power of GOD. 2 Iustice requireth not a double condemnation 3 The arraignment of a conscious soule 4 When sinnes hurt vs. 5 A true resolution 6 The vertue of perseuerance 7 Repentance must be answerable to our fall 8 Teares a precious liquor and wherin chiefly to be bestowed 9 An incitement for teares 10 When teares are profitable 11 A prayer addressed with teares NOT onely thy mercy and wisedome may mooue thee to saue me not onely doe I relie and rest vpon them but I haue found a hony combe in the mouth of a Lion thy iustice and thy power which were so terrible to me affoord me also great comfort and assurance For tell mee if thy iuâ—tice findeth a man condemned and vnder execution what will it then doe Surely it will prosecute no further it will put vp the sword and be at peace Thy iustice requireth not a double condemnation it sufficeth that an offender hath iudgement once thou neuer iudgest them whom thou findest iudged But I am now iudged alreadie I haue preuented thy iudgement by iudging my selfe Behold O searcher of hearts how my sinfull soule hath beene arraigned at the barre of mine owne iudgement how by the euidence of my conscience it is found guilty of many grieuous offences against thee against many men and against it selfe How it is committed close prisoner to sorrow How by solemne sentence it is enioined neuer to cease groaning neuer to cease weeping vntill it hath procured thy pardon Loe now I am come to thy presence and put vp my penitent
my assured refuge against outward feares against inward weaknesses against all dangers or disquiets When I haue offended thee when I haue stumbled when fallen into any sinne I will not basely and beastly lie still I wil forthwith arise run vnto thee as to a place to hide me in To hide me vnder thy mercie both from the stroke and from the search of thy iustice When I am assailed by mine own euill inclinations When my spirituall enemie doth either vrge or allure me to sinne I will runne to the protection of thy power as to the onely meanes to preserue me against the furies and treacheries of these encounters When humane hatred doth set vpon me when molestations troubles dangers doe beset me when entrapments of all sorts are spread abroad either particularlie against my selfe or more generallie against others with me I will runne to the protection of thy prouidence and wisedome where I shall bee most assuredly preserued Let others runne whither they please Let them trust to their friends to their riches to their wisedome to their power or to any other thing which in the view of the world seemeth able to defend them I will shrowd my selfe vnder thee Thou art my refuge thou art the place to hide and preserue me In all my necessities thou art my retreit When Sathan assaulteth when the world enticeth when my owne filthie flesh enclineth and betraieth me when temptations when aduersities and dangers enuiron and oppresse me this is my onely comfort that thou art good and that I may haue resort to thy goodnesse which is the most excellent attribute and perfection that thou hast True it is that among all thy perfections one is not greater or lesse then another because euery one comprehendeth the most high and simple nature of thy diuinity whereinto no comparison can fall Yet as thou doest manifest thy selfe to vs three of them are most excellent thy goodnesse thy wisedome and thy omnipotent power These are the three fingers which sustaine the earth Of these thy goodnesse mooueth thee to be bountifull to thy creatures thy wisedome contriueth how this may most beneficially be done thy power bringeth the worke to effect And albeit these are equall in thy selfe comprised together in thy diuine prouidence yet as thou declarest thy selfe to vs thy goodnesse is most excellent and glorious from whence thy mercy doeth proceed This thou most extollest in thy selfe this thou most expressest in thy workes whereof alwayes thy goodnesse is the cause For thy goodnesse draweth thy infinite wisedome and power to concurre with it in bringing thy benefits to effect And because it is the nature of Goodnesse to communicate and dilate it selfe thou who art the originall Goodnesse hast imparted many good things to thy Creatures Not for any necessity to thy selfe not for any increase of thy glory for neither art thou defectiue in any thing neither can any thing enlarge thy glorie but because thou wilt not be good alone Because thy goodnesse is of nature to extend it selfe it hath made other creatures to participate therof Thy goodnesse and thy glorie thou hast imparted to other creatures that as thou enioyest thine owne essence and beautie so they also should behold loue and enioy the same albeit not in the same degree with thy selfe because they cannot comprehend thee as thou comprehendest thy selfe This is the felicitie and glorie which filleth the capacitie of our soules and maketh them happie And to this end it pleased thy infinite goodnesse to create not onlie Angels but also men That so abiect a creature in one part neerest to beasts should sit at thy table and feede of thine owne dish Blessed be this noble Goodnesse which hath so freelie and mercifullie communicated it selfe to so base creatures This Goodnesse is the contentment and delight of my heart this onelie is able not onely to refresh but to reuiue the soule with inward consolation There is no solid either comfort or assurance but in this Goodnesse And therefore whensoeuer I am enuironed and euen oppressed with dangers when infinite euils shall on euery side assaile my body or my soule with humble haste I will runne to thy Goodnesse thy Goodnesse shall then be not onely a buckler but a bulwark to defend me Vnder the defence of thy Goodnesse I shall not onely be safe but secure Not onely safe from dangers but secure also and free from feare Although the earth tremble and the mountaines be carried into the bosome of the sea yet vnder this protection I will not feare For among other things this is one of thy chiefe endeuours and cares to deliuer thy seruants and friends from dangers to appease their mindes from disquiet because thou knowest what wee are and whereof wee are made Thou knowest how feeble our forces are feeble by nature but by often transgressions altogether disabled from releeuing our selues altogether vnable either to resist or to beare the calamities and dangers which presse vpon vs. A man may destroy himselfe he may cast himselfe into an Ocean of misery without thee but saue and releeue himselfe without thee he cannot this is a speciall worke of thy goodnesse and grace In this worke all power without thee is weake with thee no weakenesse but is sufficient VVithout thee life is dead with thee death it selfe is aliue All power is weake against him who is vnder thy power If thou be at my hand no hand is of force against me my weakenesse shall bee supported by thine omnipotent power And I shall not onely be defended vnder protection of thy goodnesse I shall not onely be deliuered and preserued against mine enemies but I shall preuaile and be victorious against them As I was before beset with dangers so shall I bee there enuironed with ioy I shall not onely bee free from feare but filled with vnspeakeable ioy Oh happy soules who are arriued in so sure custody who in all the trauerses of this life are guarded by the puissant hand of GOD. VVhat euill can either assaile or approach you VVhat good doe you not enioy No euill can approach you because you alwaies flie from euill you enioy all good because you enioy that goodness which makes you alwaies doing of good O good GOD giue mee a taste of the plentifull pleasures wherewith their soules are satiated whom thou hast deliuered whom thou doest defend from the strong chaines from the strait prison wherin the Diuell would hold them captiue VVho being full of ioy full of blessed contentment and quiet liue like thy selfe without perturbation without feare or hope O my GOD how vilelie doe they esteeme the voluptuousnesse of this life How doe they not onelie forbeare to desire but loath and abhorre to quaffe off that broken bruage which the flesh with a harlots hand presenteth to them in the base and impure cup of this world How little relish haue they in those flashie vnsinewie pleasures which breake the forces of the soule and
wherein then lieth the difference Not in the summe of the debt but in the dayes of payment All agree that repentance is due but most perswade themselues that the payment may be made at leasure But assuredly there is no time so fit as the present For what stupendious stupiditie is it to deferre the most weightie worke of repentance to a future time whereby besides that the time may bee taken from thee thou shalt daily growe more vnfit to repent For by reason of long continuance and frequencie of acts custome will grow strong and inuincible whereby nature is corrupted grace estranged and the power and tyrannie of the Diuell much confirmed Obserue hereof a familiar example If a childe be brought from a distant country he will perfectly pronounce our language in a very short time If hee be a man of yeeres hee will hardly or neuer rightly pronounce it What is the cause confirmed custome which can hardly be broken we are hardly drawen either to forget or forsake that whereto of long time we haue bin enured And assuredly change of life is no lesse vneasy then change of language and therefore repentance must needs bee so much the harder by how much it is later Oh! how many would gladly forsake their wicked liues but being fast locked and chained in the prison of euill custome they are not able to breake from themselues He who hath a great estate may well endure some wast expence but he who oweth more then hee is worth had neede be a good husband of that which he hath Thou art not well assured to liue one houre and darest thou make to thy selfe a prodigall promise of manie yeeres Such promises haue bin â—he destruction of many a sinner vpon such hope is little better then a sinner vpon despaire for both sinne alike vpon different reasons The desperate sinneth because he thinketh hee must bee damned the presumptuous because he hopeth he may at pleasure repent he sinneth because he despaireth this hopeth because he will sinne Woe to this hope woe to that presumption both are fearefull and dangerous alike GOD hath promised pardon to repentance but he hath not promised either time or abilitie or mind to repent Hee hath alreadie giuen thee a faire time to repent but he hath put times and seasons in his owne power and will assuredly shorten them if they be not well imployed For so in the dayes of Noah he gaue 120. yeeres for man to repent which because they did abuse he strooke off 20 yeeres and raised the deluge in the hundreth yeere Thou art carefull to cure the least hurts of thy bodie forthwith and wilt thou neglect or deferre to remedie the mortall and immortall woundes of thy soule When euery day thy miserable soule is hewen burnt poisoned precipitated torne in pieces when euery day it perisheth a thousand wayes wilt thou be nothing sensible thereof wilt thou be like Pharao who when all Aegypt as wel in the fields as in the houses swarmed with frogges yet would haue prayer deferred vntill to morrow O mad delay nay verely To day heare his voice and harden not your hearts Deferre not repentance vntill to morrow for this will harden your hearts indeed Our life is compared by Iob to the day of a hireling A labourer worketh from morning vntill night and then taketh his rest So thou O sinner labour hard in the workes of repentance whilest thy day lasteth suffer not the darkenesse of death the night of nature to steale vpon thee but earely in the morning of thy health strength and age flie to the LORD attend seriously thy worke and doe not loiter for the night will come when no man can labour If the world calleth thee aside to riches honour pleasures or any other of her entising harlotries tell her thou canst not come thou hast a great important busines in hand and but a small time to performe it thou hast neither leisure nor lust to listen to her When Ioab had defeated Abner and chased his armie with a long execution Abner cried to him Shall the sword deuoure for euer to whom Ioab answered As GOD liueth if thou hadst spoken in the morning the people had gone away euery one from following his brother The like may GOD answer to sinners who all the day of their life beare armes against him and at the night of their death desire to bee at peace As I liue if you had spoke to mee in the morning if in seasonable time you had desired mercy I would haue spared you but now execution is in the heate you come somwhat late you must neuer stand to the courtesie of iustice you come now vpon ineuitable necessitie vpon base seruile feare which neuer iustifieth Your repentance now is not froÌ„ the heart You are now like merchants who when their ship is in danger throw their riches ouerboard but when the tempest is ouer search euery shoare to find them againe Your apprehension of present danger hath perswaded you against your wils to disgorge your consciences and cast vp your pleasures but if the feare blow ouer if you recouer your former estate you will foorthwith returne to your former life Thus may GOD say and thus for the most part it happeneth We neuer examine our great accompt wee neuer addresse our selues to bee at peace with GOD so long as we haue one vanitie vnspent But when time hath beaten from vs both youth pleasure and health when it hath made vs both insociable to others and burthensome to our selues when our attendants are variable sickenesses and paines when the soule loathes her ruinous and excrementall lodging then looking into our consciences which pleasure and sloth had locked before we behold therein the fearefull images of our actions past and withall this terrible sentence engrauen that GOD will bring euery worke to iudgement But how dare wee trust to our repentance at that time when the will by long custome is stiffe and almost inflexible when the vnderstanding partly weakened partly amazed is vnable to behold diuers obiects perfectly Assuredly to neglect GOD to offend him willingly casting our hopes on the peace which wee trust to make at our parting is a high presumption or which is worse a scornefull conâ—â—mpt Of all things that can be desired eternall felicity is the chiefe No man but doeth naturally desire it No man with deliberate reason would lose it for the empire of all the world no merchant is so foolish who would exchange the hope thereof for any aduantage that can be set foorth no man vpon any condition would bee quite cast out of that hope Now the ordinary way which GOD hath appointed to attaine felicitie is a long and laboursome walke a great iourney from vertue to vertue from strength to strength vntill wee appeare before GOD in Sion This was figured by the ladder which Iacob saw in a vision extending from earth to heauen and consisting doubtlesse
of the one is the ruine of the other whereupon the Scripture saith that hee who loseth his life shall saue it That is hee who loseth his sensuall life shall saue his spirituall life Betweene these two men there is such a perpetual combate that therupon the life of man is termed a warfare betweene these two men all the maine businesse of this life consistes Now then beate downe this mortall and bodily man breake thy vnbrideled appetites set aside thy carnall pleasures and desires and thou shalt liue peaceably and at sweet content no worldly troubles shall molest thee Thou complainest of externall oppositions but thy enemies are within thy proper passions make warre against thee Vanquish these enemies and thy complaints will cease He is a great LORD who commandes himselfe hee who commandes his owne will is more powerfull then many great kings Many great kings cannot make their enemies to be friendes but this is done by commanding thy will For wherefore are iniuries and aduersities troublesome to thee beâ—ause thou canst not endure them thou esteemest them thy enemies therefore they perplexe thee But bee friendes with them and loue them and then they will not molest thee then they will bee pleasant to thy taste thou wilt be gladde then and glory in them If worldly troubles bee grieuous to thee the fault is in thy selfe it is in thy power to loue them doe but cutte off the desires of the world and thou wilt neuer complaine of any worldly thing Complaine of thy inward desires thou mayest but of externall accidents thou canst not iustly complaine because they cannot hurt thee vnlesse thou wilt If any thing seemes grieuous to thee take thy selfe in hand chastice thy inward enemies and thou shalt bee quiet As moathes consume the cloath and wormes the wood wherein they breede So thy owne concupiscences consume thy heart They gnawe thy bowels like the vipers broode and worke out their birth by thy torment and death It is most infallible that no man is wronged but by himselfe Thou art thine owne enemie Master thy selfe and thou shalt haue calme quiet and ioy of spirit As swine will not wallow in drie clay so distempered passions will not tumult in a mortified mind Open my lippes O LORD my GOD that my voyce may vent foorth those prayses to thee which the boyling desire of my heart canne possibly frame that it may exhaust the very spirit of my soule in praysing thee for this inestimable benefit of my redemption Abase me to the knowledge of my selfe abase mee in the knowledge of my selfe to the end that I may aduance to the knowledge of this great misery LORD I haue nothing in my selfe to offer to thee either in recompence of all the good which thou hast done vnto me or in satisfaction of all the euill which I haue done against thee Whatsoeuer I haue is already thine as flowing from thy plentifull hand wherefore I offer them wholly to thee to be directed to thy seruice And not onely all that I haue but I offer my selfe to bee thy perpetuall seruant That heereafter I no more bend or binde my selfe to accomplish my will but thine that I seek not my owne pleasure or aduantage but what is pleasing and acceptable to thee LORD I prostrate my selfe before thy feet I yeeld my selfe wholly into thy holy hands deale with me as a Lord deales with his vassall or slaue dispose of me euen as thou wilt But because all this is no more then nothing I approach with trust to thy throne of grace and present to thee the most precious oblation the most rich treasure that can be found in heauen or in earth namely the life death bloud labours vertues and merits of my Redeemer which albeit they were proper to him in regard of his passion yet in regard of his satisfaction they are more mine then his I offer to thee I say his base birth his extreme pouerty his trauailes and banishment his precious teares his blessed bloud his baptisme his temptation all the contradictions and rude reuilings of his enemies all the sowre sorrowes and torments of his passion the whippes the crowne of thornes the nailes the speare the crosse and the tombe I offer to thee his infinite zeale of thy glory his perfect obedience to thy will his ardent loue towards vs. I offer to thee his incredible humility his inuincible patience and gentlenesse and all other glorious vertues which sparkled in him as starres in the firmament as precious stones in a princes crowne I offer to thee all his merits not as a treasure of others but as my owne riches by inheritance His workes were finite but the merits of his workes are infinite I offer him wholly to thee hee is wholly mine in that his loue is mine For when he gaue me his loue he gaue me himselfe sith loue is no gift vnlesse the giuer be giuen with it yea it is no loue vnlesse it be as liberall of that which it is as of that which it hath O holy CHRIST the repayrer of our life the sweetnesse of our soule the refuge against our calamities what flintie heart regarding what thou hast suffered will not be enflamed with the fire of thy loue will not aduance into hope of thy mercy And blessed be thou O All-powerfull and All-mercifull GOD who hast giuen vs such right and interest in him that wee may make this oblation to thee both in thankefulnesse for ALL thy benefits and in full satisfaction for ALL our sinnes I beseech thee O LORD for his sake forgiue ALL my sinnes who for our sake endured ALL the punishments of my sinnes I will not enquire into the depth of this mystery but I will embrace it with the loue of my will The more incomprehensible it is the more worthy is it the LORD who is incomprehensible not onely in himselfe but in his workes He hath so loued vs that he hath done many things for vs which farre exceed the faculty of our vnderstanding by which hee hath much more deserued our loue then by those things which wee are able to vnderstand Prayse and Glory and Wisedome and Strength Dominion Riches and Power bee vnto our GOD for euermore A SVMMARY PRAYER O Almightie GOD the beginning the end in whom the beginning and the end are one when thou diddest fashion and create man his soule thou diddest frame as of a most diuine matter thy proper breath so in a most diuine forme euen in thy owne Image For this glorious guest thou diddest prepare the palace of his body not onely commodious for vse but curiously both framed and furnished for delight But afterwardes by reason of his transgression this palace was turned to a prison whereby it was much changed in condition For as if a man for some offence be committed prisoner to his owne house hee becommeth soone weary of the place wherein hee tooke much pleasure before especially if not onely in regard of