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in_o its_o proper_a place_n and_o flee_v from_o it_o i_o seek_v after_o it_o i_o think_v i_o shall_v be_v too_o miserable_a shall_v i_o be_v debar_v of_o the_o embracement_n of_o a_o woman_n as_o for_o that_o medicine_n of_o thy_o mercy_n which_o shall_v cure_v that_o infirmity_n i_o never_o think_v of_o it_o and_o all_o because_o i_o have_v no_o experience_n of_o it_o as_o for_o continency_n i_o suppose_v it_o to_o be_v in_o the_o liberty_n of_o our_o own_o chastity_n power_n of_o which_o i_o for_o my_o part_n be_v not_o guilty_a be_v so_o foolish_a withal_o that_o i_o know_v it_o not_o to_o be_v write_v 11._o that_o no_o man_n can_v preserve_v his_o
be_v then_o enlarge_v or_o that_o they_o shall_v not_o have_v be_v enlarge_v at_o all_o whence_o therefore_o come_v it_o that_o my_o ear_n be_v on_o all_o side_n so_o beat_v with_o this_o noise_n this_o let_v he_o alone_o let_v he_o do_v what_o he_o will_v for_o he_o be_v not_o yet_o baptize_v whereas_o upon_o any_o doubt_n of_o bodily_a health_n we_o do_v not_o say_v let_v he_o be_v more_o dangerous_o wound_v for_o he_o be_v not_o yet_o cure_v how_o much_o better_o have_v it_o be_v for_o i_o to_o have_v be_v speedy_o cure_v that_o by_o my_o friend_n diligence_n and_o my_o own_o so_o much_o may_v have_v be_v wrought_v in_o i_o that_o my_o soul_n have_v receive_v health_n may_v have_v be_v safe_a under_o thy_o protection_n who_o have_v give_v it_o this_o very_o have_v be_v the_o better_a course_n but_o how_o many_o and_o what_o violent_a wave_n of_o temptation_n do_v seem_v to_o threaten_v i_o after_o my_o childhood_n those_o my_o mother_n full_a well_o know_v and_o desire_v to_o commit_v both_o those_o temptation_n by_o which_o i_o be_v afterward_o to_o be_v new_o mould_v as_o i_o also_o the_o work_n itself_o unto_o thy_o dispose_n chap._n 12._o he_o be_v force_v to_o his_o book_n which_o god_n turn_v to_o good_a purpose_n 1._o but_o in_o this_o my_o childhood_n wherein_o there_o be_v less_o fear_n of_o i_o than_o in_o my_o youth_n i_o love_v not_o my_o book_n and_o i_o hate_v to_o be_v force_v to_o it_o yet_o be_v i_o hold_v to_o it_o notwithstanding_o wherein_o they_o do_v very_o well_o for_o i_o but_o i_o do_v not_o well_o for_o myself_o for_o i_o will_v never_o have_v take_v my_o learning_n have_v i_o not_o be_v constrain_v to_o it_o for_o no_o man_n do_v well_o against_o his_o will_n though_o that_o which_o he_o do_v be_v good_a nor_o do_v they_o that_o force_v i_o to_o it_o very_o well_o but_o it_o be_v thou_o my_o god_n that_o do_v the_o good_a to_o i_o for_o they_o that_o held-mee_a to_o my_o learning_n do_v not_o understand_v to_o what_o i_o will_v apply_v it_o unless_o to_o satiate_v the_o insatiable_a desire_n of_o a_o rich_a beggary_n and_o a_o dishonourable_a glory_n 2._o but_o thou_o before_o who_o the_o 30_o very_a hair_n of_o our_o head_n be_v number_v do_v convert_v the_o common_a error_n of_o they_o all_o who_o press_v i_o to_o learning_n to_o my_o own_o benefit_n and_o my_o error_n who_o will_v not_o learn_v do_v thou_o make_v use_n of_o for_o my_o punishment_n of_o which_o i_o be_v then_o so_o little_a a_o boy_n and_o so_o great_a a_o sinner_n be_v not_o unworthy_a thus_o by_o their_o mean_n who_o do_v not_o well_o by_o i_o do_v thou_o well_o for_o i_o and_o upon_o i_o who_o be_v a_o sinner_n thou_o inflict_v a_o deserve_a punishment_n for_o thou_o have_v appoint_v it_o and_o so_o it_o prove_v every_o man_n inordinate_a affection_n shall_v be_v his_o own_o affliction_n chap._n 13._o with_o what_o study_v he_o be_v chief_o delight_v 1._o but_o what_o be_v the_o reason_n why_o of_o a_o child_n i_o shall_v so_o natural_o hate_v the_o greek_a tongue_n when_o it_o be_v teach_v i_o i_o can_v yet_o understand_v latin_a i_o love_v very_o well_o not_o that_o part_n which_o our_o first_o master_n enter_v we_o in_o but_o that_o which_o the_o grammarian_n teach_v we_o for_o those_o first_o rudiment_n to_o read_v to_o write_v and_o cipher_n i_o account_v no_o less_o painful_a and_o troublesome_a than_o the_o greek_a but_o whence_o shall_v this_o proceed_v but_o from_o the_o sinfulness_n and_o vanity_n of_o this_o life_n for_o i_o be_v but_o flesh_n a_o wind_n that_o 39_o pass_v away_o and_o come_v not_o again_o for_o those_o first_o rudiment_n be_v better_a because_o more_o certain_a see_v by_o they_o that_o skill_n be_v and_o be_v wrought_v in_o i_o that_o i_o be_o able_a to_o read_v what_o i_o find_v write_v and_o of_o myself_o to_o write_v what_o i_o will_v than_o these_o latter_a by_o which_o i_o be_v enforce_v to_o commit_v to_o memory_n the_o wander_n of_o i_o know_v not_o what_o aeneas_n while_o i_o forget_v i_o own_o and_o to_o bewail_v dead_a dido_n because_o she_o kill_v herself_o for_o love_n when_o in_o the_o mean_a time_n wretch_n that_o i_o be_v i_o with_o dry_a eye_n endure_v myself_o then_o die_v towards_o thou_o o_o god_n my_o life_n for_o what_o can_v be_v more_o miserable_a than_o a_o wretch_n that_o pity_v not_o himself_o one_o bemoan_v dido_n death_n cause_v by_o love_v of_o aeneas_n and_o yet_o not_o lament_v his_o own_o death_n cause_v by_o not_o love_v of_o thou_o 2._o o_o god_n thou_o light_v of_o my_o heart_n thou_o bread_n of_o the_o internal_a mouth_n of_o my_o soul_n and_o thou_o firm_a knot_n marry_v my_o soul_n and_o the_o bosom_n of_o my_o thought_n together_o i_o do_v not_o love_v thou_o and_o i_o commit_v fornication_n against_o thou_o while_o in_o the_o mean_a time_n every_o one_o applaud_v i_o with_o well_o do_v well_o do_v but_o the_o love_n of_o this_o world_n be_v fornication_n 4._o against_o god_n which_o so_o applaud_v and_o encourage_v a_o spiritual_a fornicator_n that_o it_o be_v even_o a_o shame_n for_o a_o man_n to_o be_v otherwise_o but_o i_o bemoan_v not_o all_o this_o but_o dead_a dido_n i_o bewail_v that_o kill_v herself_o by_o fall_v upon_o the_o sword_n i_o myself_o follow_v these_o low_a creature_n of_o thou_o forsake_v thou_o and_o myself_o be_v earth_n hasten_v to_o the_o earth_n but_o if_o i_o be_v forbid_v to_o read_v these_o toy_n how_o sorry_a will_v i_o be_v for_o that_o i_o may_v not_o read_v that_o which_o will_v make_v i_o sorry_a such_o madness_n be_v esteem_v to_o be_v more_o commendable_a and_o fluent_a learning_n than_o the_o learning_n to_o write_v and_o read_v 3._o but_o let_v my_o god_n now_o cry_v unto_o my_o soul_n and_o let_v thy_o truth_n say_v unto_o i_o it_o be_v not_o so_o it_o be_v not_o so_o that_o first_o kind_n of_o learning_n be_v far_o better_a for_o behold_v i_o be_o ready_a to_o forget_v the_o wander_n of_o aeneas_n and_o all_o such_o toy_n than_o i_o be_o to_o write_v and_o read_v true_a it_o be_v that_o there_o be_v curtain_n at_o the_o entrance_n of_o grammer-schoole_n but_o they_o signify_v not_o so_o much_o the_o cloth_n of_o state_n to_o privacy_n as_o serve_v for_o a_o blind_a to_o the_o folly_n commit_v behind_o they_o let_v not_o these_o master_n now_o cry_v out_o upon_o i_o who_o now_o i_o be_o out_o of_o fear_n of_o while_o i_o confess_v to_o thou_o my_o god_n what_o my_o soul_n delight_v in_o and_o rest_v content_v with_o the_o reprehension_n of_o my_o own_o evil_a way_n that_o i_o may_v love_v thy_o good_a one_o let_v not_o those_o buyer_n or_o seller_n of_o grammar_n exclaim_v upon_o i_o for_o that_o if_o i_o ask_v they_o whether_o that_o of_o the_o poet_n be_v true_a that_o aeneae_n ever_o come_v to_o carthage_n the_o unlearned_a will_v answer_v they_o know_v not_o and_o the_o learned_a will_v deny_v it_o to_o be_v true_a 4._o but_o if_o i_o ask_v they_o with_o what_o letter_n aeneas_n name_n be_v write_v every_o one_o that_o have_v but_o learned_a so_o sarre_o will_v pitch_v upon_o one_o truth_n according_a to_o the_o agreement_n and_o will_n whereby_o man_n at_o first_o make_v rule_n for_o those_o character_n if_o i_o shall_v ask_v again_o which_o of_o the_o two_o will_v be_v most_o incommodious_a to_o the_o life_n of_o man_n to_o forget_v to_o write_v and_o read_v or_o these_o poetical_a fiction_n who_o see_v not_o what_o any_o man_n will_v answer_v that_o have_v not_o quite_o forget_v himself_o i_o offend_v therefore_o be_v but_o a_o boy_n when_o in_o my_o affection_n i_o prefer_v those_o vain_a study_n to_o these_o more_o profitable_a or_o rather_o indeed_o i_o utter_o hate_v these_o and_o be_v in_o love_n with_o those_o but_o then_o one_o and_o one_o make_v two_o and_o two_o and_o two_o make_v four_o be_v a_o harsh_a song_n to_o i_o but_o the_o wooden_a horse_n full_a of_o arm_a man_n and_o the_o burn_a of_o troy_n and_o the_o ghost_n of_o creusa_n be_v a_o most_o delightful_a spectacle_n of_o vanity_n chap._n 14._o of_o the_o greek_a and_o latin_a tongue_n 1._o but_o why_o then_o do_v i_o hate_v the_o greek_a grammarian_n that_o chant_v of_o such_o thing_n for_o homer_n himself_o be_v skilful_a in_o contrive_v such_o fiction_n and_o be_v most_o delightful_o wanton_a but_o yet_o very_o harsh_a to_o i_o be_v a_o school_n boy_n i_o believe_v that_o virgil_n be_v no_o less_o to_o grecian_a child_n when_o they_o be_v compel_v to_o learn_v he_o as_o i_o be_v to_o learn_v homer_n for_o to_o say_v troth_n the_o difficulty_n of_o learning_n a_o strange_a language_n do_v sprinkle_v as_o
with_o he_o want_v he_o turn_v to_o my_o most_o cruel_a torture_n my_o eye_n roved_z about_o every_o where_o for_o he_o but_o they_o meet_v not_o with_o he_o and_o i_o hate_v all_o place_n for_o that_o they_o have_v not_o he_o nor_o can_v they_o now_o tell_v i_o behold_v he_o will_v come_v short_o as_o when_o he_o be_v alive_a they_o do_v whenever_o he_o be_v absent_a i_o become_v a_o great_a examiner_n of_o myself_o and_o i_o often_o ask_v over_o my_o soul_n why_o she_o be_v so_o sad_a and_o why_o she_o afflict_v i_o so_o sore_o but_o she_o know_v not_o what_o to_o answer_v i_o then_o say_v i_o to_o my_o soul_n put_v thy_o trust_n in_o god_n but_o very_o just_o she_o do_v not_o obey_v i_o because_o that_o most_o dear_a man_n who_o she_o have_v lose_v be_v both_o true_a and_o better_o than_o that_o fantastical_a god_n she_o be_v bid_v to_o trust_v in_o only_o tear_n be_v sweet_a to_o i_o conceit_n for_o they_o have_v now_o succeed_v in_o my_o friend_n place_n in_o the_o dear_a of_o my_o affection_n chap._n 5._o of_o tear_n in_o our_o prayer_n for_o and_o bewail_v of_o the_o thing_n belove_v 1._o and_o now_o lord_n be_v these_o thing_n well_o pass_v over_o and_o time_n have_v assuage_v the_o anguish_n of_o my_o wound_n may_v i_o learn_v this_o from_o theâ—_n who_o be_v truth_n and_o may_v i_o apply_v the_o ear_n of_o my_o heart_n unto_o thy_o mouth_n that_o thou_o may_v tell_v i_o the_o reason_n why_o weep_v shall_v be_v so_o sweet_a to_o people_n in_o misery_n have_v thou_o notwithstanding_o thou_o be_v present_v every_o where_o cast_v away_o our_o misery_n far_o from_o thou_o and_o thou_o remain_v constant_a in_o thyself_o but_o we_o be_v tumble_v up_o and_o down_o in_o divers_a trial_n and_o yet_o unless_o we_o shall_v bewail_v ourselves_o in_o thy_o ear_n there_o shall_v no_o hope_n remain_v for_o we_o how_o come_v it_o then_o to_o pass_v that_o such_o sweet_a fruit_n be_v gather_v from_o the_o bitter_a tree_n of_o a_o miserable_a life_n namely_o to_o mourn_v and_o weep_v and_o sigh_v and_o complain_v be_v it_o this_o that_o sweeten_v it_o that_o we_o be_v in_o hope_n thou_o hear_v we_o this_o may_v be_v right_o think_v of_o our_o prayer_n because_o they_o have_v a_o desire_n to_o approach_v unto_o thou_o but_o may_v it_o be_v so_o say_v too_o concern_v that_o grief_n and_o mourning_n for_o the_o thing_n lose_v with_o which_o i_o be_v then_o whole_o overwhelm_v for_o i_o can_v not_o hope_v he_o shall_v now_o revive_v again_o nor_o do_v i_o desire_v this_o with_o all_o my_o tear_n but_o bemoan_v he_o only_o i_o do_v and_o weep_v for_o he_o see_v a_o wretch_n i_o be_v and_o have_v utter_o lose_v all_o my_o joy_n or_o be_v weep_v a_o bitter_a thing_n and_o yet_o out_o of_o a_o full-gorg'dnesse_a of_o what_o we_o before_o enjoy_v and_o in_o the_o very_a instant_n while_o we_o be_v a_o loathe_n of_o they_o can_v it_o be_v please_v to_o we_o chap._n 6._o he_o tell_v with_o what_o great_a affection_n he_o love_v his_o friend_n 1._o but_o what_o speak_v i_o of_o these_o thing_n for_o it_o be_v no_o time_n to_o ask_v question_n but_o to_o confess_v unto_o thou_o wretched_a i_o be_v and_o wretched_a be_v every_o soul_n that_o be_v engage_v in_o the_o friendship_n of_o mortal_a thing_n he_o become_v all_o to_o piece_n when_o he_o forego_v they_o and_o then_o first_o he_o become_v sensible_a of_o his_o misery_n by_o which_o he_o be_v already_o miserable_a even_o before_o he_o forego_v they_o this_o be_v my_o case_n at_o that_o time_n i_o weep_v full_a bitter_o and_o yet_o be_v best_a at_o quiet_a in_o that_o bitterness_n thus_o be_v i_o wretched_a enough_o and_o that_o wretched_a life_n i_o account_v more_o dear_a than_o my_o friend_n himself_o for_o though_o i_o will_v glad_o have_v exchange_v it_o yet_o as_o unwilling_a i_o be_v to_o forgo_v that_o as_o i_o have_v be_v to_o lose_v he_o yea_o i_o know_v not_o whether_o i_o will_v have_v forgo_v that_o even_o to_o have_v enjoy_v he_o sentence_n like_a as_o the_o tradition_n if_o it_o be_v not_o a_o fiction_n go_v of_o pylades_n and_o orestes_n who_o will_v glad_o have_v die_v one_o for_o another_o or_o else_o both_o together_o it_o be_v to_o they_o worse_o than_o death_n not_o to_o live_v together_o but_o i_o know_v not_o what_o kind_n of_o affection_n prevail_v with_o i_o which_o be_v too_o much_o contrary_n to_o they_o for_o both_o grievous_o tedious_a to_o i_o it_o be_v to_o live_v and_o yet_o fearful_a i_o be_v to_o die_v i_o suppose_v that_o how_o much_o the_o more_o affectionate_o i_o love_v he_o so_o much_o the_o more_o do_v i_o both_o hate_n and_o fear_n as_o my_o cruel_a enemy_n death_n which_o have_v bereave_v i_o of_o he_o and_o i_o imagine_v it_o will_v speedy_o make_v a_o end_n of_o all_o other_o man_n because_o it_o have_v the_o power_n to_o do_v of_o he_o even_o thus_o i_o well_o remember_v stand_v i_o then_o affect_v 2._o behold_v my_o heart_n o_o my_o god_n yea_o search_v it_o thorough_o search_v it_o because_o i_o remember_v it_o well_o o_o my_o hope_n who_o cleanse_v i_o from_o the_o impurity_n of_o such_o affection_n direct_v my_o eye_n towards_o thou_o and_o pluck_v my_o foot_n out_o of_o the_o snare_n for_o i_o much_o admire_v that_o other_o mortal_n do_v live_v since_o he_o who_o i_o so_o love_v as_o if_o he_o never_o shall_v have_v die_v be_v now_o dead_a yea_o i_o more_o admire_v that_o myself_o who_o be_v to_o he_o a_o second_o self_n shall_v be_v able_a to_o live_v after_o he_o well_o say_v he_o of_o his_o friend_n thou_o half_o of_o my_o soul_n for_o i_o still_o think_v my_o soul_n and_o his_o soul_n to_o have_v be_v but_o one_o soul_n in_o two_o body_n 6._o and_o therefore_o be_v my_o life_n a_o very_a horror_n to_o i_o because_o i_o will_v not_o live_v by_o half_n and_o even_o therefore_o perchance_o be_v i_o afraid_a to_o die_v lest_o he_o shall_v whole_o die_v who_o so_o passionate_o i_o have_v love_v chap._n 7._o the_o impatientnesse_n of_o grief_n constrain_v we_o to_o shift_v our_o dwelling_n 1_o o_o 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from_o it_o for_o whither_o shall_v my_o heart_n fly_v from_o my_o heart_n whither_o be_v it_o possible_a to_o fly_v from_o my_o own_o self_n whither_o shall_v i_o not_o have_v follow_v myself_o and_o yet_o after_o all_o this_o out_o of_o my_o country_n flee_v for_o so_o shall_v my_o eye_n less_o look_n for_o he_o there_o where_o they_o be_v not_o wont_a to_o see_v he_o and_o thus_o i_o leave_v tagaste_n and_o come_v to_o carthage_n chap._n 8._o time_n cure_v sorrow_n 1._o time_n lose_v no_o time_n not_o do_v they_o idle_o go_v and_o return_v
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this_o have_v thou_o merciful_o forgive_v i_o preserve_v i_o from_o the_o water_n of_o the_o sea_n then_o full_a of_o execrable_a filthiness_n land_v i_o safe_a at_o the_o water_n of_o thy_o grace_n baptism_n with_o which_o so_o soon_o as_o i_o be_v purge_v those_o flood_n of_o my_o mother_n eye_n shall_v be_v dry_v up_o with_o which_o for_o my_o sake_n she_o daily_o water_v the_o ground_n under_o her_o face_n in_o prayer_n unto_o thou_o at_o last_o refuse_v to_o return_v without_o i_o i_o with_o much_o ado_n persuade_v she_o to_o stay_v that_o night_n in_o a_o place_n hard_o by_o our_o ship_n where_o there_o be_v a_o oratory_n erect_v preface_n in_o memory_n of_o s._n cyprian_n that_o night_n i_o privy_o steal_v aboard_o but_o she_o tarry_v behind_o in_o weep_v and_o prayer_n and_o what_o o_o lord_n request_v she_o at_o thy_o hand_n but_o that_o thou_o will_v not_o suffer_v i_o to_o sail_v away_o from_o she_o but_o thou_o profound_o provide_v and_o fear_v the_o main_a point_n of_o 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about_o to_o work_v for_o she_o out_o of_o my_o absence_n she_o know_v nothing_o of_o it_o therefore_o do_v she_o weep_v and_o lament_v prove_v herself_o by_o those_o torture_n to_o be_v guilty_a of_o what_o eve_n leave_v behind_o she_o with_o sorrow_n seek_v what_o she_o have_v bring_v forth_o in_o sorrow_n but_o have_v at_o last_o make_v a_o end_n of_o accuse_v i_o of_o false_a and_o hard_a deal_n with_o she_o she_o betake_v herself_o again_o to_o entreat_v thy_o favour_n for_o i_o return_v home_o and_o i_o go_v on_o towards_o rome_n chap._n 9_o of_o a_o shrewd_a fever_n that_o he_o fall_v into_o 1._o but_o lo_o there_o
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do_v that_o unpunished_a which_o i_o have_v not_o power_n to_o do_v under_o the_o assume_v covert_n of_o thy_o omnipotency_n chap._n 7._o he_o return_v thanks_n to_o god_n for_o remit_v these_o sin_n and_o for_o keep_v he_o from_o many_o other_o 1._o behold_v here_o be_v thy_o servant_n flee_v from_o his_o lord_n and_o gourd_n get_v under_o a_o shadow_n o_o rottenness_n o_o monster_n of_o life_n o_o depth_n of_o death_n can_v any_o thing_n please_v thou_o that_o thou_o may_v not_o do_v lawful_o and_o do_v it_o too_o upon_o no_o other_o reason_n but_o because_o it_o be_v not_o lawful_a what_o reward_n shall_v i_o render_v unto_o the_o lord_n for_o that_o he_o so_o gentle_o bring_v these_o thing_n to_o my_o remembrance_n that_o
my_o soul_n be_v not_o affright_v at_o it_o i_o will_v love_v thou_o o_o lord_n and_o thank_v thou_o and_o i_o will_v confess_v unto_o thy_o name_n because_o thou_o have_v forgive_v i_o this_o crime_n and_o these_o heinous_a deed_n of_o i_o unto_o thy_o grace_n and_o mercy_n do_v i_o ascribe_v that_o thou_o have_v dissolve_v my_o sin_n as_o it_o be_v ice_n yea_o unto_o thy_o grace_n do_v i_o ascribe_v whatsoever_o evil_n i_o have_v not_o do_v for_o what_o evil_a be_v not_o i_o apt_a enough_o to_o commit_v who_o love_v the_o sin_n for_o the_o sin_n sake_n yea_o all_o i_o confess_v to_o be_v forgive_v i_o both_o what_o evil_n i_o commit_v wilful_o and_o what_o by_o thy_o guidance_n i_o have_v not_o commit_v 2._o what_o man_n be_v he_o who_o upon_o consideration_n of_o his_o own_o infirmity_n dare_v so_o far_o to_o ascribe_v his_o chastity_n and_o innocency_n to_o his_o own_o virtue_n as_o that_o he_o thereupon_o shall_v love_v thou_o the_o less_o as_o if_o thy_o mercy_n by_o which_o 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