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pro._n 1.28_o than_o he_o will_v laugh_v at_o the_o sinner_n he_o will_v mock_v at_o his_o misery_n when_o he_o cry'_v for_o mercy_n he_o will_v not_o answer_v and_o will_v have_v no_o regard_n to_o his_o prayer_n it_o be_v true_a we_o seldom_o see_v any_o die_v ill_o who_o have_v live_v well_o but_o it_o be_v much_o more_o rare_a to_o see_v any_o die_v well_o who_o have_v live_v ill_o 2._o a_o more_o particular_a manner_n of_o preparation_n and_o which_o be_v most_o suit_n able_a for_o this_o day_n of_o retreat_n be_v to_o do_v all_o the_o exercise_n of_o the_o day_n as_o if_o it_o be_v the_o last_o day_n of_o your_o life_n endeavour_v to_o put_v yourself_o into_o such_o a_o disposition_n as_o you_o will_v desire_v to_o be_v in_o at_o the_o hour_n of_o death_n to_o that_o end_n consider_v serious_o at_o the_o close_a of_o each_o meditation_n what_o your_o thought_n on_o that_o subject_n will_v be_v if_o you_o be_v just_a go_v to_o give_v up_o a_o account_n to_o god_n of_o your_o whole_a life_n and_o particular_o examine_v what_o it_o be_v that_o will_v most_o trouble_v you_o if_o you_o be_v now_o a_o die_a three_o thing_n usual_o disturb_v die_v man_n 1._o their_o neglect_n of_o the_o duty_n be_v of_o their_o station_n 2._o their_o frequent_v the_o sacrament_n without_o profit_n 3._o their_o abuse_n of_o the_o mean_n of_o perfection_n which_o they_o have_v enjoy_v &_o their_o have_v render_v useless_a the_o inspiration_n and_o grace_n which_o they_o have_v receive_v we_o shall_v examine_v strict_o this_o day_n especial_o during_o the_o meditation_n on_o death_n whether_o we_o have_v nothing_o to_o reproach_n ourselves_o on_o these_o head_n how_o we_o have_v hitherto_o discharge_v the_o duty_n be_v of_o our_o call_n whether_o we_o be_v punctual_a and_o careful_a now_o if_o we_o be_v engage_v in_o the_o world_n do_v we_o live_v in_o it_o like_a christian_n according_a to_o our_o saviour_n maxim_n if_o we_o have_v the_o happiness_n to_o be_v religious_a be_v we_o exact_v in_o keep_v our_o vow_n and_o obseve_v our_o rule_n if_o we_o have_v the_o honour_n to_o be_v priest_n do_v our_o life_n answer_v the_o holiness_n of_o our_o character_n in_o what_o ever_o station_n we_o be_v have_v we_o do_v our_o duty_n in_o it_o be_v we_o satisfy_v with_o our_o condition_n and_o shall_v we_o not_o be_v sorry_a if_o we_o be_v go_v to_o die_v that_o we_o have_v make_v no_o great_a progress_n in_o the_o way_n of_o perfection_n do_v not_o our_o frequent_a confession_n without_o any_o amendment_n and_o our_o reiterated_a unprofitable_a communion_n fly_v in_o our_o face_n jesus_n christ_n have_v feed_v we_o with_o his_o precious_a body_n and_o blood_n do_v we_o grow_v strong_a by_o that_o divine_a food_n what_o shall_v we_o answer_v to_o that_o impartial_a judge_n if_o we_o be_v now_o before_o he_o command_v to_o give_v a_o account_n of_o his_o blood_n do_v we_o say_v or_o hear_v mass_n with_o that_o piety_n &_o devotion_n as_o become_v a_o sacrifice_n which_o 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we_o shall_v make_v our_o confession_n as_o if_o it_o be_v our_o last_o and_o endeavour_v to_o repair_v what_o ever_o we_o have_v reason_n to_o fear_n have_v be_v amiss_o in_o our_o former_a we_o shall_v do_v well_o to_o make_v some_o reflection_n on_o the_o state_n of_o our_o affair_n and_o order_v they_o so_o as_o they_o may_v not_o disturb_v we_o when_o we_o come_v to_o die_v in_o short_a we_o must_v endeavour_v to_o end_v the_o day_n in_o such_o a_o state_n as_o we_o will_v desire_v to_o be_v in_o the_o last_o moment_n and_o we_o must_v close_v up_o all_o with_o a_o sacrifice_n of_o ourselves_o our_o possession_n our_o health_n our_o life_n to_o christ_n beg_v he_o to_o dispose_v absolute_o of_o they_o for_o the_o advancement_n of_o his_o glory_n and_o submit_v ourselves_o entire_o and_o free_o to_o death_n when_o ever_o he_o please_v we_o must_v then_o devote_v ourselves_o whole_o to_o the_o bless_a virgin_n &_o beseech_v she_o to_o stand_v by_o we_o in_o this_o difficult_a time_n we_o must_v address_v some_o prayer_n to_o s._n joseph_n to_o our_o guardian_n angel_n who_o be_v able_a to_o give_v we_o very_o powerful_a succour_n and_o sum_v up_o all_o our_o desire_n with_o beg_v the_o grace_n of_o perseverance_n in_o some_o particular_a prayer_n as_o we_o judge_v most_o proper_a 3._o a_o three_o method_n be_v to_o set_v one_o day_n a_o part_n every_o year_n to_o prepare_v for_o death_n to_o consecrate_v it_o entire_o to_o that_o work_n and_o do_v that_o day_n what_o we_o must_v do_v when_o we_o come_v to_o die_v what_o we_o shall_v then_o wish_v we_o have_v do_v and_o what_o we_o shall_v not_o be_v able_a to_o do_v upon_o a_o death_n bed_n the_o evening_n before_o we_o must_v put_v our_o affair_n in_o such_o order_n that_o we_o may_v meet_v with_o no_o interruption_n next_o day_n for_o the_o work_n of_o the_o day_n require_v a_o absolute_a retreat_n and_o a_o perfect_a tranquillity_n of_o mind_n if_o we_o have_v conveniency_n we_o shall_v begin_v with_o visit_v 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accafion_n of_o sin_n which_o you_o will_v not_o avoid_v the_o darling_n passion_n the_o belove_a sin_n which_o man_n hardly_o ever_o mortify_v &_o which_o be_v the_o source_n of_o all_o their_o disorder_n your_o inordinate_a love_n of_o pleasure_n your_o wilful_a ignorance_n of_o the_o duty_n be_v of_o your_o station_n your_o abusive_a and_o scandalous_a raillery_n the_o ill_a use_n of_o the_o sacrament_n of_o time_n of_o grace_n if_o you_o be_v religious_a search_n into_o the_o violation_n of_o your_o vow_n your_o carelessness_n indischarge_v the_o particular_a duty_n be_v of_o your_o call_v these_o be_v the_o thing_n which_o do_v general_o disturb_v we_o on_o a_o deathbed_n and_o make_v our_o salvation_n doubtful_a when_o restitution_n reparation_n of_o honour_n to_o those_o we_o have_v asperse_v when_o quit_v the_o occasion_n of_o sin_n reconcile_n ourselves_o to_o our_o enemy_n precede_v our_o confession_n it_o be_v the_o best_a sign_n that_o our_o sorrow_n and_o resolution_n be_v 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