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they_o become_v powerful_a and_o courageous_a to_o admiration_n chap._n xv._o that_o it_o be_v impossible_a to_o live_v this_o supernatural_a life_n by_o human_a prudence_n the_o supernatural_a life_n be_v a_o continual_a mortification_n of_o deprave_a nature_n 1._o for_o it_o be_v certain_a first_o that_o we_o can_v live_v this_o excellent_a life_n but_o by_o annihilate_v our_o sense_n and_o reason_n 2._o second_o that_o this_o life_n be_v whole_o according_a to_o the_o spirit_n which_o can_v be_v but_o the_o spirit_n of_o god_n which_o inspire_v the_o soul_n with_o his_o influence_n and_o sacred_a motion_n 3._o three_o that_o the_o soul_n which_o live_v this_o life_n must_v be_v elevate_v above_o sense_n und_fw-ge reason_n whether_o it_o be_v in_o prayer_n or_o the_o practice_n of_o virtue_n which_o can_v be_v do_v but_o by_o offer_v up_o herself_o to_o god_n as_o a_o continual_a sacrifice_n that_o though_o oftentimes_o w_n must_v do_v thing_n sensual_a as_o to_o eat_v and_o drink_v 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afford_v a_o help_v hand_n to_o the_o good_a of_o his_o neighbour_n neither_o be_v his_o zeal_n herein_o confine_v to_o one_o only_a kingdom_n his_o piety_n be_v so_o ingenious_a that_o he_o find_v out_o way_n to_o be_v at_o the_o same_o time_n one_o of_o the_o great_a solitary_n and_o yet_o much_o engage_v in_o the_o labour_n of_o they_o who_o endeavour_v the_o enlargement_n of_o christ_n kingdom_n his_o way_n of_o express_v himself_o be_v conform_v to_o his_o thought_n and_o both_o of_o they_o to_o the_o gospel_n where_o such_o who_o chief_o hunt_v after_o eloquence_n and_o vain_a curiosity_n will_v find_v nothing_o that_o will_v please_v their_o palate_n but_o a_o soul_n which_o relish_v evangelical_n truth_n can_v but_o find_v a_o gust_n in_o the_o expression_n of_o this_o book_n which_o breathe_v forth_o nothing_o but_o the_o spirit_n of_o christianity_n and_o god_n grant_v that_o they_o who_o take_v it_o into_o their_o hand_n may_v find_v it_o work_v
in_o their_o hearr_n to_o engage_v they_o efficacious_o in_o his_o love_n and_o service_n so_o be_v it_o amen_n the_o content_n book_n i._o of_o the_o love_n of_o humiliation_n which_o be_v the_o solid_a foundation_n of_o all_o christian_a perfection_n chap._n 1._o that_o we_o ought_v to_o endeavour_v to_o attain_v christian_a perfection_n with_o the_o spirit_n of_o humility_n pag._n 1._o chap._n 2._o the_o foundation_n of_o christian_a humility_n 5_o chap._n 3._o that_o the_o centre_n of_o the_o creature_n be_v his_o own_o nothing_o 8_o chap._n 4._o that_o the_o great_a saint_n have_v attain_v to_o perfection_n by_o a_o singular_a love_n of_o self-contempt_n and_o abjection_n 11_o chap._n 5._o that_o we_o have_v only_o so_o much_o of_o the_o true_a spirit_n of_o jesus_n christ_n as_o we_o have_v a_o inclination_n to_o abjection_n 14_o chap._n 6._o that_o the_o sight_n of_o our_o own_o nothing_o inspire_v we_o with_o self-contempt_n and_o the_o love_n of_o god_n 17_o chap._n 7._o that_o god_n be_v glorify_v by_o our_o annihilation_n 20_o chap._n 8._o that_o the_o soul_n be_v rich_a when_o she_o possess_v the_o love_n of_o self-contempt_n 23_o chap._n 9_o what_o profit_n we_o draw_v from_o humiliation_n 26_o chap._n 10._o the_o way_n how_o to_o arrive_v to_o perfect_a humiliation_n 29_o chap._n 11._o that_o we_o ought_v to_o leave_v ourselves_o whole_o to_o god_n to_o become_v annihilate_v 32_o chap._n 12._o that_o we_o must_v renounce_v our_o sense_n and_o humane_a reason_n to_o love_v humiliation_n 34_o chap._n 13._o that_o the_o experience_n of_o god_n goodness_n to_o we_o do_v annihilate_v we_o powerful_o 44_o chap._n 14._o that_o a_o soul_n espouse_v jesus_n christ_n espouse_n his_o cross_n and_o suffering_n 41_o chap._n 15._o that_o the_o experience_n of_o god_n goodness_n to_o we_o do_v annihilate_v we_o powerful_o 44_o chap._n 16._o to_o be_v content_a with_o abjection_n after_o our_o fault_n repair_v the_o injury_n to_o god_n and_o make_v up_o our_o ruin_n 46_o chap._n 17._o consideration_n upon_o tho_o vileness_n of_o this_o corruptible_a body_n 51_o chap._n 18._o consideration_n upon_o the_o natural_a inclination_n we_o have_v to_o evil_n 54_o book_n ii_o of_o the_o supernatural_a life_n which_o be_v the_o life_n of_o all_o true_a christian_n chap._n 1._o the_o idea_n or_o description_n of_o the_o supernatural_a life_n 75_o chap._n 2._o of_o the_o high_a esteem_n we_o ought_v to_o have_v of_o the_o christian_a life_n 60_o chap._n 3._o that_o we_o ought_v with_o st._n paul_n to_o convert_v ourselves_o whole_o to_o god_n 63_o chap._n 4._o of_o the_o alliance_n we_o must_v make_v with_o the_o holy_a folly_n of_o the_o cross_n 67_o chap._n 5._o how_o we_o ought_v to_o conform_v our_o interiour_n to_o that_o of_o jesus_n christ._n 70_o chap._n 6._o the_o sublimity_n of_o the_o christian_a life_n 74_o chap._n 7._o there_o be_v divers_a degree_n of_o this_o supertural_a life_n 77_o chap._n 8._o the_o practice_n of_o a_o supernatural_a life_n 80_o chap._n 9_o of_o the_o liberty_n we_o enjoy_v by_o the_o exercise_n of_o the_o supernatural_a life_n 81_o chap._n 10._o our_o great_a happiness_n on_o earth_n be_v to_o profess_v the_o way_n of_o christianity_n 87_o chap._n 11._o that_o truth_n be_v only_o find_v in_o the_o spirit_n of_o christianity_n the_o rest_n be_v vanity_n 91_o chap._n 12._o there_o be_v many_o way_n in_o christianity_n all_o which_o be_v according_a to_o the_o life_n of_o jesus_n christ_n 94_o chap._n 13_o some_o maxim_n concern_v a_o supernatural_a life_n 98_o chap._n 14._o what_o content_a a_o soul_n receive_v in_o a_o supernatural_a life_n 101_o chap._n 15._o that_o it_o be_v impossible_a to_o live_v this_o supernatural_a life_n by_o humane_a prudence_n 105_o chap._n 16._o the_o conclusion_n that_o we_o ought_v to_o apply_v ourselves_o to_o the_o practice_n of_o a_o supernatural_a life_n 108_o book_n iii_o of_o the_o presence_n of_o god_n and_o give_v ourselves_o up_o to_o divine_a providence_n chap._n 1._o our_o first_o thought_n in_o the_o morning_n ought_v to_o be_v that_o god_n be_v present_a 111_o chap._n 2._o the_o presence_n of_o god_n in_o the_o soul_n make_v we_o little_a value_n the_o absence_n of_o the_o creature_n 114_o chap._n 3._o that_o we_o can_v and_o aught_o to_o conserve_v the_o presence_n of_o god_n in_o occasion_n of_o extroversion_n 118_o chap._n 4._o that_o the_o presence_n of_o god_n be_v clear_o see_v in_o a_o purify_a interior_a 121_o chap._n 5._o that_o our_o union_n with_o the_o presence_n of_o god_n aught_o to_o be_v the_o rule_n of_o our_o action_n 125_o chap._n 6._o that_o the_o presence_n of_o god_n in_o we_o put_v we_o in_o a_o state_n of_o suffer_v and_o enjoy_v 128_o chap._n 7._o that_o the_o divine_a presence_n make_v we_o to_o love_v prayer_n or_o action_n as_o best_o please_v god_n 132_o chap._n 8._o the_o presence_n of_o god_n bring_v we_o into_o a_o disesteem_a of_o other_o thing_n 136_o chap._n 9_o where_o we_o may_v best_o find_v the_o presence_n of_o god_n 139_o chap._n 10._o that_o we_o ought_v to_o give_v ourselves_o up_o with_o divine_a providence_n 143_o chap._n 11._o to_o be_v indifferent_a to_o all_o thing_n but_o god_n good_a pleasure_n 146_o chap._n 12._o we_o ought_v to_o comport_v ourselves_o with_o a_o respectful_a reverence_n in_o god_n presence_n 149_o chap._n 13._o to_o give_v ourselves_o up_o to_o the_o conduct_n of_o god_n spirit_n 153_o chap._n 14._o how_o the_o perfect_a abandon_v of_o ourselves_o to_o god_n make_v we_o find_v a_o paradise_n upon_o earth_n 157_o chap_n 15._o how_o the_o beauty_n that_o be_v in_o the_o order_n of_o god_n content_n a_o soul_n 161_o chap._n 16._o the_o practice_n of_o the_o presence_n of_o god_n for_o the_o seven_o day_n of_o the_o week_n 163_o the_o first_o day_n the_o be_v of_o god_n 164_o the_o second_o day_n the_o omnipotency_n of_o god_n 166_o the_o three_o day_n of_o the_o wisdom_n of_o god_n 167_o the_o four_o day_n the_o patience_n of_o god_n 169_o the_o five_o day_n of_o the_o love_n of_o god_n 174_o the_o six_o day_n the_o justice_n of_o god_n 172_o the_o seven_o day_n the_o mercy_n of_o god_n 173_o book_n iv_o of_o solitude_n and_o the_o practice_n of_o two_o excellent_a retreat_n of_o ten_o day_n chap._n 1._o of_o the_o beauty_n of_o christian_a solitude_n 175_o chap._n 2._o of_o the_o necessity_n of_o solitude_n 179_o chap._n 3._o the_o difficulty_n of_o solitude_n 182_o chap._n 4._o the_o occupation_n of_o solitude_n 186_o chap._n 5._o how_o we_o may_v put_v our_o soul_n and_o sense_n into_o a_o solitude_n 189_o chap._n 6._o a_o solitude_n or_o retreat_n of_o ten_o day_n upon_o the_o infallible_a mystery_n of_o the_o sacred_a trinity_n 192_o first_o day_n 195_o second_o day_n 199_o three_o day_n 203_o four_o day_n 207_o five_o day_n 211_o six_o day_n 215_o seven_o day_n 219_o eight_o day_n 224_o nine_o day_n 228_o ten_o day_n 232_o chap._n 6._o another_o retreat_n of_o ten_o day_n upon_o the_o adorable_a person_n of_o jesus_n christ_n 236_o first_o day_n of_o the_o mystery_n of_o the_o incarnation_n ibid._n second_o day_n jesus_n a_o infant_n 241_o three_o day_n jesus_n poor_a and_o abject_a 245_o four_o day_n jesus_n the_o fountain_n of_o grace_n and_o piety_n 249_o five_o day_n jesus_n zealator_n of_o soul_n 253_o six_o day_n jesus_n contemplate_v and_o enjoy_v 257_o seven_o day_n jesus_n our_o exemplar_n and_o guide_n 262_o eight_o day_n jesus_n our_o light_n 266_o nine_o day_n jesus_n suffer_v and_o die_v 280_o ten_o day_n jesus_n rise_v from_o death_n and_o gloririous_a 285_o book_n v._o of_o communion_n and_o its_o effect_n chap._n 1._o of_o preparation_n before_o communion_n 291_o chap._n 2._o to_o communicate_v worthy_o we_o must_v put_v ourselves_o in_o a_o state_n conformable_a to_o that_o of_o jesus_n christ_n in_o the_o bless_a sacrament_n 294_o chap_n 3._o to_o receive_v the_o communion_n worthy_o we_o must_v imitate_v those_o action_n which_o jesus_n christ_n practise_v when_o he_o institute_v it_o 298_o chap._n 4._o interiour_n entertainment_n during_o communion_n 303_o chap._n 5._o other_o entertainment_n to_o give_v thanks_o after_o communion_n 306_o chap._n 6._o another_o method_n of_o thanksgiving_n after_o communion_n 309_o chap._n 7._o the_o first_o effect_n of_o communion_n be_v to_o beget_v in_o we_o the_o love_n of_o cross_n and_o humiliation_n 313_o chap._n 8._o continuation_n of_o the_o same_o subject_n 316_o chap._n 9_o the_o second_o effect_n of_o communion_n be_v to_o transform_v we_o 319_o chap._n 10._o the_o three_o effect_n of_o communion_n which_o be_v the_o perfect_a and_o consummate_a union_n 323_o chap._n 11._o the_o four_o effect_n of_o communion_n be_v to_o confer_v the_o high_a love_n 327_o chap._n 12._o the_o five_o effect_n of_o communion_n be_v to_o give_v strength_n and_o perseverance_n in_o the_o service_n
behold_v whither_o a_o soul_n be_v conduct_v who_o many_o think_v good_a for_o nothing_o o_o how_o the_o judgement_n of_o man_n be_v different_a from_o the_o thought_n of_o god_n let_v then_o every_o one_o honour_v god_n by_o the_o way_n and_o life_n that_o be_v proper_a for_o they_o otherwise_o they_o will_v fall_v into_o perturbation_n of_o spirit_n and_o be_v disquiet_v will_v become_v troublesome_a to_o themselves_o and_o other_o but_o this_o be_v not_o the_o work_n of_o a_o day_n we_o shall_v find_v it_o a_o hard_a task_n to_o become_v dead_a to_o the_o world_n and_o ourselves_o every_o state_n be_v good_a yea_o the_o most_o abject_a all_o grace_n be_v excellent_a yea_o the_o least_o and_o mean_a there_o be_v many_o sort_n of_o grace_n which_o we_o perhaps_o do_v not_o much_o value_n and_o yet_o be_v real_o to_o be_v more_o esteem_v than_o vision_n rapt_n or_o revelation_n to_o labour_v and_o suffer_v for_o god_n be_v of_o great_a worth_n than_o ecstasy_n it_o be_v a_o truth_n well_o enough_o know_v by_o many_o though_o practise_v but_o by_o few_o that_o a_o little_a matter_n hinder_v the_o operation_n of_o god_n grace_n in_o we_o one_o only_o small_a natural_a inclination_n unmortified_a suffice_v to_o retard_v our_o progress_n to_o perfection_n for_o this_o reason_n we_o must_v exact_o die_v to_o all_o creature_n annihilate_v in_o we_o every_o motion_n that_o tend_v not_o to_o god_n some_o way_n or_o other_o as_o for_o example_n to_o give_v no_o refreshment_n to_o the_o body_n by_o meat_n drink_z or_o sleep_v &c_n &c_n but_o for_o necessity_n we_o must_v also_o mortify_v in_o we_o the_o desire_n of_o honour_n and_o temporal_a commodity_n yea_o love_v abjection_n pain_n and_o poverty_n will_v nothing_o but_o what_o may_v conduce_v to_o advance_v god_n glory_n i_o more_o value_v the_o union_n of_o a_o soul_n with_o god_n in_o humiliation_n and_o suffering_n than_o in_o consolation_n chap._n xiii_o some_o maxim_n concern_v a_o supernatural_a life_n o_o god_n what_o a_o poor_a christian_n be_o i_o in_o occasion_n of_o trial_n i_o have_v imprint_v in_o i_o some_o idaea_n and_o sentiment_n of_o a_o supernatural_a life_n but_o when_o it_o come_v to_o put_v they_o in_o practice_n my_o timorous_a nature_n shrink_v and_o make_v excuse_n to_o shun_v suffering_n and_o then_o the_o occasion_n be_v over_o i_o have_v great_a regreat_a for_o not_o be_v courageous_a and_o come_v to_o know_v thereby_o my_o little_a virtue_n and_o small_a perfection_n i_o then_o see_v that_o the_o rule_n of_o perfection_n be_v the_o conformity_n which_o we_o have_v with_o jesus_n crucify_v poor_a and_o abject_a when_o that_o be_v great_a our_o perfection_n be_v great_a also_o but_o that_o i_o find_v i_o have_v little_a or_o no_o affective_a conformity_n with_o jesus_n crucify_v behold_v here_o those_o light_n and_o direction_n i_o have_v learn_v by_o conference_n with_o a_o holy_a person_n and_o be_v good_a for_o my_o practice_n and_o solid_a establishment_n in_o a_o supernatural_a life_n 1._o we_o must_v accustom_v our_o body_n to_o austerity_n exercise_v it_o with_o love_a chastisement_n for_o our_o own_o transgression_n and_o the_o sin_n of_o other_o 2._o we_o can_v never_o attain_v to_o contemplation_n and_o a_o perfect_a love_n of_o the_o divinity_n but_o by_o pass_v first_o by_o jesus_n crucify_v poor_a and_o abject_a we_o see_v he_o poor_a and_o despise_a attend_v with_o few_o follower_n because_o we_o refuse_v to_o walk_v in_o those_o rough_a path_n he_o have_v set_v before_o we_o 3._o we_o must_v have_v a_o ardent_a love_n for_o solitude_n and_o recollection_n to_o the_o end_n we_o may_v be_v whole_o for_o god_n and_o correspond_v faithful_o to_o the_o inspiration_n of_o his_o holy_a spirit_n and_o although_o we_o ought_v to_o have_v a_o general_a indifferency_n to_o all_o state_n and_o call_v of_o god_n yet_o it_o be_v better_a to_o incline_v rather_o to_o retirement_n and_o solitude_n not_o mere_o to_o enjoy_v the_o sweetness_n thereof_o but_o that_o we_o may_v not_o be_v want_v to_o cooperate_v with_o the_o grace_n of_o god_n vouchsafe_v unto_o we_o holy_a solitude_n be_v the_o region_n of_o divine_a communication_n ducam_fw-la eam_fw-la in_o solitudinem_fw-la &_o loquar_fw-la ad_fw-la cor_fw-la ejus_fw-la say_v god_n by_o the_o prophet_n i_o will_v lead_v a_o soul_n into_o solitude_n and_o speak_v interior_o to_o her_o heart_n 4._o the_o reason_n why_o we_o see_v so_o few_o even_o devout_a christian_n make_v progress_n in_o perfection_n be_v because_o they_o limit_v the_o grace_n they_o have_v receive_v hinder_v its_o enlargement_n by_o natural_a argument_n and_o human_a prudence_n they_o say_v it_o be_v enough_o for_o i_o to_o do_v this_o or_o that_o i_o ought_v not_o to_o aspire_v to_o so_o high_a perfection_n those_o who_o live_v in_o the_o world_n can_v be_v so_o elevate_v in_o the_o way_n of_o god_n these_o and_o suchlike_a excuse_n they_o make_v which_o hinder_v the_o grace_n of_o god_n from_o work_v full_o what_o he_o intend_v if_o we_o do_v but_o consider_v the_o ardent_a desire_n that_o jesus_n have_v to_o advance_v soul_n in_o the_o way_n of_o divine_a love_n and_o how_o ready_a he_o be_v to_o bestow_v on_o we_o new_a grace_n upon_o our_o faithful_a correspond_v with_o the_o former_a we_o will_v be_v both_o ravish_v and_o ashamed_a also_o to_o be_v so_o backward_o in_o give_v ourselves_o up_o to_o the_o conduct_n of_o god_n who_o desire_v nothing_o so_o much_o as_o that_o we_o may_v love_v he_o perfect_o and_o enjoy_v he_o eternal_o but_o as_o while_o jesus_n be_v on_o earth_n it_o be_v say_v of_o he_o that_o the_o world_n know_v he_o not_o and_o his_o own_o receive_v he_o not_o for_o see_v he_o bear_v in_o a_o stable_a circumcise_a as_o a_o sinner_n live_v poor_o as_o a_o carpenter_n persecute_v accuse_v condemn_v to_o die_v a_o infamous_a death_n on_o the_o cross_n they_o will_v not_o take_v he_o for_o the_o promise_a messiah_n so_o as_o yet_o he_o be_v not_o well_o know_v and_o many_o christian_n themselves_o do_v not_o receive_v he_o nor_o let_v his_o spirit_n and_o maxim_n reign_v in_o their_o heart_n yea_o some_o who_o profess_v the_o way_n of_o perfection_n do_v not_o as_o they_o ought_v esteem_n and_o embrace_v his_o humiliation_n and_o abjection_n for_o we_o too_o much_o desire_v honour_n and_o preferment_n and_o too_o much_o fear_v abjection_n and_o suffering_n o_o my_o soul_n what_o have_v thou_o do_v hitherto_o not_o to_o have_v as_o yet_o begin_v this_o life_n crucify_v and_o annihilate_v i_o confess_v my_o folly_n and_o blindness_n o_o my_o god_n make_v i_o present_o to_o set_v upon_o it_o and_o let_v not_o any_o day_n pass_v over_o without_o the_o happiness_n of_o suffer_v something_o for_o your_o love_n chap._n fourteen_o what_o content_a a_o soul_n receive_v in_o a_o supernatural_a life_n we_o have_v oftentimes_o no_o need_n of_o any_o other_o care_n than_o to_o be_v faithful_a to_o a_o ordinary_a way_n of_o devotion_n without_o pretend_v to_o what_o be_v extraordinary_a and_o we_o have_v reason_n to_o fear_v that_o motion_n now_o and_o then_o to_o undertake_v a_o life_n of_o great_a perfection_n may_v proceed_v rather_o from_o a_o seek_n of_o our_o own_o excellency_n than_o a_o true_a desire_n of_o please_a god_n among_o these_o danger_n blindness_n and_o obscurity_n we_o stand_v in_o great_a need_n of_o the_o light_n of_o grace_n and_o conduct_v of_o some_o holy_a person_n who_o be_v able_a to_o discern_v what_o be_v best_a for_o we_o however_o put_v our_o confidence_n in_o god_n and_o live_v in_o a_o entire_a dependence_n on_o he_o we_o shall_v find_v peace_n and_o quiet_a of_o mind_n if_o we_o have_v desire_n for_o any_o thing_n let_v it_o be_v for_o such_o thing_n as_o jesus_n crucify_v desire_v for_o they_o be_v contrary_a to_o our_o natural_a inclination_n and_o though_o there_o may_v possible_o occur_v some_o self-seeking_a yet_o this_o be_v the_o way_n of_o grace_n inasmuch_o as_o the_o find_a of_o our_o soul_n be_v 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indisposition_n of_o health_n i_o ought_v to_o value_v it_o and_o not_o forsake_v my_o usual_a devotion_n nor_o have_v recourse_n to_o such_o refreshment_n as_o satisfy_v sensuality_n but_o to_o take_v pleasure_n for_o once_o to_o make_v bold_a with_o my_o body_n that_o have_v often_o make_v bold_a with_o my_o soul_n notwithstanding_o this_o must_v be_v do_v with_o discretion_n 3._o i_o must_v rejoice_v at_o cross_n and_o difficulty_n which_o i_o meet_v withal_o as_o afford_v matter_n to_o practise_v many_o great_a virtue_n which_o prepare_v the_o soul_n for_o great_a grace_n and_o make_v her_o worthy_a of_o great_a love_n what_o god_n please_v to_o give_v oftentimes_o to_o his_o best_a friend_n in_o this_o life_n be_v fair_a occasion_n to_o suffer_v for_o christ_n sake_n by_o a_o generous_a renunciation_n of_o what_o the_o world_n most_o affect_v and_o nature_n most_o desire_n 4._o i_o ought_v to_o be_v strong_o persuade_v that_o i_o shall_v be_v so_o far_o rich_a in_o virtue_n as_o 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we_o must_v row_v against_o the_o stream_n of_o our_o corrupt_a nature_n but_o not_o strive_v against_o the_o wind_n that_o come_v from_o heaven_n work_v we_o must_v but_o by_o follow_v god_n holy_a inspiration_n which_o be_v sensible_a enough_o to_o holy_a heart_n a_o soul_n accustom_v to_o the_o conduct_n of_o god_n spirit_n do_v know_v his_o motion_n i_o can_v explicate_v this_o as_o i_o will_v but_o it_o be_v a_o assure_a truth_n she_o know_v they_o by_o experience_n i_o must_v whole_o depend_v on_o divine_a providence_n without_o any_o dependence_n on_o creature_n though_o holy_a cast_v myself_o into_o the_o arm_n of_o god_n as_o a_o infant_n that_o take_v no_o care_n but_o to_o lie_v in_o the_o mother_n bosom_n to_o suck_v the_o teat_n and_o delight_v therewith_o do_v love_v she_o dear_o i_o confess_v our_o bless_a saviour_n treat_v i_o after_o this_o manner_n for_o without_o any_o solicitude_n of_o i_o to_o nourish_v my_o soul_n with_o spiritual_a food_n or_o without_o any_o 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pap_n he_o return_v to_o the_o right_n and_o now_o will_v not_o quit_v it_o be_v grow_v wise_a by_o experience_n my_o soul_n thus_o find_v little_a help_n from_o the_o creature_n return_v present_o to_o the_o pap_n of_o providence_n and_o there_o abide_v i_o fear_v sometime_o to_o have_v too_o many_o consolation_n in_o prayer_n but_o this_o do_v satisfy_v i_o that_o god_n will_v have_v i_o live_v as_o a_o infant_n that_o stand_v in_o need_n of_o such_o comfort_n he_o make_v choice_n of_o other_o soul_n for_o great_a performance_n that_o regard_v his_o glory_n if_o a_o infant_n shall_v leave_v the_o bosom_n of_o his_o mother_n to_o do_v her_o service_n he_o will_v fall_v and_o hurt_v himself_o and_o do_v no_o good_a he_o must_v then_o let_v other_o work_n and_o be_v content_a with_o his_o mother_n embrace_n wherefore_o what_o i_o have_v to_o do_v be_v to_o stick_v close_o to_o god_n and_o let_v other_o travel_v in_o great_a affair_n as_o more_o grow_v up_o in_o grace_n in_o comparison_n 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augment_v and_o inflame_v whosoever_o possess_v thou_o do_v know_v and_o taste_v the_o amiable_a transport_n of_o great_a liberty_n of_o spirit_n a_o soul_n lose_v herself_o happy_o in_o thou_o after_o have_v lose_v all_o creature_n for_o the_o love_n of_o abjection_n and_o find_v herself_o no_o where_n but_o in_o god_n be_v dead_a to_o all_o thing_n beside_o he_o o_o dear_a abandon_v thou_o be_v the_o disposition_n of_o disposition_n and_o all_o other_o do_v refer_v to_o thou_o happy_a be_v they_o that_o know_v thou_o be_v of_o more_o worth_n than_o all_o other_o grace_n a_o soul_n in_o abandon_v have_v a_o pure_a regard_n to_o god_n and_o be_v not_o concern_v but_o for_o his_o interest_n yea_o desire_v not_o abjection_n nor_o any_o thing_n else_o but_o god_n good_a pleasure_n few_o word_n can_v explicate_v the_o great_a effect_n that_o it_o work_v in_o the_o interiour_n to_o establish_v a_o soul_n perfect_o in_o god_n it_o be_v abandon_v that_o make_v her_o insensible_a in_o all_o kind_n of_o accident_n and_o nothing_o but_o the_o loss_n of_o abandon_v can_v afflict_v she_o you_o be_v admirable_a o_o my_o god_n you_o be_v admirable_a in_o your_o holy_a operation_n and_o assention_n that_o you_o make_v in_o soul_n who_o you_o conduct_v from_o light_n to_o light_v by_o your_o divine_a providence_n which_o be_v not_o know_v but_o by_o experience_n sometime_o it_o seem_v to_o i_o that_o the_o grace_n to_o love_v abjection_n be_v the_o high_a pitch_n but_o now_o i_o see_v that_o abandon_v mount_v the_o soul_n to_o a_o more_o elevate_a state_n o_o dear_a abandon_v thou_o doubtless_o will_v be_v the_o ultimate_a disposition_n i_o desire_v nothing_o but_o thou_o and_o death_n as_o the_o gate_n whereby_o to_o enter_v into_o a_o eternal_a abandon_v dear_a death_n how_o pleasant_a and_o lovely_a do_v thou_o seem_v unto_o i_o what_o allurement_n do_v i_o see_v in_o thou_o deliver_v i_o from_o my_o captivity_n that_o i_o may_v full_o enjoy_v my_o well-beloved_a however_o if_o thy_o come_n will_v interrupt_v my_o abandon_v come_v not_o for_o thou_o be_v nothing_o in_o comparison_n and_o all_o thy_o delight_n will_v be_v bitter_a to_o i_o o_o dear_a abandon_v thou_o be_v the_o belove_a of_o my_o heart_n which_o ardent_o breathe_v after_o thou_o but_o when_o shall_v i_o know_v that_o i_o possess_v thou_o perfect_o this_o shall_v be_v when_o the_o divine_a will_n shall_v reign_v perfect_o in_o i_o for_o my_o soul_n shall_v be_v establish_v in_o a_o entire_a indifferency_n to_o all_o event_n and_o mean_n of_o perfection_n when_o she_o shall_v have_v no_o other_o joy_n then_o in_o god_n no_o other_o content_n no_o other_o felicity_n our_o bless_a saviour_n say_v often_o to_o a_o soul_n abandon_v to_o his_o will_n think_v upon_o i_o and_o i_o will_v think_v upon_o
great_a so_o full_a of_o glory_n you_o come_v to_o humble_v yourself_o and_o to_o annihilate_v yourself_o in_o a_o soul_n so_o criminal_a so_o unfaithful_a it_o be_v true_a abjection_n be_v not_o inconsistent_a with_o the_o condition_n of_o your_o mortal_a life_n but_o since_o now_o you_o be_v in_o glory_n methinks_v you_o ought_v to_o be_v exempt_a from_o they_o if_o my_o soul_n have_v any_o love_n for_o your_o interest_n she_o will_v not_o procure_v you_o such_o humiliation_n and_o therefore_o she_o will_v do_v better_a not_o to_o communicate_v so_o often_o for_o than_o she_o will_v not_o be_v the_o occasion_n of_o humble_v you_o so_o often_o this_o sentiment_n join_v with_o the_o knowledge_n of_o my_o own_o unworthiness_n will_v make_v i_o abstain_v from_o communicate_v if_o i_o do_v not_o know_v withal_o that_o your_o delight_n be_v to_o be_v with_o such_o soul_n as_o desire_v likewise_o to_o take_v their_o delight_n in_o you_o and_o that_o you_o have_v say_v in_o st._n john_n that_o if_o we_o do_v not_o eat_v your_o adorable_a flesh_n we_o shall_v not_o have_v life_n in_o you_o when_o i_o consider_v my_o indignity_n and_o yet_o present_v myself_o to_o communicate_v with_o a_o soul_n that_o be_v a_o everflowing_a source_n of_o vice_n and_o sin_n i_o shall_v be_v very_o much_o afflict_v to_o see_v jesus_n christ_n so_o ill_o lodge_v in_o the_o midst_n of_o my_o imperfection_n not_o know_v in_o what_o part_n of_o my_o soul_n i_o may_v place_v he_o where_o he_o may_v not_o see_v thing_n unworthy_a of_o his_o presence_n this_o sight_n will_v doubtless_o cause_v i_o a_o great_a deal_n of_o pain_n if_o another_o regard_n do_v not_o encourage_v i_o i_o consider_v that_o when_o the_o sun_n enter_v into_o a_o stink_a and_z and_o offensive_a dungeon_n he_o be_v receive_v there_o more_o in_o his_o own_o brightness_n and_o lustre_n than_o in_o the_o dungeon_n itself_o and_o that_o so_o he_o be_v there_o without_o prejudice_v his_o grandeur_n or_o purity_n when_o i_o 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a_o state_n conformable_a to_o that_o of_o jesus_n christ_n in_o the_o bless_a sacrament_n jesus_n christ_n choose_v to_o give_v himself_o to_o we_o in_o this_o stupendous_a mystery_n in_o the_o state_n of_o death_n as_o to_o any_o thing_n that_o concern_v the_o life_n of_o the_o sense_n but_o as_o a_o fountain_n of_o life_n in_o regard_n of_o the_o interiour_n life_n a_o divine_a life_n a_o life_n of_o grace_n a_o life_n of_o contemplation_n and_o of_o continual_a application_n of_o the_o mind_n to_o adore_v the_o majesty_n of_o god_n his_o father_n a_o life_n i_o say_v poor_a and_o nothing_o to_o the_o exterior_a but_o shine_v with_o the_o divine_a and_o most_o awful_a lustre_n and_o infinite_o rich_a under_o the_o vail_n of_o the_o outward_a species_n that_o hide_v it_o from_o the_o eye_n of_o the_o world_n thus_o and_o with_o these_o disposition_n he_o present_v himself_o to_o we_o require_v that_o we_o likewise_o present_v ourselves_o unto_o he_o with_o disposition_n conformable_a 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