of_o my_o own_o righteousness_n rom._n 6._o 14._o tit._n 3._o 5._o but_o i_o be_o under_o the_o law_n of_o my_o own_o lord_n which_o be_v to_o receive_v he_o and_o own_o his_o righteousness_n as_o my_o own_o for_o he_o be_v the_o lord_n my_o righteousness_n when_o i_o believe_v than_o i_o obey_v for_o i_o be_o command_v to_o believe_v in_o the_o name_n of_o the_o only_o beget_v son_n of_o god_n when_o i_o cast_v myself_o on_o he_o that_o fulfil_v the_o whole_a law_n than_o i_o fulfil_v the_o whole_a law_n when_o i_o cast_v myself_o on_o his_o righteousness_n i_o be_o in_o god_n sight_n as_o white_a as_o snow_n my_o sin_n in_o this_o new_a state_n be_v rather_o account_v my_o disease_n than_o my_o fault_n for_o if_o i_o be_o not_o my_o own_o my_o sin_n be_v not_o my_o own_o but_o account_v he_o who_o love_v i_o and_o wash_v i_o in_o his_o blood_n this_o obedience_n of_o faith_n have_v the_o sight_n of_o christ_n fullness_n and_o the_o promise_n of_o the_o new_a covenant_n to_o lean_v upon_o and_o so_o it_o take_v its_o journey_n from_o flesh_n to_o spirit_n from_o weakness_n to_o strength_n in_o the_o name_n of_o the_o lord_n and_o from_o this_o obedience_n in_o believe_v which_o be_v the_o high_a and_o mysterious_a obedience_n proceed_v all_o manner_n of_o holiness_n as_o the_o fruit_n thereof_o which_o receive_v their_o sap_n from_o this_o root_n this_o root_n make_v they_o to_o be_v live_v obedience_n as_o branch_n from_o the_o same_o root_n child_n of_o the_o same_o parent_n the_o first_o subjection_n be_v to_o the_o righteousness_n of_o christ_n person_n to_o submit_v all_o fear_n and_o gild_n to_o the_o fullness_n of_o pardon_n and_o life_n that_o be_v in_o he_o as_o the_o storehouse_n and_o there_o to_o enjoy_v it_o in_o the_o enjoy_n of_o he_o and_o then_o by_o the_o spirit_n of_o life_n which_o be_v in_o christ_n the_o soul_n with_o freedom_n act_v forth_o answerable_o in_o some_o measure_n to_o such_o a_o renew_a state_n from_o whence_o all_o action_n of_o holiness_n be_v call_v the_o fruit_n of_o faith_n and_o fruit_n of_o righteousness_n phil._n 1._o 11._o 2_o cor._n 9_o 10._o col._n 1._o 6._o 2_o pet._n 1._o 4_o 5_o 6_o 7_o 8._o after_o my_o return_n from_o deliver_v one_o of_o faith_n dark_a day_n and_o yet_o deliver_v i_o find_v sore_a breach_n make_v upon_o my_o soul_n my_o inward_a man_n have_v suffer_v loss_n while_o i_o travel_v up_o and_o down_o my_o soul_n be_v violent_o shake_v the_o band_n of_o the_o wicked_a one_o conspire_v with_o my_o wicked_a heart_n and_o carry_v away_o my_o treacherous_a soul_n so_o that_o my_o glory_n be_v captivate_v into_o the_o enemy_n hand_n a_o wind_n from_o the_o wilderness_n lay_v i_o in_o confusion_n the_o tempest_n prevail_v and_o i_o suffer_v shipwreck_n all_o my_o own_o feeble_a endeavour_n and_o former_a meditation_n give_v way_n and_o the_o rage_a sea_n of_o filthy_a and_o foolish_a thought_n do_v beat_v sore_o upon_o i_o my_o ship_n of_o former_a resolution_n of_o heart_n and_o my_o 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of_o peace_n which_o god_n make_v my_o unbelief_n and_o disobedience_n can_v make_v the_o faith_n of_o god_n to_o be_v of_o no_o effect_n i_o will_v have_v live_v upon_o grace_n and_o strength_n receive_v and_o i_o tremble_v to_o see_v those_o selfish_a confidence_n shake_v to_o the_o earth_n but_o now_o methinks_v christ_n call_v i_o again_o from_o my_o father_n house_n and_o promise_v i_o a_o better_a name_n than_o that_o of_o son_n and_o daughter_n of_o my_o own_o a_o name_n in_o himself_o a_o offspring_n in_o himself_o psal_n 45._o 16._o isa_n 56._o 5._o which_o shall_v not_o be_v cut_v off_o i_o have_v have_v a_o sentence_n of_o death_n in_o myself_o that_o i_o may_v not_o trust_v any_o more_o in_o myself_o but_o in_o god_n who_o raise_v the_o dead_a i_o be_o a_o dry_a tree_n but_o he_o who_o be_v raise_v from_o the_o dead_a be_v a_o green_a tree_n and_o in_o he_o be_v my_o fruit_n find_v o_o the_o mystery_n and_o power_n of_o this_o salvation_n wherewith_o i_o be_o save_v o_o that_o i_o may_v pass_v as_o it_o be_v through_o the_o eye_n of_o a_o needle_n into_o christ_n power_n and_o there_o rest_n from_o the_o day_n of_o adversity_n and_o this_o rest_n be_v glorious_a because_o it_o be_v uncompounded_a it_o receive_v no_o ingredient_n from_o abroad_o it_o be_v single_o make_v up_o of_o christ_n and_o in_o he_o alone_o venture_v o_o my_o soul_n upon_o this_o naked_a arm_n for_o it_o be_v a_o arm_n of_o faithfulness_n and_o mercy_n this_o strength_n alone_o be_v a_o fountain_n of_o strength_n this_o be_v the_o river_n who_o stream_n make_v glad_a the_o city_n of_o god_n will_v thou_o not_o be_v undo_v o_o my_o soul_n that_o thou_o may_v be_v save_v how_o long_o will_v thou_o set_v up_o thy_o post_n by_o the_o pillar_n of_o that_o salvation_n which_o be_v wrought_v in_o god_n for_o thou_o and_o wrought_v in_o thou_o by_o single_a union_n with_o god_n in_o jesus_n christ_n be_v not_o his_o arm_n strong_a than_o thou_o be_v thou_o translate_v by_o faith_n into_o divine_a strength_n let_v not_o thy_o wine_n be_v mix_v with_o water_n thy_o confidence_n be_v reject_v make_v a_o voyage_n to_o the_o everlasting_a hill_n enter_v into_o the_o mount_n of_o god_n thou_o have_v break_v both_o the_o table_n of_o the_o covenant_n and_o yet_o the_o prince_n of_o the_o same_o covenant_n live_v wait_v for_o the_o spirit_n to_o draw_v it_o over_o again_o and_o again_o by_o the_o indelible_a character_n of_o his_o own_o finger_n who_o live_v to_o enliven_v thou_o for_o ever_o how_o hard_o be_v it_o to_o depart_v from_o self_n from_o righteous_a self_n and_o sinful_a self_n i_o be_o wound_v by_o sinful_a self_n that_o i_o may_v flee_v from_o righteous_a self_n and_o sinful_a self_n also_o and_o cast_v anchor_n only_o within_o the_o valerius_n i_o be_o weary_a of_o the_o instability_n of_o the_o stream_n oh_o let_v i_o go_v to_o the_o fountain_n when_o i_o be_o say_v i_o shall_v die_v in_o my_o nest_n my_o nest_n be_v soon_o fire_v about_o my_o ear_n and_o turn_v to_o ash_n certain_o there_o be_v a_o better_a rest_n than_o this_o and_o it_o lie_v in_o trust_v christ_n and_o trust_v in_o he_o only_o i_o both_o trust_n christ_n and_o trust_v in_o christ_n when_o i_o believe_v that_o he_o be_v the_o standard_n of_o all_o save_a righteousness_n communicable_a to_o man_n and_o all_o my_o righteousness_n and_o holiness_n be_v but_o the_o reflection_n of_o he_o i_o trust_v in_o christ_n when_o i_o live_v resigned_o at_o his_o foot_n to_o be_v make_v holy_a and_o whatsoever_o composure_n of_o heart_n i_o do_v at_o any_o time_n receive_v i_o do_v not_o nor_o can_v hold_v it_o but_o it_o be_v hold_v by_o he_o while_o it_o remain_v and_o when_o it_o withdraw_v it_o live_v in_o the_o root_n for_o i_o i_o be_o ready_a to_o think_v if_o i_o have_v all_o grace_n in_o my_o own_o dispose_n i_o will_v manage_v they_o to_o the_o glory_n of_o god_n but_o how_o can_v god_n be_v glorify_v more_o than_o in_o a_o holy_a content_a to_o live_v at_o his_o allowance_n all_o his_o design_n be_v to_o allure_v i_o and_o so_o to_o force_v i_o out_o of_o myself_o to_o live_v in_o he_o as_o well_o as_o to_o live_v by_o he_o he_o bestow_v his_o grace_n within_o door_n i_o must_v not_o take_v his_o grace_n to_o myself_o to_o put_v it_o to_o usury_n for_o increase_n but_o must_v fetch_v the_o increase_n as_o well_o as_o the_o principal_a from_o he_o by_o union_n with_o he_o through_o jesus_n christ_n and_o my_o work_n be_v to_o rest_v on_o his_o faithfulness_n wisdom_n willingness_n and_o readiness_n to_o supply_v i_o as_o if_o every_o grace_n of_o the_o spirit_n be_v full_o in_o
though_o not_o particular_o at_o this_o time_n rehearse_v for_o every_o good_a thing_n for_o my_o soul_n and_o body_n here_o and_o hereafter_o as_o far_o as_o ever_o the_o purpose_n of_o thy_o grace_n extend_v when_o thou_o say_v i_o will_v be_v thy_o god_n and_o that_o all_o that_o goodness_n and_o truth_n may_v follow_v i_o all_o my_o day_n and_o for_o ever_o rom._n 8._o 32._o and_o i_o willing_o offer_v up_o myself_o to_o thy_o whole_a will_n as_o thou_o shall_v from_o time_n to_o time_n reveal_v it_o in_o the_o same_o word_n of_o thy_o grace_n and_o do_v covenant_n subjection_n thereto_o in_o thy_o strength_n through_o the_o mediation_n of_o jesus_n christ_n and_o supply_v of_o thy_o spirit_n and_o upon_o thy_o own_o encouragement_n in_o thy_o promise_n make_v to_o i_o in_o that_o same_o covenant_n which_o thou_o make_v with_o my_o father_n abraham_n and_o seal_v it_o to_o he_o and_o his_o seed_n that_o thou_o will_v be_v his_o god_n and_o the_o god_n of_o his_o seed_n and_o cause_v the_o manchild_n of_o eight_o day_n old_a to_o receive_v the_o sign_n of_o that_o covenant_n in_o his_o flesh_n which_o blessing_n thou_o have_v now_o bring_v over_o to_o i_o a_o gentile_a by_o christ_n in_o who_o thou_o say_v jew_n and_o greek_n male_a and_o female_a be_v all_o one_o in_o christ_n i_o do_v again_o offer_v up_o my_o child_n who_o have_v be_v already_o baptize_v into_o thy_o name_n rely_v on_o thou_o to_o make_v good_a thy_o covenant_n in_o christ_n to_o she_o together_o with_o myself_o in_o every_o branch_n thereof_o which_o i_o have_v through_o thy_o favour_n and_o grace_n enter_v into_o and_o spread_v before_o thou_o this_o day_n that_o she_o also_o may_v have_v a_o place_n in_o thy_o house_n and_o partake_v of_o all_o the_o privilege_n and_o inheritance_n of_o thy_o choose_a and_o now_o o_o lord_n god_n what_o shall_v i_o say_v to_o thou_o who_o be_o i_o and_o what_o be_v my_o house_n that_o thou_o have_v bring_v i_o hitherto_o all_o praise_v be_v to_o thy_o 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the_o begin_n of_o the_o world_n who_o have_v be_v pursue_v i_o and_o do_v never_o give_v over_o till_o thou_o have_v convince_v my_o heart_n and_o conquer_v my_o will_n to_o a_o willing_a surrender_n of_o myself_o up_o to_o and_o a_o lay_v hold_n upon_o the_o covenant_n of_o grace_n hold_v forth_o to_o sinner_n in_o the_o volume_n of_o thy_o book_n now_o o_o lord_n god_n let_v all_o the_o word_n of_o thy_o grace_n be_v effectual_o apply_v and_o establish_v to_o i_o thy_o servant_n pardon_v all_o my_o sin_n and_o my_o fail_n and_o all_o my_o unsuitableness_n of_o heart_n while_o i_o have_v be_v before_o thou_o muse_v and_o take_v thy_o name_n and_o covenant_n in_o my_o mouth_n and_o write_v it_o with_o my_o own_o hand_n in_o thy_o presence_n and_o as_o a_o fruit_n of_o thy_o covenant-grace_n and_o truth_n let_v my_o approach_n to_o thou_o be_v accept_v and_o prosper_v for_o which_o end_n i_o have_v deliver_v up_o myself_o and_o all_o that_o be_v i_o with_o full_a purpose_n of_o heart_n according_a to_o all_o that_o i_o have_v say_v before_o thou_o this_o day_n and_o with_o a_o holy_a awe_n of_o thy_o presence_n in_o this_o great_a work_n in_o confidence_n and_o hope_n of_o thy_o pardon_v succour_v and_o assist_v grace_n i_o lie_v at_o the_o footstool_n of_o thy_o mercy_n and_o call_v heaven_n and_o earth_n to_o witness_v that_o i_o have_v choose_v thou_o to_o be_v my_o god_n and_o thy_o will_n in_o all_o thing_n to_o be_v my_o inheritance_n and_o my_o delight_n and_o the_o matter_n of_o my_o pursuance_n all_o my_o day_n upon_o the_o ground_n and_o promise_v which_o thou_o have_v say_v hos_fw-la 2._o 23._o i_o will_v say_v to_o they_o which_o be_v not_o my_o people_n thou_o be_v my_o people_n and_o they_o shall_v say_v thou_o be_v my_o god_n i_o have_v say_v it_o and_o do_v say_v it_o and_o do_v leave_v this_o covenant_n in_o the_o hand_n of_o my_o mediator_n to_o see_v it_o fulfil_v to_o i_o and_o by_o i_o through_o all_o the_o day_n of_o my_o infirmity_n and_o warfare_n till_o i_o come_v to_o behold_v his_o face_n as_o he_o be_v and_o this_o vile_a body_n of_o i_o be_v make_v like_o to_o his_o glorious_a body_n in_o reliance_n on_o which_o relief_n and_o bless_a hope_n and_o help_v i_o cling_v upon_o this_o covenant_n of_o free_a grace_n in_o which_o i_o do_v both_o take_v and_o give_v as_o i_o have_v say_v and_o do_v subscribe_v it_o irrevocable_o with_o my_o hand_n henry_n dorney_n do_v not_o say_v o_o grumble_a unbelief_n unbelief_n the_o soul_n chide_v unbelief_n that_o these_o be_v nothing_o but_o compile_v word_n of_o humane_a invention_n i_o tell_v thou_o as_o far_o as_o they_o be_v only_o my_o invention_n i_o do_v loath_a they_o but_o the_o spirit_n of_o god_n do_v witness_n with_o my_o spirit_n that_o among_o these_o word_n there_o have_v be_v some_o hunger_n after_o god_n some_o awe_n of_o his_o presence_n some_o love_n to_o be_v his_o devote_a servant_n some_o prize_v of_o the_o excellency_n of_o a_o pure_a life_n of_o faith_n some_o holy_a conviction_n of_o the_o importance_n and_o necessity_n at_o least_o of_o such_o a_o attempt_n as_o this_o to_o bring_v god_n and_o my_o soul_n near_o together_o and_o therefore_o though_o there_o be_v much_o chaffiness_n of_o a_o dead_a heart_n yet_o i_o can_v gratify_v my_o doubt_n and_o unbelief_n so_o far_o as_o to_o conclude_v there_o be_v no_o wheat_n in_o the_o heap_n and_o i_o refer_v myself_o desirous_o and_o willing_o to_o the_o heart-knowing_a eye_n of_o he_o who_o have_v his_o fan_n in_o his_o hand_n to_o blow_v away_o all_o the_o chaff_n from_o my_o thought_n and_o word_n and_o to_o create_v in_o i_o a_o clean_a heart_n and_o pure_a language_n also_o and_o to_o gather_v what_o there_o be_v of_o secret_a pant_a after_o he_o into_o his_o own_o garner_n and_o put_v my_o inward_a groan_n after_o he_o how_o weak_a and_o faint_a soever_o into_o his_o bottle_n and_o therefore_o i_o must_v and_o by_o his_o help_n will_v praise_v he_o for_o any_o crumb_n that_o fall_v 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the_o spouse_n and_o he_o the_o husband_n they_o the_o child_n he_o the_o father_n they_o the_o flock_n he_o the_o shepherd_n they_o the_o husbandry_n he_o the_o husbandman_n they_o the_o workmanship_n he_o the_o worker_n they_o the_o clay_n he_o the_o potter_n each_o relation_n import_v the_o duty_n of_o they_o who_o be_v thus_o many_o way_n relate_v unto_o god_n all_o which_o administer_v matter_n for_o several_a query_n by_o way_n of_o trial_n whether_o god_n be_v i_o and_o i_o be_o he_o if_o i_o be_o he_o he_o must_v necessary_o be_v i_o according_a to_o the_o tenor_n of_o the_o covenant_n and_o therefore_o let_v i_o propound_v some_o question_n to_o my_o own_o soul_n issue_v from_o the_o former_a consideration_n that_o i_o may_v know_v that_o i_o be_o i_o own_o no_o long_o but_o the_o lord_n and_o that_o he_o be_v i_o for_o make_v way_n to_o these_o query_n it_o be_v to_o be_v consider_v that_o the_o scripture_n do_v speak_v of_o several_a state_n of_o mankind_n in_o the_o world_n 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luk._n 19_o 10._o and_o alienate_v from_o the_o life_n of_o god_n ephes_n 4._o 18._o and_o such_o like_a and_o treat_v chief_o and_o most_o direct_o of_o the_o other_o viz._n sin_n redemption_n and_o holiness_n this_o be_v that_o which_o the_o spirit_n be_v promise_v to_o convince_v the_o world_n of_o joh._n 16._o 8._o the_o state_n of_o sin_n under_o unbelief_n and_o of_o redemption_n and_o righteousness_n by_o christ_n crucify_v and_o rise_v who_o testify_v and_o assure_v by_o his_o go_v to_o his_o father_n that_o he_o obtain_v eternal_a redemption_n heb._n 9_o 12._o and_o the_o state_n of_o conquest_n over_o
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1_o cor._n 6._o 9_o gal._n 5._o 19_o 20_o etc._n etc._n ephes_n 2._o 12._o and_o 4._o 18_o 19_o 2_o tim._n 3._o 2._o and_o such_o like_a your_o nature_n be_v in_o some_o degree_n or_o other_o taint_v with_o it_o and_o because_o this_o may_v seem_v harsh_a and_o strange_a 1._o consider_v as_o far_o as_o any_o man_n have_v the_o nature_n of_o adam_n he_o have_v the_o corruption_n of_o that_o nature_n and_o as_o far_o as_o all_o be_v equal_a in_o their_o descent_n from_o adam_n so_o far_o be_v all_o equal_a in_o the_o corruption_n of_o that_o descent_n all_o guilty_a every_o mouth_n must_v be_v stop_v death_n come_v upon_o all_o rom._n 3._o 19_o and_o 5._o 12_o 18._o 2._o consider_v that_o though_o restrain_v grace_n or_o mortify_v grace_n may_v curb_v weaken_v and_o subdue_v sinful_a corruption_n yet_o it_o retain_v its_o dwell_n in_o the_o flesh_n rom._n 7._o 25._o and_o though_o the_o righteousness_n of_o christ_n be_v impute_v to_o the_o person_n yet_o the_o corrupt_a nature_n of_o 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nature_n that_o dwell_v in_o we_o natural_a conscience_n education_n constitution_n profession_n of_o religion_n moral_a consideration_n of_o fear_n shame_n or_o the_o like_a may_v curb_v the_o work_n of_o corruption_n in_o some_o measure_n but_o can_v extinguish_v the_o pollution_n of_o sin_n from_o the_o heart_n but_o more_o particular_o in_o reference_n to_o god_n be_v there_o not_o great_a ignorance_n and_o contempt_n of_o he_o be_v not_o sin_n of_o thought_n more_o slight_v than_o sin_v visible_a and_o be_v there_o not_o more_o shame_n for_o a_o small_a miscarriage_n in_o the_o sight_n of_o man_n than_o great_a miscarriage_n in_o the_o sight_n of_o god_n what_o customary_a ignorance_n of_o all_o his_o attribute_n how_o little_a be_v he_o the_o object_n of_o the_o heart_n love_n desire_v esteem_v and_o meditation_n be_v not_o the_o heart_n more_o intent_n on_o other_o thing_n how_o little_a be_v he_o the_o motive_n and_o end_n of_o what_o we_o do_v be_v serve_v and_o please_v he_o the_o heart_n design_n in_o all_o thing_n in_o worship_n be_v not_o the_o heart_n formal_a cold_a and_o wander_v be_v not_o conviction_n stifle_v and_o the_o impression_n of_o the_o word_n of_o god_n quick_o go_v be_v there_o serious_a preparation_n for_o the_o ordinance_n and_o due_a meditation_n afterward_o be_v the_o heart_n glad_a when_o the_o word_n reprove_v as_o well_o as_o when_o it_o hear_v word_n of_o comfort_n as_o for_o man_n be_v not_o the_o course_n of_o the_o world_n the_o opinion_n of_o other_o and_o their_o esteem_n of_o great_a value_n be_v their_o sin_n my_o burden_n be_v there_o not_o envy_n hatred_n want_v of_o sympathy_n evil_n surmise_n etc._n etc._n as_o for_o my_o own_o soul_n be_v not_o my_o heart_n rash_a vain_a inconsiderate_a my_o understanding_n dark_a my_o affection_n loose_a and_o scatter_a and_o memory_n slippery_a and_o all_o out_o of_o order_n do_v you_o not_o discern_v the_o weaken_n nature_n of_o sin_n that_o it_o suck_v the_o strength_n of_o the_o soul_n the_o deceitfulness_n of_o it_o the_o deadn_v blind_a and_o destructive_a nature_n of_o it_o and_o the_o perfection_n of_o divine_a wrath_n that_o attend_v it_o and_o now_o do_v all_o this_o make_v thou_o o_o my_o soul_n cry_v out_o o_o wretched_a man_n that_o i_o be_o and_o do_v it_o make_v thou_o a_o burden_n to_o thyself_o job_n 7._o 20._o as_o job_n cry_v out_o do_v thou_o see_v a_o bottomless_a deceit_n and_o desolation_n in_o thy_o nature_n as_o it_o be_v in_o its_o self_n corrupt_v and_o by_o circumstance_n aggravate_v and_o be_v total_o refugeless_a do_v thou_o lay_v the_o hope_n of_o thy_o help_n upon_o a_o mighty_a redeemer_n if_o so_o thou_o have_v attain_v one_o round_a at_o least_o of_o that_o bless_a ladder_n which_o lead_v thou_o up_o to_o the_o fruition_n of_o that_o renew_a state_n in_o which_o thou_o be_v god_n and_o he_o be_v thou_o job_n 33._o 23_o to_o 31._o 1_o king_n 8._o 38._o iii_o in_o lay_v hold_n on_o christ_n for_o redemption_n 1._o do_v i_o see_v i_o can_v help_v myself_o nor_o any_o other_o creature_n help_v i_o isa_n 59_o 16._o psal_n 49._o 7._o that_o none_o can_v redeem_v his_o brother_n nor_o give_v to_o god_n a_o ransom_n for_o he_o 2._o that_o salvation_n be_v only_o of_o god_n hos_n 14._o 3._o his_o arm_n etc._n etc._n 3._o that_o in_o free_a mercy_n he_o send_v christ_n to_o save_v joh._n 3._o 16._o 4._o that_o christ_n undertake_v this_o salvation_n heb._n 10._o 7._o and_o perform_v it_o heb._n 9_o 12._o 5._o that_o i_o be_o partaker_n of_o it_o by_o mere_a faith_n ephes_n 2._o 8._o 6._o do_v i_o lay_v my_o whole_a weight_n upon_o this_o saviour_n isa_n 64._o 8._o 7._o do_v my_o heart_n account_v he_o willing_a isa_n 63._o 9_o