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comformity_n to_o all_o his_o state_n this_o divine_a light_n discover_v to_o i_o a_o great_a many_o verity_n very_o important_a for_o my_o direction_n and_o conduct_n 1._o that_o we_o be_v never_o to_o be_v without_o suffering_n for_o the_o spirit_n of_o christianity_n be_v the_o spirit_n of_o the_o cross_n the_o grace_n that_o feed_v and_o support_v it_o be_v the_o fruit_n of_o the_o cross_n and_o the_o adorable_a bread_n so_o full_a of_o delight_n inspire_v no_o other_o sentiment_n than_o those_o of_o the_o cross_n venite_fw-la mittamus_fw-la lignum_fw-la in_o panem_fw-la ejus_fw-la 2._o that_o as_o jesus_n manifest_v the_o purity_n of_o the_o love_n he_o bear_v we_o by_o die_v for_o we_o upon_o the_o cross_n so_o ought_v we_o to_o prove_v the_o sincerity_n of_o we_o by_o nail_v it_o to_o the_o cross_n 3_o that_o he_o work_v our_o salvation_n by_o the_o only_a mean_n of_o suffer_v therefore_o it_o be_v a_o manifest_a deceit_n to_o hope_v that_o we_o can_v cooperate_v towards_o our_o 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