wherein_o we_o judge_v amiss_o and_o whereupon_o we_o ground_n our_o particular_a fear_n for_o that_o be_v the_o easy_a way_n to_o remove_v they_o 8._o let_v we_o weigh_v the_o virtue_n of_o the_o physic_n we_o the_o virtue_n of_o the_o physic_n which_o must_v cure_v we_o which_o must_v cure_v our_o disease_n to_o wit_n first_o the_o infinite_a goodness_n of_o god_n and_o christ_n merit_n and_o what_o soul_n can_v fear_v have_v so_o gracious_a a_o god_n and_o so_o great_a a_o ransom_n 2._o the_o credit_n and_o compassion_n of_o the_o bless_a virgin_n and_o the_o prayer_n and_o patronage_n of_o saint_n and_o angel_n who_o be_v secure_a for_o themselves_o be_v solicitous_a for_o we_o 3._o the_o testimony_n and_o sweet_a promise_n of_o holy_a scripture_n for_o how_o often_o have_v god_n tell_v we_o i_o be_o prone_a to_o pity_v i_o be_o ready_a to_o receive_v sinner_n i_o will_v help_v they_o who_o do_v their_o endeavour_n if_o therefore_o he_o deny_v not_o his_o mercy_n to_o they_o that_o 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good_a how_o dare_v we_o trust_v our_o soul_n upon_o his_o warrant_n gerson_n answer_v thou_o wiâ—e_v answer_n gerson_n answer_n judger_n i_o say_v thou_o err_v and_o aâ—â—_n deceive_v for_o thou_o have_v not_o commit_v thyself_o and_o thy_o soul_n to_o a_o man_n because_o of_o his_o discretion_n and_o learning_n but_o to_o god_n himself_o and_o for_o his_o love_n thou_o obeye_v man_n because_o he_o be_v by_o he_o ordain_v thy_o prelate_n and_o superior_n therefore_o our_o obedience_n will_v be_v oftentimes_o so_o much_o more_o please_v to_o god_n and_o profitable_a to_o our_o soul_n by_o how_o much_o more_o infirm_a and_o unworthy_a he_o be_v who_o we_o refuse_v not_o to_o obey_v for_o god_n sake_n the_o other_o difficulty_n be_v if_o we_o difficulty_n the_o second_o difficulty_n can_v satisfy_v ourselves_o that_o we_o do_v our_o best_a endeavour_n nor_o know_v that_o we_o have_v perform_v our_o duty_n s._n thomas_n answer_v we_o must_v answer_n st._n thomas_n answer_n first_o remove_v that_o which_o hinder_v grace_n to_o wit_n sin_n 2._o we_o must_v convert_v our_o heart_n from_o creature_n to_o our_o creator_n in_o a_o word_n we_o must_v detest_v sin_n and_o choose_v god_n and_o follow_v his_o ordinary_a mean_n appoint_v in_o his_o church_n for_o our_o direction_n and_o this_o be_v the_o summary_n of_o our_o duty_n the_o 22._o doubt_n if_o we_o fear_v we_o detest_v not_o sin_n sufficient_o because_o we_o feel_v not_o so_o great_a sorrow_n for_o the_o offence_n of_o god_n as_o we_o do_v sometime_o for_o a_o temporal_a loss_n let_v we_o assure_v ourselves_o first_o we_o can_v never_o have_v so_o much_o sorrow_n for_o our_o sin_n as_o god_n justice_n in_o rigour_n require_v 2._o god_n do_v not_o exact_v it_o of_o we_o because_o it_o be_v not_o in_o our_o power_n 3._o true_a sorrow_n consist_v not_o in_o feeling_n but_o in_o reason_n and_o freewill_n 4._o it_o be_v better_a to_o have_v sorrow_n sometime_o only_o in_o desire_n than_o feeling_n 5._o it_o be_v not_o necessary_a this_o corporal_a or_o sensible_a grief_n be_v so_o great_a for_o spiritual_a as_o for_o temporal_a loss_n but_o it_o suffice_v to_o use_v humane_a and_o moral_a diligence_n with_o firm_a purpose_n of_o a_o void_a sin_n 6._o it_o l_v dangerous_a to_o make_v such_o comparison_n and_o reflection_n for_o weak_a and_o fearful_a conscience_n as_o if_o such_o a_o thing_n shall_v happen_v what_o shall_v i_o do_v shall_v i_o rather_o choose_v death_n than_o such_o a_o sin_n and_o the_o like_a i_o say_v there_o be_v no_o obligation_n to_o make_v such_o act_n the_o 23._o doubt_n if_o we_o can_v ground_v ourselves_o in_o a_o firm_a hope_n of_o mercy_n for_o that_o we_o be_v so_o frail_a and_o inconstant_a we_o sin_v daily_o and_o amend_v not_o our_o life_n we_o receive_v god_n blessing_n and_o repay_v ill_a for_o good_a we_o promise_v protest_v and_o vow_v fidelity_n and_o practice_v nothing_o less_o tell_v i_o afflict_a soul_n shall_v you_o see_v christ_n die_v daily_o for_o your_o daily_a sin_n will_v you_o despair_v of_o mercy_n even_o so_o efficacious_a be_v his_o former_a death_n if_o you_o fall_v hourly_o rise_v again_o courageous_o and_o purpose_n to_o stand_v more_o constant_o and_o fear_v nothing_o but_o draw_v humility_n out_o of_o your_o frailty_n say_v whereof_o be_o i_o proud_a now_o where_o be_v my_o strong_a resolution_n why_o do_v i_o judge_v other_o who_o be_v so_o feeble_a sickle_n frail_a as_o i_o be_o o_o lord_n this_o be_v the_o worm_n that_o be_v so_o proud_a then_o cast_v â—ll_o into_o christ_n sacred_a wound_n and_o leave_v all_o there_o go_v on_o with_o as_o much_o quiet_a and_o confidence_n as_o if_o you_o have_v not_o sin_v the_o 24._o doubt_n if_o we_o go_v not_o on_o which_o the_o alacrity_n because_o we_o know_v not_o that_o our_o sin_n be_v forgive_v that_o our_o confession_n be_v good_a and_o that_o we_o be_v in_o state_n of_o grace_n we_o must_v take_v notice_n that_o in_o seek_v these_o assurance_n we_o may_v oftentimes_o direct_o lose_v they_o 1._o in_o seek_v they_o too_o eager_o and_o unquiet_o 2._o in_o be_v self-lover_n and_o unwilling_a to_o be_v trouble_v 3._o in_o be_v ignorant_a of_o what_o we_o be_v bind_v to_o know_v for_o it_o seem_v we_o conceive_v those_o work_n nothing_o worth_a which_o be_v perform_v without_o gust_n content_n satisfaction_n to_o ourselves_o and_o quiet_a the_o way_n than_o be_v brief_o this_o 1._o to_o seek_v true_a peace_n 2._o in_o god_n 3._o from_o his_o mercy_n not_o our_o own_o industry_n 4._o to_o be_v resign_v to_o want_v peace_n if_o he_o please_v 5._o to_o omit_v nothing_o we_o will_v or_o shall_v do_v by_o reason_n of_o the_o trouble_n we_o feel_v the_o 25._o doubt_n though_o we_o can_v in_o this_o life_n assure_v ourselves_o infallible_o to_o be_v in_o good_a estate_n yet_o if_o we_o can_v comfort_v ourselves_o with_o most_o probable_a token_n of_o grace_n whereby_o we_o may_v feel_v the_o pulse_n of_o our_o heart_n and_o somewhat_o ease_v our_o anguish_n saint_n thomas_n and_o s._n bernard_n assign_v bernard_n 4._o sign_n of_o a_o good_a conscience_n out_o of_o s._n tho._n and_o bernard_n these_o four_o sign_n of_o a_o good_a conscience_n 1._o to_o feel_v a_o ready_a willingness_n in_o our_o heart_n to_o hear_v god_n word_n and_o to_o learn_v the_o mean_n to_o love_n and_o serve_v he_o 2._o to_o feel_v a_o forwardness_n to_o do_v good_a work_n 3._o to_o feel_v a_o hearty_a sorrow_n for_o the_o offence_n of_o god_n 4._o to_o feel_v a_o firm_a purpose_n to_o avoid_v all_o sin_n gerson_n add_v a_o five_o who_o so_o can_v verity_n a_o â—_o out_o of_o gerson_n to_o pronounce_v these_o three_o verity_n pronounce_v hearty_o and_o sincere_o these_o three_o verity_n though_o he_o have_v commit_v all_o sin_n and_o shall_v be_v prevent_v with_o sudden_a death_n let_v he_o secure_v himself_o he_o be_v in_o state_n of_o grace_n the_o first_o verity_n o_o lord_n if_o in_o soul_n oh_o that_o we_o will_v often_o recite_v these_o three_o truth_n especial_o when_o we_o feel_v our_o conscience_n burden_a what_o infinite_a profit_n and_o comfort_n will_v redound_v to_o our_o soul_n this_o or_o that_o i_o have_v sin_v against_o thy_o goodness_n it_o true_o displease_v and_o grieve_v i_o and_o i_o be_o ready_a to_o do_v penance_n for_o it_o because_o i_o have_v offend_v thou_o who_o be_v worthy_a of_o all_o honour_n and_o have_v transgress_v thy_o law_n and_o will_n which_o be_v most_o holy_a just_a and_o reasonable_a the_o second_o verity_n o_o lord_n i_o have_v a_o good_a purpose_n and_o desire_v by_o thy_o grace_n to_o take_v heed_n i_o fall_v not_o into_o sin_n again_o and_o to_o avoid_v to_o my_o power_n the_o occasion_n thereof_o and_o to_o mortify_v my_o passion_n and_o bad_a
sincere_a affection_n when_o shall_v i_o o_o only_a life_n of_o my_o soul_n relinquish_v all_o self-will_n and_o vanquish_v all_o my_o passion_n and_o imperfection_n 8._o in_o these_o and_o the_o like_a devotion_n thou_o may_v spend_v the_o evening_n and_o morning_n to_o excite_v cherish_v and_o increase_v thy_o desire_n to_o receive_v thy_o dear_a saviour_n that_o so_o thou_o may_v perfect_o please_v he_o and_o be_v most_o happy_o unite_v unto_o he_o and_o in_o thy_o pious_a practice_n of_o these_o thing_n take_v this_o caveat_n be_v sure_a to_o keep_v each_o power_n and_o faculty_n of_o thy_o soul_n pure_a and_o curiosity_n but_o take_v heed_n of_o vanity_n and_o curiosity_n free_a from_o all_o curiosity_n of_o worldly_a thing_n and_o from_o all_o idle_a and_o vain_a thought_n take_v also_o the_o like_a care_n of_o thy_o outward_a sense_n lest_o thy_o heart_n steal_v out_o by_o they_o and_o so_o thou_o lose_v all_o thy_o devotion_n explication_n the_o time_n of_o the_o sacred_a communion_n communion_n at_o the_o time_n near_o the_o communion_n draw_v nigh_o think_v thou_o be_v to_o receive_v the_o lord_n who_o create_v this_o great_a universe_n and_o thou_o to_o his_o own_o likeness_n the_o son_n of_o god_n who_o die_v for_o thou_o nâ—ked_a on_o the_o do_v 1._o think_v what_o thou_o be_v go_v to_o do_v cross_n that_o increase_v goodness_n which_o have_v so_o often_o free_v thou_o from_o danger_n death_n and_o damnation_n which_o thy_o sin_n deserve_v thank_v he_o with_o most_o profound_a thank_v thank_v humility_n and_o adore_v he_o unite_n implore_v adore_v implore_v all_o thy_o spirit_n and_o force_n of_o body_n and_o soul_n together_o as_o true_a god_n and_o true_a man_n beg_v also_o his_o pardon_n for_o thy_o fault_n and_o that_o the_o same_o love_n which_o move_v he_o to_o grant_v thou_o this_o great_a gift_n may_v also_o induce_v he_o to_o purge_v thy_o soul_n from_o the_o stain_n of_o all_o sin_n and_o uncleanness_n thereby_o dispose_v it_o to_o a_o more_o pure_a and_o perfect_a union_n with_o his_o divine_a majesty_n when_o the_o priest_n pronounce_v those_o sacred_a word_n domine_fw-la non_fw-la say_v when_o domine_fw-la non_fw-la sum_fw-la dignus_fw-la be_v say_v sum_fw-la dignus_fw-la o_o lord_n i_o be_o not_o worthy_a accompany_v he_o with_o these_o follow_v and_o speak_v to_o thy_o lord_n and_o love_n from_o the_o bottom_n of_o thy_o heart_n i_o be_o not_o worthy_a to_o receive_v thou_o o_o my_o great_a lord_n before_o who_o majesty_n the_o angel_n of_o heaven_n tremble_o confess_v their_o own_o nothing_o i_o be_o not_o worthy_a o_o my_o lord_n that_o thou_o shall_v enter_v into_o my_o heart_n who_o be_o one_o of_o the_o mean_a weak_a and_o ungratefull_a creature_n upon_o earth_n i_o be_o not_o worthy_a o_o my_o lord_n that_o thou_o shall_v lodge_v with_o i_o because_o i_o love_v thou_o not_o and_o i_o remember_v thou_o not_o though_o these_o be_v prime_a reason_n of_o thy_o institute_n and_o remain_v in_o this_o most_o bless_a sacrament_n thus_o humble_a confound_v and_o abysm_n thyself_o humble_a and_o confound_v thyself_o thyself_o at_o the_o serious_a consideration_n of_o thy_o sin_n malice_n and_o misery_n but_o then_o raise_v up_o thy_o heart_n with_o hope_n by_o the_o follow_a word_n sed_fw-la hope_n but_o still_o raise_v up_o thy_o heart_n with_o hope_n tantum_fw-la dic_fw-la verbo_fw-la &_o sanabitur_fw-la anima_fw-la mea_fw-la do_v thou_o only_o speak_v the_o word_n o_o my_o lord_n and_o my_o soul_n will_v be_v save_v enter_v o_o my_o love_n into_o this_o unworthy_a harbour_n and_o make_v use_n of_o thy_o infinite_a power_n and_o goodness_n in_o pardon_v my_o sin_n supply_v my_o defect_n and_o protect_v i_o from_o my_o enemy_n 9_o and_o after_o thou_o have_v receive_v expression_n text._n have_v communicate_v entertain_v thy_o guest_n with_o amorous_a expression_n this_o divine_a sacrament_n betake_v thou_o present_o to_o the_o innermost_a closet_n of_o thy_o heart_n and_o there_o enter_v into_o communication_n with_o thy_o holy_a guest_n use_v these_o or_o the_o like_a love_a and_o respectful_a expression_n what_o have_v move_v thou_o o_o great_a king_n of_o king_n to_o enter_v in_o to_o i_o who_o be_o nothing_o but_o a_o miserable_a despicable_a vild_a blind_a and_o naked_a creature_n and_o he_o will_v answer_v thou_o love_n for_o thou_o be_v my_o dove_n my_o friend_n my_o sister_n my_o spouse_n and_o my_o dear_o belove_v then_o thou_o may_v reply_v o_o increated_a love_n o_o sweet_a dilection_n o_o friendly_a and_o faithful_a charity_n what_o will_v thou_o have_v i_o do_v what_o demand_v thou_o what_o desire_v thou_o i_o ask_v nothing_o say_v he_o but_o love_n i_o will_v have_v nothing_o burn_v in_o the_o hearth_n of_o thy_o heart_n but_o the_o fire_n of_o my_o love_n that_o it_o may_v devour_v all_o foreign_a love_n within_o thou_o and_o destroy_v all_o self-will_a and_o seek_v this_o this_o be_v my_o desire_n because_o i_o will_v be_v true_o thou_o and_o will_v have_v thou_o likewise_o be_v total_o i_o which_o can_v never_o be_v compass_v until_o thou_o free_o deliver_v up_o thyself_o to_o my_o will_n and_o pleasure_n for_o without_o this_o entire_a resignation_n thy_o fancy_n will_v be_v always_o fasten_v to_o the_o love_a and_o like_n of_o thyself_o and_o thy_o own_o action_n be_v they_o never_o so_o mean_a i_o desire_v therefore_o that_o thou_o shall_v hate_v thyself_o that_o thou_o may_v have_v the_o love_n of_o i_o i_o demand_v thy_o heart_n for_o my_o habitation_n that_o i_o may_v join_v and_o unite_v it_o unto_o i_o for_o to_o this_o end_n be_v my_o heart_n open_v to_o thou_o upon_o the_o altar_n of_o my_o cross_n my_o will_n be_v i_o say_v o_o my_o dear_o belove_a spouse_n that_o thou_o desire_v nothing_o think_v nothing_o understand_v nothing_o see_v nothing_o feel_v nothing_o but_o myself_o only_o that_o so_o i_o only_o may_v be_v in_o thâ—e_n and_o thou_o total_o turn_v into_o i_o and_o that_o thou_o may_v possess_v in_o i_o perfect_a quiet_a and_o i_o in_o thou_o pleasant_a context_n 10._o last_o thou_o shall_v offer_v the_o holy_a father_n and_o last_o offer_v up_o the_o divine_a son_n to_o his_o heavenly_a father_n son_n to_o his_o heavenly_a father_n for_o thyself_o for_o the_o whole_a world_n and_o for_o the_o soul_n depart_v in_o memory_n and_o union_n of_o that_o divine_a oblation_n which_o he_o offer_v upon_o the_o holy_a cross_n present_v in_o like_a manner_n all_o the_o unbloody_a sacrifice_n to_o the_o divine_a majesty_n which_o be_v that_o day_n offer_v up_o in_o his_o universal_a church_n chap._n xxxi_o of_o spiritual_a communion_n although_o my_o beloved_a thou_o can_v receive_v thy_o sweet_a saviour_n communicate_v 1._o thou_o may_v thus_o often_o communicate_v sacramental_o only_o once_o a_o day_n yet_o thou_o may_v receive_v he_o spiritual_o every_o hour_n and_o moment_n for_o nothing_o can_v hinder_v thou_o from_o this_o but_o only_o thy_o own_o fault_n and_o negligence_n and_o this_o spiritual_a communion_n may_v sometime_o prove_v more_o profitable_a to_o thy_o soul_n and_o please_v to_o thy_o saviour_n than_o the_o sacramental_a especial_o if_o there_o be_v a_o defect_n in_o thy_o due_a and_o diligent_a preparation_n 2._o for_o as_o often_o as_o thou_o desire_v desire_n by_o frequent_a desire_n to_o receive_v thy_o love_a lord_n god_n thus_o spiritual_o into_o thy_o soul_n thou_o shall_v find_v he_o ever_o ready_a to_o feast_v thou_o with_o his_o own_o sacred_a hand_n and_o thou_o may_v thus_o easy_o dispose_v thyself_o unto_o it_o turn_v thyself_o to_o thy_o saviour_n to_o this_o end_n reflect_v upon_o thy_o own_o frailty_n and_o frequent_a fail_n and_o conceive_v a_o inward_a sorrow_n and_o detestation_n of_o thy_o defect_n then_o make_v thy_o supplication_n with_o a_o love_a affection_n that_o he_o will_v not_o disdain_v to_o enter_v thy_o poor_a cottage_n and_o feast_v thou_o with_o his_o own_o true_a body_n and_o blood_n 3._o so_o also_o when_o thou_o be_v 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