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brother_n eye_n again_o when_o i_o pray_v i_o find_v hypocrisy_n in_o my_o heart_n to_o do_v it_o to_o be_v see_v of_o man_n and_o that_o word_n of_o christ_n reprove_v i_o mat._n 6._o they_o pray_v to_o be_v sâ—en_v of_o man_n very_o they_o have_v their_o reward_n and_o then_o i_o cry_v mighty_o to_o god_n o_o lord_n help_v i_o pardon_v i_o what_o shall_v i_o do_v again_o i_o hear_v mat._n 9_o the_o son_n of_o man_n have_v power_n to_o pardon_v sin_n on_o earth_n and_o therefore_o i_o o_o lord_n then_o
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work_n with_o adam_n do_v the_o command_n and_o thou_o shall_v live_v and_o thy_o seed_n also_o but_o if_o thou_o sin_v thou_o shall_v die_v and_o thy_o seed_n also_o therefore_o by_o that_o i_o know_v i_o be_o a_o sinner_n and_o have_v deserve_v to_o die_v then_o i_o cry_v to_o god_n o_o god_n have_v mercy_n upon_o i_o and_o pardon_v i_o again_o i_o hear_v of_o the_o mercy_n of_o god_n but_o i_o be_o forgetful_a and_o can_v remember_v god_n mercy_n to_o i_o god_n make_v a_o covenant_n with_o abraham_n and_o say_v i_o will_v be_v thy_o god_n and_o the_o god_n of_o thy_o seed_n after_o thou_o than_o my_o heart_n say_v o_o let_v it_o be_v so_o to_o i_o o_o lord_n and_o now_o abraham_n be_v in_o heaven_n who_o believe_v and_o keep_v god_n covenant_n so_o i_o if_o i_o believe_v and_o keep_v god_n covenant_n god_n will_v have_v mercy_n on_o i_o i_o remember_v the_o covenant_n of_o circumcision_n to_o he_o and_o all_o his_o family_n and_o such_o a_o covenant_n i_o desire_v for_o i_o and_o i_o again_o i_o hear_v mat._n 3._o in_o those_o day_n john_n baptise_v in_o jordan_n say_v repent_v for_o the_o kingdom_n of_o god_n be_v at_o hand_n when_o i_o hear_v this_o my_o heart_n say_v the_o same_o be_v now_o with_o we_o not_o abraham_n sign_n but_o baptism_n and_o therefore_o i_o desire_v to_o repent_v and_o confess_v before_o god_n and_o before_o the_o church_n and_o i_o desire_v not_o only_o to_o confess_v but_o to_o have_v repentance_n and_o faith_n that_o i_o may_v have_v grace_n mercy_n and_o pardon_n and_o such_o repentance_n as_o work_n obedience_n again_o the_o same_o word_n say_v vers._n 6._o they_o be_v baptise_v confess_v their_o sin_n so_o i_o desire_v to_o do_v i_o do_v confess_v before_o god_n and_o desire_v to_o cast_v off_o and_o forsake_v my_o sin_n and_o to_o go_v to_o christ_n the_o promise_n of_o pardon_n be_v to_o they_o that_o penitent_o believe_v and_o rest_n on_o christ_n in_o the_o same_o baptism_n of_o john_n he_o say_v i_o baptise_v you_o with_o 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then_o i_o great_o beg_v that_o i_o may_v feed_v my_o soul_n on_o christ_n and_o oh_o christ_n send_v thy_o spirit_n into_o my_o heart_n that_o i_o may_v not_o only_o know_v but_o do_v the_o word_n of_o god_n again_o christ_n near_o his_o death_n take_v bread_n and_o bless_v it_o and_o break_v it_o and_o give_v it_o to_o his_o disciple_n and_o say_v take_v you_o eat_v you_o this_o be_v my_o body_n which_o be_v break_v for_o you_o and_o so_o also_o he_o do_v the_o cup_n and_o say_v drink_v you_o of_o it_o this_o be_v the_o cup_n of_o my_o blood_n in_o the_o new_a testament_n which_o be_v shed_v for_o the_o remission_n of_o sin_n now_o this_o believer_n in_o christ_n must_v do_v not_o only_o to_o eat_v bread_n and_o to_o take_v the_o sign_n but_o soul_n food_n therefore_o christ_n send_v his_o spirit_n and_o help_v i_o i_o desire_v to_o receive_v the_o sign_n not_o in_o vain_a but_o to_o help_v my_o faith_n when_o i_o have_v read_v this_o confession_n in_o the_o assembly_n we_o call_v upon_o the_o witness_n as_o before_o we_o do_v who_o answer_n be_v to_o the_o like_a purpose_n as_o before_o wutasakompavin_n he_o be_v next_o call_v forth_o who_o thus_o speak_v help_v i_o oh_o jesus_n christ_n to_o confess_v before_o the_o lord_n oh_o i_o be_o full_a of_o sin_n because_o adam_n sin_n make_v i_o and_o so_o be_v a_o sinner_n in_o my_o mother_n womb_n when_o i_o be_v a_o youth_n i_o find_v many_o sin_n and_o after_o i_o be_v grow_v up_o i_o do_v the_o same_o always_o all_o the_o day_n of_o my_o life_n i_o live_v in_o sin_n after_o the_o english_a come_v i_o go_v to_o their_o house_n they_o will_v teach_v i_o about_o god_n but_o i_o hate_v it_o and_o go_v out_o i_o do_v not_o love_v such_o teach_n afterward_o the_o minister_n teach_v and_o at_o first_o waban_n persuade_v i_o to_o pray_v and_o teach_v we_o i_o do_v not_o at_o first_o like_o it_o yet_o afterward_o i_o do_v four_o year_n the_o minister_n come_v to_o noonantam_n i_o come_v but_o i_o only_o come_v i_o lose_v all_o he_o teach_v after_o i_o consider_v one_o word_n the_o minister_n say_v that_o god_n send_v he_o to_o teach_v we_o then_o i_o think_v sure_o there_o be_v a_o god_n therefore_o i_o must_v believe_v and_o pray_v a_o little_a i_o believe_v but_o when_o i_o hear_v i_o do_v only_o outward_o hear_v after_o my_o wife_n and_o child_n die_v and_o then_o i_o almost_o cast_v off_o pray_v i_o have_v another_o wife_n and_o she_o die_v also_o
and_o than_o my_o heart_n say_v sure_o god_n be_v angry_a with_o i_o who_o do_v thus_o afflict_v i_o then_o i_o hear_v that_o word_n mat._n 22._o god_n make_v a_o feast_n and_o invite_v his_o guest_n and_o they_o will_v not_o come_v and_o therefore_o god_n be_v angry_a with_o they_o so_o do_v i_o for_o i_o come_v not_o to_o the_o word_n of_o god_n when_o he_o call_v i_o i_o care_v not_o for_o the_o feast_n of_o christ_n again_o after_o many_o of_o my_o friend_n be_v destroy_v i_o think_v it_o be_v because_o they_o pray_v not_o to_o god_n therefore_o i_o fear_v that_o god_n be_v angry_a with_o i_o also_o because_o of_o his_o punishment_n i_o fear_v i_o believe_v not_o christ_n and_o my_o heart_n fear_v because_o of_o my_o sin_n daily_o i_o break_v god_n command_n another_o word_n i_o hear_v mat._n 5._o bless_a be_v they_o who_o hunger_n and_o thirst_n after_o righteousness_n for_o they_o shall_v be_v satisfy_v this_o be_v the_o word_n of_o christ_n and_o i_o desire_v to_o hunger_n for_o christ_n and_o beg_v o_o christ_n help_v i_o again_o i_o remember_v that_o word_n bless_a be_v the_o pure_a in_o heart_n for_o they_o shall_v see_v god_n my_o heart_n say_v o_o christ_n help_v i_o to_o be_v so_o that_o clean_o may_v be_v my_o heart_n again_o i_o hear_v that_o word_n bless_a be_v the_o peacemaker_n for_o they_o shall_v be_v call_v the_o child_n of_o god_n then_o my_o heart_n think_v o_o that_o i_o have_v peace_n with_o god_n in_o christ_n that_o i_o may_v have_v that_o blessing_n and_o therefore_o i_o now_o confess_v my_o sin_n before_o god_n and_o i_o beg_v mercy_n from_o god_n in_o jesus_n christ_n when_o i_o have_v read_v this_o short_a confession_n for_o the_o day_n spend_v and_o brevity_n be_v call_v for_o we_o call_v upon_o the_o witness_n who_o speak_v as_o former_o monotunkquanit_fw-la he_o be_v next_o call_v who_o thus_o speak_v i_o have_v hear_v the_o word_n and_o pray_v to_o god_n several_a year_n and_o i_o confess_v that_o before_o i_o pray_v i_o be_v full_a 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