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poor_a blind_a creature_n who_o continual_o go_v astray_o when_o thou_o withhold_v the_o ray_n of_o thy_o grace_n i_o deserve_v to_o be_v annihilate_v if_o at_o any_o time_n i_o shall_v attempt_v the_o conversion_n of_o myself_o by_o my_o own_o power_n without_o the_o assistance_n of_o thy_o grace_n mortify_v in_o my_o soul_n all_o vain_a glory_n every_o thing_n that_o tempt_v i_o to_o too_o good_a a_o opinion_n of_o myself_o but_o chief_o that_o frothiness_n of_o humour_n which_o serve_v only_o to_o divert_v i_o from_o thy_o way_n to_o deprive_v i_o of_o the_o benefit_n of_o my_o affliction_n and_o the_o sweet_a comfort_n â—f_o thy_o holy_a spirit_n give_v i_o humility_n and_o distrust_n â—f_o my_o own_o reason_n let_v i_o thirst_v â—fter_o do_v good_a more_o and_o carâ—al_a knowledge_n less_o lest_o value_v 〈◊〉_d more_o than_o thy_o grace_n i_o lose_v my_o â—elf_n and_o instead_o of_o become_v a_o â—ood_a christian_a become_v a_o philosopher_n better_a acquaint_v â—ith_n the_o 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from_o love_a thâ—_n creature_n because_o my_o diversionâ—_n be_v innocent_a let_v i_o not_o flatter_v myself_o thaâ—_n i_o have_v mortify_v my_o passion_n foâ—_n i_o find_v they_o revive_v with_o moâ—â—_n strength_n then_o ever_o and_o incline_v i_o to_o self-love_n which_o be_v thâ—_n more_o dangerous_a decause_n by_o jâ—â—_n stify_v these_o irregular_a motion_n it_n render_v i_o deaf_a to_o the_o dictateâ—_n of_o my_o reason_n and_o the_o holy_a in_o spiration_n of_o thy_o grace_n let_v i_o not_o fancy_v myself_o to_o bâ—_n without_o pride_n ambition_n self-love_n because_o i_o despise_v the_o world_n use_v scorn_v to_o owe_v those_o honour_n â—ortune_n have_v strip_v i_o of_o to_o â—â—ything_v else_o but_o my_o own_o desert_n let_v i_o not_o so_o much_o deceive_v my_o â—â—lf_n as_o to_o think_v i_o be_o thorough_o convert_v when_o indeed_o i_o have_v â—â—ly_o change_v the_o sin_n of_o sense_n â—â—r_a those_o of_o the_o mind_n a_o profane_a proud_a and_o fensual_a life_n 〈◊〉_d which_o i_o be_v always_o torment_v 〈◊〉_d reflect_v on_o my_o crime_n and_o â—â—e_z remorse_n of_o my_o conscience_n â—â—r_a a_o life_n in_o which_o my_o whole_a endeavour_n be_v to_o gratify_v self_n love_n â—nd_v enjoy_v the_o pleasure_n of_o the_o world_n and_o in_o the_o mean_a while_n â—se_v my_o precious_a time_n forget_v my_o â—od_n hazard_v the_o salvation_n of_o my_o â—oul_n &_o obtain_v nothing_o but_o the_o moâ—ality_n of_o a_o heathen_a which_o alone_o â—ill_v not_o save_v i_o at_o the_o day_n of_o judgement_n o_o state_n true_o deplorable_a â—nd_v the_o more_o so_o because_o i_o be_o â—ot_n sensible_a of_o my_o condition_n but_o rest_v satisfy_v without_o endeavour_v after_o any_o other_o repentance_n or_o conversion_n reflect_v vi_o upon_o the_o opposition_n of_o a_o worldly_a life_n to_o the_o suffer_a life_n oâ—_n jesus_n christ_n teach_v i_o o_o lord_n that_o thiâ—_n sort_n of_o life_n be_v not_o the_o life_n of_o a_o christian_a and_o that_o the_o end_n of_o christ_n death_n and_o incarnation_n be_v not_o to_o instate_v we_o in_o so_o delicate_a and_o effeminate_a a_o life_n as_o may_v gratify_v sense_n and_o indulge_v the_o flesh_n and_o that_o all_o moral_a virtue_n be_v but_o dead_a work_n unless_o enliven_v by_o the_o merit_n and_o virtue_n of_o jesus_n christ_n that_o unless_o the_o inclination_n of_o our_o heart_n be_v change_v it_o will_v nothing_o avail_v a_o sinner_n to_o reform_v his_o outward_a conversation_n to_o â—ate_z the_o world_n without_o love_n to_o god_n to_o do_v work_n of_o justice_n without_o sincere_a repentance_n and_o as_o the_o royal_a psalmist_n have_v it_o â—o_z cease_z from_o evil_a without_o do_v good_a at_o the_o same_o time_n o_o lord_n that_o thou_o destroy_v my_o sinful_a habit_n plant_v in_o my_o soul_n such_o grace_n as_o may_v be_v fruitful_a to_o good_a work_n grant_v that_o by_o a_o lively_a faith_n i_o may_v meditate_v on_o the_o mystery_n of_o thy_o life_n and_o passion_n that_o my_o soul_n may_v be_v deep_o affect_v with_o they_o and_o that_o it_o may_v be_v my_o great_a pleasure_n to_o contemplate_v those_o suffering_n which_o thou_o do_v willing_o undergo_v for_o my_o sake_n that_o behold_v the_o divine_a infant_n lie_v on_o the_o straw_n and_o in_o a_o manger_n the_o treasure_n of_o heaven_n veil_v in_o the_o poverty_n of_o the_o earth_n i_o may_v contemn_v all_o those_o riches_n which_o endure_v but_o for_o a_o moment_n and_o endeavour_v to_o obtain_v those_o incorruptible_a treasure_n which_o moth_n and_o ruct_v do_v not_o corrupt_v which_o will_v never_o fly_v away_o that_o the_o consideration_n of_o that_o private_a life_n in_o which_o thou_o be_v please_v to_o disguise_v thyself_o from_o the_o eye_n of_o the_o world_n may_v create_v in_o i_o a_o desire_n to_o be_v forget_v by_o it_o that_o i_o may_v retire_v and_o employ_v myself_o only_o in_o the_o great_a business_n of_o my_o salvation_n that_o rhe_n receive_v of_o thy_o holy_a body_n and_o precious_a blood_n those_o 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mindful_a of_o these_o obligation_n she_o have_v lay_v upon_o herself_o and_o by_o which_o she_o must_v be_v judge_v at_o the_o last_o day_n ah_o lord_n who_o in_o work_v thy_o miracle_n do_v always_o regard_v some_o great_a end_n have_v thou_o not_o restore_v my_o health_n that_o thou_o may_v accomplish_v the_o bless_a purpose_n of_o thy_o grace_n upon_o my_o soul_n that_o by_o a_o thorough_a conversion_n of_o my_o heart_n unto_o thou_o i_o may_v pass_v from_o this_o state_n of_o death_n or_o as_o the_o royal_a prophet_n speak_v from_o the_o terror_n of_o hell_n to_o such_o a_o religious_a course_n of_o life_n as_o those_o devout_a soul_n lead_v who_o now_o sleep_n in_o the_o lord_n who_o do_v not_o presume_v on_o thy_o mercy_n and_o from_o thence_o defer_v their_o repentance_n to_o the_o last_o moment_n yes_o lord_n i_o acknowledge_v thy_o mercy_n in_o the_o midst_n of_o thy_o judgement_n and_o the_o constant_a protection_n of_o thy_o providence_n in_o all_o the_o accident_n of_o my_o life_n for_o this_o be_v the_o reason_n why_o thou_o have_v so_o much_o afflict_a i_o so_o much_o distress_v i_o so_o often_o change_v my_o desire_n and_o my_o resolution_n that_o hereby_o thou_o may_v wean_v i_o from_o myself_o and_o therefore_o that_o i_o may_v maintain_v a_o inviolable_a fidelity_n tie_v towards_o thou_o for_o the_o future_a that_o i_o may_v serve_v thou_o that_o i_o may_v love_v thou_o and_o rather_o die_v a_o thousand_o time_n than_o return_v again_o to_o my_o former_a vain_a conversation_n i_o have_v write_v this_o paper_n with_o my_o own_o hand_n as_o a_o register_n of_o thy_o mercy_n my_o most_o intimate_v resolution_n and_o all_o thy_o adorable_a truth_n that_o if_o at_o any_o time_n i_o shall_v forget_v myself_o i_o may_v hereby_o be_v put_v in_o mind_n of_o my_o duty_n and_o that_o model_n of_o holy_a live_n i_o have_v resolve_v on_o if_o my_o faith_n shall_v falter_v my_o hope_n shall_v languish_v or_o my_o charity_n grow_v cold_a and_o my_o 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amour_n of_o the_o french_a gourt_n viz._n of_o madam_n de_fw-fr la_fw-fr valleire_n madam_n de_fw-fr olonne_fw-fr madam_n de_fw-fr chastillion_n madam_n de_fw-fr sevigney_n with_o several_a other_o person_n of_o great_a quality_n in_o the_o palace-royal_a in_o four_o part_n translate_v from_o the_o french_a sell_v by_o dorman_n newman_n at_o the_o kings-arm_n in_o the_o poultry_n