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write_v by_o i_o which_o i_o read_v when_o i_o can_v for_o some_o indisposition_n in_o body_n or_o mind_n otherwise_o think_v upon_o thou_o and_o when_o i_o be_o overwhelm_v in_o any_o misery_n it_o become_v most_o tolerable_a by_o have_v thus_o conference_n with_o thou_o who_o never_o disdain_v i_o for_o which_o all_o glory_n be_v give_v to_o thou_o who_o be_v my_o lord_n and_o my_o god_n bless_v for_o all_o eternity_n amen_o alleluia_n the_o xi_o confession_n o_o my_o lord_n to_o who_o i_o will_v speak_v and_o before_o who_o my_o hart_n shall_v not_o be_v silent_a while_o thus_o it_o stand_v with_o i_o lest_o the_o heavy_a weight_n of_o sin_n and_o my_o disorder_a passion_n do_v oppress_v my_o soul_n and_o separate_v it_o from_o thou_o the_o only_a desire_n and_o belove_v of_o my_o hart_n it_o behoove_v i_o indeed_o to_o be_v silent_a and_o that_o all_o create_a thing_n be_v likewise_o silent_a to_o i_o to_o the_o end_n â—_o may_v hear_v the_o sweet_a whisper_n of_o thy_o voiâ—â—_n and_o attend_v in_o most_o quiet_a repose_n of_o soul_n to_o thy_o divine_a majesty_n speak_v to_o my_o hart_n but_o this_o must_v be_v when_o my_o soul_n be_v draw_v and_o sweet_o attract_v by_o thou_o to_o attend_v to_o what_o it_o shall_v please_v thou_o to_o work_v in_o i_o but_o now_o in_o these_o my_o sin_n which_o passion_n and_o inordinat_a affection_n cause_n in_o i_o my_o soul_n do_v cry_v out_o in_o the_o bottom_n thereof_o and_o call_v upon_o thou_o who_o be_v my_o refuge_n helper_n and_o deliverer_n in_o all_o these_o my_o affliction_n and_o misery_n and_o this_o my_o prayer_n be_v not_o reject_v by_o thou_o because_o thou_o be_v a_o bottom_n less_o sea_n of_o mercy_n o_o when_o shall_v my_o soul_n see_v all_o impediment_n remove_v that_o it_o may_v be_v unite_v to_o thou_o and_o retorn_a to_o thou_o from_o who_o it_o have_v she_o be_v to_o this_o end_n that_o it_o may_v by_o pure_a love_n become_v capable_a of_o enjoy_v thou_o for_o all_o eternity_n what_o be_v all_o 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do_v even_o say_v to_o my_o soul_n peace_n be_v humble_a and_o subject_a in_o all_o to_o thy_o god_n who_o thou_o be_v not_o worthy_a so_o much_o as_o to_o name_v with_o thy_o defile_a mouth_n indeed_o my_o lord_n who_o power_n and_o majesty_n prostrate_v i_o acknowledge_v and_o adoreâ—_n with_o all_o my_o hart_n and_o soul_n if_o i_o shall_v neither_o in_o this_o nor_o in_o the_o next_o world_n ☞_o receive_v any_o other_o reward_n but_o what_o already_o thou_o have_v bestow_v on_o i_o which_o i_o have_v i_o must_v needs_o contesse_v receive_v gratis_o of_o thy_o mercy_n without_o any_o desert_n of_o my_o own_o hereupon_o yet_o that_o which_o tâ—ou_fw-mi have_v so_o already_o do_v for_o i_o be_v sufficient_a to_o declare_v to_o heaven_n and_o earth_n the_o superaboundance_n of_o thy_o mercy_n and_o clemency_n to_o a_o sinful_a and_o contempâ—tible_a creature_n i_o will_v there_o for_o sing_v unto_o thou_o mercy_n and_o judgement_n all_o the_o day_n of_o my_o life_n wish_v always_o 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it-self_n nothing_o save_v its_o own_o defectuousnes_n thou_o only_o be_v just_a thou_o only_o holy_a and_o i_o the_o most_o vile_a and_o contemptible_a of_o all_o thy_o creatute_n in_o thy_o eye_n who_o discern_v most_o clear_o how_o it_o stand_v with_o i_o for_o my_o pride_n and_o other_o my_o abominable_a sin_n wash_v i_o in_o thy_o blood_n and_o i_o shall_v yet_o become_v white_a than_o snow_n what_o will_v it_o avail_v i_o if_o i_o be_v never_o so_o great_a in_o the_o eye_n of_o man_n yea_o even_o as_o great_a as_o i_o most_o unworthy_a be_o in_o my_o own_o can_v they_o save_v i_o or_o justify_v i_o in_o thy_o sight_n be_v it_o not_o affirm_v by_o the_o spirit_n of_o all_o truth_n vanitas_fw-la omnis_fw-la homo_fw-la vivens_fw-la all_o live_a man_n be_v vanity_n without_o any_o exception_n of_o person_n very_o my_o god_n we_o be_v indeed_o but_o as_o we_o be_v in_o thy_o sight_n who_o judge_v according_a to_o the_o humility_n of_o our_o hart_n which_o be_v hide_v from_o the_o 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be_v in_o esteem_n when_o as_o her_o belove_a who_o be_v goodness_n and_o justice_n it-self_n be_v despise_v and_o contemn_v o_o my_o god_n far_o be_v this_o disloyalty_n from_o my_o hart_n let_v i_o suffer_v for_o my_o sin_n that_o i_o may_v become_v please_v in_o thy_o sight_n which_o be_v all_o my_o soul_n desire_v o_o my_o god_n when_o shall_v i_o find_v and_o possess_v thou_o in_o the_o bottom_n of_o my_o soul_n when_o shall_v the_o eye_n of_o my_o body_n be_v so_o close_v from_o behold_v all_o vanity_n that_o the_o eye_n of_o my_o soul_n may_v be_v clear_v by_o thou_o to_o the_o discern_a of_o truth_n true_o thou_o be_v a_o hide_a god_n and_o none_o can_v walk_v in_o thy_o light_n but_o the_o peaceful_a humble_a patient_a and_o clean_o of_o hart_n o_o if_o we_o do_v but_o once_o see_v in_o thy_o light_n of_o truth_n how_o little_a we_o be_v able_a to_o do_v or_o suffer_v of_o ourselves_o we_o will_v tremble_v to_o think_v we_o be_v able_a to_o do_v any_o thing_n that_o be_v good_a or_o to_o attribute_v any_o thing_n to_o our_o own_o endeavour_n 126._o nisi_fw-la dominus_fw-la aedificaverit_fw-la domum_fw-la in_fw-la vanum_fw-la laboraverunt_fw-la qui_fw-la aedificant_fw-la eam_fw-la nisi_fw-la dominus_fw-la custodierit_fw-la civitaetem_fw-la fruâ—tra_fw-la vigilat_fw-la qui_fw-la custodit_fw-la eam_fw-la unless_o god_n build_v the_o house_n in_o vain_a do_v they_o laâ—our_v who_o build_v it_o unless_o god_n guard_v the_o city_n in_o vain_a do_v they_o watch_v who_o guard_n it_o it_o be_v in_o vain_a for_o you_o to_o rise_v before_o light_n o_o light_a shine_n in_o my_o soul_n and_o let_v not_o the_o darkness_n of_o my_o own_o ignorance_n overwhelm_v i_o any_o long_a let_v my_o soul_n love_n that_o it_o may_v live_v in_o and_o to_o thou_o alone_o my_o lord_n god_n when_o will_v thou_o give_v i_o the_o graâ—e_n of_o true_a humility_n which_o be_v so_o much_o speak_v of_o and_o so_o hard_a to_o be_v know_v what_o it_o be_v indeed_o o_o we_o can_v never_o while_o we_o lâ—ue_v in_o this_o world_n be_v secure_a from_o fall_v into_o the_o curse_a sin_n of_o pride_n which_o make_v soul_n more_o odious_a to_o thou_o than_o any_o oâ—her_a sin_n whatsoever_o o_o my_o god_n help_v i_o out_o of_o this_o snare_n which_o lay_v open_v the_o way_n to_o all_o other_o sin_n o_o who_o dare_v though_o he_o have_v be_v rapt_v into_o the_o three_o heaven_n with_o s._n paul_n attribute_v any_o gift_n or_o grace_n to_o his_o own_o desert_n what_o have_v we_o that_o we_o have_v not_o receive_v and_o if_o we_o have_v â—eceaved_v it_o whereof_o shall_v we_o glory_v o_o how_o soon_o do_v we_o loose_v the_o the_o labour_n of_o many_o year_n in_o one_o moment_n by_o pride_n god_n protect_v we_o and_o direct_v we_o if_o we_o remain_v humble_a but_o in_o our_o pride_n he_o leave_v we_o to_o ourselves_o till_o we_o see_v and_o feel_v to_o our_o cost_n our_o own_o weakness_n and_o misery_n o_o how_o plain_a do_v it_o appear_v to_o those_o who_o be_v now_o secure_a for_o all_o eternity_n in_o thy_o heavenly_a kingdom_n that_o if_o thou_o have_v with_o draw_fw-mi thy_o grace_n from_o they_o while_o they_o live_v here_o their_o case_n will_v have_v be_v most_o miserable_a o_o how_o far_o be_v they_o from_o attribute_v any_o thing_n to_o their_o own_o metits_fw-fr save_v so_o far_o as_o they_o be_v mere_o enable_v thereto_o by_o thy_o grace_n and_o how_o far_o short_a do_v they_o esteem_v their_o desert_n to_o be_v of_o the_o glory_n and_o honour_n they_o receive_v from_o thy_o merciful_a and_o bountiful_a hand_n what_o pain_n what_o labour_n what_o suffer_v of_o disgrace_n can_v deserve_v to_o enjoy_v thou_o and_o see_v theeâ—ace_n â—ace_z to_o face_n â—or_a ever_o and_o ever_o certain_o those_o who_o enjoy_v this_o happiness_n have_v receive_v it_o by_o the_o merit_n of_o thy_o most_o bitter_a death_n and_o passion_n which_o god_n grant_v may_v bring_v i_o wretch_n also_o to_o salvation_n amen_n o_o love_n love_n love_n when_o shall_v nothing_o else_o live_v in_o i_o but_o thy_o true_a love_n my_o god_n how_o long_o shall_v i_o remain_v divide_v from_o thou_o when_o shall_v i_o by_o pure_a and_o perfect_a love_n be_v unite_v to_o my_o god_n all_o impediment_n be_v remove_v when_o shall_v no_o create_v thing_n be_v able_a to_o divert_v my_o soul_n from_o attend_v to_o my_o lord_n god_n when_o shall_v i_o be_v able_a to_o suffer_v without_o offend_v my_o god_n or_o be_v weary_a thereof_o o_o how_o little_a true_a peace_n do_v that_o soul_n enjoy_v who_o care_v for_o the_o praise_n of_o man_n or_o fear_v their_o dispraise_n nothing_o more_o slippery_a nothing_o more_o unconstant_a nothing_o more_o uncertain_a than_o the_o favour_n or_o friendship_n of_o man_n who_o to_o day_n will_v be_v thy_o friend_n and_o extol_v thou_o to_o the_o sky_n to_o morrow_n none_o will_v have_v thou_o less_o in_o esteem_n than_o he_o and_o what_o a_o misery_n than_o be_v it_o to_o place_n happiness_n or_o security_n in_o the_o favour_n of_o man_n and_o this_o o_o my_o soul_n thy_o god_n permit_v thou_o to_o see_v to_o the_o end_n thou_o shall_v adhere_v to_o he_o alone_o and_o not_o to_o that_o which_o be_v subject_a to_o fail_v desire_v the_o friendship_n of_o god_n alone_o and_o then_o his_o friend_n both_o in_o heaven_n and_o earth_n shall_v be_v ready_a to_o serve_v thou_o for_o thy_o advancement_n in_o his_o love_n and_o service_n what_o can_v any_o man_n diminish_v of_o thy_o good_a by_o his_o speak_n or_o think_v il_fw-mi of_o thou_o or_o what_o can_v he_o add_v to_o thou_o indeed_o by_o high_o esteem_v of_o thou_o remember_v that_o all_o praise_n be_v due_a unto_o god_n but_o to_o thou_o confusion_n of_o face_n
i_o in_o their_o holy_a prayer_n which_o be_v most_o please_v to_o thou_o and_o i_o also_o desire_v that_o some_o will_v out_o of_o their_o charity_n read_v these_o thing_n to_o i_o which_o hereafter_o follow_v when_o sick_a to_o death_n shall_v be_v becompass_v with_o those_o fear_n and_o terror_n which_o ordinary_o accompany_v that_o dreadful_a hour_n at_o which_o time_n as_o all_o oâ—her_n be_v thou_o my_o helper_n and_o protectorâ—_n and_o in_o the_o bowel_n of_o thy_o mercy_n good_a father_n remember_v i_o poor_a beggar_n and_o from_o heaven_n send_v i_o now_o and_o at_o my_o departure_n thy_o grace_n which_o may_v bring_v i_o to_o thou_o where_o i_o may_v with_o all_o thy_o elect_n praiseâ—_n adore_v and_o worship_v thou_o for_o ever_o and_o ever_o a_o act_n of_o contrition_n partly_o take_v ouâ—_n of_o the_o word_n of_o bless_a s._n augustin_n 1._o o_o lord_n i_o confess_v i_o have_v sin_v above_o the_o sand_n of_o the_o sea_n in_o number_n yet_o such_o be_v the_o grief_n which_o i_o take_v thereat_o that_o i_o will_v not_o refuse_v to_o suffer_v any_o kind_n of_o punishment_n for_o thâ—_n same_o o_o jesus_n whatsoever_o thy_o will_n shall_v be_v that_o i_o shall_v do_v i_o desire_v to_o perform_v it_o according_a to_o thy_o holy_a wil._n i_o have_v nothing_o to_o offer_v unto_o thou_o but_o a_o hart_n willing_a to_o do_v whatsoever_o thouâ—ouldst_a â—ouldst_z have_v i_o 2._o hâ—er_o i_o offer_v myself_n bind_v both_o hand_n and_o foot_n and_o i_o lie_v prostrate_a at_o thy_o foot_n crave_v pardon_n for_o my_o abominable_a sin_n and_o offence_n 3._o i_o fly_v not_o away_o i_o appeal_v not_o from_o thy_o sentence_n otherwise_o then_o from_o thy_o justice_n to_o thy_o mercy_n which_o we_o sinner_n do_v daily_a experience_n to_o be_v above_o all_o thy_o work_n 4._o i_o do_v not_o plead_v to_o be_v release_v of_o any_o punishment_n but_o rather_o that_o thou_o may_v judge_v i_o according_a to_o thy_o own_o bless_a will_n only_o let_v i_o not_o be_v separate_v from_o thou_o o_o thou_o thy-self_n do_v say_v to_o we_o thou_o will_v not_o sinner_n death_n but_o that_o we_o do_v convert_v and_o live_v even_o while_o our_o soul_n have_v breath_n and_o no_o more_o than_o to_o cease_v to_o be_v can_v thou_o o_o god_n refuse_v to_o pardon_v humble_a penitent_n that_o do_v themselves_o accuse_v be_v no_o accepter_n of_o person_n all_o have_v cost_v thou_o dear_a yea_o even_o thy_o very_a life_n it-self_n how_o can_v i_o therefore_o fear_n if_o ever_o yet_o he_o do_v disdain_n sinner_n that_o flee_v to_o he_o then_o have_v i_o little_a cause_n of_o hope_n but_o this_o be_v never_o see_v foâ—_n if_o they_o do_v return_v to_o thou_o thy_o hart_n thou_o will_v not_o close_o as_o witness_n can_v my_o wretched_a soul_n who_o be_v so_o like_a to_o lose_v all_o grace_n and_o goodness_n if_o thou_o have_v not_o i_o with_o help_v prevent_v by_o sin_n that_o will_v with_o bloody_a tear_n be_v while_o i_o live_v lament_v if_o i_o as_o grateful_a be_v to_o thou_o as_o thou_o deserve_v i_o shall_v or_o as_o another_o in_o my_o case_n vuto_n thy_o mercy_n will_v but_o thou_o while_o that_o thou_o live_v here_o by_o token_n plain_n do_v show_v that_o none_o shall_v be_v refuse_v by_o thou_o who_o do_v in_o mercy_n flow_v and_o that_o my_o wicked_a hart_n do_v prove_v who_o after_o â—ins_n so_o many_o have_v find_v much_o favour_n in_o thy_o eye_n without_o deserve_v any_o o_o bless_a ever_o be_v my_o god_n for_o this_o prevent_a grace_n which_o i_o unworthy_a have_v receive_v in_o this_o most_o happy_a place_n i_o flee_v from_o thou_o by_o many_o sin_n and_o thou_o do_v follow_v i_o as_o if_o my_o ruin_n will_v have_v cause_v some_o detriment_n to_o thou_o how_o can_v this_o choose_v but_o wound_v my_o hart_n when_o i_o remember_v it_o and_o ever_o serve_v to_o humble_v i_o while_o at_o thy_o foot_n i_o sit_v from_o whence_o my_o lord_n my_o god_n and_o all_o permit_v i_o not_o to_o rise_v till_o i_o do_v love_n thou_o as_o thou_o will_v the_o which_o do_v all_o comprise_v 5._o i_o know_v thou_o will_v not_o the_o death_n of_o a_o sinner_n but_o rather_o that_o i_o be_v convert_v and_o live_v 6._o be_v pacify_v therefore_o i_o beseech_v thou_o for_o thy_o own_o saâ—e_v and_o receive_v i_o into_o thy_o favour_n look_v upon_o thy_o own_o wound_n and_o let_v they_o plead_v my_o pardon_n do_v not_o for_o ever_o blot_v i_o out_o of_o â—he_n book_n of_o life_n but_o rather_o give_v i_o grace_n faithful_o hereafter_o to_o serve_v and_o please_v thou_o 7._o i_o know_v it_o be_v reason_n that_o one_o who_o have_v be_v so_o ungrateful_a to_o thy_o supreme_a majesty_n as_o i_o have_v be_v shall_v humble_v despise_v and_o willing_o abase_v himself_o even_o at_o the_o foot_n of_o all_o creature_n which_o thy_o sweet_a goodness_n grant_v i_o to_o do_v that_o i_o may_v hereafter_o find_v savour_n in_o thy_o eye_n who_o be_v bless_v and_o praise_v by_o all_o for_o ever_o amen_n o_o sweet_a jesus_n to_o who_o nothing_o be_v impossible_a but_o not_o to_o be_v merciful_a to_o the_o miserable_a forgive_v i_o my_o offence_n i_o be_o sorry_a from_o the_o bottom_n of_o my_o hart_n that_o ever_o i_o offend_v thou_o or_o contradict_v thy_o holy_a will_n but_o i_o know_v thou_o can_v forgive_v more_o than_o i_o can_v offend_v which_o make_v i_o confident_a of_o be_v receive_v into_o thy_o favour_n though_o thy_o most_o abundant_a mercy_n to_o who_o my_o god_n be_v give_v all_o laud._n honour_n and_o praise_v by_o all_o creature_n in_o heaven_n and_o in_o earth_n for_o ever_o and_o everâ—_n amen_o o_o amiable_a jesus_n behold_v all_o thy_o creature_n do_v invite_v and_o exhort_v i_o to_o yield_v thâ—e_n praise_n for_o all_o thy_o benefit_n which_o have_v be_v i_o must_v ackowledg_v without_o end_n or_o measure_n towards_o i_o thy_o unworthy_a creature_n every_o creature_n do_v in_o their_o kind_n sing_v and_o set_v forth_o thy_o great_a goodness_n invite_v i_o to_o love_v only_o thou_o and_o yet_o behold_v how_o cold_a and_o dull_a i_o be_o in_o love_v praise_v and_o exalt_v thou_o o_o what_o shall_v i_o say_v but_o cry_v out_o to_o thou_o who_o be_v my_o hope_n my_o help_n my_o love_n my_o life_n and_o all_o yea_o my_o father_n my_o spouse_n and_o my_o god_n to_o grant_v thy_o grace_n may_v not_o be_v void_a in_o i_o after_o so_o many_o infinite_a benefit_n o_o be_v thou_o hereafter_o the_o only_a desire_n and_o joy_n of_o my_o soul._n let_v i_o look_v after_o nothing_o but_o thou_o love_v nothing_o but_o thou_o let_v i_o night_n and_o day_n sigh_v and_o long_o after_o thou_o my_o belove_a let_v it_o suffice_v i_o to_o have_v my_o inteution_n and_o proceed_n only_o approve_a by_o thou_o o_o let_v i_o honour_n and_o respect_v all_o for_o thy_o sake_n howsoever_o they_o treat_v i_o for_o my_o ingratitude_n have_v be_v so_o great_a to_o thou_o that_o all_o creature_n as_o well_o goâ—d_a as_o bad_a may_v just_o despise_v i_o and_o do_v thou_o great_a honour_n thereby_o i_o offer_v thou_o therefore_o thou_o own_o merit_n see_v i_o have_v none_o of_o i_o own_o for_o those_o that_o shall_v any_o way_n revenge_v thy_o quarrel_n by_o afflict_v she_o who_o deserve_v nothing_o but_o hell_n for_o have_v so_o often_o offend_v thou_o after_o something_o which_o she_o have_v collect_v out_o of_o the_o follow_v of_o christ_n concern_v prayer_n she_o write_v as_o follow_v o_o my_o lord_n god_n how_o much_o do_v thy_o saint_n praise_n and_o commend_v the_o holy_a exercise_n of_o prayer_n o_o how_o happy_a be_v â—hose_v that_o have_v no_o other_o study_n or_o care_n then_o how_o to_o extol_v and_o praise_v thy_o divine_a majesty_n and_o in_o humility_n of_o hart_n to_o make_v their_o necessity_n know_v unto_o thou_o who_o be_v the_o father_n of_o mercy_n &_o dius_n totius_fw-la consolationis_fw-la qui_fw-la consolatur_fw-la nos_fw-la in_o omni_fw-la tribulatione_fw-la nostra_fw-la and_o the_o god_n of_o all_o consolation_n who_o comfort_v we_o in_o all_o our_o tribulation_n to_o who_o shall_v we_o sinner_n fly_v but_o to_o thou_o my_o god_n who_o do_v thou_o ever_o reject_v that_o lament_a and_o wâ—s_v sorry_a for_o their_o sin_n nay_o do_v not_o publican_n and_o harlot_n find_v thou_o more_o willing_a to_o forgive_v they_o they_o can_v be_v to_o ask_v for_o pardon_n thou_o who_o forgave_v s._n peter_n s._n mary_n magdalen_n s._n augustin_n and_o infinite_a other_o their_o sin_n and_o offence_n be_v merciful_a to_o i_o who_o groan_v in_o spirit_n against_o myself_n to_o see_v and_o remember_v that_o i_o have_v make_v no_o more_o haste_n to_o conclude_v a_o everlasting_a peace_n and_o league_n with_o thou_o o_o my_o god_n to_o thou_o now_o all_o the_o power_n of_o my_o scatter_a
of_o my_o death_n obtain_v for_o i_o wretched_a sinner_n confidence_n in_o his_o mercy_n which_o be_v as_o thou_o know_v above_o all_o his_o work_n i_o be_o not_o worthy_a to_o love_v but_o he_o be_v worthy_a of_o all_o love_n and_o adoration_n i_o can_v without_o great_a joy_n remember_v these_o follow_a word_n of_o the_o prophet_n i_o say_v hope_v his_o goodness_n will_v for_o his_o own_o sake_n give_v i_o leave_v to_o apply_v they_o to_o i_o poor_a and_o sinful_a soul_n though_o i_o deserve_v nothing_o of_o myself_n never_o have_v do_v he_o any_o faithful_a service_n in_o all_o my_o life_n chap_n 43._o v._n 1._o and_o now_o thus_o say_v our_o lord_n that_o create_v thou_o and_o form_v thou_o fear_v not_o because_o i_o have_v redeem_v thou_o and_o call_v thou_o by_o thy_o name_n thou_o be_v i_o 2._o when_o thou_o shall_v pass_v through_o the_o water_n i_o will_v be_v with_o thou_o and_o the_o flood_n shall_v not_o cover_v thou_o when_o thou_o shall_v walk_v in_o fire_n thou_o shall_v not_o be_v â—uâ—ned_v and_o the_o flame_n shall_v not_o â—urn_v inâ—_n thou_o o_o bless_a saint_n make_v intercession_n for_o i_o that_o i_o may_v be_v confident_a in_o he_o who_o thus_o abound_v with_o mercy_n amen_n 3._o because_o i_o be_o the_o lord_n thy_o god_n the_o holy_a one_o of_o israel_n thy_o saviour_n 4._o since_o thou_o become_v honourable_a in_o my_o eye_n and_o glorious_a i_o have_v love_v thou_o 5._o fear_v not_o because_o i_o be_o with_o thou_o 6._o and_o every_o one_o that_o invocate_v my_o name_n for_o my_o glory_n i_o have_v create_v he_o form_v he_o and_o make_v he_o 8._o bring_v forth_o the_o blind_a people_n and_o have_v eye_n the_o deaf_a and_o he_o that_o â—ath_v ear_n 9_o let_v they_o give_v their_o witness_n &_o be_v justify_v 10._o in_o very_a deed_n you_o be_v my_o witness_n say_v our_o lord_n and_o my_o servant_n who_o i_o have_v choose_v that_o you_o may_v know_v and_o believe_v i_o and_o understand_v that_o i_o myself_o be_o 11._o i_o be_o i_o be_o the_o lord_n and_o there_o be_v no_o saviour_n beside_o i_o and_o there_o be_v not_o that_o can_v deliver_v out_o of_o my_o hand_n 16._o thou_o say_v our_o lord_n that_o give_v away_o in_o the_o sea_n and_o a_o paâ—h_n in_o the_o uâ—hâ—menâ—_a water_n 18._o remember_v not_o former_a thing_n and_o look_v not_o on_o thing_n of_o old_a i_o be_o he_o that_o take_v clean_o away_o thy_o iniquity_n for_o my_o own_o sake_n and_o i_o will_v not_o remember_v thy_o sin_n 26._o bring_v i_o into_o remembrance_n and_o let_v we_o be_v judge_v together_o tell_v i_o if_o thou_o â—ave_n any_o thing_n that_o may_v be_v justify_v hethertho_n the_o word_n of_o the_o prophet_n i_o say_v s._n john_n 2._o v_o 12._o i_o write_v to_o you_o little_a child_n because_o your_o sin_n be_v forgive_v you_o for_o his_o name_n and_o now_o my_o child_n abide_v in_o he_o that_o when_o he_o shall_v appear_v we_o may_v have_v confidence_n and_o not_o be_v confound_v of_o he_o in_o his_o come_n my_o dear_a believe_v not_o every_o spirit_n and_o every_o spirit_n that_o dissolve_v jesus_n be_v not_o of_o god_n fear_n be_v not_o charity_n but_o perfect_a charity_n cast_v out_o fear_n let_v we_o therefore_o love_n god_n because_o god_n love_v us._n this_o be_v the_o charity_n of_o god_n that_o we_o keep_v his_o commandment_n and_o his_o commandment_n be_v not_o beauty_n o_o infinite_a goodness_n who_o be_v charity_n it-self_n pour_v thy_o grace_n abundant_o into_o my_o poor_a foul_a i_o invoke_v thou_o my_o god_n by_o the_o merit_n and_o intercession_n of_o all_o thy_o saint_n in_o heaven_n and_o servant_n on_o earth_n to_o have_v mercy_n on_o i_o now_o in_o this_o my_o last_o extremity_n al_n i_o desire_n be_v that_o in_o life_n and_o death_n i_o may_v be_v dispose_v of_o according_a to_o the_o multitude_n of_o tâ—y_n most_o abundant_a mercy_n a_o fountain_n never_o draw_v dryâ—_n all_o my_o joy_n be_v in_o that_o thou_o be_v my_o god_n and_o that_o i_o be_o at_o thy_o dispose_n though_o i_o be_o poor_a in_o all_o vertnes_n yet_o i_o be_o confident_a to_o be_v partaker_n of_o thy_o merit_n o_o sweet_a jesus_n which_o thou_o liberal_o bestow_v according_a to_o thy_o will_n and_o pleasure_n o_o be_v thou_o bless_v in_o all_o thou_o dispose_v o_o my_o god_n who_o be_v all_o i_o desire_v into_o thy_o hand_n i_o commend_v my_o spirit_n who_o be_v bless_v for_o ever_o amen_n the_o most_o learned_a of_o d._n s._n augustin_n say_v aiâ—_n eruditissimus_fw-la doctorum_fw-la augustinus_n o_o eternal_a truth_n and_o true_a charity_n and_o o_o aeterna_fw-la veritas_fw-la &_o vera_fw-la charitas_fw-la dear_a eternity_n thou_o be_v my_o god_n to_o thou_o &_o chara_fw-la eteruitas_fw-la tu_fw-la es_fw-la deus_fw-la meus_fw-la i_o suspire_v day_n and_o night_n this_o be_v that_o sublive_a tibi_fw-la suspiro_fw-la die_fw-la ac_fw-la nocte_fw-la hic_fw-la est_fw-la sublimis_fw-la ille_fw-la contemplative_a augustine_n contemplator_n augustinus_n cvius_fw-la cor_fw-la charitas_fw-la christi_fw-la vulneraveraâ—_n who_o hart_n the_o charity_n of_o christ_n have_v wound_v o_o my_o dear_a saâ—nt_n who_o great_a humility_n i_o can_v never_o to_o much_o praise_n and_o admire_v pray_v for_o she_o to_o who_o thou_o have_v be_v in_o her_o great_a affliction_n and_o misery_n even_o as_o a_o father_n and_o mother_n for_o which_o be_v exhibit_v honowr_n to_o thou_o by_o the_o most_o sweet_a hart_n of_o jesus_n our_o saviour_n the_o son_n of_o the_o live_a god_n by_o which_o and_o from_o which_o do_v most_o abundant_a sweetness_n flow_v to_o all_o the_o elect_a in_o the_o power_n that_o he_o give_v thou_o be_v one_o by_o who_o he_o bind_v and_o loose_v sinner_n give_v a_o abundant_a benediction_n to_o thy_o poor_a servant_n and_o beg_v of_o my_o god_n that_o i_o may_v never_o seek_v or_o intend_v any_o thing_n for_o time_n or_o eternity_n but_o his_o honour_n and_o glory_n and_o that_o i_o may_v so_o humble_a and_o subject_v myself_o under_o his_o mighty_a hand_n thaâ—_n for_o his_o love_n i_o may_v willing_o submit_v myself_n in_o what_o manner_n he_o please_v to_o all_o creature_n let_v i_o commit_v and_o commend_v myself_n to_o thy_o protection_n who_o be_v a_o careful_a receiver_n of_o all_o my_o petition_n and_o who_o art_n one_o who_o in_o a_o most_o particular_a manner_n godâ—_n have_v give_v i_o confidence_n in_o in_o all_o â—he_n necessity_n wherein_o my_o soul_n do_v stand_v need_n of_o a_o advocate_n and_o friend_n o_o happy_a change_n to_o leave_v all_o friend_n on_o earth_n to_o find_v the_o more_o certaiu_fw-la &_o assure_a friend_n and_o intercessor_n in_o heaven_n who_o be_v never_o absent_a never_o uncertain_a nor_o ever_o do_v they_o fail_v as_o those_o in_o this_o world_n be_v subject_a to_o do_v be_v therefore_o mindful_a of_o i_o i_o beseech_v thou_o in_o my_o life_n &_o also_o in_o my_o last_o extremity_n and_o remember_v that_o when_o affright_v with_o the_o multitude_n and_o greivoush_n of_o my_o sin_n and_o imperfection_n i_o dare_v scarce_o cast_v up_o my_o eye_n to_o heaven_n or_o call_v upon_o god_n and_o his_o bless_a mother_n who_o may_v just_o disdain_v so_o ungrateful_a and_o contemptible_a a_o creature_n yet_o by_o thy_o mean_n and_o be_v incouradge_v by_o thy_o example_n and_o read_v thy_o life_n and_o book_n so_o full_o of_o conâ—idence_n and_o sweetness_n i_o find_v my_o hart_n lighten_v and_o my_o spirit_n refresh_v and_o my_o soul_n exceed_o comfort_v find_v in_o thou_o and_o by_o thou_o express_v what_o a_o good_a god_n we_o have_v and_o that_o as_o his_o mercy_n be_v above_o all_o his_o work_n so_o he_o be_v able_a to_o forgive_v more_o than_o we_o can_v offend_v thou_o know_v thy_o very_a name_n when_o i_o be_o sad_a and_o afflict_a do_v refresh_v i_o to_o behold_v it_o and_o seem_v to_o smile_v upon_o i_o in_o my_o misery_n assure_v i_o of_o â—hy_a help_n in_o all_o my_o soul_n stand_v need_n of_o thou_o in_o this_o my_o pilgrimage_n and_o ban_v shment_n from_o my_o god_n who_o be_v my_o only_a love_n life_n desire_n and_o all_o my_o happiness_n tâ—_n who_o for_o ever_o be_v all_o glory_n honour_n anâ—_n adoration_n by_o all_o as_o well_o on_o earth_n as_o in_o heaven_n and_o who_o by_o his_o sweet_a mercy_n and_o thy_o intercession_n i_o desire_v and_o hope_n to_o love_n and_o sâ—rue_a for_o ever_o and_o ever_o amen_n omnes_fw-la qui_fw-la habebant_fw-la infirâ—os_fw-la ducebant_fw-la ill_n ad_fw-la jesum_fw-la &_o sanabaâ—â—ur_n 4.40_o all_o that_o have_v disease_v bring_v thâ—m_n to_o jesus_n and_o they_o be_v curedâ—_n to_o who_o therefore_o shall_v i_o fly_v in_o my_o manifold_a infirmity_n but_o to_o thou_o my_o jesus_n my_o goâ—_n and_o my_o saviour_n who_o be_v worthy_a oâ—_n our_o love_n our_o thought_n our_o heart_n and_o our_o soul_n but_o