by thee daylie afflicted for that I am continuallye found to haue offended 3. If I ponder the euill which I daylie committ that which I endure is nothinge in comparison of it 4. That which I haue done beinge much more greiuous then my Affliction Thou art iust ô Lord and right is thy iudgment All thy iudgements most iust and true 5. Thou ô Lord our God art iust full of goodnesse neither is there in thee any wickednesse 6. Because when wee offend thou dost not vniustlye and cruellye afflict vs who when we were not hast powrefullye made vs and when for our sinns wee were guiltie of damnation thou hast by thy wonderfull Mercye and goodnesse set vs in the state of Saluation 7. I know ô Lord God and am assured that our life is not gouerned by vncertayne chances but wholye disposed and ordered by thy Awfull powre and prouidence 8. Thou therefore takest care of all things but especiallye of such as serue the who put their confidence in thy onlye mercie 9. Wherefore I humblye beseech thee that thou wilt not deale with mee accordinge to myne iniquities by which I haue deserued thyne anger but accordinge to thy manifold mercyes which surmount the sinns of the whole world 10. Thou ô Lord who dost punish mee outwardlye giue always an inuincible Patience inwardlye to the end may neuer cease to prayse thee 11. Take pittye of mee ô Lord and helpe mee both in soule and Bodie 12. Thou I say who knowest all things and art able to doe all things whatsoeuer who liuest and rieguest for euer and euer 13. O Lord Iesus-Christ the Sonne of the liuinge God who with thy hands stretched forth on the Crosse hast drunke the bitter cupp of thy Passion for the Redemption of all mankind succour mee this Day I beseech thee 14. Behold ô Lord that I that am needie doe come to thee who art wealthy I that am full of miserie doe approach to thee replenished with mercye suffer mee not therefore to depart void or as one worthye to be dispised 15. I beginne hungrie let mee not end emptie 16. I approach as one hunger starned lett mee not depart vnfedd 17. And if I sigh before I eate graunt that I may at least eate after I haue sighed 18. First therefore most sneete Iesus before the magnificence of thy sweetnesse I confesse against mee my iniustice 19. Behold ô Lord whereas I was conceiued and borne in sinne thou hast waâ—hed and sanctifyed mee froÌ„ the same and I after this haue I defiled my selfe with greater offences 20. Those wherin I was borne were of necessitie but those in which I afterwards lay wallowinge were voluntarie This is continued in the followinge Exercise THE VII EXERCISE 1. THIS notwithstandinge thou ô Lord beinge not vnmindfull of thy Mercie and goodnesse hast drawne mee from my Fathers howse and from the tabernacles of sinners 2. And thou inspiredst mee with thy Grace to follow the companie of those who seeke thy Face who walke the direct way that leadeth to felicitie liuinge amongst the Lillies of Chastitie and sittinge at the table with thee in the parlour of most profound pouertie 14. As I haue sinned soe doe thou correct amend mee 15. And beinge by the stripes of thy Fatherlie Pittie â—orrected amended committ mee to the care custodie of thy onlye begotten Sonne Iesus-Christ our Lord. 16. Is it possible for a woemen to forgett the child of her owne wombe 17. And though shee should forgett ô most louinge Father thou hast promised not to be vnmindfull 18. Behold I crie thou dost not heare mee 19. I am afflicted with with greife thou dost not comfort mee 20â— O what shall I say or doe in this extreame miserie Alas I am altogether comfortlesse which is worse am chased out of thy presence 21. Wretch that I am from how greate good into how greate euill am I falne 22. Whither did I attempt to goe whither am I come 23. Where am I where am I not 24. How is it that I that did sigh after heauen doe now sigh through soe greate Tribulation 25. I haue sought comfort haue Found affliction 26. And truelie it is better for mee not to be then to be without thee sweet Iesus 27. It is better not to liue then to liue without thee the only true life This Exercise is continued in the Followinge THE VIII EXERCISE WHERE are now ô Lord Iesus thy accustomed Mercies 2. Wilt thou be displeased with mee for euer 3. Be appeased I beseech thee take pittie on mee turne not thy louinge Face away from mee who to redeeme mee hast not turned away thy Face from those who did mocke spitt at thee 4. I confesse that I haue sinned my conscience doth adiudge mee worthye of damnation neither is my pennance sufficient to make satisfaction 5. Nenerthelesse it is most certayne that thy mercie doth surmount all offences whatsoeuer be they neuer soe abominable 6. Wherefore ô most mercifull Lord I beseech thee doe not write downe my malitious bitternesse neither enter into Iudgement with thy seruant 7. But accordinge to the multitude of thy mercies blott out myne iniquities 8. Woe be to mee at the day of Iudgement when the bookes of our consciences shall be opened wherin our Actions are registred when of mee it shall be openlye proclaymed See heere a man and his workes 9. What shall I doe O my Lord aâ— that dreadfull daye when the Heauens shall reueale myne iniquitie And the earth shall beare wittnesse against mee 10. Verilye I shall be mute and able to say nothinge but holdinge downe my head through shame and confusion I shall stand before thee shakinge and blushingé 11. Alas what shall I say I will call and crie vnto thee ô Lord my God why am I consumed beinge silent 12. Neuerthelesse if I speake my greife will not cease 13. And if I hold my peace I shall interiorlie be tormented with insupportable bitternesse 14. Weepe ô my soule and make lamentation as a younge married weoman for the death of her Husband 15. Weepe and be wayle thy miserie for that thy bridegroome who is Christ hath forsaken thee 16. O Anger of the Almightie rush not vppon mee for I cannot subsist against tâ—â—e 17. Verâ—â—â—e there is nothinge in mee that is able to sustayne thee 18. Take pittie on mee least I dispaire of thy Mercie that by dispairinge of my selfe I may find comfort in confidinge in thee 19. And albeit I haue done that for which thou may iustlye condemne mee yet thou hast not lost thy accustomed propertie of shewinge mercie and pittie 20. Thou ô Lord dost not desire the death of sinners neither doest thou take pleasure in the perdition of those that dye 21. Nay rather that those who were dead might liue thou thy selfe haâ—â— died and thy death hath beene the death of that death that was due to sinners and they by thy Death are come to life 22. Graunt
come it naturallye or by any chance or accident 8. To loose my life by suddayne death or else by longe sicknesse as it shal please God 9. To receiue harme in my Imagination whereby I may haue my braines crackt or become a very foole or madd man And to be content with all this if God permitt the case to befall mee 10. That my Body putrifie and corrupt slowly and with lenth of tyme and that others obserue and take notice of such putrifyinge and in their natures abhorre it and mee for itt 11. To endure and suffer the Agonye of Death and the vnwillingnesse and horrour that nature hath in the separation of the soule from the Bodye Iâ— is continued THE III. EXERCISE 1. I am resigned to dye a natural death or otherwise a violent and paynefull death procured by others which of them may best please thee my Lord. 2. To dye when where and in what manner it shall best please God and that without the helpe of any of the Sacraments if I cannot come by them 3. Beinge dead to want not only honorable but euen Christian Burial And my Body to be a prey and food to beasts and fowles as hath beene and often is the case of Martyrs 4. In the Agonye of death to endure such terrours Afflictions temptations as the diuel doth then vsuallye rayse and procure or my deare God permitt Heere follow Resignations about externall Goods 5. To be depriued of the Cloths I haue or may haue be they neuer soe necessarie for mee The like for good bookes conuenient lodginges and to haue these things bestowed vppon one whom in my nature I am most auerted from 6. To be driuen to weare cloths that seeme base or insufficient or vnfitt for the bodyâ— as ouer heauy ouerhott for the summer or ouer thynne and light for the cold winter or else cloths that are of hayre rugged and paynefull to the Bodye 7. To be streitned or otherwise ilaccomodated for chamber or lodginge hard beddinge to want necessaries in my lodginge and beddinge 8. To want necessarie cloths soe as to be brought to that pouertie that I am not onlye barely and basely clothed but hardlye able to couer my nakednesse whereby I maye be wonderfully contemned and dispised by others 9. To be turned out of doores and to be depriued of all certayne and proper place of Habitation and thrust into the wide world and soe entirely left to such destinye as God shall permitt to fall vppon mee 10. To haue all the temporal goods whereof I haue the proprietie or vse taken from mee and to be left as poore naked and desolate as euer Iob was or any man or weoman can be 11. To endure the Crosses that in any sort spirituall or corporal maye fall vppon my friends or kindred or vppon those who in my nature I most affect as to endure their deaths imprisonments dishonors losse of their lands or goods their extreame pouertie or whatsoeuer else may happen vnto them 12. And on the other side to forbeare and restreigne my selfe from all inordinate ioye and complacence that I may take in their prosperities 13. I am resigned alsoe and hope to be well content that my friends and kindred louers and well wishers doe alienate and withdraw their affections from mee doe forgett and neglect mee yea and come to be auerted from mee and to conceiue and speake euill of mee and doe mee euill offices yet soe as I committ noe sinne or giue noe iust occasion of such auersion from mee 14. And further I resigne my selfe to be left and forsaken of all creatures in the world soe that I haue noe Man or any thinge to cleaue vnto saue thee only my Iesus who will aboundantly suffice mee 15. I am resigned and indifferent in what place and in what companie I liue and in particular to liue with them from whom my nature is most auerted and to liue with strangers aswell as with my familiars 16. And to liue with them with whom and from whom I shall find and receiue most contradictions discurtesies and hard vsages if it shall be the blessed will and pleasure of thee my Lord to allot or ordayne mee to liue in such companye 17. I am resigned to abide in this life in all sorts of Afflictions for soe longe tyme as it shall please God though it were to the end of the world 18. And not to yeild to the Motion or inclination of my nature that would perhaps out of wearisomnesse fayne haue life at an end But in this I wholy submitt my will to the will of God Amen Heere follow Resignations about good name Honour and Estimation THE IV. EXERCISE 1. I Am resigned not only not to be beloued or well thought of by Superiors Bretheren sisters or others but euen hated and euil thought of by them Yet wil I take heed through Gods Grace not by any sinne to giue iust Occasion of such hatred or euil opinion of mee 2. And I am resigned that all others yea myne enemyes be in greater Grace fauour loue and good opinion with superiors and all others then I am 3. To vndergoe all manner of disgraces Reproaches slaunders infamyes Dishonors Taunts contempts neglects scoffs backbitings and iniuries in my fame And to endure all these be they done to my face or behind my Back whither I haue iust occasion for them or noe and I am sorrie for the sinne soe farre as there was a sinne in it and I am glad of the occasion growne by it of my Resignation and Mortification 4. And whither they be done mee by my Superiors or betters or by myne equalls or els by such as in the condition of the world are inferior to mee 5. And whither they be done by such as I esteemed my friends and of whom I had better deserued or by any professed foes or as such behaue themselues towards mee though I esteeme them to be in charity with mee and all the world 6. I am resigned that my life or manner of my death be execrable odious and hatefull to others and beinge dead to be euil thought of and euil spoken of by others and to haue noe man that will uouchsafe to pray for mee beinge dead but to be either cleane forgotten or to haue an ill memorie and esteeme 7. Yea thought by all the world to haue dyed out of the state of Saluation and soe damned for euer Yea moreouer to haue it soe sett downe and expressed in a printed booke or Cronicle not only to my owne euerlastinge shame but to the shame and confusion of my kindred and familye 8. And finally in this life to be held for the scumme and outcast of all the race of Mankind and forsaken by All both as to their doings and to their Affections towards mee 9. In sicknesse and other occasions and necessities to be chargeable and troublesome to others and my selfe to be profitable to none at all nor in any sort to be
mee I beseech thee O Lord that thou liuinge I may not die since that thy death hath giuen life much more let thy life giue life 23. Lett thy heauenlye â—â—â—d helpe mee and deliuer mee from the hands of those that hate mee least they insult and reioyce ouer mee sayinge wee haue deuoured Him THE IX EXERCISE 1. HOW is it possible ô good Iesus that euer any one can dispaire of thy mercie who when wee were thyne enemyes thou hast redeemed vs with thy pretious Blood hast reconciled vs to God 2. Behold ô Lord protected by thy mercie I runne crauinge pardon to the Throne of thy Glorie callinge and knockinge vntil thou take pittie on mee 3. For if thou hast called vs to pardon euen when wee did not seeke it how much more shall wee obtayne pardon if wee aske it 4. Remember not thy iustice ô most sweete Iesus towards mee a sinner 5. But be mindfull of thy mercie towards mee thy creature 6. Remembeh not thy Anger towards mee guiltie but be mindfull of thy Mercie towards mee in miserie 7. Forgett my pride prouokinge thee to displeasure and weigh my wretcheuÌ„nesseâ— imploringe thy Fauour 8. For what dost thy sacred name Iesus signifie but onlye a Sauiour 9. Wherefore ô Sauuiour Iesus be thou my succour and protection and say vnto my soule I am thy Saluation 10. I doe presume verie much on thy deuine Bountie because thou thy selfe dost teach vs to aske seeke and knocke at the doore of thy mercie 11. Wherefore I doe aske seeke and knocke at thy doore as thou hast admonished mee to doe 12. Thou therefore ô Lord who willest mee to aske graunt that I may receiue 13. Thou dost counsell mee to seeke graunt mee likwise to find 14. Thou dost teach mee to knocke open vnto mee knockinge at the doore of thy Mercie 15. Recouer mee beinge diseased repaire mee beinge craised raise meâ— beinge dead 16. Vouchsafe likewise soe to direct and gouerne all my senses thoughts and Actions in that which is pleasinge vnto thee 17. That from henceforth I may faithfullye serue thee liue to thee and giue my selfe wholye vnto thee 18. I know my Lord that by reason thou hast made mee I owe my selfe vnto thee 19. And by reason thou hast redeemed mee and hast beene made Man for mee I doe owe if I had it to giue thee much more then my selfe vnto thee by how much thou art greater then I who hast giuen thy selfe for mee 20. Behold I haue nothinge else to giue thee neither can I giue thee this without thee 21. Take mee therefore and draw mee vnto thee that soe I may be thyne by imitation and affection like as I am by Condition and Creation who liuest and reignest world without end Amen THE X. EXERCISE 1. O Lord God Almightie who art Trinitie in Vnitieâ— who art alwayes in all things and wert before all things and wilt be in all things euerlastinglie one blissed God for all Eternitie 2. To thee this and all the dayes of my life I commend my soule my bodie my seeinge my hearinge tast smell and touchinge 3. All my cogitations Affections Words and Actions 4. All things that I haue without and within mee my sense and vnderstandinge my Memorie Faith and Beleife and my constancie in well doinge All these I commend into the hands of thy powerfull protection 5. To the end that all the nights and dayes howers and moments of my life thou preserue and direct mee 6. Heare mee ô sacred Trinitie and preserue mee from all euill from all Mortall sinne 7. And from all the deceites and Vexations of the Deuill and of all myne enemyes visible and inuisible 8. By the Prayers of the Patriarchs by the suffrages of the Apostles by the Constancie of the Martirs 9. By the Faith of the Confessors by the Chastitie of the Virgins and by the intercession of all the Saints who haue pleased and Faithfullye serued thee since the world begunne 10. Roote out of my hart all vaine-glorious ostentation and increase in mee the Spirit of compunction 11. Abate my Pride and increase my Humilitie 12. Stirre mee vp to teares and contrition and mollifie my Hart beinge hard as a stone 13. Deliuer mee and my soule ô Lord from all the snaâ—es of my Ghostlye enemyes and preserue mee in the performance of that which is most pleasinge vnto thee 14. Teach mee to doe thy will ô Lord because thou art my God 15. Graunt mee ô Lord perfect sense and intelligence whereby I may be able to know and acknowledge thy meruaylous greate kindnesse 16. Graunt that my petitions may be such as that they may be pleasinge to thee and profitable to my selfe 17. Graunt mee teares flowinge from my whole Affection which may be able to dissolue the bands of my sinns 18. Heare mee ô My Lord and My God Heare mee ô light of myne eyes 19. Heare what I demand and graunt that thou maist heare what I demand 20. If thou dispise mee I shall perish and be consumed if thou respect mee I shall liue This is continued in the ensuinge exercise THE XI EXERCISE 1. IF thou ô Lord examine my righteousnesse I shall be found as a dead Man stinkinge through rottennesse 2. But if thou behold mee with the eye of thy mercie thou wilt thereby raise mee beinge through sinne but a carcasse from the sepulchre of myne iniquitie 3. Whatsoeuer thou hatest ô Lord â—n mee expell and roote out of mee 4. And plant in mee the Spirit of Chastitie and continencie to the end â—hat whatsoeuer I shall demand of â—hee in my demand I may not offend â—hee â— Take from mee that which is hurtâ—ull and giue mee that is profitable 6. Giue mee a medicine ô Lord by which the soares of my soule may be healed 7. Bestow vppon mee ô Lord thy Feare compunction of Hart Humilitie and a conscience Free from all sinne 8. Graunt mee Grace ô Lord that I may be alwayes able to liue in charitie with my Bretheren not forgettinge my owne sinns or pryinge into the sinnes or doings of other men 9. Pardon my soule Pardon my sinns Pardon myne offences Pardon myne abominations 10. Visit mee Weakened Cure mee diseased Refresh mee wearied Rayse mee dead 11. Take pittie ô God take pittie of mee and behold mee from the sacred seate of thy sacred Maiestie 12. Grant mee ô Lord a hart thaâ— may feare thee a mind that may louâ— thee a sense that may conceiue thee eyes that may see thee 13. And illuminate the darkenesse of my hart with the bright beames of thy light 14. Giue mee ô Lord discretion to be able to discerne betwixt good and euill and enduemee with an vnderstandinge that is alwayes watchfull 15. I humblye craue pardon of all my sinns I humblie craue it ô Lord of thee from whom and by whom I hope to find Fauour in the tyme of necessitie 16. O Marie Mother of God Mother of Iesus-Christ our Lord thou sacred and vnspotted Virgin vouchsafe