breath so quickly againe and leave mee but dust as thou foundest me at first Though the service I can doe thee be not great yet it is more then dust can doe Hath dust a tongue or a voyce or any instruments of life for the declaring of thy truth and why then wilt thou make a divorce of parts which thou hast joyned together of purpose for that purpose If I desired life for any end of my owne thou hadst just cause then to make an end of my life but now that I desire it to doe thee service why wilt thou diminish the number of thy servants and not leave enow for the service thou hast to doe Can any number be sufficient to praise thee Can there ever be mouthes enow to declare thy Truth and may not I make one a sinfull one I know but yet one in the number if thou but please to spare mee for descending into the Pit But what Pit I meane not the Pit where the Apostate Angels are I know they descended not but fell and I know the Pit they fell into is a Pit of blasphemie the Pit I feare descending into is but a Pit of silence and yet in one thing is worse then theirs for they in their Pit retaine their substance still but I in this shall lose my very Being at least the quantitas continua of my body shall bee turned into the quantitas Discreta of dust and the frame compacted of all the Elements dissolved I shall remaine nothing but as it were a few crummes of Earth and what can Earth doe when it is not assisted with fire and water O therefore Verse 10 Heare O Lord and have mercy upon me Lord bee thou my helper for if thou lend mee not thine eare how can I hope thou wilt shew mee mercy and if thou have not mercy upon me how can I hope thou wilt bee my helper Heare me O God while I am in a place where I may be heard for if once I be descended into the Pit I shall quite then be out of all hearing Have mercy upon me while I am capable of mercy for if once I be turned into dust what mercy can I looke for Be thou my helper O God now that I am in a state to bee helped for if my bloud in which my life consists bee once shed what good then will thy helpe doe me I place Gods mercy in the midst here because it must serve to both the other both to make God to heare me and to make him to helpe me and Gods mercy can doe both it can make him to heare me though I were silent and can make him to helpe me though I were dust But though Gods mercy can doe it am I sure it will doe it O my soule his mercy hath done it already for it is the worke of his mercy that Hee hath turned my mourning into dauncing that hee hath put off my sackcloth and girded mee with gladnesse O wonderfull conversion the very same myracle I may say that Christ wrought at the Mariage in Cana for to turne Mourning into Dauncing what is it but to turne water into Wine To have turned my mourning but into comfort had beene a great worke and a great favour but to turne my mourning into dauncing the extremitie of sorrow into extremitie of joy who could doe this but thou onely O God with whom as no Myracles are wonders so no extremities are limits Mourning is not properly but for one that is dead and indeed so neere being dead was I that I might well be said to mourne for my owne death not unlike the Swan if it be true that shee sings her owne Elegie and now to have my mourning turned into dauncing the drooping act for Death be turned into the most lively act of Life what is it but the Myracle as it were of Resurrection and Ascention both at once at least from the lowest stayre of miserie to be raised to the highest of happinesse and not Gradatim by degrees and steps but per saltum by a motion more swift than the Fiery Chariot that carried up Elias into Heaven and so the change not more wonderfull then the suddennesse Mourning turned into Dauncing a wonderfull change and done as it were in the turning of a hand as wonderfull a suddennesse And now to make me fit for Dauncing Thou hast put off my sackcloth and girded me with gladnesse for indeed if I had kept on my sackcloth still I should have made but a heavie Dauncer but now that my sackcloth is off and I am girded with gladnesse I shall leape as light as Abraham did to see thy day I put on sackcloth when I was a Mourner but now that I am to be a Dauncer I am girded with gladness and if I mourned before to think of Gods anger may I not justly daunce now to thinke of his favour If I put on sackcloth before as sorrowing for my sinne may I not justly now be girded with gladnesse as rejoycing in my Saviour For though it be Gods mercy that hath done this for me yet it is his mercy in Christ my Saviour without whom his mercy alone would never have done it He would never have put off my sackcloth and girded me with gladnesse but for his sake and through his meanes that was anoynted with the Oyle of gladnesse above his fellowes My sackcloth was but a loose garment about mee which might easily be put off at pleasure but my gladnesse is girt about me to bee fast and sure and cannot leave me though it would at least none shall be able to take it from me And now though this be spoken here in the case of David yet it may bee conceived as in Type for all the godly if they mourne and lye in sackcloth now yet they shall ere long be girded with Gladnesse and daunce for joy but what Dauncing Not like that of Herodias Daughter for which Herod allowed her to aske halfe his Kingdome but like that of David before the Arke for which God without asking will give us a whole Kingdome And when shall the time bee Alas it cannot be long For they shall not goe out of Egypt into Canaan as the old Israelites did by the tedious passages of a troublesome Wildernesse but their Mourning shall be turned into Dauncing a conversion as sudden as when Moses his Leprous hand was turned to be sound againe by putting it onely in his bosome But to what end is it that God hath done Verse 12 this for me It may be thought because hee hath turned my Mourning into Dauncing and hath girded me with Gladnesse that hee hath done it to this end that I might live in jollity and spend my time with Belshazzar in revelling and feasting but there is no such matter hee hath done it to this end that my glory may sing praise unto him and not bee silent to this end that not onely I may praise him but may sing his praises
distempered with violence of Passions for alas what good were it to have still waters and turbulent spirits Hee restores it indeed to life that was growne before in a manner quite dead and who could restore my soule to life but he onely that is the good Shepheard and gave his life for his sheepe which no shepheard ever did but Hee Saint Peter layd downe his life but he gave not his life for he would perhaps have kept it if he might and he layd it not downe neither as a shepheard for his sheepe but as a sheepe rather for his shepheard but this Shepheard gave his life for his sheepe Gave it quia oportuit indeed because it was necessary he should give it but yet quia voluit too because hee would giue it for if it had not beene voluntarie it could not have beene acceptable and if not acceptable never certainly have served for a Ransome and if not Ransomming no Restoring But is it not said The Shepheard was smitten and the sheepe were scattered and what was his smyting but the Giving his life and had he not done better to have kept his life then leaving it to leave his sheepe to scattering O my soule though they were scattered for a time yet it was but to be gathered together againe with the greater joy for though he left his life yet he left not his sheepe but had a care of them even in death for hee had power to lay downe his life and power to take it up againe and as he layd it downe for his sheepes Ransome so hee tooke it up for their justification Every shepheard knowes that sheepe are subject to many infirmities and knowes many infirmities to which they are subject and therefore is never without his Boxe of Tarre as the best remedie in cases of danger but if the danger passe his Tarre-boxe and touch upon the life he then gives them over and lets nature worke but the Lord is a Shepheard of another nature above the power of Nature He restoreth the soule when the life is in danger hee hath wayes of curing which no shepheard knows of but himselfe and if other helps fayle he need but to say Velo sis sanus I will Be thou whole and without any Tarre-boxe it is a present remedie And may I not now justly say The Lord is my shepheard I shall not want And yet perhaps there will be want for all this for is it enough that he restore my soule and then leave me What is it to restore my soule but to put it in statu quo prius in the state it was made at first which was after the Image of God in holinesse and righteousnesse and if I could not continue in this state when made in it how shall I continue in it when restored to it Hee will therefore supply this want too for having restored my soule in righteousnesse Hee will leade mee in the paths of righteousnesse that though left to my selfe I tooke a wrong guide and went astray yet when he leades me that is the way it selfe I may be sure I cannot possibly goe out of the way But alas O Lord these paths of righteousnesse have a long time so little beene frequented that all prints of a path are almost cleane worne out that it is a hard matter now but to find where the paths lye and if wee can find them yet they are so narrow and so full of rubbes that without speciall assistance it is an impossible thing not to Fall or goe astray Even some Angels and those no meane ones were not able to goe right in these pathes of righteousnesse but for want of leading went awry and perished O therefore Thou the great Shepheard of my soule as thou art pleased of thy grace to leade me into them so vouchsafe with thy Grace to leade me in them for though in themselves they bee pathes of righteousnesse yet to me they will bee but paths of errour if thou vouchsafe not as well to leade me in them as into them O the comfortable pathes of righteousnesse the very paths in which Enoch walked with God and which walked in as they should be will bring us to a better Paradise then that of our first Parents For if God leade us in these paths these paths will leade us to the place where the Goats shall be put on the left hand and the sheepe be taken on the right that now I am certainly come to the highest cause of my glorying to say The Lord is my shepheard I shall not want for at his right hand is the fulnesse of Joy forevermore But why is it that this great Shepheard will doe these great things for me Is it because he findes me to be a sounder sheepe and to have fewer blemishes upon me then some other Alas no for I am nothing but blemishes and unsoundnesse all over but Hee will doe it for his Names sake For seeing hee hath taken upon him the Name of a good shepheard he will discharge his part what ever his sheepe be It is not their being bad sheepe that can make him leave being a good shepheard but he will be good and maintaine the credit of his Name in spight of all their badnesse and though no benefit come to them of it yet there shall glory accrew to him by it and his Name shall neverthelesse be magnified and extolled But now O my soule though I can say I shall not want yet can I say I shall not feare For is not Feare an inseparable companion of Mortalitie and can I then choose but feare that know my selfe to be mortall and know also what the condition is of being mortall Not onely that I may dye but that I must dye and not onely must one day but may this day Alas this very minute I feare indeed when I consider my owne frailtie but when I consider that the Lord is my Shepheard I then am armed against all feare against this feare of death it selfe Hee that makes me to walke in Greene pastures and in paths of righteousnesse and keepes me from want hee also leades me by the hand as I walke and keepes me from feare Yea thou I walke in the Verse 4 valley of the shadow of death I will feare no evill Though I be brought to never so great extremitie though brought as low as the Valley of death though brought as neere to Death as the shadow to the body though brought to walke as a ghost amongst the dead yet I will feare no evill The shadow of death may perhaps be farre enough from it for all our life is but the shadow of death but the Valley of the shadow must needs be close to death as being the very entrance to it yet if I were brought to this doore of death if brought within the doore and compassed about with Death yet for all this for all that can be said or done I will feare no evill Will you not will you not
then things themselves we see nothing now but colours and colours are deceitfull and no trusting to them the light I hope for is to see as I am seene a sight not subject to either dimnesse or dazeling a sight that discerneth not onely colours but substances and is not the hope of such a sight a comfortable Ingredient to keepe from fainting But yet what good is it to see goodnesse for we see many good things which yet wee are never the better for seeing But is it not true here Videte gustate for such our seeing shall be Vidchimus gustavimus our seeing shall be a tasting our tasting an enjoying and enjoying is not properly of any thing but in which there is joy and where there is joy must there not needs be comfort But yet what more goodnesse of God can wee hope to see hereafter then now for can there bee a greater goodnesse of God to bee seene then this that hee makes the Sunne to shine the raine to fall upon both just and unjust Wee see indeed now a great goodnesse of God but wee see it mingled with much badnesse of men and may I not say with some badnesse of his too for is there any evill in the Citie and God hath not done it but the goodnesse of God which I hope to see is a goodnesse like to garbled spice without any mixture at all of refuse stuffe amongst it a goodnesse not mingled with either evill of men or evill to men but pure and Impermixt as God himselfe is The goodnesse of God which we see now is a goodnesse in effects but there is a goodnesse in God which is as the cause Not as having goodnesse but as being goodnesse Not onely as imparting it selfe to us but as communicating it selfe with us and this goodnesse wee shall then see though now we cannot Have Philosophers conceived that if vertue could be seene with the eyes Mirabiles excitaret amores sui It would stirre up in us a wonderfull love and will not the goodnesse of God when seene with our eyes stirre up in our hearts a wonderfull joy and is not the hope of such a joy a strong Cordiall to keepe from fainting But why in the land of the living for is not the world in which wee now live the land of the living Are there not in the water living fishes in the Ayre living Birds On the Earth living Trees living Beasts living Men and what can be thought of more then these to make a Land of the living Alas what Land of the living is this in which there are more dead then living more under ground then are above it where the earth is fuller of graves then houses where life lyes trembling under the hand of Death and where Death hath power to tyrannize over life No my soule there onely is the Land of the living where there are none but the living where there is a Church not Militant but Triumphant a Church indeed but no Church-yard because none dead nor none that can dye where life is not passive nor Death active where Life sits crowned and where Death is swallowed up in victorie And now make up a Compound of these Ingredients Take first a Hope of seeing which is enjoying then the goodnesse of God not a qualitie but a substance then the Land of the living where there is no dying and now say if such a Cordial must not needs be strong of necessitie be effectuall to keepe from fainting O therefore my soule bee sure to provide thee good store of this Cordiall that if at any time thou be oppressed with either multitude or malice if at any time false witnesses bee risen up against thee if enemies at any time come upon thee to eat up thy flesh thou maist have this Cordiall in a readinesse and be able to say Doe the worst you can I feare you not for I beleeve to see the goodnesse of God in the Land of the living This not onely will keepe thee from fainting but wil fill thy spirits with extasie of joy for it is grounded upon a principle of comfort delivered by Saint Paul The afflictions of this life are not worthy of the glory that shall be revealed And what is this glory but to see the goodnesse of God and where to be revealed but in the Land of the living But all this yet is but the hope of a Cordiall at most but a Cordiall of hope but when will the Cordiall it selfe that is hoped for bee had May I not stay so long waiting for it that I may be weary with waiting and faint with wearinesse and then the Cordiall will come too late No my soule Waite on the Verse 14 Lord be of good courage and he shall give thee strength for as none is so worthy to be waited on as God so nothing is so worthy to be waited for as this Cordiall and never feare wearinesse by long waiting for it so long as thou waitest upon God for it for God that gives power to the Cordiall to keepe thee from fainting will give power to thy waiting to keepe it from wearinesse Onely bee sure to have a good heart and God will not faile to supply it with spirits Doe thou but onely bring wood to the Sacrifice and God will send fire from Heaven to kindle it But how happens it that David should give so good counsell to others and yet follow it so ill himselfe for hee confesseth of himselfe in another place that hee is dejected and bowed downe and can it stand with courage to be dejected But is it not that to be dejected is a Passive infirmitie to be couragious an Active vertue and there is no contradiction to bee Passively weake and Actively strong both at once Or is it not indeed rather that when he confesseth himsele to be dejected hee lookes upon his sinne and sinne will deject any that hath but eyes and is able to see it but when he counsells to be couragious hee lookes upon God and God is ready to give strength to any that hath but a heart and is able to take it As therefore I said before so I say againe Waite on the Lord which can never be too much taught because never enough be learned never be too much said because never be enough done THE THIRTIETH PSALME OF DAVID 1I Will extoll thee O Lord for thou hast lifted me up and hast not made my foes to rejoyce over me 2 O Lord my God I cryed unto thee and thou hast healed mee 3 O Lord thou hast brought up my soule from the grave thou hast kept mee alive that I should not goe downe to the pit 4 Sing unto the Lord all yee Saints of his and give thankes at the remembrance of his holinesse 5 For his anger endureth but a moment weeping may endure for a night but joy commeth in the morning 6 And in my prosperity I said I shall never be moved 7 Lord by thy favour thou hast
torment then despaire of remedie What is it for the sorrowes of death to compasse me about but as it were to besiege me and was it ever knowne where they once besieged that ever they did raise their siege Was it ever knowne where the paines of Hell did once take hold that ever they did let goe their hold and alas in this extremitie of distresse in this gulph of despaire what hope could David possibly have that ever hee should be delivered O my soule the hope of Abraham In spe contra spem credidit Hee beleeved against all credibilitie Hee hoped against all possibilitie against all possibilitie indeed in the course of nature against all credibilitie in the eye of Reason and therefore he makes his moane to one above the reach both of Nature and Reason Verse 4 O Lord I beseech thee deliver my soule a short Prayer for so great a suite and yet as short as it was it prevailed that if wee wondred before at the power of God wee may wonder now at the power of Prayer that can prevaile with God for obtaining of that which in Nature is impossible and to Reason seemes incredible There are many short Prayers recorded in the Scriptures of which we may note especially three This of David here O Lord deliver my soule and that of the Publican in the Gospell Lord be mercifull to me a sinner and that of the Thiefe upon the Crosse Lord remember me when thou commest into thy kingdome All three short yet all three Prevalent that wee may know it is not the multiplicitie of words or the length of Prayers that prevailes with God but the fervencie of spirit and the devotion of the heart Yet lest it should be taken as a restraint of longer prayers and specially lest it should be a scandall to the Prayer which Christ taught us and is much longer we may observe withall that each of these prayers is but of one Petition in Christs Prayer For to say O Lord deliver my soule is no more nor fully so much as to say Deliver us from evill and to say Lord be mercifull to me a sinner is no more nor fully so much as to say Forgive us our trespasses and to say Lord remember mee when thou commest into thy Kingdome is no more nor so much as to say Thy kindome come But seeing David with his short Prayer prevailed with God to deliver his soule why should I despaire of the like successe of my prayers to be delivered from my troubles O my soule I should not despaire of the like successe as David had if I could but pray with the like spirit as David did O therefore thou great God that didst inspire Davids heart with a spirit of zeale which made his prayers not onely acceptable but effectuall vouchsafe also to kindle in my heart a fire of Devotion that my prayers may ascend unto thee like the sacrifice of Abell so acceptable that they may be accepted so accepted that they may be effectuall and may make mee able to sing this Allelujah of David I will love the Lord for he hath heard my voyce and my supplication And now O my soule me thinkes I see the Lord as it were inclining his eare unto me and I seeme to feele an accesse of force in my confidence Verse 5 of his goodnesse for indeed the Lord is gracious and righteous yea our God is mercifull Hee is gracious in hearing Hee is righteous in judging hee is mercifull in Pardoning and how then can I doubt of his will to helpe me Hee is righteous to reward according to deserts He is gracious to Reward above deserts Yea he is mercifull to reward without deserts and how then can I doubt of his Will to helpe mee Hee is gracious and this shews his bountie he is righteous and this shews his Justice Yea hee is mercifull and this shews his love and how then can I doubt of his Will to helpe mee If hee were not gracious I could not hope he would heare me If he were not righteous I could not depend upon his Promise If hee were not Mercifull I could not expect his Pardon but now that he is gracious and righteous yea and mercifull too how can I doubt of his Will to helpe me But are there no others that are gracious and righteous and mercifull as well as Hee Are not the Saints and Angels in Heaven They are so no doubt but not as well as hee God forbid wee should once have such a thought They are Gracious and Righteous and Mercifull by participation onely and onely by having as it were some beames imparted to them but to bee gracious as the Fountaine of Grace to be Righteous as the Sunne of Righteousnesse to be Mercifull as the Authour of Mercie there is none there is none at all neither Saint nor Angell that is so but onely God and therefore of Gods Power and Will to helpe me of his and of his onely I can onely be assured And if I erre in simplicitie yet the Lord preserveth the simple he takes Verse 6 not advantage of errours where there is a good intention yet not a good intention onely where the truth is manifest and revealed for then should Uzzah have beene preserved but in matters obscure and not plainly revealed there to serve God in simplicitie of heart this falls within the compasse of Gods mercy and such he takes into his Protection He gives them perhaps some resentment of their errours by worldly crosses but yet hee denyes them not his assistance and this I can speake of my owne experience For I was brought low and yet hee helped me I was brought low and in trouble by the just provocation of my sinnes but because I sinned not in presumption but in simplicitie at least by infirmitie the Lord hath had mercy on me and preserved me Or I was brought low and hee helped mee for then is the time of helpe when we are brought low and therefore God who doth all things in due time when I was brought low then he helped me Wherefore O my soule let it never trouble thee how low soever thou bee brought for when thy state is at the lowest then is Gods assistance at the neerest that we may truly say Gods wayes are not as the wayes of the world for in the world when a man is once brought low he is commonly trampled upon and nothing is heard then but downe with him downe to the ground but with God it is otherwise for his propertie is to raise up them that fall and when they are brought low then to helpe them That it is no such hard case for a man to bee brought low may I not rather say his case is happy for is it not better to be brought low and have God to helpe him then to be set aloft and left to helpe himselfe At least O my Body this may bee a comfort to thee for thou art sure to bee brought low as low