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a_o issue_n nor_o a_o fair_a retreat_n and_o herein_o his_o carriage_n much_o take_v i_o the_o modesty_n of_o his_o soul_n in_o confess_v its_o defect_n have_v much_o more_o beauty_n and_o worth_a in_o it_o than_o his_o science_n can_v have_v have_v in_o solve_v my_o doubt_n and_o in_o all_o difficulter_n and_o subtle_a question_n which_o i_o propose_v on_o this_o manner_n i_o find_v he_o my_o affection_n therefore_o which_o i_o former_o have_v to_o the_o manichean_a opinion_n be_v now_o much_o abate_v and_o despair_v of_o their_o other_o doctor_n skill_n after_o the_o trial_n of_o one_o so_o much_o fame_v i_o begin_v a_o new_a conversation_n with_o he_o in_o those_o study_n of_o rhetoric_n which_o he_o much_o affect_v and_o i_o then_o teach_v at_o carthage_n read_v with_o he_o such_o book_n as_o he_o desire_v or_o i_o think_v suitable_a for_o such_o a_o wit_n and_o to_o such_o a_o purpose_n but_o all_o design_n of_o further_a advance_n myself_o in_o that_o sect_n after_o his_o 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only_o can_v repair_v what_o it_o at_o first_o build_v chap._n viii_o much_o offend_v with_o the_o unrulinesse_n of_o his_o scholar_n in_o carthage_n he_o remove_v from_o thence_o beyond_o sea_n to_o rome_n to_o profess_v rhetoric_n there_o extreme_o against_o his_o mother_n will_n therefore_o by_o the_o conduct_n of_o thy_o providence_n it_o be_v now_o so_o bring_v about_o that_o i_o shall_v be_v persuade_v rather_o to_o go_v to_o rome_n and_o to_o teach_v there_o what_o i_o do_v at_o carthage_n and_o here_o how_o i_o become_v so_o resolve_v i_o will_v not_o omit_v to_o confess_v unto_o thou_o because_o also_o in_o these_o thing_n thy_o most_o secret_a working_n and_o always_o most_o present_a mercy_n towards_o we_o ought_v ever_o to_o be_v consider_v and_o profess_v my_o intent_n for_o rome_n be_v not_o so_o much_o for_o great_a profit_n or_o honour_n though_o both_o these_o be_v promise_v by_o my_o friend_n and_o then_o not_o a_o little_a sway_v my_o inclination_n but_o the_o 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toothache_n after_o he_o be_v render_v thereby_o speechless_a cap._n 4_o his_o acquaint_v s._n ambrose_n by_o letter_n with_o his_o former_a error_n and_o present_a resolution_n desire_v his_o advice_n what_o part_n of_o scripture_n chief_o he_o shall_v read_v who_o direct_v he_o to_o isaiah_n cap._n 5_o his_o return_n to_o milan_n the_o easter_n follow_v to_o receive_v baptism_n from_o bishop_n ambrose_n together_o with_o his_o son_n adeodate_v and_o alipius_n who_o travel_v thither_o barefoot_a s._n augustine_n ravishment_n and_o melt_a into_o tear_n upon_o hear_v the_o church-service_n and_o music_n cap._n 6_o the_o original_a of_o sing_v the_o church-psalme_n and_o hymn_n at_o milan_n after_o the_o manner_n of_o the_o eastern_a church_n the_o body_n of_o the_o martyr_n gervasius_n and_o protasius_n discover_v to_o s._n ambrose_n by_o divine_a revelation_n find_a uncorrupted_a many_o miracle_n do_v by_o they_o whereby_o the_o fury_n of_o the_o arrian_n empress_n towards_o s._n ambrose_n and_o the_o catholic_n be_v much_o lenify_v cap._n 7_o s._n augustine_n return_n by_o rome_n for_o africa_n the_o death_n of_o his_o mother_n in_o italy_n at_o ostia_n a_o description_n of_o her_o pious_a education_n and_o life_n cap._n 8_o her_o dutiful_a deportment_n towards_o and_z at_o last_o conversion_n of_o her_o husband_n patricius_n to_o profess_v the_o christian_a faith_n cap._n 9_o the_o discourse_n between_o he_o and_o his_o mother_n at_o ostia_n some_o few_o day_n before_o her_o sickness_n concern_v the_o felicity_n of_o the_o next_o life_n her_o desire_n of_o death_n cap._n 10_o her_o sickness_n death_n careless_a of_o her_o funeral_n only_o desire_v from_o they_o a_o remembrance_n of_o she_o at_o the_o altar_n of_o the_o lord_n cap._n 11_o s._n austin_n refrain_v from_o weep_v though_o suffer_v much_o inward_a grief_n to_o which_o after_o her_o burial_n he_o indulge_v some_o tear_n cap._n 12_o his_o prayer_n for_o his_o decease_a mother_n monica_n and_o father_n patricius_n cap._n 13_o lib_fw-la x._o in_o this_o book_n s._n austin_n make_v confession_n of_o the_o several_a lapse_n and_o infirmity_n of_o his_o present_a condition_n since_o his_o regeneration_n by_o baptism_n cap._n 1_o the_o end_n and_o fruit_n of_o confess_v his_o present_a condition_n mental_o to_o god_n cap._n 2_o the_o end_n and_o fruit_n of_o his_o confess_v his_o present_a condition_n public_o before_o man_n cap._n 3_o yet_o not_o able_a to_o see_v or_o confess_v all_o of_o himself_o which_o god_n see_v in_o he_o cap._n 5_o description_n of_o his_o present_a condition_n in_o the_o state_n of_o grace_n that_o he_o now_o true_o love_v god_n concern_v who_o he_o proceed_v to_o examine_v what_o it_o be_v he_o love_v when_o he_o say_v that_o he_o love_v god_n that_o it_o be_v *_o no_n object_n of_o sense_n *_o no_o part_n of_o the_o visible_a world_n abroad_o *_o no_o part_n or_o faculty_n within_o himself_o cap._n 6_o neither_o the_o vegetative_a nor_o yet_o the_o sensitive_a cap._n 7_o nor_o yet_o the_o more_o interior_a and_o most_o admirablâ—_n faculty_n of_o the_o memory_n the_o many_o wonder_n of_o which_o to_o the_o great_a glory_n of_o the_o maker_n thereof_o he_o most_o subtle_o discourse_v unto_o the_o 26_o chapter_n cap._n 8_o etc._n etc._n that_o god_n who_o he_o love_v is*_n something_o within_o but_o yet_o above_o his_o soul_n *_o not_o confine_v by_o place_n omnipresent_v etc._n etc._n cap._n 26_o that_o though_o he_o now_o true_o love_v god_n abstract_v from_o and_o far_o above_o all_o other_o creature_n and_o also_o above_o himself_o cap._n 27_o yet_o he_o enjoy_v not_o as_o yet_o a_o perfect_a union_n unto_o he_o but_o have_v a_o perpetual_a combat_n with_o many_o other_o false_a joy_n and_o grief_n and_o fear_n cap._n 28_o not_o have_v yet_o a_o perfect_a continency_n in_o respect_n of_o all_o other_o object_n beside_o god_n but_o extend_v some_o undue_a attention_n and_o affection_n unto_o they_o cap._n 29_o he_o examine_v himself_o and_o confess_v his_o present_a infirmity_n in_o the_o several_a branch_n of_o concupiscence_n 1_o john_n 2.16_o 1._o the_o lust_n of_o the_o flesh_n 2._o the_o lust_n of_o the_o eye_n 3._o the_o pride_n of_o life_n and_o here_o he_o confess_v 1._o his_o remain_a infirmity_n concern_v the_o temptation_n of_o the_o lust_n of_o the_o flesh_n and_o among_o these_o 1._o concern_v the_o temptation_n of_o the_o touch_n relate_v to_o carnal_a concubinage_n cap._n 30_o 2._o concern_v the_o temptation_n of_o the_o taste_n in_o eat_v and_o drink_v cap._n 31_o 3._o concern_v the_o temptation_n of_o the_o smell_n in_o sweet_a odour_n and_o perfume_n cap._n 32_o 4._o concern_v the_o temptation_n of_o the_o ear_n in_o music_n where_o whether_o music_n be_v useful_a in_o church_n cap._n 33_o 5._o concern_v the_o temptation_n of_o the_o eye_n in_o splendid_a fair_a and_o well_o proportion_v object_n cap._n 34_o 2._o his_o remain_a infirmity_n concern_v the_o temptation_n of_o the_o lust_n of_o the_o eye_n or_o curiosity_n of_o vain_a science_n cap._n 35_o 3._o his_o remain_a infirmity_n concern_v the_o temptation_n of_o the_o pride_n of_o life_n the_o great_a danger_n of_o vain-glorying_a â–³_o incur_v from_o the_o approbation_n and_o praise_n of_o man_n cap._n 36_o which_o be_v not_o avoidable_o to_o well-doing_n cap._n 37_o â–³_o incur_v also_o from_o the_o contemn_v of_o praise_n as_o this_o also_o be_v a_o thing_n praiseworthy_a cap._n 38_o â–³_o incur_v also_o from_o self-love_n and_o self-conceit_n without_o regard_n to_o praise_v of_o other_o cap._n 39_o a_o recapitulation_n of_o the_o thing_n former_o speak_v in_o this_o book·_fw-la s._n augustine_n sometime_o extraordinary_a transportment_n in_o the_o contemplation_n and_o love_n of_o god_n cap._n 40_o 41_o his_o recourse_n for_o a_o remedy_n to_o all_o these_o his_o malady_n not_o *_o to_o evil_a angel_n or_o demon_n with_o the_o platonist_n or_o other_o practise_v evil_a art_n as_o mediator_n between_o god_n and_o man_n because_o sinner_n like_o man_n spirit_n like_o god_n cap._n 42_o but_o *_o to_o christ_n who_o be_v the_o only_a true_a mediator_n mortal_a like_o man_n righteous_a like_o god_n through_o who_o else_o desperate_a he_o confident_o hope_v a_o perfect_a cure_n of_o all_o his_o disease_n cap._n 43_o the_o end_n and_o purpose_n of_o these_o his_o confession_n cap._n 44_o the_o confession_n of_o s._n augustine_n declare_v the_o story_n of_o his_o life_n lib_fw-la i._o chap._n i._n cap._n 1_o invocation_n and_o praise_n of_o god_n so_o great_a so_o incomprehensible_a and_o yet_o so_o near_o and_o intimate_v to_o his_o creature_n and_o require_v of_o man_n so_o vile_a a_o thing_n by_o sin_n to_o love_v to_o invocate_v to_o praise_v and_o to_o confess_v unto_o he_o this_o in_o the_o five_o chapter_n follow_v great_a be_v thou_o o_o lord_n and_o exceed_o to_o be_v praise_v 147.5_o psal_n 145.3_o &_o 147.5_o great_a be_v thy_o power_n and_o thy_o wisdom_n be_v infinite_a and_o yet_o man_n presume_v to_o praise_v thou_o be_v a_o piece_n of_o thy_o creation_n poor_a man_n that_o bear_v about_o he_o now_o mortality_n that_o bear_v about_o this_o sad_a remembrancer_n of_o his_o sin_n and_o this_o inherent_a witness_n that_o thou_o o_o god_n resiste_v the_o proud_a 4.6_o jam._n 4.6_o yet_o man_n desire_v to_o praise_v thou_o as_o a_o piece_n of_o thy_o creation_n and_o this_o his_o delight_n to_o praise_v thou_o also_o flow_v from_o thou_o because_o thou_o make_v he_o for_o thou_o and_o his_o heart_n be_v restless_a until_o it_o repose_v in_o thou_o teach_v i_o therefore_o now_o o_o lord_n this_o my_o duty_n towards_o thou_o and_o which_o ought_v to_o precede_v that_o to_o call_v upon_o thou_o or_o that_o to_o give_v praise_n unto_o thou_o and_o again_o which_o be_v first_o to_o know_v thou_o or_o to_o call_v upon_o thou_o but_o who_o be_v he_o that_o call_v upon_o thou_o and_o do_v not_o first_o know_v thou_o for_o so_o he_o may_v address_v his_o prayer_n to_o 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those_o false_a vision_n persuade_v i_o when_o a_o sleep_n to_o what_o true_a sight_n when_o awake_a can_v no_o way_n entice_v i_o and_o be_v it_o not_o then_o also_o the_o same_o i_o o_o lord_n my_o god_n and_o yet_o so_o much_o difference_n there_o be_v between_o myself_o and_o myself_o in_o such_o a_o moment_n of_o time_n when_o resign_v up_o to_o sleep_v and_o when_o return_v to_o vigilancy_n where_o then_o be_v my_o reason_n by_o which_o when_o awake_a my_o mind_n resist_v any_o such_o suggestion_n and_o though_o the_o thing_n themselves_o present_v themselves_o before_o i_o remain_v unshaken_a be_v it_o then_o clasp_v up_o with_o my_o eye_n be_v it_o lull_v asleep_a with_o my_o corporeal_a sense_n and_o whence_o then_o in_o our_o sleep_n also_o do_v we_o many_o time_n resist_v and_o remember_v our_o former_a resolution_n and_o chaste_o persevere_v therein_o yield_v no_o assent_n to_o such_o lustful_a allurement_n and_o yet_o when_o in_o sleep_v it_o happen_v otherwise_o this_o 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which_o both_o my_o interior_a and_o exterior_a then_o shall_v enjoy_v with_o thou_o when_o death_n shall_v be_v swallow_v up_o in_o victory_n chap._n xxxi_o 2._o his_o remain_a infirmity_n concern_v the_o temptation_n of_o the_o taste_n in_o eat_v and_o drink_v there_o be_v another_o evil_n of_o the_o day_n 9.27_o day_n beside_o the_o former_a night_n evil_a mat._n 6.34_o 1_o cor._n 6.13_o 1_o cor._n 15_o 53._o 1_o cor._n 9.27_o and_o i_o wish_v the_o day_n be_v sufficient_a for_o it_o for_o here_o we_o must_v by_o eat_v and_o drink_v repair_v the_o daily_a ruin_n of_o the_o body_n until_o the_o time_n thou_o shall_v destroy_v both_o the_o meat_n and_o the_o belly_n and_o shall_v slay_v this_o my_o indigency_n with_o a_o miraculous_a satiety_n and_o shall_v clothe_v this_o corruptible_a with_o a_o eternal_a incorruption_n but_o now_o this_o my_o necessity_n be_v very_o pleasant_a and_o sweet_a unto_o i_o and_o against_o this_o sweetness_n i_o now_o fight_v that_o i_o may_v not_o be_v 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