as other mens and though their love comes up like a flower it 's obnoxious to be cut or trod down like grass (g) Mat 6.30 which to day is and to morrow is cast into the oven Be thou my friend who changest not but lovest to the end yea world without end (h) Rev 2.10 who art faithful to the Death and givest thy friends a crown of Life whose love neither death can strike (i) Ro 3.38 39 nor life consume nor angels stop in the way nor principalities (k) Ro. 13.2 and powers resist to any but their own damnation nor things present cross nor things to come annoy nor heighth pull down nor depth swallow up nor any other creature do any other injury unto Oh my God make me know men (l) Jam. 1.8 are double-winded and their love is unstable in all its waies (m) He. 12.15 any root of bitterness may spring up and trouble it the rust of money (n) Mat 6.19 may corrupt it thieves may break in and steal it An unbridled tongue may ride over it and spoil it Oh make me sell all I have to get thy love thy love which is an inheritance (o) 1 Pe 1.4 5. incorruptible undefiled and that fades not away reserv'd in heaven kept through my faith indeed but by thy power unto salvation Make me know good Lord That all the friends on earth can't make one (p) Mat. 5.36 hair of my head white or black nor by (q) Mat 6.27 taking ever so much thought add one cubit to my stature when sick or sorrowful there 's not one to whom I can say (r) Mat. 8.2 7. If thou wilt thou canst make me clean and whole nor can a soul of them say I will come and heal thee (s) Job 7.38 But oh my God he that believeth in thee though he were dead yet should he live Thou canst (t) Ezo 37.6 lay sinews upon dry bones cover them with flesh and breath in life 'T is but a word (u) Heb 11.3 and a world with thee (x) Ecc 1.15 that which is crooked thou canst make strait and that which is wanting thou canst number it My God my God I beseech thee put away my lovers and friends from me and (y) Job 19.13 let my acquaintance be estranged from that intimacie and perpetuitie of converse with them which hinders my communion with thee Though of all things below they are the sweetest they cannot (z) Pro 30 8. feed me with food convenient for me though I am greatly prone to put (a) Pro. 25.19 confidence in them I find that confidence in them in time of trouble is like a broken tooth and a foot out of joynt Though they have (b) Eph 4.28 stole away too too much of my affection already Oh my God let them steal no more Enable me to (c) Luk 14.26 hate my very father as much as is requisite to come a friend to thee Be thou my whole acquaintance and let me be ever with thee either in delights or desires Let me be a (d) Psal 119.23 companion of all them that love thee but let my communion be with and my strong confidence be in thee who art never better known than trusted Amen my God and Saviour Amen Amen! 10. A Soliloquy with God of the Holy Scriptures BLessed God (x) Job 6.25 how forcible are right words thine I am sure are Right because thine and right forcible because they are such (y) Jer. 23.29 hammers as break the very Rocks of my heart such a fire as pierces into my inmost depths and reaches the dross (z) 1 Co 2.9 which no Eye hath seen or ear heard Such Monitors as whoever won't hear (a) Luk 16.31 would not believe if one came from the dead Such as (b) Psal 119.9 cleanse the ways of even young men themselves so hard to be reclaimed that David cries out astonishedly Wherewithall shall a man young cleanse his waies Of very stocks and stones thy word (c) Mat. 3.9 has rais'd up children to Abraham It is (d) Isa 43.1 the arm of God yea and very sword too God the Father's arm God the Son's (e) 1 Co 4.20 power God the (f) Eph 6.17 Spirits sword Oh my God (g) Pre. 15.23 words spoken in season how good are they but when are thine out of season When (h) 1 Pe 2.2 we are babes they are milk (i) Pro 16.24 sweet and nourishing When grown they are strong meat making us go in thy wayes without weariness yea (k) Psal 19.5 run without fainting when in bitterness of sin and sorrow they are honey pleasant and purgative too When in doubts they are Counsellors when fainting (l) Can 2.5 they are flagons of soul-reviving cordials and apples of comfort When quite dead and the spirit gone (m) Jo. 6 6â— the words which thou sayest they are spirit and they are life (n) Jam 1.18 We are begotten by thy holy word (o) psa 119.93 as many as are born of God! We are fed by the same and no better fed than taught neither O my God there is not a (p) Psa 119 105. word in my tongue but thou knowest it altogether Oh would to Christ there may not be a (q) Psal 139.4 word in thy Book but I may know it altogether (r) Jam 1.5 Praised be thy holy Name thou dost not say If any man want wisdom that then he shall strait be damn'd for a fool but sayest That then he should ask it of thee Lord I ask of thee that (s) 2 Ti. 3.15 wisedom to salvation which thy word alone is able to give me I observe That all worldly wise withour this are (t) Mat. 10.16 as harmless as serpents as wise as doves without hearts they are wise to do evil in the form of godliness but to do good as good they have (u) Jer. 4.22 none the least knowledge What are all humane Authors that I should take knowledge (x) Psal 144.3 of them Or the most Learned that I should make account of them (y) Isa 55.8 9. Their words are not as thy words nor their notions as thy notions As the heavens are high above the earth so are thy words high above their words thy notions above theirs Methinks of all the Books in my Studie it is my Bible onely which can use the mighty Lords own words (z) Isa 45.22 Look unto me and be ye saved All the ends of the earth (a) Pro. 8.18 20 21 14. riches and honour are with me yea durable riches and honours lead in the way of righteousness in the midst of the paths of Judgement That I may cause those that love me to inherit substance and I will fill their treasures Counsel is mine and sound wisedom I am understanding I have strength Other Books I confess with their
Law ought not to depart out of a man's mouth so neither ought it to enter in save (k) Mat. 12.34 out of the hearts abundance Eliphaz advises (l) Job 22.22 Job to lay up God's word in his heart not his mouth (m) Pro 3.1 Prov. 4.23 and Solomon thought no cabinet so proper to keep divine Commands in as it Nay God himself chuses the Tables of the heart (n) Jer. 31.33 for to write his Laws in which makes me conclude A man may keep his mouth and tongue richly and yet never keep (o) Pro. 21.23 his soul from troubles and this because I know whatever entreth in at the mouth if it find no place in the heart it goes into (p) Mat 15.18 the belly of hidden lusts and is cast out into their draught The things of God which proceed out of the mouth when they proceed not forth out of the heart they defile the man So little a praise is it to be a man of pure lips if no more and especially if that of the (q) Isa 29. wise man be true to wit that though (r) Pro. 14.23 in all labour there be profit yet lip labour has a direct tendency to povertie Oh my soul (s) Pro. 11.9 Solomon tells thee That the Hypocrite with his mouth destroyeth his neighbour I tell thee more even that he destroys himself for though he has (t) Pro. 7.14 9 15 16 17 18 19 20. Peace offerings with him and every day payes his vows yet he goes forth in the black and dark angels of his soul to meet the Devil diligently to find him though he decks his bed with covering of religious Tapestry with carved works and fine linen of profession though he perfumes his bed with myrrh aloes and cinamon yet he takes his fill of spiritual whoredom and solaces himself with atheistical loves while the good conscience is not at home but is turn'd out of doors with a bag of money not to come home till the day appointed even that of Death and Judgement If of any soul alive this oh my soul is true of the hypocritical one He feedeth on ashes a deceiv'd heart hath turn'd him aside that he cannot deliver his soul nor say (u) Isa 44.20 Is there not a lye in my right hand (x) Pro 12.15 For the way of such a fool is right in his own eyes And Christ himself does not deny but he has his reward (y) Mat. 6.2 Mat. 6.4 Mat. 6.7 Mat. 6.6 Mar. 6.31 32 He does his alms to the devil in secret and that father of his who seeth him in secret himself rewards him openly Though when he prayes to God he uses as vain repetitions as the Heathens do yet when he prayes to the devil and wishes for devilish things he keeps in the closet of privacy and shuts all the doors at which men may see in He takes no thought saving What shall I do to eat Christ's flesh or drink his blood or cloath me with the garment of his Righteousness For after all these things do true Israelites seek but he seeks first the titular Kingdom of God and the professional Righteousness thereof and thinks all these things shall be added He takes no care for to morrow but lets that care for it self Sufficient he thinks unto the Day of Judgement if to any day is the evil thereof His love I can't say is without dissimulation but sure (z) Mat 5.44 love he does his enemies God's Lawes bless he does them though they curse him and pray for God's promises though they despightfully use him and give him no one drop of comfort He 's even almostas perfect as his father which is inHell is perfect This indeed oh my soul (a) Mat 7.11 9 10 9 10. I observe that being evil the hypocrite knows how to give good gifts and though when his friend asks of him for bread what he gives him in respect of himself be no more than a stone and he takes no more in it yet to his friend 't is good bread Though the Truths he delivers be to himself serpents that sometimes sting his soul yet as he delivers them they are fish What is (b) 2 Co 4.2 handling the Word of God deceitfully if this be not to wit Taking it (c) Deu 30.14 very nigh one even into ones mouth and yet not so much as know it any otherwise than God knows the proud to wit (d) Psal 138.6 afar off to be not a hearer onely but a talker too and yet not a (e) Jam 1.22 doer of the Word to do with it many wonderful works by it to (f) Mat 7.22 cast out devils and nevertheless as the Pharisees and Scribes (g) Mar 7.13 making that of none effect to ones self Oh my soul for the love of God let not the Word of God (h) Psa 119.103 be sweet to thy mouth and not to thy tast (i) 1 Th 5 26. Kiss it with no Judas-like but with a holy kiss (k) Mat 13.57 As 't is said of a prophet he is not without honour save in his own countrey so may it be said of the Word it is not without honour save in its own proper Region that of the heart (l) Deu 4.9 Oh keep thy heart and it more dear than thy hearts blood with all diligence (m) Psa 45.1 Let thy heart endite good matters of it (n) Pro 15.13 Pro. 15.15 A merry heart makes a chearful countenance Let thy hearts mirth in it be that which sets thy chearful countenance on it 'T is a heart a heart a heart I tell thee a merry heart with it which hath a continual Feast for the Lord and from the Lord. In the Word God opens his heart to the Word open thy heart even the hidden man of thy heart Oh my soul (o) 1 pe 3.4 I charge thee before God who has quickned thee and before Jesus Christ who never made or will endure rotten professions that thou take not the oyl (q) Psa 104.15 of the Word to make thy face to shine without the wine of the Word to make thy very heart glad in the Lord. (r) Jam 3.5 The tongue is a little member don't think that God intended it for the Seat and Dwelling house of his great Law (s) Pro. 16.1 The answer of the tongue is indeed from the Lord but when When the preparations of the heart in man be so to (t) pro. 15.7 the tongue is the dispenser and should be the disperser of holy knowledge But the heart my soul the heart 't is that has the good (u) Mat 6.21 treasure and as 't is true where the treasure is there the heart will be so really where the heart is there the (x) Mat 12.35 treasure will be good or bad O my soul better is a little in the heart (y) Pro. 15.16 with the fear
of the Lord than great treasure of God's word in thy mouth and the trouble of thy tongue therewith He (z) Heb 11.4 who being dead yet speaks of spiritual life is infinitely far from that speech which (a) Ca. 411. Christ Jesus calls comely and yet if he were not the wise man tells us Excellent speech (b) Pro. 17.7 becomes not a fool O my soul my soul Take thou (c) Mat 10.19 then no thought how or what thou shalt speak of God or his wayes (d) Mat 12.35 but out of the good treasure of thy heart Let it ever be given unto thee what thou shalt say (e) Mal. 2.6 Let the Law of Truth be in thy lips (f) Psal 15.2 and speak the truth in thine heart The way to be without offence is to be sincere and make clean the insides of the vessels (g) Phil 1.10 the Kingdom of God is not in word 14. A Soliloquy with God complaining of vile Affections OH my God my God! (h) Job 19.23 24. oh that thy words were now written in the Book of my heart Oh that they were printed in my conscience That they were engraven with an iron pen and lead in the rock of my heart for ever But alas (i) Psal 1.6 I am affraid of ten thousands of vile affections which have beset themselves round about me not onely to keep me from holy wisdom that (k) Pro. 6.25 I lust not after her beauty in my heart nor let her take me with her eye-lids that I am not ravish'd with one (l) Can 4.9 of her eyes and one chain of her neck (m) Job 29.22 but to make me mock at her sear and not be affrightned nor turn back from her swords to say among her trumpets Ha ha to scorn the thunder of her captains and their shouting Nay and as if they themselves were not enough they say to all temptations (n) Pro 1.11 12 Pro. 1.17 Come with us let us lay wait for blood let us lurk privily for all the Laws of God that ever come here Let us swallow them up alive as the grave and whole as those that go down to the pit O my God are not all thy nets spread in vain in the sight of such Birds as my worldly affections who say of heavenly-mindedness (o) Ecc 2.2 that it is mad and of self-denyal what doth it who taunt at my conscience saying (p) Can 5.9 What is thy beloved more than another beloved O my God! I confess it 't is but just on me (q) Isa 1.2 I have nourish'd and brought up these children of Belial and now they rebel against me domineering over my heart the womb that bare them and the dugs that gave them suck so that (r) Ro. 7.15 that which she allows not she does that which she would she does not and does what she hates And verily oh my God these (s) 1 Co 1.27 foolish things confound the wise within me these weak confound the things that are mighty (t) Eccl 4.1 I have considered all the oppressions that are done under the Sun but oh my God I know none like those done by my vile affections (u) Isa 3.15 which beat thy good Teachings to pieces and grind the faces of my poor convictions which fence up my way that I cannot pass from them and set darkness about all my paths which make me ever and anon grumble (x) Psal 73.13 I have cleansed my heart in vain and washed my hands in innocency to wit while they say to my graces and comforts (y) Jer. 13.18 Humble your selves sit down for your principalities shall come down even the crown of your glory Oh my God my God! 't is through these that (z) Jer. 12.2 3. thou so often art near in my mouth and far from my reins but oh thou that knowest me seest me and tryest my reins thou knowest that I pray thee for the love of Christ to pull them out like sheep for the slaughter and prepare them for the day of slaughter For alas alas (a) Isa 57.20 they are like the troubled sea when it cannot rest whose waters cast up mire and dirt the winds and the seas will obey me assoon as they and the worst of it is (b) Pro 29.12 That my Rulers my judgement and conscience do but too often hearken to their lies and then all their servants my will memory and all other powers are wicked and so wicked as that if any good seed get into me (c) Job 14.2 it comes up like a flower and is cut down it flees as a shadow and continues not My God I fear at my yery heart (d) 2 Câ—â— 26 2â— That as Vzziah I shall be a leper to my death and dwell in a several house sever'd from the near access to thee and thy holiness which my heart pants for because really I am (e) Job 2.6 in the hand of these devils onely thou savest my life of which it self I am wofully afraid when many times (f) Psa 46.9 they make my very warfare with them to cease they break my spiritual bows and cut my spears in sunder and burn the Chariots of God in the fire Their cursed peace being (g) Isa 48 18.19 all the whiles as a River and their unrighteousness numerous and boisterous as the waves of the sea Their ungodly seed as the sand and their off-spring as the gravel thereof Oh my God if whosoever (h) Luk 14.11 exalts himself shall be abased sure I should hope these corrupt affections were to be brought down for sure they exalt themselves above thy own Majesty When I sometimes query with them methinks the sum of their answer is what was said of old These (i) Isa 48.5 and these things mine idol hath done and my graven image and my molten image hath commanded them They are stedfast and unmoveable alwayes abounding in the works of sin and vanity They are (k) Eph 6.10 11 17. strong in the Devil and the power of his might putting on his whole armour that they may be able to stand against the very sword of the spirit the Word of God O my God (l) 2 Ti 3.16.17 I find they are notable for doctrine for reproof for corrections for instruction in unrighteousness that the child of disobedience may be perfect throughly furnish'd unto all evil works they subtly (m) T it 2.12 13 teach to deny all spiritual Godliness and Grace and to live indeed unsoberly unrighteously and ungodly in this present world looking for that hope which makes asham'd They (n) Jam 1.21 lay apart all spivituality and godly sineerity and receive with proud desperateness the devices of Satan the least of which is enough to damn humane souls To do evil and to communicate it they (o) Heb 13.16 forget not for with such sacrifices the god of this world
Quickner Convincer Converter Comforter Is thy being shapen in sin and conceived in (t) Psal 51.3 5. iniquity ever before thee Dost set thy secret sins before thee thy (u) Psal 90.8 hidden ones in the light of thy countenance Dost smell them stink ready to choak thee bowing thee ready to break thee and killing thee all the day long Tell me is the Law the delight of thy eyes and dost keep it in them Dost make it a light to they feet as well as thy brains Canst say without lying thou hast not a (x) 2 Co 1.9 comfort in all the world but it springs from one or other of the Lord's promises Does his threatning (j) Isa ult 2 3. word make thee tremble Dost live by sense as a horse by carnal reason as a man or by faith as a Christian Has thy faith any (z) Acts 26.18 eyes do they see God heaven helf death and Judgment every day every duty every time of seriousness and that as real certain indisputable things (a) Jer. 6.10 Has thy faith any ears can it and does it hear the voice (b) Job 35.10 of God in his Word and providential works that which natural men do no more hear than stocks and stones Don't thy natural (c) Eze 12.2 ears hear the Minister speak a great deal while thy spiritual ears don't hear God speaking one word of it Don't lye but tell me Hast ears for God's mouth as thou hast for men Has thy faith (d) Psal 135. a nose one that smells myrrh aloes cinnamon in every Truth and every good notion practice and person together with fire and brimstone in every sin though sweetned with profit pleasure honour love of Kings themselves What manner (e) Psal 34 8. of Tast has thy faith Does secret converse with God in bed at board on horseback in closet c. Does converse with thy self and Christ's members as such Do duties of all kinds such as most exclude thy own carnal ease and mens carnal peace and fayour Do these tast indeed and in good earnest so well (f) Psal 119.103 as honey to thy (g) 1 Pe 2.3 palat Do they affect thee with so palpable a pleasure and sweetness And lastly for God's sake tell me what feeling is thy faith of Can't it let thee go without its robes about thee but strait feel the sterming wind of God's wrath and scorching Sun shine of his fury and that as plain as thy naked body would feel a December frost or March wind on a hill Is God thy All art thou all Gods and that in secret sober sadness Canst vow and protest to Father Son and Spirir that thy heart labours after and can't and won't be satisfied without (h) 2 Co 13 14. the grace of the Lord Jesus Christ the Love of God the Father and the communion of God the Spirit If so Go in peace and the God of peace be with thee Amen Lord Jesus Amen Amen 17. A Soliloquy with the World OH World World (i) Joh. 8.48 Say I not well that thou art a Samaritan and hast a devil Nay rather is not thy name (k) Mar 5 9. legion and art thou not many Abaddons and Apollyons I am sure thou hast oft caught Saints themselves and they have been (l) Luk 8. 29 33. bound with thy chains and fetters breaking God's holy bonds And as for unregenerate Swine into whom thou entrest and art not soon dispossess't thou hurriest them down into the lake where they are cloathed with fire and brimstone The Devil had less specious (m) Ge 3. apples of old to delude eye with than thy apples of gold in pictures of silver be If that serpent did not eat and feed men with thy dust we might triumph over him oh Serpent where is thy sting (n) Joh 8.44 oh Devil where is thy victory He was a murderer from the beginning and abode not in the Truth and wast not thou a like apostate of whom God said Thou wast very good and by and by (o) Ge. 1.31 Gen. 3.17 cursed thee that once barest good fruit for the use of man's body now nothing but thorns and thistles at least husks for soul and body I 'le say 't (p) Jud 6. Thou kept'st not thy first estate but art now reserved to the jud gement of the great Day And I 'le vow my judgement is that if I don 't in the mean time drownthee in the (q) Rev 12.15 flood of my penitential tears and burn thee out of my soul with the fire of my love and zeal for a better world the flood cast out of thy mouth will swallow me up and I shall find the God of this world a consuming fire For if any Devil (r) Heb 2.15 has the power of death I dare say 't is the world to whose (s) Eph 6.12 principalities and powers mankind so conforms its life 'T is the world makes every (t) Luk 22.3 5. Judas in it and we betray not Christ to our lusts till that enter into us and covenant with us Nor keep we back any thing from him till this (u) Act 5.30 Satan fills our hearts to oppose the Holy Ghost Thou oh world art the Satan that standest ever at our right hands to resist us and I vow I think (x) 2 Ch 10.10 thy little finger thicker than the loins of all the Devils in hell If the Saints must judge (y) 1 Co 6.2 the world and the things of the world I doubt not but they will judge them the worst enemies next to lusts after them If they resist the Devil he will fly from them but the earth abideth for ever a Tempter and its Herods which seek the life of Christ within us will never be dead We may chuse whether we will give any place to the Devil or no but the world must have our backs on which it makes but too often very long furrows and our bellies in which it leaves its Idol-gods Of all its clothes how few there be that won't be found naked and uncovered with Christ's Garments I cannot think without horrour and surely did it poyson as many bellies as souls it would have few to feed Oh world world Miserable are thy men and miserable the servants (z) 2 Ch 9.7 which stand continually before thee and hear thy wisedom though with that pleasure of which the world is not worthy I assure (a) Ecc. 1.8 thee my eye is satisfied with seeing thee and my ear with hearing thee The Devil brags of thy (b) Mat 4.9 All these things but God calls thy things things which are not and if that damn'd Ghost did not think my soul worth a thousand of thee he would scarce be so busie with me to give my soul in exchange for thee I know by my experience (d) Jer. 2.13 thy cisterns are broken and can hold no water My comforts in eating and
caused thee (b) Deu 34.14 to see it with thine eyes but thou shalt not go over thither But nor yet do I hear thee say so plainly as I would Fear not it is my good pleasure to give thee (c) Luk 12.33 the Kingdom Many seek to enter in and are not able Thousands not onely say and read but cry Lord Lord Open and yet are shut out Some get so far that they be not far from (d) Mat 7.22 thy Kingdom and yet never reach it Nay the children of the Kingdom themselves Christ tells me (e) Mat 8.12 are cast into outer darkness the most part of them and if so Lord what cause have I to say to my soul as (f) Rut 3.1 Naomi to Ruth Shall I not seek rest for thee that it may be well with thee Of that soul oh my God so forgetful am I that oft it checks me as (g) Jud 16.13 15. Dalilah her Sampson Hitherto hast thou mocked me and told me lyes How canst thou say I love thee and thy heart is not with me When it reflects on the madnesses of my heart and life it fears thou wilt one day say of me as Achish (h) 1 Sa. 29.15 of David Have I need of mad men Shall this fellow come into my house (i) Heb. 4.1 It doth not infrequently alarum me in the being left us of entring into God's rest we should come short of it For (k) 1 Pe 4.12 if the righteous scarcely be saved Where shall we appear Solomon sayes Blessed is the man that fears alwayes Oh my God Let me not serve thee therefore without fear of my self (l) Psal 118.6 David said He would not fear what man could do unto him but sure he meant of other men he fear'd his own heart when he cry'd Keep yea (m) Psa 119.13 Pro. 29 25. keep back thy servant from presumptuous fins Indeed the fear of other men bringeth a snare as Solomon sayes but the fearlesness of ones self brings a million The counsel is divine not to fear other men who (n) Mat 10.28 can kill our body and no more But 't is also as divine that a man should fear himself who is not onely able but prone by sin and by disobedience to destroy both soul and body in hell Oh my God Help me to attend Moses's advice (o) Deu 4.9 Joh. 13.13 to take heed to my self and keep my soul diligently I find That in every Prayer and Conference wherein I do not so do I must cry out to my Lord and Master as Josiah to his servants when shot by the Archers (p) 2 Ch 35.23 Have me away for I am sore wounded and that in my grace and peace too As Martha of Lazarus to Christ I oft say of my faith and hope to my care of my evidences for Heaven Oh divine eares hadst (q) Joh 11.21 thou been here my faith and hope had not dyed and indeed when that is absent whatever my labour is in Duties in the end I must say as Simon to Jesus Master (r) Luk 5.5 We have toiled all night and have taken nothing Wherefore oh my Blessed God and Bounteous Grant thou that when thy holy Spirit (s) Mat 5.41 compells me to go one mile with him in securing my title to glory I may go with him twain Oh let my conscience be ever telling me like to what Michol told David If thou save not (t) 1 Sa 19.11 thy life to night by ensuring thy evidences to morrow thou wilt be slain With sins sorrows and temptations If at any time I call the proud Mal. 3.15 happy as Malachi sayes and say in a but seeming prosperity of grace that I shall never be moved Oh my God let thy good Spirit take me off as the King (u) 2 Ki. 18.19 20. of Assyria did Hezekiah What confidence is this wherein thou trustest Thou sayest but they are but vain words I have counsel and I have strength O my God say to me of the host of my corruptions my pride follie c. as once thou didst to Gideon Arise (x) Jud 7.5 Get thee down to the host for I have delivered it into thy hand Help me oh Lord incorruptly to say to Jesus of his Redemption-work (y) Rut 2.12 as Boaz to Ruth The Lord recompense thy work and a full reward be given thee of the Lord God of Israel under whose wings thou hast caused me trust and to vow unto him as Ittai to David As the Lord liveth and as my Lord Jesus liveth as the living Father liveth and Jesus liveth by the Father surely in what place my Lord the King of Saints shall be (z) 2 Sa. 15.21 Whether in death or life even there will thy servant be Help me oh my God to set my Jesus (a) Can. 8.6 as a seal on my heart and arm with a love strong as death with jealousie of all rivals cruel as the grave Give me to write on this World and the glory of it (b) Dan 5.27 TEKEL Thou are weigh'd in the balances and are found wanting of any good for my soul (c) Col. 3.1 Job 23.2 Let my affections be on things above my comforts in heaven and my hopes on high Let me know oh my God where I may find thee in all distresses and let me come even to thy seat When my heart is overwhelm'd lead me to the Rock that is higher than I (d) Psa 61.2 Ps 119.139 Job 32.12 Order my steps in thy Word let not any iniquitie have Dominion over me in health or distrust in sickness in both let me esteem thy Word above my necessary food or physick And so oh my God of my evidences for heaven (e) Mat 10.20 it shall not be I my self that speak but thy Spirit in me Amen my God Amen and Amen Whiles this Piece lay at the Press it pleased GOD to visit the Authour with the Small Pox and gave him a Recovery full of Extraordinary Providences of which upon his Friends request he hath annexed his Meditations 24. A Soliloquy with God after Recovery from a Sore Disease OH my God I am sure I can say (a) Mat 25.36 I was sick and thou visitest me Oh that in the Day of Judgement thou maist say likewise to me I was sick and thou visitedst me I read of thy own people that once (b) Isa 42.25 they had a fire about them yet they knew it not nay and it burn'd them yet they laid it not to heart Sure I am I had my Disease about me and I knew it not nay and it brake out on me and never entred into my heart what it was till by thy providence 't was made known to me So unable was I to do thy work (c) Psal 103.3 to heal all my diseases my self that in St. Paul's sense and another too I might and still must say (d) 1