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this_o hot_a furnace_n but_o dross_n but_o why_o say_v i_o hot_a it_o be_v no_o other_o than_o what_o my_o father_n see_v good_a and_o all_o shall_v work_v together_o for_o my_o good_a if_o my_o corruption_n hinder_v not_o i_o be_o so_o afraid_a they_o shall_v but_o i_o earnest_o desire_v they_o may_v not_o and_o i_o hope_v the_o lord_n will_v rather_o answer_v my_o desire_n than_o let_v it_o be_v according_a to_o my_o fear_n lead_v i_o to_o the_o rock_n that_o it_o high_o than_o i_o the_o good_a lord_n fiâ—_n we_o for_o what_o his_o good_a pleasure_n be_v and_o for_o the_o great_a trial_n that_o can_v come_v here_o we_o have_v no_o continue_a city_n the_o good_a lord_n help_v we_o to_o be_v seek_v one_o to_o come_v a_o city_n that_o have_v foundation_n etc._n etc._n the_o lord_n fit_v we_o for_o the_o day_n of_o our_o death_n that_o it_o may_v be_v a_o good_a day_n to_o we_o the_o good_a lord_n sanctify_v all_o his_o fatherly_a correction_n to_o i_o and_o grant_v i_o may_v by_o all_o be_v make_v the_o more_o meet_a to_o partake_v of_o the_o inheritance_n of_o the_o saint_n in_o light_n that_o we_o may_v live_v to_o honour_v our_o good_a god_n all_o our_o day_n that_o so_o when_o our_o lord_n come_v we_o may_v be_v find_v of_o he_o in_o peace_n the_o lord_n help_v we_o to_o get_v our_o heart_n into_o a_o heavenly_a frame_n that_o our_o meditation_n may_v be_v more_o of_o those_o thing_n that_o concern_v our_o soul_n and_o will_v sland_z we_o in_o stead_n to_o all_o eternity_n etc._n etc._n 19_o some_o of_o her_o speech_n to_o and_o prayer_n for_o her_o husband_n as_o in_o reference_n to_o himself_o and_o child_n former_o my_o dear_a be_v not_o melancholy_a but_o still_o wait_v upon_o god_n rest_v quiet_o upon_o he_o he_o that_o have_v feed_v we_o clothe_v we_o and_o provide_v for_o we_o will_v still_o i_o hope_v do_v it_o my_o dear_a be_v not_o sad_a or_o trouble_v but_o cast_v thy_o burden_n upon_o the_o lord_n he_o will_v sustain_v thou_o the_o good_a lord_n help_v we_o to_o exercise_v faith_n and_o patience_n o_o that_o we_o can_v live_v more_o a_o life_n of_o faith_n and_o holiness_n and_o more_o sweet_o and_o free_o depend_v upon_o our_o good_a god_n who_o never_o fail_v his_o poor_a child_n in_o any_o time_n of_o need_n o_o let_v we_o cast_v all_o our_o care_n upon_o god_n who_o have_v and_o will_v care_v for_o we_o and_o we_o god_n have_v be_v a_o long_a while_o wean_a thou_o from_o i_o we_o must_v part_v but_o we_o shall_v after_o a_o little_a while_n
govern_v by_o he_o etc._n etc._n in_o hear_v the_o word_n i_o have_v be_v glad_a of_o rebuke_n as_o well_o as_o promise_n i_o love_v all_o the_o people_n of_o god_n even_o those_o i_o never_o see_v i_o be_o sometime_o much_o trouble_v for_o my_o lukewarmness_n that_o i_o do_v no_o more_o honour_n god_n etc._n etc._n but_o this_o uphold_v i_o i_o look_v upon_o it_o with_o grief_n i_o will_v more_o honour_n god_n and_o do_v he_o better_o service_n and_o i_o dislike_v it_o i_o do_v no_o more_o i_o have_v be_v ready_a to_o think_v sometime_o i_o do_v not_o love_n god_n because_o i_o be_o no_o more_o in_o communion_n with_o god_n i_o love_v thou_o and_o delight_n in_o thy_o company_n but_o thus_o i_o recover_v myself_o that_o i_o desire_v to_o have_v more_o communion_n with_o god_n and_o i_o be_o still_o lift_v up_o my_o heart_n to_o he_o and_o i_o love_v those_o that_o be_v he_o and_o when_o nothing_o else_o yet_o love_v to_o the_o saint_n stay_v i_o we_o know_v that_o we_o have_v pass_v from_o death_n unto_o life_n because_o we_o love_v the_o brethren_n etc._n etc._n 1_o john_n 3.14_o i_o shall_v not_o change_v my_o company_n though_o my_o place_n but_o those_o i_o delight_v in_o here_o i_o shall_v go_v to_o when_o i_o die_v have_v little_a opportunity_n of_o communion_n with_o the_o saint_n i_o be_v once_o ready_a to_o think_v if_o i_o have_v more_o communion_n with_o they_o it_o may_v be_v i_o shall_v have_v less_o communion_n with_o god_n but_o go_v abroad_o god_n convince_v i_o of_o the_o contrary_a for_o i_o find_v myself_o much_o quicken_v by_o that_o christian_a communion_n i_o have_v and_o it_o make_v i_o to_o delight_v more_o in_o communion_n with_o god_n she_o be_v very_o desirous_a and_o solicitous_a of_o zion_n welfare_n the_o church_n of_o god_n bear_v much_o upon_o her_o spirit_n she_o much_o rejoice_v she_o live_v to_o hear_v of_o the_o discovery_n of_o the_o late_a hellish_a plot_n of_o the_o papist_n she_o say_v she_o have_v earnest_o pray_v that_o god_n will_v discover_v the_o plot_n of_o his_o enemy_n and_o now_o he_o have_v hear_v my_o prayer_n and_o if_o she_o say_v we_o have_v but_o more_o faith_n and_o can_v but_o more_o trust_v in_o god_n it_o will_v be_v better_o our_o sin_n indeed_o be_v great_a but_o god_n mercy_n great_a she_o have_v still_o a_o firm_a confidence_n god_n will_v bring_v down_o his_o enemy_n etc._n etc._n let_v we_o pray_v earnest_o and_o wait_v patient_o and_o stone_n deliverer_n will_v appear_v in_o due_a time_n etc._n etc._n 14._o as_o concern_v what_o it_o be_v which_o comfort_v she_o in_o all_o her_o affliction_n and_o in_o and_o under_o all_o her_o pain_n sickness_n and_o weakness_n 1._o her_o interest_n in_o god_n this_o be_v my_o comfort_n that_o i_o have_v a_o interest_n in_o god_n who_o be_v all-sufficient_a unchangeable_a the_o god_n of_o all_o comfort_n and_o that_o comfort_v those_o that_o be_v cast_v down_o he_o have_v say_v to_o i_o i_o be_o thou_o and_o thou_o be_v i_o and_o though_o i_o fail_v he_o have_v make_v a_o everlasting_a covenant_n with_o i_o and_o that_o fail_v not_o i_o be_o a_o poor_a changeable_a creature_n but_o he_o be_v unchangeable_a my_o flesh_n and_o my_o heart_n fail_v but_o god_n be_v the_o strength_n of_o my_o heart_n and_o my_o portion_n for_o ever_o psal_n 73.26_o creature-comfort_n fail_v but_o god_n never_o fail_v he_o be_v my_o strength_n and_o my_o stay_n and_o my_o all_o and_o the_o little_a interest_n i_o have_v in_o god_n be_v better_a than_o a_o kingdom_n of_o ease_n and_o my_o god_n my_o god_n in_o christ_n will_v comfort_v i_o i_o have_v so_o much_o comfort_n my_o dear_a the_o other_o night_n that_o i_o can_v have_v find_v in_o my_o heart_n to_o have_v waken_v thou_o to_o have_v tell_v thou_o but_o that_o thou_o be_v weary_a but_o i_o can_v express_v it_o now_o ask_v she_o what_o it_o be_v wherein_o she_o have_v so_o much_o comfort_n she_o reply_v not_o in_o any_o thing_n here_o but_o in_o god_n and_o in_o jesus_n christ_n and_o the_o thing_n of_o god_n etc._n etc._n thus_o that_o the_o lord_n be_v her_o god_n this_o be_v to_o her_o a_o choice_n cordial_a and_o sovereign_a ground_n of_o comfort_n in_o all_o her_o affliction_n as_o it_o have_v be_v to_o other_o as_o to_o david_n psal_n 31.14_o but_o i_o trust_v in_o thou_o o_o lord_n i_o say_v thou_o be_v my_o god_n etc._n etc._n and_o psal_n 63.1_o o_o god_n thou_o be_v my_o god_n etc._n etc._n so_o psal_n 42.5_o etc._n etc._n and_o god_n himself_o so_o propound_v it_o isa_n 41.10_o be_v not_o dismay_v for_o i_o be_o thy_o god_n etc._n etc._n and_o indeed_o what_o great_a or_o more_o sovereign_a ground_n of_o comfort_n be_v or_o can_v there_o be_v than_o this_o to_o have_v the_o lord_n who_o be_v so_o infinite_a and_o all-sufficient_a a_o god_n to_o be_v our_o god_n and_o what_o can_v be_v want_v where_o allsufficiency_n be_v he_o be_v the_o very_a sum_n and_o centre_n of_o all_o our_o happiness_n and_o good_a and_o to_o have_v this_o god_n our_o god_n what_o ever_o he_o be_v or_o have_v we_o to_o be_v for_o our_o comfort_n and_o benefit_n all_o his_o excellency_n and_o perfection_n his_o wisdom_n power_n goodness_n mercy_n etc._n etc._n sure_o no_o great_a nor_o more_o sovereign_a ground_n of_o comfort_n can_v there_o be_v for_o god_n contain_v all_o and_o that_o god_n my_o god_n sure_o all_o that_o be_v true_o good_a and_o comfortable_a must_v needs_o be_v wrap_v up_o in_o this_o my_o god_n it_o be_v more_o than_o my_o kingdom_n my_o world_n my_o heaven_n and_o earth_n yea_o many_o heaven_n and_o earth_n be_v they_o extant_a this_o comprehend_v at_o once_o all_o good_a and_o all_o be_v concenter_v here_o more_o can_v be_v say_v and_o true_o less_o will_v not_o serve_v our_o turn_n in_o god_n as_o in_o a_o crystal_n fountain_n be_v and_o reside_v for_o ever_o all_o the_o refine_a goodness_n and_o sweetness_n of_o all_o the_o creature_n in_o heaven_n and_o earth_n here_o be_v all_o we_o want_v will_v have_v or_o reasonable_o can_v desire_v and_o 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