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deliver_v or_o to_o do_v again_o our_o own_o will_n in_o any_o thing_n whatsoever_o the_o nine_o maxim_n that_o a_o contemplative_a soul_n must_v lay_v a_o solid_a groundwork_n to_o serve_v she_o in_o time_n of_o desolation_n for_o no_o soul_n can_v in_o this_o life_n be_v always_o elevate_v to_o the_o divinity_n and_o therefore_o will_v sometime_o need_v a_o stay_n to_o rest_v upon_o till_o she_o can_v take_v breath_n and_o repair_v her_o force_n in_o order_n to_o she_o high_o soaring_n in_o contemplation_n this_o rest_a place_n humanity_n this_o groundwork_n may_v be_v christ_n humanity_n may_v most_o fit_o be_v the_o humanity_n of_o christ_n which_o be_v the_o very_a way_n and_o door_n to_o the_o divinity_n upon_o which_o when_o she_o return_v to_o herself_o after_o she_o have_v be_v absorb_v
honour_n be_v to_o he_o devout_a for_o to_o suffer_v for_o god_n be_v the_o best_a prayer_n and_o make_v thou_o true_o devout_a the_o most_o acceptable_a prayer_n and_o therefore_o to_o endure_v this_o dryness_n with_o perfect_a patience_n and_o humble_a resignation_n make_v thou_o true_o devout_a because_o true_a devotion_n consist_v in_o no_o other_o thing_n than_o to_o have_v a_o ready_a will_n to_o follow_v christ_n thy_o lord_n with_o thy_o cross_n on_o thy_o shoulder_n whither_o and_o which_o way_n he_o please_v have_v and_o desire_v god_n only_o for_o god_n and_o sometime_o leave_v god_n for_o god_n 9_o if_o therefore_o spiritual_a person_n especial_o religious_a man_n and_o woman_n will_v seerious_o examine_v and_o measure_v their_o progress_n in_o the_o way_n of_o perfection_n and_o piety_n by_o this_o rule_n and_o not_o by_o the_o feel_n of_o sensible_a devotion_n which_o many_o do_v chief_o devotion_n and_o not_o sensible_a devotion_n regard_v they_o sure_o will_v make_v better_a use_n of_o sensible_a comfort_n in_o their_o exercise_n of_o devotion_n which_o their_o love_a lord_n afford_v to_o make_v they_o more_o zealous_a in_o submit_v to_o his_o sacred_a will_n which_o dispose_v all_o thing_n in_o order_n to_o our_o salvation_n and_o benefit_n deceive_v wherein_o many_o be_v deceive_v 10._o and_o in_o this_o also_o many_o be_v much_o deceive_v that_o when_o they_o be_v trouble_v with_o impure_a and_o perverse_a thought_n they_o present_o become_v fearful_a and_o fainthearted_a and_o as_o if_o god_n have_v utter_o forsake_v they_o think_v it_o impossible_a that_o his_o holy_a spirit_n shall_v inhabit_v a_o heart_n so_o trouble_v and_o torment_v and_o they_o so_o intricate_a themselves_o in_o these_o fancy_n till_o by_o degree_n they_o fall_v into_o a_o grievous_a dislike_n of_o themselves_o and_o last_o into_o a_o certain_a dangerous_a despair_n which_o they_o no_o soon_o apprehend_v in_o themselves_o but_o they_o present_o run_v to_o their_o wont_a way_n to_o recover_v their_o quiet_n but_o hereby_o they_o show_v themselves_o little_a grateful_a to_o god_n who_o therefore_o permit_v they_o to_o be_v thus_o trouble_v and_o tempt_v to_o bring_v they_o to_o the_o clear_a knowledge_n of_o their_o own_o nothing_o that_o so_o as_o wretched_a frail_a and_o desolate_a creature_n they_o may_v more_o serious_o seek_v he_o and_o more_o diligent_o draw_v near_o he_o 11._o wherefore_o o_o my_o belove_a distress_n what_o thou_o be_v to_o do_v in_o this_o distress_n that_o which_o thou_o must_v do_v in_o such_o a_o distress_n be_v this_o enter_v straight_o into_o a_o profound_a reflection_n upon_o thy_o own_o baseness_n and_o there_o humble_a thyself_o and_o confess_v thy_o peevish_a affection_n and_o passion_n and_o acknowledge_v thy_o pronesse_n to_o fall_v if_o leave_v to_o thyself_o into_o all_o manner_n of_o wickedness_n and_o that_o without_o thy_o love_a lord_n care_v and_o custody_n help_n and_o defence_n thou_o will_v be_v cast_v down_o headlong_o incontinent_o 12._o this_o do_v raise_v thy_o heart_n with_o a_o good_a hope_n and_o confidence_n in_o thy_o creator_n see_v it_o be_v he_o only_a who_o permit_v thou_o to_o fall_v into_o this_o adversity_n that_o thou_o may_v take_v hold_n of_o the_o occasion_n to_o draw_v near_o unto_o he_o by_o humble_a prayer_n and_o therefore_o thou_o be_v oblige_v to_o render_v grateful_a thanks_o to_o his_o divine_a majesty_n for_o these-like_a trouble_n and_o temptation_n and_o take_v this_o as_o a_o certainty_n that_o all_o such_o perverse_a thought_n be_v soon_o expel_v with_o meek_a sufferance_n and_o patience_n than_o with_o much_o solicitude_n and_o study_n chap._n xxix_o that_o the_o worthy_a frequent_v of_o the_o most_o bless_a sacrament_n be_v a_o efficacious_a mean_n to_o conquer_v our_o passion_n the_o sacred_a communion_n or_o most_o holy_a sacrament_n of_o the_o eucharist_n be_v receive_v by_o devout_a christian_n for_o divers_a end_n but_o if_o thou_o desire_v to_o take_v it_o for_o the_o particular_a strengthen_n of_o thy_o soul_n against_o the_o assault_n of_o evil_a inclination_n attend_v to_o what_o i_o shall_v now_o teach_v thou_o 2._o the_o day_n before_o thou_o intend_v thou_o meditate_v the_o day_n before_o thy_o communion_n of_o thy_o saviour_n desire_n etc._n etc._n to_o come_v to_o thou_o to_o communicate_v meditate_v if_o thy_o leisure_n give_v thou_o leave_v of_o the_o great_a desire_n thy_o dear_a saviour_n have_v to_o unite_v himself_o to_o thou_o by_o the_o mean_n of_o this_o sacrament_n and_o thereby_o to_o root_v out_o thy_o vicious_a affection_n for_o this_o his_o desire_n be_v so_o immense_a that_o no_o create_a understanding_n can_v comprehend_v it_o 3._o but_o that_o thou_o may_v have_v a_o small_a glimpse_n thereof_o consider_v these_o two_o thing_n first_o what_o pleasure_n our_o lord_n take_v to_o dwell_v in_o we_o since_o the_o holy_a scripture_n call_v this_o his_o delight_n and_o in_o sin_n my_o delight_n be_v to_o be_v with_o the_o child_n of_o man_n child_n give_v i_o thy_o heart_n and_o how_o much_o he_o hate_v sin_n requital_n of_o this_o love_n he_o only_o require_v our_o heart_n secondâ—y_o how_o much_o he_o hate_v our_o sin_n which_o â—â—â—der_v his_o near_a union_n with_o we_o and_o be_v direct_o opposite_a to_o his_o incompaâ—â—ble_a perfection_n for_o he_o be_v the_o â—â—ely_a and_o chief_a good_a the_o pure_a light_n use_v most_o perfect_a beauty_n can_v but_o detest_v that_o which_o be_v mere_a darkness_n frailty_n and_o the_o corruption_n and_o canker_n of_o our_o wretched_a soul_n 4._o and_o that_o this_o love_a desire_n of_o thy_o dear_a lord_n may_v take_v yet_o deep_a impression_n in_o thy_o mind_n meditate_v often_o of_o his_o marvelous_a work_n relate_v in_o the_o old_a and_o new_a testament_n especial_o of_o his_o most_o bitter_a passion_n and_o cruel_a death_n which_o he_o do_v express_o suffer_v to_o deliver_v thy_o soul_n from_o sin_n and_o to_o cleanse_v it_o from_o such_o affection_n as_o be_v contrary_a to_o his_o divine_a majesty_n concern_v which_o point_n all_o the_o illuminate_v doctor_n of_o god_n church_n do_v unanimous_o conclude_v and_o teach_v that_o christ_n our_o saviour_n will_v again_o if_o it_o be_v needful_a exposâ—_n himself_o to_o a_o thousand_o death_n to_o free_v we_o from_o the_o least_o evil_a passion_n or_o affection_n 5._o by_o such_o consideration_n thou_o he_o and_o move_v thy_o soul_n to_o a_o reciprocal_a desire_n and_o affection_n towards_o he_o will_v easy_o gather_v the_o great_a desire_n thy_o dear_a saviour_n have_v to_o dwell_v with_o thou_o and_o from_o thence_o conclude_v how_o fit_n it_o be_v that_o thou_o shall_v reciprocal_o stir_v up_o in_o thyself_o a_o ardent_a affection_n to_o receive_v and_o entertain_v he_o which_o thou_o may_v do_v by_o these_o and_o the_o like_a jaculatory_a prayer_n come_v o_o my_o lord_n and_o my_o love_n help_v thy_o caitif_a creature_n to_o conquer_v her_o enemy_n when_o o_o when_o my_o dear_a spouse_n will_v that_o happy_a hour_n come_v that_o i_o may_v receive_v thou_o the_o bread_n of_o life_n and_o be_v comfort_v and_o encourage_v by_o thou_o may_v full_o conquer_v myself_o and_o total_o subdue_v my_o own_o evil_a passion_n and_o disorder_a affection_n 6._o and_o when_o thou_o be_v heighten_v battle_n and_o then_o provoke_v thy_o passion_n to_o battle_n with_o the_o hope_n of_o thy_o sweet_a saviour_n come_v into_o thy_o soul_n then_o provoke_v thy_o passion_n to_o battle_n call_v up_o thy_o affection_n and_o curb_v they_o again_o and_o again_o with_o perfect_a hatred_n and_o disdain_n and_o this_o do_v produce_v act_n and_o desire_n of_o the_o virtue_n which_o be_v opposite_a to_o these_o vice_n and_o let_v this_o be_v thy_o evening_n entertainment_n and_o morning_n â—mploymâ—â—t_n 7._o but_o when_o the_o hour_n of_o sacred_a fear_v be_v near_o the_o time_n of_o communion_n thou_o be_v to_o fear_v communion_n draw_v near_o think_v serious_o of_o thy_o own_o fault_n fail_n and_o unfaithfulnesse_n to_o thy_o lord_n god_n since_o the_o time_n of_o thy_o last_o approach_n to_o the_o sacred_a table_n for_o which_o ingratitude_n and_o unworthiness_n thou_o tremble_v with_o fear_n and_o confusion_n before_o his_o dread_a majesty_n but_o then_o again_o encourage_v and_o comfort_v thy_o confidence_n but_o also_o to_o have_v courage_n and_o confidence_n self_n with_o the_o consideration_n of_o his_o goodness_n his_o readiness_n to_o pardon_v and_o his_o inclination_n to_o mercy_n and_o with_o a_o pious_a confidence_n that_o he_o will_v have_v thou_o receive_v he_o notwithstanding_o thy_o own_o indignity_n go_v on_o with_o alacrity_n of_o spirit_n to_o the_o holy_a banquet_n and_o joyful_o embrace_v thy_o lord_n god_n in_o thy_o soul_n 8._o the_o sacred_a communion_n thus_o want_n after_o communion_n discover_v thy_o want_n perform_v present_o shut_v up_o thyself_o within_o the_o closet_n of_o thy_o own_o heart_n and_o discover_v to_o thy_o saviour_n thy_o
strive_v to_o undermine_v my_o perseverance_n but_o take_v courage_n o_o my_o soul_n thy_o time_n of_o endure_a will_n soon_o end_v and_o thy_o ensue_a joy_n will_v be_v without_o end_n harken_v not_o to_o thy_o swear_a enemy_n enchantment_n sit_v not_o stand_v not_o sleep_v not_o but_o pray_v watch_n and_o walk_v whilst_o thou_o have_v light_a and_o life_n that_o the_o darkness_n of_o eternal_a night_n and_o death_n overtake_v thou_o not_o and_o since_o thy_o love_a lord_n be_v both_o able_a and_o willing_a to_o succour_v and_o support_v thou_o and_o to_o turn_v every_o thing_n to_o thy_o advantage_n â—ven_o thy_o imperfection_n frailty_n and_o fail_n for_o thou_o be_v warrant_v that_o so_o rusbrochius_n rusbrochius_n sure_a as_o god_n be_v god_n so_o sure_o it_o be_v that_o he_o will_v permit_v nothing_o to_o befall_v we_o but_o for_o our_o great_a good_a and_o his_o own_o glory_n and_o that_o it_o be_v most_o grateful_a unto_o he_o we_o so_o judge_v of_o he_o doubt_v not_o of_o his_o providence_n and_o protection_n not_o fear_n to_o permit_v he_o to_o deal_v with_o thou_o as_o he_o best_o please_v and_o to_o remain_v in_o a_o perfect_a indifferency_n to_o all_o his_o divine_a ordinance_n and_o disposition_n say_v since_o it_o be_v thy_o will_n o_o lord_n it_o be_v certain_a to_o be_v nâ—y_o good_a be_v it_o so_o i_o be_o as_o sure_o thou_o love_v i_o as_o that_o thou_o live_v with_o i_o a_o way_n then_o all_o diffidence_n disloyalty_n inconstancy_n how_o many_o saint_n have_v you_o pervert_v how_o many_o soul_n have_v you_o damn_v without_o thou_o o_o holy_a perseverance_n all_o be_v lose_v with_o thou_o all_o be_v secure_a grace_n till_o the_o end_n glory_n without_o end_n welcome_o holy_a confidence_n the_o main_a support_n of_o my_o life_n and_o the_o life_n of_o my_o perseverance_n i_o be_o content_a o_o my_o lord_n to_o be_v conduct_v by_o thou_o for_o time_n and_o eternity_n as_o thou_o best_o please_v lead_v i_o by_o land_n or_o water_n by_o desolation_n or_o devotion_n by_o darkness_n or_o day_n by_o sickness_n or_o health_n i_o will_v adhere_v to_o thou_o constant_o if_o it_o be_v thy_o bless_a will_n o_o love_a lord_n that_o i_o creep_v as_o a_o snail_n towards_o perfection_n i_o will_v neither_o be_v trouble_v nor_o dismay_v i_o desire_v not_o to_o fly_v fast_o than_o thou_o enabl_a i_o i_o quiet_v myself_o with_o the_o grace_n thou_o give_v i_o which_o i_o acknowledge_v to_o be_v not_o only_o beyond_o my_o desert_n but_o better_a for_o i_o than_o my_o own_o desire_n final_o i_o here_o make_v a_o general_a resolution_n and_o a_o generous_a resignation_n of_o my_o whole_a self_n into_o thy_o holy_a hand_n hope_v that_o it_o will_v give_v worth_a and_o value_n to_o all_o my_o action_n and_o suffering_n o_o my_o sovereign_n and_o sweet_a maker_n resolution_n a_o form_n of_o general_a resolution_n my_o whole_a will_n and_o desire_n according_a to_o my_o great_a obligation_n former_a profession_n and_o present_a protestation_n be_v to_o serve_v and_o love_v thou_o and_o to_o fulfil_v thy_o bless_a will_n in_o all_o thing_n and_o to_o be_v whole_o thou_o at_o all_o time_n and_o in_o all_o thing_n whatsoever_o it_o be_v thy_o honour_n i_o only_a aim_n at_o thy_o glory_n i_o only_o intend_v and_o thy_o will_n i_o only_o seek_v to_o accomplish_v to_o thou_o alone_o i_o render_v and_o wish_v all_o benediction_n and_o eternal_a praise_n and_o with_o cordial_a joy_n i_o say_v amen_n to_o all_o that_o be_v possess_v by_o thy_o most_o amiable_a and_o perfect_a goodness_n and_o join_v my_o humble_a desire_n and_o devotion_n with_o all_o those_o that_o love_v thou_o i_o implore_v that_o we_o may_v be_v all_o thou_o and_o that_o thou_o will_v be_v all_o in_o we_o all_o and_o now_o o_o my_o soul_n since_o thou_o have_v in_o some_o sort_n happy_o begin_v a_o course_n of_o prayer_n recollection_n abnegation_n and_o humility_n according_a to_o obedience_n and_o support_v by_o confidence_n perfection_n for_o further_a help_n to_o perseverance_n read_v the_o 22._o 23._o 24._o ch_n of_o st._n teresa_n life_n write_v by_o herself_o and_o her_o book_n entitle_v the_o way_n to_o perfection_n let_v the_o devil_n storm_n let_v flesh_n and_o blood_n rebel_n let_v the_o world_n murmur_n answer_v they_o all_o quod_fw-la scripsi_fw-la scripsi_fw-la my_o vow_n and_o promise_n must_v and_o shall_v stand_v &_o i_o be_o content_a to_o sign_v it_o with_o my_o blood_n i_o will_v soon_o die_v than_o swerve_v from_o my_o well-setled_n resolution_n or_o cancel_v the_o free_a deed_n and_o gift_n of_o myself_o to_o my_o saviour_n service_n darkness_n desolation_n death_n and_o devil_n shall_v never_o make_v i_o change_v live_v my_o good_a purpose_n to_o love_v my_o dear_a lord_n unchangeable_o irrevocable_o eternal_o cant._n 2._o 16._o my_o belove_a be_v i_o and_o i_o be_o he_o 2_o tim._n c._n 4_o v._n 7_o 8._o i_o have_v fight_v a_o good_a fight_n i_o have_v finish_v my_o course_n i_o have_v keep_v the_o faith_n henceforth_o there_o be_v lay_v up_o for_o i_o a_o crown_n of_o righteousness_n which_o our_o lord_n the_o righteous_a judge_n shall_v give_v i_o at_o that_o day_n and_o not_o to_o i_o only_o but_o unto_o they_o also_o that_o love_n his_o appear_v james_n 1._o 12._o bless_a be_v the_o man_n that_o endure_v temptation_n for_o when_o he_o be_v try_v he_o shall_v receive_v the_o crown_n of_o life_n which_o our_o lord_n have_v promise_v to_o they_o that_o love_v he_o revelation_n 2._o 10._o be_v thou_o faithful_a until_o death_n and_o i_o will_v give_v thou_o the_o crown_n of_o life_n finis_fw-la errata_fw-la in_o the_o conflict_n page_n 32._o line_n 2._o for_o from_o read_v form_n p._n 45._o l._n 15._o for_o weary_a r._n wary_a p._n 69._o l._n 25._o for_o mediation_n r._n meditation_n p._n 143._o l._n 28._o for_o his_o r._n he_o p._n 143._o l._n 29._o for_o its_o r._n he_o p._n 161._o l._n 29._o for_o ordinary_a r._n ordinary_o p._n 201._o l._n 2._o for_o pleasure_n r._n please_v p._n 277._o l._n 2._o for_o many_o r._n may_v in_o the_o conquest_n page_n 3._o l_o 29._o for_o some_o r._n son_n in_o the_o exercise_n page_n 103._o l._n 12._o for_o â—at_a his_o r._n eat_v aâ—_n his_o in_o the_o maxim_n