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be_v create_v thing_n past_a present_a and_o to_o come_v which_o be_v to_o i_o present_a and_o i_o from_o the_o very_a first_o instant_n of_o the_o infusion_n of_o my_o soul_n into_o my_o body_n begin_v always_o to_o observe_v till_o such_o time_n as_o i_o give_v up_o my_o ghost_n upon_o the_o cross_n all_o the_o pain_n which_o i_o be_v to_o endure_v and_o whatsoever_o all_o my_o elect_n from_o the_o begin_n of_o the_o world_n have_v at_o any_o time_n suffer_v and_o such_o as_o be_v not_o yet_o bear_v be_v to_o suffer_v even_o to_o the_o end_n of_o the_o world_n all_o this_o i_o suffer_v in_o the_o inferior_a faculty_n of_o my_o soul_n and_o in_o each_o of_o these_o be_v i_o more_o inward_o and_o grievous_o torment_v in_o my_o spirit_n than_o any_o one_o can_v be_v in_o his_o own_o proper_a body_n at_o such_o time_n as_o he_o be_v to_o suffer_v torture_n or_o torment_n another_o cause_n which_o procure_v so_o great_a pain_n in_o my_o spirit_n be_v abundant_a love_n for_o love_n beget_v grief_n and_o heaviness_n in_o the_o spirit_n so_o as_o by_o how_o much_o thy_o love_n towards_o i_o be_v more_o intensive_a or_o great_a by_o so_o much_o more_o be_v thy_o soul_n torment_v with_o my_o death_n and_o passion_n and_o because_o i_o have_v always_o and_o above_o comparison_n love_v thou_o and_o every_o man_n more_o than_o he_o can_v love_v himself_o therefore_o have_v i_o suffer_v great_a pain_n than_o all_o that_o which_o any_o one_o have_v ever_o suffer_v upon_o earth_n or_o be_v to_o suffer_v or_o shall_v suffer_v to_o the_o end_n of_o the_o world_n thou_o know_v that_o when_o paul_n have_v consent_v to_o the_o death_n and_o ston_a of_o stephen_n and_o do_v persecute_v christian_n i_o say_v unto_o he_o saul_n why_o persecute_v thou_o i_o and_o yet_o he_o persecute_v not_o i_o in_o my_o own_o proper_a person_n but_o in_o the_o person_n of_o my_o belove_a friend_n because_o what_o good_a or_o evil_a soever_o befall_v my_o friend_n befalleâ—h_v i_o and_o this_o proceed_v from_o the_o great_a love_n which_o i_o bear_v unto_o man_n thus_o therefore_o may_v thou_o consider_v how_o and_o by_o what_o mean_v my_o passion_n exceed_v in_o pain_n the_o passion_n of_o all_o that_o ever_o suffer_v or_o shall_v suffer_v because_o i_o suffer_v both_o in_o my_o body_n and_o soul_n and_o that_o immaculate_a and_o by_o nature_n delicate_a and_o for_o so_o long_a time_n to_o wit_n for_o thirty_o four_o year_n do_v i_o suffer_v martyrdom_n in_o my_o spirit_n both_o for_o myself_o and_o all_o my_o elect._n laurence_n in_o one_o night_n be_v broil_v on_o a_o gridiron_n bartholomew_n in_o one_o day_n be_v slay_v katherine_n in_o one_o hour_n be_v break_v on_o a_o wheel_n etc._n etc._n all_o these_o torture_n never_o hurt_v any_o one_o of_o they_o so_o much_o in_o their_o own_o body_n as_o they_o torment_v i_o in_o my_o soul_n for_o thirty_o four_o year_n whence_o isaiah_n true_o he_o have_v suffer_v for_o our_o infirmity_n and_o bear_v our_o sorrow_n and_o therefore_o i_o 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this_o day_n in_o heaven_n sit_v at_o the_o right_a hand_n of_o god_n my_o father_n but_o in_o respect_n of_o her_o inferior_a faculty_n she_o be_v in_o a_o continual_a and_o incessant_a heaviness_n and_o sorrow_n for_o the_o cause_n aforesaid_a which_o can_v not_o be_v by_o course_n or_o order_n of_o nature_n that_o in_o one_o and_o the_o selfsame_o soul_n together_o and_o at_o once_o there_o shall_v be_v so_o great_a joy_n and_o so_o great_a heaviness_n for_o this_o be_v miraculous_a and_o supernatural_a because_o according_a to_o the_o course_n of_o nature_n joy_n and_o delight_n do_v expel_v sorrow_n and_o grief_n so_o as_o they_o can_v suffer_v together_o in_o one_o and_o the_o
to_o go_v back_o let_v it_o not_o then_o delight_v thou_o to_o stand_v in_o the_o course_n of_o piety_n but_o endeavour_v always_o to_o walk_v in_o the_o way_n of_o the_o lord_n in_o thy_o conversation_n be_v cheerful_a to_o all_o distasteful_a to_o none_o familiar_a to_o few_o live_v to_o godward_o devout_o to_o thyself_o chaste_o to_o thy_o neighbour_n just_o use_v thy_o friend_n as_o a_o pledge_n of_o affection_n thy_o enemy_n for_o a_o trial_n of_o thy_o patience_n all_o man_n to_o a_o well-disposed_a benevolence_n and_o wherein_o thou_o may_v more_o effectual_o work_v to_o beneficence_n while_o thou_o live_v die_v daily_o to_o thyself_o and_o to_o thy_o vice_n so_o in_o thy_o death_n may_v thou_o live_v to_o god_n let_v meekness_n appear_v in_o thy_o affection_n mildness_n in_o thy_o countenance_n humility_n in_o thy_o habit_n modesty_n in_o thy_o habitation_n patience_n in_o tribulation_n let_v facility_n be_v in_o thy_o access_n decency_n in_o thy_o dress_n humility_n in_o thy_o 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god_n at_o this_o present_a think_v not_o with_o thyself_o what_o thou_o have_v but_o rather_o what_o thou_o want_v pride_n not_o thyself_o for_o that_o which_o be_v give_v thou_o but_o rather_o become_v humble_v for_o that_o which_o be_v deny_v thou_o learn_v to_o live_v now_o while_o thou_o may_v live_v in_o this_o time_n be_v eternal_a life_n either_o get_v or_o lose_v after_o death_n there_o remain_v no_o time_n for_o work_v for_o than_o begin_v the_o time_n of_o reward_v in_o the_o life_n to_o come_v be_v not_o expect_v any_o work_n but_o payment_n for_o the_o work_n holy_a meditation_n may_v beget_v in_o thou_o knowledge_n knowledge_n compunction_n compunction_n devotion_n devotion_n may_v produce_v prayer_n great_a good_a for_o peace_n of_o the_o heart_n be_v the_o silence_n of_o the_o mouth_n by_o how_o much_o more_o as_o thou_o be_v divide_v from_o the_o world_n so_o much_o more_o acceptable_a art_n thou_o unto_o god_n whatsoever_o thou_o desire_v to_o have_v ask_v it_o of_o 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