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arrive_v at_o that_o which_o he_o believe_v affect_v and_o resolut_n bless_a be_v our_o good_a god_n who_o do_v not_o alone_o free_o and_o without_o obligation_n or_o debt_n bestow_v a_o power_n upon_o we_o by_o faith_n to_o see_v all_o good_a thing_n a_o far_o off_o but_o by_o hope_n make_v they_o in_o a_o manner_n present_a and_o as_o certain_a as_o though_o already_o possess_v thou_o do_v not_o only_o give_v we_o a_o sight_n and_o by_o that_o sight_n beget_v in_o we_o a_o appetite_n of_o a_o most_o excellent_a good_a but_o do_v possess_v we_o also_o with_o a_o certain_a expectation_n of_o that_o future_a beatitude_n ground_v upon_o thy_o grace_n and_o our_o own_o merit_n by_o the_o aid_n there_o of_o ii_o point_n consider_v with_o the_o same_o saint_n how_o our_o hope_n be_v to_o be_v ground_v and_o confirm_v in_o we_o and_o you_o will_v find_v that_o it_o be_v to_o be_v do_v by_o a_o good_a conscience_n let_v he_o say_v he_o who_o hope_v for_o the_o kingdom_n of_o heaven_n have_v a_o good_a conscience_n and_o to_o have_v a_o good_a conscience_n let_v he_o believe_v and_o work_v affection_n and_o resolve_v let_v we_o not_o then_o o_o my_o soul_n remain_v secure_a in_o the_o certain_a knowledge_n we_o have_v of_o god_n by_o faith_n nor_o in_o the_o strong_a confidence_n we_o have_v to_o obtain_v it_o by_o the_o help_n of_o hope_n but_o let_v we_o further_o in_o good_a earnest_n put_v our_o hand_n to_o the_o work_n lest_o a_o good_a faith_n and_o hope_n turn_v our_o adversary_n and_o confound_v we_o while_o we_o produce_v no_o action_n proportionable_a to_o the_o infallible_a light_n and_o certain_a expectation_n which_o we_o have_v by_o god_n gift_n which_o be_v not_o to_o be_v bury_v iii_o point_n consider_v whereupon_o we_o be_v to_o fix_v our_o hope_n and_o he_o will_v tell_v we_o that_o it_o be_v not_o to_o be_v place_v in_o present_a thing_n for_o they_o post_v on_o to_o pass_v by_o nor_o in_o adversity_n a_o kind_n of_o death_n nor_o in_o prosperity_n for_o that_o be_v deceitful_o fawn_v not_o in_o the_o whole_a earth_n since_o we_o see_v that_o be_v turn_v topsy_n turvey_o and_o be_v in_o a_o perpetual_a agitation_n not_o in_o man_n nor_o consequent_o in_o one_o self_n since_o we_o be_v but_o man_n where_o then_o transcende_v thyself_o and_o put_v thyself_o in_o his_o hand_n who_o make_v thou_o affec_n and_o resol._n alas_o no_o our_o hope_n be_v not_o fix_v but_o toss_v while_o they_o be_v place_v upon_o sublunary_a and_o transitory_a thing_n which_o be_v subject_a to_o a_o perpetual_a vicissitude_n and_o change_n and_o therefore_o that_o which_o be_v place_v upon_o they_o must_v needs_o be_v subject_a to_o the_o same_o motion_n and_o alteration_n where_o be_v the_o delight_n upon_o which_o yesterday_o we_o place_v our_o hope_n i_o say_v not_o where_o will_v they_o be_v when_o the_o world_n be_v pass_v with_o its_o concupiscence_n but_o where_o be_v they_o even_o now_o one_o moment_n after_o the_o possession_n where_o be_v they_o yesterday_o be_v turn_v out_o of_o door_n by_o this_o day_n present_a this_o present_a moment_n be_v push_v away_o by_o a_o succeed_a one_o and_o with_o it_o that_o be_v snatch_v from_o we_o whereon_o our_o dear_a hope_n be_v fix_v wherewith_o we_o think_v to_o have_v feed_v but_o indeed_o famish_v our_o deceive_a hart_n in_o thou_o therefore_o o_o lord_n from_o henceforth_o will_v i_o repose_v my_o whole_a confidence_n and_o i_o will_v not_o be_v confound_v for_o ever_o thou_o be_v that_o unchangeable_a good_a which_o be_v abundant_o satisfactory_a and_o yet_o be_v subject_a to_o no_o change_n thou_o be_v that_o truth_n which_o can_v neither_o deceive_v nor_o be_v deceive_v the_o xii_o meditation_n what_o christian_n be_v to_o hope_v for_o in_o this_o world_n 1._o point_n consider_v that_o if_o we_o be_v true_a christian_n indeed_o we_o ought_v to_o expect_v for_o nothing_o in_o this_o world_n but_o pressure_n and_o persecution_n without_o hope_n of_o better_a time_n be_v assure_v by_o the_o gospel_n that_o in_o the_o latter_a day_n many_o evil_n scandal_n pressure_n and_o iniquity_n shall_v abound_v this_o be_v the_o condition_n of_o our_o present_a state_n and_o vocation_n that_o thereby_o be_v wane_a from_o the_o love_n of_o this_o world_n our_o hope_n may_v be_v whole_o set_v upon_o a_o better_a aff._n and_o resi_n .._o what_o we_o suffer_v then_o be_v no_o surprise_n make_v upon_o we_o how_o strange_o soever_o we_o look_v upon_o it_o it_o be_v but_o the_o ignorance_n or_o not_o reflection_n of_o what_o we_o be_v or_o aught_o to_o be_v which_o make_v we_o impatient_a of_o our_o present_a condition_n we_o be_v christian_n my_o soul_n we_o be_v admit_v upon_o no_o other_o condition_n then_o to_o be_v follower_n of_o christ_n if_o they_o persecute_v he_o they_o will_v persecute_v we_o too_o the_o servant_n be_v not_o great_a than_o the_o master_n truth_n deceive_v we_o not_o when_o he_o foretell_v we_o and_o will_v we_o to_o remember_v that_o he_o have_v foretell_v we_o so_o that_o for_o his_o sake_n the_o world_n shall_v hate_v we_o that_o for_o his_o name_n we_o shall_v be_v lead_v before_o king_n etc._n etc._n nor_o can_v he_o deceive_v we_o when_o he_o say_v bless_a be_v they_o that_o suffer_v persecution_n etc._n etc._n because_o they_o be_v the_o kingdom_n of_o heaven_n ii_o point_n consider_v that_o if_o in_o the_o midst_n of_o thes_n tribulation_n and_o pressure_n we_o lodge_v our_o confidence_n in_o the_o bosom_n of_o god_n providence_n or_o in_o the_o wound_n of_o our_o saviour_n side_n not_o man_n nor_o devil_n will_v be_v able_a to_o hurt_v we_o nether_a the_o one_o nor_o the_o other_o do_v any_o thing_n but_o what_o god_n permitt_v they_o nor_o do_v he_o permit_v they_o to_o attempt_v any_o thing_n against_o we_o but_o for_o our_o advantage_n affection_n and_o resol._n in_o thou_o o_o lord_n will_v i_o hope_v and_o i_o will_v not_o be_v confound_v for_o ever_o i_o will_v logde_v as_o in_o a_o impregnable_a castle_n in_o the_o sacred_a hole_n of_o thy_o side_n there_o will_v i_o repose_v without_o fear_n there_o will_v i_o secure_o sleep_v if_o the_o wicked_a make_v war_n against_o i_o in_o this_o i_o hope_v if_o the_o flesh_n make_v head_n against_o i_o to_o this_o will_v i_o fly_v if_o the_o devil_n bark_n and_o bale_n before_o my_o hart_n by_o these_o hole_n will_v i_o have_v recourse_n to_o the_o hart_n of_o my_o saviour_n he_o will_v be_v with_o we_o in_o the_o midst_n of_o our_o tribulation_n because_o we_o call_v upon_o he_o he_o will_v deliver_v we_o and_o glorify_v we_o replenish_v we_o with_o the_o length_n of_o day_n and_o show_v we_o his_o salvation_n iii_o point_n hence_o let_v we_o consider_v and_o even_o put_v down_o and_o print_n in_o a_o christian_a hart_n for_o a_o prime_n and_o infallible_a truth_n that_o we_o christian_n be_v not_o make_v for_o the_o world_n nor_o for_o the_o good_n of_o the_o time_n present_a nor_o for_o that_o bewitch_a felicity_n which_o make_v man_n forget_v god_n but_o for_o a_o certain_a happiness_n which_o god_n promise_v for_o the_o present_a but_o man_n be_v not_o now_o capable_a of_o because_o of_o it_o be_v say_v nether_a eye_n have_v see_v etc._n etc._n affection_n and_o resol._n alas_o no_o my_o hart_n neither_o be_v these_o momentary_a good_n which_o we_o see_v our_o true_a good_n nor_o these_o evil_n which_o we_o suffer_v our_o evil_n indeed_o no_o for_o of_o these_o good_n we_o see_v the_o wicked_a most_o plentiful_o possess_v with_o these_o evil_n we_o see_v the_o just_a most_o powerful_o oppress_v our_o good_a indeed_o be_v the_o chief_a good_a that_o only_o we_o be_v to_o hope_v for_o that_o to_o love_v alone_o and_o our_o evil_a too_o be_v the_o soweraigne_n evil_a that_o alone_o we_o be_v to_o fear_v and_o fly_v whence_o we_o be_v warn_v not_o to_o fear_v they_o that_o can_v only_o kill_v the_o body_n and_o can_v reach_v no_o further_o but_o to_o fear_v he_o who_o can_v cast_v both_o body_n and_o soul_n into_o eternal_a fire_n the_o xiii_o meditat_fw-la what_o motive_n he_o take_v to_o confirm_v hope_n i._o point_n consider_v that_o the_o first_o motive_n of_o our_o hope_n yea_o even_o the_o source_n of_o all_o our_o motive_n be_v the_o infinite_a goodness_n and_o charity_n of_o god_n whereby_o he_o be_v move_v to_o converse_v among_o us._n we_o ought_v not_o to_o be_v without_o hope_n but_o rather_o to_o presume_v in_o christ_n with_o a_o great_a confidence_n because_o if_o through_o charity_n he_o be_v with_o we_o in_o earth_n by_o the_o same_o charity_n we_o be_v with_o he_o in_o heaven_n according_a to_o that_o of_o the_o apostle_n your_o life_n be_v hide_v with_o christ_n in_o god_n therefore_o he_o be_v yet_o below_o we_o be_v
now_o a_o hart_n as_o a_o heaven_n or_o paradise_n since_o thou_o be_v make_v a_o mansion_n for_o the_o god_n of_o glory_n do_v not_o do_v not_o my_o hart_n gadd_a abroad_o and_o by_o a_o degenerous_a conversation_n forget_v with_o who_o presence_n thou_o be_v honour_v thou_o have_v by_o love_n get_v deus_fw-la tuus_fw-la &_o omne_fw-la contemn_v for_o his_o love_n all_o other_o thing_n say_v dilectus_fw-la meus_fw-la mihi_fw-la &_o ego_fw-la illi_fw-la iii_o point_n consider_v whether_o a_o great_a commendation_n can_v be_v put_v upon_o charity_n then_o by_o say_v god_n be_v charity_n a_o short_a praise_n and_o yet_o a_o great_a praise_n short_a in_o speech_n great_a in_o understanding_n yes_o it_o be_v quick_o say_v god_n be_v charity_n but_o good_a god_n whether_o be_v our_o thought_n carry_v by_o that_o word_n god_n be_v charity_n by_o possess_v charity_n than_o we_o possess_v god_n but_o god_n be_v all_o good_a thing_n therefore_o by_o possess_v charity_n we_o possess_v all_o that_o good_a be_v in_o heaven_n and_o in_o earth_n affection_n and_o resol._n o_o short_a and_o great_a commendation_n indeed_o since_o so_o great_a as_o nothing_o can_v be_v add_v since_o great_a or_o better_a than_o god_n nothing_o can_v be_v imagine_v by_o man_n or_o angel_n nor_o be_v it_o a_o humane_a persuasion_n we_o have_v for_o it_o but_o a_o assurance_n of_o faith_n that_o god_n be_v charity_n and_o who_o remain_v in_o charity_n remain_v in_o god_n and_o god_n in_o he_o o_o my_o soul_n what_o a_o honour_n and_o comfort_n be_v this_o amid_o all_o the_o calumny_n and_o affliction_n of_o the_o world_n that_o by_o love_n thou_o be_v able_a to_o become_v god_n mansion_n and_o he_o thy_o and_o if_o thy_o belove_a be_v thy_o and_o thou_o his_o what_o can_v be_v want_v to_o a_o well_o bear_v hart_n the_o xviii_o meditat_fw-la a_o continuation_n of_o the_o excellence_n of_o charity_n i._o point_n consider_v that_o charity_n alone_o be_v not_o vex_v at_o another_o felicity_n because_o she_o know_v no_o emulation_n she_o alone_o be_v not_o transport_v with_o her_o own_o felicity_n because_o she_o swell_v not_o with_o pride_n she_o only_o be_v not_o sting_v with_o a_o bad_a conscience_n because_o she_o wrong_v no_o body_n amid_o contumely_n she_o be_v secure_a among_o hatred_n friendly_a among_o brawl_n pleasant_a amid_o deceit_n innocent_a lament_v at_o iniquity_n and_o resume_v hart_n upon_o the_o discovery_n of_o truth_n affection_n and_o resolut_n who_o be_v then_o so_o happy_a as_o one_o enjoy_v charity_n what_o have_v the_o world_n which_o can_v give_v so_o solid_a and_o sure_a a_o content_a yea_o what_o have_v it_o that_o be_v not_o brim_n full_a of_o discontent_n whereas_o the_o charitable_a man_n meet_v with_o no_o vexation_n no_o emulation_n no_o swell_n but_o contrary_o joy_n peace_n patience_n under_o the_o shelter_n of_o a_o good_a conscience_n be_v that_o happy_a man_n share_n o_o divine_a charity_n how_o thou_o fille_v the_o heart_n which_o thou_o do_v possess_v with_o delight_n sweetness_n and_o tranquillity_n ah_o they_o seem_v even_o to_o enter_v into_o the_o joy_n of_o their_o lord_n ii_o point_n consider_v that_o it_o be_v charity_n which_o make_v all_o the_o good_a angel_n and_o all_o god_n servant_n compagnions_n in_o the_o bond_n of_o sanctity_n and_o it_o join_v we_o and_o they_o together_o among_o ourselves_o and_o subject_n we_o to_o he_o affection_n and_o resolve_v see_v how_o it_o league_n heaven_n and_o earth_n together_o and_o putt_v we_o in_o mind_n what_o title_n we_o have_v to_o it_o make_v angel_n and_o man_n fellow_n servant_n and_o even_o in_o a_o manner_n equal_a in_o honour_n and_o chain_n they_o together_o in_o link_n of_o holy_a love_n which_o be_v true_a sanctity_n o_o wishfull_a and_o dear_a bond_n see_v what_o a_o sweet_a order_n it_o establish_v betwixt_o man_n and_o man_n make_v each_o one_o love_n and_o honour_n and_o defer_v to_o a_o other_o without_o forget_v their_o due_a subjection_n to_o god_n to_o who_o incomparable_o above_o all_o love_v honour_n and_o glory_n be_v due_a iii_o point_n consider_v what_o a_o huge_a great_a good_a charity_n be_v which_o without_o our_o labour_n make_v what_o be_v good_a in_o other_o our_o own_o hence_o it_o be_v that_o the_o psalmist_n holy_o glory_n that_o he_o be_v make_v partaker_n of_o all_o that_o love_n god_n and_o keep_v his_o commandment_n affedtion_n and_o resolve_v ah_o my_o soul_n if_o thou_o have_v but_o charity_n all_o be_v thy_o own_o there_o be_v no_o good_a work_n do_v in_o heaven_n or_o in_o earth_n but_o thou_o have_v a_o share_n of_o it_o heaven_n and_o earth_n make_v but_o one_o great_a christian_a common_a wealth_n whereof_o charity_n be_v the_o queen_n and_o lodge_v in_o thy_o hart_n what_o ever_o prayer_n fasting_n austerity_n almsdeed_n sufferance_n be_v exercise_v within_o the_o compass_v of_o the_o catholic_a church_n be_v partly_o thy_o while_o thou_o be_v root_v in_o charity_n the_o xix_o meditat_fw-la of_o some_z motive_n of_o the_o love_n of_o god_n i._o point_n consider_v that_o s._n augustins_n first_o motive_n of_o the_o love_n of_o god_n be_v that_o he_o first_o love_v he_o the_o love_n whereby_o god_n love_v we_o not_o be_v comprehend_v nor_o change_v for_o he_o love_v we_o not_o only_o since_o the_o time_n we_o be_v reconcile_v to_o he_o by_o the_o blood_n of_o his_o son_n but_o he_o even_o love_v we_o before_o the_o world_n be_v make_v that_o we_o together_o with_o his_o only_a beget_v son_n may_v be_v his_o son_n before_o we_o be_v yet_o any_o thing_n at_o all_o affect_v and_o resolut_n while_o i_o yet_o be_v not_o and_o so_o be_v nothing_o my_o infinite_o good_a god_n have_v thought_n of_o goodness_n for_o i_o to_o raise_v i_o out_o of_o that_o abyss_n of_o nothing_o and_o make_v i_o that_o something_o which_o now_o i_o be_o be_v make_v he_o fall_v in_o love_n with_o his_o own_o work_n mere_o out_o of_o the_o abundance_n of_o his_o own_o goodness_n without_o any_o need_n he_o have_v of_o it_o at_o all_o and_o make_v we_o son_n son_n and_o heir_n of_o the_o heavenly_a kingdom_n we_o have_v no_o title_n too_o ah_o my_o soul_n if_o we_o will_v not_o begin_v to_o love_v at_o least_o be_v thus_o gracious_o prevent_v let_v we_o not_o stick_v to_o pay_v love_n for_o love_n the_o hart_n be_v too_o hard_a which_o though_o it_o will_v not_o free_o give_v will_v not_o aâ—_n lest_o render_v what_o it_o owe_v ii_o point_n consider_v that_o his_o second_o motive_n be_v the_o excessive_a greatness_n of_o god_n love_n to_o we_o such_o as_o we_o be_v which_o go_v so_o far_o that_o he_o spare_v not_o his_o own_o only_a son_n but_o deliver_v he_o to_o death_n and_o the_o death_n of_o the_o cross_n for_o all_o of_o we_o we_o who_o where_o wicked_a sinner_n remember_v how_o much_o he_o love_v that_o we_o may_v not_o despair_v who_o or_o what_o kind_n of_o creature_n he_o love_v that_o we_o wax_v not_o proud_a a_o son_n for_o a_o servant_n a_o that_o a_o most_o wicked_a one_o deliver_v 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