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future_a and_o for_o a_o acknowledgement_n of_o thy_o extraordinary_a obligation_n for_o thy_o saviour_n suffering_n undergo_v for_o thy_o sake_n amendment_n with_o a_o resolution_n of_o amendment_n thou_o will_v resolve_v to_o serve_v he_o love_v he_o and_o suffer_v for_o he_o hereafter_o the_o three_o profit_n be_v that_o thou_o will_v fall_v out_o with_o thy_o perverse_a inclination_n virtue_n the_o three_o a_o persecution_n of_o our_o passion_n the_o four_o a_o imitation_n of_o christ_n virtue_n and_o passion_n and_o persecute_v they_o to_o death_n be_v they_o never_o so_o little_a the_o four_o be_v that_o thou_o will_v force_v thyself_o to_o the_o utmost_a of_o thy_o power_n to_o imitate_v the_o virtue_n of_o thy_o dear_a saviour_n who_o endure_v all_o this_o not_o only_o to_o save_v thou_o and_o satisfy_v for_o thy_o sin_n but_o also_o to_o give_v thou_o a_o example_n to_o follow_v his_o sacred_a step_n another_o way_n to_o meditate_v on_o the_o passion_n and_o now_o my_o 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understanding_n which_o be_v all_o body_n three_o how_o the_o soul_n towards_o itself_o and_o its_o sacred_a body_n light_n know_v how_o high_o his_o passion_n please_v god_n and_o with_o his_o will_n which_o be_v all_o fire_n love_v the_o divine_a majesty_n beyond_o measure_n which_o thus_o invite_v he_o to_o suffer_v for_o thou_o he_o dispose_v himself_o ready_o joyful_o &_o content_o to_o obey_v his_o sacred_a will_n and_o pleasure_n and_o who_o can_v dive_v into_o the_o depth_n of_o those_o desire_n which_o this_o pure_a and_o love_a soul_n of_o thy_o saviour_n have_v to_o suffer_v for_o thy_o sake_n it_o find_v itself_o as_o it_o be_v in_o a_o labyrinth_n of_o trouble_n cast_v about_o to_o encounter_v new_a way_n of_o suffering_n and_o therefore_o free_o give_v up_o itself_o and_o it_o be_v innocent_a body_n as_o a_o prey_n to_o the_o pleasure_n and_o cruelty_n of_o the_o most_o lewd_a and_o worst_a sort_n of_o villain_n four_o consider_v in_o the_o next_o thou_o four_o how_o thy_o saviour_n carry_v himself_o towards_o thou_o place_n thy_o sweet_a saviour_n amid_o his_o bitter_a torment_n fix_v his_o eye_n full_a of_o tear_n and_o tenderness_n upon_o thou_o and_o conceive_v thou_o hear_v he_o thus_o expostulate_v with_o thou_o behold_v my_o child_n whither_o thy_o immoderate_a desire_n and_o unmortified_a affection_n have_v bring_v i_o because_o thou_o will_v not_o use_v a_o little_a violence_n to_o thyself_o see_v and_o consider_v how_o much_o and_o how_o willing_o i_o suffer_v for_o thy_o love_n and_o to_o give_v thou_o a_o pattern_n of_o perfect_a patience_n i_o beg_v of_o thou_o o_o my_o dear_a child_n and_o i_o conjure_v thou_o by_o all_o these_o my_o suffering_n and_o sorrow_n that_o thou_o will_v willing_o embrace_v and_o cheerful_o carry_v this_o cross_n and_o any_o other_o which_o i_o shall_v think_v fit_a to_o lay_v upon_o thy_o shoulder_n and_o that_o thou_o abandon_v thyself_o entire_o into_o such_o hand_n as_o i_o shall_v permit_v to_o persecute_v thou_o in_o body_n or_o fame_n how_o vile_a contemptible_a and_o cruel_a soever_o they_o be_v o_o do_v thou_o but_o conceive_v the_o greatness_n of_o the_o comfort_n i_o shall_v receive_v in_o this_o thy_o patience_n and_o courage_n but_o thou_o may_v read_v it_o in_o these_o my_o wound_n wherein_o my_o love_n to_o thou_o be_v write_v in_o bloody_a character_n and_o which_o i_o willing_o receive_v as_o so_o many_o precious_a pearl_n to_o enrich_v thy_o poor_a soul_n with_o all_o sort_n of_o virtue_n and_o perfection_n because_o i_o love_v it_o above_o all_o thing_n create_v and_o if_o i_o thy_o lord_n and_o creator_n be_o reduce_v to_o this_o extremity_n for_o thy_o love_n why_o o_o my_o dear_a spouse_n will_v thou_o not_o consent_v to_o endure_v a_o little_a to_o satisfy_v my_o heart_n desire_v to_o supple_a my_o wound_n and_o to_o mitigate_v these_o my_o pain_n cause_v by_o thy_o impatience_n which_o more_o afflict_v my_o soul_n than_o these_o grievous_a torment_n do_v my_o body_n five_o consider_v well_o who_o he_o be_v saviour_n five_o how_o thou_o shall_v carry_v thyself_o towards_o thy_o saviour_n that_o speak_v thus_o unto_o thou_o and_o thou_o will_v find_v that_o he_o be_v the_o king_n of_o glory_n jesus_n christ_n true_a god_n and_o true_a man_n mark_v also_o the_o greatness_n of_o his_o grief_n the_o variety_n of_o his_o torment_n and_o the_o manner_n and_o indignity_n of_o his_o disgrace_n too_o bad_a for_o the_o worst_a of_o man_n or_o most_o infamous_a malefactor_n in_o the_o world_n yet_o thou_o see_v thy_o saviour_n amid_o all_o these_o affront_n and_o affliction_n not_o only_o unmoveable_a mild_a and_o patient_a but_o even_o joyful_a and_o content_a as_o if_o he_o now_o keep_v his_o marriage-banquet_n and_o as_o a_o little_a water_n rather_o strengthen_v than_o extinguish_v a_o full_a kindle_a fire_n so_o by_o the_o increase_n of_o his_o torment_n which_o be_v small_a in_o respect_n of_o his_o excessive_a love_n his_o content_a and_o desire_v of_o suffer_v far_o great_a be_v more_o and_o more_o enkindle_v and_o augment_v consider_v further_o that_o he_o endure_v all_o this_o by_o no_o external_a violence_n nor_o for_o any_o self-interest_n but_o as_o he_o tell_v thou_o for_o thy_o love_n and_o that_o thou_o may_v imitate_v he_o and_o exercise_v thyself_o in_o the_o virtue_n of_o patience_n and_o then_o penetrate_v into_o that_o which_o he_o desire_v thou_o shall_v do_v and_o into_o the_o content_a thou_o shall_v afford_v he_o by_o this_o thy_o practice_n of_o patience_n produce_v act_n of_o a_o passionate_a will_n to_o bear_v not_o only_o this_o cross_n patient_o and_o joyful_o but_o any_o great_a that_o so_o thou_o may_v imitate_v he_o more_o perfect_o and_o content_v he_o more_o abundant_o and_o imprint_v in_o thy_o mind_n a_o lively_a image_n of_o these_o his_o suffering_n and_o of_o his_o constancy_n therein_o be_v ashamed_a to_o think_v thy_o patience_n so_o much_o as_o a_o shadow_n of_o he_o or_o that_o thy_o affection_n be_v real_o any_o at_o all_o be_v compare_v with_o he_o and_o tremble_v that_o the_o least_o thought_n of_o not_o endure_v for_o the_o love_n of_o thy_o lord_n shall_v remain_v in_o thy_o heart_n thy_o crucify_a jesus_n my_o belove_a be_v the_o best_a book_n thou_o can_v read_v in_o in_o christ_n crucify_v be_v the_o best_a book_n to_o read_v in_o and_o the_o lively_a image_n thou_o can_v look_v upon_o to_o draw_v the_o perfect_a portrait_n of_o all_o virtue_n for_o it_o be_v the_o book_n of_o life_n it_o not_o only_o inform_v thy_o understanding_n by_o word_n but_o also_o inflame_v thy_o will_n by_o example_n the_o world_n be_v full_a of_o book_n yet_o all_o of_o they_o together_o can_v so_o speedy_o and_o perfect_o teach_v the_o true_a mean_n of_o obtain_v all_o virtue_n as_o do_v the_o right_a contemplation_n of_o christ_n upon_o his_o cross_n but_o they_o virtue_n and_o to_o learn_v all_o
honour_n be_v to_o he_o devout_a for_o to_o suffer_v for_o god_n be_v the_o best_a prayer_n and_o make_v thou_o true_o devout_a the_o most_o acceptable_a prayer_n and_o therefore_o to_o endure_v this_o dryness_n with_o perfect_a patience_n and_o humble_a resignation_n make_v thou_o true_o devout_a because_o true_a devotion_n consist_v in_o no_o other_o thing_n than_o to_o have_v a_o ready_a will_n to_o follow_v christ_n thy_o lord_n with_o thy_o cross_n on_o thy_o shoulder_n whither_o and_o which_o way_n he_o please_v have_v and_o desire_v god_n only_o for_o god_n and_o sometime_o leave_v god_n for_o god_n 9_o if_o therefore_o spiritual_a person_n especial_o religious_a man_n and_o woman_n will_v seerious_o examine_v and_o measure_v their_o progress_n in_o the_o way_n of_o perfection_n and_o piety_n by_o this_o rule_n and_o not_o by_o the_o feel_n of_o sensible_a devotion_n which_o many_o do_v chief_o devotion_n and_o not_o sensible_a devotion_n regard_v they_o sure_o will_v make_v better_a use_n of_o sensible_a comfort_n in_o their_o exercise_n of_o devotion_n which_o their_o love_a lord_n afford_v to_o make_v they_o more_o zealous_a in_o submit_v to_o his_o sacred_a will_n which_o dispose_v all_o thing_n in_o order_n to_o our_o salvation_n and_o benefit_n deceive_v wherein_o many_o be_v deceive_v 10._o and_o in_o this_o also_o many_o be_v much_o deceive_v that_o when_o they_o be_v trouble_v with_o impure_a and_o perverse_a thought_n they_o present_o become_v fearful_a and_o fainthearted_a and_o as_o if_o god_n have_v utter_o forsake_v they_o think_v it_o impossible_a that_o his_o holy_a spirit_n shall_v inhabit_v a_o heart_n so_o trouble_v and_o torment_v and_o they_o so_o intricate_a themselves_o in_o these_o fancy_n till_o by_o degree_n they_o fall_v into_o a_o grievous_a dislike_n of_o themselves_o and_o last_o into_o a_o certain_a dangerous_a despair_n which_o they_o no_o soon_o apprehend_v in_o themselves_o but_o they_o present_o run_v to_o their_o wont_a way_n to_o recover_v their_o quiet_n but_o hereby_o they_o show_v themselves_o little_a grateful_a to_o god_n who_o therefore_o permit_v they_o to_o be_v thus_o trouble_v and_o tempt_v to_o bring_v they_o to_o the_o clear_a knowledge_n of_o their_o own_o nothing_o that_o so_o as_o wretched_a frail_a and_o desolate_a creature_n they_o may_v more_o serious_o seek_v he_o and_o more_o diligent_o draw_v near_o he_o 11._o wherefore_o o_o my_o belove_a distress_n what_o thou_o be_v to_o do_v in_o this_o distress_n that_o which_o thou_o must_v do_v in_o such_o a_o distress_n be_v this_o enter_v straight_o into_o a_o profound_a reflection_n upon_o thy_o own_o baseness_n and_o there_o humble_a thyself_o and_o confess_v thy_o peevish_a affection_n and_o passion_n and_o acknowledge_v thy_o pronesse_n to_o fall_v if_o leave_v to_o thyself_o into_o all_o manner_n of_o wickedness_n and_o that_o without_o thy_o love_a lord_n care_v and_o custody_n help_n and_o defence_n thou_o will_v be_v cast_v down_o headlong_o incontinent_o 12._o this_o do_v raise_v thy_o heart_n with_o a_o good_a hope_n and_o confidence_n in_o thy_o creator_n see_v it_o be_v he_o only_a who_o permit_v thou_o to_o fall_v into_o this_o adversity_n that_o thou_o may_v take_v hold_n of_o the_o occasion_n to_o draw_v near_o unto_o he_o by_o humble_a prayer_n and_o therefore_o thou_o be_v oblige_v to_o render_v grateful_a thanks_o to_o his_o divine_a majesty_n for_o these-like_a trouble_n and_o temptation_n and_o take_v this_o as_o a_o certainty_n that_o all_o such_o perverse_a thought_n be_v soon_o expel_v with_o meek_a sufferance_n and_o patience_n than_o with_o much_o solicitude_n and_o study_n chap._n xxix_o that_o the_o worthy_a frequent_v of_o the_o most_o bless_a sacrament_n be_v a_o efficacious_a mean_n to_o conquer_v our_o passion_n the_o sacred_a communion_n or_o most_o holy_a sacrament_n of_o the_o eucharist_n be_v receive_v by_o devout_a christian_n for_o divers_a end_n but_o if_o thou_o desire_v to_o take_v it_o for_o the_o particular_a strengthen_n of_o thy_o soul_n against_o the_o assault_n of_o evil_a inclination_n attend_v to_o what_o i_o shall_v now_o teach_v thou_o 2._o the_o day_n before_o thou_o intend_v thou_o meditate_v the_o day_n before_o thy_o communion_n of_o thy_o saviour_n desire_n etc._n etc._n to_o come_v to_o thou_o to_o communicate_v meditate_v if_o thy_o leisure_n give_v thou_o leave_v of_o the_o great_a desire_n thy_o dear_a saviour_n have_v to_o unite_v himself_o to_o thou_o by_o the_o mean_n of_o this_o sacrament_n and_o thereby_o to_o root_v out_o thy_o vicious_a affection_n for_o this_o his_o desire_n be_v so_o immense_a that_o no_o create_a understanding_n can_v comprehend_v it_o 3._o but_o that_o thou_o may_v have_v a_o small_a glimpse_n thereof_o consider_v these_o two_o thing_n first_o what_o pleasure_n our_o lord_n take_v to_o dwell_v in_o we_o since_o the_o holy_a scripture_n call_v this_o his_o delight_n and_o in_o sin_n my_o delight_n be_v to_o be_v with_o the_o child_n of_o man_n child_n give_v i_o thy_o heart_n and_o how_o much_o he_o hate_v sin_n requital_n of_o this_o love_n he_o only_o require_v our_o heart_n secondâ—y_o how_o much_o he_o hate_v our_o sin_n which_o â—â—â—der_v his_o near_a union_n with_o we_o and_o be_v direct_o opposite_a to_o his_o incompaâ—â—ble_a perfection_n for_o he_o be_v the_o â—â—ely_a and_o chief_a good_a the_o pure_a light_n use_v most_o perfect_a beauty_n can_v but_o detest_v that_o which_o be_v mere_a darkness_n frailty_n and_o the_o corruption_n and_o canker_n of_o our_o wretched_a soul_n 4._o and_o that_o this_o love_a desire_n of_o thy_o dear_a lord_n may_v take_v yet_o deep_a impression_n in_o thy_o mind_n meditate_v often_o of_o his_o marvelous_a work_n relate_v in_o the_o old_a and_o new_a testament_n especial_o of_o his_o most_o bitter_a passion_n and_o cruel_a death_n which_o he_o do_v express_o suffer_v to_o deliver_v thy_o soul_n from_o sin_n and_o to_o cleanse_v it_o from_o such_o affection_n as_o be_v contrary_a to_o his_o divine_a majesty_n concern_v which_o point_n all_o the_o illuminate_v doctor_n of_o god_n church_n do_v unanimous_o conclude_v and_o teach_v that_o christ_n our_o saviour_n will_v again_o if_o it_o be_v needful_a exposâ—_n himself_o to_o a_o thousand_o death_n to_o free_v we_o from_o the_o least_o evil_a passion_n or_o affection_n 5._o by_o such_o consideration_n thou_o he_o and_o move_v thy_o soul_n to_o a_o reciprocal_a desire_n and_o affection_n towards_o he_o will_v easy_o gather_v the_o great_a desire_n thy_o dear_a saviour_n have_v to_o dwell_v with_o thou_o and_o from_o thence_o conclude_v how_o fit_n it_o be_v that_o thou_o shall_v reciprocal_o stir_v up_o in_o thyself_o a_o ardent_a affection_n to_o receive_v and_o entertain_v he_o which_o thou_o may_v do_v by_o these_o and_o the_o like_a jaculatory_a prayer_n come_v o_o my_o lord_n and_o my_o love_n help_v thy_o caitif_a creature_n to_o conquer_v her_o enemy_n when_o o_o when_o my_o dear_a spouse_n will_v that_o happy_a hour_n come_v that_o i_o may_v receive_v thou_o the_o bread_n of_o life_n and_o be_v comfort_v and_o encourage_v by_o thou_o may_v full_o conquer_v myself_o and_o total_o subdue_v my_o own_o evil_a passion_n and_o disorder_a affection_n 6._o and_o when_o thou_o be_v heighten_v battle_n and_o then_o provoke_v thy_o passion_n to_o battle_n with_o the_o hope_n of_o thy_o sweet_a saviour_n come_v into_o thy_o soul_n then_o provoke_v thy_o passion_n to_o battle_n call_v up_o thy_o affection_n and_o curb_v they_o again_o and_o again_o with_o perfect_a hatred_n and_o disdain_n and_o this_o do_v produce_v act_n and_o desire_n of_o the_o virtue_n which_o be_v opposite_a to_o these_o vice_n and_o let_v this_o be_v thy_o evening_n entertainment_n and_o morning_n â—mploymâ—â—t_n 7._o but_o when_o the_o hour_n of_o sacred_a fear_v be_v near_o the_o time_n of_o communion_n thou_o be_v to_o fear_v communion_n draw_v near_o think_v serious_o of_o thy_o own_o fault_n fail_n and_o unfaithfulnesse_n to_o thy_o lord_n god_n since_o the_o time_n of_o thy_o last_o approach_n to_o the_o sacred_a table_n for_o which_o ingratitude_n and_o unworthiness_n thou_o tremble_v with_o fear_n and_o confusion_n before_o his_o dread_a majesty_n but_o then_o again_o encourage_v and_o comfort_v thy_o confidence_n but_o also_o to_o have_v courage_n and_o confidence_n self_n with_o the_o consideration_n of_o his_o goodness_n his_o readiness_n to_o pardon_v and_o his_o inclination_n to_o mercy_n and_o with_o a_o pious_a confidence_n that_o he_o will_v have_v thou_o receive_v he_o notwithstanding_o thy_o own_o indignity_n go_v on_o with_o alacrity_n of_o spirit_n to_o the_o holy_a banquet_n and_o joyful_o embrace_v thy_o lord_n god_n in_o thy_o soul_n 8._o the_o sacred_a communion_n thus_o want_n after_o communion_n discover_v thy_o want_n perform_v present_o shut_v up_o thyself_o within_o the_o closet_n of_o thy_o own_o heart_n and_o discover_v to_o thy_o saviour_n thy_o
sincere_a affection_n when_o shall_v i_o o_o only_a life_n of_o my_o soul_n relinquish_v all_o self-will_n and_o vanquish_v all_o my_o passion_n and_o imperfection_n 8._o in_o these_o and_o the_o like_a devotion_n thou_o may_v spend_v the_o evening_n and_o morning_n to_o excite_v cherish_v and_o increase_v thy_o desire_n to_o receive_v thy_o dear_a saviour_n that_o so_o thou_o may_v perfect_o please_v he_o and_o be_v most_o happy_o unite_v unto_o he_o and_o in_o thy_o pious_a practice_n of_o these_o thing_n take_v this_o caveat_n be_v sure_a to_o keep_v each_o power_n and_o faculty_n of_o thy_o soul_n pure_a and_o curiosity_n but_o take_v heed_n of_o vanity_n and_o curiosity_n free_a from_o all_o curiosity_n of_o worldly_a thing_n and_o from_o all_o idle_a and_o vain_a thought_n take_v also_o the_o like_a care_n of_o thy_o outward_a sense_n lest_o thy_o heart_n steal_v out_o by_o they_o and_o so_o thou_o lose_v all_o thy_o devotion_n explication_n the_o time_n of_o the_o sacred_a communion_n communion_n at_o the_o time_n near_o the_o communion_n draw_v nigh_o think_v thou_o be_v to_o receive_v the_o lord_n who_o create_v this_o great_a universe_n and_o thou_o to_o his_o own_o likeness_n the_o son_n of_o god_n who_o die_v for_o thou_o nâ—ked_a on_o the_o do_v 1._o think_v what_o thou_o be_v go_v to_o do_v cross_n that_o increase_v goodness_n which_o have_v so_o often_o free_v thou_o from_o danger_n death_n and_o damnation_n which_o thy_o sin_n deserve_v thank_v he_o with_o most_o profound_a thank_v thank_v humility_n and_o adore_v he_o unite_n implore_v adore_v implore_v all_o thy_o spirit_n and_o force_n of_o body_n and_o soul_n together_o as_o true_a god_n and_o true_a man_n beg_v also_o his_o pardon_n for_o thy_o fault_n and_o that_o the_o same_o love_n which_o move_v he_o to_o grant_v thou_o this_o great_a gift_n may_v also_o induce_v he_o to_o purge_v thy_o soul_n from_o the_o stain_n of_o all_o sin_n and_o uncleanness_n thereby_o dispose_v it_o to_o a_o more_o pure_a and_o perfect_a union_n with_o his_o divine_a majesty_n when_o the_o priest_n pronounce_v those_o sacred_a word_n domine_fw-la non_fw-la say_v when_o domine_fw-la non_fw-la sum_fw-la dignus_fw-la be_v say_v sum_fw-la dignus_fw-la o_o lord_n i_o be_o not_o worthy_a accompany_v he_o with_o these_o follow_v and_o speak_v to_o thy_o lord_n and_o love_n from_o the_o bottom_n of_o thy_o heart_n i_o be_o not_o worthy_a to_o receive_v thou_o o_o my_o great_a lord_n before_o who_o majesty_n the_o angel_n of_o heaven_n tremble_o confess_v their_o own_o nothing_o i_o be_o not_o worthy_a o_o my_o lord_n that_o thou_o shall_v enter_v into_o my_o heart_n who_o be_o one_o of_o the_o mean_a weak_a and_o ungratefull_a creature_n upon_o earth_n i_o be_o not_o worthy_a o_o my_o lord_n that_o thou_o shall_v lodge_v with_o i_o because_o i_o love_v thou_o not_o and_o i_o remember_v thou_o not_o though_o these_o be_v prime_a reason_n of_o thy_o institute_n and_o remain_v in_o this_o most_o bless_a sacrament_n thus_o humble_a confound_v and_o abysm_n thyself_o humble_a and_o confound_v thyself_o thyself_o at_o the_o serious_a consideration_n of_o thy_o sin_n malice_n and_o misery_n but_o then_o raise_v up_o thy_o heart_n with_o hope_n by_o the_o follow_a word_n sed_fw-la hope_n but_o still_o raise_v up_o thy_o heart_n with_o hope_n tantum_fw-la dic_fw-la verbo_fw-la &_o sanabitur_fw-la anima_fw-la mea_fw-la do_v thou_o only_o speak_v the_o word_n o_o my_o lord_n and_o my_o soul_n will_v be_v save_v enter_v o_o my_o love_n into_o this_o unworthy_a harbour_n and_o make_v use_n of_o thy_o infinite_a power_n and_o goodness_n in_o pardon_v my_o sin_n supply_v my_o defect_n and_o protect_v i_o from_o my_o enemy_n 9_o and_o after_o thou_o have_v receive_v expression_n text._n have_v communicate_v entertain_v thy_o guest_n with_o amorous_a expression_n this_o divine_a sacrament_n betake_v thou_o present_o to_o the_o innermost_a closet_n of_o thy_o heart_n and_o there_o enter_v into_o communication_n with_o thy_o holy_a guest_n use_v these_o or_o the_o like_a love_a and_o respectful_a expression_n what_o have_v move_v thou_o o_o great_a king_n of_o king_n to_o enter_v in_o to_o i_o who_o be_o nothing_o but_o a_o miserable_a despicable_a vild_a blind_a and_o naked_a creature_n and_o he_o will_v answer_v thou_o love_n for_o thou_o be_v my_o dove_n my_o friend_n my_o sister_n my_o spouse_n and_o my_o dear_o belove_v then_o thou_o may_v reply_v o_o increated_a love_n o_o sweet_a dilection_n o_o friendly_a and_o faithful_a charity_n what_o will_v thou_o have_v i_o do_v what_o demand_v thou_o what_o desire_v thou_o i_o ask_v nothing_o say_v he_o but_o love_n i_o will_v have_v nothing_o burn_v in_o the_o hearth_n of_o thy_o heart_n but_o the_o fire_n of_o my_o love_n that_o it_o may_v devour_v all_o foreign_a love_n within_o thou_o and_o destroy_v all_o self-will_a and_o seek_v this_o this_o be_v my_o desire_n because_o i_o will_v be_v true_o thou_o and_o will_v have_v thou_o likewise_o be_v total_o i_o which_o can_v never_o be_v compass_v until_o thou_o free_o deliver_v up_o thyself_o to_o my_o will_n and_o pleasure_n for_o without_o this_o entire_a resignation_n thy_o fancy_n will_v be_v always_o fasten_v to_o the_o love_a and_o like_n of_o thyself_o and_o thy_o own_o action_n be_v they_o never_o so_o mean_a i_o desire_v therefore_o that_o thou_o shall_v hate_v thyself_o that_o thou_o may_v have_v the_o love_n of_o i_o i_o demand_v thy_o heart_n for_o my_o habitation_n that_o i_o may_v join_v and_o unite_v it_o unto_o i_o for_o to_o this_o end_n be_v my_o heart_n open_v to_o thou_o upon_o the_o altar_n of_o my_o cross_n my_o will_n be_v i_o say_v o_o my_o dear_o belove_a spouse_n that_o thou_o desire_v nothing_o think_v nothing_o understand_v nothing_o see_v nothing_o feel_v nothing_o but_o myself_o only_o that_o so_o i_o only_o may_v be_v in_o thâ—e_n and_o thou_o total_o turn_v into_o i_o and_o that_o thou_o may_v possess_v in_o i_o perfect_a quiet_a and_o i_o in_o thou_o pleasant_a context_n 10._o last_o thou_o shall_v offer_v the_o holy_a father_n and_o last_o offer_v up_o the_o divine_a son_n to_o his_o heavenly_a father_n son_n to_o his_o heavenly_a father_n for_o thyself_o for_o the_o whole_a world_n and_o for_o the_o soul_n depart_v in_o memory_n and_o union_n of_o that_o divine_a oblation_n which_o he_o offer_v upon_o the_o holy_a cross_n present_v in_o like_a manner_n all_o the_o unbloody_a sacrifice_n to_o the_o divine_a majesty_n which_o be_v that_o day_n offer_v up_o in_o his_o universal_a church_n chap._n xxxi_o of_o spiritual_a communion_n although_o my_o beloved_a thou_o can_v receive_v thy_o sweet_a saviour_n communicate_v 1._o thou_o may_v thus_o often_o communicate_v sacramental_o only_o once_o a_o day_n yet_o thou_o may_v receive_v he_o spiritual_o every_o hour_n and_o moment_n for_o nothing_o can_v hinder_v thou_o from_o this_o but_o only_o thy_o own_o fault_n and_o negligence_n and_o this_o spiritual_a communion_n may_v sometime_o prove_v more_o profitable_a to_o thy_o soul_n and_o please_v to_o thy_o saviour_n than_o the_o sacramental_a especial_o if_o there_o be_v a_o defect_n in_o thy_o due_a and_o diligent_a preparation_n 2._o for_o as_o often_o as_o thou_o desire_v desire_n by_o frequent_a desire_n to_o receive_v thy_o love_a lord_n god_n thus_o spiritual_o into_o thy_o soul_n thou_o shall_v find_v he_o ever_o ready_a to_o feast_v thou_o with_o his_o own_o sacred_a hand_n and_o thou_o may_v thus_o easy_o dispose_v thyself_o unto_o it_o turn_v thyself_o to_o thy_o saviour_n to_o this_o end_n reflect_v upon_o thy_o own_o frailty_n and_o frequent_a fail_n and_o conceive_v a_o inward_a sorrow_n and_o detestation_n of_o thy_o defect_n then_o make_v thy_o supplication_n with_o a_o love_a affection_n that_o he_o will_v not_o disdain_v to_o enter_v thy_o poor_a cottage_n and_o feast_v thou_o with_o his_o own_o true_a body_n and_o blood_n 3._o so_o also_o when_o thou_o be_v move_v passion_n and_o it_o be_v a_o excellent_a exercise_n against_o passion_n with_o a_o pious_a zeal_n against_o any_o perverse_a passion_n and_o desire_v efficacious_o to_o mortify_v it_o or_o to_o plant_v some_o virtue_n in_o thy_o soul_n make_v use_n of_o this_o spiritual_a communion_n by_o convert_v thy_o thought_n towards_o thy_o lord_n god_n and_o invoke_v his_o aid_n with_o ardent_a prayer_n beseech_v he_o to_o enter_v and_o possess_v the_o secret_a part_n of_o thy_o soul_n or_o call_v to_o mind_v thy_o last_o sacramental_a communion_n speak_v to_o he_o with_o a_o inflame_a desire_n when_o o_o my_o good_a god_n shall_v i_o again_o welcome_v thou_o into_o the_o closet_n of_o my_o heart_n come_v now_o o_o my_o saviour_n and_o comfort_v i_o spiritual_o with_o the_o like_a strength_n and_o virtue_n explication_n if_o thou_o will_v practise_v this_o pious_a profit_n how_o to_o make_v
up_o christ_n action_n for_o our_o offence_n self_n in_o this_o sort_n first_o cast_v a_o eye_n upon_o thy_o sin_n and_o perceive_v that_o thou_o can_v not_o hope_v to_o pacify_v god_n wrath_n nor_o satisfy_v his_o divine_a justice_n by_o thy_o own_o endeavour_n address_v thyself_o to_o thy_o saviour_n life_n passion_n and_o death_n and_o fix_v upon_o some_o one_o or_o other_o action_n or_o suffering_n of_o he_o as_o upon_o his_o fast_n or_o his_o pray_n or_o the_o effusion_n of_o his_o precious_a blood_n then_o reflect_v that_o he_o offer_v that_o his_o action_n or_o passion_n to_o his_o eternal_a father_n for_o thy_o sin_n and_o to_o reconcile_v he_o to_o thou_o as_o if_o he_o say_v i_o do_v now_o o_o my_o heavenly_a father_n full_o satisfy_v thy_o divine_a justice_n for_o the_o sin_n of_o this_o thy_o servant_n n._n oh_o let_v it_o please_v thou_o to_o spare_v he_o and_o to_o receive_v he_o into_o the_o number_n of_o thy_o elect_a 8._o do_v thou_o also_o make_v the_o same_o oblation_n of_o thy_o dear_a saviour_n to_o the_o eternal_a father_n and_o humble_o beg_v for_o thyself_o and_o other_o that_o in_o virtue_n of_o this_o offering_n and_o for_o his_o own_o glory_n sake_n he_o will_v in_o his_o mercy_n pardon_n both_o thou_o and_o their_o offence_n and_o thou_o may_v pious_o and_o profitable_o make_v use_n of_o this_o manner_n of_o spiritual_a exercise_n in_o any_o action_n or_o passage_n of_o our_o lord_n and_o saviour_n life_n or_o passion_n explication_n another_o manner_n of_o perfect_a oblation_n to_o the_o end_n thy_o oblation_n of_o thy_o himself_o christ_n here_o on_o earth_n offer_v not_o only_a himself_o self_n may_v be_v acceptable_a to_o the_o divine_a majesty_n consider_v that_o whilst_o our_o saviour_n so_o journ_v here_o upon_o earth_n he_o perpetual_o offer_v up_o to_o his_o eternal_a father_n not_o only_a himself_o and_o all_o his_o merit_n but_o also_o all_o us_o mortal_n together_o with_o himself_o father_n but_o also_o all_o we_o to_o his_o father_n make_v therefore_o thy_o oblation_n in_o virtue_n and_o union_n of_o he_o yea_o make_v the_o selfsame_a oblation_n of_o jesus_n christ_n in_o which_o he_o also_o comprehend_v thou_o oblation_n make_v thou_o the_o same_o oblation_n and_o let_v this_o thy_o oblation_n be_v without_o the_o least_o touch_n of_o propriety_n or_o selfe-wil_a neither_o regard_v earthly_a good_n nor_o heavenly_a grace_n but_o pure_o and_o precise_o look_v upon_o the_o divine_a pleasure_n and_o providence_n to_o which_o thou_o be_v entire_o to_o submit_v and_o sacrifice_v thyself_o as_o a_o perpetual_a holocaust_n and_o forget_v all_o thing_n create_v say_v unto_o thy_o lord_n god_n behold_v o_o my_o good_a god_n o_o my_o great_a creator_n a_o small_a lump_n of_o mire_n and_o earth_n mix_v together_o in_o the_o hand_n of_o thy_o eternal_a providence_n do_v with_o i_o what_o best_o please_v thou_o in_o my_o life_n at_o my_o death_n and_o after_o my_o death_n in_o time_n and_o in_o eternity_n and_o thou_o may_v give_v a_o oblation_n how_o to_o know_v the_o sincerity_n of_o thy_o oblation_n probable_a guest_n concern_v thy_o own_o oblation_n that_o it_o proceed_v from_o a_o sincere_a and_o disinterest_v heart_n if_o thou_o can_v perfect_o practice_v it_o in_o time_n of_o adversity_n bear_v it_o with_o true_a patience_n and_o be_v then_o ready_a to_o execute_v god_n holy_a will_n in_o all_o thy_o desolation_n and_o distress_n this_o be_v the_o right_a way_n o_o my_o dear_o belove_v to_o make_v a_o beneficial_a truck_v and_o traffic_v of_o thyself_o for_o thy_o saviour_n who_o will_v give_v thou_o himself_o in_o exchange_n if_o thou_o bequeathe_v and_o sacrifice_a thyself_o thus_o total_o to_o his_o divine_a majesty_n chap._n xxxiv_o how_o to_o petition_v for_o divine_a grace_n have_v make_v this_o perfect_a oblation_n goodness_n text._n first_o encourage_v thyself_o with_o confidence_n in_o his_o goodness_n of_o this_o most_o precious_a treasure_n which_o be_v no_o less_o than_o christ_n himself_o with_o all_o his_o glorious_a merit_n to_o the_o eternal_a father_n thou_o may_v appear_v with_o confidence_n before_o the_o throne_n of_o his_o mercy_n to_o petition_v for_o the_o supply_n of_o thy_o necessity_n and_o that_o thou_o may_v do_v it_o with_o the_o more_o decency_n first_o encourage_v thyself_o with_o confidence_n remember_v his_o benefit_n bounty_n and_o liberality_n towards_o thou_o for_o nothing_o can_v more_o strengthen_v thy_o hope_n of_o obtain_v new_a supply_n than_o than_o the_o reflection_n upon_o god_n former_a favour_n in_o time_n of_o necessity_n and_o know_v that_o this_o confidence_n give_v the_o whole_a efficacy_n to_o thy_o petition_n so_o that_o without_o it_o never_o expect_v to_o obtain_v from_o god_n any_o thing_n which_o thou_o demand_v 2._o second_o take_v special_a care_n that_o it_o second_o join_v humility_n with_o it_o this_o confidence_n be_v couple_v with_o humility_n distrust_v total_o thou_o own_o merit_n and_o rely_v bold_o upon_o christ_n mercy_n not_o that_o i_o advise_v thou_o to_o become_v fearful_a and_o pusilanimous_a upon_o pretence_n of_o humility_n so_o as_o not_o to_o beg_v large_a benefit_n from_o god_n bounty_n for_o though_o it_o behoove_v to_o know_v thy_o own_o baseness_n and_o to_o consider_v how_o little_o thou_o deserve_v yet_o thou_o must_v beware_v of_o distrust_v the_o divine_a bounty_n or_o undervalue_v his_o liberality_n no_o be_v not_o deject_v for_o as_o thou_o deserve_v nothing_o so_o thou_o have_v great_a occasion_n to_o demand_v much_o since_o god_n gift_n be_v not_o ground_v upon_o thy_o desert_n but_o upon_o christ_n merit_n which_o be_v desire_n three_o press_v thy_o petition_n with_o fervent_a desire_n of_o infinite_a worth_n and_o dignity_n 3._o three_o endeavour_v to_o press_v thy_o petition_n with_o frequent_a and_o fervent_a desire_n that_o be_v that_o thou_o ardent_o wish_v to_o obtain_v what_o thou_o ask_v for_o since_o thou_o petitione_v a_o most_o pious_a father_n for_o a_o supply_n of_o thy_o necessity_n who_o not_o only_o bid_v thou_o ask_v great_a thing_n but_o be_v also_o angry_a if_o thou_o ask_v not_o and_o have_v pass_v his_o promise_n to_o perform_v thy_o petition_n why_o shall_v thou_o not_o have_v inflame_v desire_n â—o_o obtain_v what_o thou_o demand_v 4._o and_o indeed_o we_o most_o common_o demand_n the_o want_n whereof_o hinder_v the_o effect_n of_o our_o demand_n fail_v in_o the_o effect_n of_o our_o demand_n because_o we_o want_v this_o fervour_n in_o our_o desire_n and_o make_v our_o petition_n tepid_o rather_o because_o faith_n and_o reason_n dictate_v unto_o we_o that_o such_o thing_n be_v needful_a for_o we_o than_o that_o we_o zealous_o covet_v to_o receive_v they_o the_o true_a cause_n of_o which_o tepidity_n be_v for_o that_o our_o affection_n be_v fasten_v to_o earthly_a thing_n we_o prize_v they_o in_o our_o will_n though_o we_o sleight_v they_o in_o our_o understanding_n and_o consequent_o though_o we_o know_v in_o 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or_o neglect_v and_o still_o nevertheless_o give_v i_o time_n and_o opportunity_n to_o do_v penance_n o_o my_o poor_a soul_n how_o blind_a and_o bewitch_v have_v thou_o be_v to_o leave_v the_o bread_n of_o angel_n and_o to_o feed_v on_o the_o husk_n of_o swine_n for_o vanity_n villainy_n shadow_n and_o nothing_o to_o abandon_v god_n and_o all_o goodness_n on_o who_o depend_v all_o thy_o hope_n and_o happiness_n quiet_a and_o comfort_n for_o time_n and_o eternity_n o_o blindness_n o_o folly_n o_o frenzy_n will_v god_n i_o have_v never_o sin_v oh_o that_o i_o may_v never_o sin_v more_o o_o my_o god_n what_o have_v i_o do_v will_v i_o have_v suffer_v on_o the_o cross_n pain_n of_o body_n and_o pang_n of_o soul_n when_o i_o thus_o n._n sin_v oh_o what_o can_v i_o say_v or_o do_v more_o
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sort_n of_o suffering_n that_o so_o i_o may_v fit_v it_o up_o for_o thou_o o_o holy_a spirit_n who_o dwell_v not_o with_o they_o that_o be_v sensual_a and_o subject_a to_o sin_n alas_o i_o have_v not_o yet_o resist_v to_o the_o effusion_n of_o my_o blood_n and_o shall_v i_o spill_v each_o drop_n of_o blood_n in_o my_o body_n in_o this_o holy_a quarrel_n how_o little_o ought_v i_o to_o regard_v it_o in_o respect_n of_o the_o great_a good_a i_o expect_v i_o will_v therefore_o crucify_v thou_o o_o my_o flesh_n with_o all_o thy_o concupiscence_n i_o will_v mortify_v my_o outward_a sense_n the_o window_n by_o which_o death_n steal_v into_o my_o soul_n the_o hinderer_n of_o my_o heart_n tranquillity_n the_o destroyer_n of_o true_a devotion_n the_o disperser_n of_o inward_a recollection_n and_o the_o utter_a ruiner_n of_o all_o the_o good_a desire_n which_o i_o conceive_v and_o kindle_v in_o my_o prayer_n ah_o how_o soon_o be_v this_o divine_a fire_n cool_v and_o quench_v not_o only_o by_o 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all_o self-seeking_a ah_o my_o corrupt_a nature_n i_o abhor_v thou_o adieu_n all_o private-interest_n profit_n praise_n and_o preferment_n i_o will_v henceforth_o perform_v all_o my_o action_n and_o exercise_n o_o my_o lord_n god_n for_o thy_o only_a pure_a &_o perfect_a love_n i_o will_v seek_v to_o please_v and_o praise_v thou_o with_o a_o inward_a ardent_a and_o amorous_a affection_n for_o thyself_o only_o and_o not_o for_o thy_o gift_n or_o grace_n i_o renounce_v all_o sensuality_n whether_o it_o be_v in_o meat_n drink_n sleep_n apparel_z curiosity_n of_o my_o five_o sense_n or_o any_o thing_n else_o whatsoever_o o_o my_o lord_n i_o will_v make_v no_o other_o use_n of_o any_o thy_o creature_n than_o i_o be_o absolute_o compel_v to_o by_o necessity_n of_o nature_n i_o look_v for_o no_o solace_n but_o from_o thou_o alone_o my_o only_a comfort_n and_o content_v i_o renounce_v all_o
perfect_o perceive_v the_o abyss_n of_o my_o own_o nothing_o and_o naughtiness_n and_o right_o conceive_v the_o immensity_n of_o thy_o greatness_n and_o goodness_n whereby_o i_o may_v depress_v myself_o unfeigned_o and_o exalt_v thou_o only_o in_o my_o soul_n let_v i_o be_v content_a to_o be_v contemn_v by_o all_o creature_n desire_v to_o be_v despise_v be_v willing_a to_o be_v tread_v on_o as_o dirt_n and_o dust_n and_o the_o very_a outcast_n of_o the_o whole_a world_n o_o let_v i_o real_o hate_v all_o honour_n and_o humble_o pronounce_v with_o mouth_n and_o mind_n i_o be_o nothing_o have_v nothing_o deserve_v nothing_o desire_v nothing_o but_o only_o to_o please_v thou_o perfect_o my_o jesus_n praise_v thou_o perpetual_o love_v thou_o pure_o and_o live_v with_o thou_o eternal_o 3._o grant_v i_o also_o good_a jesu_n by_o the_o merit_n of_o these_o thy_o wound_n the_o virtue_n of_o perfect_a obedience_n o_o let_v i_o never_o tire_v in_o trample_v down_o self-will_n in_o forsake_v my_o own_o sense_n in_o subdue_a self-judgement_n in_o submit_v my_o spirit_n inward_o to_o thy_o inspiration_n and_o outward_o not_o only_a to_o my_o superior_n injunction_n but_o even_o to_o the_o command_n of_o all_o thy_o creature_n o_o let_v i_o have_v no_o propriety_n affection_n or_o affectation_n in_o my_o own_o proceed_n but_o whole_o mind_v thy_o holy_a pleasure_n in_o all_o thing_n let_v i_o lay_v down_o all_o my_o desire_n at_o thy_o sacred_a foot_n o_o my_o jesu_n say_v lord_n what_o will_v thou_o have_v i_o do_v so_o transform_v my_o will_n into_o thou_o by_o a_o absolute_a forsake_v deny_v and_o annihilate_v my_o whole_a self_n let_v i_o receive_v o_o my_o saviour_n as_o from_o thy_o secret_a providence_n and_o permission_n not_o only_o patient_o but_o thankful_o all_o pain_n all_o poverty_n all_o shame_n all_o sickness_n and_o all_o suffering_n whatsoever_o acknowledge_v that_o i_o true_o deserve_v worse_o and_o desire_v willing_o to_o endure_v more_o that_o so_o i_o may_v 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eternal_o o_o holy_a conversion_n o_o happy_a contract_n 5._o breast_n of_o mercy_n in_o the_o misericordiae_fw-la 5._o vbera_fw-la misericordiae_fw-la mother_n of_o jesus_n o_o jesus_n be_v to_o we_o a_o jesus_n o_o mother_n of_o jesus_n be_v to_o we_o a_o mother_n of_o mercy_n let_v the_o care_n of_o thy_o honour_n be_v ever_o in_o our_o heart_n and_o the_o care_n of_o our_o welfare_n always_o in_o thou_o 6._o castle_n of_o mercy_n in_o the_o angel_n who_o be_v before_o and_o behind_o misericordiae_fw-la 6._o castra_n misericordiae_fw-la we_o to_o watch_v over_o and_o protect_v we_o 7._o oracle_n of_o mercy_n the_o prayer_n and_o suffrage_n of_o all_o the_o saint_n pity_v misericordiae_fw-la 7._o oracula_fw-la misericordiae_fw-la our_o misery_n and_o purchase_v pardon_n for_o we_o if_o we_o put_v all_o this_o together_o we_o shall_v find_v all_o heaven_n for_o we_o what_o matter_n then_o if_o hell_n be_v against_o we_o o_o thou_o of_o little_a faith_n whereof_o can_v thou_o be_v doubtful_a or_o fearful_a etc._n etc._n second_o on_o earth_n in_o the_o church_n earth_n second_o on_o earth_n militant_a what_o be_v not_o for_o we_o sacrament_n scripture_n example_n prayer_n if_o we_o go_v not_o to_o heaven_n where_o be_v the_o fault_n what_o can_v god_n do_v that_o he_o have_v not_o do_v and_o what_o can_v we_o have_v more_o than_o we_o have_v for_o our_o consolation_n and_o salvation_n who_o can_v choose_v but_o take_v courage_n comfort_n and_o confidence_n three_o look_v upon_o christ_n jesus_n christ_n three_o in_o christ_n 1._o why_o come_v he_o into_o this_o world_n 2._o how_o do_v he_o carry_v himself_o in_o it_o towards_o sinner_n both_o in_o his_o life_n and_o death_n 3._o why_o be_v he_o call_v jesus_n and_o term_v a_o friend_n of_o publican_n and_o sinner_n 4._o why_o do_v he_o â—â—y_v that_o he_o come_v to_o call_v sinner_n and_o not_o the_o just_a and_o to_o do_v mercy_n and_o not_o justice_n 5._o what_o access_n and_o comfort_n give_v he_o to_o all_o sinner_n 6._o what_o be_v his_o last_o will_n and_o testament_n &_o c_o 7._o what_o his_o last_o word_n father_n forgive_v etc._n etc._n four_o ponder_v god_n perfectious_a perfection_n four_o look_v on_o god_n perfection_n 1._o he_o be_v our_o maker_n we_o the_o work_n of_o his_o hand_n do_v not_o each_o artist_n love_v his_o own_o handiwork_n have_v not_o every_o one_o a_o natural_a proneness_n to_o protect_v improve_v profit_n and_o perfect_a his_o own_o even_o so_o our_o love_a lord_n take_v care_n of_o we_o he_o hide_v and_o harbour_v we_o as_o the_o hen_n her_o chicken_n under_o her_o wing_n he_o defend_v we_o as_o the_o apple_n of_o his_o eye_n if_o a_o mother_n can_v forget_v the_o fruit_n of_o her_o womb_n yet_o will_v i_o never_o forget_v you_o say_v our_o lord_n because_o i_o have_v grave_v you_o in_o my_o hand_n and_o heart_n 2._o he_o be_v almighty_a all-wisdom_n all-goodness_n put_v these_o together_o i_o have_v a_o father_n and_o maker_n that_o love_v i_o exceed_o he_o know_v my_o necessity_n and_o what_o be_v best_a for_o i_o he_o be_v rich_a enough_o to_o provide_v for_o i_o will_v he_o let_v i_o perish_v will_v he_o reject_v i_o then_o reason_n thus_o further_o with_o yourself_o in_o who_o shall_v i_o confide_v if_o not_o in_o god_n in_o myself_o or_o other_o we_o be_v all_o inconstant_a all_o ignorant_a of_o what_o be_v best_a all_o impotent_a and_o want_v mean_n to_o help_v o_o how_o much_o better_a be_v it_o to_o trust_v in_o god_n than_o man_n five_o reflect_v upon_o your_o own_o experience_n five_o our_o own_o experience_n experience_n 1._o who_o do_v god_n ever_o deceive_v in_o his_o promise_n 2._o who_o ever_o call_v hearty_o on_o he_o and_o be_v refuse_v 3._o have_v he_o not_o hitherto_o merveilous_o protect_v and_o preserve_v you_o and_o dispose_v all_o for_o your_o good_a why_o then_o shall_v you_o doubt_v or_o distrust_v his_o providence_n for_o the_o time_n to_o come_v no_o lord_n blessed_n be_v the_o man_n that_o trust_v in_o thou_o 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most_o certain_a that_o whosoever_o leave_v recollection_n to_o look_v after_o earthly_a consolation_n enjoy_v neither_o god_n nor_o the_o world_n whereas_o a_o soul_n which_o retire_v herself_o from_o the_o world_n to_o possess_v god_n enjoy_v true_o both_o god_n and_o the_o world_n together_o the_o 37._o and_o last_o maxim_n that_o we_o must_v walk_v and_o persevere_v in_o these_o our_o spiritual_a exercise_n with_o the_o two_o foot_n of_o faith_n and_o obedience_n to_o perform_v this_o we_o must_v 1._o leave_v all_o for_o one_o all_z other_o for_o god_n ourselves_o for_o god_n god_n himself_o when_o he_o withdraw_v himself_o by_o recollection_n by_o abnegation_n by_o resignation_n 2._o leave_v one_o for_o all_o 3._o leave_v one_o and_o all_o the_o practice_n of_o this_o maxim_n consist_v in_o these_o five_o point_n 1._o to_o have_v a_o ardent_a desire_n affection_n practice_n the_o practice_n and_o intention_n to_o love_v see_v please_v and_o enjoy_v god_n 2._o to_o curb_v our_o 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perfection_n the_o first_o doubt_n if_o we_o fear_v that_o god_n will_v forsake_v we_o by_o reason_n of_o our_o ingratitude_n and_o disloyalty_n it_o be_v true_a we_o have_v be_v be_v still_o and_o ever_o shall_v be_v ungrateful_a tepid_a and_o defective_a in_o our_o correspondency_n to_o the_o divine_a love_n and_o light_a and_o god_n may_v in_o justice_n forsake_v we_o and_o yet_o be_v a_o good_a god_n but_o we_o must_v be_v confident_a in_o his_o mercy_n that_o he_o will_v not_o do_v it_o for_o jesus_n sake_n in_o fury_n and_o rigour_n though_o he_o may_v sometime_o withdraw_v the_o feeling_n of_o his_o presence_n to_o try_v our_o loyalty_n his_o holy_a will_v be_v do_v let_v we_o never_o say_v god_n will_v forsake_v we_o but_o say_v we_o will_v never_o forsake_v god_n let_v we_o first_o say_v do_v god_n love_v we_o who_o can_v doubt_v it_o and_o do_v we_o love_v he_o if_o we_o will_v we_o do_v let_v we_o never_o say_v we_o shall_v never_o amend_v all_o be_v lose_v but_o let_v we_o often_o say_v we_o be_v sinner_n wicked_a wretched_a weak_a none_o more_o than_o we_o but_o it_o true_o grieve_v we_o to_o be_v so_o we_o will_v endeavour_v to_o remedy_v all_o sure_o we_o be_v our_o god_n be_v almighty_a all-mercy_n all-meekness_n he_o we_o will_v serve_v and_o in_o he_o we_o will_v trust_v in_o despite_n of_o nature_n and_o maugre_o the_o devil_n and_o for_o he_o all_o desolation_n and_o death_n itself_o be_v most_o welcome_a unto_o we_o the_o 2._o doubt_n if_o our_o sin_n trouble_v we_o in_o respect_n of_o confession_n and_o satisfaction_n let_v we_o cast_v off_o servile_a fear_n and_o be_v confident_a that_o what_o be_v pass_v be_v pardon_v by_o god_n mercy_n and_o our_o humble_a confession_n &_o what_o be_v to_o come_v may_v be_v prevent_v by_o god_n grace_n and_o our_o diligence_n and_o endeavour_n the_o 3._o doubt_n if_o we_o can_v neither_o pray_v with_o fervour_n nor_o suffer_v with_o patience_n neither_o feel_v god_n present_a nor_o be_v content_a in_o his_o absence_n let_v we_o have_v recourse_n to_o these_o four_o thing_n which_o will_v supply_v our_o defect_n and_o satisfy_v for_o our_o fault_n 1._o obedience_n 2._o resignation_n 3._o confidence_n 4._o good_a desire_n therefore_o in_o all_o our_o fear_n cross_n and_o trouble_n let_v we_o make_v use_n of_o these_o four_o point_n in_o this_o or_o practice_n the_o practice_n the_o like_a manner_n o_o my_o lord_n god_n who_o deserve_v from_o i_o all_o love_n and_o honour_n and_o who_o i_o desire_v to_o serve_v with_o all_o my_o soul_n behold_v i_o come_v out_o of_o confidence_n in_o thy_o mercy_n have_v no_o other_o end_n but_o only_o to_o please_v and_o praise_v thou_o wherefore_o i_o resign_v myself_o to_o thy_o will_n beseech_v thou_o to_o turn_v all_o to_o thy_o glory_n and_o my_o good_a the_o 4._o doubt_n if_o we_o be_v doubtful_a that_o god_n be_v angry_a with_o we_o that_o we_o want_v grace_n that_o we_o only_o seek_v ourselves_o that_o we_o yield_v to_o all_o temptation_n etc._n etc._n let_v we_o build_v upon_o these_o three_o foundation_n humility_n in_o acknowledge_v our_o own_o deformity_n sincerity_n in_o confess_v it_o and_o confidence_n of_o pardon_n for_o it_o and_o so_o persevere_v constant_o and_o courageous_o in_o a_o course_n of_o prayer_n according_a to_o direction_n and_o obedience_n we_o shall_v soon_o find_v ease_n rest_n and_o peace_n the_o 5._o doubt_n if_o our_o conscience_n be_v unquiet_a and_o our_o soul_n fearful_a by_o reason_n of_o our_o proness_n to_o sin_n etc._n etc._n let_v we_o apply_v these_o follow_a plaster_n and_o put_v these_o tent_n into_o our_o spiritual_a wound_n as_o deep_a as_o we_o can_v every_o day_n for_o a_o time_n till_o the_o cure_n be_v perfect_v 1._o let_v we_o be_v assure_v that_o we_o be_v conscience_n plaster_n for_o a_o trouble_a conscience_n now_o at_o this_o present_a in_o the_o state_n of_o grace_n suppose_v we_o have_v already_o or_o be_v now_o resolve_v to_o do_v what_o be_v necessary_a for_o the_o expiation_n of_o our_o past_a sin_n and_o the_o avoid_v all_o sin_n for_o the_o future_a 2._o that_o have_v a_o will_v to_o please_v god_n and_o perform_v our_o duty_n our_o prayer_n be_v profitable_a to_o we_o and_o acceptable_a to_o god_n and_o we_o may_v without_o presumption_n take_v courage_n and_o comfort_n though_o we_o be_v yet_o full_a of_o passion_n and_o â—mperfections_n 3._o that_o the_o feel_n of_o trouble_n fear_n temptation_n etc._n etc._n be_v neither_o sin_n in_o we_o nor_o sign_n of_o god_n anger_n against_o we_o 4._o that_o we_o be_v not_o bind_v to_o reflect_v continual_o whether_o we_o have_v consent_v to_o sin_n or_o not_o nor_o to_o judge_v whether_o this_o or_o that_o consent_n he_o mortal_a or_o venial_a nor_o to_o meddle_v with_o the_o sin_n of_o our_o
sure_o the_o proud_a have_v no_o true_a 2d_o isay_n 48._o 2d_o rest_n there_o be_v no_o peace_n to_o the_o wicked_a let_v we_o remedy_n it_o therefore_o by_o learning_n of_o christ_n true_a humility_n and_o meekness_n out_o of_o which_o there_o be_v no_o hope_n of_o quiet_a 5._o a_o indiscreet_a zeal_n and_o zeal_n 5._o indiscreet_a zeal_n over-greediness_n of_o perfection_n which_o make_v we_o eat_v more_o than_o we_o can_v digest_v and_o so_o cast_v it_o up_o again_o with_o great_a pain_n undertaking_a austerity_n exercise_n introversion_n etc._n etc._n beyond_o our_o capacity_n without_o counsel_n and_o so_o we_o remain_v afflict_v be_v unable_a to_o go_v forward_o and_o ashamed_a to_o go_v backward_o let_v we_o remedy_n this_o by_o humble_a obedience_n to_o a_o discreet_a guide_n 6._o want_v of_o fervour_n in_o our_o vocation_n heart_n 6._o instability_n of_o heart_n instability_n of_o heart_n and_o inconstancy_n in_o our_o exercise_n leave_v change_a interrupt_v they_o through_o laziness_n or_o lightness_n this_o leave_v a_o worm_n gnaw_v upon_o our_o conscience_n with_o continual_a disquiet_n and_o sadness_n let_v we_o remedy_n this_o with_o s._n bernard_n counsel_n will_v thou_o never_o bernard_n s._n bernard_n be_v sad_a live_v well_o a_o good_a man_n be_v always_o merry_a and_o a_o good_a conscience_n be_v a_o continual_a feast_n 7._o disordinate_a love_n and_o affection_n creature_n 7._o love_n to_o creature_n to_o creature_n let_v we_o love_v all_o only_a for_o god_n and_o we_o shall_v be_v content_a and_o quiet_a in_o the_o loss_n of_o the_o most_o lovely_a and_o belove_a creature_n in_o the_o world_n god_n alone_o will_v supply_v all_o other_o love_v and_o loss_n 8._o a_o jealous_a and_o envious_a eye_n eye_n 8._o a_o envious_a eye_n this_o be_v a_o dangerous_a and_o lamentable_a cross_n for_o all_o the_o perfection_n of_o oâ—hers_n be_v we_o when_o we_o love_v they_o â—n_n other_o but_o when_o we_o hate_v they_o they_o be_v nail_n in_o our_o eye_n and_o thorn_n in_o our_o heart_n which_o do_v extreme_o torment_v we_o o_o madness_n have_v we_o infoelix_fw-la parum_fw-la tibi_fw-la est_fw-la si_fw-la ipse_fw-la sis_fw-la foelix_fw-la nisi_fw-la alter_fw-la sit_fw-la infoelix_fw-la not_o sufficient_a misery_n at_o home_n in_o ourselves_o but_o we_o must_v suck_v poison_n like_o spider_n out_o of_o other_o honey_n and_o what_o be_v their_o crown_n must_v be_v our_o cross_n what_o great_a wickedness_n than_o to_o pine_v away_o with_o grief_n at_o other_o good_a the_o remedy_n of_o this_o be_v by_o endeavour_v to_o get_v true_a charity_n the_o property_n whereof_o be_v to_o weep_v with_o the_o weeper_n rejoice_v with_o the_o joyful_a to_o love_v other_o good_a as_o our_o own_o let_v we_o avoid_v curiosity_n if_o we_o will_v eschew_v envy_n for_o a_o curious_a eye_n be_v the_o fuel_n of_o a_o envious_a heart_n let_v we_o remain_v like_o bee_n in_o our_o hive_n of_o introversion_n &_o there_o make_v provision_n for_o the_o winter_n of_o death_n &_o eternity_n etc._n etc._n 9_o frequent_a fail_n in_o good_a relapse_n 9_o frequent_a relapse_n purpose_n and_o relapse_n into_o sin_n we_o question_v whether_o our_o sin_n past_a be_v pardon_v and_o be_v uncertain_a that_o our_o present_a confession_n be_v good_a this_o be_v of_o one_o evil_a to_o make_v two_o foâ—_n we_o have_v do_v amiss_o and_o now_o by_o lose_v courage_n and_o confidence_n we_o make_v ourselves_o unfit_a to_o do_v better_o let_v we_o remedy_n it_o by_o acknowledge_v our_o fault_n use_v violence_n to_o ourselves_o and_o follow_v direction_n other_o remedy_n against_o sadness_n prayer_n orhe_a remedy_n against_o sadness_n jam._n 5._o 13._o 1._o prayer_n 1._o prayer_n be_v a_o sovereign_a remedy_n be_v any_o one_o sad_a among_o you_o let_v he_o pray_v god_n be_v our_o only_a joy_n and_o comfort_n let_v we_o lift_v up_o our_o heart_n to_o he_o and_o lay_v open_a our_o want_n and_o desire_n before_o he_o with_o resignation_n who_o both_o can_v and_o will_v abundant_o comfort_v we_o ah_o my_o poor_a soul_n why_o be_v thou_o sad_a and_o whence_o come_v it_o that_o thou_o thus_o trouble_v i_o be_v not_o our_o god_n good_a and_o gracious_a who_o hear_v thy_o sigh_n and_o see_v thy_o sorrow_n what_o want_v thou_o which_o he_o can_v or_o will_v not_o give_v thou_o when_o he_o see_v it_o most_o expedient_a for_o thou_o 2._o sometime_o let_v we_o sing_v spiritual_a singing_z 2._o singing_z song_n which_o great_o confound_v the_o devil_n 3._o other_o time_n we_o may_v fit_o divert_v recreation_n 3._o recreation_n our_o thought_n by_o some_o external_a recreation_n or_o employment_n 4._o let_v we_o endeavour_v to_o make_v act_n 4._o fervent_a act_n external_a and_o internal_a act_n with_o fervour_n though_o without_o gust_n as_o embracing_z and_o kiss_v a_o crucifix_n and_o speak_v reverent_o and_o love_o unto_o it_o etc._n etc._n 5._o a_o discreet_a take_n of_o a_o discipline_n discipline_n 5._o a_o discipline_n obtain_v wonderful_a comfort_n for_o the_o soul_n be_v call_v from_o the_o inward_a troublesome_a pensiveness_n to_o the_o outward_a pain_n and_o the_o devil_n fly_v away_o see_v his_o companion_n the_o flesh_n so_o hardly_o handle_v 6._o frequent_a communinn_n be_v a_o communion_n 6._o communion_n excellent_a cordial_a strengthen_v our_o heart_n and_o rejoice_v our_o spirit_n 7._o let_v we_o discover_v the_o effect_n it_o 7._o discovery_n of_o it_o and_o manner_n of_o our_o sadness_n to_o our_o spiritual_a guide_n and_o take_v his_o advice_n simple_o and_o humble_o this_o be_v the_o remedy_n of_o remedy_n 8._o let_v we_o take_v heed_n of_o make_v indifferency_n 8._o indifferency_n use_n of_o these_o remedy_n only_o that_o we_o may_v be_v at_o ease_n and_o avoid_v affliction_n but_o for_o the_o prevention_n of_o danger_n which_o may_v ensue_v and_o for_o the_o rest_n remain_v perfect_o indifferent_a and_o resign_v 9_o if_o we_o will_v be_v free_a from_o sadness_n desire_n 9_o few_o desire_n we_o must_v labour_v to_o keep_v far_o from_o we_o unquietness_n of_o mind_n if_o we_o wâ—ll_n have_v our_o mind_n quiet_a we_o must_v have_v few_o desire_n and_o those_o few_o only_a to_o love_n and_o please_v god_n 10._o final_o let_v we_o beware_v of_o plain-dealing_a 10._o plain-dealing_a three_o thing_n 1._o of_o follow_v our_o sensuality_n in_o meat_n drink_n talk_z ease_n etc._n etc._n 2._o of_o vain_a complacence_n and_o self-opinion_n etc._n etc._n 3._o and_o above_o all_o of_o hypocondriacy_n hypocrisy_n double_a deal_n &_o sleight_n with_o our_o guide_n for_o no_o marvel_n if_o he_o starve_v and_o pine_v away_o who_o lâ—es_v to_o the_o holy_a ghost_n if_o we_o be_v simple_a as_o child_n our_o love_a father_n will_v give_v we_o sweetmeat_n woe_n be_v to_o hypocrite_n for_o it_o 13._o mat._n 23._o 13._o will_v go_v ill_a with_o they_o in_o the_o latter_a day_n another_o antidote_n against_o melancholy_n and_o pusillanimity_n the_o reason_n of_o our_o be_v so_o often_o want_n pufillanimity_n procee_v from_o want_n trouble_v and_o shake_v be_v because_o our_o spiritual_a edifice_n be_v not_o support_v by_o these_o solid_a prop_n 1._o faith_n for_o if_o we_o captivate_v faith_n 1._o of_o faith_n our_o understanding_n to_o believe_v what_o god_n himself_o have_v tell_v we_o what_o his_o church_n have_v teach_v we_o and_o what_o our_o ghostly_a guide_n still_o preach_v unto_o we_o how_o can_v we_o choose_v but_o be_v comfort_v and_o satisfy_v 2._o abnegation_n for_o if_o we_o have_v abnegation_n 2._o of_o abnegation_n make_v good_a confession_n have_v endeavour_v to_o satisfy_v god_n and_o our_o guide_n and_o have_v a_o will_v to_o obey_v they_o in_o all_o thing_n we_o may_v rest_v secure_a let_v we_o not_o say_v what_o shall_v become_v of_o we_o shall_v we_o persevere_v for_o the_o desire_n to_o know_v this_o argue_v our_o heart_n of_o secret_a pride_n and_o propriety_n let_v we_o therefore_o deny_v ourselves_o say_v god_n holy_a will_v be_v do_v in_o and_o with_o we_o for_o all_o time_n and_o eternity_n and_o what_o ever_o become_v of_o we_o we_o will_v serve_v he_o till_o death_n because_o his_o love_n deserve_v it_o what_o need_v we_o seek_v a_o further_a security_n of_o god_n friendship_n towards_o we_o in_o this_o life_n than_o to_o find_v in_o our_o soul_n these_o two_o thing_n first_o for_o the_o time_n past_a we_o have_v do_v penance_n consist_v in_o confession_n contrition_n and_o satisfaction_n second_o for_o the_o time_n to_o come_v we_o give_v ourselves_o total_o tâ—_n god_n to_o serve_v and_o please_v he_o the_o residue_n of_o our_o life_n in_o the_o best_a manner_n possible_a let_v we_o put_v our_o soul_n in_o this_o estate_n and_o go_v on_o with_o courage_n and_o never_o more_o trouble_v ourselves_o 3._o solid_a confidence_n for_o if_o we_o confidence_n 3._o of_o confidence_n know_v god_n be_v merciful_a and_o jesus_n have_v suffer_v enough_o for_o all_o sinner_n whereof_o we_o be_v the_o