when_o the_o gate_n of_o heaven_n remain_v shut_v and_o the_o way_n also_o to_o heaven_n seem_v dark_a when_o so_o few_o take_v care_n to_o seek_v after_o thy_o kingdom_n neither_o they_o also_o that_o then_o be_v just_a and_o such_o as_o shall_v be_v save_v can_v enter_v into_o the_o heavenly_a kingdom_n before_o the_o satisfaction_n of_o thy_o holy_a passion_n and_o death_n 3._o o_o how_o many_o and_o great_a thanks_o be_o i_o bind_v to_o render_v unto_o thou_o that_o thou_o have_v vouchsafe_v to_o show_v unto_o i_o and_o to_o all_o the_o faithful_a a_o direct_a and_o sure_a way_n to_o thy_o everlasting_a kingdom_n for_o thy_o life_n be_v our_o way_n and_o by_o holy_a patience_n we_o go_v unto_o thou_o that_o be_v our_o crown_n if_o thou_o have_v not_o go_v before_o we_o and_o teach_v we_o who_o will_v have_v take_v care_n to_o follow_v alas_o how_o many_o will_v stay_v behind_o and_o remain_v far_o off_o if_o they_o behold_v not_o thy_o noble_a example_n behold_v we_o be_v yet_o cold_a although_o we_o have_v hear_v of_o so_o many_o of_o thy_o wonder_n and_o thy_o heavenly_a document_n what_o will_v become_v of_o we_o if_o we_o have_v not_o so_o great_a a_o light_n give_v we_o to_o follow_v thou_o chap._n xix_o of_o suffer_v of_o injury_n and_o who_o be_v prove_v to_o be_v true_o patient_a christ._n what_o be_v it_o thou_o say_v son_n cease_v to_o complain_v consider_v my_o passion_n and_o that_o of_o my_o other_o saint_n thou_o have_v not_o yet_o make_v resistance_n unto_o blood_n it_o be_v but_o little_o thou_o suffer_v in_o comparison_n of_o they_o that_o have_v suffer_v so_o much_o be_v so_o strong_o tempt_v so_o grievous_o afflict_v so_o many_o way_n try_v and_o exercise_v thou_o ought_v therefore_o to_o call_v to_o mind_v the_o more_o heavy_a suffering_n of_o other_o that_o thou_o may_v the_o easy_o bear_v the_o little_a adversity_n which_o thou_o suffer_v and_o if_o they_o seem_v not_o little_a unto_o thou_o beware_v lest_o thy_o impatience_n be_v cause_n thereof_o yet_o whether_o they_o be_v little_a or_o great_a endeavour_v to_o bear_v all_o patient_o 2._o how_o much_o the_o better_o thou_o dispose_v thyself_o to_o suffer_v so_o much_o the_o more_o wise_o thou_o do_v and_o so_o much_o the_o great_a reward_n shall_v thou_o receive_v thou_o shall_v more_o easy_o also_o endure_v it_o if_o both_o in_o mind_n and_o by_o exercise_n thou_o be_v well_o prepare_v thereunto_o do_v not_o say_v i_o can_v suffer_v these_o thing_n at_o the_o hand_n of_o such_o a_o person_n nor_o such_o thing_n be_v not_o to_o be_v suffer_v by_o i_o for_o he_o have_v do_v i_o great_a wrong_n and_o upbraid_v i_o with_o those_o thing_n which_o i_o never_o think_v of_o but_o of_o another_o i_o will_v willing_o suffer_v and_o as_o i_o shall_v see_v cause_n such_o a_o thought_n be_v foolish_a it_o consider_v not_o the_o virtue_n of_o patience_n nor_o by_o who_o it_o shall_v be_v crown_v but_o rather_o weigh_v the_o person_n and_o the_o injury_n offer_v 3._o he_o be_v not_o true_o patient_a that_o will_v not_o suffer_v but_o as_o much_o as_o he_o think_v good_a and_o by_o who_o he_o list_v but_o the_o true_a patient_a man_n mind_v not_o by_o who_o he_o be_v exercise_v whether_o by_o his_o superior_n or_o some_o of_o his_o equal_n or_o by_o his_o inferior_n whether_o by_o a_o good_a and_o holy_a man_n or_o by_o a_o perverse_a and_o unworthy_a person_n but_o indifferent_o from_o all_o creature_n how_o much_o soever_o or_o how_o often_o soever_o any_o adversity_n befall_v he_o he_o take_v all_o this_o thankful_o as_o from_o the_o hand_n of_o god_n and_o esteem_v it_o a_o great_a gain_n for_o that_o nothing_o before_o god_n how_o little_a soever_o so_o it_o be_v suffer_v for_o god_n shall_v pass_v without_o its_o reward_n 4._o be_v thou_o therefore_o always_o prepare_v for_o the_o fight_n if_o thou_o will_v have_v the_o victory_n without_o a_o combat_n thou_o can_v not_o attain_v unto_o the_o crown_n of_o patience_n if_o thou_o will_v not_o suffer_v thou_o refuse_v to_o be_v crown_v but_o if_o thou_o desire_v to_o be_v crown_v fight_v manful_o and_o endure_v patient_o without_o labour_n there_o be_v no_o come_n to_o rest_n nor_o without_o fight_v can_v the_o victory_n be_v obtain_v christian._n lord_n let_v that_o be_v make_v possible_a to_o i_o by_o thy_o grace_n which_o seem_v impossible_a to_o i_o by_o nature_n thou_o know_v that_o i_o can_v suffer_v but_o little_a and_o that_o i_o be_o quick_o dismay_v when_o a_o small_a adversity_n arise_v let_v every_o exercise_n of_o tribulation_n be_v make_v amiable_a unto_o i_o and_o be_v welcome_a for_o thy_o name_n for_o to_o suffer_v and_o to_o be_v trouble_v for_o thy_o sake_n be_v very_o profitable_a for_o my_o soul._n chap._n xx._n of_o the_o acknowledge_v of_o our_o own_o infirmity_n and_o of_o the_o misery_n of_o this_o life_n christian_n i_o will_v confess_v against_o i_o my_o unrighteousness_n i_o will_v confess_v unto_o thou_o o_o lord_n my_o infirmity_n oftentimes_o it_o be_v a_o small_a matter_n that_o deject_v and_o grieve_v i_o i_o purpose_v to_o act_v with_o courage_n but_o when_o a_o small_a temptation_n come_v it_o bring_v i_o into_o very_o narrow_a strait_n it_o be_v sometime_o a_o very_a trifle_n from_o whence_o great_a temptation_n do_v proceed_v and_o while_o i_o think_v myself_o somewhat_o safe_a when_o i_o least_o expect_v it_o i_o find_v myself_o sometime_o overcome_v with_o a_o small_a blast_n 2._o behold_v therefore_o lord_n my_o lowness_n and_o frailty_n every_o way_n know_v unto_o thou_o have_v mercy_n on_o i_o and_o deliver_v i_o out_o of_o the_o mire_n that_o i_o stick_v not_o fast_o therein_o and_o that_o i_o may_v not_o for_o ever_o remain_v deject_v this_o be_v that_o which_o oftentimes_o strike_v i_o at_o the_o very_a heart_n and_o confound_v i_o in_o thy_o sight_n for_o that_o i_o be_o so_o subject_a to_o fall_v and_o weak_a in_o resist_v of_o my_o passion_n and_o although_o though_o i_o do_v not_o altogether_o consent_n yet_o their_o continual_a assault_n be_v troublesome_a and_o grievous_a unto_o i_o and_o it_o be_v a_o very_a irksome_a thing_n to_o live_v thus_o daily_o in_o conflict_n hereby_o my_o infirmity_n be_v make_v know_v unto_o i_o for_o that_o wicked_a fancy_n do_v always_o much_o more_o easy_o invade_v than_o forsake_v i_o 3._o o_o mighty_a god_n of_o israel_n the_o zealous_a lover_n of_o faithful_a soul_n let_v it_o please_v thou_o to_o consider_v the_o labour_n and_o sorrow_n of_o thy_o servant_n and_o assist_v he_o in_o all_o whatsoever_o he_o undertake_v strengthen_v i_o with_o heavenly_a strength_n lest_o the_o old_a man_n the_o miserable_a flesh_n not_o full_o as_o yet_o subject_a to_o the_o spirit_n prevail_v and_o get_v the_o upper_a hand_n against_o which_o i_o ought_v to_o fight_v as_o long_o as_o i_o breath_n in_o this_o miserable_a life_n alas_o what_o a_o kind_n of_o life_n be_v this_o where_o tribulation_n and_o misery_n be_v never_o want_v where_o all_o be_v full_a of_o snare_n and_o enemy_n for_o when_o one_o tribulation_n or_o temptation_n go_v away_o another_o first_o come_v yea_o and_o during_o the_o first_o conflict_n also_o many_o other_o come_v unlooked_a for_o one_o after_o another_o 4._o and_o how_o can_v a_o life_n be_v love_v that_o have_v so_o many_o embitterment_n and_o be_v subject_a to_o so_o many_o calamity_n and_o misery_n how_o be_v it_o call_v a_o life_n that_o beget_v so_o many_o death_n and_o plague_n and_o yet_o it_o be_v love_v and_o many_o seek_v to_o delight_v themselves_o therein_o the_o world_n be_v oftentimes_o blame_v that_o it_o be_v deceitful_a and_o vain_a and_o yet_o it_o be_v not_o easy_o forsake_v because_o the_o desire_n of_o the_o flesh_n bear_v so_o great_a a_o sway_n 5._o some_o thing_n draw_v we_o to_o love_v it_o other_o to_z contemn_v it_o to_o the_o love_n of_o the_o world_n the_o lust_n of_o the_o flesh_n the_o lust_n of_o the_o eye_n and_o the_o pride_n of_o life_n do_v draw_v we_o but_o the_o pain_n and_o misery_n that_o do_v just_o follow_v they_o cause_v a_o hatred_n and_o loathsomeness_n thereof_o 6._o but_o alas_o vile_a pleasure_n overcome_v the_o mind_n which_o be_v addict_v to_o the_o world_n and_o she_o esteem_v it_o a_o delight_n to_o be_v even_o under_o thorn_n because_o she_o have_v neither_o see_v nor_o taste_v the_o sweetness_n of_o god_n and_o the_o inward_a pleasantness_n of_o virtue_n but_o they_o that_o perfect_o contemn_v the_o world_n and_o endeavour_v to_o live_v to_o god_n under_o holy_a discipline_n these_o be_v not_o ignorant_a of_o the_o divine_a sweetness_n promise_v to_o the_o true_a forsaker_n of_o the_o world_n and_o do_v more_o clear_o see_v how_o grievous_o the_o world_n err_v and_o how_o it_o be_v many_o way_n
and_o pure_a at_o the_o begin_n of_o our_o conversion_n than_o after_o many_o year_n of_o our_o profession_n our_o fervour_n and_o profit_v shall_v increase_v daily_o but_o now_o it_o be_v account_v a_o great_a matter_n if_o one_o can_v retain_v but_o some_o part_n of_o his_o first_o zeal_n if_o we_o will_v but_o a_o little_a force_n ourselves_o at_o the_o beginning_n then_o shall_v we_o be_v able_a to_o perform_v all_o thing_n afterward_o with_o ease_n and_o delight_n 6._o it_o be_v a_o hard_a matter_n to_o leave_v that_o to_o which_o we_o be_v accustom_v but_o hard_a to_o go_v against_o our_o own_o will_n but_o if_o thou_o do_v not_o overcome_v little_a and_o easy_a thing_n how_o will_v thou_o overcome_v hard_a thing_n resist_v thy_o inclinatiou_n in_o the_o very_a beginning_n and_o unlearn_v evil_a custom_n lest_o perhaps_o by_o little_a and_o little_o they_o draw_v thou_o to_o great_a difficulty_n o_o if_o thou_o do_v but_o consider_v how_o much_o inward_a peace_n unto_o thyself_o and_o joy_n unto_o other_o thou_o shall_v procure_v by_o demeaning_a thyself_o well_o i_o suppose_v thou_o will_v be_v more_o careful_a of_o thy_o spiritual_a profit_v chap._n xii_o of_o the_o profit_n of_o adversity_n it_o be_v good_a that_o we_o have_v sometime_o some_o trouble_n and_o cross_n for_o they_o often_o make_v a_o man_n enter_v into_o himself_o and_o consider_v that_o he_o be_v here_o in_o banishment_n and_o ought_v not_o to_o place_v his_o trust_n in_o any_o worldly_a thing_n it_o be_v good_a that_o we_o be_v sometime_o contradict_v and_o that_o there_o be_v a_o evil_a or_o a_o lessen_v conceit_n have_v of_o we_o and_o this_o although_o we_o do_v and_o intend_v well_o these_o thing_n help_v often_o to_o the_o attain_n of_o humility_n and_o defend_v we_o from_o vain_a glory_n for_o than_o we_o chief_o seek_v god_n for_o our_o inward_a witness_n when_o outward_o we_o be_v contemn_v by_o man_n and_o when_o there_o be_v no_o credit_n give_v unto_o we_o 2._o and_o therefore_o a_o man_n shall_v settle_v himself_o so_o full_o in_o god_n that_o he_o need_v not_o to_o seek_v many_o comfort_n of_o men._n when_o a_o good_a man_n be_v afflict_v tempt_v or_o trouble_v with_o evil_a thought_n then_o he_o understand_v better_a the_o great_a need_n he_o have_v of_o god_n without_o who_o he_o perceive_v he_o can_v do_v nothing_o that_o be_v good_a then_o also_o he_o sorrow_v lament_v and_o pray_v by_o reason_n of_o the_o misery_n he_o suffer_v then_o he_o be_v weary_a of_o live_v long_o and_o wish_v that_o death_n will_v come_v that_o he_o may_v be_v dissolve_v and_o be_v with_o christ._n then_o also_o he_o well_o perceive_v that_o perfect_a security_n and_o full_a peace_n can_v be_v have_v in_o this_o world_n chap._n xiii_o of_o resist_a temptation_n so_o long_o as_o we_o live_v in_o this_o world_n we_o can_v be_v without_o tribulation_n and_o temptation_n for_o as_o it_o be_v write_v in_o job_n the_o life_n of_o man_n be_v a_o warfare_n upon_o earth_n every_o one_o therefore_o aught_o to_o be_v careful_a about_o his_o temptation_n and_o to_o watch_v in_o prayer_n lest_o the_o devil_n find_v a_o advantage_n to_o deceive_v he_o who_o never_o sleep_v but_o go_v about_o seek_v who_o he_o may_v devour_v no_o man_n be_v so_o perfect_a and_o holy_a but_o have_v sometime_o temptation_n and_o we_o can_v be_v altogether_o without_o they_o 2._o temptation_n be_v often_o profitable_a to_o man_n though_o they_o be_v troublesome_a and_o grievous_a for_o in_o they_o man_n be_v humble_v purge_v and_o instruct_v all_o the_o saint_n have_v pass_v and_o profit_v through_o many_o tribulation_n and_o temptation_n and_o they_o that_o can_v not_o bear_v temptation_n become_v reprobate_a and_o fall_v away_o there_o be_v no_o order_n so_o holy_a nor_o place_n so_o secret_a where_o there_o be_v not_o temptation_n or_o adversity_n 3._o there_o be_v no_o man_n that_o be_v altogether_o free_a from_o temptation_n whilst_o he_o live_v on_o earth_n for_o in_o ourselves_o be_v the_o root_n thereof_o be_v bear_v with_o inclination_n to_o evil_n when_o one_o temptation_n or_o tribulation_n go_v away_o another_o come_v and_o we_o shall_v ever_o have_v something_o to_o suffer_v because_o we_o be_v fall_v from_o the_o state_n of_o our_o felicity_n many_o seek_v to_o fly_v temptation_n and_o do_v fall_v more_o grievous_o into_o they_o by_o flight_n alone_o we_o can_v overcome_v but_o by_o patience_n and_o true_a humility_n we_o become_v strong_a than_o all_o our_o enemy_n 4._o he_o that_o only_o avoid_v they_o outward_o and_o do_v not_o pluck_v they_o up_o by_o the_o root_n shall_v profit_v little_a yea_o temptation_n will_v the_o soon_o return_v unto_o he_o and_o he_o shall_v feel_v himself_o in_o a_o worse_a case_n than_o before_o by_o little_a and_o little_a and_o by_o patience_n with_o longanimity_n through_o god_n help_n thou_o shall_v more_o easy_o overcome_v than_o with_o violence_n and_o thy_o own_o importunity_n often_o take_v counsel_n in_o temptation_n and_o deal_v not_o rough_o with_o he_o that_o be_v tempt_v but_o give_v he_o comfort_n as_o thou_o will_v wish_v to_o be_v do_v to_o thyself_o 5._o the_o beginning_n of_o all_o evil_a temptation_n be_v inconstancy_n of_o mind_n and_o little_a confidence_n in_o god_n for_o as_o a_o ship_n without_o a_o stern_a be_v toss_v to_o and_o fro_o with_o the_o wave_n so_o the_o man_n that_o be_v negligent_a and_o leave_v his_o purpose_n be_v many_o way_n tempt_v fire_n try_v iron_n and_o temptation_n a_o just_a man._n we_o know_v not_o oftentimes_o what_o we_o be_v able_a to_o do_v but_o temptation_n do_v show_v we_o what_o we_o be_v we_o must_v be_v watchful_a especial_o in_o the_o begin_n of_o the_o temptation_n for_o the_o enemy_n be_v then_o more_o easy_o overcome_v if_o he_o be_v not_o suffer_v to_o enter_v the_o door_n of_o our_o heart_n but_o be_v resist_v without_o the_o gate_n at_o his_o first_o knock_n wherefore_o one_o say_v obsta_fw-la principiis_fw-la etc._n etc._n withstand_v the_o beginning_n for_o a_o after-remedy_n come_v often_o too_o late_o first_o there_o come_v to_o the_o mind_n a_o bare_a cogitation_n of_o evil_n than_o a_o strong_a imagination_n thereof_o afterward_o delight_n and_o a_o evil_a motion_n and_o then_o consent_n and_o so_o by_o little_a and_o little_a our_o wicked_a enemy_n get_v entrance_n whilst_o he_o be_v not_o resist_v in_o the_o beginning_n and_o how_o much_o the_o long_a one_o be_v negligent_a in_o resist_v he_o become_v daily_o so_o much_o the_o weak_a in_o himself_o and_o the_o enemy_n strong_a against_o he_o 6._o some_o suffer_v great_a temptation_n in_o the_o begin_n of_o their_o conversion_n other_o in_o the_o latter_a end_n other_o again_o be_v much_o trouble_v almost_o through_o the_o whole_a time_n of_o their_o life_n some_o be_v but_o easy_o tempt_v according_a to_o the_o wisdom_n and_o equity_n of_o the_o divine_a appointment_n which_o weigh_v the_o state_n and_o desert_n of_o man_n and_o ordain_v all_o thing_n for_o the_o welfare_n of_o his_o choose_a one_o 7._o we_o ought_v not_o therefore_o to_o despair_v when_o we_o be_v tempt_v but_o so_o much_o the_o more_o fervent_o to_o pray_v unto_o god_n that_o he_o will_v vouchsafe_v to_o help_v we_o in_o all_o tribulation_n who_o sure_o according_a to_o the_o word_n of_o st._n paul_n will_v give_v with_o the_o temptation_n such_o issue_n that_o we_o may_v be_v able_a to_o bear_v it_o let_v we_o therefore_o humble_a ourselves_o under_o the_o hand_n of_o god_n in_o all_o temptation_n and_o tribulation_n for_o he_o will_v save_v and_o exalt_v the_o humble_a in_o spirit_n 8._o in_o temptation_n and_o affliction_n man_n be_v prove_v how_o much_o he_o have_v profit_v and_o his_o reward_n be_v thereby_o the_o great_a and_o his_o grace_n do_v more_o eminent_o shine_v forth_o neither_o be_v it_o any_o such_o great_a thing_n if_o a_o man_n be_v devout_a and_o fervent_a when_o he_o feel_v no_o affliction_n but_o if_o in_o time_n of_o adversity_n he_o bear_v himself_o patient_o there_o be_v hope_n then_o of_o great_a proficiency_n in_o grace_n some_o be_v keep_v from_o great_a temptation_n and_o be_v often_o overcome_v in_o small_a one_o which_o do_v daily_o occur_v to_o the_o end_n that_o be_v humble_v they_o may_v never_o presume_v on_o themselves_o in_o great_a matter_n who_o be_v baffle_v in_o so_o small_a thing_n chap._n fourteen_o of_o avoid_v rash_a judgement_n turn_v thy_o eye_n unto_o thyself_o and_o beware_v thou_o judge_v not_o the_o deed_n of_o other_o men._n in_o judge_v of_o other_o a_o man_n labour_v in_o vain_a often_o err_v and_o easy_o sin_v but_o in_o judge_v and_o discuss_v of_o himself_o he_o always_o labour_v fruitful_o we_o often_o judge_v of_o thing_n according_a as_o we_o fancy_v they_o for_o private_a affection_n bereave_v we_o easy_o
of_o true_a judgement_n if_o god_n be_v always_o the_o pure_a intention_n of_o our_o desire_n we_o shall_v not_o be_v so_o much_o trouble_v through_o the_o repugnance_n of_o our_o carnal_a mind_n 2._o but_o oftentimes_o something_o lurk_v within_o or_o else_o occur_v from_o without_o which_o draw_v we_o after_o it_o many_o secret_o seek_v themselves_o in_o their_o action_n and_o know_v it_o not_o they_o seem_v also_o to_o live_v in_o good_a peace_n of_o mind_n when_o thing_n be_v do_v according_a to_o their_o will_n and_o opinion_n but_o if_o thing_n succeed_v otherwise_o than_o they_o desire_v they_o be_v straightway_o trouble_v and_o much_o afflict_v the_o diversity_n of_o judgement_n and_o opinion_n cause_n oftentimes_o dissension_n between_o religious_a and_o devout_a person_n between_o friend_n and_o countryman_n 3._o a_o old_a custom_n be_v hardly_o break_a and_o no_o man_n be_v willing_a to_o be_v lead_v further_a than_o himself_o can_v see_v if_o thou_o do_v more_o rely_v 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the_o world_n it_o become_v whole_o fruitful_a for_o god_n weigh_v more_o with_o how_o much_o love_n one_o work_v than_o how_o much_o he_o do_v he_o do_v much_o that_o love_v much_o 2._o he_o do_v much_o that_o do_v a_o thing_n well_o he_o do_v well_o that_o rather_o serve_v the_o community_n than_o his_o own_o proper_a will_n oftentimes_o it_o seem_v to_o be_v charity_n and_o it_o be_v rather_o carnality_n because_o natural_a inclination_n self-will_n hope_v of_o reward_n and_o desire_v of_o our_o own_o interest_n will_v seldom_o be_v away_o 3._o he_o that_o have_v true_a and_o perfect_a charity_n seek_v himself_o in_o nothing_o but_o only_o desire_v in_o all_o thing_n that_o the_o glory_n of_o god_n shall_v be_v exalt_v he_o also_o envy_v none_o because_o he_o affect_v no_o private_a good_a neither_o will_v he_o rejoice_v in_o himself_o but_o wish_v above_o all_o thing_n to_o be_v make_v happy_a in_o the_o enjoyment_n of_o god_n he_o attribute_v nothing_o that_o be_v good_a to_o any_o man_n but_o whole_o refer_v it_o unto_o god_n from_o who_o as_o from_o the_o fountain_n all_o thing_n proceed_v in_o who_o final_o all_o the_o saint_n do_v rest_n as_o in_o their_o high_a fruition_n o_o he_o that_o have_v but_o one_o spark_n of_o true_a charity_n will_v certain_o discern_v that_o all_o earthly_a thing_n be_v full_a of_o vanity_n chap._n xvi_o of_o bear_v with_o the_o defect_n of_o other_o those_o thing_n that_o a_o man_n can_v amend_v in_o himself_o or_o in_o other_o he_o ought_v to_o suffer_v patient_o until_o god_n order_n thing_n otherwise_o think_v that_o perhaps_o it_o be_v better_a so_o for_o thy_o trial_n and_o patience_n without_o which_o all_o our_o good_a deed_n be_v not_o much_o to_o be_v esteem_v thou_o ought_v to_o pray_v notwithstanding_o when_o thou_o have_v such_o impediment_n that_o god_n will_v vouchsafe_v to_o help_v thou_o and_o that_o thou_o may_v bear_v they_o patient_o 2._o if_o one_o that_o be_v once_o or_o twice_o warn_v will_v not_o give_v over_o contend_v not_o with_o he_o but_o commit_v all_o to_o god_n that_o his_o will_n may_v be_v fulfil_v and_o his_o name_n honour_v in_o all_o his_o servant_n who_o well_o know_v how_o to_o turn_v evil_a into_o good_a endeavour_v to_o be_v patient_a in_o bear_v with_o the_o defect_n and_o infirmity_n of_o other_o of_o what_o sort_n soever_o they_o be_v for_o that_o thyself_o also_o have_v many_o thing_n which_o must_v be_v suffer_v by_o other_o if_o thou_o can_v not_o make_v thyself_o such_o a_o one_o as_o thou_o will_v how_o can_v thou_o expect_v to_o have_v another_o in_o all_o thing_n to_o thy_o like_n we_o will_v willing_o have_v other_o perfect_a and_o yet_o we_o amend_v not_o our_o own_o fault_n 3._o we_o will_v have_v other_o severe_o correct_v and_o will_v not_o be_v correct_v ourselves_o the_o large_a liberty_n of_o other_o displease_v we_o and_o yet_o we_o will_v not_o have_v our_o desire_n deny_v we_o we_o will_v have_v other_o keep_v under_o by_o strict_a law_n but_o in_o no_o sort_n will_v ourselves_o be_v restrain_v and_o thus_o it_o appear_v how_o seldom_o we_o weigh_v our_o neighbour_n in_o the_o same_o balance_n with_o ourselves_o if_o all_o man_n be_v perfect_a what_o shall_v we_o have_v to_o suffer_v of_o our_o neighbour_n for_o god_n 4._o but_o now_o god_n have_v thus_o order_v it_o that_o we_o may_v learn_v to_o bear_v one_o another_o burden_n for_o no_o man_n be_v without_o fault_n no_o man_n but_o have_v his_o burden_n no_o man_n sufficient_a of_o himself_o no_o man_n wise_a enough_o of_o himself_o but_o we_o ought_v to_o bear_v with_o one_o another_o comfort_v one_o another_o help_n instruct_v and_o admonish_v one_o another_o occasion_n of_o adversity_n best_o discover_v how_o great_a virtue_n or_o strength_n each_o one_o have_v for_o occasion_n make_v not_o a_o man_n frail_a but_o do_v show_v what_o he_o be_v chap._n xvii_o of_o a_o retire_a life_n thou_o must_v learn_v to_o break_v thy_o own_o will_n in_o many_o thing_n if_o thou_o will_v have_v peace_n and_o concord_n with_o other_o it_o be_v no_o small_a matter_n to_o dwell_v in_o a_o religious_a community_n and_o to_o converse_v therein_o without_o complaint_n and_o to_o persevere_v therein_o faithful_o until_o death_n bless_a be_v he_o that_o have_v there_o live_v well_o and_o end_v happy_o if_o thou_o will_v persevere_v in_o grace_n as_o thou_o ought_v and_o profit_n in_o virtue_n esteem_v thyself_o as_o a_o banish_a man_n and_o a_o pilgrim_n upon_o earth_n thou_o must_v be_v content_v for_o christ_n sake_n to_o be_v esteem_v as_o a_o fool_n in_o this_o world_n if_o thou_o desire_v to_o lead_v a_o holy_a life_n 2._o the_o wear_n of_o a_o religious_a habit_n and_o shave_v of_o the_o crown_n do_v little_a profit_n but_o change_n of_o manner_n and_o perfect_a mortification_n of_o passion_n make_v a_o true_a religious_a man._n he_o that_o seek_v any_o thing_n else_o but_o god_n and_o the_o salvation_n of_o his_o soul_n shall_v find_v nothing_o but_o tribulation_n and_o sorrow_n neither_o can_v he_o remain_v long_o in_o peace_n that_o labour_v not_o to_o be_v the_o least_o and_o subject_a to_o all_o 3._o thou_o come_v to_o serve_v not_o to_o rule_v know_v that_o thou_o be_v call_v to_o suffer_v and_o to_o labour_v not_o to_o be_v idle_a or_o to_o spend_v thy_o time_n in_o talk_n here_o therefore_o man_n be_v prove_v as_o gold_n in_o the_o furnace_n here_o no_o man_n can_v stand_v unless_o he_o humble_v himself_o with_o his_o whole_a heart_n for_o the_o love_n of_o god_n chap._n xviii_o of_o the_o example_n of_o the_o holy_a father_n consider_v the_o lively_a example_n of_o the_o holy_a father_n in_o who_o true_a perfection_n and_o religion_n shine_v and_o thou_o shall_v see_v how_o little_a it_o be_v and_o almost_o nothing_o which_o we_o do_v now_o in_o these_o day_n alas_o what_o be_v our_o life_n if_o it_o be_v compare_v to_o they_o the_o saint_n and_o friend_n of_o christ_n serve_v the_o lord_n in_o hunger_n and_o thirst_n in_o cold_a and_o nakedness_n in_o labour_n and_o weariness_n in_o watch_n and_o fasting_n in_o prayer_n and_o holy_a meditation_n in_o persecution_n and_o many_o reproach_n 2._o o_o how_o many_o and_o grievous_a tribulation_n suffer_v the_o apostle_n martyr_n confessor_n virgin_n and_o all_o the_o rest_n that_o endeavour_v to_o follow_v the_o step_n of_o christ_n they_o hate_v their_o life_n in_o this_o world_n that_o they_o may_v possess_v their_o soul_n in_o everlasting_a life_n o_o how_o strict_a and_o self-renouncing_a a_o life_n lead_v those_o holy_a father_n in_o the_o wilderness_n how_o long_o and_o grievous_a tentation_n suffer_v they_o how_o often_o be_v they_o assault_v by_o the_o enemy_n what_o frequent_a and_o fervent_a prayer_n offer_v they_o to_o god_n how_o rigorous_a a_o abstinence_n do_v
sure_o more_o especial_o to_o instruct_v thyself_o before_o all_o thy_o love_a friend_n if_o thou_o have_v not_o the_o favour_n of_o man_n be_v not_o grieve_v at_o it_o but_o take_v this_o to_o heart_n that_o thou_o do_v not_o carry_v thyself_o so_o wary_o and_o circumspect_o as_o it_o become_v the_o servant_n of_o god_n and_o a_o devout_a religious_a man._n it_o be_v better_a oftentimes_o and_o safe_o that_o a_o man_n have_v not_o many_o consolation_n in_o this_o life_n especial_o such_o as_o be_v agreeable_a to_o the_o flesh_n but_o that_o we_o have_v not_o at_o all_o or_o do_v very_o seldom_o taste_v divine_a consolation_n the_o fault_n be_v we_o because_o we_o seek_v not_o after_o compunction_n of_o heart_n nor_o do_v altogether_o forsake_v the_o vain_a and_o outward_a comfort_n of_o this_o world_n 4._o know_v that_o thou_o be_v unworthy_a of_o divine_a consolation_n and_o that_o thou_o have_v rather_o deserve_v much_o tribulation_n when_o a_o man_n have_v perfect_a contrition_n 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who_o be_v he_o that_o have_v all_o thing_n according_a to_o his_o mind_n neither_o i_o nor_o thou_o nor_o any_o man_n upon_o earth_n there_o be_v none_o in_o this_o world_n be_v he_o king_n or_o pope_n without_o some_o tribulation_n or_o other_o who_o be_v then_o in_o the_o best_a case_n or_o condition_n even_o he_o who_o can_v suffer_v something_o for_o god_n 2._o many_o weak_a and_o infirm_a one_o can_v say_v behold_v what_o a_o happy_a life_n have_v such_o a_o one_o how_o wealthy_a how_o great_a he_o be_v in_o how_o great_a power_n and_o dignity_n but_o lift_v up_o thy_o eye_n to_o the_o riches_n of_o heaven_n and_o thou_o shall_v see_v that_o all_o the_o good_n of_o this_o life_n be_v nothing_o so_o to_o be_v account_v of_o they_o be_v very_o uncertain_a rather_o burdensome_a than_o otherwise_o because_o they_o be_v never_o enjoy_v without_o carefulness_n and_o fear_n man_n happiness_n consist_v not_o in_o have_v abundance_n of_o wealth_n but_o a_o mean_a estate_n shall_v 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misery_n and_o a_o great_a woe_n to_o they_o that_o love_v this_o miserable_a and_o corruptible_a life_n and_o some_o there_o be_v so_o much_o dote_v upon_o it_o that_o although_o with_o great_a labour_n and_o pain_n they_o can_v scarce_o get_v mere_a necessary_n yet_o can_v they_o live_v here_o always_o they_o will_v care_v nothing_o at_o all_o for_o the_o kingdom_n of_o heaven_n 4._o o_o how_o foolish_a be_v these_o and_o faithless_a in_o their_o heart_n who_o lie_v so_o deep_o sink_v in_o the_o earth_n that_o they_o can_v mind_n or_o relish_v nothing_o but_o carnal_a thing_n but_o miserable_a wretch_n as_o they_o be_v they_o shall_v in_o the_o end_n feel_v to_o their_o cost_n how_o vile_a and_o how_o nothing_o that_o be_v which_o they_o love_v whereas_o the_o saint_n of_o god_n and_o all_o the_o devout_a friend_n of_o christ_n respect_v not_o those_o thing_n which_o please_v the_o flesh_n and_o which_o flourish_v in_o this_o life_n but_o long_v for_o the_o everlasting_a riches_n 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about_o we_o this_o frail_a body_n of_o we_o we_o can_v never_o be_v without_o sin_n or_o live_v without_o trouble_n and_o sorrow_n we_o will_v glad_o be_v quiet_a and_o free_v from_o all_o misery_n but_o see_v by_o sin_n we_o have_v lose_v our_o innocency_n we_o have_v together_o with_o that_o lose_v also_o the_o true_a felicity_n therefore_o it_o become_v we_o to_o have_v patience_n and_o to_o wait_v for_o the_o mercy_n of_o god_n till_o this_o our_o iniquity_n be_v put_v away_o and_o this_o mortality_n of_o we_o be_v swallow_v up_o of_o life_n 6._o o_o how_o great_a be_v humane_a frailty_n which_o be_v always_o prone_a to_o evil_a to_o day_n thou_o confess_v thy_o sin_n and_o to_o morrow_n thou_o commit_v the_o very_a same_o thou_o have_v confess_v now_o thou_o be_v purpose_v to_o look_v well_o unto_o thy_o way_n and_o within_o a_o while_n thou_o so_o behave_v thyself_o as_o though_o thou_o have_v never_o any_o such_o purpose_n at_o all_o good_a cause_n have_v we_o therefore_o to_o humble_v ourselves_o and_o never_o to_o have_v any_o great_a conceit_n of_o ourselves_o because_o we_o be_v so_o frail_a and_o so_o inconstant_a beside_o that_o may_v quick_o be_v lose_v by_o our_o own_o negligence_n which_o by_o the_o grace_n of_o god_n and_o our_o own_o great_a pain_n we_o have_v scarce_o at_o length_n obtain_v 7._o what_o will_v become_v of_o we_o in_o the_o end_n who_o begin_v to_o wax_v cold_a so_o timely_a woe_n be_v unto_o we_o if_o we_o will_v so_o give_v ourselves_o unto_o ease_n as_o if_o all_o be_v in_o peace_n and_o safety_n when_o as_o yet_o there_o appear_v no_o sign_n of_o true_a holiness_n in_o our_o conversation_n we_o have_v need_n like_o young_a beginner_n to_o be_v new_o instruct_v again_o to_o good_a life_n if_o happy_o there_o be_v any_o hope_n of_o
our_o future_a amendment_n and_o proficiency_n in_o spiritual_a thing_n chap._n xxiii_o of_o the_o meditation_n of_o death_n there_o will_v very_o quick_o be_v a_o end_n of_o thou_o here_o therefore_o see_v what_o will_v become_v of_o thou_o hereafter_o to_o day_n a_o man_n to_o morrow_n none_o and_o out_o of_o sight_n out_o of_o mind_n o_o the_o stupidity_n and_o hardness_n of_o man_n heart_n who_o think_v only_o upon_o the_o present_a and_o have_v no_o more_o care_n of_o what_o be_v to_o come_v thou_o shall_v so_o order_v thyself_o in_o all_o thy_o thought_n and_o action_n as_o if_o to_o day_n yea_o this_o very_a moment_n thou_o be_v ready_a to_o depart_v have_v thou_o a_o clear_a conscience_n thou_o will_v not_o great_o fear_v death_n it_o be_v better_a to_o avoid_v sin_n than_o to_o fly_v death_n if_o thou_o be_v not_o prepare_v to_o day_n how_o will_v thou_o be_v prepare_v to_o morrow_n to_o morrow_n be_v uncertain_a and_o how_o know_v thou_o that_o thou_o shall_v live_v till_o to_o morrow_n 2._o what_o avail_v it_o to_o live_v long_o when_o we_o be_v so_o little_a the_o better_a by_o long_o live_v alas_o length_n of_o day_n do_v often_o make_v our_o sin_n the_o great_a than_o our_o life_n the_o better_a o_o that_o we_o have_v spend_v but_o one_o day_n well_o in_o this_o world_n many_o there_o be_v who_o count_v how_o long_o it_o be_v since_o their_o conversion_n and_o yet_o full_o slender_a oftentimes_o be_v the_o fruit_n of_o amendment_n of_o life_n if_o to_o die_v be_v account_v dreadful_a to_o live_v long_o may_v perhaps_o prove_v more_o dangerous_a happy_a be_v he_o that_o always_o have_v the_o hour_n of_o his_o death_n before_o his_o eye_n and_o daily_o prepare_v himself_o for_o to_o die_v if_o at_o any_o time_n thou_o have_v see_v another_o man_n die_v make_v account_n thou_o must_v also_o pass_v the_o same_o way_n 3._o when_o it_o be_v morning_n think_v thou_o may_v die_v before_o night_n and_o when_o evening_n come_v dare_v not_o to_o promise_v thyself_o the_o next_o morning_n be_v thou_o therefore_o always_o in_o a_o readiness_n and_o so_o lead_v thy_o life_n that_o death_n may_v never_o take_v thou_o unprepared_a many_o die_v sudden_o and_o when_o they_o look_v not_o for_o it_o for_o the_o son_n of_o man_n will_v come_v when_o we_o think_v not_o of_o his_o come_n when_o that_o last_o hour_n shall_v come_v thou_o will_v begin_v to_o have_v a_o far_o different_a opinion_n of_o thy_o whole_a life_n that_o be_v past_a and_o be_v exceed_o sorry_a thou_o have_v be_v so_o careless_a and_o remiss_a 4._o o_o how_o wise_a and_o happy_a be_v he_o that_o now_o labour_v to_o be_v such_o a_o one_o in_o his_o life_n as_o he_o wish_v to_o be_v find_v at_o the_o hour_n of_o his_o death_n a_o perfect_a contempt_n of_o the_o world_n a_o fervent_a desire_n to_o go_v forward_o in_o virtue_n the_o love_n of_o discipline_n the_o painfulness_n of_o repentance_n the_o readiness_n of_o obedience_n the_o deny_v of_o ourselves_o and_o the_o bear_v any_o affliction_n for_o the_o love_n of_o christ_n patient_o will_v give_v we_o great_a confidence_n we_o shall_v die_v happy_o whilst_o thou_o be_v in_o health_n thou_o may_v do_v much_o good_a but_o when_o thou_o be_v sick_a i_o see_v not_o what_o thou_o be_v able_a to_o do_v few_o by_o sickness_n grow_v better_a and_o more_o reform_v as_o also_o they_o who_o wander_v much_o abroad_o seldom_o thereby_o become_v holy_a 5._o trust._n not_o to_o friend_n and_o kindred_n neither_o do_v thou_o put_v off_o the_o care_n of_o thy_o soul_n welfare_n till_o hereafter_o for_o man_n will_v soon_o forget_v thou_o than_o thou_o be_v aware_a of_o it_o be_v better_a to_o look_v to_o it_o betimes_o and_o do_v some_o good_a beforehand_o than_o to_o trust_v to_o other_o man_n courtesy_n if_o thou_o be_v not_o careful_a for_o thyself_o now_o who_o will_v be_v careful_a for_o thou_o hereafter_o the_o time_n that_o be_v now_o present_a be_v very_o precious_a now_o be_v the_o day_n of_o salvation_n now_o be_v the_o acceptable_a time_n but_o alas_o that_o thou_o shall_v spend_v thy_o time_n so_o idle_o here_o where_o thou_o may_v purchase_v to_o live_v eternal_o hereafter_o the_o time_n will_v come_v when_o thou_o shall_v desire_v one_o day_n or_o hour_n to_o amend_v in_o and_o i_o can_v say_v that_o it_o will_v be_v grant_v thou_o 6._o o_o belove_a from_o how_o great_a danger_n may_v thou_o deliver_v thyself_o from_o how_o great_a fear_n free_v thyself_o if_o thou_o will_v be_v always_o mindful_a of_o death_n labour_n now_o to_o live_v so_o that_o at_o the_o hour_n of_o death_n thou_o may_v rather_o rejoice_v than_o fear_n learn_v now_o to_o die_v to_o the_o world_n that_o thou_o may_v then_o begin_v to_o live_v with_o christ._n learn_v now_o to_o contemn_v all_o earthly_a thing_n that_o thou_o may_v free_o go_v to_o christ._n chastise_v thy_o body_n now_o by_o repentance_n that_o thou_o may_v then_o have_v assure_v confidence_n 7._o ah_o fool_n why_o do_v thou_o think_v to_o live_v long_o when_o thou_o can_v not_o promise_v to_o thyself_o one_o day_n how_o many_o have_v be_v deceive_v and_o sudden_o snatch_v away_o how_o often_o do_v thou_o hear_v these_o report_n such_o a_o man_n be_v slay_v another_o man_n be_v drown_v a_o three_o break_v his_o neck_n with_o a_o fall_n from_o some_o high_a place_n this_o man_n die_v eat_v and_o that_o man_n play_v one_o perish_v by_o fire_n another_o by_o the_o sword_n another_o of_o the_o plague_n another_o be_v slay_v by_o thief_n thus_o death_n be_v the_o end_n of_o all_o and_o man_n life_n sudden_o pass_v away_o like_o a_o shadow_n 8._o who_o shall_v remember_v thou_o when_o thou_o be_v dead_a do_v do_v now_o my_o belove_a whatsoever_o thou_o be_v able_a to_o do_v for_o thou_o know_v not_o when_o thou_o shall_v die_v nor_o yet_o what_o shall_v befall_v thou_o after_o thy_o death_n now_o whilst_o thou_o have_v time_n heap_v unto_o thyself_o everlasting_a riches_n think_v on_o nothing_o but_o the_o salvation_n of_o thy_o soul_n care_v for_o nothing_o but_o the_o thing_n of_o god_n make_v now_o friend_n to_o thyself_o by_o honour_v the_o saint_n of_o god_n and_o imitate_v their_o action_n that_o when_o thou_o fail_v in_o this_o short_a life_n they_o may_v receive_v thou_o into_o everlasting_a habitation_n 9_o keep_v thyself_o as_o a_o stranger_n and_o pilgrim_n upon_o the_o earth_n and_o as_o one_o to_o who_o the_o affair_n of_o this_o world_n do_v nothing_o appertain_v keep_v thy_o heart_n free_a and_o lift_v up_o to_o god_n because_o thou_o have_v here_o no_o abide_v city_n send_v thither_o thy_o daily_a prayer_n and_o sigh_n together_o with_o thy_o tear_n that_o after_o death_n thy_o spirit_n may_v with_o much_o happiness_n pass_v to_o the_o lord_n amen_n chap._n xxiv_o of_o judgement_n and_o the_o punishment_n of_o sin_n in_o all_o thing_n have_v a_o special_a aim_n to_o thy_o end_n and_o how_o thou_o will_v be_v able_a to_o stand_v before_o that_o severe_a judge_n to_o who_o nothing_o be_v hide_v who_o be_v not_o pacify_v with_o gift_n nor_o admit_v any_o excuse_n but_o will_v judge_v according_a to_o right_n and_o equity_n o_o wretched_a and_o foolish_a sinner_n who_o sometime_o fear_v the_o countenance_n of_o a_o angry_a man_n what_o answer_n will_v thou_o make_v to_o god_n who_o know_v all_o thy_o wickedness_n why_o do_v thou_o not_o provide_v for_o thyself_o against_o that_o great_a day_n of_o judgement_n when_o no_o man_n can_v excuse_v or_o answer_v for_o another_o but_o every_o one_o shall_v have_v enough_o to_o answer_v for_o himself_o now_o be_v thy_o pain_n profitable_a thy_o tear_n acceptable_a thy_o groan_n audible_a thy_o grief_n pacifi_v god_n and_o purge_v thy_o soul._n 2._o the_o patient_a man_n have_v a_o great_a and_o wholesome_a purgatory_n who_o though_o he_o receive_v injury_n yet_o grieve_v more_o for_o the_o malice_n of_o another_o than_o for_o his_o own_o wrong_n who_o pray_v willing_o for_o his_o adversary_n and_o from_o his_o heart_n forgive_v their_o offence_n he_o delay_v not_o to_o ask_v forgiveness_n of_o whosoever_o he_o have_v offend_v he_o be_v soon_o move_v to_o compassion_n than_o to_o anger_n he_o often_o offer_v a_o holy_a violence_n to_o himself_o and_o labour_v to_o bring_v the_o body_n whole_o into_o subjection_n to_o the_o spirit_n it_o be_v better_a to_o purge_v out_o our_o sin_n and_o cut_v off_o our_o vice_n here_o than_o to_o keep_v they_o to_o be_v punish_v hereafter_o very_o we_o do_v but_o deceive_v ourselves_o through_o a_o inordinate_a love_n of_o the_o flesh_n 3._o what_o be_v it_o that_o that_o infernal_a fire_n feed_v upon_o but_o thy_o sin_n the_o more_o thou_o spare_v thyself_o now_o and_o follow_v the_o flesh_n so_o much_o the_o more_o hereafter_o shall_v
remember_v not_o that_o i_o have_v do_v any_o good_a but_o have_v be_v always_o prone_a to_o sin_n and_o slow_a to_o amendment_n this_o be_v true_a and_o i_o can_v deny_v it_o if_o i_o shall_v say_v otherwise_o thou_o will_v stand_v against_o i_o and_o there_o will_v be_v none_o to_o defend_v i_o what_o have_v i_o deserve_v for_o my_o sin_n but_o hell_n and_o everlasting_a fire_n i_o confess_v in_o very_a truth_n that_o i_o be_o worthy_a of_o all_o scorn_n and_o contempt_n and_o it_o be_v not_o fit_a that_o i_o shall_v be_v remember_v among_o thy_o holy_a one_o and_o although_o i_o be_v unwilling_a to_o hear_v this_o yet_o notwithstanding_o for_o the_o truth_n sake_n i_o will_v lay_v open_a my_o sin_n against_o myself_o that_o so_o the_o soon_o i_o may_v obtain_v mercy_n at_o thy_o hand_n 3._o what_o shall_v i_o say_v be_v guilty_a and_o full_a of_o all_o confusion_n i_o have_v nothing_o to_o say_v but_o this_o i_o have_v sin_v lord_n i_o have_v sin_v have_v mercy_n on_o i_o pardon_v i_o suffer_v i_o a_o little_a that_o i_o may_v bewail_v my_o grief_n before_o i_o go_v unto_o the_o land_n of_o darkness_n a_o land_n cover_v with_o the_o shadow_n of_o death_n what_o do_v thou_o so_o much_o require_v of_o a_o guilty_a and_o miserable_a sinner_n as_o that_o he_o be_v contrite_a and_o humble_v himself_o for_o his_o offence_n of_o true_a contrition_n and_o humble_v of_o the_o heart_n arise_v hope_n of_o forgiveness_n the_o trouble_a conscience_n be_v reconcile_v to_o god_n the_o favour_n of_o god_n which_o be_v lose_v be_v recover_v man_n be_v preserve_v from_o the_o wrath_n to_o come_v and_o god_n and_o the_o penitent_a soul_n meet_v together_o with_o a_o holy_a kiss_n 4._o humble_a contrition_n for_o sin_n be_v a_o acceptable_a sacrifice_n unto_o thou_o o_o lord_n savour_v much_o sweet_a in_o thy_o presence_n than_o the_o perfume_n of_o frankincense_n this_o be_v also_o the_o pleasant_a ointment_n which_o thou_o will_v shall_v be_v pour_v upon_o thy_o sacred_a foot_n for_o thou_o never_o despise_v a_o contrite_a and_o humble_a heart_n there_o be_v the_o place_n of_o refuge_n from_o the_o angry_a face_n of_o the_o enemy_n there_o be_v amend_v and_o wash_v away_o whatsoever_o defilement_n elsewhere_o be_v contract_v and_o whatsoever_o be_v pollute_v chap._n liii_o that_o the_o grace_n of_o god_n do_v not_o join_v itself_o with_o those_o that_o savour_n of_o earthly_a thing_n christ._n son_n my_o grace_n be_v precious_a it_o suffer_v not_o itself_o to_o be_v mingle_v with_o external_a thing_n nor_o earthly_a comfort_n thou_o ought_v therefore_o to_o cast_v away_o all_o hindrance_n of_o grace_n if_o thou_o desire_v to_o receive_v the_o infusion_n thereof_o choose_v therefore_o a_o secret_a place_n to_o thyself_o love_v to_o live_v alone_o with_o thyself_o desire_v the_o conversation_n of_o none_o but_o rather_o pour_v out_o devout_a prayer_n unto_o god_n that_o thou_o may_v keep_v thy_o mind_n in_o compunction_n and_o thy_o conscience_n pure_a esteem_v the_o whole_a world_n as_o nothing_o prefer_v attendance_n upon_o god_n before_o all_o outward_a thing_n for_o thou_o can_v not_o attend_v upou_fw-mi i_o and_o be_v delight_v also_o in_o transitory_a vanity_n thou_o ought_v to_o sequester_v thyself_o from_o thy_o acquaintance_n and_o friend_n and_o to_o keep_v thy_o mind_n void_a of_o all_o temporal_a comfort_n so_o the_o bless_a apostle_n peter_n require_v that_o the_o faithful_a of_o christ_n shall_v keep_v themselves_o as_o stranger_n and_o pilgrim_n in_o this_o world_n 2._o o_o how_o great_a a_o confidence_n shall_v he_o have_v at_o the_o hour_n of_o death_n who_o no_o affection_n to_o any_o earthly_a thing_n detain_v in_o the_o world_n but_o the_o sickly_a mind_n be_v not_o yet_o capable_a of_o so_o retire_v a_o heart_n neither_o do_v the_o carnal_a man_n understand_v the_o liberty_n of_o he_o who_o be_v inward_o recollect_v notwithstanding_o if_o he_o will_v be_v true_o spiritual_a he_o ought_v to_o renounce_v as_o well_o those_o which_o be_v stranger_n as_o those_o which_o be_v near_o unto_o he_o and_o to_o beware_v of_o no_o man_n more_o than_o of_o himself_o if_o thou_o perfect_o overcome_v thyself_o thou_o shall_v with_o more_o ease_n subdue_v the_o rest_n it_o be_v a_o perfect_a victory_n to_o triumph_v over_o ourselves_o for_o he_o that_o keep_v himself_o subject_a in_o such_o sort_n that_o his_o sensuality_n be_v subdue_v to_o reason_n and_o reason_n in_o all_o thing_n be_v obedient_a to_o i_o he_o be_v true_o a_o conqueror_n of_o himself_o and_o lord_n of_o the_o world_n 3._o if_o thou_o desire_v to_o mount_v unto_o this_o height_n thou_o must_v set_v out_o courageous_o and_o lay_v the_o axe_n to_o the_o root_n that_o thou_o may_v pluck_v up_o and_o destroy_v that_o hide_a inordinate_a inclination_n to_o thyself_o and_o unto_o all_o private_a and_o earthly_a good_a of_o this_o sin_n that_o man_n too_o inordinate_o love_v himself_o almost_o all_o depend_v whatsoever_o be_v thorough_o to_o be_v overcome_v which_o evil_a be_v once_o overcome_v and_o subdue_v there_o will_v present_o ensue_v great_a peace_n and_o tranquillity_n but_o for_o that_o few_o endeavour_n perfect_o to_o die_v unto_o themselves_o and_o altogether_o to_o go_v out_o of_o themselves_o therefore_o they_o remain_v entangle_v in_o themselves_o and_o can_v be_v lift_v up_o in_o spirit_n above_o themselves_o but_o he_o that_o desire_v to_o walk_v free_o with_o i_o it_o be_v necessary_a that_o he_o mortify_v all_o evil_a and_o inordinate_a affection_n and_o that_o he_o shall_v not_o earnest_o adhere_v unto_o any_o creature_n by_o private_a love_n chap._n liv._o of_o the_o different_a motion_n of_o nature_n and_o grace_n christ._n son_n mark_v diligent_o the_o motion_n of_o nature_n and_o grace_n for_o in_o a_o very_a contrary_a and_o subtle_a manner_n these_o be_v move_v and_o can_v hardly_o be_v discern_v but_o by_o he_o that_o be_v spiritual_o and_o inward_o enlighten_v all_o man_n indeed_o desire_v that_o which_o be_v 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unto_o all_o men._n nature_n strive_v for_o she_o own_o commodity_n and_o consider_v what_o profit_n she_o may_v reap_v by_o another_o but_o grace_n consider_v not_o what_o be_v profitable_a and_o commodious_a unto_o herself_o but_o rather_o what_o be_v profitable_a to_o many_o nature_n willing_o receive_v honour_n and_o reverence_n but_o grace_n faithful_o attribute_v all_o honour_n and_o glory_n unto_o god_n 3._o nature_n fear_v shame_n and_o contempt_n but_o grace_n rejoice_v to_o suffer_v reproach_n for_o the_o name_n of_o jesus_n nature_n love_v idleness_n and_o bodily_a rest_n but_o grace_n can_v be_v idle_a but_o willing_o embrace_v labour_n nature_n seek_v to_o have_v those_o thing_n that_o be_v curious_a and_o glorious_a abhor_v that_o which_o be_v mean_a and_o course_n but_o grace_n delight_v in_o plain_a and_o humble_a thing_n despise_v not_o rough_a thing_n nor_o refuse_v to_o wear_v that_o which_o be_v old_a and_o tear_v nature_n respect_v temporal_a thing_n rejoice_v at_o 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