my selfe would I neuer so fayne Great is the multitude of my miseries within me For why to will is present with me but I finde not how to bring to passe To will the thyng that is good I am not able except thou will it neither cā I do that I would do except thy power do strengthen me Agayne that which I cā do of tymes I haue no will to do vnlesse thy will be done in earth as it is in heauen And though I both wil and can yet wote I not how to do vnlesse thy wisedome inlighten me Yea and although sometymes I haue knowledge ioyned both with will and with abilitie yet doth my wisedome passe away imperfect emptie vnlesse I be helped by thy true wisedome All thinges are in thy will and there is none that can resiste thy will O Lorde of all thinges which hast the souereintie ouer all flesh and doost what thou listest in heauen in earth in the Sea and in all déepe places Therfore let thy wil be done in vs vpon whē thy name is called so as this noble handiworke of thine perish not whiche thou hast created to shine own honor And what man is he if he were borne of a womā that liueth and shall not sée death or can deliuer his owne soule from the hand of hell except thou onely which art the liuely way of all life wherby all things liue do rescue him ¶ That mās will is vnable to doe good workes without the grace of God. I Haue euen now confessed vnto thée that thou art the stay of my lyfe O Lord my God the strēgth of my welfare The time hath bene that I haue trusted in myne owne strength which notwithstandyng was no strength And so whē I wold haue runne where I thought my selfe to stād fastest there did I most fall and was rather cast behynde then set foreward and the thyng that I thought to catch was further and further of frō me So tryest thou my strēgth by many like things Now know I that thou hast inlightened me For looke what I thought my selfe best able to do that was I euer least able to do of my selfe For I sayd I will do this and I will go through with that but whē it came to the point I could doe none of them both When I had a will to doe it I wanted ablenesse and when I was able I wanted will bycause I trusted to myne own strength But now I acknowledge vnto thee O Lord my God the father of heauen and earth that it is not in mans power to strengthē him selfe least the foolish presumptuousnesse of any flesh should boast it selfe before thée For man is not able to be willing to do that he can nor to can the thyng that he is willing to do or to know the thing that he both would and could do but rather thou art he that guidest mens steppes I say the steppes of them whiche acknowledge thē selues to be guided not by them selues but by thée We beséech thée therfore O Lord by the bowels of thy mercy that thou wilt saue that which thou hast created for if thou wilt thou cāst saue vs and in thy will resteth the power of our saluation ¶ Of Gods olde benefites LOrd remember thyne olde mercyfulnesse wherby thou hast preuented vs with thy swéet blessinges euen from the begynning For before that I the sonne of thy hādmayd was borne thou O Lord my hope while I hāged yet vppon my mothers brestes didst preuent me making my way for me wherein to walke that I might come to the glory of thy house Before thou didst shape me in my mothers wōbe thou knewest me and before I was borne thou didst foreordeine of me what soeuer pleased thée How and what things are written of me in the secret booke of thy Consistorie truly I know not and therefore I am sore afrayde But thou knowest it for what soeuer I looke for by succession of dayes and tymes a thousand yeare hence in this mortall world that is already done in the sight of thy euerlastingnesse and the thing that is to come is already in doyng Now then for asmuch as I stand in this night of darknesse and know not these thinges feare and trembling are come vpon me bycause I sée that many daungers preace vpon me on all sides and many enemyes hunt after me and I am beset round about with an innumerable multitude of miseries in this life And if thy helpe were not presēt with me in these so great miseries I should despaire But I haue a great hope of thée O most méeke prince my God and the considering of the multitude of thy compassions chéereth my hart The former signes of thy mercy whiche preuented me before I was borne and haue now specially shyned out vpon me do assure my hope of the better and perfecter rewardes of thy goodnesse whiche thou reseruest for thy frendes that I may reioyse in thée O Lorde my God with the holy and liuely ioye wherewith thou alwayes chéerest vp my youth Of Gods predestination and foreknowledge TEache me O bottomlesse déepe O wisedome the creator whiche hast counterpeysed the moūtaines hils by weight and hāged the masse of the earth by thrée fingers in the balance hale vp the lumpe of this grossenesse whiche I beare about me vnto thée by thy thrée vnsene fingers that I may sée and know how wonderful thou art ouer all the earth O most auncient light which shonest before all light in the hill of thy tymelesse eternitie vnto whom all thinges lay bare and open before they were made O light whiche hatest all spottinesse in asmuch as thou art most cleane and spottelesse what delight canst thou haue in man What agréemēt is there betwen light and darknesse For what is there in man that may delight thée Where canst thou make thée a méete sanctuarie for thy maiestie that thou mayst enter into it and take thy delight and pleasure in the same A cleane parlour becommeth thée O clensing vertue whiche canst not be sene and much lesse possessed but of cleane hartes But where is there in man so cleane a temple as may receiue thée the ruler of the world Who can make that cleane which is conceiued of vncleane séede Truly none but thou who onely art cleane For who cā be made cleane by that which is vncleane For accordyng to the law which thou gauest to our fathers vpō the mountaine burning with fire and in the cloud that couered the darksome water what soeuer an vncleane persō toucheth becōmeth vncleane But all of vs are as a defileth cloth comming of a corrupt and vncleane masse and we beare in our foreheades the spottes of our vncleannesse which we be not able to hide specially from thée who séest all thinges Wherfore we cannot be cleane except thou make vs cleane who onely art cleane And of vs sonnes of men thou makest those cleane whom it pleaseth thée to dwell in whō by the
other thynges doth the sonne of Beliall euen Sathā him selfe practise agaynst vs O Lord our god He lyeth in wayt to ketch our soules one while as a Lyon and an other while as a draggō openly and priuely within and without day and night But deliuer vs thou O Lord which sauest them that trust in thée that he may be gréeued at vs thou mayst be praysed in vs O Lord our God. Of Gods benefites I The sonne of thy handmayd who haue cōmended my selfe into thy hand by these my poore complaintes will prayse thée my deliuerer with all my hart and cal to my minde all the good that thou hast done me frō my youth vp For I know that vnthankfulnesse doth greatly displease thée which is the roote of all spirituall euill and a wynde that blasteth and burneth vp all good damming vp the foūtaine of thy godly mercy for euer Through it the workes that be dead already reuiue not and the workes that be alyue do dye out of hand and recouer not agayne But I will giue thākes to thée O Lord least I be vnthankfull to thée my deliuerer for thy deliueryng of me How often had that dragon swalowed me vp long ago but that thou O Lord hast plucked me out of his mouth How often haue I sinned and he stode ready to snatch me vp but that thou didst defēd me O Lord my God When I delt wickedly when I brake thy commaundements he stode wayting to cary me away to hell but thou withstodest him I offended thée and thou didst defēd me I feared thée not yet thou didst kéepe me I started away frō thée and yelded my selfe to myne enemy and yet thou didst fray him away that he should not take me These good turnes hast thou done for me O Lord my God I wretch wist it not For so hast thou oftentymes deliuered me out of the deuils chappes plucked me out of the Lyons mouth and many and sundry wayes brought me backe agayne from hell though I wist it not For I haue gone downe to the very gates of hell but thou hast held me frō goyng in I drew neare to deathes doore but thou hast not suffered it to take me in Also thou hast oftentymes preserued me from bodily death O my Sauiour when I haue bene attached with sore sicknesses And when I haue bene in many daungers by Sea and by land thou hast alwayes stode by me deliueryng me from fire and from sword and from all perill and mercyfully preseruyng me Truly Lord thou knowest that if death had dispatched me at that time hell had receiued my soule and I had bene dāned for euer But thy mercy thy grace preuented me rescuyng me from bodily death and also from the death of my soule O my Lord god These and many other good turnes hast thou done for me I was blind and wist it not vntill thou inlightenedst me Now therfore O light of my soule my Lord God my life whereby I liue the sight of mine eyes wherby I sée behold thou hast inlightned me and I perceiue how I liue through thée And I yeld thée thankes though litle worth and slender and farre vnder thy benefites howbeit yet such as my frayltie hath to giue For thou onely art my God and my gracious maker whiche louest our soules and hatest none of the thyngs that thou hast made Behold I am the chief among the sinners whom thou hast saued that I may be an example vnto others of thy most mercyfull louyng kyndnesse I will acknowledge thy great benefites vnto thée for thou hast plucked me out of the bottom of hell once twyse and thrice and a hundred tymes a thousand tymes Yea I alwayes made towardes hell and thou didst alwayes bring me backe againe whē thou mightest iustly haue damned me if thou hadst would But thou wouldest not O Lord my God bycause thou louest mens soules and bearest with mens sinnes that they might repent all thy wayes be full of mercy Now therfore O Lord my God I sée these thynges and discerne them by thy light my hart is astonished at thy great mercy towardes me in that thou hast deliuered my soule from the bottome of hell and brought me backe agayne to lyfe For I was starke dead and thou hast made me throughly aliue again Therfore am I altogether beholden to thee for my life and whole as I am I yeld my selfe wholly vnto thée Let my whole spirite my whole hart my whole body and my whole life liue vnto thée my swéete lyfe for thou hast deliuered me whole that thou mightest possesse me whole thou hast made me whole new agayne that thou mightest haue me whole againe And therfore let me loue thee O Lord my strength let me loue thée O my vnspeakable ioy and let me liue hence forth not to my selfe but vnto thée All my whole life which was perished in myne owne wretchednesse is reuiued agayne in thy mercy for thou art a pitifull and mercyfull God ▪ and many are thy compassions toward thousandes in them that loue thy name And therfore O Lord my God thou my sanctifier hast commaūded me in thy law that I should loue thée with all my hart with all my might yea euē frō the bottom of my hart at all houres tymes wherin I inioy the benefites of thy mercy For I should perish for euer but that thou rulest me euer I should euer dye but that thou euer quickenest me yea euery moment thou byndest me vnto thée in as much as euery momēt thou bestowest thy great benefites vppon me Therefore lyke as there is no houre or instāt of time in all my life that I haue not the vse of thy benefites so ought there to be no moment wherin I should not haue thée in remembraunce before myne eyes and loue thée to thée vttermost of my power But this am I not able to do except thou make me able of whō cōmeth euery good gift euery excellent gift for thou art the father of light in whō there is no chaūge nor intercourse of darknes for to loue thée cōmeth not of our own will or of our own running but of thy mercy Lord it is thy gift whose all good things are Thou commaūdest vs to loue thée giue vs that which thou cōmaundest commaunde what thou wilt Of the feruentnesse of loue or Charitie I Am in loue with thée my God I couet to be alwayes in loue with thée more more For in déede thou art swéeter thē all honye more nourishyng then all milke and brighter then all light And therfore I set more by thée then by all the gold siluer and precious stones in the world For I mislyke all that euer I haue to do within this world in respect of thy swéetnesse and in respect of the beawtie of thy house which I haue loued O fire which euer burnest neuer goest out O loue which euer glowest neuer coolest inflame me I
done for man. FOr loue to manward God came to man God came into ¶ The remembring of the woundes of our Lorde Iesu Christ WHen any foule thought assaulteth me I runne to the woundes of Christ When my fleshe presseth me downe I rise vp agayne by remembryng the woundes of my lord When the deuill layeth wayt for me I flée to the bowels of the mercy of my Lorde and he departeth away from me If the heate of lecherie prouoke my members it is quēched with callyng to mynde the woundes of our Lord the sonne of god In all aduersities I finde no remedie so effectuall as the woundes of Christ In them I sléepe without care and rest with out feare Christ hath died for vs Now is there nothing so bitter to the death which is not salued by the death of Christ All my whole hope is in the death of my lord His death is my desert my refuge my welfare lyfe and resurrection and the mercyfulnesse of the Lord is my merite I am not poore of merite so long as he the Lord of compassiōs faileth not As long as he is manifold in mercy so long am I also manifold of desertes The mightier that he is to saue the more am I without care ¶ That the remembraunce of Christes woundes is an effectual remedy against all aduersities EXcéedyng greatly haue I sinned and myne owne conscience findeth me giltie of many offences and yet doe I not dispayre bycause that whereas sinne hath abounded there hath grace ouerabounded He that despayreth of the forgiuenesse of his sinnes denyeth God to be mercyfull Great wrong doth he to God whiche distrusteth his mercy For as much as in him lieth he denyeth God to be louyng true and mightie which are the thinges wherein my whole hope consisteth that is to witte in the loue of his adoption in the truth of his promise and in the power of his redéemyng Now let my vnwise imagination murmur as much as it listeth and say Who art thou how great is the glory and by what desertes hopest thou to obteine it and I will aunswere boldly I know whom I haue credited that he of his excéedyng great loue hath adopted me to be his sonne that he is soothfast of promise that he is mighty in performance and that he may do what he listeth I can not be feared with the multitude of my sinnes if I bethinke me of the death of my Lorde bycause my sinnes are not able to ouermatch him His nayles and his speare crye vnto me that I am throughly reconcyled to Christ if I loue him Longiuus hath opened me Christes side with his speare and I am gone into it and there do I rest in safetie He that is afrayd let him loue for loue driueth feare out of doores There is no remedie so mightie and effectuall agaynst the heate of lecherie as the death of my redemer He stretcheth out his armes vpon the Crosse and he holdeth out his handes in a readinesse to imbrace sinners Betwéene the armes of my Sauiour mynde I to lyue and dye There shall I sing safely there will I exalte thée O Lorde bycause thou hast taken me vp and hast not giuen myne enemyes their pleasure ouer me Our Sauiour hath bowed down his head at his death to receiue the kisses of his beloued And so oftē do we kisse God as we be throughly touched with the loue of him The musing of the Soule vpon the loue of God. O My soule whiche art innobled with the Image of God redéemed with Christes bloud betrothed to him by fayth indued with the holy Ghost garnished with vertues and registred among the aungels Loue thou him that hath loued thée so much Serue him that hath serued thée Séeke him that séekes thée Loue him that loues thée which loued thée first and which is the cause of thy loue He is the desert he is the reward he is the frute he is the vse of it he is the ende of it Be carefull for hym that is carefull of thée he at leysure for him that is at leysure for thée be cleane with him that is cleane be holy with him that is holy Looke after what sorte thou shewest thy selfe towardes God after the same sort shall he shew him selfe towardes thée He is swéete méeke and mercyfull and therfore he requireth to haue them that be swéete méeke pleasaunt and mercyfull Loue thou him that hath plucked thée out of the puddle of miserie and out of the myre of filthines Chose him for thy frend aboue all frendes whiche alone will kéepe touche with thée when all thinges fayle thée In the day of thy buryall when all thy frendes shrinke frō thée he will not forsake thée but will defend thée from the roring Lyons that wayt for their pray and will leade thée through an vnknowen countrey and bryng thée to the stréetes of the heauenly Sion and there set thée amōg the Aungels before the face of his owne maiestie where thou shalt heare this Aungelicall ditie holie holie holie Lorde God of hostes There is the song of mirth the voyce of ioy and welfare the voyce of thankesgiuing prayse the voyce of magnifying God for euer There is the full measure of happinesse passing excellent glory superabundant ioy all good thynges O my soule sigh hartely desire earnestly that thou mayst come to that Citie aboue whereof so glorious thinges are spoken and wherein is the habitation of all that reioyse By loue thou mayst get vp thether Nothing is hard nothyng is impossible to him that loueth The soule that loueth goeth vp often to the heauenly Ierusalem and runneth familiarly from stréete to stréete visityng the Patriarkes and Prophetes salutyng the Apostles wondring at the hostes of Martyrs and Confessors and gazing at the companies of the Virgins Heauen and earth and all things that are in them call vppon me without ceassyng to loue my Lord God. ¶ What the knowledge of the truth is WHat is the knowledge of truth first to knowe thy selfe and to indeuor to be that which thou oughtest to be and to amende that whiche ought to be amended And secondly to know and to loue thy maker for that is the whole happines of man Sée then how vnspeakeable the graciousnes of Gods loue towardes vs is He hath created vs of nothing and giuen vs all that we haue But forasmuch as we haue loued the gift more then the giuer and the creature more then the creator we are falne into the deuilles snare and become hys bondslaues Neuerthelesse God beyng moued with compassion sent his sonne to redéeme vs slaues and his holy spirite to make vs his sonnes agayne He hath giuen his sonne to be the pryce of our raunsome the holie Ghost as an assuraunce of his loue and to be short he reserueth him selfe whole for vs to be the heritage of our adoption And so God accordyng to hys excéedyng gracious goodnesse and mercie hath for verie loue and good will to