unto_o thou_o namely_o that_o thou_o shall_v be_v rather_o think_v to_o suffer_v ill_a than_o man_n to_o do_v ill_o chap._n 4._o god_n can_v be_v compel_v 1._o in_o this_o sort_n do_v i_o endeavour_v now_o to_o find_v out_o the_o rest_n as_o i_o have_v already_o find_v that_o what_o be_v incorruptible_a must_v needs_o be_v better_a than_o that_o which_o be_v corruptible_a and_o thou_o therefore_o whatsoever_o thou_o be_v do_v i_o acknowledge_v to_o be_v incorruptible_a for_o never_o yet_o soul_n be_v nor_o ever_o shall_v be_v able_a to_o think_v upon_o any_o thing_n which_o may_v be_v better_o than_o thou_o who_o be_v the_o sovereign_a and_o the_o best_a good_n but_o whereas_o most_o true_o and_o certain_o that_o which_o be_v incorruptible_a be_v to_o be_v prefer_v before_o what_o be_v corruptible_a like_a as_o i_o do_v then_o prefer_v it_o i_o may_v very_o well_o have_v reach_v so_o high_a in_o my_o thought_n as_o something_o that_o shall_v be_v better_a than_o my_o god_n have_v not_o 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have_v i_o reject_v those_o deceitful_a divination_n and_o impious_a dotage_n of_o the_o astrologer_n let_v thy_o own_o mercy_n out_o of_o the_o most_o inward_a bowel_n of_o my_o soul_n confess_v unto_o thou_o for_o this_o o_o my_o god_n for_o thou_o thou_o altogether_o for_o who_o else_o be_v it_o that_o call_v we_o back_o from_o the_o death_n of_o all_o error_n but_o even_o that_o life_n which_o know_v not_o how_o to_o die_v and_o that_o wisdom_n which_o enlighten_v those_o mind_n that_o need_v it_o itself_o need_v no_o light_n by_o which_o the_o whole_a world_n be_v govern_v even_o to_o the_o fall_v away_o of_o
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of_o mercy_n have_v despise_v that_o contrite_a and_o humble_a heart_n of_o that_o chaste_a and_o sober_a widow_n so_o frequent_a in_o almesdeed_n so_o obsequious_a and_o serviceable_a to_o thy_o 10._o saint_n who_o pass_v no_o day_n without_o her_o inspiration_n oblation_n at_o thy_o altar_n never_o miss_v twice_o a_o day_n morning_n and_o evening_n to_o come_v to_o church_n not_o to_o listen_v after_o idle_a tale_n and_o old_a wife_n chat_v but_o that_o she_o may_v hear_v thou_o speak_v to_o she_o in_o thy_o sermon_n and_o thou_o she_o in_o her_o prayer_n 3._o can_v thou_o despise_v and_o reject_v without_o thy_o succour_n those_o tear_n of_o she_o with_o which_o she_o beg_v no_o gold_n or_o silver_n of_o thou_o nor_o any_o mutable_a or_o fade_a good_a but_o the_o salvation_n of_o her_o son_n soul_n only_o can_v thou_o do_v it_o by_o who_o grace_n she_o be_v inspire_v to_o do_v thus_o by_o no_o mean_n lord._n yea_o thou_o be_v still_o at_o hand_n and_o thou_o hear_v she_o and_o 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chastity_n unless_o thou_o give_v it_o and_o that_o thou_o very_o will_v give_v it_o if_o with_o cordial_a groan_n i_o do_v knock_v at_o thy_o ear_n and_o with_o a_o settle_a faith_n do_v cast_v my_o care_n upon_o thou_o chap._n 12._o a_o contention_n betwixt_o alipius_n and_o augustine_n about_o marriage_n and_o single_a life_n alipius_n indeed_o be_v the_o man_n that_o keep_v i_o from_o marry_v of_o a_o wife_n allege_v that_o by_o no_o mean_n can_v we_o enjoy_v so_o much_o undistracted_a leisure_n as_o to_o live_v together_o in_o the_o love_n of_o wisdom_n as_o we_o long_v since_o have_v desire_v shall_v i_o take_v that_o course_n for_o he_o himself_o be_v so_o chaste_a that_o way_n that_o it_o be_v a_o wonder_n to_o see_v for_o he_o have_v make_v trial_n of_o that_o act_n in_o the_o begin_n of_o his_o youth_n but_o have_v not_o engage_v himself_o by_o it_o he_o be_v sorry_a for_o it_o rather_o and_o despise_v it_o live_v from_o that_o time_n until_o this_o present_a most_o 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chamber_n be_v inward_o prick_v there_o offer_v my_o sacrifice_n there_o also_o my_o 5._o old_a man_n and_o the_o meditation_n of_o my_o newness_n of_o life_n now_o begin_v in_o i_o put_v my_o trust_n in_o thou_o there_o beganne_v thou_o to_o grow_v sweet_a unto_o i_o and_o to_o put_v gladness_n in_o my_o 7._o heart_n and_o i_o cry_v out_o as_o i_o read_v this_o outward_o find_v this_o gladness_n inward_o nor_o will_v i_o be_v any_o more_o increase_v with_o worldly_a good_n waste_v away_o my_o time_n and_o be_v waste_v by_o these_o temporal_a thing_n whereas_o i_o have_v in_o thy_o eternal_a simplicity_n a_o store_n lay_v up_o of_o corn_n and_o wine_n and_o oil_n 6._o and_o with_o aloud_o cry_v of_o my_o heart_n call_v i_o out_o in_o the_o next_o verse_n o_o in_o peace_n o_o for_o that_o same_o peace_n o_o what_o say_v he_o i_o will_v lay_v â—â—â—_o down_o and_o sleep_n â—_o 〈…〉_z hinder_a we_o when_o 〈…〉_z say_n shall_v be_v bring_v to_o pass_v which_o be_v write_v death_n be_v 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have_v do_v in_o those_o day_n of_o my_o retirement_n 7._o nor_o have_v i_o yet_o forget_v neither_o will_v i_o pass_v in_o silence_n the_o smartnesse_n of_o thy_o scourge_n and_o the_o wonderful_a swiftness_n of_o thy_o mercy_n thou_o do_v in_o those_o day_n torment_v i_o with_o the_o toothache_n which_o when_o it_o have_v grow_v so_o fierce_a upon_o i_o that_o i_o be_v not_o able_a to_o speak_v it_o come_v into_o my_o heart_n to_o desire_v my_o friend_n present_a to_o pray_v for_o i_o unto_o thou_o the_o god_n of_o all_o manner_n of_o health_n and_o this_o i_o write_v in_o wax_n 16._o and_o give_v it_o to_o they_o to_o read_v immediate_o so_o soon_o as_o with_o a_o humble_a devotion_n we_o have_v bow_v our_o knee_n that_o pain_n go_v away_o but_o what_o pain_n or_o how_o go_v it_o away_o i_o be_v much_o afraid_a o_o my_o lord_n my_o god_n see_v from_o my_o infancy_n i_o have_v never_o feel_v the_o like_a and_o thou_o give_v i_o a_o secret_a item_n by_o this_o how_o powerful_a thy_o 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to_o make_v i_o ready_a and_o fit_a for_o the_o receyve_n of_o so_o great_a a_o grace_n he_o recommend_v esaias_n the_o prophet_n to_o i_o for_o this_o reason_n i_o believe_v for_o that_o he_o be_v a_o more_o clear_a foreshewer_n of_o the_o gospel_n and_o of_o the_o call_n of_o the_o gentile_n then_o be_v the_o rest_n of_o the_o prophet_n but_o i_o not_o understand_v the_o first_o part_n of_o he_o and_o imagine_v all_o the_o rest_n to_o be_v like_o that_o lay_v it_o by_o intend_v to_o fall_v to_o it_o again_o when_o i_o be_v better_o practise_v in_o our_o lord_n
therefore_o to_o be_v delude_v for_o they_o be_v high-minded_a have_v seek_v thou_o in_o the_o pride_n of_o their_o learning_n strut_a out_o rather_o then_o knock_v up_o on_o their_o breast_n and_o so_o by_o the_o agreement_n of_o their_o heart_n have_v they_o draw_v unto_o themselves_o the_o prince_n of_o the_o air_n their_o fellow_n conspirator_n in_o pride_n by_o who_o through_o the_o force_n of_o magic_n they_o be_v decerue_v even_o while_o they_o seek_v for_o a_o mediator_n all_o by_o who_o they_o may_v be_v purge_v but_o there_o be_v none_o to_o be_v find_v for_o the_o devil_n it_o be_v transfigure_v now_o himself_o into_o a_o angel_n of_o light_n 2._o many_o way_n therefore_o be_v he_o able_a to_o entice_v proud_a flesh_n for_o that_o himself_o be_v not_o of_o any_o fleshly_a body_n for_o fleshly_a man_n be_v mortal_a and_o sinnefulli_fw-la but_o thou_o lord_n to_o who_o they_o this_o proud_a way_n seek_v to_o be_v reconcile_v be_v immortal_a and_o without_o sin_n a_o mediator_n now_o between_o god_n and_o man_n must_v have_v something_o like_a unto_o god_n and_o something_o like_a unto_o man_n lest_o that_o be_v like_a unto_o man_n in_o both_o nature_n he_o shall_v be_v too_o far_o unlike_o god_n or_o if_o like_a unto_o god_n in_o both_o nature_n he_o shall_v be_v too_o far_o unlike_a unto_o man_n and_o so_o be_v a_o mediator_n neither_o way_n that_o deceitful_a devil_n mediator_n therefore_o by_o who_o in_o thy_o secret_a judgement_n man_n pride_n deserve_v to_o be_v delude_v have_v one_o thing_n indeed_o common_a with_o himself_o to_o man_n and_o that_o be_v sin_n and_o desire_n to_o seem_v to_o communicate_v in_o another_o thing_n with_o god_n that_o because_o he_o be_v not_o clothe_v with_o any_o mortality_n of_o flesh_n he_o may_v thereby_o vaunt_v himself_o to_o be_v immortal_a but_o for_o that_o the_o wage_n of_o sin_n be_v death_n 6._o this_o have_v he_o common_a to_o himself_o with_o man_n for_o which_o he_o may_v together_o with_o they_o â—â—_o condemn_a unto_o death_n chap._n 43._o christ_n only_o in_o the_o all-sufficient_a mediator_n intercessor_n 1._o but_o the_o true_a mediator_n who_o out_o of_o thy_o secret_a mercy_n thou_o have_v show_v forth_o unto_o the_o humble_a and_o who_o thou_o send_v that_o by_o his_o example_n they_o may_v learn_v the_o true_a humility_n that_o 5_o mediator_n therefore_o between_o god_n and_o man_n the_o man_n christ_n jesus_n appear_v betwixt_o mortal_a sinner_n and_o the_o immortal_a just_a one_o be_v mortal_a as_o man_n and_o just_a like_o god_n that_o because_o the_o reward_n of_o righteousness_n be_v life_n and_o peace_n he_o may_v by_o his_o righteousness_n which_o be_v join_v to_o god_n make_v void_a the_o death_n of_o as_o many_o of_o the_o wicked_a as_o be_v by_o he_o justify_v which_o death_n his_o will_n be_v to_o have_v common_a both_o to_o they_o and_o he_o he_o be_v show_v forth_o unto_o holy_a man_n of_o old_a to_o the_o intent_n that_o they_o may_v be_v save_v through_o say_v in_o his_o passion_n to_o come_v like_a as_o we_o be_v through_o say_v of_o it_o already_o pass_v for_o how_o farforth_a he_o be_v a_o man_n so_o farforth_a be_v he_o a_o mediator_n but_o so_o farforth_a as_o he_o be_v the_o word_n he_o be_v not_o mere_o midway_n to_o god_n because_o he_o be_v equal_a unto_o god_n and_o god_n with_o god_n &_o together_o with_o the_o holy_a ghost_n one_o god_n 2._o how_o have_v thou_o love_v we_o o_o good_a father_n that_o have_v not_o spare_v thy_o only_a son_n but_o have_v deliver_v he_o unto_o death_n for_o we_o wicked_a man_n how_o have_v thou_o love_v we_o for_o who_o he_o that_o think_v it_o no_o robbery_n to_o be_v equal_a with_o god_n be_v make_v subject_a unto_o death_n even_o the_o death_n of_o the_o cross_n he_o that_o be_v only_o free_a among_o the_o 8_o dead_a that_o have_v power_n to_o lay_v 5._o 18_o down_o his_o life_n and_o power_n to_o take_v it_o again_o for_o we_o be_v he_o unto_o thou_o both_o the_o conqueror_n and_o the_o sacrifice_n yea_o and_o therefore_o the_o conqueror_n because_o the_o sacrifice_n for_o we_o be_v he_o unto_o thou_o both_o priest_n and_o sacrifice_n and_o therefore_o the_o priest_n because_o the_o sacrifice_n of_o slave_n make_v we_o thy_o child_n by_o be_v bear_v of_o thou_o and_o by_o become_v a_o servant_n unto_o us._n deserve_o therefore_o be_v my_o hope_n strong_o settle_v upon_o he_o that_o thou_o will_v by_o he_o cure_v all_o my_o infirmity_n even_o by_o he_o that_o sit_v at_o thy_o right_a hand_n and_o make_v intercession_n for_o we_o whereas_o otherwise_o i_o shall_v despair_v utter_o for_o many_o and_o great_a be_v those_o infirmity_n of_o i_o yea_o many_o they_o be_v and_o great_a but_o thy_o medicine_n be_v more_o sovereign_a 3._o imagine_v we_o may_v that_o thy_o word_n be_v far_o enough_o from_o be_v unite_v with_o man_n and_o so_o despair_n of_o ourselves_o unless_o it_o have_v be_v make_v flesh_n and_o dwell_v among_o us._n affright_v 1._o thus_o with_o my_o own_o sin_n &_o the_o burden_n of_o my_o own_o misery_n i_o cast_v these_o thought_n in_o my_o heart_n bethink_v myself_o of_o flee_v into_o the_o himself_o wilderness_n but_o thou_o for_o bad_a i_o and_o strengthen_v i_o say_v therefore_o christ_n die_v for_o all_o that_o they_o which_o live_v may_v now_o no_o long_o live_v unto_o themselves_o but_o unto_o he_o that_o die_v for_o they_o see_v lord_n i_o hence_o forth_o cast_v all_o my_o care_n upon_o thou_o that_o i_o may_v live_v and_o consider_v the_o wonderful_a thing_n of_o thy_o law_n thou_o know_v both_o my_o unskilfulnesse_n and_o my_o infirmity_n oh_o teach_v i_o and_o heal_v i_o that_o only_a son_n of_o thou_o in_o who_o be_v hide_v all_o the_o treasure_n of_o wisdom_n and_o knowledge_n have_v redeem_v i_o with_o his_o blood_n 15._o 3â—_n let_v not_o the_o proud_a speak_v evil_a of_o i_o now_o for_o that_o i_o meditate_v upon_o the_o price_n of_o my_o redemption_n and_o do_v eat_v &_o drink_v and_o give_v unto_o the_o poor_a and_o be_v poor_a myself_o desire_v to_o be_v fill_v by_o he_o among_o those_o that_o eat_v and_o be_v satisfy_v and_o they_o shall_v praise_v the_o lord_n who_o 26_o seek_v he_o the_o end_n of_o the_o ten_o book_n saint_n augustine_n confession_n the_o eleven_o book_n chap._n 1._o why_o we_o confess_v unto_o god_n who_o know_v all_o can_v thou_o that_o be_v the_o lord_n of_o all_o eternity_n be_v ignorant_a of_o what_o i_o say_v unto_o thou_o or_o do_v thou_o see_v but_o for_o a_o time_n that_o which_o pass_v in_o time_n to_o what_o end_n then_o do_v i_o lay_v in_o order_n before_o thou_o so_o many_o â—arrations_n not_o to_o this_o end_n do_v i_o it_o that_o thou_o may_v come_v to_o know_v they_o upon_o my_o relation_n but_o there_o by_o to_o stir_v up_o my_o own_o and_o my_o reader_n devotion_n towards_o thou_o that_o we_o may_v say_v all_o together_o great_a be_v the_o lord_n 4._o and_o great_o to_o be_v praise_v now_o have_v i_o say_v and_o again_o say_v it_o i_o will_v for_o the_o love_n of_o thy_o love_n make_v i_o this_o confession_n for_o we_o use_v to_o pray_v also_o and_o yet_o truth_n itself_o have_v say_v your_o father_n know_v what_o you_o have_v 32._o need_n of_o before_o you_o ask_v it_o be_v our_o affection_n therefore_o which_o we_o hereby_o lie_v open_a unto_o thou_o while_o we_o confess_v our_o own_o misery_n and_o thy_o mercy_n upon_o we_o that_o thou_o may_v thorough_o set_v we_o free_a see_v already_o thou_o have_v begin_v to_o make_v we_o leave_v to_o be_v wretched_a in_o ourselves_o and_o to_o be_v happy_a in_o thou_o see_v thou_o have_v call_v we_o that_o we_o may_v become_v poor_a in_o spirit_n and_o 5._o meek_a and_o mournful_a and_o bungry_a and_o thirsty_a after_o righteousness_n and_o merciful_a and_o pure_a in_o heart_n and_o peacemaker_n see_v i_o have_v tell_v thou_o many_o thing_n such_o as_o i_o can_v and_o such_o i_o be_v desirous_a to_o do_v because_o thou_o desire_v first_o that_o i_o shall_v confess_v unto_o my_o lord_n god_n for_o thou_o be_v good_a and_o 2_o that_o thy_o mercy_n endure_v for_o ever_o chap._n 2._o he_o sue_v to_o be_v deliver_v from_o his_o sin_n and_o error_n and_o to_o be_v guide_v unto_o the_o true_a knowledge_n 1._o but_o when_o shall_v i_o be_v able_a with_o the_o pen_n of_o my_o tongue_n to_o set_v forth_o all_o thy_o exhortation_n and_o all_o thy_o terror_n and_o comfort_n and_o direction_n by_o which_o thou_o have_v bring_v i_o up_o to_o be_v a_o preacher_n of_o thy_o werd_n and_o a_o dispenser_n of_o thy_o sacrament_n unto_o thy_o people_n if_o i_o now_o be_v able_a to_o declare_v these_o thing_n to_o thou_o in_o order_n the_o very_a â—and_n