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it_o refuse_v to_o be_v conformable_a to_o you_o in_o your_o annihilation_n open_v my_o breast_n and_o take_v it_o from_o i_o for_o i_o have_v rather_o have_v none_o at_o all_o and_o die_v than_o have_v a_o heart_n that_o have_v other_o maxim_n and_o affection_n than_o what_o you_o have_v teach_v i_o o_o my_o belove_a jesus_n i_o do_v not_o in_o this_o desire_n cruelty_n to_o myself_o but_o a_o signal_n favour_n the_o eternal_a father_n who_o behold_v you_o hang_v on_o the_o cross_n with_o complacency_n will_v not_o be_v offend_v with_o this_o bloody_a spectacle_n o_o my_o jesus_n what_o a_o love_n have_v i_o for_o your_o cross_n and_o humiliation_n the_o view_n of_o their_o beauty_n so_o well-pleasing_a to_o your_o eternal_a father_n do_v at_o present_a so_o ravish_v and_o transport_v i_o that_o i_o shall_v become_v as_o it_o be_v a_o fool_n i_o shall_v lose_v my_o sense_n and_o speak_v i_o know_v not_o what_o unless_o dear_a jesus_n you_o put_v a_o stop_n to_o your_o divine_a 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she_o receive_v the_o same_o to_o be_v apply_v to_o the_o practice_n of_o most_o excellent_a virtue_n on_o all_o occasion_n pure_a and_o perfect_a prayer_n do_v not_o consist_v in_o gust_n of_o devotion_n but_o in_o the_o supreme_a part_n of_o the_o spirit_n in_o a_o peculiar_a manner_n that_o be_v ineffable_a for_o this_o supreme_a region_n of_o the_o soul_n be_v the_o sacred_a temple_n where_o god_n be_v please_v to_o dwell_v where_o she_o feel_v and_o taste_v a_o sweetness_n above_o all_o create_a entity_n the_o soul_n conduct_v by_o faith_n and_o attract_v by_o these_o divine_a perfume_n find_v god_n in_o this_o his_o sanctuary_n and_o converse_v with_o he_o with_o such_o a_o familiarity_n as_o astonish_v the_o angel_n to_o behold_v it_o it_o be_v here_o where_o she_o make_v pure_a prayer_n seeing_z there_o be_v nothing_o but_o god_n and_o the_o soul_n without_o any_o creature_n to_o interrupt_v this_o sacred_a interview_n god_n work_v all_o that_o pass_v by_o himself_o without_o 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act_n and_o suffer_v and_o practice_v pure_a virtue_n on_o all_o occasion_n few_o person_n arrive_v to_o this_o purity_n of_o perfect_a prayer_n because_o few_o make_v themselves_o susceptible_a of_o those_o divine_a motion_n by_o a_o entire_a annihilation_n of_o their_o own_o power_n these_o great_a favour_n will_v be_v more_o frequent_o bestow_v if_o we_o have_v heart_n prepare_v to_o receive_v they_o favour_n which_o be_v of_o more_o worth_n than_o the_o whole_a world_n and_o can_v be_v know_v but_o by_o experience_n for_o my_o part_n i_o know_v nothing_o i_o only_o have_v hear_v say_v that_o in_o this_o pure_a and_o perfect_a prayer_n there_o be_v admirable_a union_n most_o intimate_a embrace_n ardour_n of_o love_n so_o pure_a as_o may_v almost_o compare_v with_o the_o flame_n of_o seraphim_n we_o come_v to_o a_o perfect_a union_n with_o god_n by_o a_o perfect_a denudation_n of_o all_o creature_n and_o this_o denudation_n be_v acquire_v by_o continual_a mortification_n and_o 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honour_n of_o consolation_n do_v much_o conduce_v to_o bring_v a_o soul_n to_o this_o live_a death_n for_o common_o we_o quit_v such_o allurement_n when_o we_o lose_v the_o material_n of_o those_o fetter_n in_o this_o divine_a exercise_n the_o soul_n be_v whole_o take_v up_o with_o god_n without_o divert_v her_o thought_n on_o any_o other_o object_n and_o though_o then_o to_o reflect_v on_o the_o effect_n of_o prayer_n will_v be_v a_o kind_n of_o distraction_n yet_o without_o her_o think_n god_n leave_v powerful_a impression_n in_o she_o and_o pregnant_a disposition_n to_o practice_v great_a virtue_n and_o above_o all_o a_o love_n of_o the_o cross_n and_o humiliation_n see_v he_o can_v possible_o please_v god_n more_o than_o by_o suffer_v for_o he_o chap._n fourteen_o of_o the_o hunger_a of_o the_o soul_n after_o god_n and_o of_o she_o be_v satiate_v with_o he_o i_o sometime_o find_v myself_o in_o
nothing_o to_o work_v this_o amorous_a tendency_n towards_o god_n not_o but_o that_o sometime_o it_o present_v some_o excellent_a truth_n to_o quicken_v love_n but_o yet_o that_o truth_n be_v there_o without_o it_o i_o admire_v that_o after_o the_o visit_n of_o friend_n i_o always_o find_v my_o will_n convert_v to_o god_n the_o only_a centre_n of_o my_o soul_n and_o i_o know_v not_o how_o this_o amorous_a inclination_n be_v entertain_v and_o preserve_v in_o i_o i_o find_v by_o experience_n that_o in_o this_o state_n my_o soul_n be_v well_o dispose_v to_o practice_v all_o sort_n of_o virtue_n though_o she_o make_v thereof_o no_o formal_a resolution_n after_o the_o exercise_n of_o this_o prayer_n the_o soul_n be_v extreme_o in_o love_n with_o mortification_n and_o self-denial_n desire_v nothing_o but_o god_n alone_o she_o understand_v also_o that_o she_o can_v persevere_v in_o this_o happy_a state_n without_o a_o constant_a love_n of_o the_o cross_n of_o which_o she_o daily_o become_v 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secret_a communication_n between_o god_n and_o the_o soul_n except_o we_o pass_v through_o three_o trial_n wherein_o we_o find_v much_o trouble_n and_o bitterness_n the_o first_o be_v the_o death_n of_o the_o exterior_a sense_n whereby_o all_o sensible_a object_n become_v in_o a_o manner_n distasteful_a to_o the_o soul_n for_o as_o long_o as_o she_o do_v amuse_v herself_o with_o any_o sensual_a delight_n she_o can_v never_o arise_v to_o this_o elevation_n this_o general_a mortification_n be_v so_o difficult_a that_o the_o great_a part_n of_o devotee_n suffer_v themselves_o to_o be_v conquer_v herein_o and_o pass_v no_o further_o the_o second_o be_v the_o annihilation_n of_o the_o working_n of_o their_o interiour_n sense_n wherein_o we_o have_v such_o difficulty_n to_o conquer_v that_o unless_o god_n who_o conduct_n soul_n by_o his_o divine_a motion_n do_v strengthen_v they_o in_o this_o combat_n and_o bring_v about_o this_o interiour_n death_n by_o the_o secret_a working_n of_o his_o grace_n they_o will_v quick_o loose_v courage_n in_o this_o attempt_n the_o three_o trial_n be_v yet_o more_o laborious_a for_o we_o must_v mortify_v the_o operation_n of_o our_o spiritual_a faculty_n the_o memory_n understanding_n and_o will_v than_o which_o nothing_o be_v more_o difficult_a it_o be_v a_o long_a time_n before_o the_o soul_n can_v understand_v how_o this_o must_v be_v do_v and_o long_o before_o she_o can_v bring_v it_o about_o and_o except_o god_n be_v please_v to_o withdraw_v from_o the_o soul_n those_o help_v she_o receive_v from_o she_o own_o light_n and_o affection_n she_o will_v never_o compass_v it_o in_o this_o combat_n the_o soul_n meet_v with_o a_o thousand_o temptation_n as_o that_o we_o do_v but_o loose_v our_o time_n that_o it_o be_v no_o better_o than_o pure_a idleness_n and_o much_o hindrance_n sometime_o from_o director_n who_o have_v no_o experience_n of_o this_o way_n can_v understand_v it_o much_o less_o approve_v it_o happy_a be_v the_o soul_n that_o meet_v with_o a_o director_n to_o strenghthen_v and_o encourage_v she_o in_o the_o difficulty_n of_o this_o passage_n otherwise_o she_o will_v never_o arrive_v to_o this_o sacred_a silence_n unless_o by_o some_o extraordinary_a grace_n and_o favour_n the_o soul_n then_o thus_o dead_a and_o annihilate_v enter_v into_o this_o sacred_a silence_n the_o beginning_n whereof_o be_v somewhat_o bitter_a though_o with_o a_o mixture_n of_o sweetness_n by_o a_o certain_a experience_n of_o the_o presence_n of_o god_n in_o the_o soul_n which_o be_v elevate_v above_o all_o natural_a light_n to_o behold_v god_n by_o the_o single_a light_n of_o faith_n be_v assist_v by_o another_o light_n that_o seem_v to_o participate_v of_o faith_n and_o glory_n for_o it_o have_v something_o of_o the_o ray_n of_o glory_n not_o that_o it_o be_v real_o either_o this_o or_o that_o but_o a_o resemblance_n of_o they_o wonderful_n be_v the_o effect_n which_o god_n produce_v in_o the_o soul_n in_o this_o state_n of_o interiour_n silence_n for_o he_o deal_v with_o she_o as_o a_o painter_n do_v with_o a_o blank_a prepare_v for_o his_o work_n where_o he_o draw_v divers_a line_n as_o seem_v best_a to_o he_o god_n sometime_o make_v a_o silence_n in_o all_o the_o power_n of_o the_o soul_n keep_v they_o bind_v in_o the_o dark_a but_o in_o a_o disposition_n to_o do_v whatsoever_o he_o please_v with_o they_o the_o spirit_n be_v a_o little_a busy_a to_o see_v what_o be_v do_v but_o be_v check_v be_v quiet_a and_o the_o soul_n have_v nothing_o to_o rely_v upon_o be_v annihilate_v in_o herself_o rest_v sole_o on_o god_n repose_v herself_o in_o he_o with_o patience_n and_o humility_n otherwhile_o god_n put_v the_o soul_n without_o any_o operation_n of_o her_o own_o in_o great_a repose_n and_o quiet_a neither_o willing_a nor_o apply_v herself_o to_o any_o thing_n in_o particular_a but_o in_o a_o readiness_n to_o do_v whatsoever_o god_n manifest_v to_o be_v his_o will._n and_o this_o seem_v to_o i_o to_o be_v the_o most_o usual_a disposition_n of_o the_o soul_n in_o the_o state_n of_o interiour_n silence_n at_o other_o time_n the_o soul_n feel_v such_o a_o fullness_n of_o god_n that_o she_o seem_v whole_o to_o possess_v he_o insomuch_o that_o the_o sense_n be_v partaker_n of_o the_o gust_n and_o sweetness_n communicate_v to_o they_o the_o soul_n in_o the_o interim_n whole_o mortify_v by_o a_o constant_a readiness_n to_o be_v sacrifice_v to_o the_o will_n of_o god_n at_o other_o time_n the_o soul_n be_v whole_o take_v captive_a by_o divine_a love_n which_o give_v she_o a_o relish_n of_o her_o sovereign_a good_a all_o other_o thing_n how_o excellent_a soever_o they_o may_v seem_v be_v but_o bitter_a to_o she_o the_o understanding_n here_o make_v no_o use_n of_o the_o light_n of_o reason_n but_o god_n be_v please_v to_o infuse_v certain_a manifestation_n quick_a and_o sudden_a which_o work_n so_o secret_o such_o change_n in_o the_o soul_n that_o she_o can_v perceive_v till_o they_o be_v do_v at_o other_o time_n when_o the_o soul_n be_v in_o doubt_n or_o trouble_v with_o some_o disorder_n or_o discourage_v by_o she_o own_o weakness_n she_o find_v god_n show_v himself_o present_a with_o she_o to_o instruct_v to_o quicken_v to_o strengthen_v to_o succour_v she_o according_a to_o her_o present_a necessity_n the_o soul_n in_o this_o state_n be_v dispose_v to_o whatsoever_o god_n please_v desire_v nothing_o require_v of_o she_o god_n work_v his_o will_n in_o she_o and_o she_o be_v humble_a and_o faithful_a and_o altogether_o submissive_a and_o pliable_a to_o his_o operation_n thus_o the_o soul_n must_v stand_v affect_v in_o respect_n of_o god_n but_o she_o can_v never_o come_v to_o this_o without_o great_a combat_n continual_a death_n and_o long_a suffering_n however_o all_o the_o cross_n can_v be_v endure_v in_o this_o world_n be_v but_o a_o cheap_a rate_n to_o purchase_v the_o enjoyment_n of_o god_n but_o for_o a_o moment_n in_o this_o state_n of_o interiour_n silence_n the_o soul_n can_v prescribe_v any_o law_n to_o herself_o in_o her_o spiritual_a exercise_n but_o wait_v with_o all_o humility_n to_o receive_v what_o god_n shall_v give_v she_o and_o be_v faithful_a in_o correspond_v thereto_o sometime_o she_o suffer_v sometime_o she_o act_v either_o in_o this_o or_o that_o manner_n according_a to_o the_o nature_n of_o the_o divine_a impression_n chap._n xiii_o of_o most_o purify_a contemplation_n on_o st._n alexius_n day_n our_o saviour_n give_v i_o knowledge_n of_o a_o state_n of_o prayer_n wherein_o at_o present_a i_o must_v constant_o exercise_v myself_o as_o some_o servant_n of_o god_n advise_v i_o but_o the_o reason_n they_o tell_v i_o i_o understand_v not_o my_o prayer_n then_o be_v a_o denudation_n of_o all_o creature_n where_o the_o soul_n as_o it_o seem_v to_o she_o do_v nothing_o but_o enter_v into_o possession_n of_o god_n in_o a_o peculiar_a manner_n who_o work_v in_o she_o what_o
grace_n and_o gift_n from_o god_n ought_v not_o to_o rejoice_v in_o the_o abundance_n of_o such_o favour_n but_o her_o whole_a content_a aught_o to_o be_v in_o the_o pleasure_n that_o god_n take_v to_o be_v so_o bountiful_a to_o his_o creature_n so_o unworthy_a of_o his_o blessing_n wretched_a be_v that_o man_n who_o have_v less_o care_n of_o his_o soul_n than_o his_o body_n love_v more_o to_o follow_v the_o inclination_n of_o sensuality_n than_o the_o inspiration_n of_o grace_n wretched_a be_v he_o who_o be_v all_o for_o the_o good_a thing_n of_o this_o life_n a_o good_a house_n good_a apparel_n good_a provision_n etc._n etc._n and_o be_v content_a to_o have_v a_o bad_a soul_n wretched_a be_v he_o who_o by_o his_o vicious_a course_n of_o life_n make_v himself_o the_o most_o contemptible_a thing_n of_o his_o whole_a family_n for_o he_o who_o forsake_v god_n to_o follow_v his_o sensuality_n be_v in_o worse_a state_n than_o the_o mean_a creature_n o_o sad_a condition_n believe_v it_o be_v far_o more_o easy_a to_o command_v our_o passion_n than_o obey_v they_o to_o conquer_v our_o natural_a inclination_n than_o to_o satisfy_v they_o and_o therefore_o more_o pleasant_a to_o walk_v in_o the_o way_n of_o salvation_n than_o perdition_n it_o be_v a_o wonderful_a punishment_n to_o suffer_v the_o continual_a lash_n of_o a_o guilty_a conscience_n a_o unspeakable_a torment_n to_o have_v our_o heart_n always_o terrify_v with_o the_o judgement_n of_o god_n hang_v over_o our_o head_n with_o the_o fear_n of_o death_n which_o be_v uncertain_a and_o the_o horror_n of_o hell_n which_o can_v be_v avoid_v by_o such_o who_o neglect_v the_o service_n of_o god_n and_o die_v in_o their_o sin_n to_o become_v slave_n to_o the_o world_n and_o our_o passion_n and_o vicious_a inclination_n most_o cruel_a and_o ungrateful_a tyrant_n and_o to_o have_v no_o repose_n nor_o contentment_n not_o one_o only_a moment_n of_o true_a solid_a joy_n be_v to_o suffer_v a_o hell_n in_o time_n before_o that_o of_o eternity_n we_o shall_v find_v nothing_o to_o be_v compare_v to_o the_o way_n of_o heaven_n the_o yoke_n of_o our_o bless_a saviour_n be_v easie_n his_o burden_n light_n his_o will_n be_v lovely_a his_o help_n be_v powerful_a and_o the_o consolation_n wherewith_o he_o refresh_v the_o soul_n of_o his_o servant_n so_o abundant_a that_o they_o be_v far_o more_o happy_a with_o their_o cross_n than_o carnal_a man_n with_o all_o their_o worldly_a delight_n and_o pleasure_n chap._n vi_o how_o to_o comport_v ourselves_o well_o in_o superiority_n jesus_n be_v your_o light_n and_o your_o guide_n and_o your_o support_n in_o superiority_n to_o be_v in_o this_o condition_n seem_v to_o some_o troublesome_a and_o insupportable_a because_o thing_n do_v not_o succeed_v as_o they_o desire_v but_o believe_v themselves_o to_o be_v a_o hindrance_n to_o the_o increase_n of_o grace_n in_o the_o soul_n of_o their_o subject_n who_o may_v have_v be_v better_o govern_v by_o a_o person_n more_o capable_a and_o advance_v in_o perfection_n it_o be_v indeed_o well_o say_v and_o the_o pretence_n be_v specious_a and_o yet_o notwithstanding_o all_o this_o may_v proceed_v from_o self-love_n and_o desire_v of_o our_o own_o excellence_n prostrate_v thyself_o at_o the_o foot_n of_o jesus_n christ_n and_o if_o he_o dart_v into_o thy_o soul_n divine_a irradiation_n thou_o will_v discover_v the_o truth_n of_o what_o i_o have_v say_v herein_o that_o little_a resignation_n we_o have_v to_o the_o ordination_n of_o god_n create_v these_o trouble_n in_o we_o god_n only_o expect_v from_o we_o such_o a_o certain_a measure_n of_o glory_n and_o we_o be_v for_o render_v more_o than_o he_o require_v of_o we_o it_o be_v our_o happiness_n not_o to_o conform_v our_o will_n to_o god_n good_a pleasure_n touch_v the_o manner_n of_o glorify_v himself_o what_o please_v he_o do_v not_o content_v we_o he_o will_v have_v we_o glorify_v he_o by_o suffer_v and_o we_o be_v for_o action_n we_o be_v for_o give_v alm_n and_o he_o for_o receive_v in_o a_o word_n we_o do_v not_o entire_o conform_v ourselves_o to_o the_o pure_a will_n of_o god_n we_o ought_v not_o to_o perplex_v and_o disquiet_v ourselves_o with_o the_o defect_n and_o imperfection_n of_o those_o with_o who_o we_o live_v and_o be_v under_o our_o charge_n they_o be_v mortal_a and_o infirm_a creature_n and_o not_o angel_n and_o to_o expect_v they_o shall_v be_v faultless_a be_v to_o look_v for_o impossibility_n and_o flatter_v our_o impatience_n which_o will_v have_v no_o occasion_n of_o displeasure_n this_o be_v but_o to_o afflict_v ourselves_o for_o the_o loss_n of_o our_o own_o esteem_n which_o appear_v by_o our_o ill_a conduct_n in_o such_o small_a matter_n and_o yet_o we_o pretend_v only_o to_o seek_v god_n honour_n and_o the_o good_a of_o soul_n those_o who_o true_o seek_v the_o glory_n of_o god_n sometime_o be_v trouble_v but_o it_o be_v a_o displeasure_n join_v with_o peace_n and_o tranquillity_n yea_o abound_v with_o influence_n of_o 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