the Sinne and Wrath of Adam being yet but One pressed upon and into all so likewise passed and pressed the motion or affection of Gods love in Christ humanity and out of Christs humanity through the whole humanity of all men 17. Christ is againe become the heart in the Humane Tree the Divine Sound voyce or word which hath revealed it selfe in Christs humanity effectually that soundeth through Christs humanity in the Vniversall humane Tree and there is nothing wanting or in the way but that the twig which is on the Tree will not draw the Sap of the Tree into it selfe 18. It hapneth oftentimes that the property is too much in love with Mars and draweth it into it selfe and stirreth up the heat whereby the twigg withereth and so the Mars of the soule draweth wrath and falshood into it selfe whereby its Mercurie becomes poysonfull and then Saturne which is the impression of the lifes property groweth altogether obscure and darke and as long as the Mercurie of the life liveth in such a property he may not be drawne of the love of God but of the anger of God and is chosen to damnation so long as he liveth or continueth in that Free evill wicked will 19. The love of God offers it selfe unto him but he refuseth to accept of it God is desirous of him but the wrath holdeth dim As Christ sayd O Jerusalem Jerusalem How often would I have gathered thy Children as a Hen gathereth her Chickens under her wings but you would not 20. The unwillingnesse lyeth in the way that man in his life letteth himselfe be kept or held of Gods anger being the wrath in the out-spoken or expressed Mercury according to the fiery Property of the Father 21. Deare Brother here lyeth the wicked Childe learne but to know what God Almighty is in Love and Anger and how Man is even that same Being and an Image out of the Eternall Spirit 22. Doe not say God willeth the evill he cannot will or desire any thing that is evill according to the property in which he is called God but if I should call this property Viz. of Anger God then I call Hell Heaven darknesse light and the Devill an Angell 23. True all belong unto God or all is Gods yet God is onely understood in the Source or working property of the love of the light the Anger is in his light a cause of the love-desire and of the Kingdome of joy 24. When the soule bringeth its fire desire out of its owne selfe-will into the Love-desire of God and goeth out of its owne selfenesse aud sinketh into the mercy and compassion of God and casteth it selfe into the death of Christ and willeth no longer the fire-source but desireth in its fire life to be dead in the death of Christ then the poyson of the Mercuriall life dyeth in the will of iniquity and there ariseth a new twigge and budding of love-desire 25. Loving Sir and Brother know that I write not as one blind or dumbe without knowledge I have my selfe found it by Experience I have beene as deepe in your opinion as your selfe yet my Saviour hath opened my eyes that I see I doe not see in my owne ability or power but in his as he knoweth me in himselfe and he will see and I wish with all my heart that you might have an insight into my seeing and that you might see with me out of my seeing I would willingly impart my heart and love to you for a propriety and looke through this glasse out of you 26. But I perceive that I am as yet dumbe unto you and that I am not as yet knowne to you in my knowledge which is given me and I wish from my heart that it may yet once be 27. I intreat and exhort you as a Christian in all humility that you would but gather your Objections together and send them to me in Writing I will deale according to my gifts as a Christian ought and I will declare and explaine them in such a manner that I hope you shall acknowledge me as a Brother in it 28 Not that I presume to doe it from my selfe but my desire which burnes in me like fire requires it of you and I as I am I hope to God that we shall both so prosper in it that God will unite us in his love-desire and knowledge and it shall not prejudice you at all with scorne or disgrace for I have a heart that can conceale Secresie 29. I exhort you in love to a filiall humility in the true Resignation of Christ therein you may be able onely to obtaine and comprehend it otherwise my well-wishing good intent and beginning is to no purpose for I can give you nothing but my good affection and charitable will if you will accept of it 't is well If not I protest and testifie before you and the face of GOD that I have begun my christian devoir aright towards you and in you I have done my part as I am bound in Conscience to doe 30. I may come to see you my selfe if my affaires will permit provided that it may conduce to Gods Honour and mans Salvation for I know many thirsty soules thereabouts with whom I might refresh my selfe and they in me 31. I have at present found a very pretious Jewell which might be profitable not onely for the soule but for the body and good for your Patients 32. If men would labour in Christs vineyard God might even now give us such a sunshine which might warme the Apothecaries shop of which many honest People have beene a long time desirous which sun-shine would boldly dispell the smoak in Babel and be a refreshment to the Children of Christ in their Oppression Misery and Tribulation 33. But in truth because men will be so Wicked and Godlesse there shall be an horrible storme of hail and rain at which the Earth shall quake and many thousand soules be drowned in the water 34. I would gladly heere mention somewhat unto you but at this time it cannot be be pleased to take notice of the storme towards the East that towards the North is not far from it in the South there is a great smoak that causeth the eyes of those in the West to smart 35 Let no man say when the storme passeth by that this man or that man is righteous before God it shall goe well with him because of his Religion the anger of God is enkindled in all and they are all alike unto him for all their Religion as long as the one liveth like the other 36. The most High sweepeth out one besom with another but there springeth up a Lilly unto all nations happy are those that apprehend the same 37. The thirsty soul must not say the Lord hath forsaken mee he hath forgotten me as little can God forget as a Mother can forget her child and albeit shee should forget yet the Lord hath not forgotten his poor
regeneration of a new life and will and there it may attaine the sweet blood of Jesus Christ which in Christ did disclose or break open the gate of death and changed the anger of God in our humanity in himselfe into love wherein the poore captive soule drinketh out of Gods fountaine and doth allay and sweeten its fire-breath whence the new Paradisicall budd springeth forth and there the hunger and desire of the soule is made substantiall and essentiall in the blood of Christ after an Heavenly manner 15. Now as the disclosing of death must be done in the person of Christ himselfe in our soule and humanity so that the eternity in Christ wherewith he was come from heaven and was also in heaven John 3. overcame the time Viz. the life and will of the time and did change time with its will into the eternall will of the Deity and all this must be brought to passe in our received humanity So likewise the desire of our soule must receive into it selfe that same eternall will in Christ wherein time and eternity stand in equall agreement and harmony and through the power of the same immerse or cast it selfe into the adoption of free grace in Christ that the same inward Paradisicall ground which dyed in Adam might again spring forth in the will of the obedience of Christ through his heavenly and from us assumed humane blood 16. The atonement and expiation must be made manifest and experimentall in our selves through that atonement which Christ once made indeed the atonement and reconciliation was once fully finished and brought to passe in Christs blood and death but that which was once wrought in Christ must also worke in me it must even Now also through Christs shedding of his blood be brought to passe in me Christ also doth powre forth his heavenly blood into the desire of Faitâ— in my poore soule and tinctureth the anger of God which is therein that the first Adamicall Image of God may againe appeare and become seeing hearing feeling tasting and smelling 17. For that same Image which dyed in Adam from the heavenly Worlds Essence being the true Paradisicall Image dwelleth not in the foure Elements its essence and life standeth not in this world but in Heaven which is manifest in Christ in us Viz. in that one pure holy Element whence the foure Elements sprung forth in the beginning of time and this same inward new spirituall man eateth Christs flesh and blood for he is and liveth in Christ Christ is his stock and he is a branch on the stock 18. For every spirit eateth of that whereof it taketh its Originall the Animall sensuall mortall soule eateth of the spirit of this World of the Stars and Elements of the Kingdome of the World but the true eternall soule which was inspired out of the Eternall Word into man being Divine life eateth also of its Mother Viz. of the holyessentiall Word of God 19. But seeing it was impossible for her after her owne departure and separation from God in her excluded condition property and spirit to eate of the Divine Word and live in the holy Element of love and humility therefore this same Word of life being its true Mother came forth to the abandoned soule into the vaâ—e of misery and into the prison of Hell and infused his heavenly Essence into our humane to be as a body for the soule and therewith did imbrace and cloath our poore soule being captive and did open againe her heavenly mouth afore dead in the anger of God with the tincture of love so that the poore soule can now againe eate heavenly Manna the eating whereof was tryed in Christs person with the humanity which he received from us in the temptation of Christ in the Wildernesse where Adam in Christ did againe eate Manna from Paradise fourty dayes 20. Therefore I say that by a shew and select forme of grace appropriated and imputed from without none commeth to be a true Christian for if he be so his sinnes are not forgiven him by once speaking of a word or appropriating a forme or promise of absolution to himselfe from without as a Lord or Prince in this World doth freely give a Malefactor his life by an externall imputed favour no this availeth nothing before God 21. There is no grace or favour wherby we come to the adoption save onely in the blood and death of Christ him alone God hath fore ordained and appointed to be unto him a throne of grace or propiciation in his owne love which he hath in the Sweet Name Jesu out of Jehovah infused into him He is that onely Sacrifice that God accepteth of to reconcile hiâ—â—nger 22. Now if this Sacrifice or free offering of grace shall doe me good then it must be wrought and brought to passe in me the Father must beget or impresse his Sonne in the desire of my Faith so that the hunger of my Faith may lay hold and comprehend him and if the hunger of my soules Faith doth comprehend him in his promised Word then I put him on in his whole processe of justification in my inward ground and forthwith the mortification and killing of the anger Devill Death and Hell beginneth and goeth forward from the power of Christs death in me 23. For I can do nothing I am dead to my selfe but Christ doth it in me when he ariseth in me then I am dead to my selfe in respect of the true man he is my life and in that I live I live to him not to my selfehood for grace mortifieth my own will and setteth it self up for a Lord in the place of my selfenesse that so I may be an instrument of God who doth therewith what he pleaseth 24. And then I live in two Kingdomes Viz. with my newborne spirit of life or spirituall man in Paradise in the Kingdome of Heaven in the inward spirituall World and with the outward mortall man in the vanity of time in the Kingdome of this World in the dominion of the Starres and Elements in the contrariety and malignant discord of the properties wherein the yoake of sinne yet liveth this Christ taketh upon himselfe in the inward Kingdome of the Divine World and helpeth my soule to beare it 25. For the yoak of this World is Christs burthen which he must beare untill he shall againe deliver up the Kingdome to his Father which he hath given him for he sayd All power in Heaven and Earth is given to me of my Father so also this burthen or charge is layd upon him that he should beare Gods Anger Hell death and all Evill in us as Isaiah saith Hee tooke on him our diseases and carryed our sorrows but we esteemed him stricken smitten of God and afflicted 26. And hence it is that a Christian must be a bearer of the crosse for so soone as Christ is borne in him the assaulting of Hell and the anger of God in the eternall
that day that thou eatest of the Tree of the knowledge of good and evill thou shalt dye the death That is thou shalt dye to the Kingdome of God as it also came to passe 66. And we must really imagine to our selves that this Bestiall false desire in man is the Monster of the Serpent and an enmity against God and the Kingdome of Heaven and that we therein are onely the children of Hell and of the Anger of God and cannot therein inherite or possesse the Kingdome of God neither is God manifest in any such desire but onely his anger and the property of the darke and earthly World and we live therein onely to the vanity of this World and stand therewith onely upon the abysse of the darke World and the anger of God that is of Hell which continually gapeth and hungereth after these propertyes and counteth these propertyes its owne fruits and children which it shall reape and take into its Barne for they doe belong unto it by the right of nature for these desires are all originally from it and have their roote in the ground of Hell and destruction and indeed no where else 67. Therefore sayd Christ Vnlesse a man be borne anew hee shall not see the Kingdome of God All these false wills and desires are predestinated to damnation if any will see God he must bee converted and become as a child and be new borne in the holy Ghost through the water of eternall life Viz. through the heavenly Ens which God hath revealed in Christ that the first right man which dyed in Adam proceeding from the heavenly Worlds Essence might againe spring forth in Christ and become living 68. All these evill Beasts are condemned and must dye in us and though their desire doth somewhat cleave and stick unto us in the flesh yet they must all be mortyfied during this life time in the soule Viz. In the inward ground and the inward ground of the soule must be Tinctured by the true Tincture in the blood of Christ that the propertyes of the internall Ground may againe live in harmony and concord for otherwise they cannot reach the Deity in themselves 69. Now when man knoweth this he cannot better be rid of his evill beastiall desires then that be presently at the same instant bring himselfe with his whole strength into such a strong will and earnest purpose that he for time to come will hate and abandon thâ—se evill beasts of the Devill seeing they are onely the Devils servants and that he will returne into his lost countrey into the adoption and atonement and esteeme and looke upon himselfe no otherwise then as the lost Swineheard or the prodigall Sonne for he himselfe is the lost Swineheard and no whit better and forthwith approach with the conversion of his soule to the Father in deepest humility with acknowledgement of his unworthinesse in that he hath so shamefully and unworthily mis-spent and mis-improved the free inheritance of Christs merits and so enter into repentance 70. Let him with all his strength give up his earnest will thereunto that he from this very time forward will repent and amend and no longer love these evill Beasts but this must be in earnest in reall sincerity without delayes and not to thinke of a day weeke or yeare but his minde must utterly and continually condemne them to the damnation of death and not will to love them any more but count them enemyes and so resolve to turne himselfe to the mercy and grace of God 71. When this is done I speake as I have highly knowne it in the precious light of grace that then he may turne himselfe to earnest praying in humility and beseech God for grace and though his heart saith utterly no and the Devill sayth stay yet a while it is not now good and convenient thou wilt have better opportunity to morrow and when to morrow commeth then sayth he againe to morrow and suggesteth to the flesh saying Thou must first doe this or that gather first a treasure for thy selfe that thou mayst not need the World and then enter into such a life yet I say the minde must remaine firme and stedfast in its purpose and thinke with it felse these suggestions and thoughts are mine evill hungry Beasts these I will kill and drowne them in the blood of Christs love none of them shall live any longer in me I will have no more to doe with them I am now in the way to my ancient Father who haâ—h sent his Son to me in my misery and distresse saying Come to me all yee that are weary grieved or heavy laden with sinnes and I will refresh you My Father will give the holy spirit to them that aske him for it 72. Let him imagine and impresse this into his very heart and come with the lost Sonne to the Father and when the Father shall see that the minde of the soule is directed to him and would wilâ—ingly and unfeignedly turne and yet cannot then he will presently meet him and claspe the soule into the armes of his drawing and bring her into the passion and death of Christ where shee through earnest repentance and sorrow will dye from or nâ—rtifie those abominable Beasts and arise out of the death of Chrâ—â— with a new will and a true Divine desire and so he will begin then to be another man indeed and not a whit esteeme that which before he loved and held for his Treasure and it will be to him as if hee had it and also had it not and afterwards he will account himselfe in all his power ability and possessions but as a servant and Steward of God 73. For so soone as he is able to master and overcome the proud Lucifer of Pride all the other evill Beasts will grow weak and faint and lose their â—uling power and dominion although they yet live in this life time in the earthly flesh yet they are onely as an Asse which must carry the Sack or as a mad Dog in a chaine their strength is broken 74. For when Christ riseth Lucifer must lye captive and if there be an earnest full perseverance such a precious Jewell would follow as this Pen cannot here describe and those alone know who have been at the heavenly Mariage where the noble Sophia is espoused to the soule concerning which Christ sayd That there is greater joy in Heaven ever one sinner that repenteth then over ninety nine righteous Which joy is kept also in the heaven of man in this espousall or marriage this is understood by our Schoole-fellowes 75. Deare Sir and Christian fellow-brother I thought it good Christianly and sincerely meaning well unto you to put you in minde of this and to lay it forth out of my little Treasury in a child-like simplicity not intending thereby to shew and set forth my Selfe but out of a true and hearty desire wishing that this might be felt also in your heart and
Unity and seeke the Lord and no more fight and destroy our selves we will be content are we not here altogether Pilgrims and Strangers and seek our native Countrey 31. In this time a Zyon verily shall be found and the Heaven shall drop downe its dew and the Earth yeeld her fatnesse yet not so as if wickednesse should be wholly done away for it shall continue unto the end of which Christ saith Thinkest thou that when the Sonne of man shall come that there will be Faith upon the Earth And though the Children of Zyon shall have a fiery deliverance that they shall remaine Maugre the will of the Devill insomuch that God will worke great things as at the time of the Apostles yet it endureth not unto the end for as it was in the dayes of Noah when he entred into the Arke so shall the comming of the Son of man be as it is written 32. But that the holy Ghost shall be in the hearts of the faithfull in Zyon I acknowledge I know it for Zyon shall not be from without but in the new man it is already borne hee that would seeke it let him but seeke himselfe and depart from the old Adam into a new life and hee shall finde whether Jesus bee borne in him 33. If he findes it not let him enter into himselfe and seriously consider himselfe and so he shall finde Babel and her workings in him these he must destroy and enter into Gods Covenant and then Zion will be revealed in him and he shall be born with Christ in Bethleem Jehuda in the darke Stable not in Jerusalem as reason faine would have it that Christ should be born in the old Asse the old Asse must become servant and serve the new man in Zion 34. But that in Foure hundred yeares there shall be a meer golden Age I know nothing of it it is not revealed to mee also the limit of the Worlds End is not revealed to me I cannot speake of any four hundred Yeares for the Lord hath not commanded me to teach it I commend it to Gods might and leave it for those to whome God would vouchsafe the knowledg of it seeing therefore I have not as yet apprehended it I rest satisfyed in his gifts yet I despise no man if he had a knowledge and command so to teach 35. For the fourth Book of Esdras is not sufficient as I understand to give a positive assurance to it yet I wait for my Saviour Jesus Christ and rejoyce that I may finde my Lord when I have him then I hope after the death of my old Adam fully to recreate my selfe in the Still rest of Zion and to wait in my God expecting what he will doe with me in his and my Zion for if I have but him then I am in and with him in the Eternall Sabbath where no strife or contention of the ungodly can any more reach me in my New man at this I doe in the meane time rejoyce in this miserable Vale of Tabernacles 36. The first resurrection of the dead to the thousand yeares Sabbath of which there is mention in the Revelation is not sufficiently made knowne to me how the same may be meant seeing the Scripture doth not mention it elsewhere and Christ also and his Apostles give not an hint of it in other places save only John in his Revelation but whether they shall be a thousand Solar yeares or how it may be referred seeing I have not full assurance I leave it to my God and to those to whom God shall vouchsafe the right understanding of it till God is pleased to open my eyes concerning these Mysteries 37. For they be Secrets and it belongeth not to man to make conclusions about them without the command and light of God but if any had knowledge and illumination of the same from God I should be ready and willing to learne If I could see the ground thereof in the light of nature 38. But seeing it behooveth me not to hide my knowledge of it so farre as I apprehend it in the light of Nature I will therefore set downe some Suppositions or considerable Opinions which are in my minde not positively to affirme but give it to consideration for good and wholesome instructions may be drawne forth thereby and t is also profitable for man so to search I will doe it in all syncere uprightnesse to see if we might attaine somewhat neerer the matter and perhaps there may be some to whom God shall bestow such a gift stirred up thereby to write more clearely 39. As first whether or no it be certaine that the World must continue Seven thousand yeares and one thousand of them should be a meere Sabbath Seeing that God created all in six dayes and began the rest on the sixt day towards evening whence the Jewes begin their Sabbath on Friday evening and Elias also saith that the World should stand but Six thousand yeares and Christ likewise declareth that the dayes of tribulation shall be shortned for the Elects sake else no man should be saved which you apply to the fall of Babel and to the time of Zyon but it seemes as if Christ spâ—ke of the fall of the Jewes and the end of the World and foresheweth an evill End 40. Also Christ saith that it shall be at the time of his comming to judgement as it was in the dayes of Noah where men did Marry and were given in Marriage now we know very well as the Scripture testifieth what manner of wicked World was in the days of Noah that the Deluge must come and destroy them This would intimate and denote a very meane Sabbath 41. And though a man should otherwise expound the words of Christ concerning his comming yet that would not be sufficient to prove it being also that the Disciples of Christ doe alwayes represent the End to be nigh and Paul saith That the end should come after that Antichrist is revealed 42. But that the Resurrection of the dead and the last Judgement should be understood of both namely that the righteous shall arise to the thousand yeares Sabbath and among them some ungodly and that Gog and Magog at the End of the thousand yeares should fight against the Saints it seemes to run quite contrary to the light of Nature 43. For first I cannot apprehend how the first Resurrection must come to passe seeing the Saints shall have their workes follow them according to the words of the spirit besides wee know very well that all our workes are sowne into the great Mystery that they are first brought forth into the foure Elements and so passe into the Mystery and are reserved to the judgement of God where all things shall be tryed by fire and that which is false shall consume in the fire and the figures shall fall unto the Centre of Nature Viz. the darke Eternity 44. But if mens workes shall follow them in the first
be found in the History but in true affiance and in the right resignation into the life and into the Doctrine of Christ Therein the holy Ghost shall appeare with wonders and powers which Babel at present in her inventions forged hypocrisies doth not beleeve yet however it certainely commeth and is already on foot yet hidden from the World 18. I have sent you by Mr. Fabian the whole worke of the Second Booke but I know not whether you have received it for since that time by reason of my Journey I have not spoken with Mr. Fabian if not then you may demand it of him And so I commit you to the meeke Love in the life of Jesus Christ the Sonne of God Given in haste Goerlits Friday before the Advent 1619. The Name of the LORD is a Strong Tower the Righteous flye unto it and is exalted THE SEVEN AND TWENTIETH EPISTLE TO CHARLES of ENDERN 1. NOBLE Right Honourable Sir my humble ready and willing Service with all Cordiall wishes of Gods love and grace to your new creature in the New man in the body of Jesus Christ as also all temporall prosperity and blessing for the earthly body premised 2. I have considered your Noble heart and minde which is enkindled and enflamed not onely towards God but likewise towards his Children in love which hath exceedingly rejoyced me in Christ and I must in a speciall manner consider of the true earnestnesse and zeale which I know and acknowledge for you have endeavoured much about my few Writings of the first part and not regarded the murthering or confounding cryes of the Oppressour but sought after it your selfe to read it and to copy it out with your owne hand 3. Which give mee perswasion that God hath opened a little gate of his wisedome unto you which was fast shut to the Oppressor being he sought for it in Art and Pride therefore it was concealed to him for he was offended at the hand of the Writer and did not minde what is written in the holy Scripture My power is mighty in the weake and how Christ thanked his Father that he had hid it from the prudent and wise and revealed it unto Babes And sayd further Yea further For so it hath pleased thee 4. Also I am verily perswaded and convinced in my spirit that you have not done it out of any Curiosity but as it becommeth the Children of God which seeke the precious Pearle and are desirous of it which if it be found is the most precious Jewell which man loveth farre beyond his earthly life for it is greater then the World and more faire beautifull and excellent then the Sun it rejoyceth Man in tribulation and begets him out of darknesse to the light it giveth him a certaine spirit of hope in God and leadeth him upon the right path and goeth along with him into death and brings him forth to life out of death it quelleth the anguish of Hell and it is very where his light it is Gods friend in his love it affordeth him Reason and Discretion to governe his earthly body it leadeth him from the false and evill way and whosoever doth obtaine and keep it him it Crowneth with its Garland 5. Therefore noble Sir I have no other cause to write unto you but from a desire of unseighned love towards the Children of God that I might but refresh and recreate my selfe with them I doe it not for temporall goods or gifts albeit you have tendred your kind and loving favours to me though a stranger in a curteous and friendly manner but for the hope of Jsrael that I may highly rejoyce with the Children of God in the life to come and my labour which here I undergoe in love towards them shall then be well recompensed when I shall so rejoyce with my Brethren and every ones work shall follow him 6. Therefore I am in right earnest being that a Sparkle of the pretious Pearl is given to me and Christ faithfully warneth us not to put it under the table or to bury it in the Earth and thereupon we ought not so much to feare man that can kill the body onely and then is able to doe no more but we ought to feare him that can destroy body and soule and cast them into Hell 7. And though in my time I shall receive but little thankes from some who love their Belly more then the Kingdome of Heaven yet my Writings have their gifts and stand for their time for they have a very pretious worthy earnest Birth and descent and when I consider my selfe in my poor low unlearned and simple person I doe then wonder more then my very adversary 8. But seeing I know Experimentally in power and light that it is a meer gift of God who also giveth me a driving will thereunto that I must write what I know and see therefore I will obey God rather then man least my Office and Stewardship be taken away from me againe and given unto another which would Eternally grieve me 9. But seeing Sir that you have obtained a longing and delight to read the same and that as I verily hope from the providence and appointment of God therefore I shall not conceale it from you seeing that God the most High hath called you through his wonderfull Counsell to publish the first Worke when I thought the Oppressour had devoured it but even then it sprung forth as a green Twig wholly unknowne to me 10. And though I know nothing of my Selfe what God is about to doe and his Counsell and way also which he will goe is hidden from me and I can say nothing of my selfe also the Oppressour might impute it to me for a Pedentick Pride that I would thus onely arrogantly vaunt with my small gifts which were of grace given to me and thereby set forth the thoughts and imaginations of my heart for my owne vaine glory and boasting 11. Yet I declare in the presence of God and testifie it before his judgement where all things shall appeare and every one shall give an account of his doings that I my selfe know not what is hapned to me or how it goeth with me save onely that I have a driving will 12. Also I know not what I shall write for when I write the Spirit doth Dictate the same to me in great wonderfull knowledge so that I often cannot tell whether I as to my Spirit am in this World or no and thereat I doe exceedingly rejoyce and therein sure and certaine knowledge is imparted to me 13. And the more I seeke the more I finde and alwayes deeper that I many times account my sinfull person too weake and unworthy to set upon such high Mysteries where then the spirit sets up my Banner and sayth Arise thou shalt live therein Eternally and be Crowned therewith Why art thou amazed 14. Therefore Noble Sir I give you to understand in few words the ground and cause