when thy poor Soul is sick of Sin hath wounds of the Spirit is stript of its Innocence and starved for Grace no Regard is given thereunto not considering that though thou usest humane Helps yet it is God that gives the Blessing and is the Phisitian both of Soul and Body That Soul which acts the Part of a faithful Servant to the Lord shall have a double Reward the Crown of a Saint and of a Sufferer The Soul is Spiritual but Sin makes it Carnal the Soul is Immortal sin is the Death of the Soul and being contaminated therewith it makes us die unto Grace and to live in Grief the Soul is noble but sin makes it ignobleâ— the Soul is Lord but sin inslaves it the Soul is Soveraign sin brings it into subjection the Soul is God-like sin makes it beastial the Soul is the Spouse of God sin makes it the Strumpet of the Devil the Soul is the Jewel of God sin casts it into the Devils Fire the Soul is a Free-born Citizen of Heaven sin keeps it in perpetual Imprisonment the Soul is Gods Purchase sin cheats God of his due and the Soul of Eternal Bliss Wouldst thou be truely perfect Love God with all thy Heart and thy Neighbour as thy self Let thine Eye be always upon God and thy self and thou shalt never see him without Goodness nor thy self without Miseryâ— none shall see God so much as he is visible neither shall any love God so much as he is amiable He that doth not covet to love God more and more can never love him enough to whom God is all in all the World and all the Delights of it ought to be nothing at all Let us be what God will so we be but his and let us not be what we will our selves against the Will of God In the Service of God there is nothing little enough to be rejected And to meditate much upon God is good but the Souls great Advancement is Vertue and it consists in much loving of him he to whom alone is pleasing is displeased at nothing but that which displeaseth God in Divine Matters a generous Soul finds greatest Contentment in believing things most difficult all our Actions take their value from their Conformity to the Will of God Love and Suffering are the greatest Duties we owe to God they being the two Causes for which he dyed for us he that neglects his own Will complies best with Gods Will. So love thy Neighbour here upon Earth as thou mayst enjoy his Love in Heaven thou canst not love thy Neighbour too much but thou mayst make too much shew of thy Love to him one great Argument of our Love to our Neighbour is to bear with his Imperfections we should never endure to hear any more evil spoken of him than of our selves we should never undervalue any Person the Workman loveth not that his Work should be despised in his Presence especially wherefore beware for God is present every where and every Man and Woman in the World are his Work It is a Spiritual Injustice to desire co know the Secrets of others and to conceal our own We ought not to love our Neighbour only because he is good or because we hope he will be so but because God hath commanded us so to do In holy Duties we should speak little think much and do more it is a great evil not to do good the Just man never dies unprepared for he is prepared for Death who perseveres in Justice to the End Confidence in an unfaithful man in time of trouble is like a brooken Tooth or a Foot out of Joynt as he that taketh away a Garment in cold weather and as Vinegar is upon Nitre so is he that singeth Songs to one that hath a heavy Heart it is no shame to be poor though some count it acrime Nature brought us so into the World and so we must return dost thou want things that are necessary grumble not perchance it was necessary thou shouldst want them however if thou seekest them let it be by a lawful Remedy or Meanes If God do not bless thy Endeavours yet do thou bless him that knoweth what is best for thee Thou art God's Patient prescribe not to thy Physiâ—ian art thou caluminated examine thy own Conscience if thou findest it spotted thou hast a just Correction if not guilty thou hast a very fair Instruction use both and so shalt thou distill Honey out of Gall and make to thy self a secret Friend of an open Enemy if thy Enemy be hungry give him Bread if thirsty give him Drink thou thereby shalt heap Coals of Fire upon his Head and a Reward into thy own bosom Charity makes God our Debtor for the Poor are his Receivers Hast thou an Estate wouldst increase it devide thy Riches to the Poor these Seeds that are scattered do bring forth their Increase but such as are hoarded up they dye Correction without Instruction makes the Master a Tyrant and the Servant a Novice That man is a compleat Conquerour that can subdue his own Passions faithful are the wounds of a Friend but the Kisses of an Enemy are deceitful Arm thy self against a profest Adversary but he that dissembleth Frindship strikes beyond a Caution and wounds above a Cure from the one thou mayst deliver thy self but from the other Good Lord deliver thee A man that flatttreth his Neighbour spreadeth a Net for his feet the Touchstone tryeth Gold and Gold tryeth Men virtue must be the guide of all Qualities otherwise the Professors thereof are undone As the Servants of God are known by their two Vertues Humiliation and Charity so the Servants of the Devil are known by their opposite Vices Pride and Cruelty The best way to keep good Acts in memory is to refresh them with new ones to boast is but vain since the greatest Conquerour is but the measure of his own shadow and shall find it no longer than it was before his Victory believe not Soothsayers for Prophecies are never understood till they are accomplished The World is a wide Prison and every Day is an Execution day our Stomacks are very common Sepulchres of Birds Beasts Fish they all die to feed us Lord with how many Deaths are our Lives patcht up and how full of Death is the whole Life of Man beware of too much Drink where Drunkenness is and doth reign Reason is banished into Exile Vertue is made a Stranger and God himself is become an Enemy Blaspemies are accounted Wit and Oaths are Rhetorick and Secrets are made open Proclamations Whosoever will arrive at a new Life must pass by the old Death of the old he that is truly humbled never thinks himself wronged the good Man is well contented with a moderate Estate not so much taking notice of those that have more as those that have less in this World than himself He that most mortifies his natural Inclinations receiveth most Spiritual Inspirations to shun the accidental Troubles
of this Life is to meditate often upon Eternity It 's the great misfortune of man to desire those things which he should only use To have a desire not to be poor to receive the Inconveniences of it is too great Ambition for it is to desire the Honour of Poverty the Commodity of Wealth There is no way happily to end a true Spiritual Life better than dayly to begin it He that would have a Part with Jesus glorified must first take part with Christ crucified we should live in this present Evil World as if our Souls were in Heaven and our Bodies in the Grave In the death of our Passions consists the Life of our Souls It is not Humility to acknowledge our selves miserable that is only to be a Beast but it is Humility to desire that others should esteem us so There is no reason to be given for the Fault we commit in Sin for the Fault would not be Sin if it were not against Reason Vertues have not their full Growth but when they have Desires to bring forth Advantage which like Spiritual Seeds serve to bring forth and produce new degrees of Virtues We should never speak of God or the Things which concern his Service carelesly or by way of Common Discourse or Entertainment but always with a great respect and humble mind We should fear the Judgments of God without Discouragement and encourage our selves without Presumption The ready way for the Soul to have Peace with its self is to obtain his Peace with God we may perform many Holy Actions and yet not please God if we neglect to do what he requires of us no more than a Painter in representing an Eagle pleaseth him that desired a Bee Let us never look on our Crosses but through the Cross of Jesus Christ thereby we shall find them pleasant and have fresh Desires to be afflicted Desire to obtain the Love of God makes us to meditate but that Love once obtained makes us contemplate The Fear of the Lord is the Beginning of Wisdom and the Price of Wisdom is above Rubies Oh let my Prayers be set before thee as Incense and the lifting up of my Hands be as the Evening Sacrifice O Lord my Strength and most mighty Redeemer Oh my Soul What fearful tremblings are these that have seized upon thee now So that the Thoughts of God that have been and ought to be thy greatest Comforts are now become thy Amazement Whence is this miserable Altaration that thou must behold nothing but Judgment in the Father of Mercies and Anger in the Fountain of Love What hath provoked him that delights to spare to be resolved to punish Surely my Sins are very many for it is not a few that will insense him and they have more than ordinary Aggravations for he is not so highly displeased at small Offences and certainly I have often committed them and long continued in them for he begins not to frown upon the first Misdemeanour Alas Alas the Cause is too apparent my Sins are both very many and exceeding great frequently repeated with heynous Circumstances and of long continuance I have despised Mercy now am like to feel Judgment most miserable Wreth that I am I have tired out the Patience of a long-suffering Father and have run away from the Embraces of a Loving Saviour and have rejected the Offers of a most indulgent Holy Spirit so that now I fear I have stopt up the Fountain of his Mercy and unsealed the Treasure of his Vengeance and I ought to wonder how God could spare me so long then why he should strike me now since many have been cut off for fewer and lesser sins I see that I have deserved most justly to suffer the worst of Evils And therefore shall esteem it an incomparable Favour to be only corrected with Temporal Afflictions if I might be so excused but it is a fearful thing to fall into the Hands of the Living God Therefore O Lord my Flesh trembleth for very Fear of thee and I am afraid of thy most heavy Judgments yet I know no way to escape them To deny my Sins were great Impudence and to Excuse them will be Apparent Hypocrisy and to be concealed is impossible to be found intollerable I am miserably confounded but was never any in this sad Case before that I might receive some Advice and Comfort from them Yes surely the Church hath presented me with a King and a Prophet both dear to God whose Fears were greater though their Sins were less and their danger not so great as mine Yet these in the midst of their Fear considered their Sins as the only Cause of their Evils and accordingly they freely confessed them bitterly lamented and exceedingly humbled themselves for them not striving so much to avoid them in the Punishment as to obtain the Pardon of their Offences knowing that the guilt once removed thou wouldst totally spare them or gently chastise them for their good where they rendred themselves up into thy Hands rather aggravating than extenuating their Sins and yet humbly begging that they might be corrected in Mercy and they found the Benefit of it Go to then O my Soul and do thou likewise thou hast occasioned Gods Wrath by the Breach of his most holy Laws O do not increase it by mistrusting the blessed Gospel thou hast forsaken him by Sin do not run from him by Despair for the faster that thou runnest from his Mercy the sooner thou shalt be sure to meet with his Justice delay no longer but go in before he sends for thee accuse thy self before thou art Indicted and confess thy Sins freely before the Witnesses be called out against thee pass sentence on thy self before the Judge come to condemn thee I cannot expect wholly to escape but it will be a great Favour if I meet only with a Sickness instead of Death Losses in my Estate instead of loosing my God and my Soul both for ever I will not therefore desire my Heavenly Father altogether to lay aside his Rod but only to use it genâ—ly that I may by this smart be warn'd against those future sins that would bring me to utter Ruine O Lord rather chastise me than dis-inherit me and those Stripes shall be welcome which come in an exchange for Eternal Torments For thou who dost change thy Sword into a Rod I hope will be so compassionate in thy Afflictions that I shall only feel what my destempered Soul needs to recover it and my Flesh and Spirit cannot bear not what my Sins deserve and thy Justice might exact wherefore I will no longer hide my sins but by an humble hearty Confession will declare that I hate them more than I fear to fall into thy most merciful Hands and I hope hereafter that I shall so fear to offend that I shall be freed from those sad Expectations of thy heavy Wrath which Wisdom God grant me for my Saviour Jesus Christ's Sake He that hath
Prison Thoughts WRITTEN BY Thō Browning CITIYEN AND COOK OF LONDON Who hath been a PRISONER in Ludgate ever since the Twelveth day of August 1680. Dum Spiro Spero in Deum Adjutorem meum London Printed and are to be Sold by the Author in Ludgate who is still a Prisoner there Anno 1682. To the Worshipful Geo. Dashwood Esq Dame Margeret his Wife the Lady Elizabeth Hare their Daughter John Pery Esq Mrs. Katherine Browning my Wife where ever she is and to all that are related to their Families Grace and Peace NOtwithstanding my many great Troubles I have had some retired Thoughts in my Adolescens which are here brought to publick View and do desire you to Patronize the same If you and others shall find such benefit by reading them as I have done by writing the same my ends are answered Time was when I had no Thoughts of putting my self in Print but Necessitas non habet Legem These are my first Fruits as an Offering to the World which pray accept I do intend another suddenly which perhaps may be more acceptable and sell better than this My weak Endeavours shall not be any whit wanting therein Who am Your Most Humble and Obedient Servant in the Lord Thomas Browning Nosse Teipsum Vivat Rex Curret Lex Floret Grex. Finis Coronat Opus A Coppy of a Letter sent to my Wife My Admiration IN my Fifty Eighth Letter I sent you some Verses and this is my Fifty Ninth where you may find an Epistle which pray peruse It is in vain to expect any Approbation from you having never yet received one Line in Writing from your Hand And perceiving that you are resolved neither to see nor send to me I do think that this may be the last time that I may trouble you in Writing only remember that you have abused neglected slighted and robbed a most Indulgent and loving Husband for which I pray God to give you a hearty Repentance before it be too late and there be no meanes left to help your self as likewise all those who have unlawfully and very malitiously advised against me without any Cause And if you or they have any Pretences I do hereby dare either to make them known to me or the World assuring that mine shall shortly be made known in Print with as much Severity as Truth will bear who am still you Loving though most Abused Husband Thomas Browning Prison Thoughts c OH despised despised despised rejected rejected rejected and Destroyed by you my own Dear Wife whose Name is Katherine Browning I pitty I pitty I pitty and shall not cease Praying for you Day and Night that you may be converted when you hear of Brownings Death occasioned by your meanes you may shed a tear for him if there be any Grace in you none ought to despise their own Flesh Whom God hath Joyned together let none put ader And if you had not gone from me you might have been Mistriss of our Company they have chosen an old Master this year in my stead Take heed of these dreadful Sentences You that are filthy be filthy still There remains no more Sacrifice for Sin but a fearful looking for of Judgment Fiery Indignation and fierce Anger of the Lord with a Go ye Cursed into Everlasting Fire prepared for Divels and Damn'd Spirits From which Place Good Lord deliver us My Epistle begins Few and evil have been the days of my Pilgrimage I have had for Inheritance the Months of Vanity and painful Nights have been appointed unto me and do know that hereafter is laid up for me a Crown of Righteousiness and not for me only but for all them who love the appearance of the Lord Jesus Therefore all the days of my Life will I wait as a Hireling till my Change shall come For I desire to be Dissolved and to be with Christ and do long to remove out of the Body to dwell with the Lord For I do know that if this Earthly House of my Tabernacle were destroyed I have a Bulilding given of God that is a House not made with Hands but Eternal in the Heavens Therefore I sigh desiring to be cloathed with my House which is from Heaven and I do heartily look for and do hope that in noth ng I shall be ashamed but that with all confidence Christ shall be magnified in my Body whether it be by Life or Death for whither I live it is to the Lord or whether I die it is to the Lord therefore whether I live or die I am the Lords To Him therefore be Praise and Glory for evermore I have fought a good Fight I have kept the Faith and do know in whom I have Believed and am perswaded that he is able to keep that which I have committed to his Charge Against that Day the Lord will quicken my mortal Body and make it like to his own Glorious Body Yea though after my Skin Worms destroy this Body yet I shall see God in my Flesh whom I my self shall see and mine Eyes shall behold and none other for me though my Reins be consumed within me therefore I willingly lay down my Life and commit my Soul unto God as unto my faithful Creator How excellent is thy Mercy O God therefore do I trust under the Shadow of thy Wings O blessed is the man whom thou dost choose and causest to come unto thee he shall dwell in thy Courts and shall be satisfied with the Pleasures of thine House even of thy Holy Temple thou shalt give him drink out of the Rivers of thy Pleasures for with thee is the Well of Life and in thy Light shall we see Light send me therefore thy Light and thy Truth and let thy good Spirit lead me unto the Land of Righteousness Carry me O Lord by thy Mercy and bring me in thy Strength to thy Holy Habitation Plant me in the Mountain of thine Inheritance even in the Place which thou hast prepared and the Sanctuary which thou hast Established that I may see the Goodness of the Lord in the Land of the Living Let me behold thy Face in Righteousness and let me be satisfied with thine Image for in thy Presence is the Fulness of Joy and at thy right Hand are Pleasures for evermore Into thy Hands O Lord I commend my Spirit for thou hast Redeemed it O Lord God of Truth Lord Jesus receive my Spirit The end of the upright man is Peace As many as walk according to this Rule Peace shall be upon them and upon the Israel of God Now unto Him that is able to keep us that we fall not and to present us faultless before the Presence of his Glory with Joy to God only-wise be Glory Majesty Dominion and Power both now and ever ever ever Amen Ludgate The 12th of April 1682. For my most Esteemed Mistriss Katherine Browning These This was sent to her Aunt Madam Margaret Dashwood by the hand of Mr. Joseph Steed her Nephew to
bury And at their Funerals are blith and merry Who groan to serve us thus and die unwilling How can we then live long who live by killing Methinks we should neither eat nor drink But strait to dig our Graves we should bethink For since by their dead Bodies we are fed I wonder all this while we are not dead It is an old said Law yet still in request When Belly is full then Bones would be at rest Well have we fed the Flesh and from Sins Cup Have drunk Iniquity like water up The Creatures we have eaten flead and shorn The Fruits from Earth to feed us we have torn Are we not satisfied Oh sure 't is best That after all we get our Bones to rest And no where can the Flesh true slumber have But in our truest home our homely Grave There we sleep sound there let the Tempests roar The Worlds proud Waves shall dash on us no more W 're all deluded vainly searching ways To make us happy by the length of days For cunningly to make's protract this breath The Gods conceal the happiness of Death We are at home and safe whatever comes Let them fight on we shall not hear their Drums Let those be doted on now love or hate It shall not grieve us though they prove ingrate Yea let them praise or rule we lie aloof Out of their reach our sleep is Cannon proof And we but sleep for as we close our eyes Each night we go to Bed in hopes to rise So do we die for when the Trump doth blow We shall as easily awake we know And as we after sleep our Bodies find More fresh in strength and chearfully inclin'd So after Death our Flesh here dead and dried Shall rise Immortal new and purified If this be true why make we no more hast 'T is time to sleep day fails Night draws on fast Let 's get us home for as the Evening Sun Looking us in the face when day is done Makes us cast longer Shadows so when Death Looks in our face through Age and claims our Breath We cast his shadow long off from our sight Yet may we know right well 't is almost night And when we see night come in frowning Skies What man will not go home if he be wise Here let him come this House is of such fashion The Tenant ne're shall pay for Reparation There shall the Due not wet him Cold not harm him There shall no Summer weather over warm him From thence he 'l find when thither he is gone A private Walk to Heaven for ' mself alone Why do we not then go Are Flesh and Blood The hinderers that clog us from our Good Oh! rie thy self at home and cast off those What wise man ever went to bed in 's Cloaths Shall we that know how after this Life ends An Everlasting one for us attends Grieve to lay down these rags for Earth to keep That we a while may take a nap of Sleep Then were we worse than children for but say That they to morrow shall have Holy-day They 'l streight to bed and put off all Apparel Then cease my Flesh with Heavens Decree to quarrel And with these words reduce thy Thoughts that come He that dies first shall only first go home But when thy Flesh hither to thee prepares Say as when thou goest to bed thy Prayers Since he most oft forgets himself in Death That thinks not of his God that gives him breath Invoke his Mercy e're thy rest thou take For as thou fall'st asleep so shalt thou wake This House of which before we have been telling Is but a sleeping Chamber not a Dwelling For when thou wak'st this House no more shall hold thee But that whereof the blessed Apostle told thee Saying If this our earthly House shall once decay We have a House not made by hands with Clay But in the Heavens Eternal blest is he Whom thou O Lord admittest there to be He 〈…〉 thy Courts shall dwell thy Temples store Shall in thy House fill him for evermore But stay my Soul thou canst not yet come thither Thy Wings are clog'd and thou more strength must gather Mean time till from the Earth thou get'st free scope Even in thy Grave thy Flesh shall rest in Hope Meditations on Sleep THe Night is come like to the Day Depart not thou great God away Let not my sins black as the Night Ecclipse the lustre of thy Light Keep still in my Horizon for to me The Sun makes not the Day but thee Thou whose Nature cannot sleep On my Temples Centinel keep Guard me against those watchful Foes Whose Eyes are open while mine close Let no Dreams my Head infest But such as Jacobs Temples blest Whil'st I do rest my Soul advance And make my rest an holy Trance That I may my rest being wrought Be wak't into some holy thought And with an active vigour run My Course as doth the nimble Sun Sleep is a Death Oh make me try By sleeping what it is to dye And as gently lay my head On my Grave as now my Bed How ere I rest great God let me Awake again at last with thee And thus assur'd behold I lye Securely whether to wake or dye These are my drowzy Days in vain I do now wake to sleep again Oh come that hour when I shall never Sleep no more but wake for ever Thus shall I take leave of the Sun Desiring sleep till th' Resurrection Against Drowziness Permit not sluggish sleep To close your waking Eye Till you with Judgment deep Your dayly Actions try He that his sins as Darlings keeps When he to quiet goes More desperate is than he that sleeps Among his mortal Foes At Night lye down prepar'd to have Thy sleep thy Death thy Bed thy Grave On Patience Patience is the Poor mans Walk Patience is the Dumb mans Talk Patience is the Lame mans Thighs Patience is the Blind mans Eyes Patience is the Poor mans ditty Patience is the Exil'd mans City Patience the sick mans Bed of Down Patience is the Wise man Crown Patience is the live mans Story Patience is the dead mans Glory When your Troubles do controul In Patience possess your Soul FFormerly when I have seriously thought and remembred my Vow in Baptism it hath made me couragious to fight against the World the Flesh and the Devil which hath made me often take up Resolutions that I would scorn to be a Coward but as Fools make a mock at Sin so have I deceived my self by too eager pursuing Worldly Vanities thinking to have found undermoon Comforts till I found my self beset with Snares and that there were bitter things written against me which pierced me with sorrows and I was almost in despair had I not been sustained with these Comforts following which hath since much refreshed me and vanquished the Tempter so that now I do rejoyce in God my Saviour and the Lord hath thus spoken Oh my Beloved why fearest
and turn to dust then after Death there is no Repentance this is the Opportunity of Life the Day of Grace and Salvation which if neglected I can never have another it is therefore of everlasting Concernment to improve the present Opportunity because it is appointed for all Men and Women once to dye and then to Judgment and as Death leaves Judgment will find as the Tree falls so it lies there is neither Desire nor Invention in the Grave where I am going O Lord thou hast been very merciful to preserve me in the Calamities of Fire and hast wonderfully Protected and Provided for me ever since and thou hast been merciful to me indeed to preserve me against my own Will. I am a Living Monument of thy Mercies a Brand snatcht out of the Burning Flame thou hast given me my Life for a Prey and I have not lived to thy Praise but like a Vile Wretched Vuworthy and most Vngrateful Creature I have sinned against thee both in Thought Word and Deed. The Sins of my Thoughts have been more than I can think those of my Words more than I am able to express and the Sins of my Deeds have been innumerable my Life hath been an Act of open Rebellion against thee I am guilty of Sins by Omission Commission Ignorance and Wilful Disobedience Having left undone those Things which I ought to have done and committed those Things whith I ought not to have done I have sinned against Heaven Thee my Relations and against the Motions of thy Blessed Spirit having made a Shew of Godliness I have denyed the Power of it and have called upon the Name of Christ but have not departed from Iniquity I have given evil example unto others by living conâ—rary to what I have Professed and have quenched and grieved the Mations of thy Holy Spirit which should have sealed me up unto the day of Redemption I have Committed all Impieties with Greediness and have aggravated my Transgressions with hanious Circumstances for I have sinned not only against the Law but against the Gospel not only Ignorantly but Wilfully and very presumptiously against the Checks of my Conscience and the Light of Nature insomuch that my own Heart doth condemn me and thou art greater knowing all Things I have abused thy Mercies despised thy Judgments and turned thy very Graces into Wantonness insomuch that my Iniquities are gone over my Head and my Sins have covered me I have nothing to plead for my self but Guilty Guilty Guilty of the Breach of all thy most Holy and Righteous Laws I have forfited my Right to all that is Good have made my self liable to all Evils both Temporal Spiritual and Eternal it is even a Miracle of Mercy that I had not long ago been taken off in my Sin and for my Sins and have been made so Hellfull as I have been sinful and have had my Portion given me with Hyppocrites Vnbelievers and those that loveth and maketh a Lye in that Lake which burns with Fire and Brimstone there to be tormented with Devils and Damned Spirits for evermore that instead of praying unto thee and calling on thy Nâ—â—e in Mercy I am not howling amongst the Damn'd in an irrecoverable State that thy Patience is not ended toward me and the Dâ—or of Grace shut everlastingly against me thou mightest justly long ago have said unto me I would have healed thee and thou wouldst not I would have Saved thy Soul but thou hast despised my Salvation I would have made thee happy and thou hast refused therefore thou that art filthy be filthy stâ—ll there remains no more Sacrifice for Sin but a fearful looking for of Judgment Fiery Indignation and the Fierce Anger of the Lord the Most Mighty God therefore go thou Cursed into Everlasting Fire prepared for the Devils and their Angels It had been but just with thee O Lord thus to have dealt by me and thou mightest have Glorified thy Justice in my Just Condemnation and Eternal Damnation but there is Mercy with thee that thou mayst be feared and thy tender Mercies are over all thy Works and Mercy pleaseth thee it is because thy Compassions fail not that I am not consumed O what shall I say unto thee thou Preserver of Men Whether shall I go or to whom shall I fly 'T is thou alone that hast the words of eternal Life and there is nâ— Name under Heaven by whom I can be Saved but by the Name of Jesus Christ and 't is against thee O Father thee O Holy Jesus thee O Holy Blessed Spirit that I have sin'd against the Holy and Blessed Trinity in Vnity and Vnity in Trinity Jesus Christ was wounded for my Transgressions that by his Stripes I 〈◊〉 be healed and I have wounded him afresh by my Sins Tâ—e Chast sement of my Peace hath been upon his Shoulders and he that knew no Sin was made a Curse unto Sin for me that I might be made the Righteonsness of God in him He was pierced thorow with many Sorrows and his precious Side was pierced with a Sphear and his most precious Blood was spilt that my Soul might be Eternally Saved and I have pierced him again by my Sins Jesus was Crucified and dyed the bitter and Cursed Death of the Cross that I might be Blessed and Everlastingly Saved and I have Crucified the Lord of Life afresh have put him to open shame O help me to look upon him whom I have pierced and mourn over him that I may be in bitterness of Spirit and gâ—ieve because I cannot grieve enough for my Sins and because I have grieved the Motions of thy Holy Spirit Oh work in me a hatred of all sin which is the cause of all Evil and help me to avoid the very Appearance of it O Lord thou hast given some Encouragement for poor penitent Sinners to come unto thee and graciously invited them saying Come unto me all ye that are weary and heavy Laden and I will give you Rest seek and ye shall find knock and it shall be opened unto you call upon me in the Day of Trouble and I will hear thee and deliver thee and thou shalt glorifie me Oh Lord I come I seek I call I cry beseeching thee for Jesus Christ his sake to let me find rest unto my Soul Open unto me the Gates of Salvation and be ye opened ye Everlasting Gates that the King of Glory may come in and deliver me from the Intollerable Burthen of my Sins Help me to Glorifie thee here that I may be Glorified with thee to all Eternity Lord thou hast promised that Thou wilt not break the Bruised Reed nor quench the smoaking Flax nor despise the day of small Things but hast mercifully stiled thy self to be a God hearing Prayers and none of the Sons of Jacob ever sought thy Face in vain And thou hast graciously declared thy self to be the Lord Merciful Gratious of Patience and great Goodness who pardoneth Iniquity Transgressions and