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which_o thus_o rage_v among_o we_o sure_o our_o great_a unthankfulness_n and_o our_o horrible_a abuse_n of_o god_n good_a creature_n do_v the_o lord_n punish_v thou_o with_o loss_n or_o with_o poverty_n consider_v whether_o these_o outward_a thing_n do_v not_o make_v thou_o proud_a or_o else_o be_v occasion_n of_o imbolden_v thou_o to_o the_o commit_n of_o some_o sin_n or_o other_o be_v thy_o child_n stubborn_a and_o disobedient_a twenty_o to_o one_o but_o it_o be_v to_o punish_v thy_o disobedient_a and_o undutiful_a carriage_n former_o towards_o thy_o parent_n thus_o may_v i_o instance_n in_o divers_a particular_n by_o which_o it_o be_v evident_a that_o the_o lord_n do_v oft_o time_n proportionate_a punishment_n to_o our_o sin_n so_o as_o by_o our_o affliction_n we_o may_v easy_o guess_v at_o what_o sin_n the_o lord_n aim_v and_o of_o which_o he_o will_v have_v we_o most_o hearty_o repent_v we_o second_o look_v into_o the_o book_n of_o god_n whither_o thou_o can_v there_o find_v any_o that_o have_v former_o drink_v of_o thy_o cup_n have_v be_v exercise_v and_o chastise_v with_o the_o same_o rod_n that_o thou_o be_v if_o thou_o do_v not_o find_v any_o such_o example_n there_o ask_v and_o inquire_v of_o thy_o friend_n whether_o they_o have_v know_v any_o to_o be_v punish_v as_o thou_o be_v now_o if_o thou_o find_v any_o upon_o record_n in_o god_n book_n or_o by_o report_n from_o other_o can_v hear_v of_o any_o that_o have_v be_v in_o thy_o condition_n then_o seek_v and_o inquire_v what_o their_o sin_n have_v be_v what_o manner_n of_o person_n they_o have_v be_v and_o think_v with_o thyself_o thus_o sure_o i_o be_o sick_a of_o their_o disease_n in_o that_o my_o physician_n take_v the_o same_o course_n with_o i_o which_o he_o do_v with_o they_o i_o have_v commit_v their_o sin_n in_o that_o i_o partake_v of_o their_o punishment_n three_o if_o thou_o will_v fain_o find_v out_o that_o sin_n for_o which_o especial_o thou_o be_v afflict_v consider_v when_o thou_o be_v 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joseph_n his_o brethren_n and_o so_o shall_v never_o have_v repent_v of_o it_o if_o the_o lord_n by_o affliction_n have_v not_o make_v our_o conscience_n to_o discover_v it_o unto_o we_o four_o if_o the_o lord_n do_v not_o meet_v with_o thy_o sin_n in_o its_o kind_n or_o if_o thy_o conscience_n do_v not_o reveal_v unto_o thou_o all_o thy_o wickedness_n or_o that_o sin_n for_o which_o thou_o be_v punish_v then_o be_v earnest_a with_o the_o lord_n in_o prayer_n that_o he_o will_v be_v please_v to_o enlighten_v thy_o understanding_n and_o help_v thou_o to_o make_v a_o narrow_a search_n and_o trial_n of_o thy_o way_n or_o else_o that_o he_o will_v discover_v unto_o thou_o that_o or_o those_o sin_n for_o which_o his_o hand_n do_v now_o lie_v so_o heavy_o upon_o thou_o thus_o do_v job_n i_o will_v say_v unto_o god_n condemn_v i_o not_o show_v i_o wherefore_o thou_o contend_v with_o i_o job_n 10.2_o before_o ezekiel_n can_v behold_v the_o wicked_a abomination_n of_o israel_n the_o lord_n teach_v he_o to_o dig_v in_o the_o wall_n ezek._n 8.8_o 9_o so_o before_o we_o shall_v be_v able_a to_o discern_v that_o sin_n or_o any_o other_o of_o our_o sin_n for_o which_o we_o be_v afflict_v the_o lord_n by_o his_o spirit_n must_v demolish_v that_o wall_n of_o hardness_n of_o heart_n which_o hinder_v we_o from_o see_v our_o sin_n or_o else_o he_o must_v give_v we_o of_o his_o eyesalve_n wherewith_o anoint_v our_o eye_n those_o scale_n of_o ignorance_n and_o spiritual_a blindness_n may_v fall_v from_o our_o eye_n that_o so_o we_o may_v the_o better_o see_v our_o sin_n entreat_v the_o lord_n to_o shine_v into_o thy_o dark_a understanding_n by_o the_o light_n of_o his_o word_n that_o it_o may_v enter_v through_o even_o to_o the_o divide_v asunder_o of_o thy_o soul_n and_o spirit_n of_o thy_o joint_n and_o marrow_n that_o it_o may_v be_v a_o discerner_n of_o thy_o thought_n and_o the_o intent_n of_o thy_o heart_n as_o the_o apostle_n speak_v heb._n 4.12_o and_o be_v thou_o well_o assure_v of_o this_o for_o thy_o comfort_n that_o he_o that_o be_v true_o desirous_a and_o withal_o scedulous_a and_o deligent_fw-la to_o find_v out_o his_o special_a sin_n he_o shall_v have_v they_o in_o the_o end_n discover_v and_o lay_v open_a unto_o he_o because_o as_o you_o have_v former_o hear_v this_o be_v one_o end_n why_o the_o lord_n do_v correct_v we_o that_o so_o we_o may_v search_v and_o try_v our_o way_n and_o turn_v again_o unto_o the_o lord._n lam._n 3.40_o that_o we_o may_v be_v bring_v to_o a_o true_a sight_n and_o sense_n of_o our_o sin_n and_o so_o be_v thorough_o humle_v for_o they_o affliction_n serve_v to_o ransack_v the_o bottom_n of_o the_o heart_n to_o launch_v our_o fester_a conscience_n and_o o_o let_v out_o by_o confession_n the_o fester_a and_o corrupt_a matter_n there_o engender_v josephs_n brother_n never_o come_v to_o see_v the_o odiousnes_n of_o their_o sin_n until_o affliction_n enlighten_v they_o and_o then_o they_o can_v say_v we_o have_v very_o 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more_o endanger_v the_o safety_n and_o good_a of_o his_o soul_n than_o any_o man_n by_o the_o plague_n or_o any_o other_o mean_n do_v the_o welfare_n of_o his_o body_n lighten_v my_o eye_n say_v david_n psal_n 13.3_o that_o i_o sleep_v not_o in_o death_n prosperity_n thicken_v these_o eye_n of_o we_o or_o else_o do_v cast_v such_o a_o mist_n before_o they_o that_o we_o can_v see_v sin_n in_o its_o colour_n yea_o the_o worse_a and_o more_o wicked_a any_o man_n be_v the_o less_o do_v he_o see_v his_o evil_n the_o less_o be_v he_o persuade_v of_o the_o danger_n of_o sin_n all_o the_o way_n of_o a_o man_n be_v clean_a in_o his_o own_o eye_n prov._n 16.2_o through_o satan_n subtlety_n and_o man_n infidelity_n it_o come_v to_o pass_v that_o those_o which_o commit_v the_o gross_a sin_n and_o great_a offence_n imagine_v that_o their_o fault_n be_v the_o small_a and_o those_o that_o be_v plunge_v into_o deep_a danger_n do_v dream_n of_o great_a safety_n and_o security_n as_o many_o who_o have_v their_o hand_n deep_a in_o the_o trouble_n and_o persecution_n yea_o in_o the_o blood_n of_o god_n servant_n will_v think_v that_o they_o do_v god_n best_a service_n joh._n 16.2_o of_o this_o mind_n be_v s._n paul_n all_o the_o the_o while_o he_o breathe_v out_o threaten_n and_o slaughter_n against_o the_o disciple_n of_o the_o lord_n act_n 9_o 1._o therefore_o lest_o such_o as_o belong_v to_o god_n shall_v sleep_v in_o death_n by_o their_o blindness_n fly_v from_o repentance_n shun_v reformation_n and_o run_v into_o destruction_n the_o lord_n in_o great_a love_n open_v their_o eye_n by_o affliction_n as_o he_o do_v the_o eye_n of_o nabuchadnezzar_n dan._n
from_o the_o kingdom_n it_o will_v fill_v a_o volume_n to_o set_v down_o the_o manifold_a affliction_n which_o be_v record_v of_o god_n child_n i_o will_v therefore_o speak_v but_o of_o one_o or_o two_o more_o which_o i_o can_v omit_v because_o their_o example_n will_v tend_v much_o to_o our_o satisfaction_n if_o we_o will_v compare_v our_o trial_n and_o affliction_n with_o they_o and_o consider_v how_o far_a they_o have_v exceed_v we_o one_o will_v think_v that_o if_o any_o upon_o earth_n shall_v escape_v scot_n free_a as_o they_o say_v and_o be_v without_o affliction_n the_o virgin_n mary_n the_o mother_n of_o our_o lord_n may_v she_o be_v a_o woman_n so_o free_o belove_v of_o god_n luke_n 1.28_o and_o so_o near_o unto_o christ_n but_o if_o god_n will_v have_v the_o mother_n to_o be_v exercise_v because_o a_o sinner_n yet_o i_o think_v her_o son_n be_v the_o only_o beget_v of_o the_o father_n without_o sin_n and_o one_o in_o who_o the_o father_n be_v well_o please_v mat._n 3.17_o shall_v go_v untouched_a no_o no_o it_o may_v not_o be_v both_o these_o drink_v deep_a of_o affliction_n as_o i_o shall_v make_v it_o evident_a unto_o you_o first_o concern_v mary_n let_v we_o consider_v what_o old_a simeon_n say_v unto_o she_o luk._n 2.35_o a_o sword_n shall_v pierce_v through_o thy_o soul_n she_o undergo_v not_o only_o outward_a and_o bodily_a affliction_n but_o also_o in-ward_n and_o spiritual_a trial_n even_o such_o as_o pierce_v she_o very_o soul_n a_o sorrowful_a spirit_n dry_v up_o the_o bone_n say_v solomon_n pro._n 17.22_o and_o prov._n 18.14_o the_o spirit_n of_o a_o man_n will_v sustain_v his_o infirmity_n but_o a_o wound_a spirit_n who_o can_v bear_v it_o it_o be_v not_o then_o any_o pinch_a poverty_n nor_o the_o rough_a handle_n of_o the_o roman_a exactor_n who_o force_v she_o be_v big_a with_o child_n to_o take_v a_o painful_a journey_n to_o bethlehem_n nor_o the_o poor_a entertainment_n which_o she_o and_o her_o tender_a babe_n find_v in_o the_o inn_n nor_o herod_n bloodthirsty_a rage_n which_o make_v she_o with_o her_o tender_a little_a one_o to_o fly_v into_o egrpt_v where_o be_v a_o stranger_n no_o doubt_n she_o endure_v adversity_n her_o belly_n full_a nor_o the_o fear_n of_o archelaus_n after_o her_o return_n nor_o her_o long_a defer_a hope_n all_o the_o while_n that_o christ_n live_v a_o private_a life_n though_o hope_v defer_v be_v the_o faint_a of_o the_o heart_n prov._n 13.12_o nor_o yet_o the_o malice_n or_o hatred_n of_o those_o bloody_a people_n the_o high_a priest_n the_o scribes_z and_o pharisee_n who_o not_o only_o oppose_v her_o son_n but_o blaspheme_v his_o person_n and_o doctrine_n no_o nor_o the_o pain_n and_o torment_n of_o his_o bitter_a passion_n of_o which_o she_o be_v a_o eye_n witness_n and_o spectator_n none_o of_o all_o these_o be_v the_o sword_n that_o pierce_v her_o soul_n though_o these_o be_v great_a burden_n for_o a_o poor_a woman_n to_o bear_v and_o the_o last_o more_o grievous_a than_o all_o the_o rest_n how_o do_v jacob_n take_v on_o when_o he_o behold_v but_o the_o bloody_a coat_n of_o his_o son_n joseph_n jacob_n rend_v his_o clothes_n and_o put_v on_o sackcloth_n about_o his_o loin_n and_o sorrow_v for_o his_o son_n a_o long_a season_n gen._n 37.34_o how_o do_v david_n lament_v the_o death_n of_o his_o traitorous_a son_n absolom_n though_o he_o hear_v but_o the_o report_n of_o his_o slaughter_n 2._o king_n 18.33_o o_o absolom_n my_o son_n o_o my_o son_n absolom_n will_v god_n i_o have_v die_v for_o thou_o o_o absolom_n my_o son_n my_o son_n and_o read_v we_o not_o that_o agar_n go_v aside_o at_o her_o child_n faint_v her_o mother_n heart_n not_o endure_v to_o behold_v the_o death_n of_o a_o ishmael_n gen._n 21.16_o how_o then_o think_v we_o be_v mary_n affect_v at_o the_o sight_n of_o so_o many_o and_o so_o great_a misery_n which_o befall_v her_o son_n and_o yet_o all_o these_o as_o i_o take_v it_o be_v but_o the_o beginning_n and_o occasion_n of_o great_a internal_a heart-breaking_n and_o spiritual_a agony_n with_o which_o her_o soul_n conflict_v for_o what_o perplex_a thought_n may_v we_o think_v do_v assault_v her_o soul_n nay_o what_o do_v not_o when_o she_o see_v every_o thing_n direct_o to_o thwart_v and_o cross_v her_o preconceive_a hope_n ground_v upon_o the_o warrant_n and_o truth_n of_o divine_a oracle_n may_v not_o mary_n have_v thus_o complain_v what_o be_v this_o he_o that_o shall_v be_v the_o saviour_n and_o redeemer_n of_o israel_n the_o horn_n of_o salvation_n unto_o they_o to_o be_v thus_o malign_v and_o crucify_v and_o yet_o while_o he_o live_v there_o be_v some_o hope_n though_o no_o likelihood_n that_o god_n may_v work_v miraculous_o for_o his_o advancement_n and_o by_o mean_n unknown_a make_v good_a his_o promise_n but_o now_o that_o he_o be_v do_v to_o death_n that_o shameful_a and_o accurse_a death_n of_o the_o cross_n what_o hope_n be_v leave_v i_o think_v that_o he_o shall_v have_v restore_v the_o kingdom_n again_o to_o israel_n but_o alas_o how_o can_v that_o be_v he_o be_v now_o dead_a and_o lay_v in_o his_o grave_n sure_o mary_n have_v sink_v under_o this_o burden_n her_o faith_n her_o patience_n have_v fail_v she_o have_v she_o not_o with_o abraham_n the_o father_n of_o the_o faithful_a above_o hope_n believe_v under_o hope_n not_o regard_v the_o outward_a miserable_a condition_n of_o her_o son_n but_o fasten_v the_o eye_n of_o her_o faith_n upon_o the_o lord_n true_a of_o his_o word_n and_o just_a of_o his_o promise_n yet_o for_o all_o her_o faith_n and_o patience_n behold_v and_o see_v if_o any_o sorrow_n be_v like_a unto_o mary_n her_o sorrow_n the_o mourning_n of_o a_o mother_n for_o her_o son_n her_o only_a son_n the_o son_n of_o her_o hope_n her_o heart_n delight_n nay_o that_o son_n in_o who_o she_o expect_v that_o all_o the_o kindred_n and_o nation_n of_o the_o world_n shall_v be_v bless_v and_o yet_o now_o die_v die_v a_o most_o ignominious_a shameful_a &_o accurse_a death_n now_o perish_v without_o hope_n of_o recovery_n loe_o here_o be_v the_o sword_n that_o pierce_v her_o soul_n thorough_a and_o thorough_a whereupon_o the_o father_n dispute_n the_o case_n whether_o mary_n be_v not_o a_o martyr_n and_o they_o conclude_v that_o she_o be_v more_o than_o a_o martyr_n because_o in_o martyr_n the_o more_o fervent_a their_o love_n be_v to_o christ_n the_o more_o it_o lessen_v the_o pain_n of_o their_o suffering_n but_o mary_n love_n the_o more_o intense_a and_o the_o great_a it_o be_v towards_o her_o son_n the_o more_o it_o augment_v her_o sorrow_n but_o let_v we_o leave_v the_o mother_n and_o last_o of_o all_o take_v a_o view_n of_o her_o son_n his_o suffering_n who_o though_o he_o be_v the_o prince_n of_o our_o salvation_n yet_o be_v he_o consecrate_v by_o affliction_n heb._n 2.10_o be_v he_o not_o in_o this_o world_n repute_v as_o a_o abject_a among_o man_n live_v he_o not_o in_o penury_n in_o poverty_n mat._n 8.20_o the_o fox_n have_v hole_n and_o the_o bird_n of_o the_o heaven_n nest_n but_o he_o have_v not_o whereon_o to_o rest_v his_o head_n how_o be_v he_o revile_v and_o rail_v upon_o by_o those_o foul-mouth'djewes_a who_o call_v he_o a_o wine-bibber_n a_o pot-companion_n a_o friend_n of_o publican_n and_o sinner_n a_o conjurer_n one_o that_o wrought_v by_o the_o help_n of_o belzebub_n be_v he_o not_o buffet_v spit_v on_o whip_v crown_v with_o thorn_n &_o last_o of_o all_o despiteful_o crucify_v beside_o all_o these_o he_o do_v inward_o sustain_v far_o more_o heavy_a cross_n then_o that_o which_o be_v lay_v upon_o his_o shoulder_n though_o the_o weight_n of_o that_o make_v he_o to_o faint_v with_o weariness_n for_o he_o be_v all_o his_o life_n time_n assault_v by_o satan_n and_o towards_o his_o end_n bring_v into_o such_o a_o agony_n as_o it_o wring_v even_o drop_n of_o blood_n from_o his_o forehead_n before_o his_o death_n his_o soul_n be_v heavy_a unto_o the_o death_n through_o those_o fear_n and_o terror_n which_o have_v seize_v upon_o he_o conflict_v with_o the_o wrath_n of_o god_n and_o undergo_a the_o curse_n with_o great_a extremity_n all_o which_o make_v he_o as_o one_o reject_v and_o give_v over_o of_o the_o lord_n in_o a_o most_o heavy_a and_o doleful_a manner_n to_o cry_v out_o my_o god_n my_o god_n why_o have_v thou_o forsake_v i_o matt._n 27.46_o if_o then_o job_n a_o upright_a and_o just_a man_n one_o that_o fear_v god_n and_o eschew_v evil_a if_o david_n a_o man_n after_o god_n own_o heart_n one_o that_o walk_v before_o the_o lord_n in_o truth_n and_o righteousness_n and_o uprightness_n of_o heart_n with_o god_n 1._o king_n 3.6_o if_o mary_n the_o mother_n of_o our_o lord_n a_o woman_n so_o free_o belove_v of_o god_n and_o to_o conclude_v if_o
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of_o some_o inward_a affliction_n and_o also_o to_o prescribe_v some_o remedy_n for_o the_o ease_n if_o not_o the_o cure_n of_o such_o malady_n as_o be_v most_o obvious_a and_o oft_o time_n prove_v most_o dangerous_a for_o want_v of_o apply_v or_o improve_n of_o those_o help_n &_o mean_n which_o may_v be_v use_v almighty_a god_n our_o most_o wise_a physician_n who_o see_v we_o inward_o and_o be_v better_a acquaint_v with_o our_o constitution_n and_o temper_n than_o we_o ourselves_o be_v know_v how_o to_o strike_v every_o one_o in_o the_o right_a vein_n and_o because_o people_n full_o feed_v be_v oft_o full_a of_o gross_a humour_n and_o bad_a blood_n and_o those_o that_o live_v idle_o live_v oft_o time_n unprofitable_o the_o lord_n in_o great_a wisdom_n do_v exercise_v some_o of_o his_o dear_a one_o with_o fight_n within_o that_o so_o the_o inward_a man_n may_v be_v the_o better_a able_a to_o withstand_v outward_a evil_n as_o soldier_n in_o many_o place_n be_v train_v that_o so_o they_o 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fasten_v its_o tooth_n upon_o a_o poor_a soul_n his_o anguish_n and_o vexation_n become_v unspeakable_a and_o unconceivable_a of_o any_o but_o those_o that_o have_v feel_v it_o no_o favour_n of_o man_n no_o love_n of_o friend_n no_o preferment_n of_o the_o world_n no_o outward_a honour_n nor_o abundance_n of_o riches_n will_v be_v able_a to_o quench_v the_o fire_n or_o allay_v the_o heat_n of_o a_o torment_a conscience_n as_o may_v appear_v by_o that_o memorable_a story_n of_o francis_n spira_n who_o be_v upon_o the_o rack_n of_o a_o guilty_a and_o accuse_a conscience_n oft_o wish_v himself_o as_o be_v report_v in_o cain_n case_n and_o in_o judas_n his_o place_n and_o that_o his_o soul_n may_v exchange_v with_o they_o wish_v and_o desire_v rather_o to_o be_v in_o hell_n torment_n then_o to_o be_v rack_v and_o rend_v with_o such_o hellish_a horror_n and_o rage_a fear_n as_o do_v continual_o affright_v his_o poor_a soul_n and_o be_v by_o one_o demand_v if_o he_o fear_v not_o great_a torture_n and_o torment_n after_o this_o life_n than_o he_o now_o sustain_v he_o answer_v yes_o but_o yet_o he_o wish_v he_o be_v in_o hell_n that_o so_o his_o torture_a fear_n may_v be_v at_o a_o end_n this_o man_n condition_n no_o boubt_n be_v terrible_a and_o dreadful_a yet_o who_o can_v say_v that_o he_o perish_v everlasting_o what_o warrant_v have_v any_o as_o some_o have_v do_v to_o judge_v he_o to_o be_v a_o desperate_a castaway_n they_o will_v say_v that_o god_n may_v condemn_v he_o out_o of_o his_o own_o mouth_n but_o be_v this_o sufficient_a evidence_n for_o any_o peremptory_o to_o pass_v sentence_n upon_o he_o the_o word_n of_o a_o distemper_a person_n be_v of_o no_o validity_n in_o any_o civil_a court_n whatsoever_o be_v it_o not_o a_o usual_a thing_n for_o brainsick_a and_o distemper_a person_n to_o belie_v themselves_o and_o other_o too_o object_n but_o spira_n despair_v of_o mercy_n answ_n and_o what_o of_o that_o have_v not_o many_o of_o god_n dear_a child_n do_v so_o 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