be inflicted upon him that he had but a few Weeks more to live and then he would be Tryed and Condemned and Executed but they told him that the punishment of Temporal Death was but small in comparison with the punishment of eternal Death in Hell which he had deserved and was exposed unto They told him that so soon as Death should make a separation between his Soul and Body that his Soul must immediately appear before the dreadful Tribunal of the Sin-revenging God and there receive its final doom and be irreversibly sentenced to depart from the presence of the Lord in everlasting fire if he were found under the guilt of this or any other sin They asked him if he knew what Hell was telling him what a fearful thing it would be for him to fall into the hands of the living God how intollerable the immediate impressions of Gods wrath would be upon his Soul what horrour and anguish he would there be filled withal and how he would be bound up in Chains of darkness until the judgement of the great day and then told him of the Glorious Appearance of the Lord Jesus Christ to Judgment that Soul and Body should be then joyned together and condemned together and punished together with such exquisite torments as never entered into the heart of man to conceive declaring the extremity and the eternity of the Torments of Hell which were the just demerit of his sins Then they asked him whether he had any hopes of escaping this dreadful punishment of hell He answered that he had They enquired into the grounds of his hopes he told them that he repented of his fault and hoped God would have mercy on his Soul They asked him whether he thought his Repentance would procure for him a Pardon He knew no other way They told him that God was just and his justice must be satisfied and there was no way for him to do it but by undergoing the eternal torments of Hell and did he know no way of satisfying Gods Justice besides and pacifying his anger that was kindled against him No he knew not any and 〈◊〉 did he hope to be saved He answered yes They â—â—quired whether ever he had experience of a gracious change wrought in him Herein he could give no account and yet hoped to be saved Yes They told him his hopes were unsound having no good foundation and he would find himself disappointed that it was not his repentance his tears and prayers though he ought to use them as means that would save him if he fixed the Anchor of his hope upon them That if he hoped to be saved in the condition which for the present he was in he would certainly be damned That he must cast away all those groundless hopes he had conceived and endeavour to despair in himself that being pricked and pained at heart through the apprehensions of the wrath of God ready to fall upon him and seeing no possibility of flying and and escaping if he looked only to himself he might cry out What shall I do to be saved and enquire after a Saviour and then they spake to him of the Lord Jesus Christ and the way of Salvation by him which before he was sottishly ignorant of as if he been brought up in a Countrey of Infidels and not of Christians The words spoken to him by these two Ministers seemed to take little impression upon him whilst they were present yet after they were gone the Lord did begin to work and he did acknowledg to Mr. B. that two had been with him he knew not their names whose words were like arrows shot into his heart and he did wish that he had those words in writing especially one expression of T. V. That he would not be in his condition for ten thousand Worlds did affect and so affright him that he said it made his hair stand an end An account of a Discourse betwixt T. D. and T. S. about fourteen daies after he was Prisoner in Newgate VVHen I came in and saw him in Irons I said were these Fetters for the sake of the Gospel they would be far more precious than chains of Gold but see here the cursed fruits of Sin that thou shouldst all thy life-time have been a faithful servant of God hast neglected no time to serve the Devil I asked him how old he was he said 16 years old I told him he was a young man but an old sinner then I began to set my self to bring him to a sense of his sin and of his miserable and lost estate and asked him whether he believed there was a God he answered yes and dost thou believe that this God is true he said yes and taking up the Bible I asked him dost thou believe that this is the Word of God he answered yes Then I told him according to this Word he was a damned wretch and God had past a sentence of death upon him and told him plainly that he should not enter into the Kingdom of God but be a companion of Devils in a lake of Brimstone to all Eternity meaning without Repentance Conversion and Faith in Christ Then I turned him to several Scriptures and told him this was the Word by which he must be judged at the 〈◊〉 of God and be damned or saved according 〈◊〉 then he should be found to be converted oâ—â—â—…converted The Scriptures were these 1 Cor. 6. 9. Know ye not that the unrighteous shall not inherit the Kingdom of God be not deceived neither Fornicaters nor Idolaters nor Adulterers nor Esseminate nor abusers of themselves with mankind ver 10. Nor Thieves nor Covetous nor Drunkards nor Revilers nor Extortioners shall inherit the Kingdom of God Another Scripture I read to him was Gal. 5. 19. Now the works of the flesh are manifest which are these Adultery Fornication Uncleanness Lasciviousness ver 20. Idolatry Witchcraft Hatred Variance Emulations Wrath Strife Seditions Heresies ver 21. Envyings Murders Drunkenness Revellings and such like of the which I tell you before as I have also told you in time past that they which do such things shall not inherit the Kingdom of God The next Scripture to the same purpose was Rev. 21. 8. But the fearful and unbelieving and the abominable and murderers and whoremongers and sorcerers and idolaters and all lyars shall have their part in the lake which burneth with fire and brimstone which is the second death I told him these were the words of the holy true and infallible God this was the sentence which God had passed upon him as the desert of those abominable sins which he was guilty of for these Scriptures pointed at several of the sins which he confessed he had lived in and had committed as Drunkenness Lying Uncleanness and Murder I cryed you confess your self guilty of these sins and that God threatneth you with eternal death with everlasting torments and exclusion from his Presence and Kingdom not only God's Justice but God's Truth
me I am sure God loves me When he was in prayer some of us heard him say Now Lord I am coming to thee thou art mine and Christ is mine and what need I be afraid of Death Lord give me some sense and some signe of thy Love that when my Soul shall be separated from my body it might be received into glory Afterwards when he looked upon his cloaths he had put on to dye in said What! have I got on my dying cloaths dying cloaths did I say they are my living cloaths the cloaths out of which I shall go into eternal glory they are the best cloaths that ever I put on About four of the clock in the morning we went up to him again full of expectations what he would say to us and what we should hear from him and T. D. stood behind him and took his expressions as he spoke them from his own mouth and first he told us I account it a great mercy that God hath shewed me the evil of sin before he cast me into Hell sin hath not only brought my body to the grave but my soul in danger of everlasting burnings The Lord will have mercy on me I hope I am filled with joy I am no more afraid to dye than to stand in this place the Lord make me thankful The Lord hath been working on my soul for it was not I that could pray nor refrain from company nor delight in any thing that is good I have cause to bless God that ever I was taken and this we have heard him often say for if I had escaped I had gone on in my sin and might have lost my soul for ever One asked him which he thought was worse hell or sin using some gesture of body said hell is very dreadful but sin is worse than hell because sin brings mens souls to hell and sin is that which offendeth God One asked him what he thought of heaven with a smiling countenance said heaven it cannot be but heaven must be an excellent place for it is an holy place We spake to him concerning his Coffin that was by him whether it did not trouble and amaze him to have it in his sight he replyed with all my soul I could go into my Coffin oh it is a comfortable place He spake it with joy I can comfortably die I have found such a deal of joy and comfort that I would not for a world have been without it We enquired whether death did not affright him morning Light will presently appear he answered death indeed did trouble me but now not at all I long for day I am not daunted at death Die it is nothing this life is nothing but to die eternally and to loose God and Christ and Heaven that is death Hell torments is not so much as to be shut from the presence of God Alas who would not die this death to go to Jesus Christ when my body is upon the Gibbet my soul shall be carried by Angels into Heaven My heart is so drawn out after God that I could leave this world to be with him This world is nothing those that have the pleasure of it they have nothing I desire to die because I long to be with Christ there I shall never sin more there is no sin but joy where I shall sing Hallelujahs praise to God We asked what he thought of the company of Gods people for he now had had experience of company good and bad He said I had rather be here meaning the hole in Newgate with bread and water with such company than to have the company of wicked persons with the greatest dainties It was wicked company that drew me away I account it the greatest mercy to have the Prayers of Gods people for me had I had my deserts I had been now in hell where I should have had no prayers no instructions God doth love me for he hath inclined the hearts of his People and Ministers to pray for me and their Prayers have prevailed Being asked what promises he found to be his support against the guilt of sin now he was to die he alledged these repeating the words himself Whosoever will let him come and drink of the waters of Life freely and he that confesseth and forsaketh his sin shall find mercy let the wicked forsake his way the unrighteous man his thoughts and let him return unto the Lord and he will have mercy on him and to our God for he will abundantly pardon This word abundantly pardon did often refresh his soul I have sinned abundantly but God will pardon abundantly After these he mentioned another viz. This is a faithful saying and worthy of all acceptation that Jesus Christ came to save sinners of whom I am chief said I do rely and throw my self upon Jesus Christ I do believe there is merit enough in him and all-sufficiency in him to save me It is nothing that I can do will save me He complained that it was the grief of his soul that he could love God no more and love Christ no more for his mercy towards him in giving him so much time so many helps in sending so many Ministers to instruct him but added when several Ministers had been with me I threw off all returned to sin did as vainly as any I could not have repented and believed of my self it is the work of God He often said I fear not death it was nothing with him to die to go to Christ He often said that he had rather die imediatly having an interest in Christ than to live a thousand years in this world in the enjoyment of all the pleasures of it without Christ And that he had found more pleasures and delight in the ways of God since he came into Prison than ever he found in all the ways of sin He confessed his sins saying he first neglected and profaned the Sabbath and said this was the beginnig of all his wickedness that on the Sabbath morning he studied what company to go into in what place of sin he might spend the Sabbath then to wicked Society then to Ale-houses then to Brothel-houses then to murder then to theft then to Newgate and yet at last he hoped to Heaven He lamented saying I have striven to dishonour God and to run into sin Oh that I should spend so much time in serving of the Devil and now have but a little moment of time to spend in the service of God and to the glory of God This discourse being ended we desired him now on his last morning before he went into eternity to pray with us and he willingly consented and his prayer was as followeth being taken from his mouth by Thomas Doolittel that also took in writing his preceding discourse Verbatim The Prayer of Thomas Savage in Newgate with those that sate up with him the night before his Execution O Most merciful and ever blessed Lord God I beseech
company and so went to the Ale-house from the Ale-house to the Bawdy-house there I was perswaded to rob my Master as also to murder this poor innocent creature for which I am come to this shameful end I was drawn aside I say by ill company pray take heed of that for it will not only bring your bodies to the grave but your souls to hell have a care of neglecting the Sabbaths it is that which hath not only brought my body to the grave but my soul in danger of eternal torments And try the waies of God for the Lord be praised I have found so much of excellency and sweetness in Gods waies that I bless God that ever I came into a Prison And now though I am leaving this world I know I shall go to a better place for I have repented from my soul for all my sins not because I am to die for them but to see that I should do that whereby I should deserve hell ten thousand times over and so dishonour God Now the Lord have mercy on my Soul The Prayer of Thomas Savage at the place of Execution O Most merciful and for ever blessed Lord God I beseech thee look down upon my poor immortal soul which now is taking its flight into another World which now is ready to appear before thy Bar Lord I beseech thee prepare me for it and receive my soul into the arms of thy mercy and though my body die and I come to die this shameful death yet let my soul live with thee for ever Lord pardon all the horrid sins that I have committed the Sabbath-breaking Lying Swearing Cursing Vncleanness and all the rest of my sins that ever I have committed Lord give me a nâ—w heart and give me Faith that I may lay hold and throw my self fully and wholly upon thee enable me O Lord give me saving repentance that I may come to thy Bar and thence be received into glory let me not be a prey to Devils to all Eternity let not my soul perish though my Body die let my soul live Lord let me not be shut out from thy presence and let not all the Prayers and Tears and Counsels and Instructions that have been made and shed on my behalf be in vain pitty my poor soul Lord my immortal soul Lord it would be just with thee to cast me into everlasting burning I have been a great sinner but Christ is a great Saviour O Lord thou hast pardoned great sinners and thou canst do it Lord and Lord wilt thou not do it Lord let me not be a fire-brand of Hell and a prey to Devils to all Eternity let me not then be shut up with Devils and damned souls when my soul takes its flight into another world Lord I haue repented for what I have done from the bottom of my heart I have repented and Lord if thou wouldst damn me thou wouldst be just but how infinitely more would it be for the glory of thy Free Grace to save such a sinner as I am good Lord pour down thy spirit upon my soul O tell me that I have interest in Christ's Blood good Father good Lord before I go hence Lord I am willing I am willing to leave this world I â—an prize thee above all there is nothing I can prize like to thee wilt thou not receive my soul receive it into thy arms and say come thou blessed of my Father dear Father for Jesus Christ sake pitty my poor soul for pitties sake Lord it is not my Prayers or tears will save my soul but if ever I am saved it must be through Free Grace and the Blood of Christ and if there be not enough in that Blood Lord I am willing to be damned Lord look down upon my poor soul and though I have been such a sinner thou art able to pardon me and wash me apply one drop of thy Blood to my soul Lord my immortal soul that is more worth than ten thousand worlds it is true Lord I confess I have taken a great deal of pleasure in sin I have run on in sin and could not invent where to go on Thy day and was wont to study into what place and into what company I might go upon the Sabbath-day forgive me Lord wash me receive me into Thy arms O Lord Oh for one glimps of mercy Lord if thou wilt please to reveal thy self to me I shall tell it to all that behold me it is a mercy Lord that I am not in Hell and that thou shewest me the bitterness of sin before I come into Hell it is a mercy Lord that I have had the Prayers converse and instructions of so many of thy Ministers and people Lord receive my soul one smile Lord one word of comfort for Jesus sake O let me not go out of this world let not my soul perish though I killed a poor innocent creature Lord deal not with me as I dealt with her but pitty me pitty me for Jesus Christ's sake Amen One asked him in the Cart well now Thomas how is it with your soul what sense have you of God's love Sir I thank God though infinite mercy I find God loves me and that now I can chearfully go After his Cap was over his eyes he used these Expressions Lord Jesus receive my spirit Lord one smile Good Lord one word of comfort for Christ's sake tho death make separation between my soul and body let nothing separate between thee and my soul to all eternity Good Lord hear me Good Father hear me O Lord Jesus receive my soul Whilst he did thus pathetically express himself to the people especially to God in Prayer there was a great moving upon the affections of those who stood by and many tears were drawn from their eyes by his melting speeches All this was the more remarkable in this young man being under sixteen years of age when he was first apprehended After he was turned off the Cart he strugled for a while heaving up his body which a young man his friend seeing to put him quickly out of his pain struck him with all his might on the breast several times together then no motion was perceived in him and hanging some considerable time after that and as to all outward appearance dead insomuch as one said to another friend of his namely Mr. B. now he is in Eternity and the people beginning to move away the Sheriff commanded him to be cut down and being received in the arms of some of his Friends he was conveyed by them into a house not far distant from the place of Execution where being laid upon a Table unto the astonishment of the Beholders he began to stir and breath and rattle in his throat and it was evident his life was whole in him from the Table he was carried to a bed in the same house where he breathed more strongly and opened his eyes and his mouth though his teeth were set before and offered
take notice of from these words is this Doct. That it is the great duty of young people to be exceeding careful to avoid the sins which usually attend their age Or if you please That it highly concerns Young men to flee youthful lusts It 's no cowardise to flee from sin In the prosecution of this Doctrine I shall shew 1. What are the common sins of young people 2. What it is to flee from youthful Lusts 3. Why they should flee from youthful Lusts 4. I shall apply it I shall name some of those sins which young ones are subject to First Young people are very apt to be disobedient to their Parents or Masters O how great a rarity is it to see young people as ready to obey as their Parents are to command Most children are children of Belial that is without a yoak Let Parents command advise nay intreat all 's to little purpose How ready are they to break the bond which God and Nature lay upon them to dutifulness Though the Command of God be plain enough though his Threatnings are terrible and though this sin seldom goes unpunished in this life yet children take little or no notice of them one would think that one Scripture should scare them Prov. 30. 17. The eye that mocketh at his Father and despâ—seth to obey his Mother the Ravens of the valley shall pick it out and the young Eagles shall eat it What is the English of that Why they shall come to an untimely end Have not the sad Complaints of many at Tyburn sufficiently demonstrated this to be true Have not many cried out with a halter about their neck Children if you value your lives and souls take heed of disobeying your Parents That was the sin which brought me to this untimely and shameful end 2. Another youthful sin is Lying Poor children quickly learn this Lesson of their Father the Devil It is not without good reason that the Psalmist Psal 58. 3. gives such a character of wicked children which went astray from the womb telling Lies and the older they grow the more skilled they be in this devilish Art it 's like they are not ignorant that it is a sin that cuts the bonds of all Society it may be they are told how dear Ananias and Saphira paid for one Lie Act. 5. 3. nay though the Word of Truth tell them more than once That Liars must dwell with their Father the Devil in that black Prison Hell though they hear of a Lake of Fire and Brimgone that burns for ever Rev. 21. 8. and that such as they are must be cast into it yet for all this they 'll venture still 3. Sabbath-breaking is another youthful sin O how little do most of the young people of this City 〈◊〉 the sanctifying of the Sabbath Doth not the multitude of Apprentices and Children that wander up and down Monefields on the Lord's-day speak this to be too true they dare not make bold with their Masters time on the Week-daies but as for God's Day that they spend as if God had set apart one day in the Week for young people to sleep drink and play in They dare as well eat a piece of their fingers almost as to do that of another day which they do then and the truth of it is they look upon the displeasure of a dying man as terrible but the Anger of a Holy GOD they make light of O! little do they think what precious time that is their souls are naked and they may then have cloathing they are starving and they may then have food the Market is then open Provisions for Eternity may then be had But O prodigious madness the hearts of most young ones speak in this language As for Christi Heaven and Soul let them go we have better things to think on more weighty matters to mind And is it true indeed O young man What is the company of vain Wretches like thy self the wanton embraces of a whorish Woman the turning off thy cups and damnation more needful than the hearing of Sermons than Praying and Reading and Salvation Sure you shall not alwaies be of that mind O! little do you imagine how dear you shall pay for all the pleasures you have on the Sabbath out of God's House This this was THE SIN which lay like a load upon the soul of this poor Young man The profaning of the Sabbath that was the bane of him This carried him out of God's Way into the Devils Quarters O how bitterly did he bemoan himself for this sin as the cause of all the rest O! said he when I should have been begging the life of my soul I was plotting the death of my soul and body too Did none of you stand by the Cart when he wept so bitterly and cried to the Lord to forgive this great and dreadful sin Did none of you hear how earnestly he begged of you to have a care of that sin as you loved your Lives and Souls O wretch said he that I was I studied how I might spend the Lords Day in the Devils work I thought I could never dishonour God enough and that time that I should have served God most in I did most for Satan in them then I plaid my mad pranks I went into the Church indeed sometimes but I may speak it with shame and deep sorrow now I never heard one whole Sermon all the time I was with my Master and indeed I laughed at those that spent the Sabbath in hearing of Sermons and Praying and looked upon them as the veriest fools in the world I was glad when the Sabbath came that I might have time to run to my vile Comrades I rejoyced that I could then go to satisfie my cursed Lusts with whorish women O! tell young mâ—n from me that the breaking of the Sabbath is a costly and dangerous sin Sirs the substance of this Sermon I received from his mouth And will you not believe a dying man Do you think he did but jest 'T was on the Sabbath day he went to a whore 't was on the Sabbath he robbed his Master and 't was on the Sabbath that he killed the Maid But because this sin is Epidemical I leave a short story with you and desire you to think of it and the if you like what follows break the Sabbath still The story is this A dear Friend of mine was preaching about the sanctifying of the Sabbath and had occasion to make mention of that man that by the special command of God was stoned to death for gathering sticks upon the Sabbath-day Whereupon one of the Congregation stood up and laughed and made all the hast he could out of the Church and went to gathering of sticks though he had no need of them but when the people came from the Sermon they found this man stark dead with the bundle of sticks in his arms lying in the Church-porch And yet for all this there stands a young man in that
thee O Lord look down upon me with an eye of pity if it be thy blessed will it is thy infinite mercy that I am on this side the grave and out of Hell O Lord I have deserved to be cast into Torments to all Eternity How have I offended thee and run on in sin and thought I could never do enough to abuse thy mercy Pardon the sins that I have committed wash that bloud from off my soul let not my soul perish to Eternity It was 〈◊〉 horrid crime to shed innocent bloud Pardon that sin O Lord let the blood of Christ cry more for mercy than the blood of that Creature cry for Vengeance O Lord thou hast been merciful to me in giving me time to repent for ought I know her Soul is undone for ever Lord forgive me Lord forgive me I knew not what I did Forgive my Sabbath-breaking lying cursing forgive my drunkenness blot them out of the book of remembrance turn them away behind thee Lord I have repented of them from my Soul that ever I should offend God so good and so merciful and gracious I do believe on thee and do wholly throw my self upon thee I acknowledge it would be just in thee to damn my Soul but it will be infinite mercy in thee to save me and what free grace will it be in the to pardon me It is dreadful to lose the body but how dreadful will it be to lose the Soul to all eternity Lord let it not be in vain that I have had so many instructions O let me not go down to Hell let my Soul bless and praise thy Name for ever for what thou hast done for me thou hast been at work upon my heart and thou hast helped me to repent the Lord be praised Lord I desire to be more and more humbled under the sense of my sins for they are dreadfull there are many Souls that have not committed those sins that are now in Hell O what mercy is it that I am not in those flames in those devouring flames Lord as thou hast spared me here spare me to Eternity Let not my Soul perish Lord reveal thy self unto me make known thy love unto me tell me my sins are pardoned tell me that I have an interest in Christ before I go hence and be seen no more that I might leave some testimony behind me that I might tell thy Ministers what thou hast done for me and tell thy people what thou hast done for my soul Lord this will not be only for my satisfaction but for thy glory Blessed Lord pardon the sins that I am guilty of and take away this cursed base heart of mine break this rocky stony heart in pieces these sins of Murder and Drunkenness c. were in my heart before I thought no eye did see me commit those sins but thou didst see me Lord turn my heart to thee and take away this heart of stone and take away this cursed nature for it was this cursed nature that brought me to these sins and to this end and I was in danger of losing my soul to all eternity but Lord though I am a great sinner Christ is a great Saviour He is able to save me from my sins though they be never so great I do believe Lord I speak freely from my heart so far as I know my heart I do believe it is my grief I can sorrow no more for my sins which have been the cause of my offending thee so long and so much One drop of thy Blood sprinkled upon my soul will pardon all my sins Lord cross the black line of my sins with the red line of thy Blood I am not able to answer for one vain thought much less for all my horrid crimes Lord save my immortal soul that I might sing praise to Thee to all Eternity Thou hast pardoned Manasseh that was a great sinner and Mary Magdalen and Paul that were great Sinners and the Thief upon the Cross and thy Mercies are as great thy Mercy and thy Love to Repenting Sinners is not shortned though my sins be great yet thy Mercies are greater than my Sins Lord be with me in my death then let me have some comfortable assurance of thy love unto my soul of the pardon of my sin do thou be my God and my Guide now and to all Eternity Amen This Prayer he put up with much earnestness with great brokenness of heart for sin that all that joyned with him were exceedingly affected and blessed God for the spirit of Prayer they discerned God had so plentifully poured out upon him After we had some other discourse with him we took our leave of him telling him we purpoâ—… 〈◊〉 see him again at the place of Execution After two or three hours when the time of his going from Newgate drew near we were willing to return to see him once more there and the rather because one Minister that had not yet been with him was desirous to visit him and then again after some few words with him we asked him to go to Prayer again once more saying now this will be the last time that we shall pray with you in this place And he did perform this duty with great liveliness that now he excelled himself and the nearer he came to his end the more fervently we perceived he prayed but we took notice that in this last duty in Newgate he was much in praising God and blessing God for his mercy to him to our great astonishment After a few words when this duty was over we took some of us our final farewel of him he expressing his thanks to Gods people for their Prayers for him and to the Ministers for their love and pains with him was commended by us to the grace of God saying Thomas the Lord be with you the Lord of Heaven be with you O the Lord of mercy help you and have compassion on you This morning he expressed himself to his friend H. B. thus Oh my friend we cannot tell how glorious a place Heaven is but if once I get thither could drop down a Letter to you and tell you of the glorious things I there shall find how would it rejoyce your heart and to this friend parting with him said I know God loveth me and that I am going to the Kingdom of Heaven The last Speech of Thomas Savage at the place of his Execution at Ratcliff Gentlemen HEre I am come to die a cursed ignominious Death and I most justly deserve it for I have Murthered a poor innocent Creature and for ought I know have not only murthered her body but if God had no more mercy on her soul than I had of her body she is undone to all Eternity so that I deserve not only death from men but damnation from God I would have you all that look upon me take warning by me the first sin I began with was Sabbath-breaking thereby I got acquainted with bad
affection and earnest pleading with God that all the company were exceedingly melted and their hearts beyond ordinary measure warmed and raised that the room did ring with sighs and groans and there was such a mighty presence of the Spirit poured out upon him and on those that joyned with him that we do not remember the time when ever we had experience of the like in which Prayer after the confession of his sins he begged earnestly for pardon and for an interest in Christ saying O Lord wilt thou let me die without a Christ shall I leave this World before thou smilest upon my soul thou hast promised pardon and mercy and salvation to those that do repent and to those that do believe Lord I do repent I do believe if I know my own heart I do repent I do believe Lord I roll my self upon thy Son I cast my self at his Foot for mercy thou wouldst be just if thou dost damn me but thou hast pardoned others and it will be to the Praise of thy Free-Grace to pardon me Lord shall those Prayers that have been made and all those tears that haue been shed for me and all those instructions which have been given me be all in vain with many other expressions in that Prayer which wonderfully affected the hearts of those that were with him that afterwards we looked upon one another wondering at the Grace of God towards him that one so wicked all his days so young being 16. years old so lately acquainted with the wayes of God should have such a spirit of prayer poured out upon him after this he prayed with more life and fervency then before and the nearer he came to his end the more we perceived God was ripening him for his glory After this we took our leave of him not knowing but that was the last day for the Cart stood below and the Coffin fetched down and some of the honourable Sheriffs of London's men came into the Prison but the Sheriff of Middlesex having not notice to be ready his Execution was deferred till Wednesday following Reader here take notice that the report that the reason why he was not Executed on Munday was because he was drunk is an abominable falshood for to our knowledge that were with him he did not eat nor drink that morning When we went up to him again we told him that we perceived he was not to dye that day giving him caution not to think there was any pardon intended for him and one came from the Sheriff to acquaint him with the reason of the delay of his Execution When his Coffin was carried up to him again one asked what he thought and what were the workings of his heart when he saw his Coffin brought back he said he was much troubled and it daunted him to see it for he could willingly have dyed that day to go to Christ On Munday in the Afternoon he had an excessive pain in his Teeth as we judged occasioned by his leaving off his cloaths and putting on some thin apparel to die in and that evening he expressed great willingness to dye and leave this world he said I see and find so much excellency in Christ that he is so pure pure in grace pure in holiness pure in all things Lord I count it an hell to be upon earth I so long to be where I might enjoy thee and he spent some time in Prayer notwithstanding his pain with much affection wherein he said the pain of thee Teeth was great but the pain of Hell was greater On Tuesday the day before he died after some time spent in prayer both by him and H. B. being full of joy he expressed himself thus O my dear friend what a welcome shall I give you when you come to Heaven and say to you come see come see this is the glory that you told me of but all that you ever told me was nothing to what I have found O what a place is this O how shall we love one another then sure it cannot be but Heaven must be a glorious place where God and Christ and Angels be The night before he died a Minister came to Thomas Savage and after other serious discourse for satisfaction of a Christian friend that had seen him before he demanded of him what were now the grounds of his hopes of salvation He made this reply God both in infinite mercy made me deeply sensible of great sins and not only of them but of the vileness of my heart and nature and God hath made me to abhor my self for my sins and I hope truly to repent of them for that which hath been the delight of my soul is now as bad as hell and God hath given me to see that all my own prayers and tears and all the prayers of all the good people that come to me are not able to save A Christ alone I throw my self at the feet of Christ for mercy and if I perish I will perish there I feel longings and breathings after Christ and love him more than my life I long to be with him and I would not be to live any longer this world is a little Hell because of sin I fear not death for I hope the sting of it is taken out for me This last night before his death he desired us to sit up with him in order to his better preparation for the great work he had to do the next day that we might wrestle with God on his behalf that when death approached so near unto him he might have some nearer accesses of God into his soul that when pale death stared him in the face he might see God's smiling countenance which opportunity we readily embraced and spent the former part of the night in Prayer till two of the clock in the morning about which time he desired us to go down into the Lodge that he might have some part of the night for Prayer and Meditation alone and to discourse a while with his friend Mr. Baker to whom he most of all did open his very heart and spake more freely to than to any others whom for that reason we left with him and when we were gone down his friend being with him who told us afterwards he fell into admiration and said What a prodigy am I What a wonder of mercy that God should incline the hearts of his Ministers to come and pray with me and pour out their souls in prayer thus for me For me a Murtherer for me a Drunkard for me so vile and sinful Well I cannot but love God and though I go to Hell yet I will love God for his goodness and graciousness to me already manifested in this world yea though I should be damned for my sin yet I could and would love God What would they venture to come and pray with me a Murtherer How did they know but I might have murthered some of them Pray for me wrestle for me well I know God loves