endeavor to apply my self to devotion and prepare my heart to obtain some small spark of divine fire by humble receiving of this enlivening Sacrament And whatsoever is hereunto wanting in me good Jesus most holy Saviour do thou supply for me most bountifully and graciously who hast vouchsafed to call us unto thee saying Come unto me all ye that labor and are burdened and I will refresh you 5. I indeed labor in the sweat of my brows I am vexed with grief of heart I am burdened with sins I am troubled with temptations I am intangled and oppressed with many evill passions and there is none to help me none to deliver and save me but thou O Lord my Saviour to whom I commit my self and all that is mine that thou mayest keep me and bring me to life everlasting Receive me to the honor and glory of thy Name who hast prepared thy Body and Blood to be my meat and drink Grant Lord God my Saviour that by frequenting thy mysteries the zeal of my devotion may increase CHAP. V. Of the dignity of this Sacrament and Ministerial function The voice of Christ. IF thou hadst Angelical purity and the sanctity of St. Iohn Baptist thou wert not worthy to receive this Sacrament For it is not within the compass of the deserts of Men that Man should consecrate the Sacrament of Christ and receive for food the Bread of Angels A great mystery and great is the dignity of the Ministers of God to whom is given that which is not given to the Angels It is proper for Ministers rightly instituted in the Church to have power to celebrate and consecrate the Body of Christ. The Priest is the Minister of God using the word of God by Gods Commandment and appointment but God is there the principal Author and invisible Worker to whom is subject all that he pleaseth and all that he commandeth doth obey 2. Thou oughtest therefore more to believe God Almighty in this most excellent Sacrament than thine own sense or any visible sign And therefore thou art to come unto this mystery with fear and reverence Consider attentively with thy self and see what that is whereof the Ministery is delivered unto thee by the imposition of the hands of the Bishop Behold thou art made a Priest and consecrated to celebrate see now that in due time thou doest this faithfully and devoutly and carry thy self so as thou mayest be without reproof Thou hast not lightned thy burden but art now bound with a straiter band of discipline and art obliged to a more perfect degree of sanctity A Minister ought to be adorned with all graces and to give example of good life to others His conversation should not be according to the ordinary and common course of Men but like to the Angels in Heaven or to perfect Men on Earth 3. A Minister is the Vicegerent of Christ to pray humbly with a prostrate mind unto God for himself and the whole People Neither ought he to cease from prayer till he obtain grace and mercy When a Minister doth celebrate he honoreth God rejoyceth the Angels edifieth the Church helpeth the living and maketh himself partaker of all good CHAP. VI. An interrogation of the exercise before Communion The voice of the Disciple WHen I weigh thy worthiness O Lord and my unworthiness I tremble and am confounded in my self For if I come not unto thee I fly from life and if I unworthily intrude my self I incur thy displeasure What therefore shall I do my God my helper and my counceller in necessity 2. Teach me the right way appoint me some exercise sutable to this holy Communion For it is good for me to know how I should reverently and religiously prepare my heart for thee for the profitable receiving of thy Sacrament or for the celebrating of so great and divine a Sacrifice CHAP. VII Of the discussing of our own conscience and purpose of amendment The voice of the beloved ABove all things The Minister of God ought to come to celebrate and receive this Sacrament with great humility of heart and lowly reverence with a full faith and a pious intending of the honor of God Examine diligently thy conscience and to thy power purge and cleanse it with true contrition and humble confession so as there may be nothing in thee that may be burdensome unto thee or that may breed in thee remorse of conscience and hinder thy free access Repent thee of all thy sins in general and in particular bewail and lament thy daily offences And if thou hast time confess unto God in the secret of thy heart all the evils of thy disordered passions 2. Lament and grieve that thou art yet so carnal so worldly so unmortified in thy passions so full of the motions of concupiscence so unwatchful over thy outward senses so often intangled with many vain fantasies so vehemently inclined to outward things so negligent in the interior so prone to laughter and immodesty so indisposed to tears and compunction so prompt to ease and pleasures of the flesh so dull to strictness and life of zeal so curious to hear news and see glorious sights so slack to imbrace what is humble and low so covetous of abundance so niggardly in giving so fast in keeping so inconsiderate in speeh so unbridled to silence so loose in manners so importune in action so greedy to meat so deaf to the word of God so hasty to rest so slow to labor so watchful to tales so drowsie to watch in the service of God so hasty to the end thereof so inconstant in attention so cold in Prayer so undevout in celebrating so dry in receiving so quickly distracted so seldom wholly gathered into thy self so suddenly moved to anger so apt to take displeasure against another so prone to judge so severe to reprehend so joyful in prosperity so weak in adversity so often purposing much good and yet performing little 3. These and other thy defects being confessed and bewailed with sorrow and great dislike of thine own infirmity make a firm purpose always to amend thy life and to endeavor still after a farther progress in holiness Then with full resignation and with thy whole will do thou to the honor of my Name offer up thy self a perpetual sacrifice on the Altar of thy heart faithfully committing thy body and soul unto me that so thou mayest come worthily to celebrate this Eucharistical sacrifice and to receive profitably the Sacrament of my body 4. For Man hath no oblation more worthy nor greater for the destroying of sin than to offer up himself unto God purely and wholly in the holy Communion And when a Man shall have done what lieth in him and shall be truly penitent and shall come to me for pardon and grace as I live saith the Lord who will not the death of a sinner but rather that he be converted and live I will not remember his sins any more but they shall be all
our future amendment and proficiency in spiritual things CHAP. XXIII Of the meditation of Death THere will very quickly be an end of thee here therefore see what will become of thee hereafter To day a Man to morrow none and out of sight out of mind O the stupidity and hardness of Mans Heart who thinketh only upon the present and hath no more care of what is to come Thou shouldest so order thy self in all thy thoughts and actions as if to day yea this very moment thou wert ready to depart Hadst thou a clear conscience thou wouldst not greatly fear death It were better to avoid sin than to fly death If thou art not prepared to day how wilt thou be prepared to morrow To morrow is uncertain and how knowest thou that thou shalt live till to morrow 2. What availeth it to live long when we are so little the better by long living Alas length of days doth oftner make our sins the greater than our lives the better O that we had spent but one day well in this world Many there are who count how long it is since their conversion and yet ful slender oftentimes is the fruit of amendment of life If to die be accounted dreadful to live long may perhaps prove more dangerous Happy is he that always hath the hour of his death before his eyes and daily prepareth himself for to die If at any time thou hast seen another Man die make account thou must also pass the same way 3. When it is morning think thou mayest die before night and when evening comes dare not to promise thy self the next morning Be thou therefore always in a readiness and so lead thy life that death may never take thee unprepared Many die suddenly and when they look not for it for the Son of Man will come when we think not of his coming When that last hour shall come thou wilt begin to have a far different opinion of thy whole life that is past and be exceeding sorry thou hast been so careless and remiss 4. O how wise and happy is he that now laboreth to be such an one in his life as he wisheth to be found at the hour of his death A perfect contempt of the world a fervent desire to go forward in vertue the love of discipline the painfulness of repentance the readiness of obedience the denying of our selves and the bearing any affliction for the love of Christ patiently will give us great confidence we shall die happily Whilst thou art in health thou mayest do much good but when thou art sick I see not what thou art able to do Few by sickness grow better and more reformed as also they who wander much abroad seldom thereby become holy 5. Trust. not to friends and kindred neither do thou put off the care of thy souls welfare till hereafter for Men will sooner forget thee than thou art aware of It is better to look to it betime and do some good beforehand than to trust to other Mens courtesies If thou beest not careful for thy self now who will be careful for thee hereafter The time that is now present is very precious now are the days of salvation now is the acceptable time But alas that thou shouldst spend thy time so idlely here where thou mightest purchase to live eternally hereafter The time will come when thou shalt desire one day or hour to amend in and I cannot say that it will be granted thee 6. O beloved from how great danger mightest thou deliver thy self from how great fear free thy self if thou wouldst be always mindful of death Labor now to live so that at the hour of death thou mayest rather rejoyce than fear learn now to die to the world that thou mayest then begin to live with Christ. Learn now to contemn all earthly things that thou mayest freely go to Christ. Chastise thy body now by repentance that thou mayest then have assured confidence 7. Ah fool why dost thou think to live long when thou canst not promise to thy self one day How many have been deceived and suddenly snatcht away How often dost thou hear these reports Such a Man is slain another Man is drowned a third breaks his neck with a fall from some high place this Man died eating and that Man playing One perished by fire another by the sword another of the plague another was slain by Thieves Thus death is the end of all and Mans life suddenly passeth away like a shaddow 8. Who shall remember thee when thou art Dead Do do now my beloved whatsoever thou art able to do for thou knowest not when thou shalt die nor yet what shall befal thee after thy death Now whilst thou hast time heap unto thy self everlasting riches think on nothing but the salvation of thy soul care for nothing but the things of God Make now friends to thy self by honoring the Saints of God and imitating their actions that when thou failest in this short life they may receive thee into everlasting habitations 9. Keep thy self as a stranger and pilgrim upon the earth and as one to whom the affairs of this world do nothing appertain Keep thy heart free and lifted up to God because thou hast here no abiding city Send thither thy daily prayers and sighs together with thy tears that after death thy spirit may with much happiness pass to the Lord. Amen CHAP. XXIV Of Iudgment and the punishment of Sins IN all things have a special aim to thy end and how thou wilt be able to stand before that severe Judg to whom nothing is hid who is not pacified with gifts nor admitteth any excuses but will judg according to right and equity O wretched and foolish sinner who sometimes fearest the countenance of an angry Man what answer wilt thou make to God who knoweth all thy wickedness Why dost thou not provide for thy self against that great day of judgment when no Man can excuse or answer for another but every one shall have enough to answer for himself Now are thy pains profitable thy tears acceptable thy groans audible thy grief pacifieth God and purgeth thy soul. 2. The patient Man hath a great and wholesome purgatory who though he receive injuries yet grieveth more for the malice of another than for his own wrong who prayeth willingly for his adversaries and from his heart forgiveth their offences he delayeth not to ask forgiveness of whomsoever he hath offended he is sooner moved to compassion than to anger he often offereth an holy violence to himself and laboreth to bring the body wholly into subjection to the spirit It is better to purge out our sins and cut off our vices here than to keep them to be punished hereafter Verily we do but deceive our selves through an inordinate love of the flesh 3. What is it that that infernal fire feeds upon but thy sins The more thou sparest thy self now and followest the flesh so much the more hereafter shall
THE CHRISTIANS PATTERN or The Imitation of CHRIST Printed by J R. for Iohn Williams at y e Crowne in St Paules Church yard 1677 THE Christians Pattern OR A DIVINE TREATISE OF THE Imitation of Christ. Written Originally in Latin by THOMAS of KEMPIS above 200. Years since Faithfully Englished And Printed in a large Character for the benefit of the Aged LONDON Printed for Richard Wellington at the Sign of the Lute in St. Pauls Church-Yard 1695. The Contents of the Chapters The First Book CHAP. I. OF the Imitation of Christ and contempt of all worldly vanities Pag. 1 Of the humble conceit of our selves 3 Of the doctrine of Truth 6 Of wisdom and providence in our actions 10 Of the reading of holy Scriptures 11 Of inordinate affections 12 Of flying vain hope and pride 13 That too much familiarity is to be shunned 15 Of obedience and subjection 16 Of avoiding superfluity in words 17 Of the obtaining of peace and zealous desire of profiting in grace 19 Of the profit of adversity 22 Of resisting temptations 23 Of avoiding rash judgment 27 Of works done of Charity 29 Of bearing with the defects of others 30 Of a retired life 32 Of the examples of the holy Fathers 34 Of the exercise of a good and religious person 37 Of the love of solitude and silence 41 Of compunction of heart 46 Of the consideration of humane misery 49 Of the meditation of death 54 Of judgement and the punishment of Sins 58 Of the zealous amendment of our whole life 63 The Second Book CHAP. I OF the inward life 70 Of humble submission 75 Of a good and peaceable Man 76 Of a pure mind and upright intention 78 Of the consideration of ones self 80 Of the joy of a good conscience 82 Of the love of Iesus above all things 84 Of familiar conversation with Iesus 86 Of the want of all comfort 89 Of thankfulness for the grace of God 93 How few the lovers of the Cross os Christ are 97 Of the high way of the holy Cross. 99 The Third Book CHAP. I. OF the inward speech of Christ unto a faithful soul. 108 That truth speaketh inwardly without noise of words 110 That the words of God are to be heard with humility and that many weigh them not 112 That we ought to live iu truth and humility before God 116 Of the wonderful effect of divine love 119 Of the proof of a true Lover 123 That grace is to be hid under the veil of humility 126 Of a mean conceit of our selves in the sight of God 130 That all things are to be referred unto God as unto the last end 132 That the world being despised it is a sweet thing to serve God 133 That the desires of our heart are to be examined and moderated 137 Of Patience and of striving against concupiscence 139 Of the humble obedience of a subject according to the example of Christ. 142 Of the secret judgment of God to be considered lest we be exalted in our good deeds 144 How we are to stand affected and what we are to say in every thing which we desire 146 That true comfort is to be sought in God alone 149 That all our care is to be placed in God 150 That temporal miseries after the example of Christ must be born patiently 152 Of suffering of injuries and who is proved to be truly patient 154 Of the acknowledging of our own infirmities and of the miseries of this life 157 That we are to rest in God above all his gifts and benefits 160 Of the remembrance of the manifold benefits of God 164 Of four things that bring much peace 167 Of flying curious inquiry of the life of others 170 Wherein the firm peace of the heart and true spiritual profiting consisteth 172 Of the excellency of a free mind which humble Prayer sooner gaineth than Reading 174 That private love most hindreth from the chiefest Good 176 Against the tongues of slanderers 179 How we ought to call upon God and bless him when tribulation draweth near 180 Of craving the divine aid and confidence of recovering grace 182 Of the contempt of all creatures to find out the Creator 186 Of denial of our selves and forsaking all inordinate desires 189 Of inconstancy of heart and of directing our final intentions unto God 191 That God is sweet above all things and in all things to him that loveth 193 That there is no security from temptation in this life 195 Against the vain judgments of Men. 197 Of a full and pure resignation of our selves for the obtaining freedom of heart 199 Of good government in outward things and of recourse to God in dangers 202 That a Man be not over earnest in his affairs 204 That a Man hath no good of himself nor any thing whereof he can glory 205 Of the contempt of all temporal honors 208 That our peace is not to be placed in Men. 209 Against vain and secular knowledg 211 Of not drawing outward things to our selves 213 That credit is not to be given to all Men and how prone Man is to offend in words 214 Of putting our trust in God when evil words arise 218 That all grievous things are to be endured for life everlasting 221 Of the everlasting day and shortness of this life 224 Of the desire of everlasting life and how great rewards are promised to those that sight valiantly 228 How a disconsolate person ought to offer himself into the Hands of God 233 That a Man ought to imploy himself in works of Humility when strength is wanting for higher imployments 238 That a Man ought to esteem himself not worthy of comfort but rather to deserve stripes 239 That the grace of God doth not joyn it self with those that savor of Earthly things 242 Of the different motions of Nature and Grace 244 Of the corruption of Nature and efficacy of divine Grace 250 That we ought to deny our selves and imitate Christ by the Cross. 254 That a Man be not too much dejected when he falleth into some defects 257 Of not searching into high matters and into the secret judgments of God 259 That all our hope and trust is to be fixed in God alone 265 The Fourth Book CHAP I. WIth how great reverence Christ ought to be received 270 That the great goodness and love of God is exhibited to Man in this Sacrament 277 That it is profitable to communicate often 281 That many benefits are bestowed upon them that communicate devoutly 284 Of the dignity of this Sacrament and Ministerial function 288 An interrogation of the exercise before Communion 290 Of the discussing of our own conscience and purpose of amendment 291 Of the oblation of Christ on the Cross and resignation of our selves 294 That we ought to offer up our selves and all that is ours unto God and to pray for all 296 That the holy communion is not lightly to be forborn 299 That the body of Christ and the holy Scriptures
be thy punishment and thou storest up greater fewel for that flame In what thing a Man hath sinned in the same shall he be the more grievously punished There shall the slothful be pricked forward with burning goads and the gluttons be tormented with great hunger and thirst There shall the luxurious and lovers of pleasures be bathed in burning pitch and stinking brimstone and the envious like mad Dogs shall howl for very grief 4. There is no sin but shall have its proper torment There the proud shall be filled with all confusion the covetous shall be pinched with miserable penury one hour of pain there shall be more bitter than a Thousand years of the sharpest pennance here There is no quiet no comfort for the damned there yet here we have some intermission of our labors and enjoy the comfort of our friends Be now sollicitous and sorrowful because of thy sins that at the day of judgment thou mayest be secure with the company of blessed souls For then shall the righteous with great boldness stand against such as have vexed and oppressed them then shall he stand to judg Men who doth now humbly submit himself to the censures of Men. Then shall the poor and humble have great confidence but the proud Man shall be compassed with fear on every side 5. Then will it appear that he was wise in this world who had learned for Christ to be a fool and despised Then shall every affliction patiently undergone delight us when the mouth of iniquity shall be stopped up Then shall the devout rejoyce and the profane shall mourn Then shall he more rejoyce that hath beat down his own flesh than he that hath abounded in all pleasure and delight Then shall the poor attire shine gloriously and the precious robes seem vile and contemptible Then shall be more commended the poor cottage than the gilded palace Then will constant patience more avail us than all earthly power Then simple obedience shall be preferred before all worldly wisdom 6. Then shall a good and clear conscience more rejoyce a Man than the profound learning of Philosophy Then shall the contempt of riches weigh more than all the worldings treasure Then wilt thou be more comforted that thou hast prayed devoutly than that thou hast fared daintily Then wilt thou be more glad thou hast kept silence than that thou hast talked much Then will good works avail more than many goodly words Then a strict life and severe repentance will be more pleasing than all earthly delights Accustome thy self now to suffer a little that thou mayest then be delivered from more grievous pains Prove first here what thou canst endure hereafter If now thou canst endure so little how wilt thou then be able to endure perpetual torments If now a little suffering make thee so impatient what will hell fire do hereafter Assure thy self thou canst not have two Paradises it is impossible to enjoy delights in this world and after that to reign with Christ. 7. Suppose thou hast hitherto lived always in honors and delights what would all this avail thee if thou wert to die at this instant All therefore is vanity but to love God and serve him only For he that loveth God with all his heart is neither afraid of death nor punishment nor of judgement nor of hell for perfect love gives secure access to God But he that takes delight in sin what marvel is it if he be afraid both of death and judgment Yet it is good although love be not yet of force to withhold thee from sin that at least the fear of hell should restrain thee But he that layeth aside the fear of God can never continue long in good estate but falleth quickly into the snares of the Devil CHAP. XXV Of the zealous amendment of our whole life BE watchful and diligent in the service of God and often bethink thy self wherefore thou camest hither and why thou hast left the world Was it not that thou mightest live to God and become a spiritual Man Be fervent then to come forward for shortly thou shalt receive a reward of thy Labors there shall not be then any fear of sorrow in thy coasts Labor but now a little and thou shalt find great rest yea perpetual joy to thy soul. If thou continuest faithful and fervent in doing good no doubt but God will be faithful and liberal in rewarding thee Thou oughtest to have a good hope for getting the victory but thou must not be secure lest thou wax either negligent or proud 2. When one that was in great anxiety of mind often wavering between fear and hope did once being oppressed with grief humbly prostrate himself in a Church in prayer and said within himself O if I knew that I should yet persevere he presently heard within him an answer from God which said What if thou didst know it what wouldest thou do Do now what thou wouldest do then and thou shalt be secure And being herewith comforted and strengthened he committed himself wholly to the will of God and that noysome anxiety ceased neither had he any mind to search curiously any further to know what should befal him but rather labored to understand what was the perfect and acceptable will of God for the beginning and accomplishing of every good work 3. Hope in the Lord and do good saith the Prophet and inhabit the land and thou shalt be fed in the riches thereof One thing there is that draweth many back from a spiritual progress and the diligent amendment of their lives viz. The horror of the difficulty or the labor of the combat But they above others improve most in virtue that endeavor most to overcome those things which are grievous and contrary unto them For there a Man improveth more and obtaineth greater grace where he more overcometh himself and mortifieth himself in spirit 4. But all Men have not alike to overcome and mortifie yet he that is zealous and diligent though he have more passions shall profit more in virtue than another that is of a more temperate disposition if he be less fervent in the pursuit of virtue Two things especially much further our amendment to wit to withdraw our selves violently from that to which nature is viciously inclined and to labor earnestly for that virtue which we most want Be careful also to avoid with great diligence those things in thy self which do commonly displease thee in others 5. Gather some profit to thy soul wheresoever thou be so as if thou seest or hearest of any good examples stir up thy self to the imitation thereof But if thou seest any thing worthy of reproof beware thou do not the same And if at any time thou hast done it labor quickly to amend it As thine eye observeth others so art thou also noted again by others O how sweet and pleasant a thing it is to see the Servants of Christ fervent and devout endued with virtuous and decent manners And
ought to have humbled my self and to have born meekly vouchsafe mercifully to pardon me as often as I have failed herein and give me again grace of greater sufferance For thy abundant mercy is more available to me for the obtaining of pardon than my conceived justice for the defence of my hidden conscience Although I know nothing by my self yet I cannot hereby justifie my self for without thy mercy no Man living shall be justified in thy sight CHAP. XLVII That all grievous things are to be endured for life everlasting CHrist. Son be not dismaied with the painful labors which thou hast undertaken for me neither be thou wholly discomforted for the tribulations which do befal thee but let my promise strengthen and comfort thee in all events I am able to reward thee infinitely and above all measure Thou shalt not long toil here nor always be pressed with griefs Wait a while and thou shalt see a speedy end of thy evils There will come an hour when all labor and trouble shall cease Little and short is all that which passeth away with time 2. Do what thou dost labor faithfully in my Vineyard I will be thy reward Write read sing mourn keep silence pray suffer crosses manfully life everlasting is worthy of all these yea and greater combats Peace shall come in the day which is known unto the Lord and there shall be neither day nor night to wit of this time but everlasting light infinite brightness stedfast peace and secure rest Then thou shalt not say Who shall deliver me from the body of this death Nor cry Wo is me that my sojourning is prolonged For death shall be thrown down and salvation shall appear which never shall have end there shall be no anxiety but blessed joy sweet and lovely company 3. O if thou hadst seen the everlasting Crowns of the Saints in Heaven and with how great glory they now rejoyce who in times past were contemptible to this world and esteemed unworthy of life it self truly thou wouldest presently humble thy self even unto the Earth and wouldest rather seek to be under the feet of all than to have command so much as over one neither wouldest thou desire the pleasant days of this life but rather rejoyce to suffer affliction for God and esteem it thy greatest gain to be reputed as nothing amongst Men. 4. O if thou hadst a relishing of these things and didst suffer them to sink into the bottom of thy heart how durst thou so much as once to complain Are not all painful labors to be endured for everlasting life It is no small matter to lose or to gain the Kingdom of Heaven Lift up thy face therefore unto Heaven behold I and all my Saints with me who in this world had great conflicts do now rejoyce now are comforted now are secure now are at rest and shall remain with me everlastingly in the Kingdom of my Father CHAP. XLVIII Of the everlasting day and shortness of this life CHristian O most blessed mansion of the Heavenly City O most clear day of Eternity which night obscureth not but the highest Truth ever enlightneth a day of continual joy of perpetual quietness and never changing into a contrary state O that that day would once appear and all these temporal things were at an end To the Saints it shineth glistering with evelasting brightness but to those that are Pilgrims upon Earth it appeareth only afar off and as it were through a glass 2. The Citizens of Heaven do know how joyful that day is but the banished Children of Eve bewail the bitterness and tediousness of this The daies of this life are short and evil full of sorrow and anguish where Man is defiled with many sins incumbred with many passions disquieted with many fears filled with many cares distracted with many curiosities intangled with many vanities compassed about with many errors worn away with many labors vexed with temptations weakned with pleasures tormented with want 3. O when shall these evils be at an end when shall I be delivered from the miserable bondage of sin When shall I think O Lord of thee alone When shall I fully rejoyce in thee When shall I enjoy true liberty without all impediments whatsoever without all trouble of mind and body When shall I have solid peace secure and undisturbed peace peace within and without peace every way assured O good Jesus when shall I stand to behold thee When shall I contemplate the glory of thy Kingdom When wilt thou be unto me All in all O when shall I be with thee in thy Kingdom which thou hast prepared for thy beloved from all eternity I am left a poor and banished Man in the land of mine enemies where there are daily wars and great calamities 4. Comfort my banishment asswage my sorrow for my whole desire fighteth after thee For all is burdensome to me whatsoever this world offereth for my comfort I long to enjoy thee most inwardly but I cannot attain unto it My desire is that I may be wholly given up to Heavenly things but temporal things and unmortified passions weigh me down With the mind I would be above all things but with the flesh I am inforced to be subject against my will Thus unhappy Man that I am I fight against my self and am become grievous to my self whilst my spirit seeketh to be above and my flesh to be below 5. O what do I inwardly suffer when in my mind I consider Heavenly things and presently in my prayers a multitude of carnal imaginations present themselves before me My God be not far from me depart not in thy wrath from thy Servant Cast forth thy lightning and disperse them send out thy darts and break all the imaginations which my enemy casts in Gather in call home my senses unto thee make me forget all the things of this world grant me to cast away speedily the imaginations of wickedness Succor me O thou the everlasting Truth that no vanity may move me Come Heavenly sweetness and let all impurity fly from before thee Pardon me also and mercifully forgive me as often as I think upon any thing else besides thee in prayer I do truly confess that I am wont to be subject to many distractions for oftentimes I am not there where I do corporally stand or sit but I am rather there whither my thoughts do carry me Where my thought is there am I there is oftentimes my thought where my affection is That quickly offereth it self unto me which is naturally delightsom or by custom is pleasing 6. And for this cause thou that art Truth it self hast plainly said Where thy treasure is there is also thy heart If I love Heaven I willingly think of Heavenly things If I love the world I rejoyce at the felicity of the world and grieve for the adversity thereof If I love the flesh I shall fancy oftentimes those things that are pleasing to the flesh If I love the spirit