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offendor_n 2._o rome_n 2._o shall_v be_v make_v a_o shelter_n for_o million_o to_o continue_v in_o offend_v when_o his_o just_a justice_n execute_v upon_o thousand_o for_o such_o transgression_n will_v hardly_o bring_v any_o to_o a_o true_a cessation_n till_o the_o vice_n have_v leave_v they_o not_o they_o it_o therefore_o i_o must_v conclude_v with_o god_n own_o word_n 22.12_o apoc._n 22.12_o i_o will_v exercise_v judgement_n in_o weight_n and_o justice_n in_o measure_n fjnjs_fw-la
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suffering_n and_o not_o any_o assurement_n of_o safety_n for_o we_o to_o build_v â—â—n_fw-la thus_o be_v deprive_v as_o you_o â—ay_v perceive_v from_o all_o hope_n in_o the_o â—â—ue_n of_o god_n by_o my_o disobedience_n â—rom_o all_o mercy_n by_o my_o matchless_a presumption_n and_o from_o all_o comfort_n in_o malefactor_n by_o my_o superlatiâ—_n transgression_n together_o with_o inwaâ—â—_n grief_n of_o the_o joy_n i_o have_v lose_v aâ—â—_n the_o woeful_a exchange_n of_o heaven_n fâ—_n hell_n bring_v i_o into_o that_o desperate_a ecstasy_n as_o i_o fall_v sudden_o on_o thâ—_n ground_n in_o a_o trance_n where_o dive_v judgement_n of_o god_n reiterated_a to_o 〈◊〉_d memory_n that_o be_v execute_v already_o upon_o his_o dear_a servant_n for_o less_o â—â—fences_n which_o close_v all_o the_o faculty_n of_o my_o body_n and_o soul_n into_o a_o oâ—â—_n scure_a darkness_n but_o thanks_n be_v 〈◊〉_d the_o divine_a providence_n that_o
restore_v i_o soon_o after_o to_o my_o former_a tranquillity_n and_o have_v recover_v a_o seâ—sible_a feel_n my_o oppress_a heart_n desire_v to_o know_v whether_o his_o judgement_n be_v so_o severe_a as_o my_o apprehension_n lead_v i_o i_o sudden_o maâ—â—_n to_o my_o poor_a cave_n god_n know_v â—th_o trouble_v thought_n for_o my_o coâ—â—tions_n be_v either_o drown_n or_o â—â—cuting_v myself_o yet_o those_o assalt_v â—asily_o repulse_v by_o god_n assist_v â—â—mission_n with_o the_o precedent_n of_o juâ—â—â—_n and_o the_o like_a but_o then_o open_v 〈◊〉_d book_n of_o the_o old_a and_o new_a testament_n there_o i_o find_v our_o first_o parent_n â—â—am_n who_o god_n give_v dominion_n the_o whole_a world_n 3.17_o gen._n 3.17_o yet_o for_o eat_v â—â—e_z apple_n forbid_v though_o it_o be_v the_o intisement_n of_o another_o he_o and_o â—â—s_o posterity_n be_v extinguish_v for_o â—â—er_n 20.27.33_o num._n 20.27.33_o likewise_o moses_n and_o aaron_n notwithstanding_o they_o can_v obtain_v â—â—y_a thing_n at_o god_n hand_n yet_o for_o that_o â—â—ey_n somewhat_o doubt_v of_o the_o mirage_n promise_v by_o god_n they_o be_v deâ—tred_v for_o ever_o go_v into_o the_o land_n of_o promise_n 15.17.18.23_o 1._o sam._n 15.17.18.23_o again_o saul_n who_o 〈◊〉_d choose_v to_o be_v the_o first_o king_n of_o his_o pâ—ple_n be_v degrade_v of_o his_o dignity_n 〈◊〉_d give_v over_o to_o the_o hand_n of_o a_o eâ—spirit_n for_o that_o he_o do_v but_o reserve_v so_o certain_a spoil_n of_o war_n be_v command_v to_o the_o contrary_n 10.2_o levit._fw-la 10.2_o beside_o sudden_a kill_n of_o nadah_n and_o abâ—â—_n son_n of_o aaron_n for_o once_o offer_v their_o fire_n then_o be_v appoint_v thâ—â—_n the_o strike_v dead_a of_o ananias_n 〈◊〉_d sapphira_n for_o only_o retain_v soâ—â—_n part_n of_o their_o own_o good_n by_o dece_n from_o the_o apostle_n 5.10_o acts._n 5.10_o likewise_o the_o iection_n of_o cain_n and_o his_o lineage_n forquer_o straight_o upon_o his_o murder_n 7.10_o gen._n 7.10_o â—â—sides_v benjamin_n the_o only_a son_n of_o â—â—cob_n who_o god_n love_v so_o dear_o 20._o gen._n 4.2_o judg._n 20._o 〈◊〉_d for_o one_o sin_n that_o be_v commit_v gibeah_n upon_o the_o wife_n of_o a_o leuâ—_n â—od_v destroy_v almost_o the_o whole_a â—â—be_n of_o man_n woman_n and_o child_n â—ith_o many_o other_o example_n which_o â—aring_v to_o claim_v any_o alliance_n of_o jue_n i_o surcease_v with_o repentance_n that_o i_o â—ad_v they_o o_o my_o dear_a brother_n that_o 〈◊〉_d presumptuous_a sinner_n have_v feel_v the_o â—â—ck_n of_o my_o torture_n at_o the_o same_o instant_a â—â—ey_n will_v have_v confess_v in_o their_o eart_n that_o god_n be_v severe_a and_o just_a as_o â—e_n be_v infinite_o merciful_a yet_o my_o conâ—ience_n always_o assure_v i_o he_o never_o â—ft_v a_o sinner_n that_o desire_v true_o to_o reâ—ent_n without_o a_o sinner_n forsake_v he_o â—hich_v be_v some_o ease_n to_o my_o surcharged_a suffering_n but_o the_o arch-enemy_n â—f_a man_n continue_v his_o rhetoricke_n â—nd_v application_n of_o despair_n reveaâ—ng_v always_o to_o my_o memory_n these_o â—nd_n the_o like_a herse-like_a sound_a precedent_n of_o holy_a writ_n if_o the_o righteoâ—_n shall_v scarce_o be_v save_v where_o shall_v â—_o ungodly_a and_o sinner_n appear_v 4.17.18_o 1._o pet._n 4.17.18_o and_o judgement_n begin_v at_o the_o house_n of_o goâ—_n what_o shall_v the_o expectation_n or_o end_n wicked_a man_n be_v howsoever_o i_o doubt_v not_o in_o the_o mercy_n of_o my_o saviour_n but_o in_o my_o own_o base_a and_o unworthy_a demerit_n for_o that_o he_o be_v certaineâ—_n faithful_a 10.23_o heb._n 10.23_o if_o i_o hold_v fast_o the_o profession_n of_o my_o faith_n according_a to_o the_o measuâ—_n which_o he_o have_v give_v i_o yet_o whâ—_n with_o satan_n assault_v my_o sinnâ—_n afflict_v and_o fear_v of_o not_o obtain_v god_n favour_n it_o transform_a 〈◊〉_d from_o what_o i_o be_v to_o the_o portraiâ—uâ—_n of_o a_o anatomy_n as_o the_o inhabitant_n near_o adjoin_v to_o the_o sayâ—_n isle_n can_v witness_v for_o those_o thaâ—_n come_v to_o visit_v i_o out_o of_o charity_n pity_v i_o and_o i_o in_o christianity_n grieve_v as_o much_o for_o their_o ignorance_n which_o be_v by_o his_o sacred_a pleasure_n bring_v to_o death_n door_n and_o ready_a to_o yield_v up_o the_o ghost_n in_o a_o lamentable_a spectacle_n between_o hope_n and_o despair_n at_o last_o there_o appear_v spirituall-wise_a a_o apparition_n of_o my_o own_o picture_n the_o prodigal_a son_n 15._o luk._n 15._o without_o intermission_n to_o my_o soul_n and_o sense_n which_o do_v reflect_v so_o much_o internal_a comfort_n as_o a_o woman_n in_o the_o agony_n of_o her_o pain_n joy_n to_o see_v a_o manchilde_n bear_v into_o the_o world_n 16.21_o john_n 16.21_o and_o forget_v her_o past_a suffering_n even_o so_o the_o daily_a contemplation_n of_o this_o cordial_a parable_n restore_v i_o to_o that_o height_n of_o happiness_n as_o it_o do_v more_o avert_v the_o dolour_n of_o grief_n sorrow_n and_o despair_n than_o all_o the_o felicity_n i_o receive_v by_o precedent_n in_o the_o olâ—_n and_o new_a testament_n but_o when_o my_o conscience_n assure_v i_o the_o first_o part_n of_o his_o life_n i_o have_v act_v to_o my_o eternal_a destruction_n and_o that_o of_o necessity_n i_o must_v follow_v the_o second_o to_o obtain_v my_o redemption_n otherwise_o it_o will_v prove_v infortunate_a and_o fatal_a which_o have_v ponder_v upon_o the_o imbecility_n of_o my_o own_o nature_n the_o allurement_n of_o the_o world_n and_o continual_a assault_n of_o satan_n i_o fear_v it_o will_v prove_v too_o strict_a a_o captivity_n for_o i_o to_o pass_v through_o whereupon_o i_o plead_v our_o saviour_n die_v for_o all_o sinner_n yet_o my_o conscience_n answer_v it_o be_v for_o none_o but_o those_o which_o true_o believe_v he_o in_o their_o life_n and_o unfainedlie_o repent_v in_o their_o heart_n which_o make_v i_o remember_v the_o dreadful_a say_n of_o christ_n himself_o 9.27_o rom._n 9.27_o few_o be_v the_o number_n that_o shall_v be_v save_v o_o affectionate_a brother_n that_o all_o my_o prodigal_a expense_n have_v be_v transform_v into_o pious_a charity_n my_o former_a pleasure_n into_o penitent_a prayer_n and_o my_o vain_a discourse_n into_o true_a confession_n then_o have_v i_o not_o live_v a_o diligent_a slave_n to_o satan_n 5.16_o jam._n 5.16_o but_o a_o dutiful_a servant_n to_o my_o saviour_n which_o god_n know_v now_o the_o neglect_n of_o either_o so_o much_o sound_v reprobate_a as_o make_v i_o descend_v with_o a_o doleful_a heart_n and_o allege_v my_o birthright_n by_o baptism_n but_o like_o a_o soft_a air_n it_o answer_v not_o elect_v by_o adoption_n reiterate_v to_o my_o perplex_a thought_n the_o precedent_n â—_o infortunate_a esau_n who_o find_v nâ—_n place_n of_o repentance_n 12.17_o heb._n 12.17_o though_o he_o seek_v it_o careful_o with_o tear_n but_o when_o at_o last_o i_o read_v the_o fear_n full_a say_n of_o our_o saviour_n maniâ—_n be_v call_v 20.10_o mat._n 20.10_o but_o few_o be_v choose_v o_o what_o a_o immortal_a wound_v â—_o give_v i_o for_o my_o decrepit_a hopâ—_n enforce_v i_o to_o curse_v conception_n birth_n &_o life_n wish_v the_o plague_n of_o egypt_n have_v be_v my_o copartner_n rather_o than_o those_o deceitful_a pleasure_n my_o companion_n which_o make_v i_o so_o incapable_a of_o creation_n redemption_n and_o election_n i_o thus_o continue_v in_o this_o woeful_a spectacle_n for_o the_o space_n of_o two_o day_n not_o care_v to_o minister_v either_o rest_n or_o nourishment_n to_o my_o wearisome_a body_n but_o do_v whole_o contemplate_v on_o my_o forlornd_a estate_n say_v to_o myself_o how_o shall_v i_o know_v whether_o i_o be_v elect_v or_o not_o the_o spirit_n answer_v either_o by_o a_o good_a life_n or_o true_a repentance_n which_o upon_o examination_n be_v small_a comfort_n to_o i_o have_v neither_o perform_v the_o one_o nor_o endeavour_v the_o other_o whereupon_o find_v myself_o by_o the_o allurement_n of_o satan_n vanity_n of_o the_o world_n and_o frailty_n of_o nature_n bring_v into_o so_o desperate_a wretched_a and_o dangerous_a case_n that_o if_o i_o do_v not_o forsake_v myself_o there_o be_v no_o salvation_n but_o damnation_n notwithstanding_o his_o death_n and_o passion_n which_o conjure_v i_o by_o god_n permission_n faithful_o to_o resolve_v to_o discard_v all_o pleasure_n doubt_n scruple_n or_o fear_n and_o whole_o depend_v upon_o the_o sweet_a say_n of_o our_o saviour_n 1.18_o esay_n 1.18_o though_o my_o sin_n be_v as_o red_a as_o scarlet_a yet_o he_o will_v make_v they_o as_o white_a as_o snow_n if_o so_o be_v my_o repentance_n proceed_v from_o contrition_n of_o heart_n during_o life_n otherwise_o i_o may_v fear_v mistrust_v despair_n for_o i_o shall_v much_o robâ—_n god_n of_o his_o justice_n in_o dependingâ—_n upon_o his_o mercy_n 85.10_o joh._n 15.22_o psal_n 85.10_o and_o damn_v myâ—_n soul_n with_o presume_v on_o his_o favour_n when_o himself_o protest_v they_o both_o kiss_v each_o other_o
of_o penitent_a tear_n fit_a for_o transgressor_n and_o sorrow_n due_a to_o sinner_n o_o my_o saviour_n no_o how_o then_o can_v thou_o deny_v i_o when_o i_o sue_v for_o no_o more_o but_o what_o thyself_o have_v assure_v i_o o_o my_o christ_n be_v these_o the_o eye_n that_o have_v displease_v thou_o let_v they_o receive_v no_o light_n through_o thou_o be_v this_o the_o heart_n which_o have_v dishonour_v thou_o let_v it_o bleed_v to_o death_n for_o thou_o be_v this_o the_o flesh_n which_o have_v offend_v thou_o let_v fire_n be_v her_o fuel_n by_o thou_o be_v these_o the_o bone_n which_o have_v bring_v i_o woe_n let_v they_o be_v burn_v and_o bear_v no_o more_o or_o be_v these_o the_o sense_n which_o have_v sin_v against_o thou_o let_v they_o be_v a_o live_a sacrifice_n to_o thou_o o_o my_o god_n i_o be_o rack_v with_o grief_n that_o i_o can_v grieve_v and_o perplex_v in_o repentance_n that_o i_o know_v not_o how_o to_o repent_v for_o to_o proceed_v after_o the_o world_n weakness_n i_o suspect_v thou_o see_v their_o wilful_a ignorance_n and_o if_o i_o follow_v thy_o gospel_n professor_n i_o fear_v thou_o find_v they_o full_a of_o scandal_n distraction_n and_o worldly_a perturbation_n what_o then_o sweet_a saviour_n will_v become_v of_o i_o forlorn_a creature_n that_o have_v no_o relief_n but_o sin_n to_o succour_v i_o satan_n to_o assist_v i_o and_o a_o guilty_a conscience_n to_o comfort_v i_o without_o thy_o sacred_a suffering_n make_v intercession_n for_o i_o and_o accept_v thy_o saint_n oblation_n for_o sinner_n to_o thou_o i_o shall_v be_v force_v to_o curse_v my_o conception_n and_o wish_v my_o mother_n womb_n have_v be_v my_o tomb_n to_o have_v form_v i_o a_o lump_n of_o flesh_n without_o life_n or_o any_o creature_n but_o thy_o image_n for_o than_o have_v i_o live_v according_a to_o creation_n and_o not_o liable_a to_o eternal_a damnation_n yet_o most_o merciful_a and_o immortal_a father_n shall_v my_o agonied_a soul_n suspect_v to_o suffer_v shipwreck_n when_o thou_o guide_v the_o stern_a or_o despair_n and_o die_v when_o thou_o be_v live_v or_o curse_v her_o birth_n when_o thou_o be_v in_o be_v o_o my_o god_n rather_o let_v she_o taste_v the_o torture_n of_o hell_n then_o be_v deprive_v of_o life_n and_o lose_v her_o hope_n in_o the_o joy_n of_o heaven_n let_v then_o satan_n assay_v his_o best_a and_o the_o wicked_a world_n her_o worst_a my_o deject_a soul_n have_v set_v up_o her_o rest_n in_o thou_o that_o make_v she_o to_o save_v she_o lord_n i_o beseech_v thou_o to_o say_v amen_o the_o supplication_n of_o a_o prodigal_n my_o god_n my_o refuge_n my_o mercy_n how_o dare_v i_o remember_v thy_o greatness_n when_o the_o billow_n of_o my_o cry_a sin_n have_v raise_v the_o wrath_n of_o thy_o omnipotent_a person_n who_o out_o of_o mere_a divine_a love_n to_o pious_a charity_n creat_v i_o after_o thy_o own_o image_n redeem_v i_o be_v lose_v and_o in_o a_o word_n give_v i_o all_o i_o ever_o have_v yet_o have_v i_o so_o much_o dishonour_v the_o deity_n of_o thy_o glory_n that_o i_o make_v the_o pleasure_n of_o this_o life_n my_o god_n on_o earth_n and_o now_o they_o be_v turn_v my_o torment_a accuser_n of_o death_n o_o sacred_a father_n bequeath_v the_o plague_n of_o egypt_n for_o my_o talon_n rather_o than_o this_o deceitful_a world_n to_o my_o portion_n which_o have_v not_o only_o breed_v i_o disobedient_a towards_o thou_o that_o make_v i_o a_o traitor_n to_o thy_o son_n that_o die_v for_o i_o but_o sacrific'de_v my_o own_o soul_n to_o be_v the_o fuel_n of_o hell_n fire_n o_o deadly_a life_n of_o immortal_a death_n what_o shall_v i_o term_v thou_o the_o shape_n of_o a_o christian_a which_o without_o thy_o sacred_a intercession_n for_o thy_o never_o die_a mercy_n i_o shall_v remain_v quicken_v with_o the_o fiend_n of_o hell_n to_o future_a age_n for_o ever_o o_o do_v not_o thou_o sweet_a saviour_n forget_v the_o pity_n of_o thy_o goodness_n though_o i_o have_v lose_v the_o duty_n of_o my_o obedience_n but_o grant_v the_o same_o favour_n to_o i_o thou_o give_v the_o thief_n upon_o the_o cross_n look_v upon_o the_o tear_n of_o my_o misery_n with_o the_o passion_n of_o thy_o mercy_n and_o if_o neither_o grief_n groan_n sigh_n nor_o sorrow_n can_v appease_v thy_o just_a wrath_n why_o do_v thou_o make_v i_o wherefore_o be_v thy_o death_n who_o will_v thou_o save_v or_o be_v thou_o another_o god_n now_o then_o when_o thou_o be_v merciful_a to_o the_o oppress_a a_o father_n of_o the_o godly_a and_o a_o advocate_n for_o the_o damn_a if_o they_o repent_v o_o then_o enrich_v my_o soul_n with_o a_o divine_a sorrow_n for_o my_o joy_n the_o agony_n of_o death_n for_o my_o comfort_n that_o i_o may_v neither_o presume_v of_o thy_o favour_n nor_o despair_n of_o thy_o mercy_n but_o have_v thy_o great_a name_n glorify_v thy_o sacred_a death_n satisfy_v and_o thy_o poor_a forlorn_a sinner_n save_v lord_n i_o beseech_v thou_o say_z amen_o ¶_o the_o prodigalle_n prayer_n o_o dear_a and_o omnipotent_a god_n i_o here_o stand_v guilty_a of_o all_o the_o barbarous_a and_o inhuman_a sin_n which_o satan_n can_v object_v against_o the_o cursedst_v creature_n live_v for_o i_o have_v presumptuous_o commit_v more_o riot_n and_o offence_n than_o either_o heathen_a pagan_a turk_n or_o infidel_n beside_o treacherouslie_o make_v thy_o name_n a_o cloak_n for_o my_o own_o villainy_n thus_o dear_a saviour_n have_v i_o live_v a_o smooth_a factor_n for_o satan_n to_o the_o utter_a subversion_n and_o deprivation_n of_o eternal_a felicity_n and_o purchase_v the_o reward_n of_o condemnation_n with_o endless_a misery_n break_v o_o my_o big_a swell_a heart_n lest_o a_o thunderbolt_n from_o heaven_n prevent_v thou_o gush_v forth_o into_o a_o flood_n of_o tear_n thou_o crocodile_n by_o nature_n in_o be_v such_o a_o curse_a reprobate_a to_o forget_v thy_o maker_n a_o devil_n incarnate_a for_o crucify_a thy_o redeemer_n ah_o savage_a beast_n can_v neither_o creation_n redemption_n nor_o daily_a blessing_n mollify_v my_o flinty_a heart_n to_o honour_v thou_o as_o a_o father_n fear_v thou_o as_o a_o god_n or_o love_v thou_o as_o a_o saviour_n but_o must_v so_o judas-like_o sacrifice_v thy_o image_n to_o the_o enemy_n thy_o courtesy_n to_o cruelty_n and_o thy_o redemption_n to_o my_o dreadful_a destruction_n o_o indignation_n of_o the_o almighty_a fall_v not_o upon_o i_o though_o i_o have_v sow_v the_o ungrateful_a seed_n of_o plutarch_n air_n for_o scorpion_n to_o bite_v my_o flesh_n and_o snake_n to_o suck_v my_o blood_n yet_o most_o merciful_a father_n shall_v my_o miserable_a soul_n despair_n when_o thy_o omnipotent_a person_n die_v for_o deject_a sinner_n or_o can_v i_o presume_v to_o hope_v see_v thou_o have_v punish_v thy_o dear_a servant_n for_o less_o offence_n never_o o_o lord_n in_o my_o wretched_a self_n but_o by_o the_o unspeakable_a death_n and_o passion_n which_o be_v able_a to_o relieve_v the_o sick_a heal_v the_o lame_a restore_v the_o blind_a and_o help_v the_o distress_a to_o thou_o i_o submissive_a come_v who_o sacred_a wisdom_n know_v that_o man_n be_v rottenness_n his_o desire_n vanity_n and_o life_n misery_n will_v thou_o therefore_o show_v thy_o strength_n against_o so_o poor_a a_o worm_n as_o man_n that_o have_v neither_o creation_n preservation_n nor_o habitation_n but_o by_o thy_o divine_a providence_n o_o then_o dear_a father_n remit_v the_o execution_n of_o thy_o justice_n enlarge_v the_o liberality_n of_o thy_o mercy_n and_o extend_v thy_o holy_a spirit_n on_o i_o thy_o lose_a sâ—ruant_n that_o i_o may_v neither_o curse_v my_o birth_n nor_o be_v thou_o repent_v of_o thy_o creation_n or_o redeem_n to_o the_o end_n i_o may_v live_v in_o thy_o fear_n die_v in_o thy_o favour_n rest_n in_o thy_o peace_n rise_v in_o thy_o power_n and_o remain_v in_o thy_o glory_n lord_n i_o beseech_v thou_o say_v amen_o to_o the_o right_n honourable_a william_n earl_n of_o derby_n my_o honour_a lord_n i_o do_v not_o know_v how_o far_o this_o my_o solitary_a life_n may_v 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