the practise of holy Meditation In this Experience will be every ones best Counseller If place permits no other Isaacs posture to meditate walking is very good But kneeling with hands crossed on the breast the eyes shutt face towards heaven sometimes prostrate on the ground is a posture more genuine naturall How ever it be be sure the frame of thy body testifie profound reverence towards God help to raise thy thoughts affections thitherward Our devotions will be most kindly whē the composure of the body which is the souls instrument is most humble respectfull this also must needs be sometimes varied according to the subject of thy Contemplation §. 7. Subject of Solitary thoughts Now for the subject matter wheron thou art to feed during this holy Solitude thou must use great circumspectiō I doubt not Philothea there be many Contemplatiues but not all good ones One meditates how to doe his Neighbour a mischeife another how to sin unseene these are those who as David sayes Doe meditate Iniquity in their beds Others are buisy in the search of the hidden causes of visible effects so seeking to be acquainted with the whole world become strangers to their owne home whilst they seek to know others are quite unknowne to them selves Doe you therefore choose to meditate on that may doe thee good The God that made us the vilenesse of our body by Nature the wretchednesse of our soule by sin the aboundance of temptations the danger of sudden death the beauty of Vertue JESUS CHRIST who bought us the joyes of Heaven he purchased for us the mysteries of his life Death Resurrection the benefitt of the Sacraments our vocation to Christianity the payns of Hell the glorious estate of the Blessed such like are fitt objects I should think to entertayne thy felfe there in Earthly things proffer themselves on their own accord with importunity but if they were any thing worth they would not be so forward Heavenly things must be sued unto with eagernesse their hardnesse to be obtayned argues their worth the necessity of serious meditation thereby to sollicite them The harder they are to prosecute the more precious they are being obtayned therefore the more worthy our Endeavour While the soule is takē up with the thought of God Godlinesse it cannot miscarry Yet I advise thee to be cautious in matters of faith where more of beleife admiration is to be used then of reason discourse And that matter without exception is best herein which workes compunctiō in the heart most stirrs up to devotion incites strongly to the love of God as the End to Vertue as the means to him wherein experience will be a great mistresse §. 8. A Methode of Meditation IT remains now that I say something of the forme Methode which thou art to observe in dividing thy Meditatiō in handling the parts points thereof But this hath much variety amongst Contemplatives each way is usefull laudable as it is fitted to persons that use it For since there be different mansions in Gods glory no wonder there should be different means to purchase them according to the variety of each ones disposition All are not equally either worldly or Contemplative so neither equally disposed for the like Illuminations nor capable of pursueing the same heads or points of Meditation S. Bonaventures Methode usually practised amongst us liked of by the best is breife easy well ordred much helps the Memory a faculty which hath great influēce in this blessed work According to this Meditation or mentall prayer is divided into three parts which are Preparation Meditation which being the cheife part retains the generall name Conclusion Preparation maketh way for Meditation Meditation ruminates upon the matter giveth strength life to our Recollection Conclusion closeth up the whole Exercise Preparation first places us in the presence of God with whom wee are to make our speciall conference to our advancement comfort with all feare reverence Then secondly it chooseth the Mystery or subject whereon wee intend as present to settle our thoughts Thirdly it implores helpe from Heaven whereby our weaknesse may be sustained in this heavenly work enabled resolutely to goe through with it And truly sith the ancient Heathens never attempted any notable businesse without a solemne apprecation of good successe a Christian or Religious soule should not presume to undertake a spirituall work of such importance as this is without first craving aide from heaven wherein we are unable to doe well without Gods assistāce We must therefore beg earnestly that the progresse of our Meditation may be guided blessed by him that he would banish all distractions enlighten our understanding quicken our judgment rectify our will whett our affections to heavenly things kindle our devotion so enlarge our hearts towards himselfe that wee may find our Imperfections abated vertue strengthned our soule every way bettered by our Solitude Meditation hath also three parts Consideration ponders seriously the subject wee have chosen thereby to stirr up our Affectiōs to God goodnesse thereon to ground our ensueing Resolutiōs But care must be taken that the mind be not wracked by a too vehement inquiry for this will tire out the phansy interrupt the cheife work It will suffice to take the most pregnant obvious Lett these Considerations be but three at the most And if thy soule finds sufficient satisfaction light fruit in the first of them dwell there without going further give way to the Holy Ghost to work his will in thee But if thou findest not there the expected successe passe quietly on to another but besure to goe on sweetly easily in thy search without tiring thy selfe too much thou wilt find little pleasure in the Kernell if thou breakest thy teeth with the shell Affection succeedeth where to if our Consideratiōs reach not they wil prove vain or to little purpose For this is the soule of Meditation to which the former parts serve only as instruments As we are reasonable Creatures by our reason discourse so are we Christians Religious by our good will affections towards heavenly things Wherefore the former labour of the mind being undertakē to move the Affective part of the soule after the understāding hath traverst the point proposed the will must endeavour by applying herselfe therto with all earnestnesse to find some feeling relish in it which fruit through Gods blessing will follow a deliberate Consideration of some moveing object And in these Affections we must permit our soule to spread dilate as much as possible if thou findest thy heart to pant swell with aboundant sweetnesse ease it by some gentle Aspirations amorous sighs as God shall then inspire Thee The last is Resolution wherein the soule bewayling her poverty dulnesse imperfections which may happily appear then in
Exercise reflecting seriously on every Instructiō how thou mayest reduce thē to practice The other houres till Seven admit of no sett rules for distribution of them by reason of the different times of evening prayers refection according to the customes of severall families However one houre is to be spent in praying vocally making Aspirations review of that dayes task for confirmatiō of good purposes another in saying Evensong the last in taking thy evening repast thanksgiving for benefits praying for benefactours living dead From Seven take some easy divertisement whereby to release thy thoughts by walking or using some moderate corporall Exercice for the space of halfe an houre then seriously examine thy Conscience how thou hast employed that day beg pardon for defects make thy Crosses read over the First point of thy next dayes Exercise going to bed say with the Royall Prophet In peace I will sleep rest because thou O Lord hast singularly setled me in hope This is all Philothea I have to advise thee Complayn not of my over-longnesse The labour is mine my ayme thy benefit I have according to my ability prescribed thee a Method of practising holy Solitude according to the knowledge gaind from skilfull Masters in that Art what use experience hath taught me to be most profitable when custome experience shall shew thee a better forme feare not to use it in Gods name for divers paths lead to the same place though the spirit of God be but One yet ther is diversitie of graces Use this way till thou meet with a better and pray for thy well willer Farwell Philothea's Pilgrimage to Perfection Described in a Practise of Ten dayes Solitude FIRST DAYES VOYAGE Inducements to Solitude THE MORNING EXERCISE FIRST POINT Dignitie of Solitude CONSIDERATION COnsider That no other earthlie condition can equall the happinesse which may be attained by means of retyrement T is a Heaven upon earth seperating us from the rest of the world contented with it's own tranquillitie delights such it will be to us if we can alienate our hearts from worldly cares creatures walk innocently with our blessed God in the observance of his commandements the performance of solitarie duties T is the Schole of all Christian knowledg vertues wherein we may learn that our body is composed of disagreeing elements ever tending to a dissolution that our dearest friends may be taken frō us by untimely death therefor no lasting hopes to be placed in them That our nature is easly ledd away with the allurements of visible objects whereas God only can fill the longings of our soul In a word that all those things wherein poore man is so miserably turmoild are a meere Vexation Vanitie hinder us from listning to those delicious whispers which our Beloved desires to impart to our affectionate souls It is also a Sanctuarie of the ever blessed Deitie for although our Immense God fils all places by an infinite diffusion of his Essence yet he is specially in those which are segregated to his contemplation worship where he opens the rich treasuries of his love bountie reveals his will to his servants in silent secret conferences with them Since therfore Philothea thy Beloved hath drawn Thee hither here to parlie with thy heart to disclose the hidden pathes of his ayding comforting graces to take up his lodging in thy soul see that nothing remain therein offensive to his will which may blūt the edg of thy conceived affections to pietie or darken thy spirituall Eie from beholding his all-sufficing beauty For onlie the clean of heart may see God rejoyce in the plentie of his holy house AFFECTION Oh how beloved are the Tabernacles of my God! better is one day there then thousands in the Courts of Sinners who love not to think on their Creatour O Hierusalem O sweet vision of Peace O happy desart O sacred Mansion of heaven aspiring Souls be thou ever the begining of my joyes I know acknowledg O my God My onlie refuge comfort that there is no pleasant peace no saving knowledg no true Repose but in Thee that all things are Vanity beneath Thee but even that Vanity cannot I despise without Thee therfore Thou O God how long RESOLUTION Hence forth My Solitude shall be my Beatitude My Eden my Heaven the world shall keep what ever it calls its own with all the perills discontents miseries that belong to it if my soul be at any time in distresse I will stay my sorrows with the hopes of those true consolations which my Divine Lord hath promised to those whom he leads thither And since I may there understand all divine truth obtain all helping Vertues Graces I will turne my heart from creatures that I may under the conduct of Gods divine Spirit learn the wayes of Perfection And I will carefully cleanse my soul from all sinns affections to forbidden contents whereby it hath hitherto been hindred to walk to with God to discover the depth of his greatness goodness to me Nor will I loos the precious time which God hath alowed me wherein to work my Salvation converse with him in holy Solitude To Thee O Lord will I reveale the secrets of my heart in Thee will I trust I shall not be ashamed because Thou art A strong helper SECOND POINT Innocencie of Solitude CONSIDERATION COnsider That Solitude is more Innocent Holie then that course of life that spends it's selfe in conversing with creatures Being exempt from manyfold occasiōs of offending or being offended by others from snares scandals irksome turmoiles which are apt to shake our strongest Resolutions to pietie destroy the evennesse of our hearts in the performance of our usuall Christian duties Again our conversation with worldly persons oft engages our hearts in irregular affections solicitudes we being naturally over-prone to adheare to sensible satisfactions too feeble weake in resisting their flattering alurements therfor are therby putt in hazard of loosing our best hopes whereas Solitude withdrawing our thoughts from such occasiōs of sin give us means of purchasing that blessednesse here which abroad we endanger wherfor the now glorious Saints whose lives should be our paterns arrived to the joys they are possest of by withdrawing from worldly conversation confining themselves to Innocent Solitude And hence it is that abandoning superfluous conversation with earthlie Creatures we begin to be conversant with God in some degree approach to imitate the Innocent peacefull life of the already glorifyed Angells in heaven Their life conversation must needs be heavenlie who disdayning earthlie blessings thirst after those of the Saints by knowing loving enjoying him who alone can make them happy What greater happiness My Philothea then being sequestred from vaine tyresome Creatures even amidst the toyls of our unhappy Mortality to enjoy
Origin thou art but a little matter of corruption The Greatest the Wisest the Beautifullest amongst us is of no better mould In our birth we enter the world with many greivous gripings groans of our Parents naked blind poore unable to help our-selves ignorant how we come hither how whither to depart In our lives we are exposed to innumerable calamities of sicknesse povertie wars calumnies with much pain must conserve our lives health with fruits of the Earth flesh of beasts And at last in our Deaths dissolved into lāguors sighs teares are hurried forth from the eies thoughts of our dearest friends layd under groūd there to rott into our Originall dust ashes This is the pedigree of the best of us as to our out-ward Man so that we may justly cry out What is Man O God that thou art mindfull of him If God be mindfull of our Nothing surely we should have a continuall remembrance of it least the sweetnesse of Divine Solitude the pleasing Entertainments we may therin experience between our Souls God puff us up with affections of Vain Glory AFFECTION Unhappy Man that I am who will deliver me from this body of Death I am born poore miserable live amidst crosses sorrows must dye with groans gasps shall rott into my mother Earth Ah my Soul since the one halfe of Man is so vile be thou still humble Lucifers pride had some plea if he were proud he was immortall also but Man can find nothing in himselfe but filth weaknesse corruption Shall I then presume to speak to God who am but dust ashes Alas should I say I am better the graves carcasses of the Monarchs beauties of the World would beare witnesse against me RESOLUTION In what ever degree of comtemplation or condition of life I am I will ever be mindfull of my Originall Nothing the miserable progresse I must make through wants diseases tribulations of all sorts from the Womb to the Tōb I will with holie Job say to Rottennesse thou art my Father my Mother Sister to the Wormes This is my kindred my Companions are a multitude of too well known Infirmities Therefor Gods Greatnesse my own Vilenesse shall be the ballances of my thoughts I will hope that the Mercy of God will one day raise the needy from the dust of the Earth lift the poore from the dung place them amongst the Princes of his people SECOND POINT Wretchnesse of the Soul by Sin CONSIDERATION COnsider That if thou beest nothing but corruption rottennesse in thy body thy Soul defiled by Sin renders thee worse then nothing for by sin we become the unhappy vessells of Gods heavy wrath he spared not the Angels in their sins but deprived them of all their originall endowments of nature grace banishes them for ever from his blissfull presence confines them to the dreadfull prison tormēts of Hell nor will he spare us but if we be partners in their crimes he will also make us Companions in their bitter suffrings Evident in our first Parents whom for one sin he deprives of the innocent state of their originall Creation expells them the Earthly Paradice condemns them us to mourn out this wretched life amidst labours sweats innumerable miseries as chastisers of our guilt We also through Sin incurr an insufferable servitude under the Tyranny of Satan He covets not either honours wealth or pleasures but as to our Lord JESUS in the wildernesse so to us still offers all these if we will doe homage adore him which we no sooner doe but we become Slaves to him he continually assaulting us with manifold greivous temptations using all Creatures even our own flesh bloud passions of sensuality to work our overthrow still plying us with seducing suggestiōs giving no respit from his snares deceipts filling our hearts with distrust of Mercy for past sins despaire of delayd helps from heaven doubts of a finall perseverance in our duties under so heavy a weight of tribulations he raiseth against us Likewise thereby we loose Gods gracious presence fatherly providence over us our right part in the merits of CHRISTS bitter saving Passion the friēdship familiarity of Gods comforting spirit All graces guifts fruits blessings of the holie Ghost the peace security of our Consciences our Communion in the Sacrifices prayers good deeds of the faithfull our claym to our heavenly inheritance And more over we defile in our Souls the beautifull Image of God are razed forth the book of life are deprived of the protection safeguard of the blessed Angels contract greivous remorses of conscience pronesse to greater sins a guilt of hell fire unlesse with a repentant heart we by Confession confusibly discover our sins known to God our Souls only by corporall afflictiōs endeavour to appease Gods just indignation against us for them This is enough to humble the best of us if we have any feeling of our sinfull State AFFECTION Ah my God who can hide from thy all-seeing Eie the abysse of wretchednesse wherein my Sins have already sunck me Alas I am become the unhappy object of thy just wrath the woefull servant of rebellious Satan deprived of thy healing graces exposed to innumerable Miseries Hold thy hand O my Almighty Lord rebuke me not in thy fury for shouldst thou observe iniquities who could sustain the heavinesse of thy displeasure I will therefor confesse unto Thee my unworthinesse to appear before thee to enjoy even the cōmon blessings of heaven earth which I have so oft vainly abused to satisfy my sinfull passions that I ought not to hope for any part in thy blessings of glorie But thou O God hast mercy on thousands wilt comfort the weak afflicted if thou doest humble us it is that we may thereby learn that from thee are our Justifications RESOLUTION I purpose henceforth to have ever before my Eies my sinfull condition whereby I have rendred my selfe thus vile abominable in the sight of God his holy Angels subject to the insolencies of Satan my disorderly passions branded with the infamous mark of one banisht from the face of God I will also acknowledg my selfe guilty of the innocent death of my Saviour JESUS not to deserve from him the least favour either of his justifying grace or all-comforting Glory but that I have rather incurd a just debt of everlasting ignominy confusion And therefor however it shall please God to reveale himselfe to me in this my Solitude I will accept of it as his most gracious guift And the more he exalts me the more will I humble my selfe through the consideratiō of my sinfull State whereby I have provoked his wrath against Mee THIRD POINT Ignorance of our future State CONSIDERATION COnsider That although perhaps thou oft
how superfluous how treacherous how dangerous has singularity of frienships hitherto proved unto Me Adieu all friends henceforth my only trust shall be in God who hath loved me with a perpetuall charity hath engraven me in his hands that he may be ever mindfull of me forsake me not O Lord I will be always with Thee become as a Pilgrim to the children of my Mother RESOLUTION I will couragiously quitt all ties even to my dearest friends when my spirituall concernment requires it whither they love me therefor or hate me wish me well or persecute me I will equally prepare my heart to be loved or persecuted praised or condemned by them behaving my selfe as a Pilgrime to all earthlie Creatures a Cittizen of Heaven I have chosen my solitude with my abādoned Lord Master nor shall any false allurements or harsh dealings change my Resolutions He hath given me a glorious example as he hath done I will endeavour to doe also THIRD POINT Selfe-Denyall CONSIDERATION COnsider That JESUS CHRIST hanging on the Cross is the true patern of selfe-Denyall this was his Doctrin while he lived this his practise in his Passion Death therefor his prayer to his eternall Father was Not mine but thy will be done Behold then how he looseth his bloud in his Agony his Esteem by revilings blasphemies his strength by whipps thorns his comeliness by stripes wounds the joy of the lower Region of his Soul by excess of sorrows his life by a most bitter ignominious Death Thus the most beautifull amongst the children of Men is become as One stricken of God covered with leprosy a man of sorrows If thou desirest Philothea to become perfect thou must also endeavour this selfe-Denyall seperation of thy selfe from thy selfe by abandoning thy own will a readinesse to sacrifize unto God thy tears bloud body soul all the calamities afflictions Gods providence may inflict on thee willingly suffring what ever crosses may befall Thee in conformity to his holy Will the coūsells practise of thy suffring Lord Master There is none of what condition soever but must more or less take up CHRISTS Cross follow him by self-Denyall bearing some tribulation for his sake their own profit Through sin the flesh spirit are at odds sensuality rebells against God no wonder then if wee feele contradictions within our own heart suffrings from the inordinate passions desires or malice of others neither Saint nor Sinner nor any mortall creature is exempt from the Law of the Cross of what Majesty Wisdom Power or Holiness soever he be nor is any of these happy unless resigned to beare all Thou sufferest not alone Philothea All must willingly or against their will suffer with thee which should encourage Thee to an unbroken patience amidst the heaviest press of tribulations which may happen to Thee especially since thy JESUS thy Espous the Giver of all good suffreth so many so long so grievous torments with Thee Nor may we hope to enjoy the consolations of this the other Life we must forgoe one or the other either suffer here or else where which wilt thou choose Is it not much better to undergoe a momentany tribulatiō then an eternall Only worldly pleasures can destroy thee therefor fly frō Them The Cross only whereby the whole world was saved can save Thee Seek it then with it thou shalt find life salvation thy crown of thorns shall be changed into a Crown of never fading Glory if thou hast drunk of the torrent of tribulation with thy crucified Redeemer thou shalt also tast the delicacies of his heavenly Happiness in his Glorious Kingdom AFFECTION If JESUS must suffer ere he enters his glory canst thou O my Soul hope to purchase heaven at an easyer rate No my Dearest Lord since love moved Thee to transfigure thy selfe into a Man of sorrows for my sake love also shall compell me to be conformable to Thee my Holy Espous Let me but enjoy Thee then let what ever tribulations thou pleasest fall upon Me Here cutt here burn so thou sparest me for eternity O Eternity who can live with thy everlasting torments Come therfor O delicious crosses O amiable tribulations by which I may purchase an Eternity of joys RESOLUTION I will prepare my selfe to this spirituall Combat not only endure the tribulations which my sensuality disorderly passions may raise against Me but what ever Crosses the malice of Satan or the sweet providence of my heavenly Father shall inflict upon Me hūbly casting my selfe at the foot of the Cross I will say Behold here O Divine Lord behold here My whole self my Body my Soul my All ready to abandon all contents to suffer all sorrows for Thee Thy will be done Pleasures or pains thorns or diadems life or death all shall be indifferently welcome Only be thou with Me O strong helper none shall prevaile against Me. EVENING EXERCISE FIRST DISCOURSE Spirituall Desolation ALthough our Lord JESUS wer the Beloved of the Eternall Father equall to him in Essence Wisedom Power yet for Us he would become an Outcast deserted by Him Harken Philothea to that lamentable Complaint he makes to his Father upon the Cross My God! My God! why hast thou forsaken Me Though his humane Nature lost not its Union with the Godhead nor the Grace or friendship of God yet the Influence of his Divinity on the inferiour Portion of his Soul was then suspended he left to struggle with the bitterest torments pangs of a most cruel ignominious Death Our Solitary Pilgrim to Perfection must be prepared to welcome this sublime state of Spirituall Desolation if she aspires to an Union Conformity with her heavenly Espous she must not only contentedly abandon all friends beare what ever Crosses but must also willingly be deprived of all those delights which usually accompany a devout Life undergoe Aridities of the spirit loose the savory influences of Gods gracious favours instead of pleasant Illustrations of the Understanding Enflamings of the will flowings of Joy in the heart to have the spirit loaden with dulness barrenness insensibility to heavenly thoughts actions If God thus tryes thy Constancy assure thy selfe Philothea he is even then present with Thee watching in the Center of thy heart over Thee causing aversions from Sin desires to perform the duties of thy state longings to be with God though in that distress a darkness be spredd over thy Soul thou beest deprived of thy usuall cheerfulness alacrity The cause of this our desolation oft is in our selves either a too eager desire of or delight in spirituall consolations or a neglect of timely entertainīg offred inspirations or else too much proneness to seek accept of sensuall satisfactions But the cheife Cause thereof is God only whose property it is to create Light Darkness
perfections Gods Guifts without due reference to him COLLOQUIE I know acknowledg My Dearest Lord that of our selves we cannot either think or say or doe any thing worthy of thee therfore I will confesse to Thee the only Light strength of my Soul that without Thee I am nothing but Vanity blindnesse Misery unlesse thou do'st prevent me with thy blessings moisten my heart with the dew of thy heavenly Graces I shall be unto Thee like a barren Earth which is without water produce nothing but sin death confusion Alas my Soul flatter not thy selfe for even so it is yet how often hast thou relyed on thy own judgment force abilities for which God hath permitted thee to fall It were much better to acknowledg thy inward weaknesse to Vertue extoll Gods power Mercies in thy poverty that his greatnesse may be exalted in the vilenesse of thy Nothing Grant me O ever blessed Redeemer thy holy Grace but give me also true humility of heart that I may ever think on my own Nothing without Thee so shall the poore needy praise thy Name SECOND DICOURSSE Our Pronenesse to Evill SInce by help only of Gods grace we doe good 't is by our own bad Nature we incline to Evill Had man stood in his originall Innocency his Soul had ever been breathing forth the delicious odours of Morall Divine Vertues wherewith he was then full no sooner doth he withdraw himselfe frō his due Obedience to God but all those Vertues forsake him his Soul all her powers are smutted with sin We loose our right to our heavenly inheritance as a raging Sea having broken its banks we swell with evill inclinations break down all letts of Gods precepts prohibitions run over to all sorts of evill actions however contrary to our Allegiance vnto God Our Reason adorned with Prudence could discerne the Excellency of Vertue dictate all due circumstances of good laudable actions but now by sin it is become dull blind nor can it without new helps above our reach perswade from evill or direct in good Our Will formerly hedgd in with holy Lawes beautifyed with inclinations to Iustice strēgthned by heavenly lights graces was prompt to hearken to obey Gods Call but having lost the safeguard of Justice is weak in resisting sensual allurements ready to comply with every disorderly suggestion of lawlesse passions Our Concupiscence which guarded with Temperance stirrd up our inward Man to follow the prescripts of Reason seeke sweetnesse in laudable vertuous actions rebells against the spirit drawes towards earthly delights leads us captive in the bonds of unlawfull desires And the Irascible power of our Soul which armed with Fortitude helpt us to trample down all obstacles of piety runs now stiffe-neckt against God casts of the yoke of Obedience contemns all threts of his Justice against Violaters of their Divine Covenant These be those heavy shackles Philothea which keep us in the servitude of sin still presse our hearts down to the crimes we loath yet shun not Ah! How oft hast thou felt in thy selfe the weight of thy corrupted Nature How oft plunged in some greivous sin How dull thy spiritt then How black thy thoughts What remorses in thy mind and as one hanging at a small string over a deep lake full of toads serpents how full of terrours feares and yet not in the least sort able to help thy selfe How oft thus through pronenesse to sin Alas neither Rich by their treasures nor the Mighty by their power not the Beautifull by their loving charms can free themselves from this load of sin sinfull desires Nay even all Creatures are become so many snares whereby to entrapp enthrall our hearts whilst Satan by inward temptatiōs presseth us forward to covet them outwardly masketh them with apparent sweenesse to seduce us work our ruine plunging us in sin after sin till we forget there 's a God that sees all That marks all our stepps who will one day call us to an account for all COLLOQUIE O bitter servitude of sin which tyrannizeth in my fleshly members resisting the laws of the immortall Mind holding me captive in the fetters of my concupiscences Ah who will free me from the woefull slavery of my corrupted passions which heavely press me down to sensuall sinfull Desires Only Thou My bountifull Saviour shouldst Thou leave me to my selfe there 's not any sin so enormous into which I might not fall It is thy Mercy O Abysse of Mercies which prevents my stubborn will quells the rage of temptations graciously diverts those occasions which might intice me to offend Thee Oh that thou wouldst break the chaynes which fetter my spirit wouldst fasten my footsteps that I slip not in the way of thy holy Commandements Then will I sacrifize to thee a Sacrifice of praise and rejoyce exult in God my Saviour because he who is powerfull hath done great things for me Amen FOVRTH DAYES VOYAGE Man Repayred by Iesus Christ MORNING EXERCISE FIRST POINT Institution of the Holy Sacrement CONSIDERATION COnsider That having descended into thy selfe there discovered What thou art in thy sinfull state thy Body how Vile thy soul how wretched thy ignorance how great how weake thou art to good how prone to Evill and that now Thou findest thy selfe Philothea faln into the deep lake mentiōed last night full of filth Venom where thou neither seest the light of heavē nor enjoyest comfort frō any freind or quiet in thy mind nor canst hope for releife from any Creature that therein thou art like to sink deeper stick faster abide for ever if Almighty God harkens not clemently to thy woefull cryes and take pitty on thy weaknesse pouerty miserable state God could send an Angel to free thee thence or by his only word set thee at liberty but his love bounty is so great to thee that he sends his own only Son equall to himselfe in Majesty Wisedom Power cloathed in thy Mortality to release thee frō that loathsome Dungeō to wash Thee in his precious bloud to give thee an easy gracious Law to walk by to encourage thee to piety by doctrine Examples to establish Sacramēts for healing thy spirituall soares ulcers at lēgth that he may bestow his whole selfe on Thee in the Holy Eucharist as a Pledg of love whereby to sanctify bind thy heart to him as a Light to guid thee as a Staffe to support thee as a Viaticum to strengthen comfort thee in thy holie Pilgrimage to Perfection In this divine Sacrament is really substantially contained IESUS CHRIST God Man his Divinity which is the fountain of grace good workes glory his Soul full of Wisedome Holinesse his Body conceived of the Holie Ghost in the womb of the Immaculate Virgin his Bloud shed
live in Heaven by contemplating loveing delighting in God what appertains to his their own blessed Life Although our soul confined now to this corruptible body depends theron for action motion in this our sinfull state has ever a naturall inclination to abide with it therefor with pain departs from it yet being she receives not her own life from the body but is Life its selfe gives life action to the body she may live within her selfe having no regard to the inclinations motions of the body This she may soon perceive in her selfe if she treads not the paths of sensuality which lead to earthly contents but those of the spirit which tend to holy divine actions in Imitation of the Angelicall spirits whose workings are to be ever fix't in the Contemplation of God the execution of his commands Imagin therefor That thou kneelest upon some high Mountain before thy Crucifix thence dost behold all earthly Creatures in their severall degrees employments each one busied in the search of happinesse in that they love most that all these thinges suddenly fade away thy selfe fallest also into a trance dyest so dost abide till JESUS descending from his Crosse enters into thee now againe thou livest yet not thou but JESUS CHRIST in Thee Being thus dead to the World only living by the spirit of JESUS how spirituall divine should thy life actions bee AFFECTION How happy woulds't thou be My soul if wholly dead to flesh bloud independent on all earthly creatures thou couldst live the life of an Angell wholly drowned in God relying upon the lights Graces comforts which proceed from him Oh what ioy what happinesse to be dead to this World all the Vanities thereof to live worke only by the enlivening Spirit of JESUS How holy would thy thoughts how heavenly thy desires how enflamed would thy affections then be towards spirituall divine things RESOLUTION I will hence forth lead a spirituall life having my mind still bent upon God his holy Will even in all my ordinary duties endeavouring to lead an Angellical life as if already seperated from this heavy burthen of Mortality without need of earthly supportations And I will be so watchfull over my actions as if I only lived by the Spirit of JESUS had no life or motion but what proceeded from him Then freed from the law of death which abounded in Me through my sinfull passions I shall serve God in the newnesse of my spirit heare what Gods Spirit speaketh to the Church SECOND POINT Mentall Recollection CONSIDERATION COnsider That to improve the soul in her inward Tranquillity she must endeavour to be Recollected within her selfe in all places at all times with all persons amidst whatsoever employments we are by our present state of Life obleiged unto This inward Recollection of the Spirit is easie very delightfull for although the soul be now lodged in the body as her prison the varieties of occasions which run through the cours of this mortall life much solicite her abroad to seek means how to make her prison more tolerable thereby hinders her in the free use of her spirituall faculties distract her thoughts from God heavenly things yet is she not a slave to any passion of the body especially being now healed repaired by JESUS CHRIST therefore she may by means of a mentall retreat into her selfe purchase a continuall Recollection amidst the greatest tumults distractions which may befall her Build up therefor Philothea an Hermitage within thy heart erect an Altar place thereon JESUS CHRIST in the most amiable posture Imaginable whatsoever employment distraction or spirituall distresse presses it selfe upon Thee depart not thence but there lay open thy wants weaknesse confer with him of thy progresse impediments to Perfection harkening carefully what he sayes to Thee if some violent disquiet compells thy thoughts abroad endeavour to re-enter speedily into this thy Hermitage bewaile thy inconstancy renew thy purposes of Mentall Recollection AFFECTION Ah my soul upon how slight occasions has thy thoughts been distracted thy mind lost its frequently resolved Tranquillity in the performance of thy usuall duties How O my God am I so suddenly carryed away with these outward objects employments Surely were I truly Spirituall I should without pain or distraction even in the midst of the Varieties of this life convers with God Oh that thou wouldest build up the ruins of Israël sanctify my heart a tabernacle to thy name then may I seek my beloved within Me receive from him A Kisse of peace RESOLUTION I will not only love the solitude of the body but of the Mind also will build up in my heart a holy Hermitage befitting the presence of my JESUS thither will I stil retyre my selfe ever conferring with him of his loves to me my slownesse of returning love to him discovering all my wants his helps to become perfect in a spirituall Way that I may thereby enjoy the tranquillity of my spirit what ever occasions of Obedience Charity or complyance with my own necessities call me forth this corporall Retirement O Who will give me that I may ever sett by this fountain of living waters in the solitude of my own heart there will I sigh mourn while I think of the heavenly Sion THIRD POINT Union of the Spirit with God CONSIDERATION COnsider That as God only is the supream Good happinesse of the Immortall soul so cannot she experience any true compleat Tranquillity within herselfe unlesse being inwardly united to him she becomes One spirit with him be as it were transformed into a supernaturall Divine BEEING by a reciprocation of Love conformity of Will communication in all those guifts graces spirituall blessings whereby in this her Pilgrimage she may be cloathed with a likenesse to God enjoy that cleerenesse of Understanding alacrity of Will calmnesse of passions universall purity sweetnesse ioy in the whole spirit which God usually imparts only to his most speciall favorites This Deifying Union Philothea of the soul with God will wonderfully work in Thee a cleer knowledge of the emptinesse vanity nakednesse of all Creatures breed in Thee a Loathing towards the best of them cause in thy heart a restlesse Desire to see possesse embrace God in the simplicity purity of his own Essence without mixture of any thing beneath himselfe for his sake thou wilt Stripp thy selfe willingly of all Creatures in ward inclinations of Will Passions welcome whatever calamities miseries may befall Thee For what is there in the whole World which that soul will not readily want doe or suffer to whom God is All-in-all surely in this delicious Union Espousall Transformation by Love the soul must needs experience God a rich