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sense_n and_o spiritual_a faculty_n a_o absolute_a change_n in_o my_o whole_a man_n o_o grant_v i_o i_o beseech_v thou_o my_o love_a lord_n the_o powerful_a assistance_n of_o thy_o special_a grace_n for_o the_o performance_n of_o this_o great_a and_o good_a purpose_n teach_v i_o now_o o_o my_o bless_a master_n to_o live_v inward_o pious_o spiritual_o as_o i_o love_v former_o to_o live_v outward_o vain_o sensual_o o_o let_v i_o henceforth_o yield_v to_o thy_o divine_a motion_n obey_v thy_o call_n imitate_v thy_o example_n and_o follow_v thy_o will_n o_o let_v i_o never_o more_o act_v or_o omit_v any_o thing_n be_v it_o never_o so_o little_a for_o my_o own_o like_n but_o pure_o and_o perfect_o for_o thy_o love_n 5._o grant_v o_o good_a jesus_n that_o at_o each_o word_n of_o my_o mouth_n at_o each_o glance_n
and_o secure_v lesson_n leave_v all_o thing_n and_o thou_o shall_v find_v one_o thing_n which_o be_v all_o in_o all_o take_v courage_n and_o fight_v valiant_o against_o thy_o own_o bad_a nature_n pray_v suffer_v stoop_v bear_v repugnance_n swallow_v down_o contradiction_n digest_v injury_n the_o kingdom_n of_o heaven_n suffer_v violence_n the_o end_n thou_o ayme_v at_o be_v perfection_n the_o reward_n of_o thy_o conqucst_a be_v eternal_a love_n eternal_a life_n eternal_a happiness_n behold_v o_o my_o lord_n my_o strength_n and_o my_o salvation_n i_o be_o full_o resolve_v to_o lay_v the_o axe_n to_o the_o root_n of_o this_o wicked_a tree_n help_v i_o i_o beseech_v thou_o with_o thy_o grace_n from_o above_o that_o i_o may_v hew_v myself_o out_o of_o myself_o that_o i_o may_v kill_v crucify_v and_o mortify_v my_o inveigle_a sensuality_n cut_v off_o my_o evil_a inclination_n rectify_v my_o disorder_a passion_n and_o root_v out_o each_o thought_n or_o desire_n which_o tend_v not_o direct_o to_o thy_o honour_n will_n and_o love_n o_o my_o lord_n and_o my_o god_n 3._o i_o know_v lord_n that_o it_o be_v bootless_a to_o study_v perfection_n without_o the_o practice_n of_o mortification_n i_o confess_v i_o can_v never_o love_v thou_o true_o but_o in_o as_o much_o as_o i_o hate_v myself_o real_o such_o be_v the_o antipathy_n between_o self-love_n and_o thy_o holy_a affection_n ah_o how_o can_v a_o spirit_n distract_v with_o contrary_a inclination_n be_v free_o and_o full_o vacant_a to_o thy_o divine_a contemplation_n put_v therefore_o i_o beseech_v thou_o a_o sluice_n to_o my_o unmortified_a passion_n put_v a_o bind_v to_o my_o distraught_a heart_n and_o powerful_o keep_v back_o those_o innumerous_a concupiscence_n and_o corrupt_a imagination_n violent_o succeed_v each_o other_o that_o my_o unite_a affection_n may_v intend_v thou_o only_o the_o only_a object_n of_o all_o happiness_n gather_v o_o my_o lord_n the_o disperse_a force_n of_o my_o soul_n from_o all_o multiplicity_n of_o worldly_a affection_n to_o the_o union_n of_o thy_o only_a love_n keep_v i_o beseech_v thou_o my_o understanding_n will_n memory_n imagination_n and_o all_o my_o inward_a and_o outward_a sense_n from_o roam_v abroad_o that_o careful_o attend_v and_o entertain_v thy_o divine_a presence_n in_o my_o soul_n i_o may_v attain_v true_a introversion_n simplification_n and_o union_n of_o my_o spirit_n with_o thou_o reform_v o_o my_o lord_n all_o the_o natural_a corruption_n of_o my_o outward_a man_n and_o redress_v all_o the_o spiritual_a infirmity_n of_o my_o inward_a man_n destroy_v and_o disperse_v all_o internal_a and_o external_a enemy_n and_o opposer_n of_o thy_o holy_a love_n possess_v i_o perfect_o and_o dispose_v of_o i_o entire_o according_a to_o thy_o divine_a will_n and_o pleasure_n 4._o to_o this_o end_n o_o bless_v my_o weak_a endeavour_n almighty_a and_o al-merciful_a lord_n god_n i_o will_v subtract_v all_o superfluity_n from_o my_o body_n and_o accustom_v it_o to_o all_o sort_n of_o suffering_n that_o so_o i_o may_v fit_v it_o up_o for_o thou_o o_o holy_a spirit_n who_o dwell_v not_o with_o they_o that_o be_v sensual_a and_o subject_a to_o sin_n alas_o i_o have_v not_o yet_o resist_v to_o the_o effusion_n of_o my_o blood_n and_o shall_v i_o spill_v each_o drop_n of_o blood_n in_o my_o body_n in_o this_o holy_a quarrel_n how_o little_o ought_v i_o to_o regard_v it_o in_o respect_n of_o the_o great_a good_a i_o expect_v i_o will_v therefore_o crucify_v thou_o o_o my_o flesh_n with_o all_o thy_o concupiscence_n i_o will_v mortify_v my_o outward_a sense_n the_o window_n by_o which_o death_n steal_v into_o my_o soul_n the_o hinderer_n of_o my_o heart_n tranquillity_n the_o destroyer_n of_o true_a devotion_n the_o disperser_n of_o inward_a recollection_n and_o the_o utter_a ruiner_n of_o all_o the_o good_a desire_n which_o i_o conceive_v and_o kindle_v in_o my_o prayer_n ah_o how_o soon_o be_v this_o divine_a fire_n cool_v and_o quench_v not_o only_o by_o sin_n but_o also_o by_o the_o distract_n image_n of_o outward_a object_n i_o will_v keep_v a_o special_a and_o strict_a watch_n over_o my_o tongue_n on_o which_o depend_v my_o spiritual_a life_n or_o death_n and_o cherish_v thou_o o_o belove_a silence_n which_o be_v the_o key_n of_o piety_n the_o keeper_n of_o innocency_n and_o the_o preserver_n of_o purity_n i_o will_v trample_v down_o my_o inferior_a spirit_n this_o be_v the_o chief_a exercise_n of_o god_n child_n not_o to_o be_v carry_v away_o with_o affection_n of_o flesh_n and_o blood_n but_o to_o conduct_v themselves_o according_a to_o god_n spirit_n nature_n with_o all_o it_o be_v evil_a affection_n and_o motion_n of_o love_n hatred_n joy_n sadness_n desire_n fear_v hope_v anger_n etc._n etc._n i_o will_v order_v dispose_n and_o direct_v it_o according_a to_o the_o law_n of_o reason_n and_o thy_o divine_a inspiration_n o_o my_o lord_n and_o my_o god_n grant_v i_o courage_n i_o beseech_v thou_o to_o quell_v and_o curb_v this_o most_o dangerous_a and_o my_o great_a enemy_n which_o be_v the_o source_n of_o all_o my_o misery_n the_o citadel_n from_o whence_o sin_n assail_v i_o and_o satan_n fetch_v his_o force_n to_o fight_v against_o i_o grant_v good_a lord_n that_o i_o may_v they_o therefore_o every_o one_o must_v strive_v to_o know_v his_o own_o natural_a inclination_n and_o then_o employ_v all_o his_o force_n and_o apply_v all_o his_o prayer_n and_o spiritual_a exercise_n to_o quell_v they_o never_o yield_v to_o this_o wicked_a eve_n persuade_v adam_n my_o superior_a will_n to_o eat_v the_o forbid_a fruit_n to_o consent_n to_o unlawful_a pleasure_n o_o that_o i_o can_v tame_v these_o cruel_a beast_n my_o natural_a passion_n how_o soon_o shall_v i_o be_v master_n of_o all_o moral_a virtue_n o_o that_o i_o can_v so_o till_o this_o vineyard_n so_o delve_v this_o garden_n so_o purge_v it_o from_o all_o ill_a weed_n of_o affection_n and_o prune_v all_o superfluous_a surgeon_n and_o shoot_n of_o passion_n that_o the_o seed_n of_o thy_o grace_n o_o heavenly_a husbandman_n may_v only_o there_o take_v root_n increase_n and_o fructify_v 5._o i_o will_v also_o mortify_v my_o superior_a and_o rational_a part_n with_o all_o the_o curious_a and_o fruitless_a speculation_n of_o my_o understanding_n all_o conceit_n of_o self-wisdom_n natural_a prudence_n proper_a judgement_n and_o good_a like_n of_o my_o own_o proceed_n all_o vain_a and_o foolish_a reflection_n of_o my_o memory_n and_o all_o petty_a desire_n and_o affection_n of_o my_o will_n which_o relate_v not_o to_o thou_o the_o only_a object_n and_o lord_n of_o my_o love_n i_o be_o resolve_v o_o my_o lord_n to_o nip_v off_o each_o bud_a passion_n as_o soon_o as_o it_o peep_v up_o in_o my_o soul_n to_o trouble_v it_o in_o its_o true_a repose_n and_o to_o hinder_v its_o liberty_n and_o tendance_n to_o thy_o love_n i_o will_v by_o thy_o gracious_a assistance_n proceed_v faithful_o and_o sincere_o in_o the_o hatred_n denial_n and_o mortification_n of_o my_o self_n and_o in_o the_o prosecution_n of_o thy_o divine_a love_n and_o in_o order_n to_o this_o only_a end_n and_o aim_n i_o make_v in_o thy_o presence_n and_o from_o the_o very_a bottom_n of_o my_o heart_n and_o soul_n these_o particular_a act_n follow_v i_o renounce_v o_o my_o lord_n for_o the_o pure_a love_n of_o thou_o all_o affection_n to_o worldly_a thing_n give_v they_o unto_o i_o o_o gracious_a god_n or_o take_v they_o from_o i_o as_o best_o like_v thy_o divine_a majesty_n i_o resign_v up_o all_o my_o interest_n in_o any_o thing_n though_o never_o so_o near_o and_o dear_a unto_o i_o behold_v o_o my_o lord_n and_o lover_n i_o unclothe_v my_o soul_n from_o all_o affection_n whatsoever_o to_o creature_n and_o desire_v nothing_o but_o thy_o self-alone_a o_o happy_a nakedness_n o_o rich_a poverty_n of_o spirit_n o_o pure_a obedience_n to_o the_o divine_a will_n in_o all_o thing_n be_v you_o my_o heart_n delight_n my_o whole_a pleasure_n and_o patrinony_n 6._o i_o renounce_v all_o self-seeking_a ah_o my_o corrupt_a nature_n i_o abhor_v thou_o adieu_n all_o private-interest_n profit_n praise_n and_o preferment_n i_o will_v henceforth_o perform_v all_o my_o action_n and_o exercise_n o_o my_o lord_n god_n for_o thy_o only_a pure_a &_o perfect_a love_n i_o will_v seek_v to_o please_v and_o praise_v thou_o with_o a_o inward_a ardent_a and_o amorous_a affection_n for_o thyself_o only_o and_o not_o for_o thy_o gift_n or_o grace_n i_o renounce_v all_o sensuality_n whether_o it_o be_v in_o meat_n drink_n sleep_n apparel_z curiosity_n of_o my_o five_o sense_n or_o any_o thing_n else_o whatsoever_o o_o my_o lord_n i_o will_v make_v no_o other_o use_n of_o any_o thy_o creature_n than_o i_o be_o absolute_o compel_v to_o by_o necessity_n of_o nature_n i_o look_v for_o no_o solace_n but_o from_o thou_o alone_o my_o only_a comfort_n and_o content_v i_o renounce_v all_o
the_o aforesaid_a separation_n then_o break_v forth_o into_o these-like_a expression_n o_o rich_a treasury_n of_o all_o virtue_n what_o contentment_n do_v i_o feel_v that_o all_o good_a be_v derive_v from_o thou_o and_o by_o thou_o only_o and_o that_o all_o goodness_n compare_v to_o thy_o divine_a perfection_n be_v a_o mere_a nothing_o 8._o stretch_v forth_o thy_o hand_n to_o action_n also_o when_o thou_o undertake_v any_o action_n any_o action_n imagine_v thy_o lord_n god_n to_o be_v the_o first_o cause_n thereof_o and_o thou_o only_o the_o live_a instrument_n of_o his_o divine_a majesty_n to_o who_o thy_o soul_n may_v thus_o pour_v forth_o itself_o o_o sovereign_a lord_n of_o this_o universe_n how_o true_o do_v i_o rejoice_v that_o i_o can_v do_v no_o one_o thing_n without_o thou_o and_o that_o thou_o be_v the_o prime_n and_o principal_a agent_n in_o all_o good_a action_n 9_o take_v any_o refection_n of_o meat_n drink_n or_o refresh_a thy_o body_n with_o meat_n and_o drink_n or_o drink_v reflect_v who_o give_v that_o gust_n and_o savour_n to_o that_o creature_n and_o take_v no_o other_o content_n than_o in_o he_o only_o say_v be_v joyful_a o_o my_o soul_n that_o there_o be_v no_o true_a satisfaction_n out_o of_o thy_o god_n and_o that_o in_o he_o only_o thou_o have_v a_o full_a abundance_n of_o all_o pleasure_n 10._o if_o some_o delicious_a smell_n be_v odour_n or_o smell_v delicious_a odour_n welcome_a to_o thy_o sense_n stay_v not_o there_o but_o ascend_v to_o he_o who_o be_v the_o source_n of_o all_o sweetness_n and_o with_o a_o heart_n soften_v with_o comfort_n say_v alas_o o_o my_o lord_n as_o i_o be_o true_o glad_a that_o all_o sweetness_n proceed_v from_o thou_o so_o grant_v i_o beseech_v thou_o that_o my_o soul_n be_v true_o despoil_v and_o unclothe_v of_o all_o earthly_a pleasure_n may_v pure_o soar_v up_o to_o thy_o delicious_a paradise_n and_o render_v a_o perpetual_o please_a odour_n to_o thy_o divine_a nostril_n 11._o when_o thou_o be_v take_v with_o the_o harmony_n or_o be_v delight_v with_o musical_a harmony_n musical_a harmony_n of_o some_o excellent_a voice_n or_o instrument_n turn_v thy_o soul_n to_o thy_o saviour_n and_o speak_v to_o he_o o_o my_o lord_n and_o my_o god_n how_o do_v i_o joy_v in_o thy_o infinite_a perfection_n o_o what_o a_o admirable_a harmony_n do_v they_o make_v not_o only_o in_o thyself_o but_o also_o in_o the_o heavenly_a citizen_n and_o in_o all_o other_o thy_o creature_n 12._o thus_o may_v thou_o my_o dear_o object_n or_o any_o other_o sensible_a object_n belove_a raise_v up_o thy_o spirit_n from_o all_o sensible_a object_n to_o the_o contemplation_n of_o the_o divinity_n as_o have_v be_v hitherto_o declare_v it_o remain_v that_o thou_o be_v now_o in_o like_a manner_n instruct_v how_o to_o pass_v from_o the_o same_o sensible_a object_n to_o the_o meditation_n of_o the_o word_n incarnate_a by_o frequent_a reflection_n upon_o thy_o saviour_n life_n incarnate_a how_o to_o raise_v thy_o soul_n by_o the_o same_o object_n to_o contemplate_v the_o word_n incarnate_a and_o passion_n and_o to_o this_o effect_n all_o thing_n of_o the_o whole_a universe_n will_v conduce_v by_o consider_v in_o they_o as_o before_o that_o sovereign_a and_o supreme_a good_a which_o be_v the_o efficient_a cause_n of_o their_o whole_a be_v and_o beauty_n and_o thence_o pass_v on_o to_o the_o admiration_n of_o his_o immense_a goodness_n and_o greatness_n who_o be_v the_o absolute_a lord_n of_o all_o these_o thing_n will_v vouchsafe_v to_o descend_v so_o low_a as_o to_o become_v man_n and_o to_o die_v for_o man_n permit_v his_o own_o creature_n to_o arm_v themselves_o against_o he_o their_o creator_n many_o thing_n will_v also_o particular_o represent_v to_o the_o eye_n of_o thy_o soul_n these_o sacred_a mystery_n and_o put_v thou_o in_o mind_n of_o the_o several_a instrument_n of_o his_o severe_a suffering_n rain_n as_o for_o example_n by_o the_o sight_n of_o poor_a cottage_n of_o rain_n poor_a cottage_n will_v remember_v thou_o of_o thy_o saviour_n stable_n and_o cribb_a if_o it_o rain_v thou_o will_v reflect_v upon_o that_o divine_a moisture_n distil_v from_o his_o body_n in_o his_o bloody_a agony_n the_o â—tones_n which_o thou_o behold_v will_v stone_n of_o stone_n put_v thou_o in_o mind_n of_o the_o rock_n rend_v in_o sunder_o at_o his_o death_n the_o earth_n earth_n of_o the_o earth_n will_v seem_v to_o tell_v thou_o how_o it_o then_o tremble_v and_o the_o bright-shining_a sun_n how_o its_o light_n be_v then_o obscure_v etc._n of_o the_o sun_n of_o the_o water_n etc._n etc._n if_o thou_o consider_v the_o water_n thou_o will_v fall_v into_o contemplation_n of_o that_o which_o issue_v out_o of_o his_o open_a side_n and_o the_o like_a of_o all_o other_o object_n so_o when_o thou_o taste_v wine_n thou_o may_v think_v of_o christ_n wine_n in_o taste_v wine_n vinegar_n and_o gall_n when_o sweet_a odour_n delight_v thou_o how_o ill_o savour_v smell_v in_o sweet_a smell_v be_v the_o carcase_n upon_o mount_n calvary_n where_o thy_o saviour_n suffer_v clothing_n thyself_o reflect_v how_o the_o thyself_o in_o clothing_n thyself_o eternal_a word_n put_v on_o our_o humanity_n to_o adorn_v thou_o with_o his_o divinity_n noise_n in_o uncloathing_n thyself_o in_o hear_v noise_n uncloathing_n thyself_o how_o he_o naked_a be_v nail_v to_o the_o cross_n hear_v a_o noise_n or_o acclamation_n of_o people_n remember_v those_o abominable_a outcry_n away_o with_o he_o crucify_v he_o when_o the_o clock_n strike_v the_o hour_n clock_n in_o hear_v the_o clock_n think_v how_o thy_o saviour_n heart_n pant_v in_o the_o garden_n at_o the_o apprehension_n of_o his_o approach_a passion_n or_o seem_v to_o hear_v and_o count_v the_o cruel_a stroke_n of_o the_o scourge_n or_o blow_n of_o the_o hammer_n fasten_v the_o nail_n through_o his_o body_n to_o the_o cross_n if_o sadness_n in_o time_n of_o sadness_n sadness_n and_o sorrow_n seize_v thou_o whether_o by_o reason_n of_o thy_o own_o suffering_n and_o sickness_n or_o out_o of_o compassion_n to_o other_o conceive_v alas_o how_o little_a be_v all_o this_o compare_v to_o the_o incomprehensible_a anguish_n distress_n and_o dolour_n which_o pierce_v the_o body_n and_o soul_n of_o thy_o dear_a saviour_n 13._o have_v thus_o show_v thou_o the_o object_n other_o way_n to_o meditate_v upon_o sensible_a object_n way_n how_o to_o elevate_v thy_o understanding_n by_o mean_n of_o all_o sensible_a thing_n to_o the_o divinity_n and_o to_o the_o mystery_n of_o the_o word_n incarnate_a i_o will_v now_o add_v other_o mean_n and_o method_n of_o meditation_n draw_v from_o the_o same_o sensible_a object_n that_o as_o the_o soul_n gust_n be_v various_a so_o the_o spiritual_a diet_n may_v be_v diverse_o dress_v and_o serve_v up_o for_o their_o sustenance_n though_o this_o variety_n may_v be_v also_o very_o useful_a not_o only_o to_o the_o simple_a but_o even_o to_o elevate_v soul_n well_o advance_v in_o the_o way_n of_o the_o spirit_n which_o be_v not_o always_o equal_o dispose_v to_o sublime_a contemplation_n neither_o need_v thou_o fear_v that_o this_o variety_n will_v any_o way_n confound_v thou_o if_o thou_o be_v govern_v by_o the_o rule_n of_o discretion_n â—nd_v the_o direction_n of_o thy_o ghostly_a father_n which_o thou_o be_v careful_o and_o â—umbly_o to_o follow_v not_o only_o in_o â—his_n but_o in_o all_o other_o thy_o undertaking_n 14._o when_o therefore_o object_n most_o themselves_o by_o consider_v how_o mean_a the_o best_a of_o they_o be_v in_o themselves_o please_a to_o the_o eye_n delicious_a to_o â—he_n sense_n and_o desirable_a to_o flesh_n and_o blood_n shall_v be_v represent_v unto_o thou_o mark_v well_o how_o mean_v these_o thing_n be_v in_o themselves_o though_o never_o so_o high_o court_v and_o cherish_v extol_v and_o esteem_v by_o worldling_n how_o the_o best_a of_o they_o be_v no_o better_a than_o dirt_n and_o dung_n in_o respect_n of_o heavenly_a happiness_n for_o which_o thou_o be_v design_v which_o thou_o desire_v and_o to_o which_o thou_o aspire_v 15._o when_o thou_o gaze_v on_o the_o brightness_n as_o the_o sun_n brightness_n sun_n glorious_a splendour_n know_v for_o certain_a that_o thy_o own_o soul_n be_v far_o more_o bright_a and_o beautiful_a than_o it_o if_o she_o be_v in_o her_o creators_n grace_n and_o favour_n otherwise_o that_o she_o be_v more_o obscure_a and_o abominable_a than_o darksome_a and_o dismal_a hell_n itself_o 16._o when_o thou_o cast_v up_o thy_o corporal_a eye_n to_o the_o heaven_n elevate_v greatness_n the_o heaven_n greatness_n those_o of_o thy_o soul_n to_o those_o high_a &_o holy_a mansion_n of_o the_o bless_a sainâ—â—_n and_o angelical_a spirit_n and_o there_o fix_v and_o feast_v thy_o thought_n as_o in_o the_o happy_a mansion_n prepare_v for_o thy_o eternal_a abode_n 17._o when_o thou_o hearken'_v to_o the_o melody_n the_o bird_n melody_n bird_n warble_v note_n or_o other_o
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day_n of_o judgement_n and_o prostrate_v thyself_o at_o the_o foot_n â—f_o the_o crucifix_n adore_v thy_o saviour_n â—nd_v implore_v his_o gracious_a assistance_n â—hat_n thou_o may_v now_o make_v such_o good_a use_n of_o the_o time_n he_o lend_v thou_o â—hat_n thou_o may_v be_v then_o prepare_v â—o_o appear_v courageous_o before_o his_o dread_a majesty_n 21._o as_o concern_v divers_a accident_n sorrow_n also_o upon_o all_o other_o accident_n and_o occasion_n as_o of_o grief_n &_o sorrow_n which_o be_v personal_a and_o peculiar_a to_o thyself_o thou_o may_v thus_o behave_v thou_o when_o grief_n or_o sadness_n have_v seize_v thy_o heart_n when_o melancholy_a oppress_v thy_o mind_n or_o when_o any_o inconveniency_n trouble_v thy_o body_n raise_v up_o and_o resign_v thy_o spirit_n to_o the_o supreme_a and_o eternal_a will_n of_o god_n who_o be_v please_v this_o molestation_n shall_v even_o now_o and_o thus_o touch_n and_o torment_v thou_o for_o thy_o good_a and_o his_o own_o glory_n and_o 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thy_o sin_n proceed_v from_o god_n grace_n and_o tend_v to_o thy_o good_a if_o they_o be_v follow_v with_o effect_n of_o humility_n with_o true_a sorrow_n for_o have_v offend_v so_o good_a a_o god_n and_o with_o a_o firm_a confidence_n in_o his_o goodness_n but_o when_o this_o reflection_n disquiet_v thy_o mind_n make_v thou_o doubtful_a and_o distrustful_a peevish_a and_o pusillanimous_a then_o although_o thy_o sin_n appear_v indeed_o sufficient_a to_o make_v thou_o think_v thyself_o just_o and_o eternal_o damn_v and_o that_o there_o can_v be_v no_o reason_n for_o thou_o to_o hope_v after_o salvation_n assure_v thyself_o they_o be_v clear_o the_o effect_n proceed_v from_o satan_n suggestion_n and_o therefore_o perfect_a and_o to_o have_v a_o perfect_a humble_a thyself_o so_o much_o the_o more_o and_o be_v more_o hopeful_a and_o god_n hope_v and_o humble_a confidence_n in_o god_n confident_a in_o thy_o god_n whereby_o thou_o will_v confound_v and_o
inward_a or_o mental_a prayer_n be_v a_o aswaye_v 1._o mental_a prayer_n include_v aswaye_v elevation_n of_o the_o mind_n to_o god_n and_o it_o always_o include_v either_o to_o a_o actual_a or_o virtual_a petition_n of_o something_o 2._o virtual_a petition_n be_v when_o the_o mind_n be_v lift_v up_o to_o god_n to_o obtain_v thing_n either_o a_o virtual_a petition_v â—_o some_o thing_n some_o grace_n from_o he_o show_v he_o our_o necessity_n simple_o and_o brief_o without_o any_o discourse_n or_o consideration_n of_o any_o other_o thing_n as_o when_o i_o elevate_v my_o mind_n to_o god_n and_o confess_v before_o he_o my_o weakness_n both_o to_o do_v well_o and_o to_o defend_v myself_o from_o do_v evil_a this_o sort_n of_o prayer_n be_v proper_o term_v virtual_a because_o when_o i_o thus_o brief_o lay_v my_o mind_n open_a to_o god_n he_o well_o know_v what_o be_v there_o want_v and_o how_o much_o i_o stand_v in_o need_n of_o his_o help_n explication_n and_o this_o virtual_o imply_v a_o humble_a supplication_n to_o his_o divine_a majesty_n that_o he_o will_v vouchsafe_v to_o supply_v my_o necessity_n and_o by_o how_o much_o the_o more_o this_o confession_n of_o thy_o own_o want_n and_o weakness_n be_v real_a and_o manifest_a and_o thy_o desire_n efficacious_a and_o thy_o confidence_n lively_a by_o so_o much_o also_o thy_o demand_n shall_v be_v of_o more_o force_n and_o value_n 3._o there_o be_v also_o another_o kind_n of_o inward_a virtual_a prayer_n which_o consist_v in_o a_o simple_a behold_v or_o contemplation_n of_o god_n in_o our_o mind_n and_o this_o prayer_n be_v when_o we_o silent_o desire_v and_o as_o it_o be_v put_v our_o lord_n in_o remembrance_n of_o that_o grace_n we_o former_o demand_v 4._o learn_v o_o my_o belove_a this_o way_n of_o prayer_n and_o make_v it_o familiar_a unto_o thou_o by_o the_o frequent_a use_n of_o it_o for_o experience_n will_v give_v thou_o to_o understand_v that_o it_o be_v the_o best_a armour_n of_o proof_n against_o all_o enemy_n adversity_n and_o danger_n have_v it_o therefore_o always_o in_o readiness_n that_o where_o and_o whensoever_o need_n require_v thou_o may_v make_v use_n thereof_o 5._o actual_a petition_n or_o actual_a inward_a prayer_n be_v when_o grace_n be_v ask_v mind_n or_o a_o actual_a ask_n by_o word_n express_v in_o the_o mind_n by_o word_n express_v in_o the_o mind_n in_o this_o or_o the_o like_a manner_n give_v i_o o_o my_o lord_n god_n this_o grace_n this_o benefit_n for_o the_o honour_n of_o thy_o most_o sacred_a name_n or_o thus_o i_o steadfast_o believe_v o_o my_o god_n that_o it_o be_v thy_o holy_a will_n i_o shall_v beg_v of_o thou_o this_o grace_n which_o i_o stand_v in_o need_n of_o do_v thou_o therefore_o o_o my_o god_n accomplish_v thy_o own_o pleasure_n in_o i_o 6._o thus_o also_o thou_o may_v present_v before_o god_n divine_a majesty_n thy_o enemy_n which_o annoy_v thou_o or_o thy_o sin_n which_o afflict_v thou_o join_v therewith_o thy_o own_o weakness_n to_o resist_v they_o and_o say_v o_o lord_n look_v upon_o thy_o own_o creature_n make_v by_o thy_o holy_a hand_n and_o redeem_v by_o thy_o precious_a blood_n behold_v also_o thy_o enemy_n and_o i_o outrageous_o reach_v at_o i_o and_o strive_v to_o take_v i_o from_o thou_o and_o tear_v i_o in_o piece_n o_o my_o god_n to_o thou_o i_o only_o fly_v in_o thou_o only_o i_o trust_v consider_v my_o weakness_n and_o my_o enemy_n strength_n who_o will_v infallible_o subject_v i_o to_o his_o tyranny_n if_o i_o be_o leave_v destitute_a of_o thy_o powerful_a protection_n chap._n xxiii_o how_o we_o may_v join_v contemplation_n to_o this_o inward_a prayer_n 1._o if_o sometime_o thou_o be_v willing_a to_o settle_v thyself_o to_o mental_a prayer_n for_o a_o certain_a space_n of_o time_n as_o a_o hour_n or_o more_o thou_o may_v join_v passion_n take_v some_o point_n of_o christ_n death_n or_o passion_n to_o this_o way_n of_o prayer_n certain_a meditation_n upon_o the_o life_n and_o death_n of_o our_o saviour_n christ_n apply_v always_o his_o action_n to_o that_o virtue_n thou_o then_o demand_v and_o so_o meditate_v upon_o they_o both_o together_o 2._o for_o example_n patience_n be_v the_o virtue_n thou_o be_v now_o in_o quest_n of_o choose_v therefore_o for_o the_o subject_n of_o demand_v and_o apply_v his_o action_n to_o the_o virtue_n thou_o demand_v thy_o meditation_n some_o mystery_n of_o christ_n crucifixion_n as_o how_o cruel_o he_o be_v despoil_v of_o his_o garment_n which_o be_v barbarous_o rend_v from_o his_o body_n carry_v away_o part_n of_o his_o sacred_a flesh_n which_o cleave_v fast_o unto_o they_o with_o what_o ourcry_n and_o patience_n as_o for_o example_n to_o patience_n curse_n they_o crown_v and_o uncrown_v he_o with_o thorn_n iterate_v again_o and_o again_o that_o terrible_a torment_n how_o this_o most_o innocent_a lamb_n be_v fasten_v with_o nail_n to_o the_o wood_n of_o the_o cross_n and_o lift_v up_o into_o the_o air_n with_o unspeakable_a grief_n of_o his_o wound_n and_o new_a anguish_n of_o his_o whole_a body_n and_o so_o of_o other_o the_o like_a point_n 3._o and_o in_o these_o consideration_n first_o apply_v thy_o sense_n to_o feel_v see_v etc._n etc._n the_o pain_n which_o thy_o dear_a saviour_n endure_v in_o these_o passage_n in_o all_o the_o member_n of_o his_o sacred_a humanity_n then_o elevate_a thy_o heart_n to_o his_o holy_a soul_n penetrate_v into_o his_o patience_n and_o meekness_n and_o see_v how_o pleasant_o he_o pass_v over_o these_o so_o great_a and_o grievous_a affliction_n and_o how_o ready_a he_o be_v for_o his_o father_n satisfaction_n and_o our_o salvation_n to_o suffer_v much_o more_o and_o far_o great_a torment_n after_o this_o behold_v he_o hang_v adversity_n mark_v how_o meek_o he_o suffer_v and_o learn_v thereby_o to_o suffer_v patient_o thy_o small_a adversity_n on_o his_o cross_n and_o complete_n his_o suffering_n by_o his_o death_n stand_v thou_o close_o to_o he_o and_o contemplate_v he_o and_o think_v with_o what_o a_o ardent_a desire_n he_o do_v all_o this_o for_o thou_o that_o thou_o by_o his_o example_n may_v learn_v to_o endure_v with_o patience_n thy_o small_a adversity_n for_o his_o honour_n and_o as_o he_o turn_v himself_o to_o his_o heavenly_a father_n and_o pray_v for_o thou_o so_o thou_o shall_v implore_v his_o grace_n to_o bear_v and_o overcome_v this_o cross_n thou_o now_o groane_v under_o and_o all_o other_o thy_o resolution_n of_o resolution_n grievance_n with_o quiet_a of_o mind_n and_o constancy_n of_o resolution_n 4._o and_o last_o compel_v thy_o will_n to_o consent_v to_o these_o suffering_n and_o quiet_o and_o compel_v thy_o will_n to_o take_v up_o thy_o cross_n quiet_o speak_v to_o it_o to_o take_v up_o this_o cross_n quiet_o and_o carry_v it_o on_o constant_o then_o turn_v thou_o to_o god_n thy_o heavenly_a father_n and_o humble_o beg_v of_o he_o the_o virtue_n of_o patience_n and_o that_o he_o will_v be_v please_v to_o hear_v the_o perfect_a prayer_n of_o his_o own_o dear_a son_n pour_v out_o on_o the_o cross_n for_o thou_o chap._n xxiv_o of_o another_o certain_a manner_n of_o prayer_n by_o way_n of_o meditation_n 1._o there_o be_v yet_o another_o manner_n of_o pray_v and_o meditate_v together_o as_o thus_o have_v attentive_o and_o serious_o consider_v upon_o thy_o together_o to_o pray_v and_o meditate_v together_o saviour_n bitter_a passion_n sustain_v for_o thy_o sake_n and_o to_o save_v thy_o soul_n apply_v thy_o own_o sense_n as_o aforesaid_a and_o endeavour_v to_o feel_v as_o it_o be_v the_o like_a dolour_n in_o thyself_o and_o let_v thy_o thought_n pierce_v into_o the_o promptitude_n of_o mind_n wherewith_o christ_n thy_o saviour_n suffer_v all_o this_o 2._o and_o have_v weigh_v his_o exceed_a pain_n and_o his_o exact_a patience_n proceed_v to_o these_o two_o follow_a consideration_n obedience_n by_o consider_v christ_n merit_v &_o the_o content_a his_o heavenly_a father_n take_v in_o his_o obedience_n first_o of_o the_o treasure_n of_o christ_n merit_n and_o second_o of_o the_o high_a content_n and_o good_a like_n which_o his_o heavenly_a father_n take_v in_o his_o dear_a son_n perfect_a obedience_n then_o 3._o have_v fill_v thy_o mind_n with_o these_o pious_a point_n of_o meditation_n produce_v they_o and_o present_v they_o to_o god_n and_o present_v they_o both_o to_o god_n thy_o lord_n god_n and_o beg_v by_o virtue_n of_o these_o that_o grace_n which_o thou_o stand_v in_o great_a need_n of_o and_o thus_o thou_o may_v put_v up_o thy_o petition_n not_o only_o in_o meditate_v upon_o any_o mystery_n of_o christ_n passion_n but_o also_o upon_o any_o internal_a or_o external_a action_n of_o he_o chap._n xxv_o of_o a_o way_n of_o pray_v by_o the_o intercession_n of_o the_o bless_a virgin_n 1._o there_o be_v yet_o beside_o these_o forego_n method_n of_o prayer_n and_o meditation_n another_o way_n
subject_a to_o seek_v herself_o 4._o this_o intention_n of_o do_v all_o for_o god_n be_v to_o be_v always_o make_v in_o the_o entrance_n upon_o any_o work_n and_o to_o be_v renew_v in_o the_o prosecution_n of_o it_o 6._o lest_o self_n love_v creep_v in_o and_o so_o change_v and_o corrupt_v it_o 7._o he_o that_o do_v all_o thing_n to_o please_v god_n remain_v in_o perfect_a indifferency_n and_o have_v always_o what_o he_o desire_v whâ—ch_a show_v the_o high_a importance_n of_o this_o pure_a intention_n 8._o and_o it_o may_v be_v keep_v even_o in_o thing_n aim_v at_o our_o own_o good_a final_o it_o put_v such_o a_o worth_n upon_o our_o action_n that_o the_o best_a of_o they_o without_o it_o be_v lose_v and_o may_v be_v sinful_a and_o the_o small_a with_o it_o be_v most_o acceptable_a to_o god_n 9_o if_o this_o exercise_n seem_v hard_o at_o first_o yet_o use_n will_v render_v it_o easy_a and_o soon_o beget_v a_o habit_n in_o our_o soul_n 10._o especial_o if_o we_o consider_v how_o dear_o our_o lord_n have_v love_v we_o as_o appear_v in_o our_o creation_n redemption_n preservation_n and_o his_o other_o benefit_n which_o be_v so_o great_a that_o none_o but_o god_n himself_o can_v comprehend_v they_o 11._o chap._n vi_o there_o be_v in_o man_n two_o will_n the_o rational_a seat_v between_o god_n grace_n &_o our_o sense_n 1._o and_o the_o sensual_a 2._o the_o true_o virtuous_a person_n yield_v prompt_o to_o god_n will_v &_o vicious_a to_o their_o sensuality_n but_o they_o who_o of_o sinner_n be_v become_v convert_v have_v the_o great_a conflict_n 3._o who_o must_v therefore_o resolve_v to_o bear_v patient_o the_o loss_n of_o their_o pleasure_n there_o be_v divers_a sort_n of_o unmortified_a soul_n seem_v good_a but_o full_a of_o imperfection_n ignorance_n and_o blindness_n 4._o a_o danger_n in_o the_o choice_n of_o spiritual_a exercise_n discover_v 5._o chap._n vii_o of_o the_o fight_n against_o sensuality_n and_o of_o the_o inward_a way_n of_o the_o will_v to_o acquire_v virtue_n when_o sensuality_n rebel_v 1._o look_v strict_o to_o thy_o reason_n that_o it_o consent_v not_o and_o recall_v that_o motion_n again_o and_o again_o and_o as_o often_o conquer_v it_o 2._o also_o produce_v act_n of_o those_o virtue_n which_o be_v contrary_a to_o these_o vice_n 3._o but_o beware_v of_o thy_o cunning_a enemy_n who_o sometime_o suppress_v these_o motion_n 4._o for_o than_o it_o be_v thy_o part_n to_o excite_v they_o and_o fight_v afresh_o with_o they_o 5._o till_o thou_o have_v get_v a_o perfect_a hatred_n of_o they_o 6._o and_o the_o way_n to_o plant_v virtue_n be_v to_o practice_n act_v contrary_a to_o those_o defect_n the_o reason_n whereof_o be_v because_o as_o long_o as_o the_o root_n of_o vice_n remain_v alive_a in_o we_o it_o will_v still_o bud_v forth_o and_o choke_v up_o our_o plant_n of_o virtue_n and_o therefore_o we_o must_v make_v many_o act_n contrary_a to_o the_o vicious_a habit_n to_o implant_v the_o habit_n of_o virtue_n 7._o and_o though_o this_o be_v full_a of_o pain_n yet_o it_o be_v also_o full_a of_o profit_n 8._o the_o like_a diligence_n must_v be_v also_o use_v against_o the_o least_o evil_a motion_n 9_o yea_o and_o against_o lawful_a affection_n when_o they_o be_v not_o absolute_o necessary_a 10._o and_o this_o be_v the_o way_n to_o become_v true_o spiritual_a 11._o because_o all_o vice_n spring_v from_o the_o yield_n to_o sense_n and_o all_o virtue_n by_o subdue_a and_o submit_v our_o will_n to_o go_n 12._o chap._n viii_o what_o he_o must_v do_v who_o feel_v his_o reason_n conquer_v by_o sense_n so_o long_o as_o thou_o consente_v not_o to_o sensuality_n fear_v not_o 1._o for_o victory_n consist_v not_o in_o feel_v no_o motion_n but_o in_o not_o yield_v 2._o but_o if_o thy_o enemy_n surprise_v thy_o reason_n then_o give_v back_o to_o gain_v time_n and_o strength_n 3._o and_o if_o thou_o have_v time_n help_v thyself_o with_o consideration_n 4._o whether_o thou_o have_v deserve_v this_o affliction_n if_o so_o rest_v content_v if_o not_o think_v upon_o thy_o former_a sin_n not_o yet_o full_o punish_v 5._o yea_o though_o they_o be_v yet_o self-deniall_n and_o sufferance_n be_v the_o way_n to_o heaven_n 6._o and_o if_o there_o be_v another_o way_n yet_o thy_o duty_n to_o god_n bind_v thou_o to_o cbuse_v this_o 7._o as_o be_v most_o grateful_a and_o please_a to_o his_o majesty_n 8._o chap._n ix_o that_o we_o must_v not_o shun_v the_o occasion_n of_o these_o combat_n the_o way_n to_o get_v true_a virtue_n be_v not_o to_o avoid_v but_o to_o seek_v the_o occasion_n of_o combat_n as_o for_o example_n to_o get_v patience_n shun_v not_o the_o company_n 1._o or_o the_o employment_n which_o be_v tedious_a to_o thou_o 2._o and_o the_o same_o rule_n be_v to_o be_v apply_v to_o troublesome_a thought_n 3._o yet_o a_o young_a scholar_n must_v be_v wary_a in_o wage_n this_o war_n but_o never_o desert_n the_o field_n for_o than_o he_o will_v still_o be_v unprovided_a this_o be_v good_a in_o all_o case_n except_o 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hide_v and_o secure_v ourselves_o and_o say_v my_o god_n hang_v on_o the_o cross_n and_o shall_v i_o think_v of_o take_v my_o pleasure_n 4._o the_o love_n of_o god_n o_o jesu_n my_o love_n and_o my_o life_n i_o will_v either_o love_v thou_o or_o love_v nothing_o at_o all_o let_v i_o rather_o lose_v my_o life_n than_o thy_o love_n 5._o humility_n thou_o be_v just_a o_o my_o lord_n god_n thy_o will_n be_v do_v my_o pride_n be_v cause_n of_o this_o villainy_n which_o i_o feel_v etc._n etc._n and_o take_v chaste_a we_o must_v be_v humble_a or_o we_o shall_v not_o be_v long_o chaste_a this_o for_o a_o infallible_a truth_n we_o must_v be_v humble_a or_o we_o shall_v not_o be_v long_o chaste_a let_v we_o be_v obedient_a to_o our_o superior_n or_o let_v we_o not_o look_v to_o have_v our_o flesh_n obedient_a to_o our_o spirit_n 6._o devotion_n to_o saint_n excel_v in_o this_o virtue_n especial_o to_o the_o chaste_a virgin_n mary_n 7._o the_o last_o remedy_n be_v to_o make_v use_n of_o these_o 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i_o as_o shall_v be_v most_o for_o thy_o honour_n and_o glory_n let_v i_o be_v either_o all_o thou_o or_o nothing_o at_o all_o the_o 13._o doubt_n if_o we_o be_v tempt_v to_o despair_v of_o god_n mercy_n by_o reason_n of_o our_o frequent_a fall_n and_o relapse_n into_o sin_n this_o grievous_a malady_n spring_v from_o three_o cause_n or_o error_n for_o they_o who_o be_v trouble_v in_o this_o point_n do_v not_o true_o weigh_v 1._o what_o god_n be_v 2._o what_o sin_n be_v 3._o what_o contrition_n and_o sorrow_n of_o heart_n be_v 1._o almighty_a god_n be_v a_o boundless_a be_v 1._o what_o god_n be_v and_o bottomless_a sea_n of_o mercy_n he_o be_v natural_a bounty_n itself_o he_o be_v ever_o ready_a to_o receive_v revive_v and_o relieve_v a_o penitent_a soul_n though_o she_o alone_o have_v commit_v a_o thousand_o time_n a_o day_n the_o sin_n of_o the_o whole_a world_n he_o consider_v not_o what_o she_o have_v be_v but_o what_o she_o desire_v and_o resolve_v now_o to_o be_v and_o who_o so_o 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