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therefore_o when_o i_o be_v a_o student_n i_o will_v never_o fashion_v myself_o unto_o though_o when_o i_o set_v up_o school_n i_o be_v fain_o to_o endure_v they_o from_o other_o and_o for_o this_o cause_n be_v i_o desirous_a to_o go_v to_o rome_n where_o all_o those_o that_o know_v it_o assure_v i_o that_o there_o be_v no_o such_o insolence_n commit_v but_o thou_o o_o my_o refuge_n 5._o and_o my_o portion_n in_o the_o land_n of_o the_o live_n to_o force_v i_o to_o change_v my_o dwell_n for_o the_o salvation_n of_o my_o soul_n do_v prick_v i_o forward_o with_o goad_n at_o carthage_n with_o which_o i_o may_v be_v drive_v thence_o and_o make_v proffer_v of_o certain_a allurement_n at_o rome_n by_o which_o i_o may_v be_v draw_v thither_o even_o by_o man_n who_o be_v in_o love_n with_o a_o die_a life_n now_o play_v mad_a prank_n then_o promise_v vain_a hope_n and_o for_o the_o reform_n of_o my_o course_n do_v thou_o make_v secret_a use_n both_o of_o their_o perverseness_n and_o of_o my_o 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this_o have_v thou_o merciful_o forgive_v i_o preserve_v i_o from_o the_o water_n of_o the_o sea_n then_o full_a of_o execrable_a filthiness_n land_v i_o safe_a at_o the_o water_n of_o thy_o grace_n baptism_n with_o which_o so_o soon_o as_o i_o be_v purge_v those_o flood_n of_o my_o mother_n eye_n shall_v be_v dry_v up_o with_o which_o for_o my_o sake_n she_o daily_o water_v the_o ground_n under_o her_o face_n in_o prayer_n unto_o thou_o at_o last_o refuse_v to_o return_v without_o i_o i_o with_o much_o ado_n persuade_v she_o to_o stay_v that_o night_n in_o a_o place_n hard_o by_o our_o ship_n where_o there_o be_v a_o oratory_n erect_v preface_n in_o memory_n of_o s._n cyprian_n that_o night_n i_o privy_o steal_v aboard_o but_o she_o tarry_v behind_o in_o weep_v and_o prayer_n and_o what_o o_o lord_n request_v she_o at_o thy_o hand_n but_o that_o thou_o will_v not_o suffer_v i_o to_o sail_v away_o from_o she_o but_o thou_o profound_o provide_v and_o fear_v the_o main_a point_n of_o 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about_o to_o work_v for_o she_o out_o of_o my_o absence_n she_o know_v nothing_o of_o it_o therefore_o do_v she_o weep_v and_o lament_v prove_v herself_o by_o those_o torture_n to_o be_v guilty_a of_o what_o eve_n leave_v behind_o she_o with_o sorrow_n seek_v what_o she_o have_v bring_v forth_o in_o sorrow_n but_o have_v at_o last_o make_v a_o end_n of_o accuse_v i_o of_o false_a and_o hard_a deal_n with_o she_o she_o betake_v herself_o again_o to_o entreat_v thy_o favour_n for_o i_o return_v home_o and_o i_o go_v on_o towards_o rome_n chap._n 9_o of_o a_o shrewd_a fever_n that_o he_o fall_v into_o 1._o but_o lo_o there_o
if_o you_o have_v not_o be_v faithful_a in_o the_o unrighteous_a mamman_n who_o will_v commit_v to_o your_o trust_n true_a riches_n and_o if_o you_o have_v not_o be_v faithful_a in_o that_o which_o be_v another_o man_n who_o shall_v give_v you_o that_o which_o be_v your_o own_o such_o a_o man_n as_o i_o have_v describe_v do_v at_o that_o time_n adjoyne_v himself_o unto_o i_o and_o waver_v in_o his_o purpose_n as_o i_o do_v what_o course_n of_o life_n be_v to_o be_v take_v nebridius_fw-la also_o who_o have_v leave_v his_o native_a country_n near_o carthage_n yea_o and_o carthage_n itself_o where_o for_o the_o most_o part_n he_o live_v leave_v his_o father_n land_n which_o be_v very_o rich_a leave_v his_o own_o house_n and_o a_o mother_n behind_o who_o mean_v not_o like_o i_o to_o follow_v after_o he_o be_v by_o this_o time_n come_v to_o milan_n and_o for_o no_o other_o reason_n neither_o but_o that_o he_o may_v bestow_v himself_o with_o i_o in_o a_o most_o ardent_a desire_n after_o 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away_o and_o that_o this_o one_o exaltation_n shall_v ravish_v we_o and_o swallow_v we_o up_o and_o so_o wrap_v up_o their_o beholder_n among_o these_o more_o inward_a joy_n as_o that_o his_o life_n may_v be_v for_o ever_o like_a to_o this_o very_a moment_n of_o understanding_n which_o we_o now_o sigh_v after_o be_v not_o this_o as_o much_o as_o enter_z into_o thy_o master_n joy_n but_o when_o shall_v that_o 21_o be_v shall_v it_o be_v when_o we_o shall_v all_o rise_v again_o though_o all_o shall_v not_o be_v change_v 15._o 4._o such_o discourse_n we_o then_o have_v and_o though_o not_o precise_o after_o this_o manner_n and_o in_o these_o selfsame_o word_n yet_o lord_n thou_o know_v that_o in_o that_o day_n when_o we_o thus_o talk_v of_o these_o thing_n that_o this_o world_n with_o all_o its_o delight_n grow_v contemptible_a to_o we_o even_o as_o we_o be_v speak_v of_o it_o then_o say_v my_o mother_n son_n for_o my_o own_o part_n i_o have_v delight_n in_o nothing_o in_o this_o life_n what_o i_o shall_v here_o do_v any_o long_o and_o to_o what_o end_n i_o be_o here_o i_o know_v not_o now_o that_o my_o hope_n in_o this_o world_n be_v vanish_v there_o be_v indeed_o one_o thing_n for_o which_o i_o sometime_o desire_v to_o be_v a_o little_a while_n reprive_v in_o this_o life_n namely_o that_o i_o may_v see_v thou_o to_o become_v a_o christian_a catholic_a before_o i_o die_v my_o god_n have_v do_v this_o for_o i_o more_o abundant_o for_o that_o i_o now_o see_v thou_o withal_o have_v contemn_v all_o earthly_a happiness_n to_o be_v make_v his_o servant_n what_o then_o do_v i_o here_o any_o long_o chap._n 11._o of_o the_o ecstasy_n and_o death_n of_o his_o mother_n 1._o what_o answer_v i_o then_o make_v she_o unto_o these_o thing_n i_o do_v not_o now_o remember_v but_o in_o the_o mean_a time_n scarce_o five_o day_n after_o or_o not_o much_o more_o she_o fall_v into_o a_o fever_n and_o in_o that_o sickness_n one_o day_n she_o fall_v into_o a_o swoon_v be_v for_o a_o while_n take_v from_o her_o sense_n we_o run_v to_o she_o but_o she_o quick_o come_v to_o herself_o again_o and_o look_v wist_o upon_o i_o and_o my_o brother_n stand_v by_o she_o say_v unto_o we_o in_o manner_n of_o a_o question_n where_o be_v i_o and_o fix_v her_o eye_n upon_o we_o all_o with_o grief_n amaze_v here_o say_v she_o shall_v you_o bury_v your_o mother_n i_o hold_v my_o peace_n and_o refrain_v weep_v but_o my_o brother_n speak_v something_o to_o she_o insinuate_v his_o desire_n to_o have_v she_o die_v not_o in_o a_o strange_a place_n but_o in_o her_o own_o country_n as_o be_v the_o happy_a at_o hear_v of_o which_o she_o with_o a_o offend_a countenance_n check_v he_o with_o her_o eye_n for_o that_o he_o have_v not_o yet_o lose_v the_o relish_n of_o these_o earthly_a thought_n and_o then_o look_v upon_o i_o behold_v quoth_v she_o what_o he_o say_v and_o soon_o after_o to_o we_o both_o lay_v say_v she_o this_o body_n any_o where_o let_v not_o the_o ear_n for_o that_o disquiet_n you_o this_o only_a i_o request_v that_o you_o will_v remember_v preface_n i_o at_o the_o lord_n altar_n wherever_o you_o be_v 2._o and_o when_o she_o have_v deliver_v this_o her_o opinion_n in_o word_n as_o well_o as_o she_o can_v she_o hold_v her_o peace_n her_o sickness_n grow_v more_o strong_a upon_o she_o but_o i_o consider_v with_o myself_o thy_o gift_n o_o thou_o my_o invincible_a god_n which_o thou_o instill_a into_o the_o heart_n of_o thy_o faithful_a one_o from_o whence_o such_o admirable_a fruit_n do_v spring_v forth_o do_v great_o rejoice_v and_o give_v thanks_n unto_o thou_o call_v now_o to_o mind_n what_o i_o before_o know_v with_o how_o much_o carefulness_n namely_o concern_v her_o place_n of_o burial_n she_o have_v always_o trouble_v herself_o which_o she_o have_v appoint_v and_o prepare_v by_o the_o body_n of_o her_o husband_n for_o because_o they_o two_o have_v live_v so_o love_o together_o her_o earnest_a desire_n have_v still_o be_v as_o humane_a nature_n be_v less_o capable_a of_o divine_a consideration_n to_o make_v this_o addition_n unto_o that_o happiness_n and_o to_o have_v it_o talk_v of_o by_o the_o people_n that_o god_n have_v grant_v unto_o she_o after_o so_o long_a a_o pilgrimage_n beyond_o the_o sea_n to_o have_v now_o at_o last_o in_o her_o native_a country_n both_o the_o body_n of_o man_n and_o wife_n cover_v with_o the_o same_o earth_n 3._o but_o when_o this_o empty_a conceit_n begin_v by_o the_o fullness_n of_o thy_o goodness_n to_o be_v thrust_v out_o of_o her_o heart_n i_o know_v not_o but_o i_o rejoice_v with_o much_o admiration_n that_o i_o now_o so_o plain_o see_v it_o to_o have_v do_v so_o though_o indeed_o in_o that_o speech_n which_o we_o have_v in_o the_o window_n whenas_o she_o say_v what_o do_v i_o here_o any_o long_o she_o make_v show_v of_o no_o desire_n of_o die_v in_o her_o own_o country_n i_o hear_v afterward_o also_o that_o in_o the_o time_n we_o be_v at_o ostia_n how_o with_o a_o matrone_o confidence_n she_o discourse_v with_o certain_a of_o my_o friend_n when_o i_o be_v absent_a about_o the_o contempt_n of_o this_o life_n and_o of_o the_o benefit_n of_o death_n they_o be_v much_o astonish_v at_o the_o courage_n of_o the_o woman_n which_o thou_o have_v give_v she_o withal_o demand_v of_o she_o whether_o she_o be_v not_o afraid_a to_o leave_v her_o body_n so_o far_o from_o her_o own_o city_n unto_o which_o she_o reply_v nothing_o be_v far_o from_o god_n nor_o be_v it_o to_o be_v fear_v lest_o he_o shall_v not_o know_v at_o the_o end_n of_o the_o world_n the_o place_n whence_o he_o be_v to_o raise_v i_o up_o in_o the_o nine_o day_n therefore_o of_o her_o sickness_n and_o the_o six_o and_o fifty_o year_n of_o her_o age_n and_o the_o three_o and_o thirty_o of_o i_o be_v that_o religious_a &_o holy_a soul_n discharge_v from_o the_o prison_n of_o her_o body_n chap._n 12._o he_o lament_v his_o mother_n death_n 1._o i_o cloased_n her_o eye_n and_o there_o flow_v withal_o a_o unspeakable_a sorrow_n into_o my_o heart_n which_o overflow_v into_o tear_n my_o eye_n at_o the_o same_o time_n by_o the_o violent_a command_n of_o my_o mind_n pump_v their_o well_o dry_a and_o woe_n be_v i_o in_o that_o same_o agony_n so_o soon_o as_o she_o have_v breathe_v out_o her_o last_o spirit_n the_o boy_n adeodates_n break_v out_o into_o a_o loud_a lamentation_n till_o be_v press_v by_o we_o all_o he_o hold_v his_o peace_n in_o like_a manner_n also_o that_o childish_a passion_n of_o my_o own_o which_o slip_v from_o i_o in_o tear_n be_v restrain_v by_o the_o manly_a voice_n of_o my_o heart_n be_v at_o last_o silence_v for_o fit_v sedantibus_fw-la we_o do_v not_o think_v it_o to_o solemnize_v that_o funeral_n with_o lamentation_n tear_n and_o howl_n for_o that_o this_o be_v the_o fashion_n whereby_o those_o that_o die_v miserable_o or_o be_v utter_o perish_v as_o it_o be_v use_v to_o be_v lament_v whereas_o she_o do_v neither_o dye_n in_o any_o miserable_a condition_n nor_o indeed_o die_v she_o 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to_o 〈◊〉_d evil_a for_o soul_n and_o body_n 〈…〉_z appetite_n be_v in_o the_o motive_n faculty_n of_o the_o 〈◊〉_d soul_n by_o these_o â—â—e_z soul_n move_v herself_o to_o or_o 〈◊〉_d sesue_v or_o abhor_a object_n here_o the_o old_a 〈◊〉_d much_o mistake_n for_o want_v of_o philosophy_n psal_n 18._o 28_o joh_n 1._o 16_o 9_o jam._n 1._o 16._o 1_o pet._n 5._o 5._o psal_n 51._o 8._o 8._o multa_fw-la in_o pulvere_fw-la depingentibus_fw-la which_o the_o other_o translator_n turn_v write_v they_o in_o the_o dust_n note_v in_o his_o margin_n that_o it_o be_v a_o manner_n of_o â—â—iting_v then_o use_v bold_o affirm_v i_o dare_v say_v there_o be_v never_o such_o a_o manner_n of_o writing_n but_o thus_o it_o be_v the_o mathematician_n have_v their_o pulverem_fw-la mathematicum_fw-la dust_n in_o linen_n bag_n which_o scirce_v or_o pownce_v upon_o a_o board_n they_o draw_v their_o scheme_n and_o diagram_n upon_o to_o make_v ocular_a demonstration_n withal_o either_o for_o their_o own_o use_n or_o their_o scholar_n this_o they_o can_v easy_o and_o the_o ap_o put_v in_o and_o out_o again_o arch_a mede_n be_v take_v in_o his_o study_n draw_v his_o mathematical_a line_n in_o such_o dust_n he_o allude_v to_o the_o prodigal_n luk._n â—5_n o_o wonderful_a natural_a wit_n of_o s._n augustine_n the_o papist_n brag_v of_o be_v in_o the_o true_a church_n but_o plain_o their_o chicken_n seldom_o prove_v more_o than_o spoone-feathered_n &_o not_o hardpenned_a for_o they_o want_v the_o food_n here_o speak_v of_o sound_z faith_n tradition_n legend_n seined_a miracle_n carnal_a vow_n and_o out_o side_n sanctity_n may_v puff_n up_o not_o edify_v edify_v he_o mean_v that_o the_o goodly_a order_n and_o workmanship_n of_o the_o creature_n cause_v those_o that_o well_o consider_v they_o to_o open_v their_o mouth_n in_o praise_n to_o god_n for_o they_o the_o old_a translator_n be_v much_o puzzle_v here_o confound_v both_o the_o sense_n and_o sentence_n psal_n 139._o 7_o psal_n 138._o 6_o deut._n 4._o 21._o 1_o cor._n 1._o 30_o rom._n 1._o 21._o rom._n 1._o 21._o rom._n 1._o 23_o 25._o rom._n 1._o 21._o wis_v 11._o 20_o job_n 28._o 28._o manichaeus_n his_o pride_n and_o blasphemy_n all_o heretic_n do_v thus_o brag_v of_o the_o spirit_n eph._n 4._o 13_o 14._o 14._o just_o the_o purilane_n humour_n of_o our_o tiâ—es_n with_o who_o our_o incomparable_a court_n sermon_n be_v flattery_n and_o our_o neat_a preacher_n be_v ladypreacher_n for_o so_o they_o call_v they_o they_o this_o be_v the_o old_a fashion_n of_o the_o east_n where_o 〈◊〉_d scholar_n have_v liberty_n to_o ask_v question_n of_o their_o master_n and_o to_o move_v doubt_n as_o the_o professor_n be_v read_v or_o so_o soon_o as_o the_o lecture_n be_v do_v thus_o do_v our_o saviour_n with_o the_o doctor_n 〈◊〉_d 2._o 46._o so_o 〈◊〉_d still_o in_o some_o european_a university_n pro._n 21._o 29_o 29_o the_o insolent_a fashion_n of_o the_o student_n in_o carthage_n psal_n 142._o 5._o 5._o he_o mean_v the_o water_n of_o 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