side of me but sinne which inuironeth me round about and mine iniquities which presse and ouer throwe me They lye heaped vpon my head as a very heauy burden and loe how ready they are to throttle and strangle me 5 How shall I be euer able to resist them What strength haue I to defend me from them seeing that my body is ready to fall in peeces The very filthinesse of them flowe on euery side me my vlcers and sores are no sooner closed vp but that they breake out againe and if my body be ill can my soule be well Must not she be altogether ashamed and tremble with horror and feare 6 After the same maner that a disease vndermineth my body maketh it stoope to death sorrow vndermineth my soule bereaueth her of her strength and as great cold congealeth in the bud the tender blossom withereth drieth it vp euen so dooth the finger of the Lord which hath touched my soule cause it to languish and to be out of heart 7 But alas my God what courage can I haue when as I see my selfe thus couered ouer with wounds and no part of my body free from paine and ouer and besides this my miserie the remembrance of my dissolute pleasures is still before my face and reproch me with my sinne laugh at my vanitie Then say I thus vnto my selfe must I season my life with the honie of so many delights and afterward kneade them with the gall of so bitter anguishes Where now art thou ô thou deceitfull voluptuousnesse which drownest my soule in the sweet licour of thy pleasures Oh what drinke is that that thou leauest me 8 Haue not I ô Lord endured enough hath not mine humilitie sufficiently chastized mine arrogancie If I haue through fond presumption sinned alas I haue sithence that crept vpon the earth I haue couered mine head with ashes and with mine arme haue I preuented my payne I haue cut through mine heart with crying out I haue drowned mine eyes in teares and yet thine anger continueth still 9 Is it of set purpose ô Lord that thou hast not perceiued my teares Is it thou I say who with the twinkle of thine eye trauersest both heauen and earth euen thou I meane whose sight goeth beyond the depth of our harts It is thou ô Lord that hast read euen my very thoughts and knowne mine intent What haue I desired but thy mercie Wherin haue I trusted but in thy goodnes Why haue I made open profession of repentance but to condemne my selfe If my toong hath not throughly expressed my minde and caused my desier to be vnderstood alas ô Lord thou knowest what we would haue before we once thinke of it It is enough for vs to lift vp our harts vnto thee and thou forthwith grauntest our petitions 10 Why stayest thou ô Lord so long before thou geuest me that holie coÌ„solation which thou hast promised me I am quite spent my hart is gone my senses are troubled my streÌ„gth faileth my sight waxeth dim my soule is vpoÌ„ the shore of my lips ready to fly away 11 All my friends are now about me bewailing my death they are out of all hope of my health they dreame of nothing but of my funerall saying where is now that help which he looked for to come froÌ„ his God where is his fauour which he so promised to himselfe 12 The flatterers are gon away from me they thought to haue parted my goods they meant to haue preuented my fatall houre I am noisome to the whole world in the case that I now staÌ„d 13 They whisper in mine eare and tell me a thousand tales They dayly bring me in new acquaintances and thinke of nothing but to betray me He lieth say they on his death-bed and will neuer rise vp aliue againe What do we feare that the shadowe of his bones will bite vs 14 And I as if I had bin deafe made shew that I heard them nor and as if I had bin dumb spake not one word vnto them for my patieÌ„ce was my buckler and my constancy my rampart 15 And euery man seing me so patieÌ„t said surely this man is dumb for when he is touched he saith not a word would he abide all these indignities if he had any feeling of his honor and credit or yet the least courage in the world And therefore it may well be said that he is very guilty for an innocent man is alwayes bold in his owne defence And yet all this could neuer â—oue mee 16 And why so verely because I trusted in my God and fully assured my selfe that he would assist me For although the whole world banded against me and heauen and earth coniured my ruine and ouerthrow yet if he be mine ayder and defendor I am sure alwayes to conquer For with the breath of his mouth hee made all things and in breathing againe vpon them he will destroy them all if it please him and therefore I will fight vnder his cloth and liuerie because I shall be sure to haue the victorie 17 I haue sayd vnto them many times Reioyce not at my miserie and although I be neuer so much tormented and afflicted yet braue not your selues vpon me for the hand of the Lord is able euen to reach you and therefore trust not his patience ouer much for as his feet are of wooll so are his armes also of iron For if he once lay them vpon your heads ô ye impotent soules he will so crush you together as that a man would thinke that you had neuer bene 18 And I haue taken the rods in my hand and imprinted with them vpon my shoulders the condemnation of my sinne I haue appeared before thee ô Lord with weeping teares with repentance in my mouth and with a sorrowfull hart and haue fought with my selfe that mine enemie might not triumph ouer me 19 I haue openly confessed my fault I haue in an happie houre shewed foorth my sinne and I had great care to runne vnto thy mercy whilst time and season serued 20 But the more I humble my selfe before thee to drawe the running water out of this founraine of thy grace which floweth from thy goodnes the more mine enemies glut me and deale cruelly and butcherlike with me their troupe dayly encreaseth and ioyne them selues together on euery side neuer foreseeing the tempest that will shake them in a thousand pecces They through their pride blow the hote burning coles of thine ire they despite thy power which they will too too soone make try all of to their great destruction To be short in setting most confidently their brasen faces against heauen and earth they wallow and welter them selues in their filthie pleasures and blot out as much as in them lye the mark of the deitie which thou hast sealed in their soules close vp their eyes against the hope of saluatioÌ„ which shineth brightly in thy word 21 I cease not ô Lord to admonish them of
hart stirreth it selfe like vnto one walking with his nose lifted vp into the weather who through his retchlesnesse falleth into the botrome of a well hauing forthwith thereby beene amazed is incontinent void of iudgement falleth out with himselfe and tormenteth himselfe vntill such time as being come againe to his wits he knoweth both the place wherein he is and vnderstandeth the maner how he fell in and then beginneth by little and little to get vp againe vnto the top thereof and yet is scarslie able to note and marke the place whence he so easily fell 5 And so hauing called to minde as farre as I possibly could the memorie of things past hauing set before me in a deepe meditation the workes of thine hands and hauing exactly considered the perfection thereof yea and remembring the estate wherein thou hast created vs and besides setting before me him by whome I feele my selfe now as it were oppressed vnder the destruction of sinne I cursed in my self the houre wherein my mother conceiued me I abhorred the day which first opened vnto me mine eye lids whereby I might see heauen and earth witnesses of mine infirmitie and in the end finding nothing in the world that in this distresse might comfort and helpe me I at last addressed my selfe vnto thy most excellent maiestie 6 I fell on both my knees before thee I stretched out mine armes and hands vnto thee and my soule thirsting for thy grace waited with a great desire for the same as the chapping ground through heat looketh for a gratious and sweet showre in the hoatest daies of sommer 7 Make hast therefore vnto me O my God for I am already out of breath for loe mine heart fainteth and I am at the point of swound wilt thou stay vntill I be dead I am already so if thou make not hast for my sences do by little and little faile me my soule glideth gentlie out of me leauing my body without moouing and I am like vnto him who letting his foote bleede in the water looseth his life with his bloud without feeling the occasion or cause of his death 8 If thou O Lord holdest thy selfe aloofe from me and turnest thy face away I shall become like vnto those that go downe into the bottom of hell pale death will make my face looke wanne and my feeling to sleepe nay a worse thing then this will betide me my God for spirituall death will kill my soule make it horribly a feard and take from her the acknowledgement of thy singular goodnesse and the hope of grace which shineth in thy miracles as a bright shining starre in a duke night 9 Make me therefore O Lord in thy good time to vnderstand and feele the effect of thy mercy and when the sunne riseth in the morning vpon the face of the earth let then thy louing kindnesse rise vpon me for the enlightening of mine ignorance and leade me in the way of thy wyll But let it not deale with me O Lord as the sunne dooth who at his fall plungeth him selfe into the sea keeping away his light for a time from poore wretched and distressed men But let thy fauour and grace continually assist and defend mee and neuer depart more from me then my soule doth from my body for thy mercy is farre away more the soule of my soule then my soule is the life of my bodie 10 And therefore let thy mercie neuer forsake me but let her light direct my footsteps alwayes in thy wayes and leade me continually in the way which must bring me vnto thee For my spirit which hath run it self through the strange queaches of this world and strayed into the broad and thicke bushes thereof can neuer find out her tract againe but rusheth out at all aduentures and loseth both her path and also her payne going alwayes back from the abiding place whither she was determined to goe But I my God do alwayes attend thine ayd for it is from aboue that I looke for help 11 I am a captiue in the hands of the most cruell enemies of my life and therefore I most humbly beseech thee ô Lord to make haste to deliuer me I flye vnto thee for refuge receiue mee into thy protection Teach mee what thou wouldest haue me to do for thou art my God whome alone I am resolued now to serue And now away away from me deceitfull pleasure which heretofore hast bewitched my poore soule and poysoned my spirit thou hast with thy sweet delights fed me and made me with a little bait of hony to swallow a deadly potion which running through my members hath so astonished and mortified me as that there is no differēce betweene me and a dead man nay worse then that for it is not my body that is thus mortified but it is my soule wherin cōsisteth the principall matter both of this present life and also of the life to come 12 And therfore thy holy spirit must light vpon me to rewarme and fetch againe my dying soule and take it by the hand to quicken and set it in a safe place imprinting therein the image of thy righeuousnesse to serue her as a sauegard against all tentations which besiege her on euery side and threaten her destruction 13 Thou shalt come therefore and at thy comming shalt draw back my soule from tribulation and in shewing of me mercy shalt destroy all those that haue coniured against me And then shall my sorrow haue an end and theirs shall begin and the beginning of their sorrow shall neuer cease But as the streames comming out of the spring heads do still growe larger and larger vntill such time as they enter into the deepe Seas where is neyther brinke nor bottome euen so shall theyr miserie day by day encrease and in the end will heape vppon them extreame dolour and infinite distresse 14 And so shall all they perish which shall vexe my soule for I ô God am thy faithfull seruant whome thou hast remembred and wilt remember all those who in disdayne of my Lord haue thus shamelesly troubled mee They laughed at my miseries but now behold the season wherein they shall bewayle theirs Thy vengeance beginneth to waxe hoat against them and a man shall see them fall like vnto the leaues of trees in the beginning of winter O God what glorie shall I render vnto thy name and at what end shall I begin to set foorth thy prayse Shall I publish thy goodnesse in creating so many wonderfull works which are vnder the Sunne Thy wisdome in the conseruing of them Shall I preach abroad thy iustice in the condemnation and vengeance of the pride of the Angels the disobedience of men Shall I sing foorth thy mercy in the redeeming of those who by transgressing thy lawes haue cast them-selues downe headlong into the bondage of eternall death vnto what part of thy prayses may the sound tune of my voyce attaine reach Yea put the case that my voyce were
the rest Ye shall see them hale and pull against death and draw their ritches with them euen vnto the graues but death will set them vpon their fingers ends and cause them to leaue them euen when they haue gotten them They that are halfe dead shall goe about to lift vp a little their eye lids to â—ee if they can find their treasure at â—he wykes of their eyes but in the end â—hey must be packing they must leaue â—his worldly pomp because a mightie power hath pluckt them away But â—nto whome shall they leaue this preparation furniture forsooth it may â—e vnto a stranger whome they neuer â—…ew or euer yet once dreamed of â—ho shall bath and blesse him selfe in â—he sweate of this miserable ritch cayâ—ife churle who shall haue no more â—eft him for his portion but a graue of â—…teene or twentie soot long at the â—ost and this shall be his house for eâ—er wherein let him keepe him selfe if â—e will 11 What is become then of these â—raue waynscotted palaces these guilt â—autes these beautifull ranks of choyse â—illers these so faire curled marbles â—hese emblemes sentences engrauen 〈◊〉 brasse and all the rest of these wonâ—ers of vanitie What is nothing of â—ll this left for him he had established â—is lands and possessions from race to â—…e from generation to generation â—…d called his houses by his owne name surely this must needs be 〈◊〉 great man 12 Alasse poore man for when hâ— was in honor he knew not himselfe neither had he any knowledge he sâ— caried himself as that he is brought tâ— be of the number of the bruite beasâ—… made like vnto Asses horses whâ— haue neither wit nor iudgement For what greater honor could he desire 〈◊〉 wish to haue then to be made and formed vnto the fashion of the Deity aâ—… to be placed amoÌ„gst the works of Goâ— there to command as his lieutenant he was not as it were lesse then Aâ—…gels had a spirit to comprehend thâ— greatest wonders of the Deity but bâ— flying from the day and light of knoâ—…ledge he hid himselfe in the dens aâ— caues of ignorance blockishnes aâ— remained therein all his life long haâ—…ching there I know not what misâ—…rable ritches was found in the eâ—… to become like vnto the bruite beastâ— for as they neuer neigh bray but â—…ter otes and neuer trauell but for pâ—…sture euen so this man neuer bestirâ—… him selfe but about the getting of nâ—…cessarie things for the bodie nay 〈◊〉 did worse then so for he could not prouide and vse for the entertayning of him selfe the goods which he so eagerly coueted but became therein farre worse then all the rest of the beasts of the field whose vnruly appetites were satisfied with the vse of those things which they desired 13 O what an infamie and offence are the liues of such kinde of men who are so shamelesly brutished What remayneth then more for them both here in this world and in the world to come but shame in this and payne and torment in the other And besides let them runne on in delighting them selues in their vayne discourses and priding of themselues in their ritches Let them now a little remember the speeches which they haue whereby they seeme to esteeme of none but of them selues and their money making no better accompt of all other men then of the rushes vnder their feet 14 Thus we see how they draw them selues vnto hell eueÌ„ as sheep led to the Shambles death is come who hath deuoured them and nothing left of them but their pitifull bare bones which canker and are worme-eaten in the graue 15 And loe the iust man who patiently endured their insolencie his time is now come to reigne and is at ease he is vp by the breake of the day and after hee hath geuen thanks to God he goeth to see if he can finde the place where one of these miserable caytifs dwelt and where he is placed for insulting brauing and tyrannizing of the whole world and sayth a part vnto him selfe Thanked be God for cleansing the earth of such off-scouring and placing such as blesse his name For this wicked churle with all his glorie is become rotten and puttified He is now in torment and there is not one to help him and so let him remayne there hardly for death is a passage for him neuer to returne 16 And as for me ô Lord I right well know that I must dye for the sin of our first parent hath bound vs to pay that debt it is the reward for his disobedience we must go againe into the earth and returne from whence we came Neuerthelesse ô Lord thou shalt redeeme me from death and deliuer me from the hand of hell when it would lay hold on me Thou wilt not suffer me to go downe all below but wilt deliuer me eueÌ„ at the very mouth thereof and be contented that I acknowledge it without suffering the punishment of my deserued thraldome and captiuitie But what shall be the price of my redemption shall it be the goods and possessions of the earth and the aboundance of gold and siluer No ô Lord for hell is full thereof it maketh no reckning of this geaâ—e for thou thy selfe shalt be the price of my redemption thou shalt deliuer thine owne body to death that my soule might be deliuered from hell Thou shalt put vpon thee and cloth thee with the dolors of the dead that I might be clothed with the ioyes of immortalitie And therefore I will not from henceforth my God haue any other ritches but thee and in possessing thee I shall possesse the whole world and in louing thee I shall be in thee thou in mee and thou being there shalt bring thither all the goods strength and glorie of the world and fill me full with other manner of ritches then the ritches of these miserable carles which will not acknowledge thee for their ritches are but the fruite of their sinne which shall perish with their sinne 17 No maÌ„ ought to be abashed to see them all at once suddainly enriched ne yet to esteeme theÌ„ to be any whit the happier therby for although the false honor which they so greedily hunt after exceedeth excelleth and are filled with this vaine and vanishing glorie which carieth with it but a glorious glittering outward shew yet must we not be in an admiration thereat much lesse enuie the same 18 For although they shall at any time haue kissed the earth and put on the round compasse thereof yet shall they carry away nothing of it with theÌ„ saue their winding sheet nothing shall follow them but their shadow and yet I beleeue that it will also leaue them for the very selfe-same day which maketh the shadow will forsake them and they shall want the ordinary light and in stead of these magnificeÌ„ces pomps and swelling ostentations wherewith they make little children afeard shall wrap them vp
about O how wonderfull great is thy mercy which blindfoldeth the eyes of thy Deitie which hideth from thee that euery one seeth and maketh thee forget that which thou knewest before such time as it was done 13 From whence ô Lord commeth this great change and alteration in thee whence commeth it that to do me fauour thou puttest so farre from thee thy iustice which is naturally in thee I wonder but yet cannot I tell from whence this thy so great clemency and louing kindnesse proceedeth It is yea it is ô Lord because thou wilt saue vs whether we wil or no and to draw vs as it were by force out of that condemnation which we most iustly haue deserued For thou art the God of glory iealous of honour and praise for thou art alone worthy therof Thou knowest right well that very hell shall praise thee and thou knowest also ô Lord that death it selfe shall set forth thy praise Seeing that thou hast created all things to testifie thine infinite goodnesse and power shall death which is one of thy works make an end of thy praise Yea and seeing thou hast here placed man to lift vp his eyes vnto heauen and to behold thy glory and to sing both with the heart and mouth a continually hymne therof and if thou take away his life is not that a breache of one of the organes of thine honour And if thou send him to hell is not that to defame thy workmanship Thou hast ô Lord sowne by the mouthes of thy Prophets the truth of thy promises Shall they that are pent vp in the earth gather together the fruite thereof shall they whome the death of the body hath closed vp the eye liddes and whome the death of the soule engendred through their impenitence hath sealed vp the eyes of the spirit making them go groping to hell wandring and stumbling from paine to paine and from torment to torment No no it shall be the liuing man that shall publish and set forth thy praise the man I say that liueth and that liuing life which is maintained by those blessings which thou bestowest vpon vs here on the earth and that life which is nourished by the beholding of thy Deitie and by the blessings which thou hast laide vppe in heauen Euen so O Lorde do I at this day with them seeing it hath pleased thee to conuert my miseries into grace and blessing and to turne away from me death and dolors which brought them vnto mee Mine infirmitie is at this day seeing it so pleaseth thee an argument of thy glory thou workest such miracles in me as are able to astonish an whole world To the end ô Lord that the fathers may tell vnto their children what the effects of thy mercies are how sure the effect of thy promises and how vndoubted the truth of thy word And so wâ—…soeuer the lasâ— and hindermost posteritie shall vnderstand what hath be fallen vnto my person it will praise and blesse thy holy name 15 Seeing then my God that â—hou hast assured me this life I meane this earthly and corporall life graunt me also assurance of this heauenly and diuine life to the end that I being most full of all hope and strength may passe the rest of my daies in praising and seruing of thee continually Mine aboade ô Lorde shall be alwaies at the feete of thine aulâ—eâ—s mine action shall â—ee a song of thy praise and goodnesse and so will goe day and night into thy church lifâ—ing vp mine eyes vnto thee and hauing my thoughts fixed on thee I will openmine heart and thou shalt fill it with thy grace that it may sanctifie all mine affections and so I thereby may set forth nothing more then thy glory FINIS
Peacocks do reason great wrong when as they so do clothing him with such talke as vtterly disgraceth him and maketh him odious And beleeue me it is a very hard thing for these men to come any thing neere this holy Philosophie or wisedome which dwelleth amongst the graces that garde and enuiron her on euery side Tertullian who is desirous to haue vs learne how greatly mildnesse and simplicitie serue vs to prepare our selues to receiue the gifts and perfections of the holy Ghost saith precisely that he appeareth oftenest in the shape of a Doue to shew vnto vs that he dwelleth not but in such as are without gall as a Doue is but are very gratious and gentle Now because that for the most part it commeth by reason of our infirmitie as thinking to fly one sinne we fall into another we are to feare that because we are not well confirmed in vertue thinking to hold vs in humilitie we fall to become very cowards when as in deed we should rather fall to banding charging And therefore it shall not be amisse that we adde vnto that which we haue spoken of temperance and mildnesse certaine considerations to raise vs vp to be most couragious whē as it shall stand vs in hand to be so Which wil principally serue vs to keep vs in a straite and an assured course against all whatsoeuer shall offer it self to amaze and turne vs from obeying the commandements of God For first we shall on the one side haue rash presumption to egge vs forward to desire more then that wherevnto God hath called vs and oppose our selues vnto his constant and firme purpose Our happie successes and prosperous encounters or accidents will so tickle vs as that they will make vs laugh our good hap will promise vs high and great things and yet for all this we will not once change our visage nor countenance We will scornefull behold and looke vpon and that with a leering eye the presents of fortune if I may so say like vnto the faire fresh coloured Apples which grew neere to the lake of Ghomorre but they were no sooner touched but that they fel forthwith into powder and ashes But if reason telleth vs that we must take them we will then vse them with great equalitie of minde and facilitie of maners and make none other estimation of them On the other side we shall haue afflictions dangers griefes and pouertie which in the iudgement of the common people wrappeth vp all manner of miseries And it is against these enemies chieflie that this vertue must boisterouslie stretch forth her armes It is through them that she must make way if she meane to come to the end of her purpose Howbeit if we our selues stand in no feare and she not before such time as we see the enemie what mischiefe may they do vs Forsooth they will spoile vs of all our goods and so we shall go the lighter seeing then that the reward is reserued for him that commeth first and shall the longer while enioy the immortall goddes which soonest commeth thether shall we then feare to lose the baggage for the obtaining of such a glorious victorie And now behold the breach is made and our Captaine within that calleth vs and we our selues busie our selues to shoote at him that arresteth vs by the cloake and put our selues in hazard to remaine prisoners in the hands of the enemie that will cause vs lose both cloake and honour and the fruite also of all our trauell We are threatned with death and what other thing else is it that we seeke after We haue not clothed our selues with this transitorie and mortall life but onely to pay the tribute and discharge the tolle at the comming in of euerlasting life These are good newes seeing we are called vpon to pay for it is a token that we are come on shore But what is this death that thus terrifieth vs What is he so to be feared as that he will make vs turne our backs vpon him forsake the field of vertue lie slily hid in the trenches or rather in the sand holes of slouthfulnesse and cowardise If we thinke it an euill thing it is because we feele it to be so or else because others thinke so of it Haue we not heard the plaint of those who haue couragiously died either for the honor of God or els for the seruice of their king or for the defence of their countrey Was there euer yet any nation so barbarous so voide of humanitie or as we commonly say so farre from the sunne as that commend not with great praise the valure and worthinesse of those that haue spent their liues for the common-wealths sake Hath not the memorie of posteritie taken them out of their graues to make them aliue againe in the remembrance of men And if we should come to number out the parts of the life of man shall we recken the time which they haue bestowed in eating drinking and sleeping or rather principally bring into a short accoumpt the dayes wherein they haue most valiantly fought for vertue And therefore that which we call life is but a death because it dyeth without leauing any memory therof for that which we call death is in very deed life because it is that which maketh vs to be continue for euer Neither are we to regard how long we liue but how wel we liue neither commeth death too soone if he bring honor with him neither is it for the only opinion of another and for the honor which we shall get by well dying that ought to make vs contemne death but for the loue of that second life whereinto we must enter The Druydes had some forefeeling of the immortalitie of our soules which caused them to be more valiant then all the people of the world for they made a skorne to saue their liues saying that they made no more accoumpt of them then of the head of a willow tree And the Philosophers who made a iest at them confessed yet that they held a blessed error Howbeit we say that their wisedome was blessed by tasting of this opinion whereby they found groping in the darke the very resting place of felicitie and had found out the counterpoyson which driueth away and slayeth feare the very poyson of our soules which drieth vp and feeb lisheth our hearts and minds But we being brought vp and taught in a better Schoole then they were do not only know but constantly beleeue and not only beleeue but are glad also as a man would say of this second immortall life For we haue a spirit lodging in the inward part of our soule which sayeth and soundeth continually if so be we will heare it nothing else but this life to come And vnto this voyce it is that so many millions of Christians haue in the middest of their afflictions and torments followed the standard or ensigne of their Captaine spilling and sheading their bloud in
of our persons euery membeâ— to be so framed therein as that thaâ— which is fardest off moueth it selfâ— forthwith in affectioÌ„ good liking vnto the rest so as if we haue any paine iâ— our foor by by the eye looketh vntâ— it straightways we put to the hand 〈◊〉 in the end bend the whole force of ouâ— body to help to do it good Euen so â—…reth it with the mistical coniunction of the body in the holy coÌ„gregation of the faithfull whereof we are all members and the spirit of God which doth rule and gouerne vs teacheth vs that for our owne conseruation we must needs make one of another and make both our aduersitie and prosperitie common that we might contribute vnto the necessities of one another For our christian righteousnes restraineth not vs only to discharge the ciuile and politick bands which may be amongst vs but also acquiteth this naturall obligation which bindeth one man to another by mutuall good will and loue It remayneth now that this righteousnesse must conioyne vs vnto God and bring forth her most excelleÌ„t effects which kepeth our soule vpright quiet capable of the wil of God and as it were fast tied vnto the loue of euerlasting blisse which is done by the gifts of faith hope For after we haue purged our selues of the peruerse filthy affectioÌ„s whhich our soul hath gotteÌ„ into her by liuing on erth so blinded our wil as that she caÌ„not returne to ill yet must she go on to her mark guide her self vnto her resting place Now as we are cast downe into the darkenesse of this world into the deserts of sin bottomlesse deapths of perdition we cannot see our end without light not find our way without a guide ne yet sustaine our selues go forward without stay and our light guide and stay is the reuelation which God hath shewed vnto vs out of his will the knowledge which he hath geuen vnto vs by his grace the spirit by which he communicateth himself with vs and in the end commeth himselfe vnto vs because we are so feeble as that we cannot go vnto him We call faith the sound and right affection whereby wee receiue that which he declareth vnto vs and which we constaÌ„tly beleeue and by which we iudge of him in the goodnes simplicitie of our harts This is it with which we humble our senses and with which we deny our selues to gue credit vnto his truth in acknowledging our infirmitie by which we allow his almightines reuereÌ„ce admire the effects so often reiterated for the reconquering of our saluation deliueraÌ„ce froÌ„ eternall death Now wheÌ„ as our soule hath once found her self disposed to belieue this and receiued this impression froÌ„ the word of God she then cleerly seeth the marke whereat she aimeth knowing thereby the benefit which is set before her she is touched with a certain effectual feeling of pleasure which eggeth her coÌ„tinually forward to wish looke for the saluation which is prepared for her This is that hope by the which she foreseeth the happy hour of her felicitie by which she is kept for the loking for her blessednes vpholden double strengthened against all the griefes and miseries which might shake the same and crosse her in the way Here then wee see how we must prepare our soule to make it capable of this felicitie We must now then necessarily see behold by her dealing how she delighteth her self in this most excelleÌ„t pleasure And it is to be considered two maner of wayes the one is that whilst she is clad about with this flesh and detained here in this vile world yet she still ioyneth and vniteth her selfe vnto God her creator by meanes of her pure holy disposition and of her good and charitable works The other is that wheÌ„ she is deliuered despoiled of the earth the world she wholy vniteth her self vnto her first originall being In this first estate we shal see her reioice in such happinesse pleasure contentment as infinitely surpasseth all the other delights which we possibly are able to wish or desire here below And such in very deed as are no way comparable vnto those pleasures which we know to be prepared for vs in the life to come and such in truth as our thoughts cannot apprehend For it is very true which Esdrâ— sayth That man that liueth here 〈◊〉 this world can comprehend nothing but earthly things And it is sayd iâ— Ecclesiast That wee must not search in things aboue our reach but thinke vpon the which God hath commaunded vs for it 〈◊〉 not fit for vs to looke vnto that which Gâ—… keepeth secret vnto himselfe from vs. Now the blesseddest and chiefest pleasure of our soule consisteth in conforming 〈◊〉 addressing all her doings to that end wherunto she is created which is donâ— by action prayer and meditation For God hauing caused vs to be borne to be members here of this vile world euery part of vs obseruing the duty motion whereuento he hath ordeined the same serue for his glory testimony of his power It standeth vs therfore vpon so long as we liue here to keepe well our part and beware that in our particular discording we breake not the vniuersall right note and harmony wherein the beauty of his workemanship subsisteth for he hath called euery of vs vnto a certaine ministery and office whereof he hath made some Kings some Princes some Magistrates some priuate men or to say as the Apostle sayth he hath ordeyned Some to be Prophets some Euangelists some Preachers and some Doctors And therefore let vs take heed that we fulfill the ministerie which is layd vpon vs. For if so be we deale lamely and haltingly in the charge which is geuen vnto vs we fayle not onely in our owne duties but we also bring a generall confusion vpon the whole people and so become culpable of the sinnes of all the multitude Where contrariwise if so be we deale iustly and truly in our office we shall be like vnto good and skilfull musitians who ouer and besides the great pleasure of the excelleÌ„â— and sweet sonnding of their voices they feele a maruelous and incredible delight by the euen meeting of one anothers voice which falleth into theirs with an agreemeÌ„t accord full of sweet melodie And therefore it is surely a great pleasure to do well neyther is there any pleasure so great as the contentmeÌ„t which we feele in our consciences when we performe any godly commendable action Neither is there any thing that more gladly tickleth the spirit then the glory which it offâ—eth promiseth vnto that mâ—… or woman who vertuously be haue the selues in their liues conuersationâ— I meane not such glory as is fed either with winde or smoke which pleaseth men only but such glory as maketh vs see a far off the crowne which is prepared for vs. Neither must we stand
mocks to betray me 8 But when as thou hast mercie vpon me I will say vnto them Away from me yee children of iniquitie yee shall no longer laugh at my miserie The Lord hath heard my praier and my teares haue appeased his anger and behold I now enioy the fruite of his holy fauour The light of his goodnesse hath shined vpon me and behold the stormes that came about my head are calmed and dasht in a moment 9 With much a do haue I opened my lips to call vpon him for aide with much a do could I get mine heart to crie him mercy and I haue found his grace to be powred vpon me comfortting and quickening my languishing and sick soule euen as warme water refresheth a poore surbatted traueller O incredible clemency how ready O Lord art thou to pardon and forgiue I runne to offend thee and yet thou wilt shew me fauour I haue bestowed all the daies of my life both by sea and by land to hunt after ambition couetousnessc and filthie lust and when I haue beene ouer head and eares and vtterly vndone in my beastly delights yet hast thou in a moment pierced the uens and the clouds to come downe to deliuer me so as behold me now triumphing ouer my sinne which most humbly followed the trophes of my repentance which hath found grace before thee And so the hope which my sinnes had as it were strangled is now more liuely then euer it was before which promiseth me not onely the Empires of the world that bend themselues which way soeuer the Lord enclineth them but also openeth vnto me the highest heauens and assureth me after an happy life here in this world to enioy the heauenly immortalitie 10 What will mine enemies then do when as they shall see me stored with so great felicitie They will then surely blush with shame their soules will be greatly troubled and returne altogether confounded and amazed for he whom they thought to be vtterly ouerthrowne is now set in an higher degree then euer before he was Alas they all made a scorne at my ashes they laughed at my fastings and whilst I with abstinence straue against my flesh the very enemy vnto my soule they bathed themselues in the pleasures of the world but loe the arme of the Lord is ready to thunder lighten vpon their insolencie O my God giue them a long time to acknowledge the extreame danger wherein they are and to call vnto thee from on high for the onely remedy of their disease and as for my selfe who feele my soule purge her selfe of the filthy matters which are in and about her who feele my spirit inflamed with the fier of thy loue teach my lips to set forth thy praises lift vp my voice to resound thy mercies and guide mine affections sincerely to loue thee and to establish in the knowledge of thy truth my soueraigne happines chiefest felicitie Blessed are they vnto whom c. Psalme 31. BLessed are they my God whose sinnes thou hast pardoned and whose iniquities thou hast buried in the toombe of obliuion Alas what shall become of him whose iust punishment thou doost still continue vpon him for his iniquities An armie of euils encompasse him pouerty assaulteth him sicknesse afflicteth him famine presseth him and death it self which he thinketh to be the porte of this tempestuous nauigation is the bottomlesse pit which must draw him vnto euerlasting torments 2 And therefore they are three or foure times blessed whom God calleth not vnto a reckoning for their deedes but is contented to haue them humble themselues before him acknowledging their infirmities opening vnto him the very bottom of their harts For we must by true confession and with a sincere conscience call vpon him for his mercies and he that will be heard must humble himselfe before him for as he that goeth vnto a riuer or pond putteth downe the mouth of his vessell to take vp the water so must he also do that humbleth himselfe before his creator that will draw and taste of the water of this holy spring from whence runneth the moisture which onely purgeth and clenseth our consciences 3 I haue somtimes thought O my God to hide my sinnes away frō thee and haue said within my selfe how shall he vnderstand what I haue done or not And so haue my sinnes putrified within my bones and as the vlcers and foule sores of a shamefast diseased man who dareth not shew his disease vnto the Surgion encrease and waxe worse euen to the vtter ouerthrow of the body euen to haue the sinnes which I haue hid from thee mightily infected me 4 But in the end thou hast day and night so heauily laid thy hand vpon me and made me taste of such a number of sorts of miseries amongst which my soule taketh no rest being ouercome with the continuall pricking of my conscience that pierceth euen through mine heart that I haue ackowledged my fault which I presently beare vpon mine hand Behold and acknowledge this my God but not in thine anger for the dropping teares which with much weeping haue almost put out mine eyes ought also put out thy iustly hoate burning ire And besides am not I the worke of thine owne hands nay am not I rather the very liuely image of thy Deitie And what is he that is so angrie as that he wil bruse or breake the worke which it pleased him so to polish and make perfect when as he seeth it to be foule filthy In very deed I must needs confesse that this image is laden with filthie matter but is it not better to make it cleane and neate then to breake it in peeces and tread it vnder feete 5 Teach me then my God what satisfaction I shall make for I haue now laid open vnto thee all the sinnes which before I had concealed For the feare wherein I was when I hid my selfe from thee is at this present that I haue discouered my selfe vnto thee changed into hope of grace and pardon And now I cast my selfe betweene thine armes as into the most assured defence I haue euen with such a countenance as the poore pacient that sheweth his wound to the Barbar looketh wishly vpon him and couragiouslie suffereth his searching and lancing by reason of the desire and hope that he hath to be healed But that which giueth me a greater hope of health is that the sinnes wherein I before tooke pleasure make me now abhor to see them euen as the meates wherewith a man in health gorgeth himselfe are very lothsome vnto his stomack when he is weake and sickly And that which made me before bold and male part I am now ashamed of when as I consider the hazard of death whereunto my pride had exposed my poore soule I giue my most hearty thankes for the day wherein I was enlightened to acknowledge my sinne I do acknowledge my God that day to be a singular testimonie of thy goodnesse toward me graunt
thee 17 O what an acceptable sacrifice before thee is a broken and contrite heartâ— and an humble heart that acknowledged his sinne thou wilt neuer reiect for if it will come vp vnto thee it must first come downe and if it will touch the heauen it must first crawle vppon the ground if it will haue thee to heare it it must fyrst be silent and if it will be crowned in thy kingdome it must fyrst be beaten and scourged in the world These are the Sacrifices O Lord wherewith wee must be reconciled vnto thee and enter into couenant as thou hast set it downe vnto vs. 18 But if it be thy pleasure ô Lord that we shall offer bulls and bullocks vnto thee and perfume thine Aulters with the bloud of beasts if thou wilt that we by the death of an innocent burnt offering should represent vnto thee the death and innocencie of him whome thou hast destined to redeeme our soules If the figure of that which should come in the person of the vnspotted lambe doth please thee by the killing of Weathen and Sheepe looke then with pitie vppon thy poore people comfort thoâ— desolate Syon and encourage her poore enhabitants to the end they may set vp againe the walls of thine holie Citie and reedifie thy Temple not according to that equall proportion O Lord which thou deseruest but according to the wealth and industrie that the poore world can possibly affoord 19 Thither shall come from alâ— parts thy faithfull in great multitudesâ— to offer vp sacrifice vnto thee and there shall the expiation and purging of their sinnes be acceptable vnto thee But it shall neither be the death of beasts that shall wash away their spots for the cleansing of their disobedience and preuarication was prepared from all eternitie This is an inestimable sacrifice a burnt offering without spot which shall drawe away the curtayne disperse and destroy the darkenesses breake downe the wall or hedge that we may see the truth of our saluation face to face make the beames of his diuine mercie shine vpon vs and reassociate vs vnto the communion of that euerlasting blisse which we willingly haue renounced O most mercifull God which hast vnseeled the eyes of mine vnderstanding to see the misterie of my saluation make me O Lord to taste the excellent fruite which flourishing vppon the tree of the Crosse shall with the iuice thereof quicken and gene life vnto our dead souses preserue and warrant vs for euer from that ruine and calamitie which hath so miserably brought together the race of mankinde and ouerflowed them through their disobedience Lord heare my Prayer Psalme 102. I Haue ô Lord cryed and called vppon thee a long time for thy mercie and do yet looke for ayd and help from thee The ayte is filled with my cryes The winds haue carried the voyce of my dolor and griefe euen vnto the vttermost parts of the world and thine eaâ—e which heareth and vnderstandeth whatsoeuer is done in the bottomlesse pit of hell doth not yet heare and vnderstand my prayer which reacheth and beateth the very heauens Wilt thou therefore be deafe only vnto meâ— and shall all the world heare me saue thy selfe alone No no my God thou hast ouer-long stretched out thine armes now to reiect mee when as I come vnto thee for refuge 2 And now that I feele a thousand and a thousand sorrowes and that miseries assayle me on euery side do not turne thy backe vpon me ô Lord. Alas haue I setled my whole power and strength vpon the sweet countenance of thy face Haue I diuorced my selfe from the world to the end I might drawe neere vnto thee and haue I forsaken the children of the world that I might ioyne my self vnto the master of the heauens and wouldest thou now forsake me O Lord deale not so with me but assist mine infirmitie all the dayes of my life 3 Let my voyce no sooner cry and call vnto thee my God but that I may also soone feele thee and let thy grace descend as speedely vppon me as an Eagle hasteth her selfe to ayd her yong on s For if thou assist me not what maner of sight shall I be able to make against the enemies of my soule 4 My strength and life would dayly vanish away as the light smoke doth in flying in the ayre for the eye which seeth it goe out of the fire seeth it also forthwith consumed and in a moment accompanied both with his originall and his end and if any should aske what is become of it there is not one that can so much as tell where â—he trace only of it is to be found He that hath seene the loppings of wood wither in the sunne and loose their strength and verdure hath also seene my poore bones become both drye and consumed meete for none other thing but for the graue The graue yea surely the graue which is the happiest thing that can betide me if so be so small a pit may be able to stay the violent course of mine extreame misery 5 Who soeuer he be that hath seene grasse cut downe and tanned with the Sunne in the field and lose the coulor and wither and looke vppon my gastly and deadly face he would thinke that I were able to make death afeard Mine hart is parched within mine entrailes and my bloud drieth vp within my vaines for I remember not to put bread into my mouth and do still forget to eate my meales 6 My mouth serueth me for none other purpose but to cry out lament and the ordinary voice of my griefe is so strong as that it draweth after it all the rest of my strength Now if so be that my body being so extreamely full of heauinesse consume it selfe by little and little and my bones horribly sticke through my skinne what cause haue I to take care for the sustayning of this miserable body of mine which is the matter and substance of all my miseries Wherefore should I be watchfull for the conseruing of this life of mine which wrestleth against so many enemies and is cast downe with so many afflictions Were it not much better for me in ending my life to make also therewith an end of all miseries 7 Is the Pellican more full of greefe then I who liuing in the most solitary deserts of Egipt tormenteth her selfe for the killing of her yong ones and washeth them in her owne bloud to restore them to life which she had taken from them Is her sorrow greater than mine Hath nor my sinne procured the death of the child whome I more dearly loued then my selfe And now that I haue dried vp all my teares the bloud will gush out of mine eyes for feare I should be voide of teares in so lamentable and cursed a case But the Pellican hath redeemed with her own bloud the price of her yong ones and I most miserable wretch that I am shall be depriued for euer of the child which I so
and open your eares that I may open the spirit close vp the eyes of your bodies that I may make your soules so clearely forsake this stepmother of earth that I may make you know your heauenly father Come ye therefore together both poore rich for ye are vnworthy of the goods that I meane largely to bestow vpon you 3 Come for I go about to discouer lay wide opeÌ„ vnto you the treasures of eternal wisdom And in opening my mouth being inspired with the grace of Almighty God I meane to vnfold vnto you in my words his wonderfull wisedome I haue long held my soule in a deep thought and after I had a great while dreamed I conceiued in the end of a strange discourse of Gods wisedome by which I vnderstood his goodnesse and mercie in all things and the folly misery infirmitie of mankinde 4 Whereupon I being as it were beside my selfe about the wondring at his greatnes the feeling of our own infirmitie I was forthwith desirous to geue eare vnto that which my spirit taught me and began carefully to consider of those things which it couertly shewed me vnder a disguised maner the knowledge the truth And after I had carefully vnderstood examined the same I tooke my harp in my hand according my voyce vnto the sweet tune of my harp I was ready to put abroad my conceits and to make my meditations to be heard vnto all those that would heare them that they might be acceptable vnto God the author of so holie thoughts and wholesome instruction vnto the fauourable hearer of my discourses 5 If thou wilt then know what I sayd within my selfe this I sayd what shall I feare in the hardest time of my life Why should I feare when death shall come to lay hold on me and to cause me to get me out of this world Alas deat is a strange busibody I know not who should not feare him seeing no man can keepe him-selfe from him How shall I be able to defend my selfe from his arrowes What armour shall I put on against his pick-axe which ouerthroweth and razeth Castels Cities Kingdomes and Empires yea which threatneth to bring the world to an end and who at last shall make an end of him-selfe I shall need no kinde of weapons but innocencie that is able to be a steely an assured buckler for me for if I take not good heed vnto it that traytor sinne whome death hath appoynted will neuer be from my heeles will lodge in my concupisceÌ„ce and deliuer me presently at an assault into the hands of damnation 6 O deare and wholesome innocencie in thee alone resteth all our assurance vnder thy faith we constantly abide whatsoeuer shall come vppon vs and we beleeue that thou art strong inough to defende vs from death O foolish and mad men who leauing this faithfull protection assure them-selues in their greatnesse and mightinesse make an accompt of their ritches and magnificences They accompt the Nations which are vnder their gouernments and recken vp the treasure which they keepe vnder lock and key and to what purpose serueth all this against death 7 If one brother can not redeeme the life of another for money nay and if one would dye for another yet inexorable death will not receyue him what then shall man geue vnto death for his owne ransome Shall he geue the goods that are none of his or his dominions which he loseth as soone as he is dead No no there is nothing which hee hath left vnto him-selfe wherewith God is appaised and pacified when his iudgement is once pronounced against mortall men He â—ill not compound with him for any thing whatsoeuer This is his creature this is the slime of the earth out of â—hich hee will take when it pleaseth him the spirit of life whcih he breathed into him and therefore man can no way gaynsay nor yet reply against him 8 Let vs I beseech thee a little value the soule of man and let vs see what he will offer vnto God for his ransoming of him let him trauell a little all his life long let him go and trauell awhile all the dayes of his life let him goe and ferrit out all the corners of the earth let him go and draâ— out the bowels of the mines let him draw dry the golden dugs of both the Indies let him dispeople the Easterne parts of the world of all her pearles and when he hath heaped vp all this geare let him then come and bargain with God for the prolonging of his life and wee shall heare his reasons What other thing shall he be but like vnto a prisoner which offreth to cast off his bolts and shackles if he might haue libertie geuen him O miserable man that thou art for that thing which thou thinkest should serue thee for thy safegard is the very window whereat death must enter For death commeth by reason of sin 〈◊〉 by reason of concupiscence and thâ— concupiscence is nourished encreased and kindled by all these For God will speake all naked vnto thee euen aâ— â—e placed thee here in the world and will before he begin to capitulate with thee haue thee deliuer vnto him that which thou hast robbed him of I meane those graces and benefits whcih thou hast misused then shalt thou thinke with thy self whether thou hast of thine owne to pay him double yea quadruple for the punishment due vnto thee for thine ill life 9 Alasse poore senselesse thing if thou once commest to that what shalt thou be able to say against death seeing that the wisest and valiantest men are enforced to be courbed vnder his yoke Shalt thou who hast made no accompt but of corruptible and perishing ritches shalt thou I say be preserued from corruption and the wise man who sought by all the meanes possible he could to immortalize himselfe here in this life conuersed with the Angels cannot warrant himselfe from him Thou thy selfe seest him come to an end and hopest thou to be immortall No no for both wise men fooles dye but after a diuerse sundry manner for the death of the wise man shal be but a passage he shal fâ—nd at his returne his talent infinitely multiplied and encreased and the glorie which he hath sowne shal encrease aboundantly and ouershadow the generation of his children 10 Howbeit all these poore wretched blind soules who continually hold down their heads vnto the earth and whose spirits are shut vp in their purses who haue none other vnderstanding but to loue those things which are not to be beloued who neglect and contemne both Sunne and Moone the verie principall works of nature to admire stones and marble gold and siluer which vainely scatter and disperse the vertues of intelligeÌ„ce and vnderstanding for the getting together and heaping vp of the excrements of the earth shall forgoe the ritches which they haue so greatly loued and for which they hated all
vnderstood thy councell therein For after I had resolued with my selfe to see the end whereunto thou haddest prepared those peoples I forthwith saw that thy iustice is most true and that although it sometimes maketh slow haste yet it payeth home at the last with seueare punishment and therefore I verie stedfastly waited and looked what should become of them 18 And truly in the end thou payedst them thorough stitch and rewardedst them according to their craftie and wicked dealing For when they thought them selues at the highest degree of honor behold thou ouerthrewst them and castedst them down headlong in a bottomlesse depth of miserie For all their pomps magnificences and ritches were nothing vnto them in the end but an high and eminent scaffold to bring them vp vnto that steepe and high breake-necke from whence they were most shamefully rolled downe ouer and ouer 19 O most true God what a desolation discomfort is this There is nothing but weeping about them for all they of their guards and all their pentioners do nothing else but beate their brests holding down their heads as the Lilly holdeth downe his when it is sore rayne-beaten and hauing compassion of those whome they were wont to enuy They most lamentably looke vpon the ruine of their idoll and consider with them selues how foolish they were to make a mortall and miserable man their God who was no better then wind or smoke For if a man considereth and marketh their end he shall see them dispatcht and gone in a moment neyther is there any thing that commeth more speedily to an end then the way of their greatnesse bringeth them thereunto and they haue bene so suddainely changed as that there could be nothing possibly to be seene of them Behold and looke on them for once they were and now they are not hardly can a man see their footsteps and marke whither their sinnes haue brought them it was a great while before the snare or grin could be made fit for them but loe in the end they lighted into it For during the time that the foundation of the house was in vndermining they climbed the higher that their fall might be the greater They continually clambered vp higher and higher and thought that whatsoeuer was below them was theirs only but in the end they clambered vp so high as that they lost them selues in the ayre before they could get againe to the earth so as they were caried away with the wind And loe they became as dreames when men awake for as a man sayth when he awaketh I dreamed well to thinke of such a thing euen so shall it fare with you for when such men as ye are shall vanish away and come to naught the people will then say surely the greatnes of these men was but as a dreame and a very meere vaine and inconstant folly For thou wilt make them of so little worth as that they shall be neuer once thought of but as in a mockerie and in discommending and condemning their pride and insolencie will say See how their houses are ruined behold the place where these outragious Sirs dwelt who cared neither for God nor men which delighted in nothing but in filthinesse wickednes who haue built so many and so many houses with the boanes of the poore and cimented their palaces with the bloud of the needy and loe there remaineth nothing of all that they had but the markes and notes of their ignominie for the tempest hath passed ouer them and there is not so much as any one tittle or iote remayning of them 21 Thus we see ô Lord that we must not rashly iudge of thy prouidence and therefore who so euer will iudge therof must patiently wait vnto the end and suffer himself to be led by thy spirit must call vpoÌ„ thee also for the comforting addressing of him for notwithstanding that I fret fume chafe sigh grone and haue set euery part of my body in a sweat with sore labor and brought my selfe as it were euen to deaths dore yet am I neuer awhit the better for it and after I had tormented my selfe I found my selfe as resolute as I was before 22 I was so vexed and grieued I say as that I knew not whether I was a man or a beast nay I was in very deed like a beast and could no more comprehend the same then if I had vtterly lost mine vnderstanding Howbeit I still stand to that hope which I haue in thee and the more I see my sense and iudgement fayle me the speedelier runne I vnto thee and humbly beseech thee to open my spirit that I may know and vnderstand what thy will is 23 Thou hast taken and held me fast by the hand and set me gently againe in the way of thy will and madest me vnderstand the purpose and mind nay thou hast done more then that for me thinketh thou hast opened both mine eyes and the heauens all at once that I might see the mightinesse of thy glorie Thou hast I say ô Lord made me to see it for this is a thing whereunto no mortall man without thee is able to reach 24 For alasse should I poore weake thing that I am go to seeke for that in heauen which I cannot very well see at my feet who cannot perceiue but â—ith much ado that which is here oâ—…â—…th before me The eyes of my boâ—e are very duskish and mistie and â—…e eyes of my soule farre worse and â—ens thoughâ—s are maruellous vncerâ—ine and weake for the earthly and â—…rruptible body dulleth and maketh â—…le our spirits and â—yeth and bindeth 〈◊〉 senses fast vnto the earth in so â—…ch as that without thee I can not â—ope for any thing here below in the â—orld nor yet promise vnto my selfe â—y certaine knowledge of what thing â—…uer What am I able being here â—…on the earth to iudge and discerne â—hout thy ayd and without it pleaâ—…h thee to enlighten my spirit with â—…se things which thou hast ordeyâ—…d in heauen in the seate of thine eâ—…itie But thou also ô Lord hast â—…plyed my want and led me by the â—…d to make me see the counsels of â—e eternall wisedome thou hast as 〈◊〉 â—ere made me in loue with thee â—…d hast heaued and thrust my spirit 〈◊〉 of my body to make it capable of 〈◊〉 heauenly light and of thy wise â—poses 25 Surely when I consider of these wondrous things I am cleane gone my hart is taken from me and I am fallen into a swound ô God What is this my God which thou hast made me see O thou the God of my hart of my thoughts of my hope and thou ô God whome I esteeme to be my only felicitie and whome to loue I haue from henceforth destined all my affections I now know ô Lord what thou art how iust and how puissant I will now neuer be abashed more ne yet astonyed to see the strange and wonderfull things of the world whereof I am
thy will that our frayle and mortall bodies do dayly decay and had need to be repared and strengthned by some new nourishment that wee might haue continually recourse vnto thee Geue vs my God our dayly bread and geue vs therewith the grace so to vse it and all other thy benefits which thou hast bestowed vpon vs that we in some measure nourishing and maintaining our bodies grieue not not vexe not our soules making them thereby lesse able to come vnto the knowledge of thy truth And in vsing thy liberall dealing with thanksgeuing we tye not for all that our affections vnto earthly and worldly things but make vs so to passe through these temporall benefits as we lose not for the getting of them the eternall blessings Let not the taste of earthly bread wherewith we feed our bodies make vs forget our heauenly bread that bread of life that eternall bread which â—ourisheth strengthneth our soules â—eepeth them from death filleth our â—outhes with the Deitie and maketh 〈◊〉 the temples of our God to receiue 〈◊〉 into our bodies and to be made â—embers of his members Graunt vs â—y God that by this bread or rather 〈◊〉 this flesh we may be incorporated â—…o our Redeemer and as he in taâ—…ing and putting on of our flesh was â—…rtaker of our death euen so we taâ—…ing and putting on of his flesh may â—e partakers of his immortalitie And seeing we haue my God bene made â—essels and receptacles of his Deitie â—ash vs and make vs cleane to the â—nd that he comming to dwell in vs â—ou mayest finde nothing there to geue thee occasion to depart from vs and to make vs voyd of thy grace and of our saluation Now it is impossible â—…r vs to be made cleane without thou â—orgeue vs our sinnes and remit our â—…ebts For we haue bene bondslaues â—oth vnto sinne and vnto death and â—hatsoeuer we clayme to be ours it belongeth vnto him neither haue we any thing either to pay our raunsome 〈◊〉 yet to discharge our debt and therfore ô Lord it is thou that must do Thou hast once for all redeemed and set vs at libertie but yet notwiâ—…standing we dayly fall into the hâ—… of the enemy we daily commit a thâ—…sand sinnes which make vs bond 〈◊〉 sinne cease not for all this my Gâ—… to opeÌ„ vnto vs this treasure froÌ„ whâ—… we may take the price of our liberâ—… Be thou ô Lord more strong 〈◊〉 in pardoning of vs then we are in 〈◊〉 sending of thee Let thy merciful hâ—… stretch it selfe our continually vnto for sin cleaueth fast vnto the mattâ—… of our benes and groweth and waxe old in vs which maketh vs wheÌ„ we aâ—… old to be after a sort more filthy â—…fectious were it not that thou coâ—…nually applyest vnto our miserie 〈◊〉 merit and worthinesse of thy holy pâ—…sion to the end that we in some meâ—sure launching wounding our coâ—sciences thou mayest strengthen a heale our wounds and rub out wiâ—… the oyle of thy mercy the skarres thâ— may of them remayne Otherwise Lord I should be afeard that thou casting thine eyes ordinarily vpon 〈◊〉 wouldest in the end be so angry aâ— â—…ieued as that thou wouldest come â—…ry fast vpon vs to be reuenged of the â—…ckednes which we our selues haue â—…mined Forgeue vs therfore our ofâ—…ces that is to say our sins which we â—…oÌ„mit all the time of our life And forâ—…rs ô heauenly Father as we from our 〈◊〉 harts forgeue theÌ„ that trespasse against 〈◊〉 Cause vs coÌ„tinually to set before vs 〈◊〉 loue by which thou hast not only 〈◊〉 vpoÌ„ thee to pay our debts but the â—…nishment for our sins that we may â—…dge what an vnreasonable thing it â—…ould be for vs to looke to haue any â—…our at thy hands who wil not agree â—itâ— our neighbors considering there â—…o comparison betweene the offerâ—… which we commit against thee and 〈◊〉 offences wherwith they offend vs. â—…ck cleane out of our harts all pride 〈◊〉 malice for their sakes for whose ayd â—…d succour thou causedst vs to be â—…rne Geue vs gentle and meeke spiâ—… which may keepe vs in vnitie and â—…berly loue by patiently meekly â—…aring the infirmities one of anâ—â—…r For we right well know my God 〈◊〉 easily we slip yea how easily 〈◊〉 stumble and fall in the way of this slippery and irkesome life Wâ— haue too too little force and strength continually to keepe our feet and iâ— resist the winds which driue vs forward into the steepe breake necks 〈◊〉 all wickednes and iniquitie And therfore we pray most earnestly vnto thee Not to leade vs into tentation and 〈◊〉 keepe farre froÌ„ vs all occasions which may any way cause vs to offend thee and to arme vs with thy holy spirit against all those obiects which of them selues offer them vnto vs without thâ— which we shall be alwayes ouercome and by the which we shall continuallâ— be vaÌ„quishers in this wrestling againâ—… sinne for this prize and garland 〈◊〉 victory is for none but for such a 〈◊〉 as thou doest second in this fighâ— Graunt vs therefore such grace 〈◊〉 that when any extraordinary desire 〈◊〉 getting worldly ritches assayle vs thaâ— thou wilt strengthen vs with a minde obtaine heauenly ritches and valiantly contemne and despise the goods 〈◊〉 this world and the vncertaine as frayle knowledge of them And let 〈◊〉 remember that they passe away as thâ— cloudes in the ayre from one countreâ— â—…to another and in the end melt and â—…sume away to nothing and that for 〈◊〉 most part the gold and siluer which 〈◊〉 so greedely gather and heape vs â—…gether with so great toyling moyâ—…g serue vs to none other end but to â—…ng condemnation on our heads 〈◊〉 if so he that thou of thine owne â—…es departest with more vnto vs 〈◊〉 we any way deserue graunt vs â—…nes a will to vse them well and â—…aritably communicate them vnto â—…ose that haue greater need of them 〈◊〉 we haue For the earth is thine 〈◊〉 we are but the gardiens and farâ—…s thereof our goods are thine 〈◊〉 we are but the dispensers and â—…rd of them And therefore if we â—…e to geue them vnto those which â—…e them of vs in thy name thou wilt 〈◊〉 only take them from vs but wilt â—…so for our vnthankfulnes and infideâ—… make vs pay double vsury for theÌ„ 〈◊〉 graunt vs also this grace that the â—…riousnes of the honors of this world â—…nd not vs and draw vs on to desire â—…e then is expedient for out saluaâ—…on And let it alwayes be imprinted 〈◊〉 our thoughts that there is no true honor in this world but to serue theâ— worthely and that for the seruing 〈◊〉 thee the place of honor is too toâ— baâ—… that the greatnes therof coÌ„sisteth 〈◊〉 humilitie As for the rest which we sâ—… wonder at admire it is but a deceitful light after which we hunt with to mouth is like vnto those little fiâ—… which appeare in the night about the riuers
the flaming fire when it burneth brightâ—st soonest consumeth the matter which it taketh hold on euen so the more my dolor encreaseth the sooner it may make an end of the matter wherein it remayneth And what other thing should I looke to be For I haue lost my children mine enemy hath gotten them into his clouches made him self master both of me and of my goods should I then desire to liue to behold any longer a more continuall misery Phe. Poore miserable distressed Syon hath cast open her armes and lifted vp her hands vnto heauen but hath not as yet found either in heauen or in earth any ayd or comfort All the world hath runne to heare her cry but none otherwise then as flyes do swarme about a sore to suck and sting it Euery one of her very neere neighbours haue encompassed her to fleese her and to deuide her spoyles and all her auncient friends haue forsaken her and fled froÌ„ her as meÌ„ would flye froÌ„ a loathsome diseased woman Sade I feele ô Lord much misery mine hart is ready to burst with very sorrow and anger in so much as that I am enforced to coÌ„fesse that my miserie is nothing else but thy iustice and that my sinfull haÌ„ds haue wrought me all my tormeÌ„t I haue prouoked thine anger against me forced thy goodnes by mine obstinate wickednes to take the rods into thine own hand to make me feele that thou art iust to let me vnderstand that thou knowest my life to make me learne that there is nothing hid from thee that thou apparantly seest what is in mine hart and that my most secret thoughts are visible vnto thy prouidence I thought once to haue hidden my sinne and therefore I must needs now confesse the punishment and that the very strength of my sorrow draweth out the truth from my mouth But alasse seeing my misery is such and that all my comfort resteth in complayning heare ye at the least ô my neighbour people my dolefull sorrowfull voyce and behold a little my miserie and marke if euer ye saw any griefe comparable vnto mine And seeing ye will not set to your hands to ayd me lend me yet your eyes at the least to haue compassion on me and if ye be not altogether stonie harted weepe with me to see my poore daughters thus led captiue into a strange countrey Coph What thing is more weake deceitfull and vncertaine then the force of men and especially wheÌ„ God is against vs. I haue besought the ayd of all my friends and haue looked to haue had all Egipt to come to help me because that for to hold friendship with her I set my selfe against the Babylonians But alasse I remayne alone and am left vnto this cruell Caldean race and therefore all that I am now able to do is to detest the false faith of my false and trayterous friends and hauing vnderstood that the succours which they promised me were to none other end but to vndoe me and to be partakers of my spoyles euen to coniure heauen and earth to be aduenged of their villanies And yet for all this I feele my miserie no whit lessened neyther haue I found for all this any whit the more succour that my Priests and sacrificers promised me nor seene any of those hopes wherewith they filled me nor yet any of the vayne promises wherewith they puffed vp mine heart it seemed to them that they could haue ouerthrowne mine enemies with bare words They were all astonyed wheÌ„ as they had felt the danger and had in the end seene the common miserie of the whole City light vpon their owne heads They dyed of extreame famine theyr Philacteries or Rochets ne yet their long side and wide vestiments were able to saue them one might haue seene hunger bring them to their end and with a dying voyce crauing a mouth full of bread to relieue their wretched bodyes could find none to geue it them Rhesch In so much that when I had turned my selfe on euery side and found no helpe any where I was enforced my GOD and my Lord to runne to thee and in bowing my knees and lifting vp my hands to crye out all to be blubbered with teares saying O Lord if thou be a God of mercy behold me now for I am so afflicted as that my very enemyes them selues haue compassion on me I am from the crowne of the head vnto the soale of the foote full of sorrow and there is no part of me that is not grieuously touched Me thinketh my bowels to be pluckt in pieces within me and am of the opinion that mine hart will riue in sunder My mouth is as bitter as soote or gall and I am eftsoones nothing else but bitternes it selfe For all my words ' thoughts deeds are bitter which way so euer I turne me I see nothing but horror and trembling for without the sword cutteth downe whatsoeuer staÌ„deth before it the iron pardoneth nothing My land is not knowne it is so thicke sowne with dead bodies and within the estate and condition is not much more pleasant for I see there my children afflicted with famine and dye most pitifully I behold them lying gastly and thinly with goggle eyes and wide open gaping mouthes breathing out the last gasps of death Sin O what a fatall horrible spectacle is this and yet men haue no compassion on them They haue seene me in this estate and yet could there not be found one that had a fellow feeling of my misery or that euer gaue me any comfortable word to mitigate my griefe And as for mine enemies the extremitie of my miserie made theÌ„ no more to melt then if they had had stony hearts in their bodies and frosen bloud in their vaines For all their talke was Marke how God hath â—…astized and drest her and beateâ— downe her pride But thou knowest not ô thou tygerlike inhumane race how God keepeth thee Thou thy selfe reioycest at my miserie and I wil comfort my selfe by thine For thou wilt shew vnto them ô Lord God that thou art iust all the world ouer and that with thee there is no acceptation of persons that euery man hath his turne through thine hands and that the longer thou deferrest thy vengeance the more grieuous and terrible it is when it commeth recompencing the forbearing thereof with rigour and seueritie Tau Enter therefore ô Lord into iudgemeÌ„t with mine enemies lay open a little their doings shew vnto them their liues and after that thou hast caused them to know that their consciences are full of blasphemie pollution and hast taken from them the curtain of hipocrisie which so mightely ouershadowed theyr robberies and thefts be reuenged a little of theyr turnes lay them vpon the rack that they may be hard a little to cry vnder the presse of tribulations to the end they may vnderstand that seeing that I haue suffered for my sinnes that the rigour of my punishment is but
but wilde beasts 19 But these ô Lord are the blowes of thine owne hand who makest great things that thou mighteâ—… pull them downe which settest vp Cities and Kingdomes vpon the face of the earth as a ladder to shew that they are nothing but the execrement of thy other more excellent workes and wouldest haue the ouerthrowe of all earthly things beare witnesse of thine eternitie and infinitenesse Thou art ô Lord only eternall exempt from all course and change for no times are able to measure thy greatnesse for they serue thee and are but as Stewards and dispensers of thy will Thy Throne is farre aboue all corruptible things and there thou sittest making all generations to passe before thee one after another changing when it pleaseth thee the enhabitants of the earth euen as men do their garments 20 But seeing ô Lord that thou art thus altogether good iust and Almightie wilt thou wholie forget thy goodnesse and louing kindnesse towards vs thou that canst forget nothing Wilt thou which euer keepest thy word and promise forget the righteousnesse of thy promises which thou hast euer made vnto thy chosen people Wilt thou let slip the occasion which offereth it selfe vnto thee to haue pitie on vs and helpe vs who art not Almightie but for to do good and ayd the afflicted and as soone shouldest thou forget to be God as to forget to pardon and forgeue Very well thou hast for a time dealt seuearely with vs and sent vs calamities to make vs feele that we haue offended thee and we haue perceyued it right well and wee haue returned vnto thee with broken hearts and dolorously groaned before thee and therefore what more wouldest thou haue of vs What other sacrifice may we offer vp vnto thee then our teares All the rest is thine and there is nothing in our disposition but our wills and the same we present vnto thee washed in our teares pressed and squeezed by the sorrowe of our repentance and purged and cleansed with the zeale of thy liuely loue and therefore why reiectest thou vs Why causest thou vs to waxe old in our miseries 21 No no ô Lord thou art too good and fauourable for so long as wee shall call vppon thee with sound hearts thou wilt neuer forsake vs. But because ô Lord there is no more force nor strength in vs and that our miserie hath knockt our spirits in the head quicken thou them in vs and let all our affections be set vppon thee And to the end wee may continually cleaue vnto thee and not haue thy grace disdayne to dwell in vs renue our spirits and liues and reestablish vs againe in our first integritie and purenesse wherein thou createdst vs. 22 Thou hast heretofore reproued vs and in reprouing vs hast reiected vs and to say truly thou haddest reason so to doo for our too too intollerable iniquities had most strongly prouoked thee But sith that wee haue now humbled our selues before thee and haue done what so euer we might bethinke vs of to appease thee with all receiue vs to thy grace poure vppon vs thy benefits embrace vs louingly as lost children which come agayne with weeping teares to cast them selues into the armes of their father and mercifully receyue our prayers and vowes for they come not now ô Lord from our lips alone but euen from the very bottomes of our harts The song of Ezechias taken out of the Prophesie of Isaiah Chap. 38. I Am dryed vp with very sorrowe and griefe and I breath out the very last sighes of my life and when mâ— spirit launched out with dolor me thought it began to cry out after this manner What must I in the middest of my dayes descend into the pit Is the flower of my youth no sooner hatched but that death must by and by come to gather me vp And shall my brightest and most cleare shining dayes be conuerted into darkenesse O farewell then farewell I say most sweet light which hidest thee from mine eyes for loe the night trayneth me into darke and vnknowne caues and dens and sendeth me a great way vpon the earth euen vnto hell gates 2 But tell me I beseech thee what shall become of the rest of my life Whither shall the rest of my yeares flye O vayne and deceytfull hope which nourishest our minds and purposes and afterward leauest them in the middest of their course I hoped to haue had a faire and white old age and disposed of mine houshold to mitigate the discommodities thereof I builded palaces deuised garden plots got riches together to pleasure my childreÌ„ withall to make merry with my friends and so faire and easily to spend the rest of mine age in seruing of God and doing good vnto men But I must now change my note and sing another song and am enforced ô God to say now vnto thee I shall see thee no more in the land of the liuing 3 I shall neuer more I say lift vp mine eyes vnto thee amongst the liuing in turning my face towards the corners of this world behold admire the works of thine haÌ„ds Farewell most beautifull and glorious Sunne which hast so often risen farre aboue the waters to geue vnto mine eyes the shining brightnesse of thy beames Farewell pale siluery Moone which by degrees slakest the shadowy sayles of the night by degrees markest the measures of our time put thy self out when euer thou wilt for my sight is put out for euer seeing of thee And ye glistering starres of light which couer by pace measures all alongst this azured playne skyes and which spred ouer our weake bodies your heauenly powers stay your selues when you will for ye haue not any power ouer the dead and ô ye ritch meadowes wither when ye will your excellent enameled floures and ô yee christall spring heads dry vp when yee will the beds of running streames for death commeth â—o seele vp mine eyes to bereaue me of your pleasant sights farewell ô world farewell ô men and farewell what so euer pleasure I haue had in this place And ye my deare friends lo heere my last farewell for here is broken the knot of our sweet friendship And ye my children heere endeth the holy affection wherewith I haue made mery a mongst you and now I am possessed with another care for death seperateth me from you and you from me 4 My posteritie is carried farre away from mee euen as the Shepheards Tents of Scythia to day here and to morrow there O most bitter and grieuous separation which pluckest the children out of the armes of their father and from the sweet bosome of their mother 5 But why is this so quickly done and against all hope I came no sooner to be set vpon the frame and scarsly was there a bait or stale layd for my life but that the workeman was ready to put his fleame or lancing knife into me What a kind of alteration ô Lord is this