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sensitive_a cap._n 7_o nor_o yet_o the_o more_o interior_a and_o most_o admirablâ—_n faculty_n of_o the_o memory_n the_o many_o wonder_n of_o which_o to_o the_o great_a glory_n of_o the_o maker_n thereof_o he_o most_o subtle_o discourse_v unto_o the_o 26_o chapter_n cap._n 8_o etc._n etc._n that_o god_n who_o he_o love_v is*_n something_o within_o but_o yet_o above_o his_o soul_n *_o not_o confine_v by_o place_n omnipresent_v etc._n etc._n cap._n 26_o that_o though_o he_o now_o true_o love_v god_n abstract_v from_o and_o far_o above_o all_o other_o creature_n and_o also_o above_o himself_o cap._n 27_o yet_o he_o enjoy_v not_o as_o yet_o a_o perfect_a union_n unto_o he_o but_o have_v a_o perpetual_a combat_n with_o many_o other_o false_a joy_n and_o grief_n and_o fear_n cap._n 28_o not_o have_v yet_o a_o perfect_a continency_n in_o respect_n of_o all_o other_o object_n beside_o god_n but_o extend_v some_o undue_a attention_n and_o affection_n unto_o they_o cap._n 29_o he_o examine_v himself_o and_o confess_v his_o present_a infirmity_n in_o the_o several_a branch_n of_o concupiscence_n 1_o john_n 2.16_o 1._o the_o lust_n of_o the_o flesh_n 2._o the_o lust_n of_o the_o eye_n 3._o the_o pride_n of_o life_n and_o here_o he_o confess_v 1._o his_o remain_a infirmity_n concern_v the_o temptation_n of_o the_o lust_n of_o the_o flesh_n and_o among_o these_o 1._o concern_v the_o temptation_n of_o the_o touch_n relate_v to_o carnal_a concubinage_n cap._n 30_o 2._o concern_v the_o temptation_n of_o the_o taste_n in_o eat_v and_o drink_v cap._n 31_o 3._o concern_v the_o temptation_n of_o the_o smell_n in_o sweet_a odour_n and_o perfume_n cap._n 32_o 4._o concern_v the_o temptation_n of_o the_o ear_n in_o music_n where_o whether_o music_n be_v useful_a in_o church_n cap._n 33_o 5._o concern_v the_o temptation_n of_o the_o eye_n in_o splendid_a fair_a and_o well_o proportion_v object_n cap._n 34_o 2._o his_o remain_a infirmity_n concern_v the_o temptation_n of_o the_o lust_n 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