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this_o way_n of_o self-contempt_n by_o his_o incarnation_n for_o it_o be_v a_o wonderful_a humiliation_n for_o god_n to_o become_v man_n and_o he_o finish_v this_o course_n by_o his_o death_n on_o the_o cross_n which_o be_v as_o low_a as_o humility_n can_v descend_v for_o god-man_n to_o die_v a_o infamous_a death_n between_o two_o thief_n as_o a_o malefactor_n and_o his_o whole_a life_n beside_o be_v but_o as_o one_o continue_a humiliation_n and_o yet_o alas_o we_o pass_v away_o our_o day_n in_o vanity_n call_v ourselves_o christian_n though_o all_o for_o exaltation_n of_o ourselves_o destitute_a of_o self-denial_n and_o true_a humility_n o_o wonderful_a blindness_n o_o jesus_n poor_a and_o abject_a when_o will_v you_o draw_v i_o after_o you_o by_o the_o powerful_a attract_v of_o your_o mercy_n your_o way_n be_v pure_a and_o pleasant_a and_o odoriferous_a to_o those_o who_o soul_n be_v enlighten_v with_o the_o ray_n of_o grace_n you_o o_o jesus_n establish_v your_o empire_n in_o 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