in the weighty concerns of another World Any thing satisfies him and makes him securely to say all is well If Satan tell him as he did our first Parents that he shall not surely dye Satan is believed the God of Truth and the Word of Truth being disregarded How many when they hear the Words Curse do bless themselves in their hearts and say they shall have peace though they walk on after the imagination of their evil heart therefore the Lord threatens that his anger and jealousie shall smoke against such and he will blot out their names from under Heaven Deut. 29. 19 20. Are they reproved for Sin They say All are Sinners whereas Penitents forsake presumptuous Sins and are willing to forsake all but these Self-deluders are hardly willing to forsake any They bear up upon this that God is merciful and yet they slight and abuse his mercy preferring their vanities and lusts before it and go on to injure his Justice and provoke him to Jealousie They are full of hope because Christ died and yet they thwart one great end of his Death and will not be the better for it for they refuse to dye to Sin and live to Righteousness 3. If it highly concerns all to prove themselves hence we may infer what an advantage it is to enjoy the light of the Word of God This is a Glass that flatters none It discovers what Sin is and where it is It calls Grace Grace and will speak peace to them that are the Sons of peace but on the contrary it will tell the Sinner though he be never so high in the World never so high in his vain hopes Thou art the man that lovest and livest in thy iniquity therefore thou art under wrath a Son of Death and in danger of eternal damnation This word convinces of Sin shews the necessity of turning unto God and is a great means of Conversion and afterwards by discovering of Grace it proves the joy and rejoycing of the heart The Unbelievers and Ungodly need this Word and ought to prize it for it shews them their guilt and a Mediatour their sore and also a Physician and faith is wrought by the hearing of it Rom. 10. 17. The Saints have loved this Word exceedingly Hark how the Psalmist cries out Psal 89. 15. Blessed is the people that know the joyful sound they shall walk O Lord in the light of thy countenance 4. Hence we may also infer the benefit of a searching Ministery Seers that will see vain visions are not worth hearing and Prophets that prophesy only smooth things had better prophesy nothing at all for they prophesy nothing but deceit Such Prophets are guilty of the blood of Souls and utterly ruine them while they heal them slightly crying peace peace when there is no peace Jer. 6. 14. Such Pastors destroy the Lords Vineyard such Dawbers are not Builders of the House of God How sad is it when the blind lead the blind both they that are led and they that are the leaders fall into the bottomless pit of perdition But a plain dealing Minister that rebukes Sin sharply that gives warning in time to flee from eternal wrath that commends himself to every mans conscience in the sight of God that speaks as if he knew mens hearts and discovers their secret thoughts to them that is a Son of thunder to the wicked and a Son of consolation to the broken hearted and has the tongue of the learned to speak a word in season to the weary and heavy laden Such a Shepherd is a great blessing to the Flock ought highly to be esteemed in love for his work sake and may be an happy instrument to save himself and them that hear him 5. Hence we may further infer the great necessity of the Spirits aid Unless he enlighten the eyes of our understandings we shall pass a wrong judgment upon our selves and every thing else also A subtle Serpent and a deceitful heart will be too hard for the most powerful Preacher breathing if the Spirit of the Lord does not second and set home the word preached The Spirit as I said before takes the Glass of the Law and holds it before the Sinner that he may see therein both his heart and life and then and truely not till then he will cry out Alass alass What have I been What have I done Where am I And whither will my Sins at last bring me The Spirit can charge Sin so home that there is no denial no excuse made The Sinner trembles confesses laments begs pardon consents to forsake his wickedness Thus Ephraim after he was instructed is ashamed and confounded because of his abominations The Publican being made sensible he was a Sinner cries out God be merciful And as the Spirit convinces the Sinner so he discovers to the Saint what God has given him not only the things themselves which are great and glorious but also the Saints interest in those things 1 Cor. 2. 12. Now we have received not the Spirit of this World but the Spirit which is of God that we might know those things which are freely given to us of God 6. If it highly concerns all to prove themselves learn hence the hatred and subtlety of Satan in Staving men off from this duty All his subjects are a company of inconsiderate fools if they would but bethink themselves they would become wiser than to serve such a Master This Enemy cannot endure that wicked men should look downward to Hell for fear they should be awakened and affrighted nor that they should look inward into themselves for fear they should see themselves lost and look out for a Saviour nor that they should look upwards unto God for fear they should be converted and healed The Devil hates Souls therefore is unwilling that any care should be taken about them he cannot abide that any should inquire into their Spiritual state therefore he endeavours to divert them he allures some with wealth bewitches others with pleasures intoxicates others with applause and honour he represents Self-examination to be Self-tormenting and holiness a meer Hell upon Earth But in all this he shews his falshood as well as enmity What madness is it to listen to him as a Leader and Counseller who is both a Liar and a Murtherer 7. Hence we may learn the great Error of the Church of Rome in crying down Assurance and consequently discouraging Self-examination The Council of Trent Sess 6. has impiously determin'd and declared Certitudo remissionis peccatorum est vana omni pietate remota fiducia The Saints assurance of the pardon of Sin is a vain and ungodly confidence How have they here blasphemed against the Comforter in making all his joys and consolations which suppose Sin to be pardon'd altogether vain The Scripture speaks after another manner Gal. 4. 6. And because ye are Sons God hath sent forth the Spirit of his Son into your hearts crying Abba Father 1 Joh. 4. 16.
in a hurry all along first he was hurried by a sinful and inordinate affection and afterwards by fear of shame in case what he had done should be discover'd 2. A Saint though he may fall yet does not ordinarily allow himself in Sin neither does he make use of the falls of Believers which the Scripture records as a plea for such an allowance as wicked men commonly do He looks upon the works of darkness as unfruitful and desires to have no fellowship with them because these will hinder his fellowship and communion with God He cannot be called a Worker of iniquity because he prays with David and that sincerely Deliver me from all my transgressions Ps 39. 8. and Oh that my ways were directed to keep thy Statutes Ps 119. 5. 3. A Saint never falls so far as to chuse a new Lord and Master he never wholly casts off the yoke of Christ nor resolves to be willingly subject to the law of sin Acts of disobedience indeed he may be guilty of but when Satan propounds it to him and persuades him to renounce the Lords service and to give up himself to the service of diverse lusts and pleasures he cannot bear the thought of it for he knows the wages of sin is death and Christ is incomparably the best Master He never consents to be wholly under the bondage of corruption as once he was but often prays that no iniquity may have the dominion over him Psal 119. 133. and especially that he may be kept back from presumptuous sins which are such great transgressions Psal 19. 13. 4. A Saint never falls so far as to take up with any portion beneath God himself His Soul hath said The Lord is my portion Lam. 3. 24. and he will never go back from it or change his mind so as to become contented without God and to have all his portion here in this life Oh no though he may go away from his Fathers house a while and feed upon the husks that are abroad yet he cannot be satisfied with these for they are not bread and as he is unsafe so truely he is restless till he return to his Father again His Soul remains empty till the Lord fills it weary till the Lord satiates it sorrowful till God himself replenish it 5. A Saint when he falls is quickly brought to himself and to his God by affliction his heart shews its tenderness in yielding to the stroke and impression of the Rod. Before I was afflicted says the Psalmist I went astray but now have I kept thy Word Ps 119. 67. And truely though there may be great fears of death when affliction overtakes a Saint in his falls yet the new nature is secretly glad of affliction whereby the flesh may be tamed and corruption purged away The backsliding Saint when he is stricken does not like those Esa 1. 5. Revolt more and more but accepts the punishment of his iniquity and desires to be throughly turned unto God who smites him and with his Soul he wishes the sanctification of what he feels and that the affliction may yield the peaceable and lasting fruits of righteousness Heb. 12. 11. 6. A Saint after he has fallen is very much afraid of Spiritual Judgments he is afraid lest the Lord should utterly leave him and say concerning him He is proud let him be proud still he is filthy let him be filthy still he is fallen let him alone David after his Sin dreaded being cast away and left to himself and being given up to his own hearts lusts Psal 51. 11. Cast me not away from thy presence take not thy holy Spirit from me The holy Spirit had been exceedingly resisted and grieved and had been highly and justly provoked to depart and that for ever But David could not bear the thoughts of being deprived of the quickning sanctifying comforting Spirit of God therefore with such concernedness he deprecates his departure 7. If the Saints falls have been foul he is troubled at Gods dishonour and that he has caused his blessed name to be blasphemed 't is his trouble that he hath wounded his own Conscience and this very much adds to his trouble that he hath wounded Religion and caused the way of Truth to be evil spoken of To see fellow Saints grieving for his miscarriages is the grief of his Soul to hear prophane ones scoffing at Religion is his shame and confusion and to perceive them hardned and strengthned in their wickedness by the Sins he has fallen into this makes his Repentance to be the greater This was laid before David as the aggravation of his Sin and certainly it made a deep wound in his Spirit that by the deed he had done he had given great occasion to the enemies of the Lord to blaspheme 2 Sam. 12. 14. 8. The Saint after his fall rises again and begs that he may stand faster The Sun sometimes is Eclipsed a greater part sometimes half and suppose it should be a total Eclipse yet tarry a while till the Moon that interposed between the Sun and the Earth be gone and the Sun will shine as it did before the Saints will recover after their backslidings and shine as light again though Sin may darken them for a season And when they do recover Oh how do they cry not only for pardon but also for cleansing and establishment Hark unto David Psal 51. 10. Create in me a clean heart O God and renew a right or a constant Spirit within me And vers 12. Vphold me with thy free Spirit They are importunate with God to keep them from falling any more and to present them faultless before the presence of his glory with exceeding joy Jude v. 24. To be upheld will be their joy their exceeding joy as their fall was their grief and trouble Case 12. The twelfth Case is this How may we know whether we grow in grace The Saints in Scripture are compared to Trees because of their growth and fruitfulness to the Cedar because they are so firmly rooted to the Palm-tree because depressi resurgunt the weights of affliction upon them make them grow the higher to the Vine because the fruits of righteousness which they bring forth are so exceeding pleasant to the Willows by the water courses because there is an aptness in the new creature to grow apace if there be not some impediment But alass these impediments are too common and where there is life yet there may be a languishing and withering Growing Christians are more rare especially in this degenerate age Now growth in Grace may thus be known 1. Then we grow in Grace when our belief of the Gospel has a stronger impression when things invisible are lookt upon as the greatest realities in the World and we are affected and swayed by the view of them When we can say with the Apostle that we walk by faith and not by sight 2 Cor. 5. 7. If things sensible do less work upon us if we are less
small success 6. Assurance of the love of God will lift you up above the fear of evil tidings Psal 112. 7. He shall not be afraid of evil tidings his heart is fixed trusting in the Lord. Why should those be afraid who dwell in the secret place of the most High and abide under the shadow of the Almighty Psal 91. 1. The Saint has the Almighty on his side who surely is able to protect him He is under the shadow of the Almighty the Lord with his wings does cover him that violence may not be offered to him nay he abides under this Shadow so that he is safe at all times He dwells in the Most High and who then can reach him Nay he dwells in the secret place of the most High which shews how precious he is in Gods account and how far out of harms way Single David supposes an whole Host encamped against him yet says his heart shall not fear Psal 27. 3. and knowledge of his interest in God is the ground of his confidence vers 1. The Lord is my Light and my Salvation whom shall I fear The Lord is the strength of my Life of whom shall I be afraid 7. Assurance of the love of God will make you very holy and heavenly The Grace of God is but presumed upon and abused when'tis made an encouragement unto licentiousness Hark to the Apostle Rom. 6. 1 2. What shall we say then shall we continue in Sin that grace may abound God forbid how shall we that are dead to Sin live any longer therein Those who know they are under Grace do most abhor the dominion of Sin v. 14. they live most to God and are most forward to be the Servants of Righteousness The Conversation of such will be much in Heaven Phil. 3. 20. The Heir in his minority does often think of the Estate he is to enjoy Those who know they are the Children of God will often think of what they are to partake of hereafter for they are Heirs of God and joint Hiers with Christ they are begotten again to a lively hope by the resurrection of Christ from the dead unto an inheritance incorruptible undefiled and that fadeth not away 1 Pet. 1. 3 4. No contemplation will be so delightful to us as that of Heaven when once we know that our Lord is gone to prepare a place for us and will come again and receive us to himself that where he is we may be for ever also 8. Assurance of the love of God will make you to abound in praises He has made you new creatures to this very end that you should shew forth the praises of him who hath called you out of darkness into his marvellous light 1 Pet. 2. 9. How does the Apostle Peter break out into thanksgiving upon this account 1 Pet. 1. 3. Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ who according to his abundant mercy hath begotten us again The Apostle Paul speaks to the same purpose Eph. 1. 3 4 5 6 7. Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ who hath blessed us with all spiritual blessings in heavenly things in Christ He hath chosen us in him before the Foundation of the World that we should be Holy and without blame before him in Love He hath predestinated us unto the Adoption of Children He hath made us accepted in the beloved in whom we have Redemption through his Blood the Forgiveness of sins according to the Riches of his Grace How much has the Lord wrought both in and for those he has made Believers He has abounded towards them in Wisdom in Grace in Power in Love Praise is a debt Praise is expected and Praise is comely Though all his Works praise the Lord yet Saints look upon themselves as under a more special and peculiar obligation to magnifie and blesse his Name 9. Assurance of the Love of God will make Afflictions tolerable nay Death it self desirable The bitterest Cup will down more easily when you see t is reached forth to you by the hand of a Father The curse of the Cross is gone and it may be the better born and the Sting of Death is taken out and now Death and the Grave may be triumphed over What was Death to old Simeon when his Eyes had seen Gods Salvation it was but a peaceable departure out of a troublesome World Luk. 1. 29. 30. What was Death to the Apostle Paul who knew that assoon as ever he was absent from the Body he should be present with the Lord It was not dreadful but desirable Phil. 1. 23. I desire to depart and to be with Christ which is far better These are the Arguments and are they not strong ones to perswade you to labour after Assurance The Directions how to prove your selves so as to attain this Assurance follow 1. Set selves as in the presence of the All-Seeing and Heart searching God Who knows you who will judge you and who alone can make you to know your selves You cannot possibly deceive him for every Creature is manifest in his sight all things are naked and open to his veiw Heb. 4. 13. Your Spirits will be apt both to trifle and to juggle unlesse they are awed with a sence of the Lords Omniscience Let Conscience in the searching of you act as Gods Officer and as Gods Officer in Gods presence and then it will deal the more faithfully 2. Pray that your Spirits may give a true Testimony concerning you And that they may do so you must be well acquainted with Scripture-signs and characters of true Grace and then with great intention reflect upon your selves to see whether you have the marks of Christs sheep upon you whether you have the characters of Gods Children A wrong judgment of your selves how extreamly prejudicial would it be to you Adjure your Spirits therefore in the name of the Lord to tell you the very Truth and cry unto the Lord himself that he would not suffer you to fancy or call your selves his Children if you are really but hypocrites and strangers to him that you may not cry peace and safety when God speaks just the contrary 2. Be willing to find out every thing that 's evil in you in order to your more compleat purging David prays see if there be any evil way in me and lead me in the way Everlasting Psal 139. 24. And Psal 19. 12. He desires to be cleansed from secret sins that nothing wicked might borrow the shape of lawful and good and thereby abide in him The more corruption is found our and mortified the more fruitful you will be John 15. 2. Every branch that beareth fruit he purgeth it that it may bring forth more fruit And the more fruitful you are the more evident it will be that you are really the living branches of the true Vine which is Christ Jesus 4. Pray hard That if you have any Grace the Lord would increase it and bring it
turned into shame and thy Tongue is set on fire of Hell Examine thy self strictly whether thou dost abhor lying Words As one that beleives all lyers shall have their portion in the Lake that burns with Fire and Brimstone which is the second Death Rev. 21. 8. Examine whether thou dost make Conscience of Backbiting thy Neighbour of Receiving and spreading a reproach against him If thou art a backbiter a slanderer a railer where is thy love to thy Brother and how canst thou call thy self a Citizen of Sion Psal 15. 1 2 3. Filthy and foolish talking and Jesting is unbecoming a Christians mouth this is to be avoided as well as Oaths and Cursing And ever remember that in multitude of Words there wanteth not sin and therefore what Job speaks unto his Friends turn it into a petition unto God Job 6. 24. Teach me and I will hold my Tongue unless my duty oblige to speak to thy Glory 8. Ask thy self Have I been spiritual in my civil Employments Was my conversation at all in Heaven or did I only mind Earthly things all the day long 'T is the duty of Christians to have the things of this World as though they had none of them to Buy as though they possessed not to use this World as not abusing it because the fashion of this World passeth away 1 Cor. 7. 30 31. The work of the Calling is to be minded and to be idle therein is to walk very disorderly 2 Thess 3. 11 12. But yet the working out of our Salvation is to be lookt upon as the main business of our lives unto which we should make our other actions to become subservient As the Grace of God makes a difference between the Christian and another man so the Christian should not only Pray and Hear but also Buy and Sell and Trade and deal in the matters of the World after a different manner He should always be in the Fear of God always eying his Rule and act conscientiously He should be wise unto that which is Good but simple concerning Evil He should not be over eager after nor trust in uncertain Riches nor be high-minded because of them But remember his time on Earth is short and as he must quickly leave the World so he must also give an account whether he has improved the World to the Glory of God and by doing of Good with what he has he has made unto himself a friend of the Mammon of Vnrighteousness Luke 16. 9. 9. Ask thy self Have I been careful to Redeem Time I count my Jewels my Gold my Silver too precious to throw about the Streets but have I not been prodigal and lavish of time which is of greater value and which no price can purchase when once 't is past and gone Those who are in Heaven how glad are they that they improved Time and made good provision for Eternity And they who are in Hell how do they Curse their Folly in wasting such a Treasure and wish they had never had either any time or any being since the time which was given them to repent in was spent inmaking themselves for ever miserable Mark O man how thy time passes How fast how constantly thy glasse runs Examine what becomes of all thy time and unto what account it turns If the filings of Gold are saved surely every parcel of time is highly worth Redeeming Let things that must be done have time sufficient let things that may be done have time convenient and for those things which ought not to be done le them have no time at all In a word so number thy dayes as to apply thy Heart unto Wisdom Psal 90. 12. Every day think of Death which will end all thy days 10. Ask thy self Have I received Mercies thankfully and born Crosses patiently A Christians Pilgrimage is chequer-work a mixture of black and white together sometimes he may want sometimes he may abound He should know how to do both as the Apostle did Phil. 4. 12. Mercies are designed to be as cords to draw thee and Afflictions as rods to drive thee nearer unto God let both attain their end What high ingratitude is it against Heaven and what an injurious disservice to thy self to take the Mercies of God and serve thy Lusts and Satan with them Let every days kindness overcome thee and be sure to glorifie that God in whose hand thy Breath and Life is and from whose hand thou dost receive every benefit and in whom is all thy hope of future happiness And if he does afflict thee do not murmur for whom the Lord Loves he chastens whom he chastens he does design their profit and can there be truer profit then to be made in a greater measure partakers of the Lords Holiness Heb. 12. 6. 10. If thou dost but wait a while thou will see a light some lamp to follow a smoaking Furnace Gen. 15. 17. An happy issue of all thy troubles Affliction will be a means so to clear thy sight and cleanse thy Soul that thou wilt grant there is reason to kiss the rod and to acknowledge the faithfulness and care of him that used it 11. Ask thy self How much am I advanced in Heavens way farther to day then I was yesterday How many new steps have I taken towards the New Jerusalem Have I indeed gone forward in the narrow path which leads to Life or have I stood still or gone backward 'T is our duty to grow in Grace 2 Pet. 3. ult To follow on to know the Lord and to follow still harder after him Our Salvation growes nearer and nearer every day and therefore our motions should be more strong and sprightly towards our home and centre Examine every day what Grace thou hast strengthened what corruption thou hast weakned that day Hast thou lower thoughts of thy self And higher thoughts of the Grace of God Is thy Faith more firm and operative Is thy love more ardent and constraining Art thou more fit for thy Masters use and prepared unto every good work and more meet to be a partaker of the Inheritance of the Saints in Light That day is certainly lost in which more Grace is not gained and in which never a step is taken in the way Everlasting Oh! Be such Just and Righteous ones as Solomon speaks of and let your path be as the shining Light which shineth more and more unto the perfect day 12. Ask thy self Have I waited on God all this day long Has my dependance been upon him My expectation of all good from him And my care to do what is good in his sight 'T is both our duty and our honour to wait on our God continually as a Servant waits upon his Master as a Son upon his Father Hark unto David Psal 25. Lead me in thy truth and teach me for thou art the God of my Salvation on thee do I wait all the day We ought to be sensible that all our springs are in God and that 't is
with God the Father takes upon him the form of a Servant and becomes obedient to death even the Death of the Crosse and he is sufficient to make peace MEDITATION XVIII Christ as he was God could not die but he took mans nature upon him that he might be in a capacity to dye for sinful and lost Man He suffered in the same Nature that had sinned that he might make Atonement Sacrifices and Burnt-offerings could never take away the guilt of sin nor quiet the Conscience of the sinner nor cleanse and sanctifie a defiled soul therefore Christ had a Body prepared for him that by one Offering he might perfect his Church for ever Wonderful mystery of Godliness That God should be manifested in the Flesh and suffer upon the Cross to make peace Here is a wonderful contrivance Christ is the Sacrifice Christ is the Altar and Christ is the Priest Through the Eternal Spirit he offered up himself without spot to God to purge our Consciences from dead works that we might serve the Living God MEDITATION XXI Christ is God and has so effectually don the work of a Mediator that God is forward to be at Peace and entreats sinners to be reconciled Christ is Man and therefore Man may go with boldness to him O my Soul Thy Lord is near a kin to thee he bears good will to thy whole kind He is the Saviour of all men especially of them that Believe Being so nearly related to thee he has a right to Redeem thee nay he has actually paid the price of thy Redemption already so that nothing remains but that thou come to him and be made free indeed His Arms were not folded or hanging down but stretched out upon the Cross And oh How forward is this Saviour who died to embrace all that come to him When he says he will in No wise cast them out methinks it speaks the greatest readiness and gladness imaginable to entertain them Venture O venture to look to Jesus to come to Jesus and venture thy all with him Never any miscarried in this bottom and all must needs miscarry in any other He knows thy Sins thy Wants thy Foes thy Fears he knows how to Pity Protect and Succour thee He was in all things made like unto his Brethren that he might be a Merciful and Faithful High Priest in things pertaining to God to make Reconciliation for the sins of the People for in that he himself hath suffered being tempted he knows how to succour them that are tempted MEDITATION XX. How excellent is the Knowledge of Christ Crucified Look O my Soul upon thy Lord who loved thee at such a rate as to dye for thee Behold him Arrested Arraigned and Condemned Thou wast guilty of the crime and thy Lord did bear the punishment Behold him going to execution going unto Golgotha and if he had not gone thither whither Oh! Whither must thou needs have gone for ever The Law had condemned Thee not only the first but also the second Death was the just desert of thy Transgressions But here thy Surety stept in and Redeemed thee from the Curse of the Law being made a Curse for thee Look upon the Wrath of God revealed against thee because of thy ungodliness and unrighteousness look upon the glittering Sword of Justice drawn look upon devouring Fire and Everlasting Burnings prepared for thee and thy self just ready to be thrown into those unquenchable Flames And then behold and wonder at the kindness and love of Jesus who was willing to be made sin for thee and to bear the Wrath of God himself that he might appease it which was too heavy for thee to bear and which would have sunk thee into the lowest Hell and have kept thee there unto Eternity In what a deplorable and desperate case had the Sheep been if this good Shepherd had not stood in their room and layed down his Life for them MEDITATION XXI History tells us of Codrus the last Athenian King who was a great Lover of his People as appears by the manner of his Dying When the Grecians of Doris sought Counsel from the Oracle concerning the success of their Wars which they waged with the Athenians It was answered that undoubtedly they should prevail and become Lords of that State when they could obtain any victory against the Nation and yet preserve the Athenian King himself alive Codrus the King by some intelligence being informed of this answer withdrew himself from his own Forces and putting on the habit of a common Souldier he entred alone the Camp of the Dorians his Enemies and killing the first he met with was himself forthwith cut in pieces Thus he was willing to lose his own life rather then his Country should be ruined The Lord Jesus the Prince of Life and Glory did vail his Majesty appeared in the form of a Servant was contented to be counted a deceiver and to be numbred among Transgressours that his Life might be taken away and hereby Eternal Redemption be procured Codrus was deservedly honoured among the Athenians and certainly the Lord Jesus should be the higher in our esteem and love the lower he humbled and abased himself for our sakes The offence of the Crosse should cease since his Crucifixion was so necessary to our Eternal Salvation MEDITATION XXII Greater Love hath no man then this that a man lay down his Life for his Friends But Lord Thou didst dye for Rebels and for Enemies thou didst dye unsought to undesired therefore thy love is greater then the greatest love besides Thy love was stronger then Death no Water could quench it no Floods could drown it Hell it self could not discourage it 'T was a bitter Cup the Father put into thy hand but thou didst drink it and drink it off too the very dreggs of the Cup are gone Oh what a load did lye upon thee All the sins of all that ever were or shall be saved did meet on thee together How many stings had thy Death and yet thy Godhead and thy love did carry thee through all thy sufferings Oh! That I could comprehend with all Saints what is the heighth and length and depth and breadth and know the Love of Christ which passeth Knowledge that I may be filled with all the fulness of God! MEDITATION XXIII My Lord did know what was to come upon him Mans sin had been shamefull Christs Death was most Reproachful and Accursed Man had taken Pleasure in sin Christs Death was painful Man had been wilful in Transgression and Christs Death was voluntary though 't was violent Man had sinned against knowledge and with great contrivance and deliberation and Christ perfectly understood all that he was to endure He was well aware what he was to feel from Earth from Hell and from his heavenly Father and yet he makes no demur but endures the Cross and despises the shame and gives his Life a Ransom for many How was he straitned till his bloody Baptism was accomplished And
was once a Child of Wrath and Disobedience I am become an Heir of God and a Joint-Heir with Christ unto that inheritance which is incorruptible and undefiled and which fadeth not away Nay my Lord who has loved me and washed me from my sins in his own blood hath made me a King and a Priest unto God and his Father and I must reign for ever for of this Kingdom which I have now a Title to and a sure promise of there shall be no end Oh rich Oh free Oh glorious Grace I am at a loss for an expression high enough to set forth the thousandth part 〈◊〉 my Lords incomparable kindness my shallow Conceptions cannot reach what is incomprehensible Therefore I must be silent in a joyful admiration MEDITATION LIII What shall I render unto the Lord My All is due my All is too little and by rendring my All I secure my All and so am still more benefited and I become more my Lords debter I find my self most happily puzzled with my Lords goodness He gives himself to me and requires that I should give my self to him but in so doing not He but I receive the benefit All the retributions thou requirest O my God and Father are but to do my self more kindnesses Duties are my priviledges All thy precepts are for my profit and my peace and pleasure to obey them Thou art beyond all compare the very best Master Oh let my ear be boared for I will serve thee for ever let my Heart be circumcised that I may love thee Eternally There is a sweetness in the acting of every Grace There is great peace in keeping of thy law there is an amiableness in thy Tabernacles thy power and thy glory are seen in thy sanctuary and though that word Suffering may sound harsh yet upon experience suffering will be found the most delightful paâ—â— of Christian obedience MEDITATION LIV. My Lord did not stick at suffering and why should I Why should the Cross daunt me If I will be indeed Godly Persecution is to be expected The old Serpent is full of hatred and so are his seed and their hatred is implacable But when I consider my Lords love and power and presence Hells Malice and the Worlds Rage become contemptible times of suffering are times of the sweetest solace Those are not unreasonable injunctions Count it all joy when ye fall into divers Temptations and Blessed are ye when men shall revile you and persecute you and say all manner of evil against you falsly for my sake rejoyce and be exceeding glad for great is your reward in Heaven The Spirit of glory and of God does rest upon his suffering Saints so that they glory in tribulation they rejoyce in it as a dignity when they suffer shame for the name of Jesus they are gainers by their losses they gain an hundred fold in this World besides the Kingdom in the other World MEDITATION LV. O my soul follow thy Lord though he lead thee in rough ways and paths of great affliction If sufferings abound consolation shall abound and grace shall be sufficient The Cross of Christ though the outside of it be affrighting yet it is lined with love and easily born And if it should come to pass that Life must be taken away What better use can Life be put to then to lay it down for the Testimony of Jesus The painfullest deaths have proved many times most pleasant What raptures of joy have the Martyrs had at the stake and in the flames Prudentius of old observed Mors Christianis ludus est That Death was but a sport unto the Christians Remarkable is that passage of Bainham the Martyr when his arms and legs were half consumed by the fire he spake these words O ye Papists you look for miracles and here now you may see a miracle for in this fire I feel no more pain then if I were in a bed of Down it is to me a bed of Roses Resolve therefore O my soul undauntedly to undergo whatever tribulaon thou meetest for the sake of Righteousness Rely upon thy faithful God who will not suffer thee to be tempted above what his Grace shall enable thee to bear with joy as well as patience MEDITATION LVI Thy death O Lord is to be shewn forth till thou comest 't is proper for me to think of thy coming and to rejoyce at the thoughts of it My Lord and Redeemer will certainly appear the second time without sin to Salvation And when he shall appear I shall be like him and appear with him in glory Time and days do fly away apace and the comming of my Lord draweth nigh That will be the day of my open absolution of my full and compleat Redemption of my joyful and triumphant Coronation How full of glory and of love will be the face of Jesus then Ah! where shall the ungodly and sinners then appear How will the greatest and the stoutest of them even the Kings and Cheif Captains and mighty men tremble and call to the Rocks and Mountains to fall on them and cover them from the face of him that sits upon the Throne and from the Wrath of the Lamb But though most of mankind be full of horror I if I am a true Believer shall be full of joy and after I have been openly acquitted own'd and crown'd before Men and Angels Whither Oh whither will my Lord carry me Into those Mansions he is gone to prepare into the presence Chamber of the King of Glory Where God himself will be All in All. MEDITATION LVII I find some sweetness in the way and means of grace what shall I find in the end if in vale of Tears such joy be found what will be enjoyed in a paradise of delight if in the midst of labours and fightings and temptations I find so much satisfaction what contentment will an Everlasting rest afford me Augustine speaks excellently Soliloq cap. 35. Intra in gaudium sine tristitia ubi erit omne bonum et non erit aliquod malum ubi erit quicquid voles et non erit quicquid noles O gaudium vincens omne gaudium laetitia sine dolore lux sine tenebris vita sine morte ubi juventus nunquam senescit ubi decor nunquam pallescit ubi amor nunquam tepescit gaudium nunquam decrescit ubi dolor nunquam sentitur gemitus nunquam auditur ubi triste nihil videtur ubi malum nullum timetur quia summum bonum possidetur Enter O my soul into joy without sadness Where there shall be a presence of all good an absence of all evil where there shall be every thing which thou desirest nothing at all that thou dislikest O joy surpassing all other joys Gladness without Grief Light without Darkness Life without Death There Youth shall never grow old Beauty shall never fade Love shall never wax cold and Joy shall never be diminished there sorrow shall never be felt one sigh shall never be heard