temptation and beg heartily of Almighty God to help thee to the veiw and discovery of all thy open and hidden sins This way all true penitents took having been once convicted S. 8. and upon after-failings and miscarriages Lamen 3.40 Let us search and try our ways and turn again unto the Lord and that same convert David tells what way he took at the beginning of his reformation to wit I thought on my wayes Psal 119.59 60. and turned my feet unto thy testimonies And tells us further that so soon as ever he was convinced of the necessity of reformation and the danger of living longer in his sins I made hast and delayed not to keep thy commandements and this true penitent gives thee what he desired of God it was this Search me O Lord Psal 139.23 24. and know my heart try me and know my thoughts and see if there be any wicked way in me and lead me in the way everlasting He knew the danger of sin and in some good measure the deceitfulness of mans own heart and the secret hidings of sin within and because he would keep none of his sins nor favour any of them he would have them discovered to himself that he himself might not conceal them and this was an argument he meant to be sincere and resolved to be reformed to purpose and the same convert David gives in the 4th Psalm first a reproof to the wicked saying How long will ye love vanity Psal 4.2.4 how long will ye continue wicked and in the 4 th verse he gives a direction and counsell saying Stand in awe and sin not stop here go no further in sin sin is a dreadfull thing but commune with your own heart upon your bed i. e. discourse and reason the case with your self in private consider your heart and ways what hath been the course of your life what is now the frame of my heart Say to thy self what have I done what am I doing how long shall I go on in these sad courses when shall I determine and resolve on amendment why not now is it not yet time have I not yet long enough been an enemy to God a rebell against his Lawes a drudge to my lust a slave to Satan a companion of fools and mad folk and a wanderer in the broad way which at last will lead me to endless wo and destruction shall I any longer consume any the rest of my time in fulfilling the lusts of the flesh as I have done too too much already or shall I now 1 Pet. 4.2 3. even now cease my folly and cast off my sins oh 't is doubtless high time And secondly S. 9.2 you are perswaded to deal roundly and particularly with your self do not go about to lessen and excuse thy faults spare not thy sins for thy sins will not spare thee give them no quarter believe none of their promises for to be sure if thou let any of them live with thee they will kill and destroy thy soul if it be a beloved sin with which thou hast taken pleasure or by which thou hast gotten somewhat yet trust it not keep it not for every sin let it promise never so fairly is thy mortall enemy there is a venome and deadly poyson in it which will infect all thy other performances and eat out thy comforts and cause thee at last to lie down in sorrow and despair If it be thy beloved one S. 10. Judg. 16. to the end yet remember so was Delilah to Sampson who notwithstanding betrayed him to affronts bindings woundings and death and so will this to thee if it come with pretended kindness to salute or delight thee or to remain with thee in quietness yet remember so did Joab to Abner 2 Sam. 3.27 yet smote him there and then under the fifth rib so that he died And so was the pretended sacrifice of the harlot in the Proverbs Pro. 7.13 23. With much fair speech she caused him to yield with the flattering of her lips she forced him and he goeth straitway after her as an oxe to the slaughter or as a fool to the correction c. Till a dart strike through his liver and as a bird hasteth to the snare not knowing that it is for his life Even so will it do with thee if thou trust it as Joab did Amasa And Joab said to Amasa 2 Sam. 20.9 10. art thou in health my brother And Joab took Amasa by the beard with the that hand to kiss him But Amasa took no heed to the sword that was in Joabs hand so he smote him therewith and shed out his bowels to the ground and he died So will every sin that speaketh fair to thee if thou be led aside by it do with thee for it still hath with it an instrument of woundings and death and will not spare thee when thou comest within its reach and power whatever hopes thou hast to the contrary for how true is that of the Apostle Rom. 6th after this question is put to every sinner what fruit had ye then in these things whereof you are now ashamed doth he not challenge your answer and can you answer any other thing to it but what he concludes Rom. 6.21.22 the end of those things is death for the wages of sin every sin is death and will any event be found other then what St. James speakes of the progress of sin that every man that bringeth forth sin Jam. 1.14 15. being enticed by his own lust and finisheth it must die eternally for it as certainly as every one that is born of a woman must tast of natural death with this only difference that both righteous and wicked penitent and impenitent must die a like death in nature but the wicked unregerate onely shall die eternally that is be for ever separate from God and be forever miserable How much then doth it concern me to labour the death of my sin S. 11. that my sin may not bring this death upon me how should I and every soul cast out that morsell though never so sweet that will either choke or poyson us at the last why should I dally or be familiar with that or keep it under the roof of my tabernacle that will cut my throat and then set all my house on fire and put my soul into flames of everlasting burnings Oh how can I doe this and act the other sin which doth put me under the wrath of my Lords displeasure at present and if I continue in it will procure that finall displeasure which will never be removed and this is an hell of misery to be banished from the face and favour of God and to lie under his wrath for ever Shall I then or any body else that loves God and his own soul continue in that or this sin S. 12. which for ought I know if I continue one day longer in it may never be
intercept the wrath of the offended God pouring out upon the whole race of mankind for the first and after-transgressions see although he did but beare our sins for he had not one sin of his own to answer for not the least sinless he ever was and sinless he will for ever be yet consider what expence he was at and what chastisements he bare what agonies of soul he laboured under what woundings he suffered what blood he shed what death he died and all ignominie and ten thousand times more then I can express did he passe through and all because he in infinite love to mankind would interpose and was content to be reputed as a sinner that he might satisfie for sin committed and repair the ruines sin had made and restore the losse sin had procured yet when I consider what wofull worke sin made on the humanity of the ETERNALL JESUS while on earth though being but laid on him not found in him how can I keep my blood from rising up against sin my sin that fetcht the heart-blood of Christ my Lord and crucified the Lord of Life the Lord of my Life too and caused his death for a season But had he been tainted in himself with the least sin of his own or been guiâ—ty of the least transgression or had he made the least failer in any of those many transactions enjoyned him by his Eternal Father for the redemption of mankind fallen or had he admitted of the least irregularity in all his life in thought word or action the nature of sin is such where ever it cleaveth and sticketh that the least scruple and mote would have infected a world of men and an heaven of angels and if Christ himself had been tainted with the lest sin imaginable he must have ceased from being a Saviour and Redeemer of others and from being God who is glorious in holiness and have sought for himself a Saviour and Redeemer or have lain under that guilt and pollution that his own sin had brought upon him and this the devill knew well enough when he attempted our blessed Lord Jesus with temptations of divers sorts that he might bring him to commit a sin which would have frustrated the merit of his redemption and undone both him and us if such a thing had been possible that Christ could have committed a sin So great an evil and so poisonous a plague is sin that it will doe that by it 's own maglignity which all the devils in hell cannot doe to me except I commit sin and yield to the solicitations and motions of mine own lust Can I now S. 27. if I have but the least love to Christ after such a consideration as this think sin to be no evil and that there is no great hurt in it much less think it lovely should I not rather think sin to be the greatest evil in the world more terrible then all the most astonishing and lothsome diseases that are incident to humanity is it not far better for one to undergoe all the afflictions and bodily punishments in this life then to have his soul infected with sin or to lie under the guilt or burden of one sin alone is it not much better to be a poor Saint then a rich sinner an humble penitent then an honourable reprobate would I not a thousand times rather have my whole life accompanied with variety of troubles without sin then to be quite freed from all afflictions with the being and adhesion of one sin though but one and that the least Oh my soul God may love thee though never so sorely afflicted as sometime Job was and his love is life and riches and far better then all but if thou be never so rich and great and healthy and be hated of God Oh how miserable art thou Shall I continue in sin then S. 28. God forbid Never let my soul close with that which God so perfectly hates and will as certainly punish first or last where ever he finds it and him with whom he finds it and who can hide himself or his sin from the all-seeing God or withstand his power punishing alas not one in the world And shall I attempt to sin S. 29. which I may doe and then to hide it which I shall never be able to do from the eye of God nor shall I ever be able to withstand the stroke or stand under the wrath of him that will not spare when he means to take vengeance of sin and then poor wretch what will become of thee when thy unpardoned sins thine own wickedness shall be laid on thee and together with them the insupportable wrath of the Almighty Ah sin thou hast undone millions already and wilt ruine me also if I keep thee I am sorry I have been so well acquainted with thee so long that I have been deceived by thee so often 't is too much I have served thee and the devil by sinning O Lord that I may henceforth renounce all my wickedness and lothe every one of my sins and the womb that bears them Jam. 1.14 15. even my lusts it will never be well with thee O my soul untill I am delivered from the power guilt and filthiness of my sins 3. I consider S. 30. that if sin in its nature be so pestilent and of such dreadfull consequence and malevolent aspect working the destruction of the subject where ere it fastens and remains then must I expect the same dealing from my own lusts and sinfull acts if I continue in my sin nourish and feed my lusts as others have by sad experience found from their sins and 't is past dispute that every sin in particular every transgression of mine every evil motion within me every act of sin is of the very same nature and tendencie and hath the same poisonous quality and the same contrariety enmity and malignity against God and goodness as the whole kind of sin in the masse 't is bone of his bone and flesh of his flesh and of the same father the devill and bears his very image and doth the same thing it sights against heaven and my own souls happiness it will destroy infallibly if I keep it and cherish it with me If I practice theft or covetousness S. 31. or whoredome or drunkenness or lying or swearing or any other sin frequently or but once am I not a sinner have I not transgressed the whole law St. James tells me that if I offend in one point I am guilty of all Jam. 2.10 that is I have broken the Law of God and am guilty of the breach of the whole law by so doing not that I have committed every individuall sin forbidden but I have contracted transgressing in one point the guilt of high treason against my Soveraign Lord the supreme law-giver And why should I imagine that the littleness of my sin should lessen the transgression S. 32. My Lord Christ saith That whosoever shall
10. art thou still an unbeliever And thou art an unbeliever if thou acknowledgest not nor believest in the onely True God the Father of Christ and Creator of the World as revealed to thee in the Scriptures if thou believest not in Jesus Christ the onely Eternall Son of God If thou confess him not to be the true Messias not acknowledgest him to be HE that was promised and in time was sent into the world born of a virgin and took humane nature into his Godhead and suffered here on earth death for the Redemption of mankind who were lost by sin and under the curse and power of Satan if thou takest him not for thy Saviour and Lord if thou yeildest not up thy self thy mind Will affections and actions to be sanctified and ruled by him thou art yet an Infidel If thou believest not the Holy Ghost to be God S. 11. and proceeding from the Father and the Son and yet equall with the Father and the Son and that the FATHER SON and HOLY GHOST are one onely God in essence nature power dignity infiniteness according to the Scriptures thou art an Infidel Nay if thou believest not the holy Scriptures of the OLD and NEW TESTAMENT to be of God given unto us for a full Revelation of the mind of God concerning our faith and life If thou believest not the promises and threats of the Gospell If thou believest not reward for the Godly and punishment for the wicked a day of Judgment where and when all mankind shall be Judged according to their workes done in this present World in the Resurrection of all the dead at the last day when men shall receive the finall sentence from the mouth of Christ either for the enjoyment of Heaven or the torments of Hell from that time for ever If thou believest not all this thy state is Infidell thou art yet an unbeliever S. 12. and if thou continuest so this must be thy doom read it and tremble * Mar. 16.16 He that believeth not shall be damned * John 3.36 He that believeth not the Son which is Jesus Christ shall not see life but the wrath of God abideth on him †Rev. 21.8 The unbelieving shall have their part in the lake which burneth with fire and brimstone which is the second death Consider this and see if thy case be unbelief whether it doth not concern thee speedily to reform in this particular and become a true believer §. III. Unrighteousness Art thou an unrighteous person S. 13. I mean one that is unjust in thy dealings with men doest wrong either friend or foe in goods name or life Is it thy custome in trafficking with others to cheat deceive defraud any one dost thou keep back for thy own use that which is not thine own by consent or purchase or gift from the right owners hast broken thy promise and covenant made with man wilfully hast thou stollen from or robbed any man of what was his or anothers in his keeping hast received stollen goods knowingly and consenting to theeves and robbers dost usually doe to others in any case what in no case thou wouldest have them doe to thee Then art thou an unrighteous person in jurious to man a wronger of thine own soul and highly offensive to the Just and Righteous God who loveth righteousness and hateth iniquity and hast sinfully transgressed that excellent Rule of thy blessed Lord and Saviour Jesus Christ who hath said that whatsoever you would that men should doe unto you Luke 6.21 Mat. 7.20 S. 14. doe ye even so unto them Now if thou art guilty of unjust and unrighteous dealing you must repent of it speedily and quit it absolutely away with this evil frame and wicked practice Leave off to walk unrighteously S. 15. if thou meanest to be reformed and saved but if thou wilt not then take notice that this remaines against thee Deut. 25.16 Rom. 1.18 1 Cor. 6.9 S. 16. All that doe unrighteously are anabomination unto the Lordthy God And then know that the unrighteous shall not inherit the kingdome of God Now will you dare to doe unrighteously any more or wilt thou not much rather reform in time then undergoe thy exclusion of heaven and loss of thy happiness to the ruine of thy soul for ever for thy unrighteous dealing Then be perswaded to rid thy hands of unjust gain S. 17. and thy heart and mind from all unjust and unrighteous thoughts and contrivances that it may be said of thee such was I indeed but now I am reformed I have left off all my unjust unrighteous dealing through the grace of God convincing me of my sin warning me and helping me to forsake it Adde this consideration to further thee in thy REFORMATION what will it profit thee yea what is any man profited if he shall gain the whole world by unrighteousness Mat. 16.26 and lose his own soul alas what will all thy getting doe thee good when thou shalt pay so dear for it even the unvaluable losse of thy precious soul at last §. IV. Idolatry Is Idolatry thy sin S. 18. Art thou guilty of that If thou hast worshipped a false God any of the Heathen Idols instead of the true God Hast thou worshipped or prayed to or before an image directing thy service to it or to God by an image of mans making Hast thou adored or worshipped a piece of bread as though it were really and materially the very body of Christ or hast thou adored a crucifix and prayed unto it Or attributed any divine power to a piece of gold silver brass wood made after the fashion of a cross Dost thou give the honour and worship due unto God to any creature or likeness of any thing thou then art guilty thou art found a gross Idolater Nay further S. 19. Rom. 1.21 if thou in thy fancie dost conceive of the eternall invisible GOD who is a pure spirituall being as though he were like unto any thing thou ever sawest and dost worship him under that imaginaty shape thou wrongest God and hast set up an Idol in thy imagination and so art thou an imaginary Idolater though thou hast no picture before thine eyes yea further if thy heart mind will affections be laid out upon earthly things and thou payest more true love to and devotest thy self to the pleasures profits and honours of this world If thou servest the creature more constantly affectionately and willingly then the great God then art thou an Idolater for what is Idolatry else but the setting up the creature in the place of God and to give the creature the preeminence in our hearts and minds and what is it to commit Idolatry but a serving the creature and adoreing it * Rom. 1.25 more then the Creator who is blessed for ever And therefore the covetous worldling is branded with this abominable title of Idolatry †Eph. 5.5 For this ye know that no
be executed on thee and for ever must thou lie under it whether it be unto life or death salvation or damnation nor will there be any revocation or alteâ—â—ation of that unalterable decree Oh then how much doth it concern thee and every one that thou be sincerely wholly reformed in this world seeing thy everlasting making or marring depends upon it forasmuch as thy eternal weal or woe is determined and fixed according as thy heart and life is reformed or not reformed Do not therefore O Christian neglect the doing of that speedily which may put all out of doubt S. 2. and give thee a comfortable assurance that heaven shall be thy portion which thou mayst depend upon if thy heart be converted and thy ways amended and as sadly mayst thou sink in thy hopes of heaven if this be not fully wrought in thee O then let not any thing in the world make thee put off thy reformation or baffle thee out of thy duty or betray thee into vain hopes to be happy without it II. Motive 2. The next Motive to provoke thee to hasten thy reformation is this S. 3. that all the while you deferre it you lose your time and are doing that you must undoe again for the best of all that you do else are but trifles and toies and nothing at all to the purpose of true happiness and all this while you are making more work for tears lamentation and repentance and if ever you come to the happy state of conversion hereafter you will be much afflicted and troubled that you continued so long a fool and a wretch as you are all the while you put off and delay your amendment how bitter will it be to a devour soul to remember how long he continued at a distance from Christ how long he did live after the flesh and the world how many days and how much strength he spent in the service of sin how many excuses and delays he used Oh! he will beshrew himself to think how often he put off the kind intreaties of Christ and those many invications to holiness it will trouble thee if ever thou come to be converted that thou wert not converted sooner that God and religion had not thy heart and service long agoe that thou didst not yield and resign up thy self when first thou wast moved to it that sin had so much and Christ so little of thy will and affections O then dear soul deferre not any longer but do that with all speed which you have now a fair opportunity to perform that is forthwith to leave off your known sins and betake your selves to a sober serious holy life so will you prevent your own molestation and your own misery III. Motive 3. Let the danger and dreadfulness of an unconverted state move thee speedily to get out of it by all possible means S. 4. alas all the while I live unreformed I am under the curse of the Law and power of Satan a stave to lust and a son of perdition and if I chance to die in this estate my case and the already damned in hell will be the same they who died in their sins are miserable wretches and so shall I be as they are there is but a step between me and their sad condition and while I am on this side the grave in a sinning course following the motions of my lusts I am in a worse condition then the worst of creatures a toad in my ditch is better by much then a man in his sins unconverted unreformed And all the while I live in my sins I am unpardoned and am hastening to an eternity of misery I am in that broad way which leadeth straight on to destruction Oh then let my soul get quickly out of that way and from that state in which I walk in so much danger and which will most certainly carry me to the chambers of death and bring me under the eternall wrath of God IV. Motive 4. Let the consideration of the brevity and uncertainty of thy life move thee to hasten thy reformation S. 5. this night thy soul may be taken from thy body if not then within a very short time it must and it will be called to an account and oh what a sad day will it prove then when death opens the passage from a sinfull life to an endless misery when death puts an end to the pleasures of sin and gives a beginning to the pains of hell never to end Therefore if you mean to prevent the miseries of a dying sinner S. 6. you must destroy the sin ere you die and this requires your care and diligence your speed and quick dispatch Oh that you would be wise concerning your later end and leave not that to do at the last which can neither be well done nor accepted if it be put off till the last V. Motive 5. Another Motive to a speedy reformation let be S. 7. that none of thy most pleasurable sinfull practices are half so pleasing to thee a sinner as the ways of godliness and exercise of vertues are to the true convert reformation if it be sound and universall will prove the rarest delight and content in the world and be of excellent satisfaction to thee Pro 3.15 1 Tim. 4.8 1 Tim. 6.6 Her ways are ways of pleasantness and all her paths are peace and godliness with contentment is great gaine profitable to all things having the promise of this life and that which is to come No life can be compared to a godly life for pleasure profit and contentment how quiet is the conscience of a devout holy Christian how sweet his sleep how calm and serene is his spirit that is at peace with God! how doth he rejoyce in the Lord what a merry life doth he lead and goeth on his way cheerfully to his home to his inheritance to his joys in heaven which he hath in prospect and is at the end of his race how doth that soul triumph in his victories that is daily resisting temptations and slaying his corruption how sweetly doth he passe his time that spends it in communion with God and delights of heaven But 't is farre otherwise with a wicked man that serves the interest of sin and studies to gratifie and serve his lusts in sinful actings Oh what a many plots doth he lay and paines doth he take to bring about his sin and then what shifts must be make to hide to excuse to maintain his sin what a many perplexing gripes of conscience and often terrours hath a wicked man within himself and besides the bitterness in the end of sinfull actions what a toile and weariness it is in the exercise of it so that truly a man may say of sin WHAT A WEARINESS IT IS to what purpose is all this cost and losse of time and exhausting the spirits and after all what pleasure hath a man or what content can accrue to any man upon the
chuse this term of Reformation because it comprehends what I mean to exhort you to and as it is a Vulgar word best known to such as I am writing to and you understand thus much by it that when a man hath been vicious vain worldly naught and hath left off those wretched courses and is become sober just serious humble charitable and good now say they he is a reformed man or a changed man another manner of man then he was before he is now reclaimed a man of an other nature and life I mean by it much the same thing as you understand it but in this latitude I mean no less by Reformation then a through Change of disposition and life from that which is bad displeasing to God and disadvantageous to thy own precious soul to that which is good and commanded by God and of necessity to be done by thee in order to thy salvation And if you understand better the meaning of your duty by these expressions S. 2. Conversion Repentance Regeneration Renovation Sanctification Returning then whatever is comprehended under any or all these terms I mean by Reformation and so much I aim at by this perswasion to a speedy Reformation For the word in its own proper signification is a state unto which either persons or things disordered and out of course are reduced S. 3. as unto their first form or state wherein they should be either by creation or appointment and Institution now every sin and Inclination to it is a great disorder and holiness is the Rectitude and right frame of soul Therefore untill I am reformed I am out of order and out of the way to eternall happiness and in a course leading to eternall misery so that Reformation is a Reducement of the heart and life of man every man that means to be saved to that state and frame of soul and life as is meet for heaven such as unto which God hath promised eternal life And when I perswade you to think on your sins S. 4. and be sad at the heart grieve and lament that you have been so bad by inclination an evil practices and hereupon to leave off all your transgressions and turn to God and holy living then I mean true repentance by reformation when I intreat you to change your evil disposition of heart of your mind and disordered affections and evil actings of your life to live unto God to adhere unto him to serve him in all things to lead a pure and holy life then I mean sound conversion joyned with sanctification by reformation And you must grant S. 5. That sincere repentance and sound conversion is absolutely necessary to Salvation and every one that is come to years must repent and be converted or else he cannot for he shall not be saved CHAP. IV. Of mans state before Reformation implying the necessity of amendment HAving declared what I intend by Reformation S. 1. I shall shew you that such a reformation God requires of thee and every one that means to be saved as absolutely necessary to thy salvation 'T is not a thing indifferent as though it may or may not go well with thy soul whether thou perform it or no but in plain terms be reformed and thou shalt surely be saved be not reformed and thou shalt assuredly be damned and until reformation come on thee thou art no better than a child of wrath a servant of sin and so in a state of enmity against God and consequently under the power of Satan and a subject of his horrid Regiment and a vessel fitted to destruction The first state of mankind you believe was a state of perfection S. 2. God made man upright holy and good without sin or any actuall disorder or deformity and if man had stood to this and continued in his Primitive Integrity there had not needed but adhesion to God to have secured the eternall happiness on man there wanted not Reformation for there yet was no deformation But the unhappy defection that our first Parents made S. 3. brought themselves and mankind unto this day into a dreadfull state of sin and misery and being defiled with sin dishonored disordered and spoiled we are no more to be accounted of but as enemies to God a company of lost and miserable wretches carrying in our very nature the markes of shame and misery and untill restoring grace comes we are but O sad to say the children of wrath being first enemies to God God is become a God lothing but justly lothing us in this state as 't is said * Zach. 11.8 Their soul abhorred me and my soul lothed them †Rom. 3.9 10. for there is none righteous before restoring grace come no not one for all are under sin the power guilt and filth of sin * Ephes 2.2 3. And by nature the children of wrath Now as long as any man is in his naturall estate S. 4. acting according to the disorder of his soul following the sinfull motions and lustings of his own depraved heart he is still under the power of sin and curse of the Law and hath nothing to do with God as a Father nor with heaven as an inheritance sin cuts him off from those relations and continuance in sin debates him quite from any benefit of Christs coming in the flesh onely there is afforded possibillty to be saved through the Commiseration of God toward miserable man and to repair in man what was defaced and to restore by Christ what was lost by Adam And if thou return in time while grace is offered thee S. 5. and Christ is calling thee if thou leave off thy sins and become a new man if thou submit to reformation and dost repent thee of and forsake all thy sins and leadest a new life walking in the commandements of God constantly and sincerely if thou art throughly converted in heart and life thou mayst be saved but otherwise if thou continuest unregenerate and abidest impenitent and art not converted and wilt not be reformed never hope to be saved but in terror and trembling of soul expect to enter into that horrid and black eternity of misery unavoidable unrecoverable when thou art taken by death in thy sins out of this World If you are not yet perswaded of this S. 6. consult these following Texts impartially which render what I say and therefore I affirm it constantly undeniable being the decreed Law of God about this very thing and undoubtedly shall be made good This truth is that we must acquaint you withall S. 7. and this is that I mind you now of from the Lord * Esai 3.10.11 Say unto the righteous it shall goe well with them for they shall eat the fruit of their doings Woe unto the wicked it shall go ill with him for the reward of his hand shall be given him * Ezek. 3.19 If thou warn the wicked and he turn not from his wickedness nor
necessity of reformation I come next and now to acquaint thee with some particular sins S. 1. which to practice and continue in is death and every one if an actuall sinner in any of these doth not speedily repent of and reform and also if thou lovest or likest any of them though not brought forth into act in the outward man yet must be mortified resisted subdued or else there will be no hope for thee of salvation being inconsistent with a gracious frame of soul and saving Christianity Reader S. 2. I would not peremptorily charge thee as guilty of any one damning actuall sin much less of all those any of which is more then enough to render thy state miserable and deplorable but none of them shall actually procure thy damnation if thou heartily repent for leave off and in time ere it be too late in this thy day of continued grace to thee dost reform form by renouncing them all in heart and life withall dost affectionately embrace and actually perform instead of them the contrary virtues which are opposed to the sins thou art guilty of For when a sinner is brought to the knowledg of his faults S. 3. and immediately repents imploring the grace of God for his sincere amendment and withall sets himself against them all and enters without delay upon a course of holy living and continueth in a watchfull observance of his sinfull inclination and checks the motions and prevents the acts of sin in every kind and withall turns to God to think and act that which is pleasing to God and observes to doe his will in every Instance both for avoiding evil and doing good this man is in a happy estate for the present and through Gods grace assisting him in such a course to the end of his life he shall undoubtedly be pardoned and in Christ accepted of justified that is acquitted of the guilt of his former sins and saved eternally But on the contrary if thou reform not but goest on still in thy sins S. 4. repeating the acts when temptation comes and settling the habit of an irregular inordinate disposition and course of ungodliness though mixed with some acts of seeming religion there remaineth no sacrifice effectuall for such an one to expiate his sins or to make an atonement for him nor men nor angels nor Christ himself can doe him any more good no more then for him who hath renounced Ch i st and Christianity and hath proceeded to commit the unpardonable sin but he such an one who ere he be must remain hopeless for ever either to escape the horrors of hell much more is he left without hope of being saved except he repent and change his course in time This being so doth it not concern thee S. 5. and every soul that hath any regard to his own eternall well-being to look into his heart and life that he may know his danger and so if he find himself charged with any sin which to live in is death by the decreed Law of God thou mayest forthwith renounce it and all and turn from it and all that are a kin to it that so thy precious soul may escape the severe stroke which is falling on such a sinner Come then along considerate soul S. 6. and take a veiw of those sins and dispositions of heart that carry with them the black characters of death condemned to the pit of Hell by an unalterable decree and every one that is guilty of them all or any of them and doth not repent and forsake them utterly is the person that must expect to be condemned for living in those sins because he doth not reforme by a speedy hearty and voluntary change of life pray God thou be not he that resolves to continue in them If thou be guilty Consider S. 7. I beseech thee thy case and state and examine well thy self whether these following sins may be charged upon thee or which of them belongs to thee marke them as you goe and read their doom with trembling and never give rest to thy soul untill thou art rid of them by Reformation §. I. Wilfull Ignorance First of all consider is Wilfull Ignorance and unbelief thy case S. 8. if it be thou art a perishing man in this state till saving knowledg and faith come thou art a child of darkness under the power of Sathan if when means of knowledg afforded are neglected when meanes offered are rejected by thee And such is thy state if so it be that after so long living with the meanes of knowledg so much hearing of the word of faith and so much helpes for instruction in the knowledg of God and ways of Godliness if it be so I say that after all this thou art ignorant of the true God and knowest not thy Saviour Christ and upon what account he is thy Saviour and what he is and did to redeem thee and if thou knowest not yet what thou art by nature how hatefull sin is to the Holy God how sin defiles and will ruine the soul if permitted if thou knowest not what it cost Jesus Christ to purchase thy pardon and acceptance with God If thou understandest not the conditions on thy part to make thee capable of the benefits of Christs purchase If thou art yet ignorant of this S. 9. thy State is wofull for t is in thee wilfull thou hast neglected or refused or resisted this knowledg and thy ignorance seeing thou hast the use of thy reason and thy senses is thy sin And because it is about the necessary and weighty things of thy salvation and yet supinely neglected or wilfully refused it is now a contracted superadded guilt and except thou come out of this thy ignorance and labour to know and understand so much of God in Christ and the Holy Ghost at least as is necessary to thy salvation thou canst not be saved For if to know the onely true God John 17.3 and Jesus Christ whom he hath sent be life eternal as Christ hath said then not to know him as he is to be known must needs be death eternall and consider well that the Lord Jesus shall be revealed from heaven with his mighty Angels in flaming fire 2. Thes x. 7 8 9. taking vengeance on them that KNOW NOT God and that obey not the Gospell of our Lord Jesus Christ and mark the dreadfull allotment for such ignorant persons in the 9. verse Who shall be punished with everlasting destruction from the presence of the Lord Prov. 5.12 13 23. Eph. 3.18 Hos 4.6 Esay 27.11 Psal 95.10 11. 2 Cor. 4.3 4. and the glory of his power Read also these Scriptures in the margent if you would have more proofs of the danger of wilfull ignorance If our Gospell be hid it is hid to them that are lost they are lost who are ignorant of the contents of the Gospell §. II. Infidelity Is Infidelity and unbelief thy condition S.
the name and maintained in heart and practice with an opinion that they will be accounted of as lesser irregularities deviations humane frailties and infirmities for men are pleased to think they may live in sins of infirmities safely and laudably and therefore are willing to believe that all their omissions of good duties and commissions of evil works are but as so many infirmities and easily pardoned without either forsaking them or striving against them or repenting of them But say the best thou canst of thy infirmities S. 6. either natural or moral either thy inclination and propension of nature to evil or slipping into a fault through a sudden surprisal and violent temptation or ignorance and inconsiderateness or suppose they be onely the defects in our duty as wandring thoughts sometimes dulness drowsiness and weariness in our service of God or thy backwardness to every good work thy want of proportionable zeal for Gods glory and the Church Or grant it to be but weakness of judgment S. 7. erroneous opinions though but in lesser truths or thy knowing not nor searching after thy secret sins be it but a sudden eruption of passion into anger and shrewd words or desires after forbidden and unlawfull objects or immoderate desires after things lawfull in themselves yet all these and all other infirmities to speak the most favourably of them are the disease sickness and disorders of the soul and ought to be the matter of our sorrow and humiliation and must be confessed to God in the enumeration of our sins and pardon must be begged in Christs name for his sake for them and except thy soul be humbled for all thy secret sins and all thy infirmities if not in every instance yet in the whole summe and thy labour and watchfulness be for the suppressing of their rise and preventing their reign as much as possible yea even they so little as they seem to thee they will prove mortal at the last and thy plea of Infirmity will not serve thy turn except thy sins of infirmities be pardoned and they will not be pardoned any more then greater sins but upon thy repentance and that which far greater offences could not doe if repented of in time and forsaken in heart and practice that these sins of infirmities will doe if not repented of in time and amended to what degree is possible for thee even these will procure thy damnation at the last Now concerning all those sins which the vulgar sort of men who pretend to Christianity account either no sins at all S. 8. or very lightly of them as small and inconsidérable yet by a long custome and frequent repetition are become habituall and so very sinfull and so very destructive and besides men that think them so small and innocent seldome if ever charge them upon their souls as sins to be grieved at repented of and amended when they examine their lives and actions as to other sins which are noted with a blacker character by reason of which neglect those smaller sins are let alone unmortified and men goe to their graves with impenitency as to those sins which will sink a man as deep into the gulf of misery and drown the soul in destruction and perdition and if they be but foolish lusts yet they are thus hurtfull to the soul 1 Tim. 6.9 To instance in some things of this kind for thy fuller conviction § I. Evil motions of lust the taint and corruption in nature There are in every mans nature the seeds of all evil S. 9. Gen. 6.5 Mat. 15.19 20. Jam. 1.14 15. Col. 3.5 which are the beginnings of all actuall sins mans nature is tainted and corrupted naughty Concupiscences and lusts are born with us which are defiling and corrupting the whole man the heart of man is full of them and in their first motions they are sins even that proneness inclination to evil and aversness and indisposedness to good which is in thee which thou mayst and must take notice of as a matter of sorrow and complaint against thy self as it is thy unhappiness and misery so it is thy sin and thy death and such a disease it is that if not healed and pardoned in thee by regeneration will leave thee under wrath and the curse Gal. 3.22 Rom. 5.12 Psam 51.5 Rom. 7.5 This that I mean is that which is understood by the name of Originall sin that is the corruption of humane nature by the sin of our first parents propagated to the whole kind of Adams race and posterity which is every man and woman as they receive life and birth these motions of sins doe work in our members to bring forth fruit unto death Now though this be every mans case S. 10. scarce any man makes it his own particular grief men make light of it and are so far from watching over and resisting the first motions and lustings after evil things and mortifying these corruptions that they are most apt to plead it by way of excuse for their faults and actuall transgressions which are the issues and effects of this corruption and lust from within But if ever thou hopest to be savingly reformed S. 11. this old man which is corrupt according to the deceitfull lusts must be put off that is must not be served nor yeilded unto but resisted and prayed against and indeed for my part had I no other sin that might be laid to my charge yet I find this inbred wickedness this naturall proneness to evil so exceeding sinfull that I should account it a choice mercy to be quite rid of it and 't is for this I have cause to hang the head and mourn and 't is that the moving corruptions may be quite destroyed and mortified in me is the prayer and care of my poor soul for my joy cannot be full untill my enemies that is my sins both root and branch seed and fruit be plucked up and withered and untill Christ alone his grace and vertues be formed in my soul and triumph in my conversation O doe not make light of that which put thee under the wrath of God and power of Satan S. 12. that may not be slighted by thee which is in thee the cause and originall of all sins that set the whole man upon evil the cause of all disorder and confusion every where in thee and every where in the world in a word 't is exceeding sinfull all evils lie folded up in thy original concupiscence Take heed therefore and take a special view and measure of this thy sin S. 13. and because thy flesh will never be weary in it's sinfull motions then be thou never weary nor give over resisting these lusts in thy self weakening this body of sin and hinder the progress of it and if thou canst not get it quite discharged suffer it not what ere it cost thee to reign in thee or prevail over thee listen not to lusts solicitations entertain
mindfull of them and be watchfull over thy inward outward self every hour in every place and action as thou ever hopest to avoid sin to keep thy self pure and to please God for Jude the 8th verse speaks of Filthy dreamers who defile the flesh c. §. VII Worldly Joy and Sorrow I intreat likewise you would be warned about your joys and griefs S. 34. for as they are more or less about worldly concernments so are they more or less sinfull 'T is true we the best of us are but men at the best and easily are we surprised we have these passions in our nature and of themselves are not sinfull but our failings are about their measures and their objects and the more our delights are in the fruition of the object according to the value and esteem we have of the thing so the more is our sorrow arising from the want of or parting with our beloved whatever it be And this may be sometimes good and gracious according to the sense apprehension we have of good things S. 35. to wit to rejoyce exceedingly and delight much in the presence and fruition of God and grace his word and religious duties and hopes of heaven after an holy life here it is good and a duty as also to grieve much and sorrow heartily for the absence of grace or breach of covenant and faith with God to be grieved at the heart for sin committed or interruption of communion with God by failings in our duties of Religion c. this I say is godly joy and godly sorrow and needs not to be repented of but commonly this is not the kind of that joy delight sorrow and perplexity which men and women are so much in alas it is otherwise indeed 't is sinfull too much for it is worldly too much yet how few take notice of their joys and griefs whether they be sinfull or holy hurtfull or profitable to their souls To be a worldling is to be a sinner S. 36. he can never joy or grieve much about worldly concernments but he must be one that loves and prizes earthly things beyond their proportion irregularly and sinfully Godly sorrow worketh Repentance to salvation not be repented of 2 Cor. 7.10 but the sorrow of the world worketh death So to delight rejoyce and glory in the Lord is good and pleasing to God but to set ones heart upon riches honors and pleasures and to rejoyce in any of these is a sin and such a joy should be turned into heaviness and such laughter into mourning Jam. 4.9 If thy joy and grief lie about worldly things and trifles S. 37. if thou hast more comfort in a good bargain or a friends legacy or some worldly emoluments then in the favour of God then in the pardon of thy sins then in the means of salvation then art thou yet in fault And if thou canst grieve and lament with tears the loss or disappointment of some benefit or the unkindness of a friend or the crossness of an enemy or chaines of a tyrant c. and yet canst not sorrow for thy sins the loss of Gods favour nor of missing an opportunity of grace and communion with God then thy joys and sorrows are worldly and sinfull and you must not permit such worldly joys and sorrows to prevail but you must repent for them and leave off to spend your comforts and your griefs this way and look to that you should rejoyce in and lament for as afore hath been shewed And as for all other outward things S. 38. our rejoycing or grieving should not be much or lasting labour therefore to reform these passions and set them right and this you will doe if you desire to be sincere upright and complete in the reformation And the like doe I advise you to doe about your impatiencie and discontent S. 39. frettings and perplexities about these worldly temporary vain perishing things as also with your carking carefulness your thoughtfullnesse and distrustfulness about earthly things to reform in each of these for all such dispositions are evil and hurtfull both to soul and body wounding your own souls and tranquillity of spirit and reputation of Christianity and doth much hinder the progress and increase of grace and heavenly conversation and all our affections about earthly things regulated so that it may be with us as to our taking pleasure in worldly vanities or confidence and relying as our happiness or chief support that once we may be able to say truly with St. Paul I account of all things as dung and dross in comparison of the things of Christ and heaven And to this must we come ere we be complete in Christ and throughly changed in all our affections to a state wherein we may truly and freely say without dissimulation or constraint say Truly the world is crucified unto me and I unto the world these worldly concernments move me not much any way I see nothing here below as things below that deserve either my joy in their possession or grief for their absence nothing that I need be troubled much about or that I should relie upon or put any trust at all in for all are flying and lying vanities therefore doe I labour for and seek the things above and my treasures are with Christ in heaven there also is my heart and thither will I goe for my comforts and my grief is that I am not more in love with them and less in love with the world and troubles of spirit about them That each of us may say S. 40. in obedience to that command 1 John 2.15 I love not the world neither the things that are in the world because I would not lose the love of my heavenly Father For all that is in the world the lust of the flesh the lusts of the eyes and the pride of life i.e. worldly pleasures or pelfe or pomp which are not of God nor for his children and servants to look after for they and this world pass away 1 Jo. 2 15 16 17. but he that doth the will of God abideth for ever And as I doe urge and press thee to be carefull and watchfull over your spirits in those forementioned qualities and actings of your souls about those things which although they may seem frivolous niceties to men that judge not of things spiritually but according to sence and common apprehensions yet I earnestly intreat thee as thou hopest for pardon grace and heaven at last that thou wouldst reform them all in every instance for untill you doe you are not a true sincere reformed convert for though they be esteemed but small things and inevitable infirmities yet their account will be numerous at last and their burthen intolerable they will if not pardoned sink thy soul as low as hell pardoned they will not be except thou repent of them and labour against them to a reformation of them all for
ignorance God did wink at and did bear with your follies then yet now he commands thee and all men every where to repent Act. 17.30 31. because he hath appointed a day wherein he will judge the world in righteousnesse 2 ly I have quoted Scriptures in the margent S. 4. 2. Rea. and annexed them to every particular sin because you maybe fully convinced of the infallibility of the execution of Gods decree of reprobation and damnation on thee and every man and woman living in such a state without repentance and reformation that so neither thou nor any sinner may presume of salvation at the end of a sinfull impenitent and unreformed life but that thou mayst utterly despair of salvation without sound and timely reformation and this consideration also may serve to hasten thy resolution and to use all meanes appointed of God to rid thee of thy sins and become a new man which is absolutely necessary for thee if thou meanest to be saved eternally 3 ly I do also perswade you to a reformation in every instance S. 5. 3 Rea. and to repent of every sin and amend every fault upon sure grounds because you may see there is no impossibility but that you may of a sinner if you look to it in time become a true convert and be turned from darkness to light and be brought from the dominion of sin and Satan to be under the rule and guidance of Christ and grace and so be sanctified pardoned justified and at last glorified this I say I perswade thee to by such discoveries as the glorious good God hath made concerning his acceptation of true penitents and converts Because thou mightest been couraged to this reformation without delay and to keep thee from sinking into a despair of Gods mercy in Christ pardoning thy sins past upon thy sound repentance and sincere reformation and this consideration also may raise thy hopes and expectation that thou shalt yet find grace and mercy from the Lord to relieve thee and help thee in thy misery and give thee a full conquest over thy spirituall enemies through Christ and deliver thee from all thy sins into the hand and protection of JESUS CHRIST who will keep thee safe and bring thee to heaven if thou apply thy heart in good earnest to this work of self-reformation and perseverest in the same unto the end For if there were no hope but he that hath been vicious must of necessity be always so why then should there be given any meanes for thy recovery why should God send to thee invite thee intreat thee rebuke thee expostulate with thee as he doth by his Ministry word and Spirit if God did not mean to reclaim thee that he might pardon thee and save thee why hath he appointed repentance for thy work and space for thy repentance but that thou mightest finish thy reformation And why so many promises for thy support of mercy for guidance victory acceptation and pardon if God meant not to deal graciously with thee this way upon thy endeavours at reformation 4 ly And I have hitherto been perswading thee concerning every sin S. 6. to repent speedily and leave off that thy sin be it whatever great or small without delay Because impenitency is a cursed estate in it self Rea. 1. though thy sin of which thou art guilty be pardonable upon thy repentance yet thy impenitency for the least sin thou knowest in thy self is unpardonable and that which all the sins specified could not effect if they had been repented of in time and forsaken this one sin of wilfull impenitency will undoubtedly effect viz. thy damnation for damnation though it be not to sins absolutely the smallest of them yet absolutely to all impenitent sinners Christ hath secured the salvation of that sinner who exerciseth faith in him S. 7. and repentance from dead works by his life death resurrection and intercession But he did not die nor doth he intercede nor is he a propitiation for to save impenitents and unbelievers as such they living and dying impenitent and unconverted And therefore the earnestness of thy Monitor with thee to be speedy in this work is such for that thy continuance in any sin argues thy unwillingness to forsake it and thy delaying and deferring repentance is nothing lesse then a flat denial to reform and amend untill thou canst sin no longer nor live any longer to sin and then thou wilt either miss of the will to repent thee or of sufficient time or because forced from the apprehensions of terror it will not be accepted and then alas where art thou And this consideration if it be serious S. 8. would conclude in this resolution I will put off no longer I l'e not deferre till to morrow for if I die ere my conversion be wrought and if sickness and death seise on me in an impenitent state what will become of me I am resolved to begin now and to renew again what once I began and will not sleep eat drink or take any comfort in any thing untill I am in a mending case untill my soul and sin be at odds I le stay no longer here with this and that sin nor will I consent that any sin shall lodge with me henceforth for ever lest mischeif and a snare death and destruction over take me and I lie down in sorrow For I have been and am a great sinner S. 9. perverse and obstinate in my courses and too long already have I been so and I despair of mercy pardon and heaven while I continue in a state of voluntary sinning unconverted and unreformed in heart and life But I see there is hope how bad so ever I have been yet I may be reclaimed and if in time I do repent heartily and renounce all my wicked ways and lay hold on Christ and live the rest of my days soberly righteously and holily I may find mercy and partake of an happy eternity of glory I am resolved therefore now even this moment to put in practise that which I have been long a purposing even to bid farewell to all my sinfull pleasures and profits to all my vanity and folly and do now forsake the sinfull full world the flesh and the devil and will no longer be befooled by my lusts the world nor Satan to the loss of my soul for all the present seeming content and advantage may come to me by living in sin or complying with sinners Mat. 16.26 For what will it profit me though I gain the world by sinning and lose my soul for sinning What shall a man do for another soul to save when he hath damand or lost this one by sinning What shall I do to be saved then at last if now I refuse to doe that which God is pleased to demand of me as a condition and in my power through grace which is to repent and to turn from all my iniquities so sin shall not be my ruine Alas
S. 19. and give a check to his corruptions and first motions of lust must make his sins as heinous to his own view as they are in their own nature if he can for a man accustomed to sin will not be soon taken off nor daunted with it neither will he be brought to dislike much less to detest that way and practice wherein he hath found any thing of fleshly content or in which he is engaged unless he sees something that may change his mind and alter his course from evil to good There is a close confederacie between a natural mans heart and his sin that the league and cursed amity is not interrupted but by violence and that but for a season neither sin though it be banished will return again with its solicitations and promises the heart of man unregenerate is as ready open to receive and embrace those former motions and doth as easily do those acts of folly again and doth more greedily pursue the satisfaction of lusts desires if not hindred then ever and the reason that there are so few true converts and so many notorious sinners is because men either content themselves with a cessation for some little time that is while the temptation is at a distance and their opportunities not so frequent or some humane restraint either their laws their fear or their favours do awe them or because men doe not soberly consider why they should lothe their sin and detest it no man will be disswaded from that which is evil except he see evil in that thing he is disswaded from And now truly in every sin thou art guilty of there is so much evil S. 20. that a serious considerate soul would chuse to lie under the greatest affliction without sin rather then to commit the least sin to escape that temporary affliction or to gain by sinning all the advantages this world can procure to the flesh The want of the consideration of the heinousness of sin S. 21. Plas 51. was the occasion that let that good man David loose to a sin which afterward cost him many a salt tear and it was well for him he found place for repentance a melting heart and a weeping eye or else his sin had cost him dear had it not been pardoned upon his repentance Against thee onely have I sinned and done this evil in thy sight which if he had considered before as afterward he did he had not fallen into that which was so hard for him to get out of And on the other side the consideration of sin as sin notwithstanding the advantage might have accrued thereby was the occasion that Joseph withstood the solicitation of his Mistress to an experiment of folly namely with this Gen. 39.9 How can I doe this great wickedness and sin against-God and this consideration kept him from that act of folly which otherwise he might have committed to his wounding and endangering Now that you may no longer retain any the least love and liking of your sin whatever it be S. 22. Job 11.14 but forthwith renounce and cast it far from thee And if iniquity be in thine hand to put it away and never more let wickedness dwell in thy tabernacle then enter on these following considerations First S. 23. 1. I consider and so likewise doe you that sin in its self when it was first known by the creatures angels and men and by any of either of those two kinds of creatures committed and acted became the greatest downfall of each of those Actors as ever since and never before they became sinners was heard of Sin at the first made the first and great breach between God and sinning Angells God and sinning men Man had not known misery but for sin and the miseries and calamities and natural death of mankind are not half so dreadfull as sin is nor half so much evil as sin is and the devils had not felt torment and now their unspeakable misery but for their sin nay hell had not been hell a place of torment had it not been for sinners which was prepared and prepared onely for sinning angells and sinning men and all the Miseries that have befallen any since the creation or that ever shall be inflicted upon any are but the wofull consequences of sin the first and single transgression of a law of God and that by the most choise of the creation and by their single act and being but once committed there fell on them the immediate curse and misery which to this day and to the end of the world and will for ever continue as long as sin is sin and that will be for ever For Christ himself never undertook to abrogate the law of God nor to make it a law that transgression of those laws should be no sin nor that transgressors should be accounted innocent when they sin by disobedience and transgression nor that they should be approved of by God and saved eternally in a way of disobedience that is in a way of habituall and actuall rebellion against God Now when I consider the venome and perniciousness of sin in its first infection S. 24. and in one single act that it defiled and destroyed by rendering them for ever most miserable so great a number of once most glorious and happy angels that sinned but once before their fall and the first sin that ever was committed yet for that once sinning were cast down in disgrace presently from heaven and of glorious angels made wretched devills and reserved in chaines of darkness 2 Pet. 2.4 Jude v. 6. never to be restored upon any termes to the least hope of recovery and reconciliation with God Yet again when I consider that for one sin in our first parents S. 25. Adam and Eve which came upon them by the instigation and cheat of Satan in the time of their pure innocency and integrity what an hereditary misery it brought with it yea such an infection and pollution that not onely they which transgressed became miserable slaves wretched persons deprived of their excellency and paradise but even all the whole race of mankind are fallen under the misery of pollution in our very nature and thereby in a state of wrath and liable to eternal misery can I when I consider this the wofull consequences of one sin in such as those once glorious angels and these once most happy men chuse but I must entertain most dreadfull apprehensions of the nature of sin and flee from it and lotheit as a poisonous serpent and fiery dragon issuing out of the bottomless pit of hell pursuing thy soul to the death and destruction 2ly I consider the exceeding sinfulness of sin S. 26. and I think with Abhorrency of soul on that venome in it and detestableness that when the immaculate most innocent sinlesse lamb the holy and ever-blessed JESUS took mans nature and undertook to expiate the guilt and to satisfie the justice of God and to
break one but one of these least commandements Mat. 5.19 the least of them he shall be called the least in the kingdome of heaven that is he shall be despised and rejected by God in the day of judgment and cast out as an offender and rebell be it but rash anger of malicious design or looking on a woman lustfully though it proceed not to actual murder or adultery though it seem but small while in the first motions of lust yet 't is a breach of the spiritual law of God and I am a sinner and a rebell if I so continue in these seeming little faults I am exempted from pardon for in every single sin there is a complicated viciousness and an accumulated treason and that is enough to bring me to condign punishment and if one of my sins will be strong enough to wound me and slay me and hath malice enough to attempt it how then can I be safe how can I think to escape and deliver my soul while I keep my sin and act my folly S. 33. For I may consider that every single sin hath these in it common with the whole kind of every sin I either love or act and the more I practice and the more frequently I commit it the more hainous is my sin and I by every single act of every of them adde more to the measure and heap of wrath and in each act of the same sin or addition of a new sin the more rods and scourges are treasuring up for my finall chastisement and eternal punishment 4ly For this I consider S. 34. that the least sin that can be named be it but the sin of a vain word an irregular thought an impertinent and unprofitable action is able to undoe and overthrow millions of angels and a world of men if laid and charged on them and the reason is because of that poyson that is in it and 't is enough that it is sin and whatever hath the nature thereof is insupportable by any or all the concurrent strength of angels and men Now if I have but the least exercise of my reason or religion S. 35. how can I contentedly keep my sin how can I but I must forthwith renounce suppresse and cast quite away my sins be they great or small many or few For first when I shall seriously consider these following things 1. I consider that every sin is against God and every time I sin I fight against God and use it as my weapon with which I oppose resist offend contradict the GLORIOUS MAJESTIE of my gracious God that 't is a contrariety against him 1. To the holy nature of God S. 36. sin is set forth in Scripture and that doth shew the maliciousness and exceeding desperateness of it where sin is termed a Rom. 8.7 enmity against God b Act. 7.51 resisting the holy Ghost c Act 5.39 fighting against God and sinners are said while in their sins to walk d Levit. 26.21 28. contrary to God and e Isai 45.9 striving against God yea rising up in f Micah 2.8 rebellion against God And all these are expressions which demonstrate the nature of sin in the root and every branch and spring of the tree is of the same venomous quality in its measure and proportion and can any man think well of that which sets him against the glorious God and renders me an enemy to God and provoketh Gods displeasure against me Wo unto that soul that striveth with his maker Isai 45.9 how can the pot-sheard prevail against his maker how can chaffe stand before the wind how can a bramble withstand the fire 2. Sin is against the holy and righteous laws of God S. 37. and by my sin I go about to evacuate and null the just and holy laws of God made to rule us by and when I sin I do in effect say I will not be ruled by those laws of God nor obey the will of God but I will resist his will and break his commands and will not have God for my God to reign over me but follow my own will the will of the flesh and obey the devill and his commands will I follow whatever the issue may be and what a damnable resolution is this yea what a desperate conclusion what wofull and dreadfull consequences will my sinning bring upon my soul if thus I set my self act against the commands of God which one day will be justified against me vile sinner 3. My continuance in sin S. 38. in any sin is contrary to that most gracious design and purpose of God by which he willeth my freedome from the dominion filth and guilt of my sin and to put me in a state of holiness and happiness 1. God sent Christ his dear Son into the world on this design and on this errand he came and for this he spent his precious blood and laid down his life to redeeme me from my sins to be a sacrifice for me to destroy the work of the devil in me to wit my sin to slay that enmity in my cursed nature to abolish sin to rid me of my sin to make me a new creature to purge out the old leaven to separate me and my sin he gave himself for me to redeem me from all iniquity and to purifie me Tit. 2.12 14. and make me holy to teach me this lesson by his holy life and holy doctrine to avoid sin to resist temptations to live spotless in the world to renounce all ungodliness to call me to repentance for all my sins past and to lead a sober righteous and godly life in this present world and by his meritorious life and death hath procured this grace for me that through him I might be able to crucifie all my corruptions overcome all my sins and free me from every damning practise and so reconciling me to God and to turn my enmity against God to a harred of every false unholy disobedient way and practise and to be at peace with God And doe I not by my continuing in my sin frustrate this mercifull design and render my blessed Saviour undertaking and his great expence of no such great effect to me do not I while I keep my sin and act my shame and misery put a scorn upon Christs undertakings and trample his precious blood one drop of it being more worth then mountains of gold and precious stones 1 Pet. 1.19 Heb. 10.27 under foot as an unholy thing as a thing not effectual to redeem me from my vain conversation do I not by my continuance after all this in my sin render my self in such a state in which there is nothing can be expected less then a certain fearfull looking for of judgment see it plain Heb. 10.26 If we sin wilfully after we have received the knowledge of the truth there remaines no more sacrifice for sins but a certain fearfull looking for of judgment and
fiery indignation which shall devour the adversary c. 2. My continuance in my sin is contrary to the gracious design of the Gospel and ministry of it which is appointed of mercy to my soul and to this end published to thee Act. 26.20 that it might be the happy instrument of thy conversion and to work thee off from thy sin and to perswade thee to let thy sins go and to build thee up in a most holy faith and life Act. 20.21 to turn me from sin to God from darkness to light from the power of Satan to God And what are all those calls intreaties S. 40. invitations wooings complainings menaces promises in the Gospel-administrations and all the labours watchings prayings and preachings and studies and teares and admonitions and warnings and to what end are sermons and sabbaths and sacraments for me why doth God rebuke and correct and inflict punishments upon sinners what are all these from the gracious God to me but so many varieties of arguments and so many importunities and instruments for this very end that I might leave off and cease to doe evil and learn to doe well to what purpose is all this cost but to bring my soul my life and sin asunder what is it for but this to cause me to leave and forsake that which God hates perfectly and that will undoe me certainly if kept 't is to perswade me to yeild to do no more any such act as God hates O doe not the thing that I hate saith God by all these his dispensations and that is the upshot of all Now while I continue in any sin what do I any less then cross the design of God by these means S. 41. and so render my self inexcusable and oppose God in Christ and resist the Spirit of God in his word working and endeavouring by all means my conversion what am I less injurious to Gods grace and Christs love by my obstinacie and wilfullness then they of this sort which our Saviour speaks to in tears Luke 13.34 Luke 19.42 How often would I have gathered thee as a hen doth her chickens under her wings but ye would not O that thou hadst known even thou in this thy day and by these thy means the things that belong unto thy peace but now they are hid from thine eyes thou knewest not the time of mercies visitation but crossest the gracious design of thy invitation thou wilt not leave thy sin and now mercy is hid from thee and so my continuance in sin is a meer contradiction to my pardon and forgiveness you see O how should this consideration cut me to the bone S. 42. and pierce me to the heart when my continuing in sin is no less then the opposing the grace of God Its design is to bring me to repentance and forsaking sin that I might find mercy and favour from him who but a mad man or a fool would continue in his sin against such grace and so cross that design of God to bring thee poor wretch to happiness I consider that as my sin is against God S. 43. for 't is a pollution and so against his most holy nature which hath no defilement and 't is against his holy laws his good will purpose and gracious designs and makes the sinner and God at great dispute and controversie which is a state bad enough for a poor wicked wretch to be in yet I may further consider that my sin is against God and so bad enough though God notwithstanding my enmity and contrariety can well enough secure his own honour holiness and eternal happiness without impeachment or the least interruption or diminution yet 't is bad enough to me that I by my sin am become an enemy to God and God an enemy to me which is death and misery sure enough to the sinner I may further consider that as often as I sin I offer violence to my own soul my sin is against my own self it is the greatest wrong and injury I can do to my self and if I had any true love to my self that is to the eternal welfare of my best self my soul Pro. 8.36 I should forbear sinning He that sinneth against me that is against Christ wrongeth his own soul all they that hate me love death If I live in sin and will not repent of it and forbear it I work the greatest mischief I can against my self sinning is self-murthering I lay violent hands on my self if I would study to ruine my self for ever there is no way imaginable like this now mentioned of sinning and repeating the acts and continuing in any sinfull course to effect my utter destruction every sin is a deaths-wound although it kill me not our-right yet it leaves me for dead I am a condemned man I am dead in law and dead as to the acting any life of grace it may be I may have for a little while a name to live but indeed I am dead dead while I live in the world Such an one a sinner is as the Angel of the Church of Sardis reproveth Rev. 3.1 I know thy workes that thou hast a name that thou livest and art dead When I commit a sin S. 44. I consider I doe that which for ought I know I may neither have the grace nor the space to repent of I may forget it I may make light of it or I may excuse it or defend it or maintain it I may be hardened in it and adde more to it and draw others to countenance and practise my sin and so still infect another with my plague and become an exemplar and promoter of wickedness and teach others to sin too and propagate iniquity and bring subjects to the devill and enlarge his kingdome O what an innumerable many of mischiefs do I bring upon my self and others when I sin And after all this if I do seem to be sorry for my so doing at the end of a vicious life I can have none assurance that I shall be pardoned but on the contrary most certain it is if I continue in my sin untill death I must be damned for all my repentance for Judas sinned and repented and despaired and was damned for all his repentance his sin for which he was accused and for which he hanged himself was but a sin and my transgression is a sin too and if Judas or Cain or a Simon Magus or a Julian be damned for their sins what advantage will it be for me if my sin be not so deep a dye so grim a complexion so horrid a sound as treasons and murder a betraying my Master and killing my Brother if I be cast into hell for my omissions of Gods commands and doing such things though but in the least instance which God hath absolutely forbidden When I consider this methinks I should dread sin as an ugly fiend as a devill of hell and shun it as a pest and a
them my enemies which yet is bad enough God knows for me but I also sin away and lose by sinning my felicity my comforts my peace my happiness all my heaven on earth Alas what a poor miserable uncomfortable creature is a resolved sinner what is a man worth that hath lost the rich enjoyment of Gods favour and his own good conscience what an hell of darkness and horror is that soul in who hath lost the light of Gods countenance and peace of his own conscience Many sorrows shall be to the wicked but he that trusteth in the Lord mercy shall compass him about so that the righteous and upright of heart the holy penitent may be glad in the Lord and take joy and delight themselves in the Lord he and he onely that is reformed hath those comforts and delights which wicked men know not nor can ever attain unto as long as they continue wicked David though a great and potent Monarch found not that happiness in his crown which the world may think to be a felicity S. 59. He doth not say I am a King and have many subjects at my command and a large dominion and much revenue Psal 4.6 7 8. and therefore am happy no but when he would comfort his soul and recount his worth and treasures saith Lord lift thou up the light of thy countenance upon us give David but Gods favour and love and he will single out him from all to make his joy full and his happiness complete Lord thou hast put gladness in my heart more then in the time when their corn and wine was increased I will lay me down in peace c. how comfortably doth he take to his rest when he lyes down in Gods favour And had he kept his sin he had lost his peace and happinesse for you may see a glimpse of the sadnesse of his soul and unquietness in that 51. Psalm when he cryes out O his sin his sin Why David what hast thou done by sining what damage hath fallen on thee by thy sin why you shall see he lost his peace he lost the presence of Gods favour and by this his onely comfort and felicity he had lost The best Jewel in his Crown was dropt out when he lost Gods favour he cryes heartily for mercy the mercy of pardon the mercy of purification and cleaning from the filth of his sin the mercy of his restauration to those joys comforts and happiness he had in Gods favour which then were hid from him which was his misery Purge me and I shall be clean cleanse me from my sin and I shall have joy and gladness again Restore unto me the joy of thy salvation once more See how he mourns and prays and for what is it why t is that his sins may be abolished his guilt pardoned and his comforts restored which he had lost by his folly and which could never be restored but by repentance and leaving off his sin and untill this was gotten he knew he could never see happy day nor enjoy a minute of true comfort in all the world though it had been one paradise of pleasure And thus it will be with every one that goeth on in his sin Ah! at what a loss doth a sinner act and keep his sin And this is my case already and shortly it will be worse with me I know God and my Conscience will not long hold peace and be silent I am sure I must leave my sin or lose my comforts lose my quiet lose my felicity and espouse a quarrel that will admit of no reconciliation if I keep my sins I must never look God in the face more or expect to have the least good look of favour from his grace nor any friendly dealing from my own conscience but must be under perpetuall rebukes and accusations of a wronged conscience and when this comes to pass then farewell happy day no more comfort when God and my own conscience are against me As my sins increase true felicity ceaseth and my comforts wither and decay and alas how sadly doth that poor wretch think on death when it will prove but the execution of a rebell and a changing of this miserable life for an eternity of horror and reproch Ah! let me now consider whether my gain by sin any way will countervail this loss is it not more eligible and should it not be a matter of my choice infinitely rather to enjoy the favour of God and peace and tranquillity of my own conscience then whatever pleasure gain or other emolument might come to my flesh by sinning with the loss of my innocency integrity my happiness in Gods favour and that inward peace which is a continuall feast passing all outward delights whatsoever 3. Sin doth not onely banish God and happiness from my soul here for a season S. 60. but the loss goeth higher still by my sin and continuance in it it loseth me the hopes of heaven it disappointeth my expectation of heaven how can I once hope to be saved while I practise those things which would throw me out of Heaven if it were possible for one to think on with delight in heaven how can I with reason conclude I shall be saved and yet live in a course contrary to the promises of salvation Heaven is a place of holiness as well as of happiness and no unclean thing shall enter into it there is not one there nor ever shall be that lived in actuall sin and died out of this world impenitent and unreformed how then can I with any face expect to be saved with my sin when God saith I shall not is heaven at my dispose or at Gods is it not his to give to whom he please can I force in against his will hath he not passed his word that no wicked man nor unrighteous nor adulterers nor whoremonger nor theif nor drunkard nor liar nor any impenitent sinner of any kind shall inherit the kingdome of heaven And shall I think God will revoke his decree and comply with the expectation of any vile sinner against his own truth honour and holiness may I hope to get to heaven whether God will or no no certainly I must leave my sin or leave off to hope any more that I shall be saved I must despair of salvation or I must depart from mine iniquity and get my sins pardoned and soul sanctified by a timely repentance and sound reformation or quit my claim to salvation and let fall my suit and expectation though I seek it beg for it desire it cry for it in my setled course of sinning I shall not find it nor attain it nay though I had to give and would freely give all I have Micah 6.7 8. and ten thousand times more then the whole world is worth to purchase heaven at the end of a vitious life it would not be accounted of it would not open heaven-gate to me it could not procure for me one glimpse
forsaking and casting off all thy transgressions without any further delay To day Heb. 4.7 while it is said to day after so long a time if you will hear his voice harden not your hearts For be the work hard or be it easie done it must be there is a necessity for it sin must be left corruption must be mortified and your life must be reformed ere you die and the present opportunity is the fittest opportunity if not the onely acceptable day And if you are still about to amend and intending to reform and yet do it not but rest in thy almost being resolved and about being resolved you do but flatter your self and lose your time and give sin the head and suffer corruption to take deep root and every days deferring gives God the denial who calls to day and renders the duty more difficult and thy self more sinfull and religion more unpleasing and makes grace more feeble and ineffectual and so putting off from day to day shortly death will come which will not be put off and thy work undone thy sins not left thy lusts unsubdued thy God offended thy soul wronged thy sorrows drawing neer thy appearance in judgment at hand and thou all this while a guilty unholy impure soul summoned to answer for all thy delays and thou then sentenced to misery for thy neglecting thy day of grace and putting away far from thee thy reformation which a long time thou hadst been convinced to be necessary and it may be hast been about it and about it but hast not endeavoured it effectually This is the case of too many and if it be thy case then my earnest request is that you would speed your reformation that it may be effected before you die I am sure it will doe you no harm to leave off your sensuall devilish courses and that speedily too unless it hurt you to be pardoned cleansed and eternally saved and certainly this can be no wrong unto thee to perswade thee to desist from doing such things which to do and continue in is not only thy shame and loss but thy undoing for ever be serious then in what further is offered in the following chapter for thy consideration to hasten thy reformation and to silence all objections to the contrary CHAP. X. Of some more moving thoughts which may help and draw a poor sinner to speedy resolution without further delay HAving in the foregoing Chapter shewn both the odiousness and miserable consequences of sin S. 71. and dreadfull expectation of a man going on in his wickedness I would now in this Chapter mind the sinner of what behoves him to do in the case in answer to the mercifull forbearing long-suffering and goodness of God which leads to repentance that so Gods lengthened-out patience toward thee a sinner to this time of thy life may no longer be abused by thy continuing any whit longer in thy sins which mercy will be wronged and affronted by thee if after all this forbearance accompanied with so many testimonies against sin and so many gracious calls and invitations to return from thy evil doings to serve the living God in new obedience if thou shouldst persevere and go on still in thy evil ways any further after such convictions how would it aggravate thy sins and heighten thy misery Therefore I would perswade thee to do that speedily which all wise men have done even now thou knowest thy faults to amend thy faults without putting off or objecting against thy speedy reformation Say I have the corruptions of my nature to be mortified my diseases to be healed the power of my lusts to be conquered the image of God to be repaired my sinfull practises to be amended many Acts of grace to be performed many temptations to be resisted and disappointed this present world with all its blandishments to be crucified this heart of mine must be brought to love Christ above all and all this cannot be done in a moment and then shall I put it off any longer have I any time to spend idlely or vainly any more that I can well spare from such imployments as these are to squander away about other foolish matters having so much to do of my own work yea say further I thought on my ways and I am resolved to turn from all my evil courses and I will make hast and not delay to keep thy Commandements Thus did that true penitent David recorded for thy imitation in this point Psal 119.58 60. who saith I thought on my ways and turned my feet unto thy commandements I made hast and delayed not to keep thy commandements Now let me consider First S. 72.1 and why should not I do so also is not my soul as dear to me as his to him am not I as much engaged to Christ as he will not my sins undoe me as much as his would him do I not as much need reformation as any body if I am not already reformed or can I turn too soon may I fear of being too good a Christian too much a convert too much holy May I not rather have cause to fear that if I do not reform now forthwith it may be too late hereafter S. 73. I may not have space Deus poenitentibus veniam promisit sed omnibus paenitendi tempus non concessit Greg. or if I have I may not have the grace to repent and may I not be jealous having so much to do in the business of my soul that I shall not have time enough to do all my work There is no too much of that of which there can never be enough and I have heard that repentance may be too late but never can it be too soon one would think it reason a man should repent the very next minute after the committing of sin and yet men commit many sins and live long in them and think it yet too soon to leave them and repent of them or that they may do all the work of Reformation at once in a very trice as though there were a kind of sleight and dexterity to dispatch the great work of through-saving reformation in a moment when alas the whole life of the longest sinner is but enough scarce that unless we husband and improve our opportunities better then most in the world do this way and is it not yet time to look after thy souls reformation since there is so much past of thy life already and so little behind to come it may be not one week and thou hast much to do I am drawing neer to my end my sins increase and my time decreases if I have time enough yet 't is but enough for the great work I have to do and I cannot command time as much as I please for if it be not in my power to prolong my days and set me more limits to my life if I cannot say I will live till such an age and continue in perfect strength judgment
but the lest right sound reason left him or counsell would not long be deliberating what to do in this case seeing 't is so evident that he dare not pray or ask leave of God to continue life that he may live to sin or that God would accept of his sinfull disobedience for an holy service but at last should he resolve to go no further in sins way but now with speed immediately turn from his sins ere he closes his eyes to sleep lest it may prove his last nights repose on this side hell Fifthly S. 84. let me consider for a speeding motive to a speedy practical resolution whether or no is it of indispensable necessity and special concernment for me that some time or other ere I die I must be soundly converted and cease to do evil and to take off my heart from the love and consent to lusts motions and lead an holy harmlesse and heavenly life if it be necessary as no question it is then why is it not as necessary to me now as at another time as much my duty to day as to morrow Before I committed any sin actually it was my duty to abstain and forbear but after the first act of folly and evil immediately it is my duty to repent leave it off and cease from doing any more of it and if it had been good for me that I had never sinned sure it must be my next advantage to leave it as soon as possibly For next to that of committing no evil the best course I can take is to repent betimes and if it seem to any one that hereafter will be a fitter time then this present then it will fall out when hereafter comes to be thy present it will be as much against thy will then as now it is and therefore unless I intend to put off my repentance and amendment my conversion and reformation for altogether and never to think on t ' more otherwise let me do that which I think to do this year or seven years hence Now FORTHWITH and that is to forsake all that God dislikes in me and all that his holy word hath witnessed against and my conscience reproves me of without any more ado for I must not befool my self any longer with this opinion that sin will cease of it self and if it doth then sin leaves me I leave not sin Si autem vis agere poenitentiam quando jam peccare non potes peccata te dimiserunt non tu illa Aug. or that pardon will be more easily obtained when I have sinned as much and as long as I can or that repentance will be more acceptable to God when I am forced to it and then too when my age and strength my understanding memory and affections fail me or that God will be pleased well enough with the refuse of my service after I have served the world the flesh and the devil with my prime and full strength and best affections Irrisor est non poenitens qui adhuc agit quod paeniteat non minuit peccata sua sed multiplicat Aug. as though God which deserves infinitely more then I can perform would be put off with any thing or pleased and contented to be mocked by me a most vile wretch while I seem to offer that fag-end of my life which is fit neither for time nor ability to perform that service which God will account of for true repenoance and thorough-reformation O let me never put the fair hopes I now have of obtaining mercy from God S. 85. if I now set my heart to this my duty of reforming my life speedily to the hazard but while a price is put into my hand let me not be such a fool to cast it and so my self away and that for ever Sixtly S. 86. methinks I should not delay any longer my reformation but speedily set my heart upon it and endeavour it to purpose considering that I would nor for any worldly good miss the day of grace or that death should meet with me in my unregenerate state and for any thing I know to the contrary this may be the last day of my life or the last day of grace beyond which God will not wait any longer or give me any motion or help towards my conversion but he may in judgment seal up my heart harden it and sear my conscience that I may never so much as think on my condition any more or desire him heartily to heal me and convert me many men have come to this pass even to out-live the date of that mercy intended for them which if they had in time accepted would have brought a saving pardon and reformation to their souls and why should I adventure my salvation on an uncertainty while I may be sure of it if I take the offer while I may have it Besides why should I provoke God to withdraw his grace and cut me off in his displeasure for all the while every moment I live in sinfull impenitency and unconverted state I have nothing to do with any promise of mercy pardon or heaven I am under the curse of the law and power of Satan and go in danger of death and damnation and if death overtake me in my sins I am a lost soul and who can tell how neer he is to his last hour are you not hastening on to your end will time stay for you or can you call back yesterday whether I eat drink sleep play or work yet my time consumes and I am drawing toward my long home of eternity Oh that I may think still on this and make this concluding resolution of it even to speed my work the great business of my sound reformation and put it off for nobodies pleasure no not for any objection to the contrary nor any worldly advantage might be had upon the account of continuance in my sin if I rest in an unconverted state I am in a lamentable condition Seventhly let me consider S. 87. why should I delay this duty any longer but rather make hast to it and be diligent and constant in it seeing all the objections that have ever been made against speedy reformation and all the excuses and pretences for delaying this necessary work are both frivolous and of no weight and treacherous and pernicious how fully have they all been answered and how easy is it for a man of the meanest capacity to satisfy himself of the unreasonableness of all arguments may be produced by the most cunning Sophister against reformation and for procrastination and continuing in sinfull practices from day to day or but for one day longer And why then should I hearken to any thing that may he further insinuated to me from Satan or any of those his instruments which would cause my delay to the wrong of my poor soul CHAP. XI Of Temptations with their Answers §. I. Temptations answered MY sins are not so great S. 1. or not