of many steppes Signifying that no man can attaine that happy height no man can approch him who standeth at the toppe but by many degrees of vertues whereof euery one also hath many steppes Consider with mee but a few of these and namely the mortifying of all affections either vicious or impertinent and vaine then the treading in all the steps of humility patience meekenesse mercifulnesse temperance obedience feare fortitude true discretion pure intention sobrietie modesty externall composition sweetnesse to others seueritie against our selues and all other vertues required and verely thou shalt finde it a long ladder indeede and that which will require a long time to climbe This climbing or walking is otherwise termed an edification or building For as a great building cannot be mowlded vp in an instant but first the foundation must bee layde then the walles erected and lastly the roofe and floores framed so in this spirituall building a sure foundation must bee layd vpon earth if we intend to raise it to reach into heauen And therefore it is a point of extreame either blindnesse or madnesse to aime at this end this happie end this last end and not to obserue the meanes appointed to attaine it This is thought to bee the cause of the fall of Angels euen because they aspired to their highest end without due obseruing the meanes For as sparkes strooke from a flint if they flie vpward they extinguish but if they bee caried downeward they take fire and burne so those Angels which humbled themselues and embraced the meanes attained to glory but they who proudly presumed by their owne abilities suddenly to attaine it not onely failed thereof but were deiected into hell In like maner wee all desire happinesse there is not any who would not bee happie but wee regard not the meanes appointed for that end Wee will not worke wee will not walke wee will not addresse our forces to the workes nor our feete to the waies which bring to happinesse We will not take either time or paines but thinke to mount to heauen at a leape at a iumpe at the last time of our age at the last minute of our life by a few short wishes rather then prayers But blessed is the man O LORD whose strength is in thee in whose heart are thy wayes They shall goe from strength to strength and vnto the GOD of gods appeareth euery one of them in Sion Wherefore O my soule howsoeuer others either linger or giue ouer betake thou thy selfe speedily to the LORD For to whom else shouldest thou resort he is thy prefection thy last end the rest and satisfaction of all thy desires Thou doest naturally desire nothing but him the desire of worldly things is but a disease Goe too then tumble vpon the bed of honour riches or pleasure thou shalt neuer find rest because thou cariest thy disease within thee ridde thee of thy sickenesse and thou shalt finde rest onely in GOD. The reason is plaine GOD made thee only for himselfe and therefore being thy last end thou canst not find quiet but onely in him Againe GOD onely is agreeable to thy nature thou art his image thou art breathed from him No worldly thing hath any proportion with thy nature and therefore can not giue thee true satisfaction A horse is not satisfied with flesh nor a Lion with grasse because such foode agreeth not with the nature of those beasts No lesse can a spirit be satisfied with corporall things because they are not conformable thereto The gifts and graces of GOD are conformable to thy nature they only giue thee both nourishment and delight Pride and enuy are spirituall things but they no more nourish a soule then poison nourisheth a body God only is agreeable to thy Nature GOD onely filleth thy desire And yet neither by filling thy desire hee doeth extinguish it neither by enflaming thy desire he ceaseth to fill it Wherefore O my soule Loose not time but since he hath created thee Remember thy maker in the dayes of thy youth Since thou hast no satisfaction but from him take the wings of the morning and flie vnto him VERS VII O Israel trust in the LORD for with the LORD there is mercie and with him is plenteous redemption 1. THe inuincible force of hope 2 GOD vseth to lay aduersities on his seruants and seemeth little to regard them and wherefore 3 It is a fearefull slate to liue free from troubles 4 The secret thoughts of diuers princes 5 Worldly things are like shadowes and wherefore 6 Whereon our trust must be grounded 7 How the mercies of GOD may be esteemed 8 In two respects mercy in GOD is preferred before Iustice. 9 GOD is most rich in his workes of mercy 10 Wherefore mercy is said to be naturall and proper to GOD. 11 What we shall doe that we may not feare 12 To whom there is nothing but mercy from GOD. 13 How ready GOD is to impart himselfe to sinners 14 The plenty and riches of our redemption 15 The treasure and ransome of sinners 16 In whom is the default that sinners are damned 17 The benefits of our redemption 18 An example of our right to these benefits 19 What our Sauiour is to vs. 20 Our title to the merits of our redeemer O Heauenly hope there is no labour no calamitie albeit daily storming daily encreasing but by thee is made tolerable Without thee many would faint and fall vnder their heauie burthens but thou suppliest not only strength to endure but courage to beare ouer all extremitie This was figured by the windowe in Noahs Arke which was made aboue towards heauen signifying that in that cruell calamitie reliefe was to bee expected onely from thence Death triumpheth ouer all earthly things but thou triumphest ouer death thou art more victorious then death And therefore albeit Iacob was dying yet his hope died not when he said I will looke for thy saluation O LORD Here hence holy Iob also in his greatest extremities said I know that my Redeemer liueth and though wormes destroy this body yet in my flesh I shall see GOD. Wherfore O my soule doe not onely flie to the LORD vpon the wings of thy hope doe not thou onely rest assured vpon confidence in his worde but perswade all others to do the like O my friendes O all ye of the house and Church of GOD Trust in the LORD Attend for succours only from him for he is both ready and most assured Albeit your distresse bee great and fearefull albeit you be not presently heard albeit you seeme to bee forsaken yet trust in the LORD Against all hope hope in him euen when your case seemeth desperate and forlorne euen vnto death stand steadie as a rocke and trust in the LORD It is a familiar fashion with our LORD to suffer his friends and faithfull seruants to sweat vnder the sad burthens of aduersities and to seeme as if he neither heard their prayers nor
side walled with rockes aboue beaten with terrible tempests You must be not onlie skilfull but carefull of your course you must alwaies beare your hand on the helme your eie on the compasse lest it come to passe that you neuer escape If you doe not this for the loue of GOD doe it then for the loue of your selues whereunto by all rules of reason and nature you are stronglie bound If you doe not loue or regard your good at lest bee not in loue with your euill The loue of miserie is farre worse then miserie it selfe Assuredly in case you continue in this carelesse course in case you still beare your selues either desperate in running from GOD or dull and heauie in comming to him in case neither his benefits can allure nor his chasticements enforce you to a change of life he will cast his plagues vpon you so thicke as haile which will make you more miserable then you can imagine VERS XI Great plagues remaine for the vngodly but who so putteth his trust in the LORD mercy embraceth him on euery side 1. GODS heauie hammers vpon obstinate sinners 2 The multitude of GODS punishments 3 The seuerity of them 4 It is most easie for GOD to pardon sinnes and wherfore 5 It is not possible but that penitent persons should be forgiuen 6 The confidence of true penitents 7 Their saciety 8 Their ioy 9 Albeit the contray appeares 10 Penitents enioy most perfect pleasure in this life and wherefore 11 The pleasures of the wicked are worse then brutish 12 Penitents aâ—e blessed in their chasticements 13 The first reason hereof 14 The second reason 15 The afflictions of this life are both momentany and light 16 A short prayer CErtainely if you wil not embrace this friendly aduice If you esteeme these warnings to be of no weight If blinded either with dulnesse or with malice you perseuere in your sinnes If neither benefits nor scourges can hold you in obedience If neither promises nor threats can any deale mooue you If you can be reteined in order neither by hope nor by feare If like vntamed beasts you still wildlie runne through the thorny thickets of all vices and esteeme euerie lustfull thing lawfull to be done hee hath heauier hammers to breake your obstinacie to bridle your boldnesse and pride and to beate downe your rebellion against him Verely not the starres in the firmament not the sands of the earth not all the creatures in heauen and vpon earth are so manie in number so vnresistable in force as are the punishments which the obstinate shall endure Their infelicity houereth ouer their heads their curse traceth them step by step vntill it shall ouertake them in hell Here the most pleasant retreits are full of hideous hurlements nothing but terrours torments and teares without intermission or end Here is griefe without remedie complaint without pity repentance without mercy Here death alwaies liueth and life alwaies dieth death here life are immortall together life in dying and death in enduring Here both body and soule shall eternally liue in eternall death they shall liue together in a double death and both eternall the death of sinne and the death of punishment due to sinne On the other side they who contemne the vanitie of the world and apply themselues onlie to GOD they who repent them of their sinnes be they neuer so great if they doe not despaire shall vndoubtedlie be receiued to pardon and mercy For this is most easie for GOD to doe by reason of his goodnesse and the greatnesse of his mercies in comparison wherof all the sinnes of the world are nothing so little as a point in regard of the largest circumference as one sparke of fire in comparison of the vast Ocean So as if the greatest sinner in the world be penitent If he desire and sue for mercie all the water in the sea cannot so easilie extinguish one sparke of fire as the mercies of GOD will abolish his sinnes Verelie if a good man will be mercifull to his beast our good GOD will much more bee mercifull to his creature to his seruant to his childe Yea it is not possible but that mercy should be imparted to them that repent For the infinite mercies of Almightie GOD abound in all places they fill all things if they be not excluded and locked foorth But nothing excludeth mercie but impenitencie and hardnesse of heart And therefore if a man be penitent mercie will foorthwith enter because the impediment is remooued because nothing then remaineth in the soule which may resist or repell mercie If the window be opened the roome will be light and if the floudgates be vnbarred the streames will presentlie ouerflow But they who haue receiued mercy who are vnder the protection and guard of grace in what assurance doe they stand how boldlie do they walke with what confidence are they caried in all the passages of their life Mercy encreaseth confidence and coÌ„fidence againe encreaseth mercy As guiltines is the cause of feare so from mercie proceedeth confidence As all wickednesse is full of feare so the iust is confident as a Lion And whosoeuer receiueth mercie they shall be filled therewith They shall be so filled as they shall ouerflow they shal be enuironed with mercy on euery side And being vnder the peace protection of mercie hauing firme trust that their sins are forgiuen O good GOD to what felicitie are they aduanced what treasures are there in heauen which shall not be opened and imparted to them They shal be placed by the side of GOD they shall be apparrelled and adorned with so great glory so great happines shal be heaped vpon them as the spirit of man is vnable to apprehend much lesse to expresse The desire the hope the full faith and assurance hereof cannot but worke in them incredible ioy before they attaine the full fruition euen whilest they are vpon their passage to it Oh! with what cheerefulnesse with what delight doe they either remooue or surmount all difficulties which lie before them Howsoeuer their trauaile seemeth troublesome and hard yet the loue of their iourneyes end maketh it not onely tolerable but delightfull The onely thought of the end of their trauaile seasoneth all the meanes with sweetnesse through which they are enforced to wrestle to that end It may be conceiued indeed that the iust are plagued and that the wicked chiefly flourish in this life It seemeth to be so but it is not so It is so onely in appearance and shew but in very deed it is not so They are either blinded with grosse mists of ignorance or abused with deceiuable colours and shewes who thinke it so It appeareth so only to those who are so rowled vp in flesh and bloud that they esteeme nothing good or euill but that which appertaineth to the body Assuredly they whose sinnes are forgiuen enioy the most perfect pleasure euen in this life which in this sort doeth plainely appeare As the inward
wherein then lieth the difference Not in the summe of the debt but in the dayes of payment All agree that repentance is due but most perswade themselues that the payment may be made at leasure But assuredly there is no time so fit as the present For what stupendious stupiditie is it to deferre the most weightie worke of repentance to a future time whereby besides that the time may bee taken from thee thou shalt daily growe more vnfit to repent For by reason of long continuance and frequencie of acts custome will grow strong and inuincible whereby nature is corrupted grace estranged and the power and tyrannie of the Diuell much confirmed Obserue hereof a familiar example If a childe be brought from a distant country he will perfectly pronounce our language in a very short time If hee be a man of yeeres hee will hardly or neuer rightly pronounce it What is the cause confirmed custome which can hardly be broken we are hardly drawen either to forget or forsake that whereto of long time we haue bin enured And assuredly change of life is no lesse vneasy then change of language and therefore repentance must needs bee so much the harder by how much it is later Oh! how many would gladly forsake their wicked liues but being fast locked and chained in the prison of euill custome they are not able to breake from themselues He who hath a great estate may well endure some wast expence but he who oweth more then hee is worth had neede be a good husband of that which he hath Thou art not well assured to liue one houre and darest thou make to thy selfe a prodigall promise of manie yeeres Such promises haue bin â—he destruction of many a sinner vpon such hope is little better then a sinner vpon despaire for both sinne alike vpon different reasons The desperate sinneth because he thinketh hee must bee damned the presumptuous because he hopeth he may at pleasure repent he sinneth because he despaireth this hopeth because he will sinne Woe to this hope woe to that presumption both are fearefull and dangerous alike GOD hath promised pardon to repentance but he hath not promised either time or abilitie or mind to repent Hee hath alreadie giuen thee a faire time to repent but he hath put times and seasons in his owne power and will assuredly shorten them if they be not well imployed For so in the dayes of Noah he gaue 120. yeeres for man to repent which because they did abuse he strooke off 20 yeeres and raised the deluge in the hundreth yeere Thou art carefull to cure the least hurts of thy bodie forthwith and wilt thou neglect or deferre to remedie the mortall and immortall woundes of thy soule When euery day thy miserable soule is hewen burnt poisoned precipitated torne in pieces when euery day it perisheth a thousand wayes wilt thou be nothing sensible thereof wilt thou be like Pharao who when all Aegypt as wel in the fields as in the houses swarmed with frogges yet would haue prayer deferred vntill to morrow O mad delay nay verely To day heare his voice and harden not your hearts Deferre not repentance vntill to morrow for this will harden your hearts indeed Our life is compared by Iob to the day of a hireling A labourer worketh from morning vntill night and then taketh his rest So thou O sinner labour hard in the workes of repentance whilest thy day lasteth suffer not the darkenesse of death the night of nature to steale vpon thee but earely in the morning of thy health strength and age flie to the LORD attend seriously thy worke and doe not loiter for the night will come when no man can labour If the world calleth thee aside to riches honour pleasures or any other of her entising harlotries tell her thou canst not come thou hast a great important busines in hand and but a small time to performe it thou hast neither leisure nor lust to listen to her When Ioab had defeated Abner and chased his armie with a long execution Abner cried to him Shall the sword deuoure for euer to whom Ioab answered As GOD liueth if thou hadst spoken in the morning the people had gone away euery one from following his brother The like may GOD answer to sinners who all the day of their life beare armes against him and at the night of their death desire to bee at peace As I liue if you had spoke to mee in the morning if in seasonable time you had desired mercy I would haue spared you but now execution is in the heate you come somwhat late you must neuer stand to the courtesie of iustice you come now vpon ineuitable necessitie vpon base seruile feare which neuer iustifieth Your repentance now is not froÌ„ the heart You are now like merchants who when their ship is in danger throw their riches ouerboard but when the tempest is ouer search euery shoare to find them againe Your apprehension of present danger hath perswaded you against your wils to disgorge your consciences and cast vp your pleasures but if the feare blow ouer if you recouer your former estate you will foorthwith returne to your former life Thus may GOD say and thus for the most part it happeneth We neuer examine our great accompt wee neuer addresse our selues to bee at peace with GOD so long as we haue one vanitie vnspent But when time hath beaten from vs both youth pleasure and health when it hath made vs both insociable to others and burthensome to our selues when our attendants are variable sickenesses and paines when the soule loathes her ruinous and excrementall lodging then looking into our consciences which pleasure and sloth had locked before we behold therein the fearefull images of our actions past and withall this terrible sentence engrauen that GOD will bring euery worke to iudgement But how dare wee trust to our repentance at that time when the will by long custome is stiffe and almost inflexible when the vnderstanding partly weakened partly amazed is vnable to behold diuers obiects perfectly Assuredly to neglect GOD to offend him willingly casting our hopes on the peace which wee trust to make at our parting is a high presumption or which is worse a scornefull conâ—â—mpt Of all things that can be desired eternall felicity is the chiefe No man but doeth naturally desire it No man with deliberate reason would lose it for the empire of all the world no merchant is so foolish who would exchange the hope thereof for any aduantage that can be set foorth no man vpon any condition would bee quite cast out of that hope Now the ordinary way which GOD hath appointed to attaine felicitie is a long and laboursome walke a great iourney from vertue to vertue from strength to strength vntill wee appeare before GOD in Sion This was figured by the ladder which Iacob saw in a vision extending from earth to heauen and consisting doubtlesse
they ioy at the conuersion of sinners so are they sorrowfull at their conuersation in sinne I haue which is strange offended hell For the more the multitude of the damned are the more doe their torments increase For which cause the rich man intreated Abraham to send Lazarus to conuert his brethren not for any loue to them but that his owne torments by their damnation should not be enlarged I haue offended all creatures by diuerting them from their proper end For when man by sinne is turned from GOD whilest other creatures serue him they are also turned with him from GOD. For they were created for the seruice of them who should serue GOD but they are diuerted from this their proper end when they are seruiceable to them who serue not GOD. For which cause the Apostle saith that all creatures expect when the sonnes of GOD shall be reuealed and that they groane with vs and trauaile in paine But especially I haue offended against my owne soule which being dispoiled by sinne of the grace and fauour of GOD remaineth blind naked wounded poore pitilesse and miserable Assuredly it is true that no man is hurt but by himselfe For onelie sinne our owne viperous brood is properly euill take away sin and all externall euills produce good effects Because when sinne is away GOD is present but when the soule is possessed with sinne all good things perish all euils flourish and ouergrow And as sinne is an offence against GOD and against all his creatures so by sin we incurre the hostility of GOD and of all his creatures wherof Ismael was a type of whom it is sayd that his hand was against all and the hands of all against him Therfore O LORD sweet and gentle to all them who call vpon thee I haue great cause to call to thee alowde but in vaine shall I call vnlesse thou heare me vnlesse thou encline thy mercifull eare Heare mee O LORD Who hearest the afflicted and troubled calling vpon thee heare my voice giue mee strength so to cry to thee that my voice may be heard For as all the droppes of raine which fall vpon the earth are originally drawen out of the sea which is both the fountaine and receipt of all waters so all the goodnesse which is in man is deriued from thee who art the foundation and receipt of all goodnesse O Infinite goodnesse infuse thy selfe into me Breath foorth thy spirit and the waters will flow LORD the desiring of thy graces is the beginning of obteyning them and therefore with fieâ—ie and inflamed sighes I entreat thee Breath foorth thy spirit to mooue me to send to thee a full flood of boyling teares and to crie to thee with vnspeakable groanes Alasse It is the most bitter part of my misery that I know how infinite the losse is that maketh mee miserable I haue lost the beauty of the world the highest marke of a good mans ambition I haue not only lost him but incurred his hostility without whom there is no ioy the breath of whose fauour is the breath of life whose presence is the greatest felicity in Heauen whose departure is the most grieuous punishment in Hell And now mine eyes tell me that euery thing is attired in sorrow mine eares perswade me that all sounds are tuned to mournfull notes all things seeme to inuite mee to weepe If I see any thing that beareth some resemblance of ioy it is to me like the spoiles of a vanquished kingdome in the eye of a captiue prince scornes of his misery and whetstones of his sorrow O my LORD I cannot hide me from thee but I haue hid thee from me Thou seest mee but I see not thee Thou seest all my actions both light and yet darke but I see no beame of thy beauty no spark of thy fauour appeareth to me O my GOD Why doest thou leaue me in this distressed case In how wilde a chase doe my perplexed thoughts wander My vnderstanding is darke my will either crooked or weake my imagination vnquiet my appetite disordered I feele so many deathes as I liue dayes For dayly yea hourely my oppressed conscience enditeth me for many grieuous offences and my owne knowledge enforceth the euidence to be true wherupon my iudgement condemneth mee to eternall death vnlesse a pardon can be obtayned To this end my eyes are enioyned to a fresh shower of teares my breast to a new storme of sighes and my soule to remaine in the most deepe dungeon of sorrow and griefe and out of this depth like a most miserable prisoner neuer to cease calling vpon thee neuer to cease crying and crauing for thy pardon O my soule weepe bloudy teares if it be possible fill heauen and earth with cries groanes and sighes plunge thy selfe into a sea of teares to wash thy sinnes and to extinguish the wrath of GOD against them for what anger is so fierie that teares cannot quench as Pharao and all his hoste was drowned in the waters so may the Diuell and all thy sins be stifled with teares The weeping for sinne is the wiping them away Drie earth bringeth foorth vnprofitable weedes and hurtfull Serpents and a soule neuer watered with teares bringeth foorth much vanity and vncleannesse As raine fructifieth the earth so teares make a barren soule fruitfull Godly teares are of two sorts some proceed from griefe for our sinnes others from loue ioy and desire of GOD. Both which he so highly esteemeth that he will not suffer one of them to be lost he preserueth them in his treasury with great regard to water therewith the garden of our good purposes and endeuours For as good seedes and plants without raine so are good thoughts and endeuours without this heauenly dew of deuotion But be not satisfied O my soule with once or twise weeping Bee not weary of bewayling thy sinnes cease not to weepe vntill GOD shall wipe away teares from thy eyes O happy eyes which shall bee wiped with that heauenly hand Not only their teares shall be perpetually dried but their sorrow shall bee turned into ioy And according to the multitude of their sorrows his comforts will refresh their soules Goe too then vnfruitfull soule write all thy sinnes with teares in the large volume of thy heart read them ouer againe and againe wash them with a few more droppes of deuotion let thy words be watered with teares and warmed with sighes and againe addresse to thy suite and say VERS II. Oh let thine eares consider well the voyce of my complaint 1 INgemination of our prayers often requisite and wherefore 2 A complaint 3 A most cruell combate 4 How a sinner flattereth himselfe 5 Vntill he be able to breake loose 6 A confession 7 The most miserable state of a sinner 8 It nothing auayleth that our sinnes are knowen only to our selues 9 In what sence a man may bee sayd a greater sinner then the Diuell 10 The sinner deeply deiected 11 Hee resumeth
my secrets to all the world The longer time I haue liued the more I finde my life couered and ouergrowen with sinne euen as a riuer the further it runneth from the head the more waters it gathereth and the greater doeth the streame encrease or as a man riding in dustie waies the further hee rideth the more dust he gathereth vpon him I can finde in my selfe no light of goodnesse no calme of righteousnesse I haue bin so loaden with the yron yoake of the Diuell the troupes of my sinnes so muster vpon mee that out of the depth of my miserable estate I am enforced with sighes groanes and teares to cry vnto thee Oh! I am a most grieuous sinner I thinke my selfe the most grieuous sinner in the world I think my self which I tremble to speake a more grieuous sinner then the Diuell himselfe For albeit the Diuell participateth of all sinnes whereto he draweth miserable men yet of his owne nature he is not a glutton not a drunkard not sloathfull not libidinous not coueteous of riches or honoâ—s or any other worldly thing For because nothing is affected with that which is not agreeable to the nature thereof it followeth that a spirituall substance cannot bee affected with goods properly corporall but onely with those which are spirituall But in affecting spirituall goods there can bee no sinne vnlesse the rule of a superiour be thereby transgressed and this is by the sinne of pride in being disobedient to a superiour and in affecting a singular excellencie But consequently enuie may ensue by enuying the good of others whether in GOD or in man as a hindrance to their proper ends But so enuy must not be taken for a passion but for a will wrestling against anothers good And hereby it appeareth that the Diuell properly and in his owne nature sinneth onely in pride and in enuie which onely are pure spirituall sinnes But besides these I haue committed so manie other sinnes that I am both vnable and vnworthy particularlie to confesse them much more vnworthy to receiue pardone for them I haue made so great ruine and waste in all the faculties of my soule that it seemeth impossible they should be repaired Oh wretch what haue I done what did I entend to haue done The law accompted those beasts vncleane which did not chew the cudde not lesse vncleane cleane are they who will not ruminate and consider either the condition of their present state or what in future is either necessarie or in aduenture to ensue But alasse I neuer thought on my danger vntill all hope of remedie was past I neuer regarded my steps vntill I was in the snares of hell And now what death can I feare when I haue lost the life of my soule without which any other life is death and which maketh death a pleasant passage to life Being deepely wounded with the greatest griefe what sence can I haue of ordinary euill my deepe miseries haue drowned both my minde and my memorie in so deepe sorrow that all hope of reliefe is ouerwhelmed with the thicke throng of present discomforts And yet I will not cast downe my hope in the LORD I will not despaire of his gracious helpe For he hath not cast me downe to cast mee away hee hath not thus terrified mee to the end I should abandone all hope to the end I should be swallowed vp in the monstrous mouth of despaire but rather he calleth mee to him to the end that I should call vpon him The first worke that the LORD did in the conuersion of Saint Paul was the casting of him to the ground whereby thou doest instruct vs O LORD that our deiection in our selues is the first step of our aduancing to thee And assuredly thou wouldest neuer haue giuen me this grace to be sorrowfull if thou haddest not therewith intended to giue me life And therefoâ—â— albeit I bee cast downe to the verie gates of hell yet will I call vpon thee to raise mee againe albeit I bee crushed and broken to pieces yet will I call vpon thee to heale mee I can neuer bee so low driuen neuer so ouercharged with sorrow or with feare but still I will call vpon thee for comfort For what other remedie haue wee feeble wretches tossed in the vaste gustie sea of this world beaten with most raging tempests driuen among so many rockes and shelues so many infernall monsters gaping to deuoure vs what other remedie haue wee I say but to call and crie to thee with the distressed disciples awake LORD least wee perish Assuredly if out of these depths of danger and distresse we cry not out to thee for helpe then are we neere the greatest depth that can bee then are wee slipping into the depth wherein Cain was eternally swallowed then are wee readie to roare out his cursed complaint my sinnes are greater then can be forgiuen It is true Cain indeede thy sinne in it selfe was very great but in comparison of the infinite goodnesse of GOD it was not great Thy sinne might haue bin pardoned well enough but thy opinion and conceit that it did exceede the mercies of GOD that impious opinion so long as it stood could not be forgiuen Thy despaire was a greater sinne then the murther of thy brother thy despaire was the cause wherefore the murther of thy brother could not bee forgiuen Thy damnable repentance left no place for repentance to life The same trace followed they whom the Prophet described to speake in this manner Our sinnes are vpon vs and in them we consume how then should wee liue But O Omnipotent GOD is this a good reasoning with thy goodnesse My sinnes are vpon me how then shall I liue Desirest thou then the death of a sinner desirest not thou rather that sinners should liue I know rightwell that my sinnes are vpon me But I expect againe thy mercie vpon my sinnes My iniquities I know are gone ouer my head but they haue not ouergone thy goodnesse They are a burthen too heauie for me to beare and therefore I resort to thee who hast promised to ease me My sinnes shall neuer driue me to despaire but rather to repaire to thee for reliefe But is it not vsuall that GOD listneth not to sinners that he turneth away his eare and will not heare them Yes verelie But this is by reason of the cry of their sinnes this is when the cry of their sinnes drowneth the cry of their complaints Fauorable LORD stop thine eare I beseech thee against the crie of my sinnes but graciously incline it to the cry of my complaint Silence my sinnes LORD for a while bid them stand aside vntill I haue fullie confessed them to thee vntill I haue manifested my contrition for them and then let them appeare againe if they will for then they shall not appeare alone They shall be then accompanied with my teares and my griefe which will abate if not abolish their crie They shall not then 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