any time my rebellious flesh doth chance to throwe me downe through the remembrance of the woundes of my Lord I arise againe When the diuell seeketh to entrap me I forthwith fly to the bowells of my Lords mercy and he presentlie departeth from me If the heate of vnlawfull luste doth at any time cause any inordinate motion in my flesh through the remembrance of the woundes of our Lord the sonne of God it is immediatlie mitigated In all aduersities I doe not finde a more soueraigne remedie then are the wounds which Christ suffered for me In them I sleepe securely and repose assuredly Christ hath died for vs and therfore in deathe nothing can be founde soe bitter and vnpleasing which is not sweetned and cured by Christs death and passion My whole hope is in the deathe of my Lord. His deathe is my merit succoure and saluation it is my life and resurrection our Lords mercy and compassion is the merit which I rely vpon I am not voide of merit aslonge as I haue the Lord of mercies on my parte and sit hence the mercies of our Lord are many I my selfe am likewise riche in merits By howe much the more powerfull he is to saue me by soe much the greater is my securitie Howe the remembrance of Christs woundes is an approued remedie against all afflictions CHAPT XXIII I Haue exceedingly sinned and I knowe mine offenses to be many which I haue committed and yet I doe not despaire because where sinnes haue abounded there grace hath superabounded He that despaireth of obtaining pardon for his sinnes denieth God to be mercifull He doth almightie God a greate iniurie that mistrusteth of his mercy As much as lieth in him he denieth God to haue charity truth and power in which three notwithstanding doth depend my whole confidence that is in the charitie of his adoption in the truth of his promise and in the power of his redemption Nowe therfore let my foolishe imagination murmure as much as it will saying Who art thou that speakest after this fashion how wonderfull greate I pray thee is the glory of heauen by what merits then doâ—t thou hope to obtaine the same To whom I will answere confidently saying I knowe to whom I haue committed my selfe for that throughe his surpassing great charitie he hath adopted me to be his sonne because he is true in his promise and able to performe the same and may doe whatsoeuer it pleaseth him I cannot be terrified with the multitude of my sinnes if the deathe of my Lord come into my minde because my sinnes cannot oâ—ercome him The nayles and lance doe tell me that I am truly reconciled to Christ if I loue him Longinus with his lance hath opened Christs side for me into which I haue entred and doe rest there securely He that feareth let him loue because loue chaseth forth feare Verilie the whole worlde doth not afforde such a powerfull and present medicine against the heate of dishonest pleasure as is the deathe of my redeemer He stretcheth for the his armes on the Crosse and spreadeth out his handes as one readie to embrace sinners I purpose to liue and desire to die betweene the armes of Christ that hath saued me There I will sing securely I will extoll thee o Lord for that thou hast receiued me and hast not permitted mine enimies to triumphe ouer me Our Sauiour at his death bowed downe his heade that he might giue the kisse of peace to his beloued So often doe we kisse God as we are egged forwards through his loue to doe good A deuoute Meditation of the soule stirring vs vp to the loue of Christ. CHAPT XXIV O My soule who art famous by being framed according to the likenes of God beinge bought with Christs owne blood espoused vnto him by faith endowed with the holy Ghost adorned with vertues esteemed equall with the Angells loue him of whom thou art soe much loued attende to him that attendeth to thee and seeke him that seeketh thee Loue this thy louer of whom thou art beloued with whose loue thou art preuented who is the fountaine froÌ„whence thy loue proceeded He is thy merit and rewarde he is the fruite the vse and end of thy loue Be carefull to please him that is carefull to please thee thinke on him that thinketh of thee be pure with him that surpasseth in puritie be holy with him that excelleth all others in sanctitie According as thou shalt carry thy selfe towardes God in thy conuersation in the same manner will he carrie himselfe towardes thee againe He therfore being courteous milde and full of mercy and compassion doth exact of thee that thou likewise be courteous milde sweete huÌ„ble and mercifull towardes all men Loue him o my soule who hath deliuered thee from the lake of misery and from the myre of sinne and iniquitie Choose him for thy friende especiallie who alone will faithfullie adhere vnto thee when all other thinges and friendes shal be taken from thee On the day of thy buriall when thou shalt be abandoned by all thy friendes he will not leaue thee but will defende thee from those roring and infernali fiendes ready to deuoure thee yea he will conduct thee throughe that vnknowne region and bring thee into the streetes of heauenly Syon and will place thee there with his Angells before the face of his Maiestie where thou shalt heare that Angelicall songe Holy holy holy c. The Canticle of ioy the voice of mirthe and 〈◊〉 thanks-giuing praise and perpetuall Alleluia is songe there euerlastingly There there is a heape of happines supereminent glory superaboundant gladnes and all manner of goodnes O my soule sighe vehementlie and desire earnestlie that thou maiest attaine to that celestiall citty of which soe glorious thinges are saied and in which is the dwelling place of all those that are truly glad By loue thou maiest mounte vp thither because nothing is harde nothing is impossible to an vnfained louer The soule that loueth ascendeth very often and runneth vp and downe familiarlie in the streetes of the heauenlie Hierusalem visiting the Patriarches and Prophets saluting the Apostles admiring the armies of Martyres and Confessores and considering the quires of Virgins Heauen and earthe and all thinges in them contained doe continuallie exhorte me to loue my Lord God How nothing can satisfie the soule besides God the supreame good CHAT XXV IT is impossible that the harte of man should remaine constant and stable if it be not setled in the desire of thinges eternall but being more mutable then mutabilitie it selfe it passeth from one thing to an other seeking repose where it is not for in these fraile and transitorie thinges in which the affections thereof are held captiue it cannot content it selfe and liue at quiet because it is of soe great dignitie as that nothinge but the chiefe good is able to suffice it it is likewise of that freedome as that it cannot be constrained to commit any sinne Wherfore
hath crucified sinne and vanquished death he I say who only remained free amongst those that were deade hauinge power to giue his life for vs and for vs to take it againe He therefore is both a conquerour and an oblation offered for obtayning the coÌ„quest and for this cause a conquerour because an oblation for vs he hath beene a Priest and a sacrifice In him therfore and not without iust cause haue I settled my whole hope hoping that by him thou wilt cure all my maladies who sitteth at thy right hande maketh intercession for vs. My maladies and miseries o Lord are greate and many many and greate for that I knowe and confesse that the Prince of this worlde hath many thinges to lay to my charge but for his sake that sitieth at thy right hande our Redeemer in whoÌ„ the Diuell coulde neuer finde any iniquitie deliuer me I beseeche thee Iustifie me by him who neuer committed any sinne neither was there deceipt at any time founde in his mouth By him beinge our heade in whom was neuer seene the least spott of wickednes deliuer me that am a small and infirme member of his Free me I beseeche thee from my finnes vices faultes and negligences replenishe me with thy sacred virtues and perfections and make me complete in good manners and conditions Make me for thy blessed names sake to perseuer all the daies of my life in good workes acceptable to thee accordinge as thy holy will shall teache and direct me Of the confidence which a Christian soule ought to haue in Iesus Christ and in his passion CHAPT XIV WEre it not that thy diuine Worde o God had beene made flesh and dwelt in vs I should verily despaire by reason of my manifolde sinnes and infinite negligences But now I dare not despaire because if when we were thine enimies we haue beene reconciled by the death of thy sonne how much more being thus brought in fauour againe are we by him made assured of saluation For my whole hope and vndoubted confidence is in his pretious bloud which he hath powred forth for vs and for our good In him I breath and take comforte and trusting in his bounty I desire to come to thee not hauing any iustice or deserte of mine owne but only that which proceedeth from our Lord Iesus Christ thy onely sonne Wherfore I giue thee thankes o God the most milde and mercifull louer of mankinde who by thy sonne Iesus Christ our Lord hast powerfully made vs when as yet we had noe being and hast by him wonderfully deliuered and recouered vs when we were past recouerie through sinne I thanke thy pitty and rendre thee many prayses from the very bottome of my hart who through the vnspeakable loue wherwith of thy mere goodnes thou hast loued vs beinge wretched creatures and vnworthy of any good thinge hast sent for our common good the same onely begotten sonne of thine from thy bosome to saue vs sinners beinge then the children of perdition I giue thee thankes for his sacred incarnation and natiuitie and for his glorious mother the blessed virgin Marie of whom he vouchsafed to take fleshe for vs and for our saluation that as he was true God of God soe likewise he might be true man of man I giue thee thankes for his crosse and passion for his deathe and resurrection for his ascension into heauen and for the rhrone of his maiestie at thy right hande For he hauinge for fortie daies togither appeared vnto his disciples after his resurrection ascendinge in theire sight aboue all the heauens and sittinge at thy right hande powred forth the holy Ghost accordinge to his promise vppon the children of adoption I giue thee thankes for that most sacred effusion of his most pretious bloude by which we haue beene redâ—emed as likewise for that most holy and liuelâ— mysterie of his bodie and bloude wherewith we are daylie in thy Churche sedd and inebriated walhed and sanctified and made pertakers of his soue aigne Good I giue thee thankes for thy admirable and vnspeakeable charitie through which by thine onely and beloued sonne thou hast in this manner loued and releiued vs being altogeather vnworthy Soe greately hast thou loued the worlde as that thou hast giuen thine onely begotten sonne to the end that euerie one which beleiueth in him might not perishe but haue life euerlasting which life euerlasting consisteth in this that by a pure and perfect faith and workes answerable to the same we knowe thee the onely true God and Iesus Christ whom thou hast sent Of the surpassing great charity of the eternall Father towards mankind CHAPT XV. O Infinite mercy o inestimable charity thou hast giuen thy sonne to deliuer thy seruant God hath beene made man that man might be freed from the power of the Diuell when he was vtterly vndonne How kinde a louer of men hath thy sonne our Lord God shewed himselfe to be who thought it not enough to haue debased himselfe so lowe as to haue taken humaine fleshe for vs of the immaculate virgin Marie vnlesse he had likewise sustained the torments of his passion pouring forth his bloud for vs and for our saluation Our good God hath come being moued thereunto through his goodnes and mercy he hath come he hath come to seeks and saue that which was lost cast away He hath sought the sheepe that was lost he hath sought and found it and as a merciful Lord and vnspeakeable louing shepheard he hath on his owne shoulders brought it backe to the foldes of his flocke O charity o pitty Who euer heard the like who is not astonied at this soe feeling an affection of his mercy who is not through admiration almost striken into an extasie who is not moued with gladnes through this thy excessiue charitie wherewith thou hast loued vs Thou hast sent thy son in the likenesse of flesh subiect to sinne that he might conuince sinno of sinne that we might become iust in him For he is the true immaculate lambe who hath taken away the sinnes of the worlde who by dyinge hath destroyed our death and by risinge againe hath raised vs to life But what recompence can we giue thee o good God for these soe greate benefits of thy mercie What praises or thankes giuinge Albeit we had the knowledge and power of the blessed Angels yet could we not make any requitall answerable to thy soe greate loue and goodnes yea if all our members were turned into tonges yet woulde our poore abilitie be no way sufficient to render thee those prayses which thou hast deserued Soe that thine inestimable charitie which thou hast shewed towardes vs being altogether vnworthy proceeding froÌ„ thy meere goodnes and mercy doth surpasse all the knowledg and learning that either is or may be For that thy sonne our God hath not takeÌ„ the nature and essence of Angells but the â—eede of Abraham becomming like vnto vs in euerie thinge setting aside onely sinne Taking therfore
O Lord our God who art a mercifull and good God a God of all power a God of vnspeakable and incomprehensible nature God the instructor of all thinges and the Father of our Lord Iesus Christ who for our common good hast sent from thy bosome our most sweet Lord thy beloued sonne to take vpon him our life that he might giue vs his and might be perfecte God of thee his Father and perfect man by reason of his mother whole God and whole man one and the same Christ eternal and temporall immortall and mortal creator and created strong and enfeebled conquerour and conquered nourisher nourished sheepe and shepheard dying temporallie and liuing with thee eternallie who promising the liberties of euerlasting life to those that loued him vsed these wordes vnto his disciples Whatsoeuer you shall aske my Father in my name he will giue it you By this high Preist true Bishoppe and good shepheard who hath offered himselfe as a sacrifice vnto thee laying down his life for his flocke I beseech thee by him who sitteth at thy right hand and maketh intercession for vs being our Redeemer and aduocate yea by thine owne mercifulnesse and goodnesse I humblye craue of thee o God most merciful milde and benigne louer of mankind that thou together with thy same sonne and holie Ghost for that you all three beinge but of one the same nature are to be esteemed but one and the same giuer wilt giue me grace to praise and glorifie thee in all thinges with great contritioÌ„ of hart and manie teares with much feare and trembling But for that our corrupt body is as a clogg or burden to the soule prick forward I beseeche thee my lasines with thy spurres and make me promptly to perseuere day and night in fulfillinge thy commaundements and in soundinge forth thy praises Graunt that my hart may waxe hoate within my bosome and that I may be as it were sett on fire by meanes of my meditation And because thine onely begotten son God hath saied Noe man commeth to me vnlesse my Father who hath sent me drawe him and noe man commeth to the Father but by me I humbly pray and beseeche thee draw me vnto him continually that he at length may bring me thither to thee where he sittethe at thy right hand where there is euerlasting life enduring hapy for euer where there is perfect loue voide of all feare where there is one eternall day and one desire of all where there is most soueraigne and certaine assurednes and assured quietnes and quiet ioyfullnes and ioyfull happines and happy euerlastingnes and euerlasting blessednes and blessed seeing and praising of thee being likewise endlesse where thou with him and he with thee in communion of the holy Ghost liuest and raignest God eternally and euerlastingely throughout all ages times and generations Amen A most deuoute prayer to our Sauiour Iesus Christ. CHAPT XVIII O Christ my God and hope thou loue of mankind The light way life and praise of those to life assign'd Behould thy bondes and woundes thy crosse death and thy graue All which thou didst eudure vs sinners for to saue Three daies being past from death thou didst arise againe And thy sadd freindes mad'st gladd who doubtfull did remaine The fourth day to heauen thou ascendedst where before Thou did'st do'st shalt liue and raigne for euermore Thou art my liuing and true God my reuerend Father my louing Lord my great king my good shepheard my most holie helper my most faire beloued my bread of life my Preist for eternitie my guide to the heauenlie country my true light my most sacred sweetnes my direct way my cheife knowledge my pure simplicitie my peaceable amity my sure guatdian my best portion my perpetuall safetie my immense mercy my most strong patience my immaculate sacrifice my sacred redemption my firme hope my perfect charitie my true resurrection my life euerlasting my most happie vision and reioycing which shall neuer haue ending I humbly desire begge and beseech thee that I may walke by thee attaine to thee and repose in thee who art the way the truth and the life without which noe maÌ„ can come to the Father Thou truly art my desire my most sweete and gratious Lord. O brightnes of the heaueÌ„ly Fathers glory who sittest aboue the Cherubins and beholdest the bottomles pits being the true light the enlightning light the neuer failing light on whom the Angells desire to looke Behold my hart is in thy presence dissolue the darkenes thereof that it may be wholy replenished with the light of thy loue Bestow thy selfe vpon me o my God giue me thy selte Behold o Lord I doe loue thee and if it be to little make me to loue thee more I cannot guesse how much loue is sufficieÌ„t to loue thee withall that my life may runne forewarde in desire of being embraced of thee neuer staying vntill it attaine to remaine hidden in the secret fauour of thy diuine maiestie yet this I know o Lord that it goeth not well with me both within and without me as often as I am without thee for that I esteeme all manner of riches and aboundance besides thee to be meere want and pouertie Because thou onely art that good which cannot be changed into better or worse thou art he alone who simplie art alone to whom it is not one thing to liue and an other thing to liue happily for that thou art thine owne happines Howebeit we that are thy creatures to whom it is one thinge to liue another thing to liue happily ought to attribute both our whole life and liuing happily to thy onely grace and bountie We therfore haue alwaies neede of thee but thou neuer of vs for albeit we were not at all yet nothing woulde be wanting to that good which thou art We therfore haue neede o Lord our God at all times to adhere to thee that by thy countinuall ayde we may be able to liue soberly iustly and religiously True it is we are drawen downwarde by the burden of our humaine fâ—ailtie but by the guift of thy grace we are inflamed and are caried vpward we burne goe foward we mounte vpward and making ascents in our hartes we sing a graduall song we are sett on fire through the good fire of thy loue and goe foreward But what maketh me now to soare vpp to the peace of Hierusalem Because I reioyce at those thinges which are toulde me We shall goe into the house of our Lord. Our good desire getteth vs a place there to the end we affect nothing els but to remaine there for euer Seeing therfore we haue noe permaneÌ„t citty during the time of this life but expect one heere after because as long as we liue in this world we are as strangers and pilgrimes in a forraine countrie in respect of thee o Lord for that our citty and habitation is in heauen for this cause I am accustomed being guided by thy grace to
how to praise him blessed is that man whose helpe is from God who hath soe disposed the ascents of his harte in this dolefull vale of miserie that by them he may ascende vp to the place of eternall felicitie Happie are the cleane in harte for they shall see God happie are they o Lord that dwell in thy house they shall praise thee for euer and euer A Prayer greatly mouinge the harte to deuotion and to the loue of God CHAPT XXXV O Iesu our redemption loue and desire God of God giue â—are to me thy poore vnworthy seruant To thee I câ—ll crie with a loude voyce with my whole harte To thee I call calling thee into my soule enter into the same and make it fitting for thee that thou mayest possesse it without wrinkle or blemishe of iniquitie because reason requireth that a cleane dwellinge shoulde be prepared for soe cleane a Lord to dwell in Sanctifie me therefor I beseech thee thy vessell which thou hast made cleanse me from malice fill me and preserue me full of thy grace that heere and for all eternity I may be made a fitt habitation for thy diuine maiestie O most sweete most powerfull most louing most deare most powerfull most desired most inestimable most amiable most beautifull Lord thou art more sweet then honie more white then either milke or snowe more pleasant to the tast then nectar or delitious wine more pretious then golde or pretious stones and more deare to me then all the riches and honoures of this worlde What doe I say o my God my onely hope and my surpassing great mercie What doe I say my happie and secure sweetnes What doe I say in saying these thinges Verilie I say what I am able not what I ought Woulde to God I were able to singe such hymnes of prayses as doe the quires of blessed Angells O how willinglie woulde I bestowe my selfe wholy in singing and setting forthe thy praises O how deuoutelie in the middest of thy Church would I pronounce those Canticles of celestiall melodie to the praise and glorie of thy holy name But because I cannot doe this shall I therefore holde my peace Woe be to those that haue not thee in theire mouth because thou art he that openest the mouthes of such as are mute and makest the tongues of infants to be eloqueÌ„t Woe be to those whose talke is not of thee because those that are talkatiue and full of wordes are to be esteemed as men speecheles if theire talke doth not tende to the extollinge of thy praises But who is able to praise thee worthily o vnspeakable vertue and wisedome of the Father Seeing therefore I want wordes by which I might be able sufficientlie to expresse thee o diuine worde of all power and knowledge I will in the interim say what I can vntill thou vouchsafe to call me vnto thee where I shal be able to speake what appertaineth both to thee and me Wherfore I humbly beseech thee that thou wilt not soe much consider what I say as what I desire to say Verily I greatlie desire to speake that of thee which is fittinge meete in respect that all praise thankesgiuinge and glorie is due vnto thee Thou knowest therefore o God from whom the very secrets of our hartes cannot be concealed that thou art more deare and acceptable to me then heauen and earthe and all thinges elsâ— that are therein for I loue thee aboue heauen and earthe and all other thinges contained in them yea soe greate loue is due to thy holy name as that in comparison thereof noe transitorie thinge doth deserue the fame I doe loue thee o my God very muche and doe desire to loue thee still more and more Giue me grace that I may alwaies loue thee accordinge to the greatnes of my affection and according to the greatnes of my obligation that thou onely maiest be my whole intention and my whole meditation Lett me thinke of thee in the day time without ceasinge Lett me dreame of thee in the night season Lett my soule talke to thee lett my minde discourse with thee Lett my harte be beautified by the light of thy holy sight that hauinge thee for my conductor and capitaine I may marche forewarde from vertue to venue and at length may beholde thee the God of Gods in Sion During the time of this life I doe see thee obscurelie as it were through a mrtroure or looking glasse but then I shall beholde thee apparentlie face to face where I shall knowe thee like as I am knowen of thee Blessed are the cleane in harte for they shall see God Blessed are they o Lord that dwell in thy house they shall praiâ—e thee worlde without end I beseeche thee therfore o Lord by thy manifolde mercies by which we are deliuered from eternall death mollifie my stonie harde harte harder then either stone or iron with thy most sacred and powerfull vnction and make me at all times to become a liuinge sacrifice in thy sight by the fire of compunctioÌ„ Make me to haue alwaies in thy sight a humble and contrite harte ioyned with aboundance of teares Make me in all my desires as one wholy deade to this wretched world and through the greatnes of the feare and loue of thee to forgett all thinges transitorie in so much as that I may neither greiue nor growe gladd at any temporall thinge being free from the feare loue of whatsoever passeth away with time beinge neither depraued through flattery nor dismaied through aduersitie And for that the loue of thee is forcible like vnto death graunt I beseeche thee that the fierie and sweete force of thy loue may wholy withdrawe my minde from all thinges vnder heauen that I may adhere to thee alone being fedd with the only memorie af thy sweetnes Lett the most odoâ—iferous smell of thee o Lord descende lett it descende I beseech thee lett it descende and with it lett the mellifluous loue of thee enter into my harte Let the admirable and vnspeakable fragrant sauoure of thee come vnto me causinge in me an eternall desire and affection and producinge in my harte fountaines of water flowinge into life euerlastinge Thou o Lord art infinitely good and therefore infinitelie to be loued and praysed of those whom thou hast redeemed with thy pretious bloud O most liberall louer of men most louinge Lord and most iust iudge to whom the Father hath committed all iudgment thou perceiuest in the most wise iudgement of thy righteousnesse whether this be iust and reasonable or noe that the children of this worlde of the night and darkenesse doe loue and seeke after riches and honoures that are transitorie and cannot long continue with a farr greater desire earnestnes and studie then we thy seruants doe loue and seeke after thee our God by whom we haue been made and redeemed For if one man loueth an other with soe greate affection as that the one can scarcely endure the other to
handewriting and saue me Behold I sigh to thee being thy creature recreate me being my Creator Beholde I whom thou hast made doe crie vnto thee thou that art life reuiue me Beholde I looke towardes thee being a peece of clay framed by thee thou art my maker repaire me Pardon me o Lord for that the dayes of my life are short and as it were nothinge What is man that he durst speake to God that made him Pardon me talking vnto thee Pardon thy seruant presuming to speake vnto soe greate a Lord. Necessiâ—ie hath noe lawe My greife compelleth me to speake the miseâ—ie which I sustaine constraineth me to crie vnto the. Beeing therfore sicke I crie vnto the phisition being blinde I hasten vnto the â—ight being deade I sighe after life Thou art my phisition o Iesus of Nazareth thou art my light thou art my life O Sonne of Dauid take pittie vppon me o fountaine of mercie be mercifull vnto me Heare what thy sicke patient saieth vnto thee O light which passest by expect him that is blinde lende him thy hande that he may come vnto thee and in thy light may see light O liuing life recall me that am deade to life What am I that doe speake vnto thee Woe be to me o Lord pardon me o Lord I am an vnhappie man A man I say borne of a woman liuinge but a short time replenished with many miseries a man I say become like vnto vanitie compared and very well likened vnto senslesse bruite beastes Againe what am I An obscure bottomelesse pitt a clodd of clay the sonne of anger and perdition begotten in filthines liuing in wretchednes and being to die in great anguish and distresse O wretche what am I O miserable man what shall I be A vessel of ordure and filthines a receptacle of rottennes full of stenche and loathsomenes blinde needie naked subiect to manifolde necessities subiect to miserie and mortalitie knowing neither my beginning nor my dyinge day Whose dayes and life passe and vanish away as the shadow of the Moone And as the blossomes of a tree growe and sodainely wither away soe doth the life of man now flowrishe and forthwith growe to decay My life I say is a life fraile and brittle a life which by how much the more it encreaseth by soe much the more it decreaseth by how much the more it hastneth on by soe much the more it draweth neere to deathe a life deceiptful like vnto a shadowe One while I am merrie and gladde and presentlie after sorrowefull and sadde Sometime sounde and then sodainely sicke now a liue and in a shorte time after I shal be deade sometimes I make a shew as if I were happie yet still in miserie sometimes I laughe and sodainely after I lament And all thinges are soe subiect to mutation as that nothing can be truly saied to remaine stable in the same state one onely hower of time Sometimes feare afflicteth vs at other times some sodaine chance affrighteth vs sometimes hunger vexeth vs at other times thirst tormenteth vs sometimes heate parcheth vs at other times colde pincheth vs sometimes sicknes molesteth vs at other times sadnes dâ—iâ—cteth vs. After these followeth deathe before he is expected bereauing wretched men by a thousande meanes dayly of theire liues and taking them on a sodaine before they be prepared One dieth of a feauer an other throughe sorrowe one fainteth and falleth downe deade through hunger an other through thirst one is drowned an other hanged one is burned an other with the teethe of wilde beastes is torne in pceces and deuoured One is slaine with the sworde an other poysoned an other dieth being by some soddaine accident onely affrighted And yet a greater miserie then all these is that albeit nothing is more certaine then deathe yet man knoweth not the time of his deathe and when he thinketh to stande most firme he is ouerthrowne and all his hopes come to nothinge Because man knoweth not when nor where nor how he shall die althoughe it be a thinge assured that he must die Beholde o Lord how greate mans miserie is in which I am and yet I am voide of feare Beholde how greate the calamitie is which I sustaine and yet I am voide of sorrowe and doe not crie to thee I will crie vnto thee o Lord before I passe out of this life to the end my passage may be nothing els but to remaine perpetuallie with thee I will therfore make knowne and discouer my wretchednes I will confesse and will not be ashamed to disclose my vildenes Helpe me o my force by whom I am vphelde succoure me o my strength by whom I sustained come o light by which I see appeare o glorie by which I reioyce apppeare o life in which I may liue eternallie blessed cuen thou o Lord my God Of the admirable light of God CHAPT III. O Light which ould Tobias being blinde did see when he taught his sonne the way of life That light which Isaac albeit his corporall eies failled him sawe within him when outwardlye he foretolde to this sonne thinges that were to come That inuisible light I say that seethe plainely the vnspeakeable depthe of mans harte That light which lacob did see when he prophesied of fuâ—uâ—e euents to his children according to that which thou didst inwardly dictate vnto him Beholde o Lord darknes doth ouershadowe the face of the bottomlesse depth of my minde thou art light Beholde an obscure mist doth ouerwhelme the waters of my harte thou art the truthe O Worde by which all thinges were made and without which was made nothing That Worde which is before all thinges and before which there was nothinge That Worde which gouerneth all thinges without which all thinges are nothing That Worde which in the beginning hast saied Let light be made and it was donne Say likewise to me let light be made and let it be donne and let me see the light and knowe whatsoeuer is not light because without thee darknes wil be vnto me as light and light as darknesse And soe without thy light there is noe veritie there is nothing els but errour and vanitie there is confusion and noe discretion there is ignorance and noe knowledge blindenes and noe seeing going astray and noe walking in the right way deathe and noe life Of the mortalitie of mans nature CHAPT IV. BEholde o Lord where light is absent there deathe is present nay deathe is not there present because deathe is meerelie nothinge For by deathe we tende to nothinge whilst by sinne we feare to doe nothing And truly o Lord this iustlie hapneth vnto vs for we receiue according to our actions whiles like a flowinge riuer we runne and come to nothinge because without thee there is made nothing and we by doing nothing come to be nothinge For without thee we are nothing by whom all thinges are made without whom there is made nothing O Lord God thou diuine Worde by whom all thinges are made
boasting minde but possesse my harte that it may alwaies thinke of thee Enlighten the eies of mine vnderstanding that they may see thee not be exalted in thy presence o glorie euerlasting but let them thinke humbly not looking ouer curiously on those wonderfull thinges that are aboue them Let them looke vppon those thinges that are on the right hande and not vpon those on the left that are displeasing vnto thee Let thy eie-lidds likewise guide my footestepps for that thy eie-lidds looke into the actions and thoughtes of the sonnes of men Breake and bruise my vnlawefull luste with thy sweetenes which thou hast reserued for those that feare thee to the end I may with an eternall desire couet thee least my internall taste being through vanities entseed and deceaued esteeme bitter to be sweete and sweete to be bitter darkenes to be light and light to be darkenes that I may escape free from such a multitude of snares wherewith all the worlde is replenished which our ghostly ennimic hath placed in the way of this life that we are to walke in therby to ensnare the soules of such as sinne Which he that saw it omitted not to tell vs of saying Whatsoeuer is in the worlde is either the concupiscence of the eies concupiscence of the flesh or pride of life Beholde o Lord my God the whole worlde is full of the snares of concupiscences which my ghostly ennimies haue prepared to intrappe me in and who shall be able to auoide them Verily he from whom thou shalt take away the concupiscence of the eies least the concupiscence of the eies doe entrappe him from whom thou shalt take away the concupiscence of the flesh least the concupiscence of the fleshe entice him and from whom thou shalt take away a bolde and boasting minde least pride of life doe craftely deceaue him O how happie is he to whoÌ„ thou shalt afforde this â—auoure because such a one shall passe without danger Wherfore I beseeche thee for thine owne sake o my Redeemer that thou wilt helpe me that I may not fall in the sight of mine aduersaries being taken in the snares which they haue prepared to entrap my feete therby to ouerthrowe my soule but deliuer me o strength of my saluation least thine ennimies which hate thee haue me in derision Arise o Lord my God thou that art my fortitude and let thine ennimies be dispersed let those that hate thee fly before thee yea like as waxe melteth away before the face of the fire euen soe let sinners consume in thy sight But let me remaine safe being hidden in the secret place of thy presence where abounding with all good thinges I may reioyce in the companie of thy children Listen o Lord God vnto the crie of thy children who art a father to the fatherlesse and a mother to such as are in distresse and stretch for the thy winges that we may flie vnder them from the face of our aduersarie O tower of the fortresse of Israel who wilt neither slumber nor sleepe garding and defending Israel for that the ennimie doth neither slumber not sleepe that opposeth Israel Of the miseries of man and the manifolde benefits of almighty God CHAPT XIII O Light not seene by any other light o brightnes not behelde by any other brightnes That light that darkneth all other light that brightnes that maketh dimme all externall brightnes O light from which all light is deriued o brightnes from which all brightnes doth proceede that brightnes in comparison of which all brightnes is but dimnes all light but darknes That light in whose presence all dimnes is turned into brightnes all darknes into light O supreme light by noe cloude enclouded by noe mist diminished by noe darknes darkned by noe obstacle enclosed by noe shadowe seuered and deuided O light which enlightnest all thinges wholy together seuerally and for euer let me be absorpt by thee into the bottoÌ„lesse depth of thy brightnes that on euerie side I may see thee in thee and me in thee and all thinges vnder thee Forsake me not o Lord I beseeche thee least the darknes of my ignorance and sinne increase Verilie without thee all thinges are darknes and sinne vnto me because nothing is good without thee the true sole and soueraigne good I confesse and acknowledge o Lord my God that wheresoeuer I am without thee it fareth not well with me neither without nor within me because without thee o my God I esteeme plentie to be pouertie I shall then be content and not before to wit when thy glorie shall appeare Giue me grace likewise o Lord who art my onely felicitie that I may confesse my miserie vnto thee I confesse therefore that as longe as the multiplicitie of temporall affaires did disperse and deuide me following my sensualitie from one thinge into many to wit from the supreame and onely good that is froÌ„ the vnitie of thy goodnes soe longe I had painefull plentie and plentifull pouertie poursuing many thinges and finding content in none for that I founde not thee with in me the assured singular inseparable and sole good which hauing now gotten I am noe more subiect to neede which hauing obtained I am now no more payned and greiued which hauing now in possession my whole desire is satisfied This is a miserie me thinke aboue other miseries to be lamented to see how my miserable soule doth forsake and abandon thee in whose company shee is alwaies riche and gladde and adhereth to the worlde with whom shee is alwaies poore and fadde The worlde crieth vnto vs saying I fade and thou o Lord callest vnto vs saying I feede and yet notwithstanding such is my peruerse miserie that it maketh choice rather to followe him that fadeth then him that feedeth me This is my infirmitie and disease Cure the same o Phisition of our soules to the end I may with my whole harte acknowledge vnto thee o Sauiour of my soule the manifold benefits with which thou hast nourished me from my tender youth vntill these my ould and last decrepit yeares For thine owne sake o Lord I beseeche thee not to forsake me when I was nothing thou hast created me when I was consumed through sinne thou hast redeemed me when I was past recouerie and deade through mine iniquitie thou hast come downe from heauen vnto me taking vpon thee my mortalitie thou I say being a king and Lord soe puissant hast descended from heauen vnto thy slaue and seruant rendring thy selfe captiue to reserue him a liue yea thou thy selfe hast died and by dying hast ouercome deathe to the end thou mightest restore me to life exalting me to my former dignitie by debasing thy selfe to soe greate pouerty When I was vtterly vndonne being gone astray and solde to sinne thou hast come into the worlde for my redemption and hast loued me soe dearely as that thou hast giuen thine owne blood for a ransome for me thou hast loued me o Lord more then
mine aduersarie o Lord is wily turning and winding diuers waies soe that the wilines of his waies and the forme of his countenance is very hardly knowne vnles thou illuminate our vnderstanding For sometimes he is heere sometimes there sometimes he transformeth himselfe into a wolfe sometimes into darknes sometimes into light vsing diuersitie of temptations according to qualities places and times and according to the variation of thinges For to deceiue those that are sad he seemeth to be sad to mocke those that are merrie to delude spirituall men he changeth himselfe into an Angell of light to subdue those that be feirce he becommeth milde like a lambe and to deuoure those that are milde he becommeth feirce like a wolfe All these temptations he putteth in practice according to the like-lihoode he hath that they will take effect to the end he may terrifie some with feare by night others with the arrowe that flyeth by day others with ghosts and gastly vsions walking in darknes others through feare of inuasions others with diabolicall temptations that happen at noone day Who then is able to knowe these thinges and to finde out his fallacies Who is able to describe the forme of his attire the hideous order of his teethe Beholde he hadeth his arrowes in the quiuer and couereth his snares vnder the forme of light in soe much that it is a thing almost impossible to perceiue them vnlesse we receiue light from thee o Lord who art our hope by which we may see all thinges Neither doth he hide his subtile snares in the workes of the fleshe onely which are easiely perceiued nor in vices onely but alsoe in Religious actes themselues making vices to seeme vertues and changing himselfe into an Angell of light These and many other abhominable enterprises doth this sonne of Belial SataÌ„ the diuell endeuoure to practice against vs lying in waite sometimes like a Lion sometimes like a Dragon openly and secretely within and without by day and by night to bereaue vs of our soules But thou o Lord who sauest those that truste in thee deliuer vs from him we beseeche thee that he may greiue to see vs deliuered and thou for the same maiest by vs be praysed o Lord our God A further acknowledging of the benefits of God CHAPT XVIII I Therfore the son of thy handemaide hauing alreaddy committed and commended my selfe into the hands of thy mercie will now with my whole harte confesse vnto thee o Lord my deliuerer and call to minde all the benefits which thou hast bestowed vpon me during my whole life euen from mine infancie Because I knowe that ingratitude doth very much displease thee being the roote of all spirituall euill and a winde that doth blaste and burne vp whatsoeuer is good hindering the fountaine of thy diuine goodnes from flowing into vs by meanes whereof our euill actions that were forgiuen and forgotten are againe remembred and our good workes become deade and are noe more obtained Wherefore o Lord my deliuerer I will giue thee thankes least I be founde to be vngratefull vnto thee for that thou hast deliuered me As often as that infernall Dragon hath swallowed me downe thou o Lord hast drawen me violently out of his mouth As often as I haue sinned and he was ready to deuoure me thou o Lord my God hast preserued me When I offended thee by breaking thy commaundements he stoode readie to hale me away to hell if thou hadst not hindered him I did offend thee and thou didst defende me I did not respect thee yet thou didst protect me I departed from thee seeking to ioyne my selfe to mine aduersarie and thou didst affright him to the end he shoulde not entertaine me These benefits o Lord my God thou didst bestowe vpon me and I knew it not Truly thou hast diuers times dealt in this mercifull manner with me deliueringe me out of the iawes of the Diuell snatching me out of the mouthe of the Lion yea thou hast often times saued me from fallinge into the pitt of eternall damnation I little thinking whither I was going Verily I haue descended to the very gates and thou hast kept me from entring in I drewe nigh to the dores of death and by meanes of thee they haue not beene shutt vpon me Thou hast deliuered me many times o my Sauiour from corporall deathe after the like manner When greuious sicknesses did afflict me when diuers dangers did affright me thou o Lord didst still assist and mercifullie saue me deliuering me both by sea and lande from fire and sworde and from all aduersitie Thou â—ruly o Lord didst knowe full well that if then I had chanced to dye my soule had gone to hell and I shoulde haue beene damned euerlastinglie But thy mercy and grace o Lord my God hath preuented me sauing me from the death both of soule and body These and many other benefits thou hast bestowed vpon me and I was blinde did not perceiue it vntill thou didst enlighten me Now therefore o Lord my God the light of my soule my life by which I liue the light of mine eies by which I see beholde thou hast enlightned me and I doe knowe thee because I doe liue by thee for which I doe hartely thanke thee offering thee prayses according to my poore abilitie although they are small of little value and nothing answerable to the manifold benefitts which I haue receiued froÌ„ thee Because thou art my onely God my kinde creator who louest our soules and hatest nothing that thou hast made Beholde I o Lord the cheife of al those sinners that thou hast saued will confesse and acknowledge the manifolde benefits which I haue receiued from thee to the eÌ„d I may stirre vp others to doe the like and be a witnes of thy wonderfull mercy because thou hast deliuered me from the lowest hell not once or twice or thrice onely but an huÌ„dred yea a thousande times I alwaies went on towardes hell and thou didst bring me back againe continuallie soe that if thou wouldest thou mightest a thousand times haue iustly damned me Yet thou wouldest not because thou dost loue our soules and in hope that we will amend and doe pennance thou dost as it were winke at our wickednes o Lord our God of much mercy in all thy wayes Now therfore o Lord my God I doe see and perceiue these thinges by meanes of the light which thou hast giuen me and my soule doth as it were faint by thinking of thy maruailous greate mercy towardes me for that thou hast deliuered my soule from the deepest hell and hast restored me to life I was wholie deade thou hast wholie raysed me Wherfore sithence that my whole life doth depende wholy of thee I doe wholy offer my whole selfe vnto thee Let my whole spirit my whole harte my whole body yea my whole life liue to thee my sweete life because thou hast wholy deliuered me that thou mightst wholy possesse me thou hast
immortall are by this meanes made immortal and incorruptible accordinge as our Lord and Sauiour hath promised saying O Father my will and desire is that those which thou hast giuen me may be present with me where I am to the end they may see my glorie that all may be one that as thou o Father art in me and I in thee euen soe they may be one in vs. Of the kingdome of heauen CHAPT VIII THe kingedome of heauen is a most happy kingdome free from death voide of end where time without succession of ages is still the same where one continuall day without interchaunge of night knoweth neither time past nor to come where the valiant souldier after many trauailes sustained and victorie obtained is with vnspeakeable guifts rewarded a crowne of endles blisse being set vpon his heade O would to God the multitude of my sinnes being forgiuen me it might please his diuine bounty to bidd me of al Christs seruants the most vnworthie to lay aside the burden of this my incorruptible body to the end I might enter into the endles ioyes of his heauenly citty there to finde rest for all eternitie that I might be placed to singe amongst the most sacred quires of those celestiall citizens that with those most blessed spirits I might helpe to sound forthe the praises of my maker and might in presence beholde the face of my God and Sauiour that I might be exemp◠from all feare of deathe and worldly miserie and might securelie reioyce through the incorruption of perpetuall immortalitie that I might be free from all blindnes of ignorance being vnited vnto him that knoweth all thinges I should little esteeme all thinges transitorie and shoulde scarce vouchsafe to cast mine eie or to thinke vpon this vale of teares any more where our life is subiect to affliction subiect to corruption where our life is replenished with al manner of bitternes being the mistres of miscreants and handmaide vnto hell it selfe whom humors puffe vp whom paines pull downe whom heates doe pearche whom the ayre maketh sicke whom feasting maketh fatt and fastinge maketh leane whom delightes make dissolute whom sorrowes doe consume whom pensiuenes doth oppresse whom security maketh dull whom riches lift vp and make stately whom pouertie doth abase and make lowly whom youth maketh to be magnified olde age to be crooked whom sicknes weakeneth and sadnes afflicteth Where the diuell lieth in waite to deceiue vs the worlde flattereth vs where the fleshe is delighted the soule is blinded and man on euery side is troubled and disquieted And close as it were at the heeles of all these euills doth furious deathe come after closinge vp the end of the delightes of this miserable life in that fashion as that being ended they are as if they had neuer beene begunne How God visiteth and comforteth that soule which with sighes and teares lamenteth his absence CHAP. IX Bvt what praises or thanks-giuing are we able o God to rendre vnto thee who ceasest not to comfort vs with the wonderfull visitation of thy grace euen amidst the manifold miseries of this our mortalitie For beholde whiles I feare what my end will be whiles I enter into consideration of my sinnes and iniquities whiles I am affrayed of thy iudgements whiles I thinke of the hower of my death whiles I shiuer and shake throughe the horrour of hell being ignorant how strictlie and seuerely my actions wil be examined by thee as alsoe not knowing what the end of them wil be Whiles with my selfe I say I consider secretly in my harte these and many other such like thinges thou o Lord my God accordinge to thy wonted goodnes dost come and comforte me poore wretche beinge wholy ouerwhelmed with heauines lifting vp my sad and sorrowfull soule amidst my manifolde wailinges and weepinges and profound sighes and lamentations aboue the highe toppes of the hilles euen vnto the bedds of sweete and fiagrant spices placing me in a place of pasture neere vnto the little brookes of sweete and pleasant waters preparing there in my presence a sumptuous banquet abounding with all varieties which may refresh my wearied spirit and make glad my sorrowfull harte At length being made stronge againe by these dainties and delicacies I growe to forget my manifold miseries for that I repose in thee the true peace being eleuated aboue all earthlie highnes Of the sweetnes of diuine loue CHAPT X. I Doe loue thee o my God I doe loue thee and doe desire to loue thee more and more Graunt me grace o Lord my God who in beauty dost surpasse the children of men that I may desire and loue thee according to the greatnes of mine affection and according to the greatnes of mine obligatiō Thou art infinite o Lord and therfore art infinitely to be loued especiallie of vs whom thou hast soe wonderfullie respected and saued for whom thou hast donne soe great thinges and such as are worthie to be admired O loue which dost alwaies burne and art neuer extinguished o sweete Christ o good Iesu my charitie and my God enflame me wholy with thy fire with the loue of thee with thy sweetnes with the delight and desire of thee with thy charitie with thy mirthe and gladnes with thy mercy and gentlenes with thy pleasure and affection which is holy good chast and cleane to the end that beinge wholy replenished with the sweetnes of thy loue being wholy made hotte with the flame of thy charitie I may loue the◠my Lord of surpassing great sweetnes and beauty with all my harte with all my soule with all my strength and with all mine intention with much cordiall contrition with many teares of deuotion with much reuerence and trembling hauing thee in my harte and in my mouth and before mine eies alwaies and euery where soe that noe place may be founde in me for the false loue of any creature Of the preparation of our Redemption CHAPT XI I Beseech thee most faire Iesu by that most sacred sheddinge of thy pretious bloude with which we are redeemed giue me contrition of harte and a fountaine of teares especiallie whiles I offer vnto thee praiers and petitions whiles I sing Psalmes of praise and thanks-giuing as often as I call to minde or speake of the mistery of our redemption being an euident token of thy infinite mercy and compassion As often as I stande at thy holie altar albeit vnworthy of soe greate an honoure desiring to offer vnto thee that wonderfull and celestiall sacrifice and oblation worthy of all reuerence and deuotion which thou o Lord my God the immaculate Priest hast instituted and appointed to be offered in remembrance of thy charitie that is of the deathe and passion which thou hast suffered for our deliuerie and for the dayly reparation of ou◠fragilitie Confirme my minde with the sweetnes of thy presence during the time of soe greate mysteries let it feele thy assistance and be filled with gladnes O fire which dost alwaies
abounde with all these aforesaid felicities Demaunde of the most secret corners and closets of thy hart whether they could containe the gladnes which would proceede froÌ„ soe great happines Certainely if an other whom thou didst loue aswell as thy selfe shoulde enioy the same happines thy ioy woulde be twice more then before because thou wouldest reioyce noe lesse for him then for thy selfe But if two or three or manie more should obtaine the same felicitie thou wouldest reioyce as much for each one of them as for thy selfe if thou didst loue each one of them as thy selfe How vnspeakable great ioy wil there be then in that perfect charitie of innumerable blessed Angells and men where noe man shall loue an other lesse then himselfe For euery one of them shal reioyce as much for eache one of the rest as for himselfe If therfore the harte of man shal hardlie be able to containe the ioy which it shall conceiue at his owne proper good how will it be capable of soe infinite many and great ioyes Moreouer seeing by how much the more euerie one loueth an other by soe much the more he reioyceth at the others good therfore as in that blessed felicity euery one without comparison shall loue God more then himselfe and all others that are with him soe he shall beyond all estimation farre more reioyce at the felicitie of God then at his owne and all others that are with him And albeit they shall loue God with their whole harte minde and soule yet all these art not sufficient to declare the dignitie of that loue which God will shew towardes them Verilie although they shal reioyce with their whole hart minde and soule yet all these are not enough to containe the fullnes of ioy which he will imparte vnto them Of the full and perfect ioy of life euerlasting CHAPT XXXVI O My God and my Lord my hope and the ioy of my harte tell my soule I beseech thee if this be the ioy of which thou hast spoken vnto vs by thy Sonne saying Aske and you shall haue that your ioy may be full Because I haue founde a certaine ioy altogether full yea more then ful In soe much that the harte being full the minde being full the soule being full and euerie parte of man being full there shall remaine yet an other ioy much more excellent then the former All that whole ioy therfore shall not enter into those that reioyce but al they that wholie reioyce shall enter into the ioy of their Lord. Tell me o Lord tell me thy poore vnworthy seruant in wardly in my harte if this be the ioy into which thy seruants shall enter those I meane that shall enter into the ioy of their Lord. But certainely that ioy in which thy elect shall reioyce neither eie hath seene nor care hath hearde neither hath it entred into the harte of man I haue not therfore as yet conceiued or spoken how much thy elect shall reioyce Doubtles they shall reioyce as much as they shall loue thee and they shal loue thee o Lord as much as they shall know thee And how much shall they loue thee Verily neither eie hath seene nor eare hath hearde neither hath it entred into the harte of man in this life how much they shall knowe and loue thee in the next life Giue me grace o my God to knowe and loue thee to the end I may reioyce in thee And albeit during the time of this mortal life I cannot loue thee fully yet let me profit and goe forewarde by louinge thee more and more daylie that soe at length I may loue thee perfectly Let thy knowledge here encrease in me that there it may be accomplished that here my ioy may be greate in hope and there perfect in deede I beseech thee o good God let me at length receiue that which thou hast promised to wit that my ioy may be fully accomplished In the interim let my mind mediate of it let my tongue talke of it let my harte affect it let my mouth speake of it let my soule hunger for it let my body thirst after it let my whole substaÌ„xsce desire it vntill I enter into the ioy of my Lord there to remaine for all eternitie Amen The end of S. Augustin's Manuel A WONDERFVL AND worthy saying of blessed S. Peter Damian Monke of the holy order of S. Bennet Cardinal of Ostia concerning the day of death LEt vs imagin how the time being now come in which the sinfull soule is to be seperated from the bandes of the body with how grieuous feare it is terrified with how greate anguishe of an afflicted conscience it is tormented It remembreth the thinges forbidden which it hath committed it beholdeth the commaundments of God which through negligence and contempt it hath omitted It grieueth that the time which iâ— had to doe pennance hath bene soe vainely employed it groaneth that the immutable moment of seuere reuenge is soe neare at haÌ„de not possibly to be auoided It would faine stay it is forced to depart It would faine recouer that which it hath lost and cannot be hearde It looketh backward vpon the course of its whole life past and esteemeth it to be but as it were one onelie little peace it looketh forewarde and seeth infinite worldes of time which shall neuer haue end It lamenteth therfore for hauing lost the ioyes of all eternitie which it might haue gained soe quickly It weepeth likewise that for soe short pleasure of the alluring flesh it is bereaued of the vnspeakeable sweetnes of euerlasting happines It blusheth to see that for that substance sake which is to be mâ—ate for wormes it hath neglected that which should haue bin placed amongst the quires of Angells At length it lifteth vp the eies of its minde and considering the glory of the immortall riches of heauen it is ashamed that for the loue of the beggeâ—â—e of this present life it hath lost that glory Againe when it looketh downewarde vpon the vale of this worlde as vpon a miste and contrariwise seeing aboue it the brightnes of that eternall light it plainely perceiueth that which it loued was but darknes and night if it coulde obtaine the fauoure to haue some little â—ime allotted to doe pennance and satisfaction how austere would it be in life and conuersation how many and how greate maters would it promise to performe How strictly would it binde it selfe to piety and deuotion In the meane season whilst the eie-sight faileth whilst the harte panteth whilst the throate the voyce being lost doth drawe breath with difficulty whilst the teeth by little and little growe black and as it were rusty whilst the countenance groweth pale and all the members of the body become stiffe through colde whilst these thinges I say and other such like happen as certaine signes of deathe approaching all its workes and wordess present themselues before it yea its very thoughtes are not wanting and all these giue bitter