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oh_o lord_n give_v i_o christ_n and_o i_o give_v my_o soul_n to_o christ_n that_o all_o my_o sin_n may_v be_v pardon_v and_o i_o now_o confess_v my_o sin_n before_o man_n but_o at_o the_o end_n of_o the_o world_n i_o must_v be_v judge_v by_o jesus_n christ_n now_o i_o desire_v the_o spirit_n of_o god_n will_v help_v i_o to_o confess_v all_o my_o sin_n to_o god_n that_o they_o may_v be_v pardon_v in_o jesus_n christ_n these_o confession_n i_o write_v in_o english_a from_o their_o mouth_n with_o the_o best_a of_o my_o endeavour_n both_o for_o diligence_n and_o also_o faithfulness_n and_o so_o soon_o as_o they_o have_v do_v i_o read_v they_o unto_o the_o elder_n and_o brethren_n and_o sister_n there_o present_a and_o that_o the_o substance_n hereof_o be_v deliver_v by_o they_o and_o faithful_o translate_v and_o deliver_v by_o i_o to_o the_o lest_o of_o my_o understanding_n i_o do_v here_o before_o the_o lord_n testify_z john_n eliot_n i_o do_v understand_v most_o thing_n that_o some_o of_o those_o indian_n speak_v and_o though_o other_o speak_v not_o so_o well_o to_o my_o understanding_n yet_o many_o thing_n i_o understand_v of_o what_o they_o all_o speak_v and_o thus_o much_o i_o may_v testify_v that_o according_a to_o what_o i_o understand_v the_o substance_n of_o their_o confession_n be_v here_o true_o set_v down_o john_n eliot_n jun._n waban_n be_v sick_a when_o the_o rest_n make_v their_o confession_n after_o the_o lord_n have_v restore_v he_o come_v to_o roxbury_n and_o
as_o other_o youth_n do_v at_o all_o these_o thing_n because_o thereby_o do_v original_a sin_n grow_v in_o i_o and_o hard_o it_o be_v to_o root_v it_o out_o and_o hard_a to_o believe_v after_o this_o i_o hear_v still_o and_o more_o i_o understand_v i_o hear_v gen._n 16._o that_o the_o people_n be_v full_a of_o sin_n lust_n and_o all_o other_o sin_n and_o therefore_o the_o lord_n destroy_v they_o and_o i_o know_v that_o i_o have_v the_o same_o sin_n and_o therefore_o i_o be_v afraid_a but_o i_o fear_v only_o this_o bodily_a life_n and_o not_o for_o my_o soul_n after_o this_o my_o heart_n do_v a_o little_a desire_n to_o pray_v to_o god_n because_o god_n find_v noah_n righteous_a and_o do_v save_v he_o therefore_o i_o desire_v to_o pray_v but_o again_o i_o lay_v it_o by_o and_o i_o say_v it_o be_v vain_a to_o pray_v for_o if_o i_o pray_v and_o shall_v commit_v sin_n i_o shall_v be_v punish_v or_o imprison_v but_o if_o i_o pray_v not_o i_o may_v commit_v what_o sin_n i_o will_v and_o have_v no_o punishment_n for_o it_o about_o a_o year_n after_o i_o hear_v the_o minister_n teach_v another_o word_n that_o the_o death_n of_o christ_n be_v precious_a and_o our_o death_n be_v nothing_o worth_a therefore_o god_n promise_v pardon_n of_o all_o sin_n for_o christ_n his_o sake_n he_o bid_v we_o remember_v this_o against_o next_o time_n when_o he_o come_v again_o he_o ask_v i_o and_o i_o do_v remember_v it_o and_o do_v to_o this_o day_n but_o i_o confess_v i_o do_v not_o believe_v only_o i_o do_v remember_v it_o and_o answer_v when_o i_o be_v ask_v and_o then_o again_o i_o desire_v to_o pray_v to_o god_n and_o will_v not_o go_v away_o but_o it_o be_v because_o i_o love_v our_o place_n and_o dwelling_n i_o pray_v but_o i_o believe_v not_o i_o consider_v not_o eternal_a life_n but_o only_o this_o worldly_a life_n and_o thus_o i_o go_v on_o till_o they_o choose_v ruler_n at_o natik_a they_o choose_v i_o and_o i_o refuse_v because_o i_o believe_v not_o after_o that_o my_o wife_n and_o child_n die_v and_o i_o be_v sick_a to_o death_n but_o live_v again_o and_o be_v well_o i_o think_v i_o can_v not_o pray_v i_o be_v a_o child_n and_o therefore_o can_v not_o i_o put_v off_o pray_v to_o god_n my_o relation_n die_v and_o why_o shall_v i_o pray_v but_o than_o i_o consider_v why_o do_v god_n thus_o punish_v i_o yea_o the_o minister_n speak_v to_o i_o about_o it_o and_o say_v it_o may_v be_v it_o be_v because_o i_o refuse_v to_o do_v god_n work_n as_o moses_n when_o he_o first_o refuse_v god_n be_v patient_a but_o when_o he_o persist_v in_o his_o refusal_n god_n be_v angry_a and_o than_o my_o heart_n see_v my_o sin_n and_o then_o my_o heart_n almost_o believe_v i_o desire_v to_o do_v right_a and_o to_o keep_v the_o sabbath_n for_o i_o further_o hear_v in_o the_o four_o commandment_n remember_v the_o sabbath_n to_o keep_v it_o holy_a and_o psa._n 101._o i_o will_v walk_v wise_o in_o a_o perfect_a way_n also_o in_o isay_n 58._o if_o thou_o turn_v away_o thy_o foot_n from_o the_o sabbath_n and_o do_v not_o thy_o own_o work_n nor_o find_v thy_o own_o pleasure_n nor_o speak_v thy_o own_o word_n therefore_o my_o soul_n desire_v to_o keep_v the_o sabbath_n than_o the_o soldier_n come_v upon_o we_o on_o the_o sabbath_n day_n while_o we_o be_v at_o meeting_n and_o take_v away_o our_o gun_n and_o cause_v we_o to_o bring_v they_o as_o far_o as_o roxbury_n that_o night_n my_o heart_n be_v break_v off_o my_o heart_n say_v god_n be_v not_o the_o sabbath_n be_v not_o it_o be_v not_o the_o lord_n day_n for_o be_v it_o so_o the_o soldier_n will_v not_o have_v then_o come_v then_o my_o heart_n cast_v off_o pray_v than_o we_o come_v before_o the_o magistrate_n and_o cutshamoquin_fw-la ask_v why_o they_o come_v on_o the_o sabbath-day_n it_o be_v answer_v that_o it_o be_v lawful_a but_o i_o do_v not_o understand_v it_o that_o day_n i_o be_v very_o thirsty_a do_v drink_v too_o much_o and_o be_v bring_v before_o the_o magistrate_n and_o be_v ashamed_a i_o come_v to_o roxbury_n to_o the_o minister_n and_o there_o i_o be_v ashamed_a also_o because_o i_o have_v great_o sin_v then_o i_o cry_v to_o god_n for_o free-mercy_n because_o precious_a be_v the_o death_n of_o christ_n oh_o pardon_v this_o my_o sin_n yet_o again_o i_o have_v temptation_n to_o drink_v and_o then_o i_o consider_v what_o a_o great_a sinner_n i_o be_v even_o like_o a_o beast_n before_o god_n then_o i_o hear_v that_o word_n mat._n 5._o he_o that_o break_v the_o beast_n of_o god_n command_n and_o teach_v other_o so_o to_o do_v shall_v be_v the_o least_o in_o the_o kingdom_n of_o heaven_n my_o heart_n say_v lord_n such_o a_o one_o have_v i_o be_v for_o i_o have_v be_v a_o active_a sinner_n yet_o i_o cry_v again_o for_o mercy_n o_o lord_n free_o pardon_v my_o great_a sin_n again_o i_o confess_v i_o be_o very_o weak_a even_o like_o a_o very_a child_n and_o i_o so_o walk_v and_o know_v not_o what_o to_o do_v if_o i_o die_v i_o fear_v i_o shall_v die_v in_o my_o sin_n yet_o i_o cry_v again_o o_o god_n pardon_v i_o for_o christ_n his_o sake_n again_o further_o i_o confess_v that_o when_o i_o be_v trouble_v about_o our_o want_n poverty_n and_o nakedness_n i_o consider_v that_o text_n fox_n have_v hole_n and_o bird_n have_v nest_n but_o the_o son_n of_o man_n have_v not_o whereon_o to_o lay_v his_o head_n and_o again_o mat._n 6._o the_o bird_n plough_v not_o and_o the_o flower_n spin_v not_o and_o yet_o god_n do_v both_o feed_n and_o clothe_v they_o and_o therefore_o be_v not_o overmuch_o trouble_v about_o these_o thing_n yet_o i_o desire_v to_o follow_v labour_n with_o my_o hand_n because_o gen_n 1._o god_n give_v adam_n dominion_n over_o the_o creature_n and_o command_v he_o to_o till_v the_o ground_n and_o gen._n 2._o he_o set_v he_o in_o the_o garden_n and_o command_v he_o to_o dress_v it_o and_o keep_v it_o also_o gen._n 3._o he_o say_v thou_o shall_v eat_v thy_o bread_n in_o the_o sweat_n of_o thy_o face_n all_o thy_o day_n till_o thou_o return_v to_o thy_o dust_n when_o i_o remember_v these_o thing_n my_o heart_n do_v bow_v to_o labour_v also_o i_o hear_v that_o riches_n be_v the_o root_n of_o all_o evil_a and_o dives_fw-la with_o his_o fine_a apparel_n and_o dainty_a fare_n be_v in_o hell_n and_o poor_a lazarus_n be_v in_o heaven_n when_o my_o heart_n be_v trouble_v about_o our_o land_n â—nd_v about_o riches_n i_o quiet_v my_o heart_n with_o these_o meditation_n also_o i_o further_o hear_v when_o my_o heart_n be_v trouble_v about_o salvation_n and_o doubt_v i_o hear_v that_o there_o be_v no_o mean_n of_o salvation_n but_o christ_n not_o any_o thing_n in_o the_o world_n can_v carry_v we_o to_o heaven_n only_a christ_n which_o i_o do_v believe_v by_o gen._n 28._o where_o jacob_n dream_v a_o dream_n and_o he_o see_v a_o ladder_n which_o stand_v on_o earth_n and_o the_o top_n reach_v up_o to_o heaven_n and_o that_o ladder_n be_v christ_n who_o be_v man_n and_o so_o touch_v the_o earth_n and_o god_n and_o so_o be_v in_o heaven_n and_o by_o believe_v in_o he_o we_o ascend_v to_o heaven_n as_o by_o a_o ladder_n this_o help_v i_o almost_o to_o believe_v and_o i_o cry_v oh_o christ_n be_v thou_o my_o ladder_n to_o heaven_n again_o ioh._n 14._o christ_n say_v none_o come_v to_o the_o father_n but_o by_o i_o therefore_o i_o believe_v nothing_o can_v carry_v i_o to_o god_n but_o only_o christ_n if_o i_o penitent_o believe_v in_o he_o again_o i_o confess_v i_o do_v still_o find_v myself_o very_o weak_a to_o resist_v sin_n for_o if_o i_o read_v and_o teach_v on_o the_o sabbath_n i_o teach_v indeed_o but_o i_o do_v not_o as_o i_o ought_v and_o therefore_o that_o word_n of_o christ_n do_v rebuke_v i_o mat._n 23._o hear_v and_o do_v what_o they_o say_v but_o do_v not_o as_o they_o do_v when_o i_o do_v among_o other_o reprove_v sinner_n that_o word_n of_o christ_n reprove_v i_o thou_o hypocrite_n first_o cast_v the_o beam_n out_o of_o thy_o own_o eye_n and_o then_o thou_o may_v see_v clear_o so_o cast_v the_o moat_n out_o of_o thy_o brother_n eye_n again_o when_o i_o pray_v i_o find_v hypocrisy_n in_o my_o heart_n to_o do_v it_o to_o be_v see_v of_o man_n and_o that_o word_n of_o christ_n reprove_v i_o mat._n 6._o they_o pray_v to_o be_v sâ—en_v of_o man_n very_o they_o have_v their_o reward_n and_o then_o i_o cry_v mighty_o to_o god_n o_o lord_n help_v i_o pardon_v i_o what_o shall_v i_o do_v again_o i_o hear_v mat._n 9_o the_o son_n of_o man_n have_v power_n to_o pardon_v sin_n on_o earth_n and_o therefore_o i_o o_o lord_n then_o