Adam hath brought me no creature shall keepe me backe and though thou earthly body shouldest thereby decay and perish yet I will now enter with my will and whole desire into the Garden of Roses of my Redeemer Iesus Christ through his suffering and death into him and in the death of Christ subdue thee thou earthly body which hath swallowed up my Pearle from me which God gave to my Father Adam in Paradise and I will breake the will of thy voluptuousnesse which is in vanity and binde thee as a mad-dogge with the chaine of my earnest purpose and though thereby thou should'st become a foole in the account of all men yet thou must and shalt obey the earnest purpose of my soule none shall unloose thee from this chaine but the temporall death Whereto God and his strength helpe me Amen A short Direction How the poore soule must come before God againe and how it must fight for the noble garland what kinde of weapons it must use if it will goe to warres against Gods Anger against the Devill the World and Sinne against flesh and bloud also against the influence of the stars and elements and all his other enemies BEloved Soule there is earnestnesse required to doe this it must not be a meere commemoration or repeating of words the earnest resolved will must drive this worke else nothing will be attained For if the soule will obtaine the triumphant Garland of Christ from the Noble Sophia it must wooe her for it in great desire of love to get it at her hands it must intreate her in her most holy Name for it and come before her in most modest humility and not like a lustfull Bull or a wanton Venus for so long as any are such they must not desire these things for they shall not obtaine them and though something should be obtained by such in that condition it would be but as a glimpse but a chast and modest minde may well obtaine so much as to have the soule in its noble Image which died in Acam quickened in the heavenly Corporality as to the inward ground and put on the Garland yet if this come to passe it is taken off againe from the soule and layed by as a Crowne useth to be after a King is crowned with it it is layed by and kept so it is also with the soule because it is yet encompassed with the house of sinne that if the soule should fall againe it Crowne might not be defiled This â— spoken plainely enough for the children that know and have tried these things None of the wicked are worthy to know any more of them The Processe A sober minde is there requisite which in an earnest purpose all deepests humility with sorrow for â— sinnes cometh before God in which there is such a resolution that a man will not enter any more into the old footsteps of vanity and though the whole world should account him a foole for it and he should loose both Honour and Goods nay and the temporall life also yet he would abide constant therein If ever he will obtaine the love and marriage of the noble Sophia he must make such a vow as this in his purpose and minde For Christ himselfe sayth He that forsaketh not wife and children brethren and sisters money and goods and all that even he hath and even his earthly life to follow me he is not worthy of me Here Christ meaneth the Mind of the soule so that if there were any thing that would keepe the mind backe from it though it have never so faire and glorious a pretence or shew in this world the minde must not regard it but rather part with it then with the love of the Noble Virgine Sophia in the bud and blossome of Christ in his tender Humanity in us as to the Heavenly Corporality For this is the Flower in Sharon the Rose in the Valley wherewith Solomon delighteth himselfe and termeth it his deare Love his chast Virgine which he loved so much as all other Saints before and after him did whosoever hath obtained her called her his pearle After what manner to pray for it you may â—ee by this short direction following the worke it selfe must be committed to the Holy Ghost in every heart wherein it is sought he â—ormeth and frameth the Prayer for him The Prayer I Poore unworthy person come before thee O Great and Holy God and I lift up mine eyes to thee though I be noâ— worthy yet thy great mercy viz. thy faithfull Promise in thy word hath now encoucouraged me to lift the eyes of the deâ—iâ—e of my soule up to thee for my soule hath now layd hold on the word of thy promise and received it into it and therewith it conâ—eth to thee and though â—t be but a sâ—â—ange childe before thee which was dâ—sâ—â—bedieâ—t unto thee yet now it desireth to be obedient and my soule doth now iâ—fold it selfe with its desire into that word which became man which became flesh and bloud which hath broken 〈◊〉 and death in my humanity which hath changed the Anger of God into love in the soule which hath deprived death of its power and hell of its victory in soule and body which hath opened a gate for my soule to the cleare face of thy strength and power O Great and Most Holy God I have brought the hunger and desire of my soule into this most holy Word and now I come before thee and in my hunger call into thee thou living fountain through thy word which became flesh and bloud thy word being become the life in our flesh therefore I receive it firmely into the desire of my soule as my owne life and I pâ—erce into thee with the desire of my soul through the word in the flesh of Christ viz. through his holy conception in the Virgine Mary his whole Incarnation his holy Nativity his Baptisme in Jordan his temptation in the wilâ—ernene where he overcame the Kingdome of the Devill and of this world in the Humanity through all his powerfull miracles which he did on earth through his reproach and ignominy his innocent death and passion the shedding of his bloud when Gods anger in soule and flesh was drowned through his rest in the Sepulcher when he awaked our father Adam ouâ— of his sleepe who was fallen into a dead sleepe as to the Kingdome of Heaven through his love which pierced through the Anger and destroyed Hell in the soule through his resurrection from the dead his ascention the sending of the holy Spirit into our soule and spirit and through all his words and promises one of which is that thou O God the Father wilt give the holy Spirit to them that aske it in the Name and through the Word which became man O thou life of my flesh and of my soule in Christ my Brother I beseech thee in the hunger of my soule and intreate thee with all my powers though they be
he will depart and leave his fort of prey here heaven and hell are fighting one against the other Now if the soule continue constant and getteth the victory over the devill in all his aâ—â—aults disesteeming all temporall things for the love of its noble Sophia then the precious garland will be set upon it for a token of victory Here the virgine which manifesteth her selfe from the deare name JESUS with Christ the treader upon the Serpent Gods anointed commeth to the soule and kisseth it with her sweetest love in the essence most inwardly and impresseth her love into its desire for a token of victory and here Adam in his heavenly part riseth againe from death in Christ of which I cannot write for there is no pen in this world that can expresse it it is the wedding of the Lambe where the noble Pearle is sowne with very great triumph though in the beginning it be small like a graine of mustard-seed as Christ saith Now when the wedding is over the soule must take heed that this Tree oft spring and grow as it hath promised its Virgine For then the Devill will presently come with his tempestuous storme ungodly people who will scoffe at contemne and crie down this for madnesse and then a man must enter into the Processe of Christ under his crosse Here it will appeare indeed and in truth what Christians we are here he must suffe himselfe to be proclaimed a fooâ—e and ungodly wretch nay his greatest friends who favoured him or flattered him in the lusts of the flesh will now be his enemies and though they know not why yet they will hate him thus Christ hideth his Bride wholy under the crosse that she may not be knowne in this world The Devill also striveth that these children may be hidden from the world lest perhaps many such branches should grow in that Garden which he supposeth to be his This I have set downe for the Information of the Christian-minded Reader that he might know what to doe if the same should befall him A very earnest Prayer in Temptation Against Gods Anger in the Conscience and also against flesh and bloud when the Tempter cometh to the soule and wrestleth with it MOst deep Love of God in Christ Jesus leave me not in this distresse I confesse I am guilty of the sinnes which now rise up in my minde or conscience if thou forsake me I must sinke hast thou not promised me in thy word saying If a mother could forget her child which yet can hardly be yet thou wilt not forget me thou hast set me as a signe in thine hands which were pierced through with sharpe nailes and in thy open side whence bloud and water gushed out Poore man that I am I am caught in thy Anger and can in my ability doe nothing before thee I sink my selfe downe into thy wounds and death O Great Mercy of God I beseech thee deliver me from the Bonds of Satan I have no refuge in any thing but onely in thy holy wounds and death into thee I sinke downe in the anguish of my conscience doe with me what thou wilt In thee I will now live or die as pleaseth thee let me but die and perish in thy death do but bury me into thy death that the anguish of hell may not touch me How can I excuse my selfe before thee that knowest my heart and reines and settest my finnes before mine eyeâ— I am guilty of them and yeeld my self into thy Judgement accomplish thy Judgment upon me through the Death of my Redeemer Jesus Christ. I fly unto thee thou righteous Iudge through the Anguish of my Redeemer Iesus Christ when he did sweate the bloudy sweat on the Mount of olives for my sake and was scourged of Pontius Pilate for me and suffered a crown of thornes to be pressed on upon his head that his bloud came forth O Righteous God hast thou not set him in my stead he was innocent but I guilty for whom he suffered wherefore should I despaire under thy wrath O blot out thy anger in me through his anguish passion death I give my selfe wholly into his anguish passion death I will stand still in his anguish passion before thee do with me what thou pleasest onely let me not depart from his anguish thou hast freely given me his anguish and drowned thy Wrath in him and though I have not accepted it but am departed from him and am become faithlesse yet thou hast given me this precious pledge in my flesh and bloud for he hath taken my flesh and soule upon his heavenly flesh and bloud and hath satisfied the Anger in my flesh and soule in him with his heavenly bloud Therfore receive me now in his satisfaction and put his anguish passion and death in thy wrath which is kindled in me and breake thy Iudgement in me in the bloud of his love O Great Love in the Bloud and and Death of Iesus Christ I beseech thee breake the Fort of prey which the Devill hath made and built up in me where he resisteth me in the way of thy grace drive him out of me that he may not overcome me for no one living can stand in thy fight if thou withdraw thy hand from him O come thou breaker through the Anger of God destroy its power helpe my poore soule to fight and overcome it O bring me into thy victory and uphold me in thee breake in peeces its seate in my vanity that is kindled in my soule and flesh O mortifie the desire of my vanity in flesh and bloud which the Devill hath now kindled by his false desire by hellish anguish desperation O quench it with thy water of eternall life bring my anguish forth through thy death I wholy sink my selfe down into thee and though both soul and body should this houre faint and perish in thy wrath yet I will not let thee goe Though my heart saith utterly no no yet the desire of my soule shall hold fast on thy truth which neither death nor the devill shall take away from me For the Bloud of Iesus Christ the Sonne of God cleanseth us from all our sinnes this I lay hold on and let the Anger of God doe what it will with my sinne and let the Devill roare over my soule in his Fort of prey which he hath made as much as he will Neither the Devill Death nor Hell shall pull me out of my Saviours wounds Thou must at length be confounded in me thou noysome devill and thy fort of prey must be forsaken for I will drowne it in the love of Iesus Christ and then dwell in it if thou canst Amen An Information in Temptation BEloved Reader this is no jesting matter he that accounteth it so hath not tried it neither is he judged as yet and though it should be deferred till his last end which is dangerous yet he must passe through this Iudgement Happy
imagination and make it my own this it is to beleeve 90. The will must goe forth from the vanity of the flesh and willingly yeeld it selfe up to the suffering and death of Christ and to all the reproach of vanity which scorneth it because it goeth forth from its owne house wherein it was born and minds vanity no more but meerly desires love of God in Christ Jesus 91. In such a hunger and desire the will impresseth into it self the Spirit of Christ with his heavenly corporality that is its great hunger and desire taketh hold of and receiveth the body of Christ viz. the heavenly substantiality into its disappeared Image within which the word of the power of God is the working 92. The hunger of the soule bringeth its desire quite through the bruised property of its humanity in the heavenly part which disappeared in Adam which humanity the sweet fire of love in the death of Christ did bruise when the death of that heavenly humanity was destroyed 93. And so the hunger of the soule received into it into its disappeared corporality through the desire the holy heavenly substance viz. the heavenly corporality Christs heavenly corporality which filleth the Father all over and is high unto all and through all things And through that the disappeared heavenly body riseth in the power of God in the sweet name Jesus And this raised heavenly spirituall body is the member of Christ and the Temple of the holy Ghost a true mansion of the holy Trinity according to Christs promise saying we wil come to you and make our abode in you 95. That essence of that life eateth the flesh of Christ and drinketh his bloud For the Spirit of Christ viz. the Word which made it selfe visible with the humanity of Christ out of and in our disappeared humanity through the outward man of the substance of this world swalloweth its holy substance into its fiery every spirit eateth of its own body 96. Now if the soule eat of this sweet holy and heavenly food then it kindleth it selfe with the great love in the Name JESUS whence its fire of anguish becommeth a great triumph and glory and the true Sunne ariseth to it wherin it is born to another will 97. And here is the wedding of the Lamb which we heartily wish that the Titular and Lip-christians might once find by experience and so passe from the history into the substance 98. But the soule obtaineth not the pearle of the Divine power and vertue for its proper own during the time of this life because it hath the outward bestiall flesh sticking to its outward man 99. The power of which espouseth it selfe in the wedding of the Lamb sinketh it selfe down into the heavenly Image viz. into the substance of the heavenly Man who is the Temple of Christ and not into the fire-breath of the soul which is yet during this whole lifes time fast bond to the outward Kingdome to the bond of vanity with the breath of the aire and is in great danger 100. It darteth its beames of love indeed very often into the soul whereby the soule receiveth light but the Spirit of Christ yeeldeth not it self up to the fire-breath in this lifes time but to the breath of light onely which was extinguished in Adam in which the Temple of Christ is for it is the true and holy heaven 101. Understand aright now what the New-birth or Regeneration is and how it commeth to passe as followeth The outward earthly mortall man is not born anew in this lifes time nor the outward flesh nor the outward part of the soule they continue both of them in the vanity of their wills which awaked in Adam they love their mother in whose body they live viz. the Dominion of this outward world and therein the birth of sin is manifest 102. The outward man in soule flesh we mean the outward part of the soule hath no Divine will neither doth he understand any thing of God as the Scripture saith The naturall man perceiveth nothing of the Spirit of God c. 103. But the Fire-breath of the inward world if it be enlightned once understandeth it It hath a great longing sighing hunger and thirst after the sweet fountain of Christ it refresheth it selfe by hungring and desiring which is the true faith in the sweet Fountain of Christ from his new body from the heavenly substantiality as a hungry Branch in the Vine Christ. 104. And the cause why the fiery soule cannot attain to perfection during this lifes time is because it is fast bound with the outward bond of vanity through which the Devill continually casteth his venemous Rayes of influence upon it and so fifteth it that it often biteth at his bait and poysoneth it selfe from whence misery and anguish ariseth so that the Noble Sophia hideth her selfe in the Fountain of Christ in the heavenly humanity for she cannot draw neere to vanity 105. For she knew how it went with her in Adam when she lost her Pearle which is of grace freely bestowed again upon the inward humanity therefore she is called Sophia viz. the Bride of Christ. 106. Here she faithfully calleth to the fiery soule viz. to her Bridegroom and exhorteth him to repentance and to the unburthening of himselfe or going from the abomination of vanity 107. Here warre assaulteth the whole man wherein the outward fleshly man lusteth against the inward spirituall man and the Spirituall against the fleshly and so man is in continuall warfare and strife full of trouble misery anguish and care 108. The inward saith to the fiery soule O my soule O my love turne I beseech thee and goe forth from vanity or else thou losest my love and the noble Pearle 109. Then saith the outward Reason viz. the bestiall soule Thou art foolish wilt thou be a foole and the scorn of the world Thou needest the outward world to maintain this life beauty power and glory is thy chiefest Treasure wherein onely thou canst rejoyce and take delights Why wilt thou cast thy selfe into anguish misery and reproach Take thyâ— pleasure which will doe both thy flesh and thy â—mind good 110 With such filth the true man is often defiled viz. the outward man defileth himselfe as a Sow in the mire and obscureth his Noble Pearle For the more vain the outward man groweth the more dark the inward man cometh to be till at length it disappeareth together 111. And then the faire Paradificall Tree is gone and it will be very hard to recover it again for when the outward light viz. the outward soule is once enlightned so that the outward light of Reason is kindled by the inward light then the outward soule commonly useth to turn hypocrite and esteem it selfe divine and though the Pearle be gone which sticks hard to many a man 112. And so the tree of Pearle in the Garden of Christ is often spoyled concerning which the Scripture maketh a hard knot or conclusion
THE WAY TO CHRIST Discovered BY IACOB BEHMEN In these Treatises 1. Of true Repentance 2. Of true Resignation 3. Of Regeneration 4. Of the Super-rationall life ALSO The Discourse of illumination The Compendium of Repentance And the mixt world c. LONDON Printed by M. S. for H. Blunden at the Castle in Corn-hill 1648. THE FIRST BOOK Of true Repentance SHEWING How man should stir up himself in mind and will in himselfe and what his earnest purpose and consideration must be Written in the Germane Language Anno 1622. BY JACOB BEHMEN MARK 1. 15. The time is fulfilled and the Kingdome of God is come neer Repent and believe the Gospel Printed by M. S. 1648. The AUTHORS Preface to the Reader that loveth God REader who lovest God if thou wilt use this Booke aright and act in good earnest thou shalt certainely finde the benefit thereof but I desire thou mayest be warned that if thou art not in earnest not to meddle with the deare Names of God in which and by which the Most High Holinesse is named stirred and powerfully desired lest they kindle the Anger of God in thy soule For we must not abuse the Holy Names of God This little Booke is onely for those that would faine repent and are in a desire to beginne Both sorts will finde what manner of words are therein and whence they are born Be you herewith commended to the Eternall goodnesse and mercy of God OF TRUE REPENTANCE How Man must stirre up himself in will and minde and what his consideration and earnest purpose must be when he will performe powerfull and effectuall Repentance and with what mind he must appeare before God when he will aske and obtaine of him remission of sinnes WHen man will go about Repentance and with his prayers turne to God before he begin to pray he must consider his own minde that it is wholly and altogether turned away from God that it is become faithlesse to God that it is onely bent upon this temporall fraile and earthly life bearing no sincere love towards God and his neighbour and also that it wholy lusteth and walketh contrary to the commandements of God seeking it selfe onely in the temporall and transitory lusts of the flesh Secondly he must consider that all this is an enmity against God which Satan hath raised and stirred up in him by his deceit in our first Parents for which abominations sake we die the death and must undergo corruption with our bodies Thirdly he must consider the three horrible chaines wherewith our soule is fast bound during the time of this earthly life the first is the severe Anger of God the Abysse and darke world which is the Center and creaturly life of the soule The second is the desire of the devill against the soule whereby he continually fifteth and tempteth the soul and without intermission striveth to throw it from the truth of God into vanity viz. into pride covetousnesse envie and anger and with his desire bloweth up and kindleth those evill properties in the soule whereby the will of the soule turneth away from God and entreth into selfe The third and most hurtfull chaine wherewith the poore soule is tied is the corrupt altogether vaine earthly and mortall flesh and blood full of evill desires and inclinations Here he must consider that he lieth close prisoner with soule and body in the mire of sinnes in the anger of God in the jawes of the pit of Hell that the anger of God burneth in him in soule and body and that he is that stinking keeper of Swine that hath spent and consumed his fathers inheritance viz. the love and mercy of God with the fatted swine of the divill in earthly pleasures and hath not observed the deare Covenant and atonement of the innocent death and passion of Jesus Christ which Covenant God of meere Grace hath given into our humanity and reconciled us in him also he must consider that hee hath wholy forgotten the Covenant of holy Baptisme in which he hath promised to be faithfull and true to his Saviour and so wholy defiled and obscured his righteousnesse with sinne which righteousnesse God hath freely bestowed upon him in Christ that hee now standeth before the face of God with the faire garment of Christs innocency which he hath defiled as a dirty ragged and patched keeper of Swine that hath continually eaten the graines of vanity with the devills swine and is not worthy to be called a Sonne of the Father and member of Christ. Fourthly he must earnestly consider that wrathfull death waiteth upon him every houre and moment and will lay hold on him in his sinnes in his garment of a Swine keeper and throw him into the pit of hell as a for sworne person and breaker of faith who ought to be kept in the darke dungeon of death to the judgement of God Fifthly he must consider the earnest and severe judgement of God where he shall be presented living with his abominations before the judgement all those whom he hath here offended and injured with words and works and caused to doe evill so that by his instigation or compulsion they also have committed evill shall come in against him cursing him and all this before the eyes of Christ and also before the eyes of all holy Angels and men and that there he shall stand in great shame and ignominy and also in great terror and eternall desperation and that it shall for ever grieve him that he hath fool'd away so great and eternall happinesse and salvation for the pleasure of so short a time and not looked to himselfe better that he might also have beene in the communion of the Saints and have injoyed eternall light and divine power and vertue Sixtly he must consider that the ungodly loseth his noble image God having created him for his Image and getteth in stead thereof a deformed vizard like a hellish worme or ugly Beast wherein he is Gods enemy and against heaven and all holy Angels and men and that his communion is for ever with the devills and hellish wormes in the horrible darknesse Seventhly He must earnestly consider the eternall punishment and torment of the damned that in eternall horror they shall suffer torments in their abominations which they have committed here and may never see the land of the Saints in all eternity nor get any ease or refreshment as appeareth by Dives the rich man All this man must earnestly and seriously consider and remember that God hath created him in such a faire and glorious Image in his owne likenesse in which he himselfe will dwell that he hath created him in his praise for mans owne eternall joy and glory viz that he might dwell with the holy Angels and children of God in great joy power and glory in the eternall light in singing and melodious harmonie of the angelicall and divine Kingdome of joy to rejoyce eternally with the children of God without
that I may die from my vanity and sinne in the death of my Redeemer Jesus Christ. O thou breath of the great love of God quicken I beseech thee my weake breath in me that it may begin to hunger and thirst after thee O Lord Jesus thou sweete strength I beseech thee give my soule to drinke of thy fountaine of Grace thy sweete water of eternall life that it may awake from death and thrist after thee O how extreame fainting I am for want of thy strength O mercifull God doe thou turne me I beseech thee I can not turn my selfe O thou vanquisher of death helpe me I pray thee to wrestle How fast doth the Enemy hold me with his three chaines and will not suffer the desire of my soule to come before thee I beseech thee come and take the desire of my soule into thy selfe be thou my drawing to the Father and deliver me from the devills Bonds looke not upon my deformity in standing naked before thee having lost thy garment I pray thee doe but thou cloath my breath which yet liveth in me and desireth thy grace and let me yet once see thy salvation O thou deepe love I pray thee take the desire of my soule into thee bring it forth out of the bonds of Death through thy Death in thy Resurrection in thee O quicken me in thy strength that my desire and will may begin to spring up and flourish anew O thou vanquisher of death and of the wrath of God doe thou overcome in me selfe breake its will and bruise my soule that it may feare before thee and be ashamed of its owne will before thy judgement that it may be obedient to thee as an instrument of thine subdue it in the bonds of death take away its power that it may Will nothing without thee O God the Holy Ghost in Christ my Saviour teach me I pray thee what I shall doe that I may turne to thee O draw me in Christ to the Father and helpe me that now and from hence forward I may goe forth from sinne and vanity and never any more enter into it againe Stirre up in me a true sorrow for the sinnes I have committed O keepe me in thy Bonds and let me not loose from thee lest the Devill sift me in my wicked flesh and bloud bring me again into the death of dea h O enlighten thou my spirit that I may see the divine path and walke in it continually O take that away from me which alwayes turneth me away from thee O give me that which alwayes turneth me to thee take me wholy from my selfe and give me wholy to thy owne selfe O let me beginne nothing let me will thinke and doe nothing without thee O Lord how long Indeed I am not worthy of that which I desire of thee I pray thee let the desire of my soule dwell but in the gates of thy Courts make it but a servant of thy servauts O deliver it out of that horrible pit wherein there is no comfort nor refreshment O God in Christ Jesus I am blinde in my selfe and know not my selfe for vanity thou art hidden from me in my blindenesse and yet thou art neere unto me but thy wrath which my desire hath awakened in me hath made me darke O take but the desire of my soule to thee prove it O Lord and bruise it that my soule may attaine a Ray of thy sweete Grace I lie before thee as a dying man whose life is passing from his lipps as a smale sparke going out kindle it O Lord and raise up the breath of my soule before thee Lord I waite for thy Promise which thou hast made saying As I live I will not the death of a sinner but that he should turne and live I sincke downe my selfe into the Death of my Redeemer Jesus Christ and waite for thee thy Word is Truth and Life Amen In this or the like manner every one may confesse his sinnes as he himselfe findeth in his conscience what finnes he hath brought his soule into Yet if his purpose be truely earnest to use a forme is needlesse for the Spirit of God which at that instant is in the will of the minde will it selfe make the prayer for him in his conscience for it is it the Spirit of God which in a true earnest desire worketh repentance and intercedeth for the soule before God through the death of Christ. But I will not hide from the beloved Reader who hath a Christian purpose but shew how it commonly useth to goe with those who are in such a firme purpose and resolution though it goeth otherwise with one then with another according as his purpose is more or lesse earnest and great for the Spirit of God is not bound but useth diverse wayes as he knoweth fittest for every one Yet he that hath beene in the warres can tell how to fight and informe another that may happen to be in the like case Now if it so come to passe that such a heart with a strong resolution and purpose doth thus come before God and enter into repentance it hapneth to it as with the Canaanitish woman as if God would not heare the heart remaineth without comfort its sins and unworthynesse do also present themselves as if it were unworthy of comfort the mind is as it were speechlesse the soule groaneth in the deepe the heart receiveth nothing nor can it so much as poure forth its confession before God as if the heart and soule were shut up the Soule would faine but the flesh keepeth it captive the Devill shutteth it up strongly and representeth to it the way of vanity againe and tickleth it with the lust of the flesh and saith in the minde stay a while doe this or that first gather money or goods aforehand that thou maist not stand in neede of the world and then afterwards enter into an honest life into repentance it will be time enough then O how many hundreds doe perish in such a beginning if they goe backe againe into vanity and are as a young graft broken off with the winde or weithered by the heate Beloved soule marke if thou wilt be a champion in thy Saviour Christ against death and hell and would'st have thy yong graft grow become a tree in the Kingdome of Christ thou must go on and stand fast in thy first earnest purpose it costeth thy first paternall inheritance and thy body and soule too to become either an Angell in God or a Devill in Hell If thou wilt be crowned thou must fight thou must overcome in Christ and not yeeld to the Devill thy purpose must stand firme thou must not preferre temporall honour and goods before it when the spirit of the flesh saith stay a while it is not convenient yet then the soule must say now is my time for me to goe backe againe into my fathers my native Countrey out of which my father
and entereth with the desire into him and he will not cast out them that come unto him he hath given to the will an open gate in Christ saying Come unto me all yee that are heavie laden with sinnes I will refresh you take my yoak upon you that is the Crosse of the enmity in the flesh which was the yoak of Christ who must beare it for the sinnes of all men This crosse the resigned will must take upon it in the evill earthly sinfull flesh and beare it after Christ in patience in hope of deliverance and always brea kt he head of the Serpent with the resigned will of the soule in Christs will and Spirit and kill and destroy the earthly will in Gods anger and not let it rest on a soft bed when sinne is committed thinking I wil repent one time or other 26. No no the earthly will groweth strong fat and wanton upon this soft bed But so soon as the breath of God shineth in thee and sheweth sinne to thee the will of the soul must sink it selfe down into the passion and death of Christ wrap it selfe up close in it and take the passion of Christ into its possession and be a Lord over the death of sin by the death of Christ and kill it and destroy it in the death of Christ. 27. It must die though it be never so unwilling Be at enmity with the voluptuous earthly flesh give it not what it would have let it fast and suffer hunger till its tickling cease account the will of the flesh thy enemy and do not what the desire in the flesh will and then thou shalt bring a death into the death in the flesh 28. Regard not any scorne of the world think they doe but scorn thy enemy and that it is become a foole to them nay doe thou thy selfe account it thy foole which Adam caused thee to have in thee and suffered to be thy false heire Cast the sonne of the bond-woman out of the house that strange child which God did not give to be in the house of life in Adam at the beginning for the son of the bond-woman must not inherit with the son of the free-woman 29. The earthly will is but the son of the Bond-woman for the foure elements should have been mans servants but Adam hath brought them into filiation Therefore God said to Abraham when he had opened the covenant of the promise in him Cast out the son of the bond-woman for hee shall not inherit with the sonne of the free This sonne of the Free is Christ which God of his grace hath brought again into the flesh for us viz. a new mind wherein the will viz. the eternall will of the soul may draw and drink the water of life of which Christ speaketh saying Whosoever shall drink of this water that he will give us it shall spring up in him and be a Fountain of eternall life This Fountaine is the renovation of the mind of the soule viz. the eternall Astrum or Constellation of the eternall Nature viz. of the creaturely property of the soul. 30. Therefore I say that all fictions and devices to come to God by let them have what name soever they will which men contrive and invent for wayes to God are lost labour and unprofitable without a new mind There is no other way to God but a new mind which turneth from wickednes and entreth into repentance for the sinnes it hath committed and goeth forth from its iniquity and willeth it no more but wrappeth its will up in the death of Christ and with all earnestnesse dieth from the sinne of the soule in the death of Christ so that the mind of the soule willeth sinne no more 31. And although all the Devils did follow him hard and did go with their desire into the flesh yet the will of the soule should stand still and hide it selfe in the death of Christ willing and desiring nothing but the Mercie of God 32. No hypocriticall flattery or outward comforting ones self availeth at all as when men will cover sinne and iniquity in the flesh with the satisfaction of Christ and remain in Self still Christ saith Except ye turn and become as children yee shall not see the Kingdome of God the mind must become as wholly new as in a child that knoweth nothing of sinne Christ saith also Ye must be born anew or else yee shall not see the Kingdome of God There must arise a will wholly new in the death of Christ it must be brought forth out of Christs entring into the humanity and rise in Christs resurrection 33. Now before this can be done the will of the soule must dye in the death of Christ first for in Adam it received the son of the bond-woman viz. sinne into it This the will of the soul must first cast out and the poore captive soule must wrap it selfe up in the death of Christ earnestly with all the power it hath so that the sonne of the bond-woman viz. sin in it selfe may dye in the death of Christ. 34. Truly sin must dye in the will of the soule or else there can be no vision of God for the earthly will in sinne and the anger of God shall not see God but Christ that came into the flesh The soul must put on the Spirit and flesh of Christ it cannot inherit the Kingdome of God in this earthly Tabernacle for the kingdome of sin hangeth to it outwardly which must putrifie in the earth and rise again in new power 35. Hypocrifie flattery and verball forgivenesse availeth nothing we must be children not by outward imputation but born of God from within in the new man which is resigned in God 36. All such flattering of our selves in saying Christ hath paid the Ransome and made satisfaction for sinne he is dead for our sinnes if we also do not dye from sinne in him and put on his merit in new obedience and live therein all is false and a vain frivolous comfort 37. He that is a bitter enemy and hater of sinne he can and may comfort himselfe with the sufferings of Christ he that doth not willingly see hear nor tast sinne but is at enmity with it and would willingly always doe that which is well and right if he knew but what he ought to doe he that is such a one I say hath put on the Spirit and will of Christ. 38. The outward flattery of being accounted a child of God by imputation or externall application is false and vain the work done in the outward flesh onely doth not make the child of God but the working of Christ in the Spirit maketh and is the child of God which working is so powerfull in the outward work that it shineth forth as a new light and manifesteth it self to be the child of God in the outward work of the flesh 39. For if the eye of the soule be light then the whole body is
of God commeth not with outward observation neither shall they say Loe here or Loe there it is for behold the Kingdome of God is within you and whether of the two viz. either Heaven or Hell shall be manifested in it in that the soule standeth The Scholar 37. Doth it not enter into Heaven or Hell as a man entreth into a house or as a man goeth through a hole door or window into another world The Master No there is no such kind of entring for Heaven and Hell are present every where and it is but the turning in of the will either into Gods love or into his anger and this commeth to passe in this life according to that of Saint Paul Our conversation is in Heaven and Christ saith also My sheepe heare my voyce and I know them and they follow me and I give them the Eternall life and none shall plucke them out of my Hand The Scholar 38. How commeth this entring of the will into Heaven or Hell to passe The Master When the ground of the will yieldeth it selfe up to God then it sinketh down from it self beyond all ground place where GOD onely is manifest worketh and willeth and then it becommeth nothing to it selfe as to its own willing and so God worketh and willeth in it and God dwelleth in this refigned will whereby the soule is sanctified and so commeth into Divine Rest. Now when the body is dead the soule is throughly penetrated all over with the love of God and throughly inlightned with the light of God as the fire throughly enflameth a bright shining hot iron whereby it looseth its darknesse and this is the hand of Christ where the love of God throughly inhabiteth the soul all over and is a shining light and a new life in it and then it is in heaven and a Temple of the holy Ghost and is it self the very heaven of God in which he dwelleth But the ungodly soule will not in the time of this life enter into the Divine Resignation of its will but goeth on continually in its own lust and falshood in the will of the Devill it receiveth into it selfe nothing but wickednesse lyes pride covetousnesse envie and anger and yeeldeth îts will into them and so this vanity also becometh manifest and working in the soule and throughly penetrateth it all over as fire doth a burning hot Iron and this soule cannot come to Divine rest for Gods anger is manifested in it Now when the body parteth from this soule eternall griefe and despaire beginneth for it perceiveth and findeth that it is become a meere tormentive abomination and is ashamed to strive to enter with its false will into God nay it cannot for it is captivated in the wrath and is it selfe meere wrath and hath shut it selfe up therewith by its false desire which it hath raised up in it self And since the light of God shineth not in it and that his love toucheth it not it is a great darknesse and an aking anguishing source of fire and carrieth hell in it selfe and cannot see the light of God Thus it dwelleth in it selfe in hell and needeth no entring into it for wherein soever it is it is in Hell and though it should cast it selfe many hundred thousand miles from its present place yet there it is in the same property source and darknesse it was in The Scholar 39. How commeth it then that a holy soule in this lifes time doth not perfectly perceive that light and great joy nor a wicked soule feel hell when both of them are in man and one of them of necessity worketh in him The Master The Kingdome of Heaven in the Saints is working and sensible in their faith they feele the love of God in their faith by which the will yeeldeth it selfe up into God But the naturall life is compassed with flesh and blood and in the contrariety of Gods anger is compassed with the vain lust of this world which coÌ„tinually doth throughly penetrate the outward mortall life where the world on one side the Devill on the other and on a third the curse of the anger of God in flesh and bloud throughly penetrateth and â—iâ—teth the life whereby the soule is often in anguish when hell thus assaulteth it and would manifest it selfe in the soule But the soule sinketh down into the hope of Divine grace and standeth like a faire Rose in the midst of Thornes till the Kingdome of this world falleth off from it in the death of the body and then the soule becommeth first truly manifest in the love of God having nothing more to hinder it but the soule during the time of this life must walk with Christ in this world and then Christ delivereth it out of its own hell by throughly penetrating it with his love and standeth by it in hell and changeth its hell into heaven But that thou sayest Why doe not the wicked feel hell in the time of this life I answer he feeleth it indeed in his false or wicked conscience but he understandeth it not for hee hath earthly vanity yet with which he is enamoured and in which he taketh delight and pleasure also the outward life hath yet the light of the outward nature and so the pain cannot be revealed but when the body dieth the soule cannot enjoy such temporall pleasure any longer and the light of this outward world is also extinguished to it and then it standeth in eternall hunger and thirst after such vanity as it was in love withall here in this â—â—e yet it can reach nothing but that false will which it * imprinted in it selfe which it had too much of in this life and yet was not contented but then it hath as little of it which maketh it to bee in everlasting hunger and thirst after vanity wickednesse and vile lewdnesse it would fain doe more evill still but it hath not wherein or wherewith to perform it and therefore it performeth it onein it selfe And this hellish hunger and thirst cannot be fully manifested in it till the body dyeth wherewith the soule hath played the wanton in voluptuousnesse and which hath ministred to the Soule what it lusted after The Scholar 40. Heaven and hell being in us in strife in this lifes time and God being also thus neere us where doe the Angels and Devils dwell The Master Where thou dost not dwell as to thy selfe and thy own will there the Angels dwell with thee and every where all over but where thou dwellest as to thy selfe and thy owne will there the Devils dwell with thee and every where all over The Scholar 41. I understand not this The Master Where the will of God willeth in any thing there God is manifested and in that manifestation the Angels also dwell but where God in any thing willeth not with the will of the thing there God is not manifested to it but dwelleth in himselfe without the co-operating of the thing in that
feare of any end where no evill thoughts could touch him neither care nor trouble neither heate nor cold where no night is knowne where there is no day or time any more but an everlasting joy where soule and body tremble for joy and where he should rejoyce at the infinite wonders and vertues in brightnesse of colours and ornament of the infinite begetting in the wisedome of God upon the new christaline Earth which shall be as transparent glasse that he doth so wilfully lose all this for so short and poore a times-sake which yet in this vanity in the evill life of the voluptuous flesh is full of miserie feare and trouble in meere vexation and it goeth with the wicked as with the righteous as the one must die so must the other yet the death of the Saints is an entrance into the eternall rest but the death of the wicked an entrance into the eternall unquietnesse Eightly He must consider the course of the world that all things are but a play wherewith he spendeth his time in unquietnesse and that it goeth with the rich and mighty as with the poore and the begger that all of us equally live and move in the foure Elements and that the mouthfull or morsell of the poore is as relishing and savoury to him in his toyle and labour as that of the rich is to him in his cares also that all of us doe live in one breath and that the rich man hath nothing but the pleasure of the palate and the lust of the eye more then other men for else it goeth with the one as with the other for which lust of the eye man so foolishly forgoeth so great a happinesse and for the sake thereof bringeth himselfe into so great and eternall unquietnesse In this consideration man shall feele in his owne heart and minde especially if he represent and set before his eyes his owne end that he shall get a hearty sighing and longing after the mercie of God and will begin to bewaile his committed sinnes that hee hath spent his dayes so ill and not observed nor considered that he standeth in this world in a field in the growing to be a fruit either in the Love or in the Anger of God and then he will first begin to find in himselfe that he hath not yet laboured at all in the vineyard of Christ and that he is a drie branch in the vine of Christ. And then in many whom the Spirit of Christ toucheth in such a consideration there ariseth aboundant sorrow griefe of heart and inward lamentation over the dayes of his wickednesse which he hath spent so in vanity without any working in the Vineyard of Christ. Such a one now whom the Spirit of Christ bringeth into sorrow and Repentance so that his heart is opened that he can know and bewaile his sins is very easily to be helped he needeth but to draw to him the promise of Christ viz. That God willeth not the death of a sinner but that he wisheth them all to come unto him and hee will refresh them and that there is great joy in heaven for one sinner that repenteth let such a one but lay hold on the words of Christ and wrap himselfe up into the passion and death of Christ. But I will speake with those who feele indeede a desire in themselves to repent and yet cannot come to acknowledge and sorrow for their committed sins the flesh saying continually to the soule stay a while it is well enough or it is time enough to morrow and when to morrow is come yet the flesh saith again to morrow the soul in the meane while sighing and fainting conceiveth neither any true sorrow for the sinnes it hath committed nor any comfort Unto such a one I say I will write a processe or way which I my selfe have gone that hee may know what he must doe and how it went with me if peradventure any be minded to follow it and then he shall perceive what is hereafter written A processe of Repentance WHen any man findeth in himself by the former consideration a hunger that he would willingly repent and yet findeth no true sorrow in himselfe for his sinnes which hee hath committed and yet perceiveth an hunger or desire to sorrow being the poor captive soule continually sigheth feareth and must acknowledge it selfe guilty of sinnes before the Judgement of God such a one I say can take no better course then this viz. to wrap up his senses and minde and also his reason together and make to himselfe at the same time presently in the first consideration when he perceiveth in himselfe a desire to repent a mighty strong purpose and resolution that he will this very houre nay this minite immediatly enter into Repentance and go forth from his wicked way and not at all regard the power and honour of the world and if it should be required would forsake and disesteeme all things for true Repentance sake and take such an earnest firme and strong resolution that he will never goe forth from it againe though he should be made the foole scorne of all the world for it and that with his minde he will goe forth from the beauty and pleasure of the world and patiently enter into the Passion and Death of Christ in and under the Crosse and set all his hope and confidence upon the life to come and that now in righteousnesse and truth he will enter into the Vineyard of Christ and doe the will of God and in the Spirit and will of Christ begin and finish all his actions in this world and for Christs Word and Promise sake who hath promised us heavenly reward willingly suffer and beare every adversitie and crosse that he may but be numbred in the communion or fellowship of the children of Christ and in the bloud of the Lambe Jesus Christ be incorporated and united unto his Humanity He must firmely imagin to himself wholly wrap up his soule in this that in this his purpose he shall obtaine the love of God in Christ Jesus and that God will give unto him according to his faithfull promise that noble pledge the holy Ghost for a beginning that in the Humanity of Christ as to the heavenly divine substance he shall be borne a new againe in himselfe and that the Spirit of Christ will renew his minde with his Love and Power and strengthen his weake faith also that in his divine hunger he shall get the flesh and bloud of Christ for foode and drinke in the desire of his soule which continually hungreth and thristeth after it and with the thirst of the soule drinke the water of eternall life out of the sweete fountaine of Jesus Christ as Christs most true and stedfast Promise is He must also wholly and firmely imagine to himselfe the great love of God That God willeth not the death of a sinner but that he repent and live that
Christ calleth poore sinners so kindly and graciously to himselfe and will refresh them and that God hath sent his Sonne into the world to seeke and save that which is lost viz. the poore repentant and returning sinner and that for the poore sinners sake he hath given his Life into Death and died for him in our Humanity which he tooke upon him Furthermore he must firmely imagine to himselfe that God in Christ Jesus will much rather heare him and receive him to grace then he come and that God in the love of Christ in the most deare and precious Name JESUS cannot Will any evill that there is no angry countenance at all in this Name but that it is the highest and deepest love faithfulnesse the greatest sweetnesse of the Diety in the great Name JEHOVAH which he hath manifested in our Humanity corrupted and disappeared as to the heavenly part which in Paradise disappeared through sinne and therefore moved himselfe in his heart to flow into us with his sweet love that the anger of his Father which was kindled in us might be quenched and turned into love by it all which was done for the poor sinners sake that he might get an open gate of grace againe In this consideration he must firmely imagine to himselfe that this very houre and instant he standeth before the face of the holy Trinity and that God is really present within and without him as the holy Scripture witnesseth saying Am not I he that filleth all things and in another place it saith The word is neere thee in thy mouth and in thy heart also it saith We will come unto you and make our dwelling in you also Behold I am with you always even to the end of the world also The Kingdome of God is within you Thus he must firmely know and beleeve that with his soule he standeth really before the face of Jesus Christ even before the holy Deity and that his soule hath turned its backe to the face of God and must resolve that he will this very houre turne the eyes and desire of his soule towards God againe and with the poore lost and returning sonne come to the Father He must with the eyes of his soule and minde cast downe in feare and deepest humility beginne to confesse his sinnes and unworthinesse before the face of God as followeth A short forme of Confession before the eyes of God Every one as his case and necessitie requireth may order and enlarge this confession as the holy Ghost shall teach him I will but set downe a short direction O Thou great unsearchable God Lord of all things Thou who in Christ Jesus of great love towards us hast manifested thy selfe with thy holy substance in our Humanity I poore unworthy sinfull man come before thy Presence which thou hast manifested in the Humanity of Jesus Christ though I am not worthy to lift up mine eyes to thee acknowledging and confessing before thee that I am guilty of unfaithfulnesse and breaking off from thy great love and grace which thou hast freely bestowed upon us I have left the Covenant which of meere grace thou hast made with me in Baptisme in which thou hast received me to be a child and heire of eternall life and have brought my desire into the vanity of this world and defiled my soule therewith and made it altogether beastiall and earthly so that my soule knoweth not it selfe because of the mire of sinne but accounteth it selfe a strange child before thy face not worthy to desire thy grace I lie in the filth of sinne and the vanity of my corrupt flesh up to the very lipps of my soule and have but a small sparke of the living breath left in me which desireth thy grace I am so dead in vanity that in this vanity I dare not lift up mine eyes to thee O God in Christ Jesus Thou who for poore sinners sakes didst become Man to helpe them to thee I complaine to thee I have yet a sparke of refuge in my soule I have not regarded thy purchased inheritance which thou hast purchased for us poore men by thy bitter Death but made my self partaker of the heritage of vanity in the anger of thy Father in the curse of the earth and am ensnared in sinne and halfe dead as to thy Kingdome I lie in feeblenesse as to thy strength and the wrathfull death waiteth for mee the devill hath poisoned me so that I know not my Saviour I am become a wilde branch in thy tree and have consumed mine inheritance which is in thee with the devills Swine what shall I say before thee who am not worthy of thy grace I lie in the sleepe of death which hath captivated me and am fast bound with three strong chaines O thou breaker-through-death assist thou me I beseech thee I can not I am able to doe nothing I am dead in my selfe and have no strength before thee neither dare I for great shame lift up my eyes before thee for I am the defiled keeper of Swine and have spent my inheritance with the false adulterous whore of vanity in the lusts of the flesh I have sought my selfe in my owne lust and not thee Now in my selfe I am become a foole I am naked and bare my shame standeth before thy eyes I cannot hide it thy judgement waiteth for mee what shall I say before thee who art the Judge of all the world I have nothing else to bring before thee here I stand naked and bare before thee and I fall downe before thy face bewailing my misery and flie to thy great mercy though I am not worthy of it yet receive me but in thy Death and let me but die from my death in thy Death cast me down I pray thee to the groūd in my received self and kill this self of mine through thy death that I may live no more to my selfe seeing I in my self worke nothing but sin therefore I pray thee cast downe to the ground this wicked beast which is full of false deceit and selfe-desire and deliver this poore soule from itsheavie bonds O mercifull God it is thy love and longsuffering that I lie not already in hell I yeeld my selfe with my whole will sences and minde up into thy grace and flie to thy mercy I call upon thee through thy death from that small sparke of life in me encompassed with death and hell which open their throate against me and would wholly swallow me up in death upon thee I call who hast promised thou wilt not quench the smoaking flaxe I have no other way to thee but thy Death and Passion because thou hast made our death Life by thy Humanity and broken the chaines of Death and therefore I sinke the desire of my soule downe into thy Death into the gate of thy Death which thou hast broake open O thou great fountaine of the love of God I beseech thee helpe mee
weake to give me what thou hast promised me and freely bestow upon mee in my Saviour Jesus Christ viz. his flesh for food and his bloud for drinke to refresh my poore hungry soule that it may be quickened and strengthened in the Word which became man by which it may long and hunger after thee aright O thou deepest love in the most sweete Name JESUS give thy selfe into the desire of my soule for therefore thou hast moved thy selfe and according to thy great sweetnesse manifested thy selfe in the humane nature and called us to thee us that hunger and thirst after thee and hast promised us that thou wilt refâ—esh us I now open the lips of my soul to thee O thou sweet Truth and though I am not worthy to desire it of thy holines yet I come to thee through thy bitter passion death thou having sprinkled my uncleanesse with thy bloud and sanctified me in thy Humanity and made an open gatefor me through thy death to thy sweete love in thy bloud through thy five holy wounds from which thou did'st shed thy bloud I bring the desire of my soule into thy love O Jesus Christ thou Sonne of God and man I pray thee receive into thy selfe thy purchased inheritance which thy Father hath given thee I crie within me that I may enter thorough thy holy bloud and death into thee Open thy selfe in mee that the Spirit of my soule may reach thee and receive thee into it Lay hold on my thirst in me with thy thirst bring thy thirst after us men which thou haddest upon the Crosse into my thirst and give mee thy bloud to drinke in my thirst that my death in me which holdeth me captive may be drowned in the bloud of thy love and that my extinguished Image which as to the Kingdome of Heaven dis appeared in my father Adam through sinne may b made alive through thy powerfull bloud and cloath my soule with it âgaine as with the new body which dwelleth in heaven in which Image thy holy power and word which became man dwelleth which is the Temple of thy holy Spirit which dwelleth in us as thou hast promised us saying we will come to you and dwell in you O thou great Love of Jesus Christ I can doe no more but sinke my desire into thee thy word which became man is truth since thou hast bidden me come now I come Be it unto me according to thy Word and Will Amen A Warning to the Reader BEloved Reader of love to thee I will not conceale from thee what is here earnestly signified to me If thou lovest the vanity of the flesh still and arâ— not in an earnest purpose on the way to the new birth intending to become a new man then leave the above written words in these Prayers unnamed or else they will turne to a judgement of God in thee Thou must not take the holy names in vaine thou art faithfully warned they belong to the thristy soule if the soule be in earnest it shall finde by experience what words they are A Direction How the soule must meete its beloved when it s beloved knocketh in the Centre in the shut chamber of the soule BEloved soule thou must be earnest without intermission thou shalt certainely obtaine the love of a Kisse from the noble Sophia in the holy Name JESUS for shee standeth however before the doore of the soule knocking warning the sinner of his wicked way Now if he once thus desireth her love she is ready for him and kisseth him with the beames of her sweete love from whence the heart receiveth joy but she doth not presently lay her selfe into the Marriage bed with the soule that is shee doth not presently awaken the extinguished heavenly image in her selfe which disappeared in Adam there is danger to man in it for if Adam and Lucifer fell it may then easily so come to passe with man he being yet so strongly bound in vanity The bond of thy Promise must be faithfull before she will crowne thee thou must be tempted first and tried she taketh the beames of her love from thee againe to see whether thou wilt prove faithfull also she letteth thee stand and answereth thee not so much as with one looke of her love for before she will crowne thee thou must be judged that thou mightest tast the bitter potion which thou hast filled for thy selfe in thine abominations thou must come before the gates of hell first and there shew forth thy victory for her in her love in that strength wherewith she beheld thee in opposition to the devills aspect Christ was tempted in the wildernesse and if thou wilt put on him thou must go through his whole progresse from his Incarnation to his Assention and though thou art not able nor needest to doe that which he hath done yet thou must enter wholly into his processe and therein die continually from the vanity of the soule for the virgin Sophîa espouseth not her selfe to the soule except in this property which springeth up in the soule through the death of Christ as a new plant standing in heaven the earthly body cannot comprehend her in this life for it must first die from vanity but the heavenly Image which disappear'd in Adam viz. the true seede of the woman wherein God became man and into which he brought his living seede the heavenly substantiality is capable of the Pearle after the manner it came to passe in Mary in the limit of the Covenant Therefore take heede what thou dost when thou hast made thy promâ—se keepe it and then shee will crowne thee rather then thou wouldst be crowned but thou must be sure when the Tempter commeth to thee with the pleasure beauty and glory of the world that then thy minde reject it and say I must be a servant and not a master in the Vineyard of Christ I am but a servant of God in and over all that I have and I must doe with it as his Word teacheth me my heart must sit downe with the simple and lowly in the dust and be humble alwayes What state and condition soever thou art in humility must be in the front or else thou wilt not obtain her marriage the free will of thy soule must stand as a champion for it the devill cannot prevaile against the soule with vanity and if the soule will not bite at the baite then hee commeth with the soules nworthinesse and catalogue of sinnes and then thou must fight hard and here the merits of Christ must be set in the front or else the creature cannot prevaile against the devill for in this it goeth so terribly with many that the outward reason thinketh that person to be distracted and poâ—ened with the devill the devill defendeth himselfe so horribly in many especially if he have had a great Fort of prey in him that he must be stoutly assaulted before
is he that passeth through it be times in his young years before the Devill buildeth his fort of prey strong he may afterwards prove a Labourer in the Vineyard of Christ and sow his seede in the Garden of Christ he shall reape the fruit in due time This judgement continueth a long while upon many for severall yeares if he doe not earnestly put on the Armour of Christ but stay till the judgement of temptations first exhort him to Repentance But he that commeth of himselfe of his owne earnest purpose and endeavoureth to depart from his evill wayes the temptation will not be so hard for him neither will it continue so long yet hee must stand out valiantly till victory be gotten over the devill for he shall be mightily assisted all shall turne to the best for him so that afterwards when the day breaketh in the soule he turneth it to the great praise and glory of God that the driver is overcome Short Prayers When the noble Sophia kisseth the soule with her love and offereth her love to it O Most gracious and deepest love of God in Christ Jesus I beseech thee grant me thy Pearle impresse it into my soule and take my soule into thy Armes O thou sweete love I confesse I am uncleane before thee take away my uncleanenesie through thy death and carry through the hunger and thrist of my soule through thy Death in thy Resurrection in thy Triumph cast my whole selfe downe to the ground in thy death take it captive and carry my hunger through in thy hunger O highest love hast thou not appeared in me stay in me and inclose me in thee keepe me in thee so that I may not be able to depart from thee fill my hunger with thy love seede my soule with thy heavenly substance give it thy bloud to drinke and water it with thy Fountaine O great love awaken my disappeared Image in me which as to the Kingdome of heaven disappeared in my father Adam by that word which awakened it in the seede of the woman in Mary quicken it I beseech thee O thou Life and Power of the Deity which hast promised us saying wee will come to you and dwell in you O sweete love I bring my desire into this word of thy Promise thou hast promised that thy Father will give the holy Spirit to those that aske him for it therefore I now bring the desire of my soule into thy Promise and I receive thy Word into my hunger increase thou in me my hunger after thee strengthen me O sweete love in thy strength quicken me in thee that my spirit may taste thy sweetnesse O doe thou beleeve by thy power in me for without thee I can doe nothing O sweete Love I beseech thee through that Love wherewith thou didst overcome the Anger of God and didst change it into Love and divine Joy I pray thee also change the anger in my soule by the same great love that I may become obedient unthee and that my soule may love thee therein for ever O change my will into thy Will bring thy Obedience into my disobedience that I may become obedient to thee O great Love of Jesus Christ I humbly flie to thee bring the hunger of my soule into thy wounds from whence thou didst shed thy holy bloud and didst quench the Anger with Love I bring my hunger into open side from whence came forth both water and bloud and throw my selfe wholy into it he thou mine and quicken me in thy life and let me not depart from thee O my Noble Vine I beseech thee give sappe to me thy branch that I may budde and grow in thy strength and sappe in thy Essence beget in me true strength by thy strength O Sweete Love art not thou my Light enlighten thou my poore soule in its close prison in flesh and bloud bring it into the right way destroy the will of the Devill and bring my body through the whole course of this world through the chamber of death into thy death and rest that at the last day it may arise in thee from thy death and live in thee for ever O teach me what I must doe in thee I beseech thee be thou my willing knowing doing and let me goe no whether without thee I yeeld my selfe wholy up to thee Amen A Prayer For the obtaining the Divine Protection and Government shewing how he minde should worke with in God in Christ the Tree of Life O Thou living Fountaine in thee I lift up the desire of my soule and crie with my desire to enter through the life of my Saviour Jesus Christ into thee O thou Life and Power of God awaken thy selfe in the hunger of my soule with thy desire of love through the thirst which Jesus Christ had upon the crosse after us men and carry my weake strength through by thy mighty hand in thy Spirit be thou the working and will in me with thine own strength blossome in the strength of Iesus Christ in me that I may bring forth praise unto thee the true fruite in thy Kingdome O let my heart and desire never depart from thee But i swimme in vanity in this valley of misery in this outward earthly flesh and bloud and my soule and noble Image which is according to thy Similitude is encompassed with enemies on every side viz. with the desire of the Devill against me with the desire of vanity in flesh and bloud also with all the opposition of wicked men who know not thy Name and I swimme with my outward life in the properties of the starres and elements having my enemies lying in waite for me every where inwardly and outwardly together with death the destroyer of this vaine life and therefore I flie to thee O holy strength of God being thou hast manifested thy selfe with thy love in mercy in our humanity through thy holy Name Jesus and hast also given it to be a companion in us therefore I beseech thee let his Angels that minister to him attend upon our soules and encamp themselves about us and defend us from the fiery darts of the desire of that wicked one which shooteth into us dayly by the curse of the Anger of God which is awakened in our earthly flesh keepe backe by thy strength the infectious rayes of the influence of the stars in their opposition into which raves the wicked one mingleth himselfe with his desire to poison us in soule and flesh and to bring us into false desires and also into infirmity and misery Turne away these Rayes of Anger with the holy Name Jesus in our soule and spirit that they may not touch us and let thy good and holy Angel stand by us to turne away these Rayes of Poyson from our bodies O great Love and sweete strength IHSVH thou fountaine of divine sweetnesse flowing out of the great Eternall Name IEHOVAH I crie with the desire of my
they may not follow me into my native countrey for they are strong and lusty still in thy Anger therefore can do it better then I that am feeble fainting already in the will of vanity this thou knowest fulwell O thou righteous God I beseech thee therefore O righteous God since thou usest them as servants to me to doe so good an office for me though my earthly reason knoweth it not that thou wouldest make them also to know my way and send them also such servants but yet before hand bring them to the light that they may know thee and give thee thanks O mercifull God in Christ Jesus in my knowledge I beseech thee out of thy deepe love towards us poore men which thou hast manifested in me in the hidden man call us all in thee to thee O stirre thy selfe in us yet once in this last trouble thy Anger being kindled in us doe thou resist thy Anger in us least it swallow us up both soule and body O thou dawning of the Day-spring of God breake forth to the full art thou not already risen manifest thy holy City Zion thy holy Jerusalem in us O great God! I see thee in the depth of thy Power and Strength awaken me wholly in thee that I may be quickned in thee breake off the tree of thy Anger in us and let thy love spring forth and bud in us O Lord I lie downe in thy sight and beseech thee not to rebuke us in thine Anger are we not thy possession which thou hast purchased Forgive all of us our sinnes and deliver us from the enmity of thy wrath and from the reproach and envy of the devill and bring us under thy Crosse in patience into Paradise againe Amen Here followeth a Prayer or Dialogue betweene the poore soule and the noble virgine Sophia in the inward ground of man viz. betweene the Spirit of Christ in the new Birth out of his Humanity in us and the soule shewing how great a joy there is in the Heaven of the new regenerate man and how lovingly and graciously the noble Sophia presenteth her selfe to her Bridegrome the Soule when it entreth into Repentance and how the Soule behaveth it selfe towards her when Virgine Sophia appeareth to it The gates of the Paradisicall Garden of Roses This is understood by none but the children of Christ who have knowne it by experience WHen Christ the corner-stone stirreth himselfe in the extinguished Image of man in his hearty conversion and repentance then Virgine Sophia appeareth in the stirring of the Spirit of Christ in the extinguished Image in her Virgines-attire before the soule at which the soule is so amazed and astonished in its uncleanesse that all its sinnes immediately awake in it and tremble and shake before her For then the judgement passeth upon the sinnes of the soule so that it even goeth backe in its unworth inesse and is ashamed in the presence of its faire love and entreth into it selfe denying it selfe as utterly unworthy to receive such a jewell This is understood by them who are of our Tribe who have tasted this jewell and to none else But the noble Sophia draweth neare in the essence of the soule and kisseth it friendly and tinctureth the darke fire of the soule with her Rayes of love and shineth through the soule with her Kisse of love then the soule skippeth in its body for great joy in the strength of this Virgine-love triumphing and praysing the great God in the strength of the noble Sophia I will set downe here a short description how it is when the Bride embraceth the Bridegroome for the consideration of the Reader who perhaps hath not yet beene in this place where the Bride embraceth her Bridegroome it may be he will be desirous to follow us and to enter into the place where men dance with Sophia When that which is before mentioned cometh to passe the soule rejoyceth in its body and saith I. PRayse thanksgiving strength honour and glory be to thee O great God in thy power and sweetenesse for that thou hast redeemed me from the driver of anguish O thou faire Love my heart embraceth thee where hast thou beene so long me thought I was in hell in the Anger of God O gracious Love abide with me I beseech thee and be my joy and comfort leade me in the right way I give my selfe up into thy love I am darke before thee doe thou enlighten me O noble Love give me thy sweet pearle put it I pray thee into me O great God in Christ Jesus I praise and magnifie thee now in thy truth in thy great power and glory for that thou hast forgiven me my sinnes and filled me with thy strength I shout for joy before thee in my life and extoll thee in thy Firmament of Heaven which none can open but thy Spirit in thy mercy my bones rejoyce in thy strength and my heart delighteth in thy love Thanks be to thee for ever for that thou hast delivered me out of hell and turned death into life in me O sweet Love let me not depart from thee againe grant me thy Garland of Pearle and abide in me O be my peculiar possession that I may rejoyce in thee for ever Upon this Virgine Sophia sayth to the Soule MY Noble Bridegroome my strength and power you are a thousand times welcome why hast thou forgotten me so long that I have beene constrained in great griefe to stand without the doore and knocke have I not alwayes called thee and entreated thee but thou hast turned away thy countenance from me and thy eares declined my Territories thou couldest not see my light for thou didst walke in the valley of darknesse I was very neare thee and intreated thee continually but thy sinne held thee captive in death so that thou knowest me not I came to thee in great humility and called thee but thou wert rich in the power of the anger of God and didst not regard my humility and lowlynesse thou hadst taken the Devill to be thy Paramour he hath desiled thee thus and built up his fort of prey in thee and turned thee quite away from my love and faith into his hypocriticall Kingdome of falshood wherein thou hast committed much sinne and wickednesse and broken thy will off from my love and so broken the bond of wedlock and set thy love and affection upon a stranger and suffered me thy Bride which God did give thee to stand alone in the extinguished substance without the power of thy fiery strength I could not be joyfull without thy fiery strength for thou art my husband my shining brightnesse is made manifest by thee thou canst manifest my hidden wonders in thy fiery life and bring them into Majesty And yet without me thou art but a darke house wherein is nothing but anguish and torment an odious horrible paine O Noble Bridegroome stand still with thy countenance towards me and
give me thy Rayes of fier bring thy desire into me and kindle me and then I will bring the Rayes of my love from my meekenesse into thy fiery Essence and kisse thee for ever O my Bridegroome how well am I now I am in wedlock with thee O kisse me with thy desire in thy strength power then I will shew thee all my beauty and will rejoyce and delight my selfe with thy sweet love and shining brightnesse in thy fiery life All the holy Angels doe rejoyce with us to see us now married together againe My deare Love I now intreate thee to abide in my faith and doe not turne thy face away from me any more worke thou thy wonders in my love for which God hath raised thee up II. The Soule sayth againe to its Noble Sophia its Love that is borne againe in the Soule O My Noble Pearle and opened flame of my light in my anxious fiery life O how thou changest me into thy joy O beautifull Love I have broken my faith with thee in my father Adam and with my fiery strength have turned my selfe to the pleasure and vanity of the outward world and have fallen in love with a stranger and had been constrained to walke in the valley of darkenesse in this strange love if thou hadst not come to me into the house of my misery in thy great faithfullnesse by thy piercing through and destroying Gods Anger Hell and darke Death and restored thy meekenesse and love to my fiery life O Sweete Love thou hast brought the water of eternall life out of the fountaine of God with thee to me and refreshed me in my great thirst I behold in thee the mercy of God which was hidden from me before by the strange Love in thee I can rejoyce thou changest my anguish of fire to be great joy to me O amiable Love give me thy Pearle that I may continue in this joy for ever Upon this the Noble Sophia answereth the Soule againe and sayth MY Deare Love and faithfull treasure thou highly rejoycest me in thy beginning I have indeed broken into thee through the deepe gates of God through Gods anger through hell and death into the house of thy misery and have graciously bestowed my love upon thee and delivered thee from the chaines and bondes wherein thou wert fast bound I have kept my faith with thee But thou desirest now an exceeding great thing of me which I will not willingly venture with thee Thou wouldest have my pearle as thy proper owne remember I pray O my beloved Bridegroome that thou didst carelesly loose it before in Adam and besides thou standest yet in great danger and walkest in two dangerous Kingdomes viz. in the originall fire thou walkest in that Countrey wherein God calleth himselfe a strong Zealous God and a consuming fire The other Kingdome thou walkest in is the Outward world the Aire wherein thou dwellest in the vaine corrupt flesh and bloud where the pleasure of the world and the assaults of the devill passe over thee every houre thou mayest perhaps in thy great joy bring earthlynesse againe into my beauty and darken my Pearl thou mayest also perhaps grow proud as Lucifer did when he had the pearle in his possession and so mayest turne thy selfe away from the Harmony of God and then I must afterwards be deprived of my Love for ever I will keepe my Pearle in my selfe and dwell in the Heaven in thee in thy extinguished but now in me revived Humanity and reserve my Pearle for Paradise untill thou puttest away this earthlynesse from thee and then I will give it thee to possesse But I will readily afford and present my countenance to thee and the sweete Rayes of the Pearle during the time of this earthly life I will dwell with the Pearle in the inner Quire and be thy faithfull loving Bride I will not espouse my selfe with thy earthly flesh for I am a heavenly Queene my Kingdome is not of this world yet I will not cast thy outward life away but visite it often with my Rayes of love for thy outward humanity shall returne againe but I will not have the beast of vanity neither did God create it in Adam with a purpose to have it so grosse and earthly but in Adam thy desire through lust formed this beastiall grossenesse from and with all the Essences of the awakened vanity of the earthly property wherein heate and cold paine enmity and dissolution consisteth Now my Deare Love Bridegroome yeeld but thy selfe up into my will I will not forsake thee in this earthly life in thy danger though the Anger of God should passe upon thee so that thou shouldest grow affrighted and disheartened or shouldest thinke that I had forsaken thee yet I will be with thee and preserve thee for thou thy selfe knowest not what thine office is Thou must in this time worke and beare fruite thou art the Roote of this Tree branches must be produced out of thee which must all be brought forth in anguish but I come forth together with thy branches in their sappe and bring forth fruite upon thy boughes and thou knowest it not for the Most High hath so ordered that I should dwell with and in thee Involve thy selfe therefore into patience and take heede of the pleasure of the flesh breake the will and desire thereof bridle it as an unruly horse then I will often visit thee in thy fiery Essence give thee my Kisse of love and bring a Garland for thee out of Paradise with me for a token of my love and put it upon thee in which thou shalt rejoyce But I give thee not my Pearle for a possession during this time thou must continue in Resignation and hearken what the Lord playeth in thy Harmony in thee Moreover thou must give sound and essence to thy tune out of my strength and vertue for thou art now a messenger of his mouth and must set forth his praise and glory For this cause I have now contracted my selfe a-new with thee and set my Triumphant Garland upon thee which I have gotten in the battell against the Devill and Death but the Crowne of Pearle wherewith I crowned thee I have layd that aside for thee thou must weare it no more till thou art become pure in my fight III The Soule sayth further to the Noble Sophia O Thou faire and sweet Consort what shall I say before thee let me be onely commended unto thee I cannot preserve my selfe If thou wilt not now give me thy Pearle I leave it to thy will give me but thy Rayes of love and carry me through this Pilgrimage Awake thou and bring forth what thou wilt in me I will from henceforth be thy owne I will or desire nothing for my selfe but what thou thy selfe wilt through me I had fooled away thy sweete love and not keept my faith with thee whereby I was fallen into eternall punishment but seeing of Love thou art
viz. That these who have once tasted the sweetuesse of the world to come if they fall away again they shall hardly see the kingdome of God 113. And though it cannot he denied but that the gates of grace do yet stand open yet the seeming light of the outward Reason of the soule so keepeth them back that they suppose they have the Pearle and yet live to the vanity of this world and dance with the Devill after his pipe CHAP. V. How a man may call himselfe a Christian and how not 114. HEre a Christian should consider wherefore he calleth himselfe a Christian and ponder well whether he be one or no For surely my learning to know and understand that I am a sinner and that Christ hath killed my sins on the Crosse and shed his bloud for me doth not make me a Christian. 115. The inheritance belongeth onely to the children A maid-servant in a house knoweth well enough what the Mistresse would have to be done and yet that maketh her not an heire of her Mistresses goods The very Devils know that there is a God yet that doth not change them into Angels again But if the Maid-servant in the house shall be married to the Sonne of her Mistresse then she may come to inherit her Mistresses goods And so it is to be understood also in our Christianity 116. The children of the History are not the heires of the goods of Christ but the legitimate children regenerated of the Spirit of Christ For God sayd to Abraham Cast out the son of the Bond woman he shall not inherit with the son of the Free For he was a scorner and but a Historicall sonne of the faith and spirit of Abraham and so long as he continued such a one he was not a true inheritor of the faith of Abraham and therefore God commanded he should be cast out from inheriting his goods which was a type of the Christendome which was to come 117. For the promise of Christendome was made to Abraham therefore the type was then also represented by two brethren viz. Isaac and Ishmael shewing how Christendome would behave it selfe and that two sorts of men would be in it viz. true Christians and lip Christians who under the Title of Christianity would be but mockers as Ishmael and Esau was who also was a type of the outward Adam as Jacob was a type of Christ and his true Christendome 118. Thus every one that will call himselfe a Christian must cast away and out from himselfe the sonne of the Bond-woman that is the earthly will and be evermore killing and destroying of it and not settle it in the inheritance 119. Nor give the Pearle to the Bestiall man for him to spoâ—â— himselfe withall continually in the outward light in the lust of the flesh but we must with our Father Abraham bring 〈◊〉 sonne of the right will to Mount vooria and be willing in obedience to God 〈◊〉 offeâ— in up alwayes willingly dying from sin in the death of Christ giâ—â—ng no place to the Beast of vanity in the Kingdome of Christ nor â—â—ffâ—ring it to grow wanton proud covetous envious and malicious all these are the properties of Ishmael the son of the Bond-woman whom Adam begat in his vanity of the wanton whore the false Bond-woman by the Devils imagination out of the earthly property in flesh and bloud 120. This Mocker and Titular-Christian is the sonne of a whore he must be cast out for he must not inherit the inheritance of Christ in the Kingdome of God he is not fit he is but Babel a confusion of that one language into many languages he is but a talker and a wrangler about the inheritance he meanes to get it to himselfe by talking and wrangling by the hypocrisie of his lips and seeming holinesse and yet he is but a blood-thirsty murtherer of his brother Abel who is a true heire 121. Therefore we say what we know that he that will call himselfe a true Christian must try himselfe and find what kind of properties drâ—â—e and rule him whether the Spirit oâ— Christ driveth him to truth and righteousnes and to the love of his neighbour so that he would willingly doe good if he knew but how to perform it 122. Now if he find that he hath such a hunger after such a vertue then he may surely think that he is drawne And then he must put it in practice and not have a will onely without doing The drawing of the Father to Christ consisteth in the will but the true life consisteth in the doing for the right Spirit doth that which is right 123. But if there be the will to do and yet the doing followeth not then the true man is shut up in vain lust which keepeth the doing captive and he is but an hypocrite and an Ishmaelite he speaketh one thing and doth another and witnesseth that his mouth is a lyer for he himselfe doth not that which he teacheth and so he onely serveth the Bestiall man in vanity 124. For he that will say I have a will and would willingly doe good but for the earthly flesh which I have which keepeth me back that I cannot yet I shall be saved by grace for the merits of Christ I comfort my selfe with his merit and sufferings he will receive me of meere grace without any merits of my owne and forgive me my sinnes such a one I say is like him that knew what food was good for his health yet did not eat of it but eat poyson in stead thereof from whence sicknesse and death would follow 125. What good doth it the soule to know the way to good if it will not walk therein but go a wrong way that leadeth not to God What good will it doe the soule to comfort it self with the filiation of Christ with his passion and death and so flatter it selfe if it will not enter into the filiall birth that it may be a true child born out of the Spirit of Christ c. out of his suffering death and resurrection Surely the tickling and flattering of it selfe with Christs mirits without the true innate childship is falshood and a lye whosoever he be that teacheth it 126. This comfort belongeth onely to the penitent sinner who striveth against sinne and the anger of God When temptations come and the Devill assaulteth the soule then the soule must wholly wrap it selfe up in the passion and death of Christ and in his Merits 127. Christ indeed hath merited redemption for us alone but he hath not merited it as such a merit for upon a Merit a Reward is given that for his own proper merits sake he would outwardly freely grant us his childshîp and so receive us for children when we are none No hee himselfe is the merit he is the open gate that leadeth through death through that gate we must enter But he receiveth no beast into his merit but those onely that turn and become as children
cunning knowledge subtilty and getting a multitude of naturall things no righteousnesse nor vertue remained in it at all but whatsoever evill and wrong it committed the soule covered it cunningly and subtilly under the cloak of its power and authority Law and called it by the name of Right and Justice and accounted it good The Devil came to the soule Upon this the Devill drew neere to the soule and brought it on from one vice to another for hee had taken it captive in his Essence and did set joy and pleasure before it therein and said to the soule Behold now thou art powerfull mighty and noble endeavour to be greater richer and more powerfull still use thy knowledg wit and subtilty that every one may feare thee and stand in awe of thee and that thou maist be respected and get a great name in the world The soule did so The soule did as the Devill counselled it and yet knew not that it was the Devill but thought it was its owne knowledge wit and understanding and that it selfe did very well right all this while Jesus Christ met with the soule The soule going on in this course of life our deare and loving Lord Jesus Christ with the love and wrath of God who was come into this world to destroy the works of the Devill and to execute Judgement upon all ungodly workes at a Time hee met with the soule and spake by a strong power viz. by his Passion and Death into the soule and destroyed the works of the Devill in it and discovered the way to his Grace to the soule and did shine upon it with his Mercy calling it back to returne and repent and then hee would deliver it from that monstrous deformed shape vizard or Image which it had gotten and bring it into Paradise againe How Christ wrought in the soule Now when the sparke of the love of God or the Divine light was manifested in the soule it presently saw it selfe with its will and workes to bee in Hell in the wrath of God and found that it was a mishapen ugly Monster in the presence of God and the kingdom of Heaven at which it was so affrighted that the greatest anguish awaked in it for the judgment of God was manifested in it What Christ said Upon this the Lord Christ spake into it with the voyce of his grace and said Repent and forsake vanity and thou shalt attaine my grace What the soule dâ—â— Then the soule in its ugly mishapen image with the deâ—â—ed 〈◊〉 of vanity went before God and entreated for grace and the pardâ—â— of its sinnes and was strongly perswaded in iâ— selfe that the satisfaction and â—tonement of our Lord Jesus Christ did belong to it But the evill properties of the Seâ—pent formed in the Astrall Spirit would not suffer the will of the soule to come before God but brought their Lusts and Inclinations thereinto For those evill properties would not dye to their own Lusts nor leave or forsake the world for they were come out of the world and therefore they feared the shame of the world in case they should forsake their worldly honour and glory But the poore soul turned its countenance to God and desired grace from God viz. that God would bestow his love upon it The Devill came to it again But when the Devill saw that the soule thus prayed to God and would enter into Repentance he drew neere to the soule and thrust the inclinations of the Earthly properties into its prayers and disturbed the good thoughts and desires which pressed forward towards God and drew them back again to earthly things that they might have no accesse to God The soule sighed The will of the soule sighed after God but the Thoughts arising in the Mind that should penetrate into God were destroyed scattered and distracted so that they could not reach the power of God the poore soule was more affrighted at this that it could not bring its desires into God and began to pray more earnestly but the the Devill with his desire took hold of the Mercuriall-kindled-fiery wheele of life and awakened the evill properties so that evill or false inclinations arose and went into that thing wherein they had taken pleasure and delight before The poor soule would very fain goe forward to God with its will and therefore used all its endeavours but all its thoughts fled away from God into earthly things and would not goe to God The soule sighed and bewailed it selfe to God but it was as if it were quite clean forsaken and cast out from the presence of God it could not get so much as one looke of grace but was in meer anguish and also in great fear and terrour and supposed every moment that the wrath and severe judgement of God would be manifested in it and that the Devill would take hold of it and have it and so fell into such great heavinesse and sorrow that it became weary of all the joy and pleasure it took in temporal things though it were never so delighted with them before The Earthly naturall will desired those things still but the soule would willingly leave them altogether and desired to dye to all temporall Lust and Joy and longed only after its first native Country from whence it came originally but it found it selfe to be farre from thence also in great distresse and want and knew not what to doe yet resolved to enter into it selfe and still stir it selfe up to pray more earnestly The Devils opposition But the Devill opposed it and withheld it that it could not bring it selfe into any greater fervency or Repentance The Devil awaked the earthly lusts in its heart that the inclinations might stil keep their evill nature and set them at ods against the will and desire of the soule for they would not dye to their own will and light but would stil maintain their temporal pleasures and so kept the poore soule captive in their evill desires that it could not stirre though it sighed and longed never so much for the grace of God for whensoever the soule prayed or offered to presse forwards towards GOD then the iusts of the flesh swallowed up the rayes and ejaculations that went forth from the soule brought them away from God into earthly thoughts that the soule might not partake of divine strength and then the soule thought it selfe forsaken of God and knew not that God was so neere it and did thus draw it Also the Devill drew neere it and entred into the fiery Mercury or fiery wheele of its life and mingled his desires with the earthly lusts of the flesh and mocked the poore soule and sayd to it in the earthly thoughts Why dost thou pray Dost thou think that God knoweth thee or regardeth thee Consider but what thoughts thou hast in thee in his presence are they not altogether evill thou hast no faith or beliefe in God at all how then should he heare