qualitate depositi Sic sic in domo propriâ à propriâ familiâ habeo accusatores testes judices tortores Bernard Meditat. devot cap. 13. pag. mihi 1060. My sins I am not able to conceal because where ever I go my Conscience is continually with me and carries with it what I have put in it whether it be good or evil It keeps for me living it will restore to me dying what I have delivered to be kept by it If I do evil Conscience is present if I seem to do good and am lifted up with Pride Conscience is present It accompanies me all my Life long 't will follow me after Death and will be my inseparable either Glory or Confusion according to the Quality of what it has Observed in me Thus thus in my own House in my own Soul I have Accusers Witnesses Judges Tormentors if I dare to give way unto Iniquity 4. Though Conscience may seem to be quite banished and for the present does no more its Office than if there were no such thing yet this Exiled and Banished thing will at last return or to speak more properly this Conscience that was imagined to be in a dead sleep or altogether careless will shew that it has been too much present with the guilty all along These six particulars are here to be Observed 1. Some great Affliction may awaken Conscience When the Widow with whom Elijah sojourned her Son fell sick and his sickness was so sore that there was no breath left in him her Conscience was exceedingly startled and she said to Elijah What have I to do with thee O thou Man of God art thou come unto me to call my sin to remembrance and to slay my Son 1 Kings 17. 17 18. The Locusts which were so very grievous that came over all the Land of Egypt extorted a Confession from Pharaoh's Conscience though his Heart was before hardned He called for Moses and Aaron in haste and said I have sinned against the Lord and against you now therefore forgive I pray thee my sin this once and intreat the Lord your God that he may take away from me this Death onely Exod. 10. 16 17. How does Affliction give new Eyes and make sin appear in other colours than before it seemed to have When the Body of a sinner is first struck with a Disease and the mind apprehends this Sickness may prove deadly and that now being Arrested the sinner must quickly appear before the Judgment-seat Ohthen what a commotion is there in the Soul and how fierce and clamourous is the Conscience which before was deeply silent 2. Conscience may awake after a fall into some scandalous sin When the long covered Hypocrisie is detected and the sly sinner which waxed worse and worse and yet was secure at length does commit some sin that the World crys shame on Oh then Conscience may joyn in with the VVorlds clamors (r) Non aurem solam percutit iracundia criminantis verùm etiam conscientiam mordet veritas criminis August l. 3. contra lit Petilian Tom. 7. and tell him that now his sin has found him out and that Heaven has revealed his iniquity and that because he has despised God he has been suffered to do that which has made himself to be lightly esteemed 3. Conscience may awake at the hearing of a powerful Sermon The messengers of the Lord are commanded to lift up their Voices like a Trumpet and the design is to startle Conscience and that sinners may be made sensible of and to know their Transgressions Isaiah 58. 1. God speaks thus to the Prophet Ezekiel chap. 6. 11. Smite with thine hand and stamp with thy foot and say Alas for all the evil abominations of the House of Israel These gestures this earnestness and crying out of abominations is used to affect the Hearts which before were stupid And truly the VVord of God has oftentimes taken impression even upon those whose Souls were more than ordinarily senseless The Apostles hearers were mockers and yet the VVord being set home they were prickt at the Heart and said Men and Brethren what shall we do Act. 2. 37. Now when the VVord does awaken the Conscience there is more ground to hope that God has a design to work a saving change and that the troubles of Spirit are but as it were the pangs which fore-run the new Birth 4. Conscience may awake when Death is within view I grant indeed that 't is too common for the ungodly to dy stupid and that there may be no bands in their death Psal 73. but yet experience shews that the approach of death does also fill many ungodly ones with horrour and amazement What made Balaam to cry out let me dye the death of the righteous and let my last end be like his Num. 23. 10. Surely he had pre-apprehensions how terrible a thing 't is for the ungodly to dye When nature is almost spent and the earthly Tabernacle is tottering and falling to the ground when Physicians are at a losse and friends stand by weeping and 't is whispered in the room Alas he cannot live many hours to an end Ah then Conscience may wake in terrible fright and the sinner may be confounded and as death comes with its sting so it may prove indeed the King of terrours 5. To be sure at judgment Conscience will be awaked thoroughly though sinners possibly may look death yet they cannot look the Judge in the face without being daunted He will strike terrour into the Hearts of those sinners that were most obstinate and unbelieving VVe read that at the great day the Books will be opened Rev. 20. 12. The Book of Scripture will be opened for by that every one must be judged The Word that I have spoken sayes Christ the same shall judge at the last day The book of Conscience will also be opened and what things are found written there will be taken notice of and must be answered for No Conscience at that day can be stupid The Heavens passing away with a great noise and the Elements melting with fervent heat and the Earth and the works therein being all in a flame every unjustified and unsanctified sinners Heart will smite him and as the Judge will condemn him so he will be condemned by his own Conscience Chrysostome (s) 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 Chrys in Epist ad Rom. 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 advises every one to look into his own Conscience presently and to be strict in self-searching that he may not be condemned with the world for 't is a dreadful Tribunal which all must appear before and the trial of every one will be thorow and impartial 6. Conscience will be with the ungodly in Hell to all Eternity Could we go down indeed to the gates of Hell and have some discourse with the damned there and ask them concerning their Consciences they would answer that a great part of Hell lyes there and that they feel within
persons Conscience has no more reason to fear the greatest than the poorest Can the greatest man punish his Conscience for being plain with him He may indeed wound it more and more but this will in the end onely increase his own smart and anguish Prophets and Ministers have not accesse unto some nor an opportunity to tell them of their misdoings and if they have and do discharge their duty they may suffer for it John the Baptist was sent to Prison for reproving Herod and afterwards his life was taken away But though Herod was no more troubled and rebuked by John yet his own Conscience does fearlesly and impartially deal with him and therefore when he heard of the fame of Jesus he cries out John is risen from the Dead which shews that his Conscience flew in his face about him 3. Conscience accuses of high matters of such crimes the least of which deserves damnation There is nothing which Conscience does accuse of but sin and sin is the Transgression of a Law and that Law is the Law of God and this God is an infinite Majesty and therefore sin does merit an infinite punishment Though Papists call some sins venial and make but light of them yet a serious Conscience looks upon every sin as justly deserving Eternal condemnation the Apostle speaks indefinitely concerning sin without excepting any The Wages of Sin is Death Rom. 6. ult and by Death he means Eternal Death for 't is opposed unto the gift of God which is Eternal Life by Jesus Christ our Lord. Among Men there are indeed some petty faults which a Malefactor is not so afraid when accused of but how pale does he look when Felony or Murther or Treason is laid to his charge alas the Gallows the Gibbet Hanging Drawing Quartering he now fears Conscience brings in an indictement against the sinner for nothing but what is damnable for every sin against the great God is so in its own Nature And if every sin makes the Soul liable to the vengeance of Eternal fire how may the sinner be amazed when all his iniquities are set in order before him 4. Conscience accuses a man to himself Luther tells us concerning a certain Cardinal that was wont to say Conscientia est mala bestia quae facit hominem stare contra seipsum Conscience is an evil Beast for it makes a man to stand against himself When Conscience is our accuser our accuser is within us and we can go no where without this accuser A man by this means becomes 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 a self-punisher These self accusations do break a mans spirit they imbitter all Temporal comforts and Oh! how bitter then do they make affliction 5. Conscience in its accusations lets us understand that God understands better then it self what it layes to our charge The Apostle tells us that God is greater than our Hearts and knows all things 1 John 3 20. This Text plainly informs us that God knows by us more than we know Many sins slip out of Our memories but none out of Gods Hos 7. 2. They consider not in their Hearts that I remember all their wickedness now their own doings have beset them round they are all before my face When Conscience is awakened and we are beset round with our own doings this causes the perplexity that they are all before Gods face he remembers all though we are not able to number half of them Moses cryes out We are consumed by thine anger by thy wrath are we troubled Thou hast set our inquities before thee our secret sins in the light of thy Countenance Psal 90. 7. 8. 6. Conscience is many times incessant and not to be silenced in its accusations Augustine (h) Qui malas habent uxores domus suas intrare nolunt ad forum exeunt gaudent coepit hora esse quâ intraturi sunt ad domum suam contristantur Intraturi sunt ad taedia ad murmura ad amaritudines ad eversiones Si ergo miseri sunt qui cùm redeunt ad parietes suos timent quantò miseriores qui ad conscientiam redire nolunt ne litibus peccatorum evertantur Vt possis libens redire ad cor tuum illud munda Aufer cupiditatem sordes aufer labem avaritiae malas cogitationes odia non dico adversus amicum sed etiam adversus inimicum aufer ista omnia Intra cor tuum gaudebis Aug. in Enarrat in Psal 33. pag. mihi 237 238. compares a clamorous Conscience to a brawling Woman whose Tongue being set on fire of Hell never lies still but is continually shooting forth bitter words Now Solomon tells us 'T is better to dwell in the corner of a house top than with such a Woman in a wide house Prov. 25. 24. nay 'T is better to dwell in the Wilderness than with a contentious and angry Woman Prov. 21. 19. But how much more intolerable are the reproaches of an enraged Conscience Flashes of Hell fire do issue as it were out of the mouth of it it is continually bringing guilt unto remembrance and speaking of those Flames unto which this guilt does render the Soul that sins obnoxious and liable Thus the witness of Conscience is an accusation upon doing evil and such an accusation as may very much be dreaded 2. The witnesse of Conscience is an Apology upon doing well It will bear witnesse for those that are sincere when they walk before God in Truth and with a perfect Heart It must indeed be granted that in many things all even the very best do offend Jam. 3. 2. But conscience takes notice of the bent and desire of the Soul to please the Lord and how burthensome and bewailed infirmities are Conscience will excuse and defend if there be a will to do good though evil at the same time be present as it was with the Apostle himself Rom. 7. 21. Conscience having looked into the Gospel understands that God does not deal with Believers according to the terms of the Covenant of Works which had a promise of Life only upon condition of perfect obedience but Death was threatned upon the least transgression No no they are not now under the Law but under Grace and in the new Covenant sincerity is accounted and accepted as our perfection before God through Christ Jesus Now Consciences excusing or defending is of great force and weight 'T is not to be checkt by the reproaches of men nor by the accuser of the Brethren 1. Conscience excusing us is not to be checkt by the reproaches of Men. How eager as I hinted before were Jobs friends in their censures and accusations They thought his Religion was but a meer shew and that he had used the Form of Godliness onely as a cover for his wickedness and injustice Heark how he speaks to them Job 19. 2 3. How long will ye vex my Soul and break me in pieces with words these ten times have ye reproached me you are not ashamed
(g) Philosophers have measured mountains Fathom'd the depth of Seas of States and Kings Walkt with a staff to heaven traced fountains But there are two vast spacious things The which to measure it doth more behove Yet few there are that sound them Sin and Love Hebert Agony pag. 29. No Creature can fully understand it onely God who knows how good himself is knows how evil sin is which is directly opposite and contrary to him But though we cannot sound the bottom of this evil no more then we can dig to the Earths Centre yet much is discovered by the VVord of God Sin is worse then the Devil for it made him a Devil Take sin from the Devil he will be a glorious Angel if sin get into a glorious Angel 't wil turn him into a Devil presently Sin will make us like the Devil if we go on in it and bring us into the same state of unalterable misery But let us view sin a little with relation to God 'T is a daring of his Power and Presence a bold challenging of the Almighty to do his worst 'T is an affront of his Majesty a casting off of his Authority Let us break his bands asunder and cast away his cords from us Psal 2. 3. 'T is a robbing him of his Glory which is so dear to him and which he is so unwilling to give to another 'T is a slighting of his Goodness which is so vast and large that it should attract the Love and Hearts of all and which alone can satisfie and be beatifical to the Soul of Man 'T is an injury to his Justice contrary to his Holiness denies his Truth makes him a Liar for neither Promises nor Threatnings are believed Nay Sin strikes at the very Being of God for if hating our Brother be murthering of him Ah! what is hatred of God to be called No wonder that the Lord is so angry at sin and turns those that will by no means turn from it into Hell and makes them for ever to bewail their Rebellion against him If Sin were but rightly understood Conscience would be tender of offending we should not dare to be so venturous upon so great an evil Would you grieve for sin cry out What have I done would you be tender and afraid to sin when tempted say What am I about to do how much shall I do against God how much shall I wrong my own Soul 2. That Conscience may be tender see him that is invisible Moses did thus by the eye of Faith and this made him so tender that he refused to be called the son of Pharoahs Daughter he esteemed the reproach of Christ greater Riches than the Treasures of Egypt and chose rather to suffer Affliction with the People of God than to enjoy the Pleasures of Sin which are but for a season Heb. 11. 24. 27. The thoughts of God do disturb the stupid Conscience therefore wicked men care not to speak or hear or think of him But Believers endeavour to imitate David who said I have set the Lord alwayes before me and this makes and keeps Conscience very tender Look up often to God and the frequent viewing of him will encrease both Fear and Love David having studied well the Omni-presence of God and perceived that in every place God was perpetually by him he desires to have his heart and thoughts searched and tried and every wicked way in him discovered and Conscience is so tender that he dares and cares to go in no way but the way that is everlasting Psal 139. 23 24. See God in every ordinance then Conscience will tell you he is jealous about his worship that he is a Great King and hath said Cursed be the deceiver who having a male in his flock voweth and sacrificeth unto the Lord a corrupt thing Mal. 1. 14. See God in every providence then Conscience will tell you that mercies are not to be abused nor consumed upon your lusts and that afflictions are sent to take away your Sin See God in every Temptation how easily then will Conscience silence the Tempter by telling him 't is not safe to provoke the Lord to his very face 't is not wisdom to forfeit his Favour to incurr his Anger for such poor things as Satan offers his greatest offers are but poor and oh how far does the Lord outbid him 3. That Conscience may be tender Bewail the stupidness of it and cry to have it cured Follow God with restless importunity Lord enlighten my eyes and awaken my Conscience lest I sleep the sleep of death He will be angry with you if you should think that you can cure your selves of this malady you cannot please this Physician better than to make use of him You have great encouragement to seek unto him for he has expresly said A new Heart will I give you and a new Spirit will I put within you and I will take away the Heart of stone out of your flesh and I will give you an Heart of flesh Ezek. 36. 26. The stone in the heart and the stupidness of the Conscience are diseases near a kin nay the one does include the other a stony Heart implies a senseless Conscience and an Heart of flesh a Tender-conscience Hope in this word of Promise He is faithful that has made it Never any yet have found the Lord backward to heal that were indeed weary of their Distempers 4. That Conscience may be tender Eye the examples of Saints whose tenderness in Scripture is commended How tender was Joseph though his Mistress tempted him and he a Servant though he was a young man and Single though opportunity offered it self and there was a great probability of secrecy in reference to his Master though he was likely to be accused of an attempt to Ravish if he did not consent to commit Adultery and hereby his Masters rage might endanger his life Yet Conscience was so tender that he did not dare to do so great a wickedness O Joseph though thou hadst a beautiful outside yet thy inside thy Heart was much more amiable How tender was Job there was none like him in the Earth he feared God and eschewed evil and throughout chap. 31. you may read with what care and Conscience he Eschewed it He was so watchful against uncleanness that he made a Covenant with his eyes he was so just that he did not despise the cause of his own Servants He was so Merciful that he carried himself like a Father to the Poor and like a guide and Husband to the Widdow He was so free from revenge that he rejoyced not at the destruction of him that hated him neither did he lift up himself when evil found him Unto these Scripture instances I shall add another concerning one of the Fathers k He that writes the life of Anselmn relates this passage and ushers it in with this Preface My Conscience bears me witness that I lye not He feared nothing in the World more than