have done when the spirit is wounded it is most in agitation and in a manner taken up wholly with reflexive acts it is ofttimes with a troubled conscience as it is with troubled waters the troubling of which fetcheth up that mud and filth which lay sunke and buried below men doe begin to see more clearely what they have done by what they suffer let God trouble Iosephs brethren and this presents unto them their long past guilt in selling their brother Gen. 42. 21. and when Israel was troubled with Gods wrath and mortality they could now read their sinnes in Gods countenance Psal 90. 7 8. 4. Confession and acknowledgement 4. Confession of sin of sinne deepe wounds provoke unto vomiting and although we are naturally as apt to conceale as to commit sinne yet spirituall wounds will not long bee hid David like a childe had hurt himselfe and hee hides it hee had taken downe poyson and keepes silence but at last the wound festred and his heart was too heavie for his body so as hee roareth for the disquietment of his spirit and he is made most freely and humbly to acknowledge his sinne unto God Psal 32. 3 4 5. 5. Detestation of sin spirituall 5. Hatred of sin wounds doe worke in the godly deepe hatred against sinne O this lying under the sense of wrath this racking under the strong and piercing accusations of conscience for sin doth incense the soule with the deepest loathing of sinne that may be so that the broken sinner saith unto it get thee hence Esa 30. 22. 6. Reformation of life endeavours 6. Change of life of obedience for the future with watchfull feare against sinne is the fruit of the spirituall wound in Gods children such doe say now I finde and feele what it is to venture on stollen waters and what it is to taste the pleasures of sinne for a season O I am now in the flames I have found a dart striken thorough my liver and what have I to doe any more with idols Hosea 14. 8. If God will once heale my soule and pardon me my sin J will not sinne against him as I have done in time past but I will take him for my God and doe unto him all the possible service for his honour that I can For the grounds occasioning Causes of the vvound in mans spirit 9. the wound of the spirit in men J finde them very different and they are more generall or speciall and particular I shall name some of them 1. Sinne committed 1. The wound in mans spirit is caused by sinne if any thing dishearten feare and distresse the soule it is sinne every sinne committed and lying upon the conscience is a wound to conscience Now when you sin so against the brethren yee wound their conscience saith Paul 1 Cor. 8. 12. whence I inferre if another mans sinne will wound another mans conscience then much more a mans owne sinne will wound his owne conscience this is true * Maluâ—â— culp◠〈◊〉 bit maluâ—â— poenae that all mans miserable and penall evills whether inward or outward doe follow his sinfull evills had there beene no sinne there had beene no wound and thus man is the entire cause of his owne wounding if we bee Hosea 1â— 9. tasting of the forbidden fruit sucking at the pleasures of sin and doe swallow downe the secret poyson thereof no marvaile if it cast our soules and and spirits into paine and vexation and unspeakeable stretchings and strainings Note that as it is all sin in generall so it is What sins do most of all wound conscience the greatnesse aggravations and repetitions of some sins in particular which doe greatly wound conscience within man I meane unnaturall sins such as are sinnes of blood and sins of uncleannesse unreasonable sins committed contrary to the cleare light of reason as sinnes of Rebellion and Treason found in Achitophel and Iudas formall sins which is the slubbering over Gods services out of custome and for fashion when a man knoweth he ought to doe them with holinesse of affection and highnesse of reverence locall sins the sinnes of a mans calling and place such as are idlenesse unfaithfullnesse and unrighteousnesse in buying selling borrowing lending restoring and the like sins against vowes solemnely made against sin yea and sins of repetition men going over the same sins often all these and other the like sinnes doe not a little wound conscience in men 2. The wound is caused by â— Sin fel. the sensible apprehension of the debt and guilt of sin guilt apprehended in depth is the greatest wounding of conscience that may bee when a man comes to know his transgressions and to possesse the sinnes of his youth finding the fastning of sin in the venome of it upon his soule this is the great maladie and disease of the soule there is nothing so mortall and deadly as sin is and there is nothing more terrible and troublesome then for a man to see himselfe a sinner without a Saviour and to reade his own sins unto himselfe in an unpardonable manner it is one thing to reade a sin in the Word and another thing for the Word and conscience to make us to reade it in our selves in all the offence and danger and damnation of it Psal 51. 3. Iob 13. 25 26. The wound is caused by the The Law over pressed or over applied over-taking of the threats and enforcements of the Law unto a mans selfe the Law is terrible and causeth the bondage of the spirit putting a man to his deepest distresses when as sinne and conscience doth meete and mingle with it There are two things about Two things about the Law the Law causing the wound of spirit in man 1. One is The unskilfull managing of it by the Ministers they preaching it without reference to the Gospell as it was delivered on Mount Sinai 2. Another is The overfastning of the Law in its terror and execration upon a mans selfe the Law hath an extreame curse written in it selfe it renders up a man a sinner to the severity of Gods justice and irresistibility of his wrath it powers in the fiery indignation of the Almighty and acknowledgeth no Saviour at all Now when a man shall write downe after the Law that he is a man every way under the execration and exaction of the Law this is the sadnesse and sicknesse of his spirit Rom. 7. 9. When the Law came sinne revived and I died 4. The wound is made by the tasting of divine wrath when God is not felt in his love but that there is a folding Tasting of divine wrath up the former intimations from the soule there is a mighty wound in the spirit as we may see in David Psal 77. the first 10. verses how much more horrible and wounding to the spirit is the apprehension of the angry and wrathfull face of God setting it selfe against a man Iobs mind was exercised with this
105 The Bent of the heart in duty page 263. C. Comfort of the Spirit page 15. Contentment page 17. Clearenesse of conscience page 49 Care for conscience page 55. Content of conscience p. 67 68. Confession of sin page 88. Change of life page 89. Compassion due to the wounded in spirit page 121. Considerations to pity such p. 123. Continuance under wounds caused 6. waies p. 133. Clearing of warrants what p 173 Causes of Gods suspending his love page 177. D. Desperation two fold page 79. Degrees of wounding page 81. Differences in the wounding p 82 Detestation of sin page 89. Dresse the wound page 145. Danger by sinning page 168. Darkning of warrants page 175. Doubtings in their nature causes differences and sorts page 195. Difference betweene Christians and others in doing duties page 266. E. Enquire after sin page 87. Fruitlesse Endeavours page 280. F. Faith doth foure things to strengthen the spirit page 19. It doth foure waies relieve the soule page 23. Fearing of trouble twofold p. 28 29. Faintnesse page 31. A case about Fainting of spirit p. 33. Faith in operation page 54. Feeding of conscience what p. 64 Sin Felt three waies page 85. The Failing of conscience what page 97. To Feare the wounding of spirit page 126. Former feelings of love foure signes of it page 185. Foundations of divine love to the soule page 192 Faith and doubtings go together page 207. Faith to be cherished and advanced page â—27 Failings in duties page 260. G. A Good cause for suffering p 41. A Good carriage under suffering in seaven things page 45. The Goodnesse of spirit seene in seaven things page 48. Graces two waies considerable page 254. H. Humiliation an effect of the wound page 43. Hope page 44. Humility page 86. Harkning to Satan page 138. Humbling necessary for three things page 162. I Infirmity double p. 3. Selfe Iealousie p. 99. Illnesse of diet p. 136. K. Six rules for Keeping off wounds from the spirit p. 128 The Knowledge of the wound of the spirit necessary p. 114. L. Liberty of spirit p. 49. The Law and two things about it p. 94 95. The Life of sense p. 137 225. Three things about Love and duty p. 170. Love one for kind different in degree p. 184. Littlenesse of faith causeth doubts p. 206. Little grace apprehended p. 245. M. Meanes of making conscience good p. 51. The Misery of conscience in silence in three things p. 97. Mistaking about the wound of conscience p. 115. Melancholy is not this wound p. 117 118. Motives to pittie wounded spirits p. 124. Meanes to get off the wounds of spirit three p. 140. Misplacing of warrants p. 174. Motives and meanes against doubtings p. 216. N. New risings of old sins p. 102. Spirituall Nicenesse 137. O. Overlading of conscience what and how p. 63. Operation of melancholy p. 116. Opening of the wound needfull p. 142. P. Patience of the spirit p. 16. Prevention p. 69. Rules for Preserving the spirit from wounds p. 6 128. Provision p. 147. Promises the ground assuring love p. 185. Q. Quietnesse of conscience p. 48. A Question about the inequality of graces p. 256. R. Religion expressed under the crosse p. 43. The Remoovall of sin p. 64. Seven Reasons proving the burden of conscience insupportable p. 106. Releevements under the suspension of Gods love p. 159. For the Regaining of Gods love in sense foure things p. 167. Ten Releevements against doubtings p. 204. Ten Releevements under imperfection of graces p. 248. Five Releevements against failings in duties p. 261. Relapses afâ—er resolutions p. 286. Causes of Relapses nine p. 288. The misery of Relapses p. 296. The kindes of Relapses p. 301. S. A twofold Spirit p. 6. Conscience called a Spirit p. 8. Mans Spirit considered two waies Ibid. Strength of Spirit graduall p. 36. Sinking of Spirit double p. 37. Sleighting of crosses evill p. 39. Sins that are most wounding p. 92 A Seared spirit p. 114. Sense of love graduall p. 167. To Settle the soule in assurance of love p. 176. Sin to be subdued p. 231. T. Thankefullnesse p. 43 125. Tendernesse of spirit p. 49. Tempting of conscience of what p. 58. To Taste divine wrath p. 96. Testimony of Satan put by two waies p. 219. Thoughts 1. In their sorts p 319. 2. In their trouble 3. In their triall 4. In their cure V. Vprightnesse of conscience p. 48. Vse conscience p. 65. Conscience Vexed p. 58. Vnstedfastnesse in walking p. 163 Vnworthinesse p. â—34 W. Weakenesse of spirit p. 28. Wound of spirit p. 73. Want of good p. 103. Willing of cure p. 141. Wash the wound p. 143. Gods Wages p. 281. Waiting must be added to doing page 283. FINIS A Post-Script to the Reader THou hast a promise of Cases in the Epistle unto thee I had no sooner made it but it was called for by desiring and needing Christians time and leasure also serving it is brought forth as fitly agreeing with the subject handled and deemed by men more judicious then my selfe very comforting and setling unto perplexed soules I. S. Errata Page 116. for are the next instruments reade or Page 323. for formerly reade formally
will better helpe in sufferings and keepe up the soule in patience and comfort then the spirit which is spirituall there is no spirit to the sound spirit and the spirit can never bee sound untill that it be made spirituall conscience was made good at the first and conscience is fit for goodnesse now and goodnesse will bee the good of it and the good of man by it learne to know two things First that the goodnesse of The goodnesse of spirit stands in 7. things 1. Holines conscience stands 1. In its sanctity by spirituall renovation when as it is free from the filth of corruption and qualified with divine graces 2. In its quietnesse and peace 2. Quietnesse it must be pacified as well as purified it must not onely bee privatively quiet but also positively quiet there must not only be no torment but a blessed security and assurance within it 3. In its sincerity it must be 3. Vprightnesse upright freed from the rottennesse of guile and hypocrisie this is that truth in the inward parts which God so much delighteth in Psal 51. 6. 4. In its ability when it is 4 Stâ—engtâ— strong in execution and able to exercise its owne operations and freely disposed to spirituall imployments what good can conscience doe us whilst it is weake and unable to beare it selfe 5. In its tendernesse it must 5. Tendernesse be feeling melting yeelding and bleeding 6. In its clearenesse the 6. Clearenesse good of conscience is the light in conscience it must bee filled with saving light and be informed by the rule not onely naturall but spirituall it must in some measure in a spirituall manner see and know it selfe its God its duty its way its worke its object 7. In its freedome it must 7. Liberty have liberty although it hath a a binding power which it derives from the Word of God yet it selfe must bee freed from entanglements by sinne and error and must be brought into bondage by no creature Secondly the way to attaine this goodnesse of spirit is Two waies of attaining goodnesse of spirit 1. To bee sensibly convinced of the badnesse and naughtinesse of our spirits naturally we have within us no sparke of saving goodnesse but our hearts are full of guile and guilt and they are evill above all things Ier. 17. 9. wee foolishly fancie their naturall goodnesse and that keepeth us of from found endeavour after their spirituall goodnesse who among us would labour after that which hee conceiveth hee wants not our worke is to get sound acquaintance with the illnesse and bafenesse of our owne spirits and to bewaile the same before the Lord. 2. To set upon the use of those meanes whereby badnesse may bee remooved and Meanes of making conscience good to be are are foure 1. The Spirit true goodnesse may be brought into your consciences which I conceive are these foure 1. The Spirit in Sanctification who alone can and doth heale the infirmity of mans spirit by the subduing of corruption within him and vouchsafing courage and strength unto the inner man by the creation of all saving graces within 2. The Lord Jesus in application 2. Christ there is that vertue in the bleedings and dyings of Christ that it is able to kill and crucifie sinne and to sprinkle from an evill conscience and to purge the conscience from dead works to serve the living God Heb. 9. 14. 10. 22. there is enough in the Lord Jesus to make us wholly holy and truly good in Gods sight he being made unto us of God Wisedome and Sanctification and one every way fitted for the communication of holinesse to his members 3. The Word in administration 3. The Word the Law and the Gospell meeting in the spirituall vertue thereof with the spirit of man is a notable meanes to make it good and sound the Word of God by its comfortable promises and cleare directions doth and will mightily enable the spirit in his office of upholding and strengthening man in the daies of adversity the Word of God is sutable nourishment unto the spirit it is strong and the admirable strength of the spirit it is sweet and the great refresher of the spirit it doth every way so glad and cheare mans spirit that it giveth him most sure grounds of standing under the greatest burdens Note beleeve me if that conscience bee not informed by the Word it is blind and where it is not fed by the promises it is infirme and can never beare up our infirmities Vnlesse thy Law had beene my delight I should then have perished in mine affliction Psal 119. 92. 4. Faith in operation a 4. Faith conscience full of infidelity is full of badnesse and feares and sinkings but the more beleeving a mans heart is the more sound and the more stout it is I had fainted unlesse I had beleeved to see the goodnesse of the Lord in the land of the living Psal 27. 13. I assure you that faith is a grace that deales with the God of all comfort and the Word of all comfort and when distresses are like a strong tyde beating much upon Note us it is as a rock beating off all waves and keepes the spirit in strength and courage in times of trouble Vse 4 Lastly learne a duty of care and respect towards your spirits that they may performe their office in upholding and strengthening you in the daies of your adversity if that our Six things to be done about the spirit 1. Abuse it not spirits faile us we are undone and to this purpose I shall advise you unto these things 1. Abuse not conscience the abuse of our best friends is base and we cannot with safety Tvvelve vvaies of abusing conscience to our selves abuse our spirits Now men abuse their conscience 12. waies 1. By resisting the motions of conscience there is in conscience a certaine naturall power either by a watch word to give warning when men are bent to sinne or to give the check after the commission of sin it is a word within us and behind us it doth dictate to us and direct us Now when a man shall crosse conscience in this worke and notwithstanding all that it saith and doth go on in an evill way this is the abuse of conscience by an act of resistance 2. By disregarding the motions of conscience conscience is speaking and that very loud it many times groweth importunate with us and stands in our way at every turne Now when men turne away their eare and passe over conscience finding out other matters of very purpose that they may not answer or follow conscience it is a great abuse of conscience Acts 24. 26. 3. By wounding and wasting conscience our spirits are tender things and should be gently used it is as our eye and every the smallest dust offends it it is as a glasse and every knocke crackes it it is a brittleship and we may soone
make shipwrack of it 1 Tim. 1. 19. a sinfull course will wound and wast conscience but take me sinnes committed against the light of nature of Scripture and of grace and those doe exceedingly gore conscience 4. By disquieting and vexing conscience to bring trouble and torment into the soule is no small abuse of the soule it is the greatest injurie that can bee done unto it and this men doe 1. In forcing sinne upon it Conscience vexed and how 2. In linking sin with it 3. In hindering the operations of it 5. By tempting conscience some men proove divels unto their owne consciences partly Two wâ—ies of tempting conscience in laying baites before it setting conscience in the presence of vilenesse and using it to sinfull companies or sinfull occasions certaine I am that it is a hard matter to keepe all faire with conscience when and where there is nothing but vilenesse and partly in trying conclusions upon it men play the Empericks with their consciences putting them upon the practise of things the lawfullnesse whereof they know not or are not yet resolved of 6. By deading and searing conscience conscience is and would be living and sensible now when men brawne it by the daily and customary practises of horrible and grosse sins and by disusance they doe abuse it and so disable it for all spirituall service 7. By smoothering the scruples of iâ— conscience is many times full of reall and personall cases and sometimes it is not able to resolve it selfe now if a man thorough pride or bashfullnesse shall keep all close and not seeke the satisfaction and resolution thereof this maketh the inward ranckling and festering and languishing thereof 8. By blinding and darkening conscience knowledge is the eye and light of conscience for it seeth no more then it knoweth now ignorance is the thing that blindes conscience and without knowledge it is not good it is a madnesse in men to take away or to put out the light which should guide and direct their owne consciences in things to be beleeved and done 9. By abasing conscience conscience was made for goodnesse to uphold and maintaine that and for high and holy imployment to doe that now when it shall be used for a colour and cloake for sinne and wickednesse and men shall either make their sins to carry the name of conscience as unwarranted opinions and practises now adaies doe or make conscience the cause of sinne as too many do who cannot come to Church and receive the holy Sacraments under a pretence that conscience will not let them a great belying and abusing Conscience abased and how of conscience or to make conscience a false witnesse fastning untruths on it as doe such men that will take it upon their consciences that it is not so nor so as they are accused when indeed it is so conscience is put to sweare against conscience and to speake against conscience and to accuse and condemne and to execute conscience this is the putting of conscience unto the basest offices that can be and this way men do notably abuse conscience 10. By silencing conscience conscience within us can and would speake unto us when as others cannot or dare not to speake unto us Now when men command it unto silence and stop the mouth thereof and cannot endure that it should be a voice either of direction or correction unto them but bribe or choake conscience it is a great abuse unto it 11. By neglecting it conscience is worthy our best respect and attendance and wee cannot do too much to cherish and refresh it Now when men shall runne from it as many a Whore doth from her childe leaving it upon the Parish and let who will looke after it when men shall never enquire after its health but suffer it to take grievous falls and hurts when men shall passe over its wounds not minding its cure when men shall suffer it to want the best meanes of information consolation and corroboration and let it cry it selfe to death they shew most horrible cruelty unto conscience and doe as grossely abuse it as a Nurse doth her sucking babe to whom she denieth her care and breasts 12. By overloading and entangling conscience conscience can and will beare much but yet as the overlading of a ship is her sinking so the over-lading of conscience by sinnes and sorrowes and feares and impertinent scruples is the abusing and wronging of conscience 2. Lay out for the true good and strengthening of the spirit within you wee must endeavour to maintaine it in a state of goodnesse cherishing and keeping up its goodnesse that it die not it will quit cost for us so to do the good and strength of conscience is our good and strength at all times let this then be your worke 1. Remoove daily the evillnesse of sinne from within it and before it nothing is the undoing of conscience but sinne and wee must endeavour after the daily bathing of it in the blood of the Lord Jesus the increasing of its renovation by the Spirit we must be much in the practise of repentance and washing away those sins which lie upon conscience by the teares of godly sorrow 2. Feed and nourish it with its appointed food the strength of our naturall spirits stands in their nourishment it is as true of our spirituall spirits conscience must not be overfasted nor overphysick'd but we must give it the Word in promise Christ in merit and the sense of pardoning mercy and wee flesh and refresh it 3. Make use of the strength of conscience for your supportance conscience was made for use the excellencie of it stands in its use and if wee doe put conscience unto it it will bee our confidence in times of common feares and dangers it will steele our hearts and beare up our mindes as stoutly and as safely as the waters did the Arke of Noah nay it will proove an Arke or Garrisonunto us for our safety learne therefore upon the accesse of all calamity to retire into conscience and commune with thine owne spirit and call upon conscience to doe its office and worke keepe not conscience idle within you the lesse you imploy it the unfitter will it bee for your strength and service call upon it to act its owne proper operations and you shall find the comfort of it unto you in your afflictions 4. Secure the sound spirit within you it is our upholdment and security and therfore by an holy care and watchfullnesse keepe it above all keepings Prov. 4. 23. Some men have made shipwracke of conscience and lost it 1 Tim. 1. 19. and our condition in this life is full of danger conscience within us is in the midst of many and malicious adversaries and in as much danger by evill men and divels as ever and it stands us much upon to bee watchfull and to bee alwaies fearefull and jealous least both we and it become a prey unto Satan to this end 1.
Shut carnall security out of doores 2. Avoide all occasions of sinning play not upon the hole of the Aspe and come not neare the den of the Cockatrice 3. Wisely withstand temptations unto all sin and wickednesse 4. Keep close to the rule in a holy and religious practise 5. Give contentment unto conscience in nothing willingly offend or displease it this is the wages that is due unto it for sustaining our infirmity we are not to displease such a friend that beareth all our costs and charges and taketh upon him the burden of all our cares and doth not conscience much more for us Learne then 1. To give God The contenting of conscience stands in 2. things content in the pleasing of God you greatly content conscience the servant hath no reason to bee offended all the while his master is quieted 2. To promote conscience in its power unto its place conscience must bee more worth unto us then the world wealth must not buy it worship cannot equall it and wee must not preferre the pleasing of men or our selves unto it it is the discontent of conscience to bee undervalued or to bee put off at low rates and surely if the governement of conscience bee despised it cannot bee pleased conscience is conscience and will and must bee knowne and acknowledged to bee conscience you must heare and obey conscience goe and doe what conscience enjoyneth wee must worke and stop and feare and hope and give and lend and restore when conscience bids us conscience must not be crossed and vexed by us wittingly or willingly it deserves better of us 6. Prevent the wound and torment of it take care that you make it not terrible and troublesome unto your selves if it be your burden how shall it then be able to sustaine your infirmity we reade forward in the Text a wounded spirit who can beare THE BVRDEN of the spirit under its wounds But a wounded spirit who can beare HEere wee have the impotencie of mans spirit against inward perplexities laid down by way of an interrogation which is a most vehement Negation who can beare i. e. no man can beare it in which words the Holy Ghost doth teach us these two things 1. That the spirit of man may be wounded 2. That the wounded spirit is insupportable Wee will begin with the possible estate of the spirit or conscience of man which is this Doct. 2 That it may come under great and fearefull wounds I am Mans spirit may be greatly wounded poore and needy and my heart is wounded within me saith David Psal 109. â—2 and againe he tells us that his spirit was overwhelmed within him Psal 142. 3. we finde wicked men and good men wounded in their spirits unto great vexation I shall briefely open unto you three things 1. What a wounded spirit is 2. The difference of the wound in the good and bad 3. The grounds and causes of this wound For the first know that a wounded spirit is a spirit which A wounded spirit what for the time doth sensibly suffer miserable and in a sort hellish evills in a distressefull uncomfortable fearefull restlesse and desperate manner There goeth to the making of the wounded spirit these things 1. Miserable and in a degree hellish evills I say that innumerable evills doe compasse the soule it is not one misery but an army which doth at this time follow a man thou renewest thy plagues against me and thou increasest thy wrath upon me changes and armies of sorrowes are aginst mee saith Iob 10. 17. the soule is cast into a peck of troubles and into the abundance of calamity yea and it is such kind of misery which nothing can better represent and shaddow then the very paines of the damned the soule for the time feeleth that gnawing worme and lieth as it were boyling and frying in hell fire there is no torment like unto it it goeth beyond all having a fullnesse and exquisitenesse of misery in it 2. The feeling of those miserable evills a man hath now his conscience opened and is made to know and apprehend the extremities of miseries which now lieth upon him even with fullnesse of weight the spirit of man is living and very tender and misery and distresse is felt In a seared conscience there is nothing but senselesnesse for that is past feeling Ephes 4. 19. but in a wounded conscience there is some life and tendernesse the practicall notions are not quite extinguished the naturall light is still burning and indeed miseries would not be miseries unto us did they not touch us to the quick 3. The manner of the apprehending of those miserable evills which is every way most grievous for First of all it is with much distrosse of foule the soule is thereby filled with unspeakeable Psal 77. anguish and paine it is as it were put upon the rack and putto torture and torment in extremity my soule is soretroubled saith David Psal 6. 3. there is such a strange oppression upon the spirit that the heavinesse of it is unto death Mat. 26. 37. Secondly it is without all comfort unto the spirit it is all darknesse without the mixture of light the spirit of a man is so drunke up that it now wasteth it selfe in daily heavinesse O that my griefe were well weighed saith Iob 6. 2. My soule refused comfort saith David Psal â—7 2. a man under the wound of conscience is so under the power of discomfort and so swallowed up of heavinesse that the soule can enjoy no spirituall or naturall comfort for the time every thing doth terrifie it nothing doth comfort it Thirdly it is a spirit filled with horror and feare and that not only in the apprehension of present misery but by the expectation of more and future evills the wounded spirit is a spirit of horrible bondage and keepes a man in bondage to servile terrors trembling thoughts the dreadfull sound is alwaies heard and such men doe create meditate and multiplie feares the spirit of trembling doth so overtake them that they are a terror unto themselves they daily apprehend nothing but guilt and wrath and death and hell and damnation Iob 15. 21. Deut. 28. 65. Dan. 5. Ier. 20. 4. Fourthly it is full of unquietnesse and daily tossings and tumblings it is exceeding restlesse and raging O the disquiet of a wounded conscience the sea in time of tempest is not more raging and rowling madnesse is not more working and unquiet the plague and other impetuous diseases are not more vexing and restlesse to a man then a wounded spirit is Thou keepest mine eyes waking saith David Psal 77. 4. When I held my tongue my bones consumed thine hand is heavie upon me day and night Psal 2. 3 4. My sore ran and ceased not in the night Psal 77. 2. Why art thou so disquieted within me O my soule Psal 43. 5. Lastly the spirit is cast into the devouring gulfe of desperation such under the feeling of their
witnesse David Psal 32. 3 4. Hezekiah Ezek. 38. 13 14. and holy Iob in his whole History and Christ himselfe suffering this wound without sin in his humane spirit cried out under its burden My God my God why hast thou forsaken me and it cannot Reasons prooving the burden of a wounded conscience are seaven be otherwise if we consider these reasons First a wounded spirit is a burden unto it selfe why hast thou set me as a marke against thee so that I am a burden unto my selfe saith Iob 7. 20. Now all wounds and burdens that are extrinsecall a mans spirit can beare but that which lieth within it selfe it cannot you know if the ship bee whole the waves doe onely beate against Simile the side they onely threaten they sinke her not but if shee have a crack and leake within her selfe she cannot endure the stirrings of the winds nor tossings of the waves but doth easily make her selfe her owne grave thus it is with conscience it cannot be both patient and burden and under all wounds it selfe being wounded it is that which makes the burden insupportable Secondly there is no outward thing which can relieve a wounded spirit it is not all the gold of the Indies nor all the favour of Princes nor all the friends on earth that can asswage or cure this wound a troubled mind impaireth health drieth up the blood wasteth the marrow pines away the flesh consumes the bones and makes all pleasures painefull to a man nothing doth comfort it but terrifie it the light doth not comfort him would God saith he it were night the darknesse doth terrifie him his sleepe forsakes him and his dreames doe not please him hee lieth on his bed boyling in disquietnesse and wisheth for day conscience can relieve against all wounds but its owne Suppose the wound to lie in a mans honour friends and estate conscience can heale all that but it selfe being wounded in the least degree it is beyond the cure and comfort of all outward things we have a saying that no borrowing part can helpe the lending part what helpe Simile can the hand returne unto the heart if I wound my hand the heart can yeeld helpe if the nerves which draw more inwardly be wounded yet the heart can helpe it hath blood and spirits and heate enough but if the heart it selfe be wounded what shall help Thirdly the spirit under its wounds retaineth the sensiblenesse of unpardoned guilt which of all things is most raging and makes the soule most comfortlesse when a man shall apprehend his sins to bee unpardonable or unpardoned it keepes him in a perpetuall rowling and boyling it is a condition that can no way be endured for sin lieth still at the doore haunting and vexing a man Fourthly a spirit that is wounded hath to deale with the mighty and irresistible power of God Now the strength of any burden is according to the strength of him with whom wee have to deale under the wound of conscience God is following his owne cause with his owne arguments and hee is now avenging the wrong that is done to his mercy and patience and is it possible for the creature to sustaine it selfe can we imagin any enabling against Gods pressure and power a man while he is to deale with men may beare up himselfe and hee may have much strength of wit or impudencie of face to out-face all enquiries but when men are to deale with an all-seeing and an all knowing and an all-sinne revenging God the might of whose glory is able to confound men and Angels if he once shall start up our guilts and breake into our soules if he send a trembling heart and sorrowfull mind if himselfe be witnesse against us and by his power imprison and shut us up we cannot avoid it or beare it time will not ease us company will not ease us peace will not ease us when he wounds none can heale but himselfe Fifthly the wound of the spirit is accompanied with the accusations of conscience conscience cannot be bribed or put of there is no flying from it the strength of conscience is awakened and her cruelty roareth conscience under wounding doth arraigne evidence condemne and bind over unto eternall wrath for sin and it is of an indefatigable unresistible and unavoidable power in working a man by flight or death or friends may escape the Magistrates hand but by neither can he possibly ever escape from a displeased conscience a tormented conscience cannot flie from God nor can a man flie from it Sixthly the wound of spirit is of an eternall nature all other wounds end in death and are therefore the more tollerable because they be temporall but this wound endeth not in death if it be not gratiously cured it is the beginning of hell upon earth unto the wicked and it continues him in hell upon earth and after death it is that worme which still is gnawing and never dying death is not the end of this misery and this maketh it the more intollerable to be borne what heart can possibly sustaine it selfe under infinite and endlesse miseries Seventhly and lastly when and whilst men are under the wounds of conscience Satan is strongly and subtly working such is Satans cowardize that he takes us at the weakest and such is his malice that hee will yet weaken us wee being weakened already Satan falling in with the bruisings and sores of mens soules and bringing in the fretting gall of hell and powring forth the sharpest vinegar of most violent objections the soule tortured and the wound enlarged and conscience overcharged Satan now tells the sinner of the impossibility of mercy and uncapablenesse of the bloud of Christ hee now followeth him with strange endictments representations and conclusions yea and arguments of insincerity and hypocrisie and this adds to the weight and maketh the burden intollerable there is no such trouble as to be daily troubled with the divell Having thus opened the wound unto you and its burden I shall fall upon the Application of both in this manner First bee wise to know the woundednesse of your spirits and to consider what is your condition thereby I presse you to this the rather upon these grounds Vse 1 1. Because a multitude of men are under searednesse and senslesnesse of conscience 2 Tim. 4. 2. they are dead and A seared spirit is worse then a wounded spirit sleepie their spirits never moove or work within them and let mee tell you that a wounded spirit is infinitely beyond a dead spirit a troubled conscience is a mercy in respect of a seared conscience conscience in trouble may happily proove conscience in goodnesse and peace and a cure may follow it when iron is put into the fire it may be made pliable and receive another impression Simile and so we doe not know what may be the good issue of a wounded spirit unto man but you cannot hope this of conscience continuing under searednesse 2. Because men
ordinarily take least notice of their spirituall wounds in their cause and cure they are lumpish and heavie full of sad thoughts evill imaginations many times they roare and complaine but this is their Men doe mistake the spirits wound ignorance they know not what ailes them they are so mistaken in the cause businesse in hand that they judge themselves to bee under some bodily distempers by melancholie passions and other violent humours a great madnesse and ignorance in men and being fallen upon this point let mee tell you that melancholy prevailing in men doth come very neere to the trouble of conscience but it is not the wound of conscience here spoken of Satan makes it his bait and man makes it his burden but wee may not make it this wound concerning which I shall yeeld you two things 1. That melancholy given The operation of melancholie in man way unto doth corrupt the imagination and those actions of the minde or the â—ext instruments by which the minde worketh that therewith the heart affections and conscience are greatly distempered with feare and griefe and doe conceive a many uneschewable miseries against it selfe against which fancies and imaginations no arguments of reason can prevaile and this darkning vapour and blackish fume thus affecting the soule doth add torment unto it making it for the time uncapable of the sense of comfort I say this humour of melancholy hath very subtile spirits that flie up into the braine and the instrument of discretion and there they lodge their contagious qualities which corrupt the spirits and annoy both heart and braine whence arise strange imaginations and fancies in the head Head and heart having entercourse and body and soule being united the soule is nor thereby a little troubled 2. That what ever vaine men judge melancholy is not a spirituall maladie or the wounder spirit here spoken of the difference Melancholy is not the wounded spirit proved by 5. reasons betweene both is great as 1. In the ground and cause the troubles of melancholy ariseth either from naturall causes in the body or from supposed and fained causes the imagination conceiving things to bee so and so when indeed nothing is really so the trouble of conscience ariseth from the sight and sense of sin in the soule the apprehension of divine wrath due to man for sin and such like spirituall and reall causes 2. In the seate of it troubles from melancholy seate themselves in the head and naturall spirits the man having lost the right use of his wits and being mistaken in his imagination in conceits becomming monstrous true trouble is in the conscience and whole soule of man 3. In the cure of it physick may cure the one it being a bodily disease or distemper but it is not all artificiall and naturall meanes that can cure the wounds of the spirit 4. In the effects of it melancholy maketh a man simple and absurd in his thoughts touching himselfe such men will speake to you and yet conceive themselves to bee without head or heart and life they will tell you that they see Divels and feele Divels within them and you shall heare many odd things from them when as trouble of conscience looseth not it selfe but speakes according to the truth and feeling of it selfe 5. In the enlargement of it melancholy seldome or never worketh griefe for Gods dishonour it is not touched with sorrow for sin and when it is cured it gives not a man any ground and measure of spirituall joy it enforceth not a man to Christ for ease and rest it quickens no man to prayer and duty all which the wounds of the spirit in some men doe most kindly and savingly Thirdly and lastly let us know our selves rightly in our troubles of mind and we shall the better know our selves in our comforts nothing doth so prepare the heart for comforts and make us to rellish our comforts as the sense of soule trouble and heavinesse I dare affirme that if wee did know and finde our spirituall wants and wounds more wee would and should withall bee more upon the waies and feelings of comfort then we are Vse 2 Secondly let us have compassion on such who are wounded in spirit you see that such is the weight of their wounds as neither eye hath seene eare hath heard or tongue of man is able fully to expresse none can in any way of expression speake of it but such as have more or lesse felt it and shall we passe by any that are labouring under this burden not yeelding them our pitie 't is a foolish madnesse in many to thinke this sicknesse and this wound to bee but passion conceit and mopishnesse put into their heads by reading good books or hearing some strict Preachers or melancholy because it often changeth the body they think it ariseth from the body and what need all this adoe about it it is cursed cruelty in any to looke upon any labouring under this wound crying out against them censuring of them for hypocrites and in thought sentencing them to hell blaspheming their God and their religion O Considerations for the pitying of wounded in soule you ignorant men learne better and be now instructed 1. That there is no disease for symptomes and torments like unto this all other maladies are naturall but this is supernaturall they come from the constitution of the body this of the soule in them the humours first in this the conscience first and humours last are distempered they may all bee cured by naturall remedies the body may be brought to a fittemperature but it is not all the medicines under heaven that are meerely naturall can cure or comfort here 2. That it is an argument of an unsanctified and stony heart within maÌ„ to disregard taxe or censure men under the miseries of inward perplexities you being mercilesse and wanting tendernesse and experience cannot pittie them aright 3. Blessed are such as judge wisely of such poore soules and do labour to relieve their soules in their woundings this is a worke of mercy indeed and a businesse becomming the most excellent of Christians Motives to pitie and to relieve wouÌ„ded Christians Christ himselfe received his annointing and was sent of God to bind up the broken hearted Esay 61. 1 2 3. Ministers have the tongue of the learned given them to speake a word of comfort to such whose soules are wearie Esa 50. 4. and shall not wee that are Christians comfort the feeble minded and support the weake 1 Thes 5. 14. bearing one anothers burden O let us pity such and pray earnestly to God for such considering our owne case Gal. 6. 1. would wee not bee prayed for were wee in their conditions Vse 3 Thirdly how thankfull should all Christians bee for their freedome from this great burden of a wounded spirit tell me are you set at liberty and is all peace and rest within are the bands of the distresse broken wouldst
thou bee under the same estate againe to feele those hells and sorrowes which once were endured by thee No surely than stirre up thy heart to blesse thy God who hath taken off this heavie burden from thy soule blesse him daily and duely a man can never bee thankfull enough for the ease and free dome of his spirit some men walke with senselesse spirits and they blesse God that they were never troubled in mind all the daies of their life some men walk with wounds in their spirits and would give all the world did they enjoy it for freedome and ease and shall any man enjoy the liberty and peace of his conscience from God and yet walke without joy and praise it well becommeth men healed of their wounds out of that ease and liberty they have obtained to bee very joyfull and thankefull Vse 4 Fourthly to learne us in holy feare and care least that wee should bring this heavie and insupportable wound upon our selves naturally wee shun all paenall evills and dread the plunging of our selves into distresses know that wee have said enough it is a burden that none can beare thinke not out of your ignorance and pride to outface conscience or that ever you shall be able to stand under the burden of its wounds it will amaze you and bring you downe and therefore strive to avoid the pangs and paines of it and to this purpose First know that conscience within is a most tender part which will be soone troubled and wounded Secondly know that conscience troubled is a most vexing part if a man trouble his eye Similie his eye will trouble him and so it is here all the vexations will bee unto our selves Thirdly know that conscience under wounds is pining and will languish it selfe unto death Prov. 12. 25. Fourthly consider how apt men are to wound conscience and they doe it many waies well then follow this counsell Six rules for the keeping of the wounds of spirit 1. Make no adventures upon sin for a man to make light of the least sin and impudently or improvidently to hazard his soule upon the occasions of sin is the readie way to wound the spirit there are too too many who out of a secret confidence of their selfe maintenance doe object their soules upon sinfull companies they doe as many men that goe out of their houses well and sound but home they are brought all gored and wounded in like manner sinfull occasions have the advantage of us and will soone wound us let us not proudly presume of our owne strength 't is not the largenesse of our judgements or fullnesse of our graces or the peremptorinesse of our resolutions that can keepe us presuming from foiles and wounds by sin such as make nothing of sin shall soone bee wounded and darted by sin 2. Seeke not outward pleasures too much excesse of pleasures breed excessive tremblings and sadnesse of spirit such men do pierce themselves thorough and thorough with many sorrowes who doe affect a way of worldly delight and will take their fill of pleasures who so will have the Bee must have his sting also and if wee will laugh and bee merry beyond measure wee shall lie downe and howle for vexation of spirit doe not so vainely bathe your selves in carnall delights and worldly recreations the worldlings pastime is the deadnesse and wound of a Christians conseience 3. Beware of formality and remissenesse in holy services the Ordinances not rightly used doe wound exceedingly how vexing is the word to a formall and carnall Christian did any man fall of grow cold and begin to dead his heart to the meanes and duties but his heart at the last was greatly wounded for it the neglect of Christ by the Church when his voice did seeme unseasonable and inopportune unto her was punished by her spirituall wounding Cant. 5. 2 3 4 5 6. 4. Nourish no hypocrisie or guile within you doe not colour sin with faire pretences and plaister over a foule heart with an outside profession serve not graven images when you pretend a service unto God if you doe so know that it will fester to a sore and make such a wound which will proove the great disquietment of your soules Satan would have fastened this hypocrisie on Iob to have aggravated his misery and he well knoweth that hypocrisie is wounding 5. Goe not on in sinnefull waies against generall or particular convictions there are who have such abundance of love to sin in them that they will be wicked against the light of knowledge and the dictate of conscience it is not the knowledge they have of evill nor the risngs up and reproofes of conscience within them for evills which can hold them of from evill but on they goe and wickedly they will doe now as this prooves an aggravation of sin so it maketh the wound very deepe if knowledge and conscience hold us not of from sin it will hold on sin peircing the marrow and vitals of the spirit David went against as great light as any man did and did not his sins proove wounding sins breaking his bones and heart and so will thine too 6. Keepe your selves in the waies of duty walking in every action according to the rule and peace shall be upon your spirits Gal. 6. 16. I say the more holy and unblameable a man is the more strict a man is with himselfe in keeping himselfe under the law of religion the more assured peace and soundnesse shall he finde within his conscience The waies of wisedome are waies of pleasantnesse and all her paths are peace yea and the keeping of sound wisedome and discretion shall be life unto our soules Prov. 3. 17 21 22. I assure you that duties conscionably sincerely and constantly performed doe keepe up the soule in life and joy Vse 5 Fiftly continue not your selves under the wounds of conscience there is a strange cruelty which Gods children doe offer unto themselves in keeping the wound upon the soule alwaies fresh and bleeding whereby they lie longer Men doe continue themselves under their spirituall vvounds six vvaies under it then they need to doe I shall touch upon the waies and grounds of continuing the wound of conscience on a mans selfe 1. Want of seasonable counsell and comfort when men do hide their wounded estate and will not repaire to appointed comforts and comforters this doth not onely enlarge the wound but settle it as wee see in bodily wounds if they want a timely looking too it is the longer before that they heale the case is so here delaies breed dangers and we are speedily to make in to our remedies do not sleight the least wound as many doe who at the first make nothing of it but set upon the cure as soone as you espie the wound the medicine is prepared before hand and physitians to apply it are at hand onely take you heed of a sinfull bashfullnesse and dumbe divell and cursed negligence cry not out when it
spirituall miseries doe conceive a desperatenesse of condition such do now begin to damme up all the springs of mercy and drie up the bloud of Christ and close up the doore of grace against themselves and that I may not bee mistaken in this point note with mee two things Note 1. That in strictnesse of divinity wee are to make a difference betweene a wounded and a desperate conscience the one runs beyond the other in many things 2. That in every wounded conscience Desperation in every vvounded conscience compleatly or incompleatly there is a degree of desperation sometimes and in some men it runneth in more compleatnesse when men take their sinnes in such an high manner and with such an over-reaching power as that neither mercy can or will ease them they set an eternall night within their soules without hopes of a morning framing to themselves an utter impossibility of pardoning mercy as Caine Gen. 4. 13. and Iudas Mat. 27. 5. and this is a distresse Note of distresses and a greater evill then the disease it selfe Sometimes againe some men under the wound of the soule are more incompleately desperate they onely thinke and feare that God will cast them away and shut up his mercies and loving kindnesse from them heare they lie languishing and bleeding and are only holpen with this that though they cannot apply yet they dare not deny unto themselves Gods mercy and Christ in merit and this was the case of David under his wound Psal 77. 7 8 9 10. 4. The time of mans feeling this misery and calamity I know well that the wound of the spirit is graduall in some it is more then in other and it hath not alike continuance in The degrees and the continuance of this woūd in men different all in some it is but for a little space they quickly recover of their disease and attaine refreshment and comfort as we may see in Peter he went out and wept bitterly there was his wound in spirit but hee could speake comfortably and confidently to Christ after his Resurrection this shewed that he was not long in the agony Paul lay three daies in the affliction and distresse of spirit and then least hee should bee swallowed up of too much sorrow Anani as was sent unto him to refresh and comfort him But as God gives speedie ease to some so hee is pleased to let others lie a longer time under the perplexities of a wounded spirit David cries out shall I never bee remembred Psal 19. 1. My soule is sore troubled but Lord how long wilt thou delay Psal 6. 3. Now let the time be shorter or longer All the daies of the afflicted are evill Prov. 15. 15. and all the while a man doth feele this evill so long the wound doth remaine 2. Wee must know that though the wound of conscience is incident unto good and bad yet it is with a great and wide difference the wounds of spirit in wicked men are 1. Legall they spring up in the soule from the terrible operation The difference that is betwee◠the wound of the wicked the wound of the godly in 5. things of the law within their soules the Law of God hath an extreame curse written in it and this it writes in the conscience of every wicked man I say by its spirituall vigour it gets within the conscience of a wicked man and so the wound is made there is no worke of the Gospell as well as of the Law but all is done and made by the Law alone in all unregenerate men 2. Paenall and judiciall such men lie under the justice and wrath of God and for feare of hell and punishment are most of all cast downe so that were there no punishment to bee endured it were not the displeasure or offence of God by sin that should amaze them My punishment is greater then I am able to beare saith Caine Gen. 4. 13. whereas the wound in the godly is paternall and penitentiall a fatherly chastisement of God for tryall wherein the childe of God is wounded most at heart by the deepe apprehension of his sinnes and the displeasure of his Father against sin or 3. Violent the wound in them worketh with more and greater violence having more of the fire of hell in it such men are wholly under the terrors of the wound having no assistance from God no hope of ease no glimpse of light and no allayment by the saving power of the Gospell which the godly doe finde first or last more or lesse in degree 4. Mortall the wound in the issue prooveth desperate and incurable and though for a time their spirits may be benummed by the application of false meanes that so there may seeme to bee a cessation of the raging thereof yet the wound remaineth still they carry it with them to the grave to the judgement seate of God yea and to hell it selfe whereas God doth in due time and by good meanes make a compleat cure of all the wounds in the spirits of his there being no disease in their soule but as it is possible of cure so it is actually cured 5. Hurtfull the wounds of wicked men do them no good but hurt they are hereby driven from God and fall away more and more whereas the The benefit of spirituall vvounds in the godly serve in 6. things 1. Sense of sin Three vvaies of feeling sin wound in the godly is an occasion of much good unto them by the wounding of their spirits they are wrought unto these six things 1. Sensiblenesse of the bitter and sad effects of sinne God hath waies enough to make his feele their sinnes as his Word which strikes hard on the eare threatning sinne and wickednesse then if men hate reproofe and harden their hearts God hath his rod he sheweth man his judgement and in that mans sinne and his anger by which if man will not learne righteousnesse and feele the bitternesse of his sinne then troubles arise in conscience that shall be awakened and dis-eased that shall come upon man with feares and horrors for the sins that hee hath committed so that hereby he shall bee made to possesse the sinnes of his Job 23.26 Psal 51.3 youth and to know his own wickednesse as Iob and David did 2. Humility and emptinesse 2. Humility of soule of soule the wounds of the spirit doth weaken the proud and perverse conceits of mans owne strength and righteousnesse God by these doth make men vile in their owne eyes and opinions it is strange to see what rising humours are found in the godly before the wound befalleth them their blood is exceedingly over-heated but now by an humbled spirit God doth worke them to an humble spirit carrying them as to sin deniall so to selfe deniall 3. Enquiry after sinne these 3. Search after sin wounds of the spirit doe make us reflect on the evill of sinne and to search more seriously and narrowly into what wee
and it was his wounding The arrowes of the Almighty are within me the poyson whereof drinkes up my spirit the terrors of God do set themselves in array against mee c. Iob 6. â—4 5. The wound is made by the failing of testimonie from Failing of conscience conscience unto man upon repaire made unto it the good or evill day of a Christian is set by the voice of conscience unto him Now when conscience is silent and shall speake neither good nor bad unto a Christian when as no testimony at all shall stand up but after great and studious enquiry no verdict can bee obtained this is asad wound to the spirit The misery of conscience in silence in three things and it doth exceedingly distract and divide a Christian Note the effects of conscience in silence 1. It giveth man but a negative estate and that cannot satisfie and settle the soule it is not enough to my quiet that God lookes not as mine enemy but hee must looke like a friend on me 2. It giveth suspition of a neutrall estate so as a man cannot tell whether God and conscience be for him or against him 3. It breeds a suspition of a bad estate withdrawments and suspensions are sometimes the fore-runners of bitter intentions 6. The wound is in the spirit from the over great accusing Accusations of conscience power of conscience conscience in its accusations shewing the guiltinesse of sin and expressing the anger of God towards a man for sin in a cheerefull and excusing conscience we may behold a gratious God Note accepting and acquitting us in a silent conscience wee can suspect a doubtfull God wee know not which way God is or will be unto us and in an accusing conscience we doe behold an angry God and our selves most miserable creatures when a Christian shall bee totally under the accusations of conscience that his conscience shall speake nothing to him but that his heart is base and vile and that in such and such particular passages of his life he was not right and perfect but hollow and hypocriticall when I say conscience shall thus charge sin upon men this is the time of their wounding as wee may see in Iudas Mat. 27. 5. 7. Another thing which maketh the wound within us is Selfe jealousies an evill jealousie and an over-hard opinion of our selves and estates towards God Some men fall out with themselves and other men fall from themselves shall I say that they censure themselves and charge themselves falsely concluding against a state of grace and charging themselves with hypocrisie and insincerity without just cause Sure I am this is too too frequent among Gods children who upon such grounds as these doe mis-judge themselves and thereby make too great a wound within their spirits I say because they finde within themselves the want of such measure of graces and expressions of obedience which they once had desire to have and see others have when they see within themselves a partiall and temporary indisposednesse unto spirituall required duties when as gifts and graces for a time lie hid and dead in respect of vigour and sensible operations when all endeavours seeme to be fruitlesse and a Christian finds to his seeming the ordinances to go and come without all life and power unto him passing no influence of bettering into his soule Now hee sits him downe in griefe and the soule begins not onely to misgive or mistrust it selfe but to question the truth of all and it not only feares but concludes that surely the hands were washed in vaine and whatsoever hath beene done in religion and in the service of God it hath beene done in hypocrisie Psal 73. 13. and can you conceive how deepely this doth wound the spirit of a man 8. A next thing greatly wounding to the spirit of man is the New risings of old sins New rifings of old sins I meane when those sins which long since were committed and long since bewailed and long since renounced and wee long since did obtaine within our hearts some comfortable assurance of their pardon do meete us in their guilt not yet remooved as a debt not yet discharged and as an evill not yet thoroughly healed this causeth miserable trouble within the soule and upon this these conceits fall in Surely this sin of mine is not pardoned why would God remember it Surely there was but a skinning over the soare my heart was never healed by Sanctification how could it be that my sins should haunt mee againe this is now the sicknesse and death of many a soule 9. Lastly I conceive that this maketh the wound in the spirit Want of some good desired of man the want of some desired good it is not the absence of good generally considered which maketh the spirit to bee wounded for there are such whose unfeelingnesse is such that they have no sense of sinne nor of any spirituall want lying upon them but that which maketh the wound of the spirit to a man is this when his wants are presented unto him and their supplies are suspended and denied the soule would have mercy and mercy is denied him he would have ease and he seekes it and yet he is kept in misery when a mans prayers makes not their returnes but a man calles and none answers comforts delayed or denied do breake the heart and greatly wound the heart Doct. 3 I passe on to the next point That a wounded spirit is a burden The wound suffered yet not borne insupportable by the sonnes of men no man can beare it men must suffer and endure the perplexities thereof but beare A twofold bearing it that is to sustaine a mans selfe under it no man can this wound cannot bee borne with 1. With ease ease so as men enduring and feeling it should make nothing of it but it is with 2. With difficulty great difficulty and disquietment a burning feaver carrying Simile with it the inflammation of the spirits is not borne without much sense and horror so a wounded spirit even by the stoutest of spirits cannot be borne then with strongest and strangest torments men must yeeld themselves unto it and lie downe under it of necessity nay it is a wound unsupportable to all men that are vexed with it there is no withstanding The burden is too great 1. To good men 2. To bad men this wound by any man nor any standing under it by any man unto bad men it hath beene unsupportable O how grievous was it unto Caine who cries out My punishment is more then I can beare Gen. 4. 13. Iudas out of the trouble felt by it hangs himselfe to be rid out of it Mat. 27. 4. many thorough the weight and torment of it have beene forced to throw themselves downe from high mountaines to stabb and poyson and drowne themselves nay unto good men whose grace and strength was great and much this wound hath beene wounding
filth of it get the washing of Justification and of Sanctification into thy soule and doubt not but thou shalt be cured 3. Apply the playster 3. Unto the laying on of the all-healing plaister upon the wound it is the plaister in application that is healing Christs blood was shed to heale broken spirits Esay 61. 1 2 3. 53. 6. He is that Sun of righteousnesse that hath healing under his wings Mal. 4. 2. that blood alone can asswage all our ragings and heale all our woundings Now then make a seasonable application of that blood to your wounded soules sprinkle with his blood your wounded spirits God alone is pacified if the blood of Christ be sprinkled and conscience doth heale when God is reconciled O that we would set our selves by faith into the dying and bleedings of Christ a man must earnestly labour to beleeve that Christ doth and will satisfie for those sinnes which breed the terror within and this will proove the curing and the comforting of his heart as we may see Act. 16. 31. 4. Unto the daily openings 4. Dresse it daily and dressings of the wound it is a necessary thing for the soule to be venting it selfe into full and frequent confessions of sin there is a need of letting out the filthy matter that the wound in healing gathereth this wee hold keepe in sin and Note you keepe on your trouble but let out the filthy matter and ease will follow it is an easing thing to bee much in acknowledgement of sin to God and to accuse a mans selfe of sin before God we see David found it specially curing unto him Psal 32. 3 5. and besides this there must be the renewing of our repentance and godly sorrow for sins committed sinfull wounds are deepe wounds and great sins call for great sorrowes David was wholy in teares and Peter weepes bitterly and wee must be constant in repenting if wee expect a compleate and comfortable cure and lastly we must lay open all our sores before the Lord in prayer Davids sore ran and ceased not and yet in the day of his trouble he sought the Lord and he prayed when his spirit was full of anguish Psal 77. 2 3. and thus must we doe wee must come unto God with all our sinnes and soares craving healing from him who will heale us in his owne time and by his owne meanes Hosea 6. 1. 14. 4. 5. Unto the upholdments of 5. Provision our spirits under all the dressings of its wounds wee are very apt to faint in the thought of distresses but when wee are felt and drest and dealt withall in a most healing way wee are ready to qualme and sinke so that it doth very much concerne us to have our cordials and restoratives neare us such as are the sweet and precious promises of the Note Covenant of grace wee must set our selves under grace and beleeve that God hath a good opinion of us and that his love is towards us wee must set up the saving vertue of Christs blood against the damming power of sinne wee must eye Gods acceptance of weake endeavours and passing by of many failings wee must conclude that a state of love may bee under the sense of much wrath and that though the paine for the present be much and great yet it is sanctified and God will put an end unto it for good unto such as are his in Covenant This if we could wisely doe wee should keepe downe the risings of uncomfortable thoughts and cease so much talking of our paine and making complaint thereof and happily attaine to the curing of the wounds of our spirits the greatest of mercies and the ground of singular rejoycing because the wounds of the spirit are so intollerable and unsufferable as I have opened unto you Eight Cases of conscience opened for the relievement of wounded spirits IT now remaineth that I open unto you some of the things which are greatly wounding unto mans spirit and yeeld unto you such relievements against them as Cases of conscience doe require a work requiring both experimentall knowledge and the tongue of the Learned unto which I acknowledge my selfe insufficient yet having found the good proofe of these following directions in the comforting of many soules already I am the more encouraged to communicate them unto you in a more publique way and the blessing of the Almighty goe along with them CASE I. Of the suspension of divine favour THe first thing which I Case 1. shall speake of as The absence of Gods lovâ— in sense is a great trouble greatly wounding and troubling the spirits of Gods children is the absence of God in the sense and feeling of his loving kindnesse all absences of God suppose them to be longer or shorter inward or outward troubles Christians exceedingly if Caine could make it distraction unto him when he was cast out of Gods visible presence Gen. 4. 15 16. If Mary weepe because that they had taken away her Lord and she knew not where that they had laid him Iohn 20. 13. how much more wounding unto Christians is the suspension of divine favour the soule cannot lie under the sense of Gods displeasure and withdrawments of his love without much alteratioâ— and affliction The life of a Christian is much after the life of some great Favourite in the Court whose Simile comforts or discomforts depends upon the countenance or discountenance of his Prince or as it is with the Marigold which opens and shuts with the Sun just thus all the while the love of God shines upon a Christian so as he is able to apprehend it he lives and is very chearefull in spirit the sense of divine love is a spring of joy a well of consolation and the admirable refreshment of the soule a Psal 30 5. thy favour is life b Psal 63 3. thy loving kindnesse is better then life saith David this was it that gave unto him exceeding joy of heart Psal 4. 6 7. The Church sate under the shadow of Christ with great delight and his fruit waâ—â—weet unto her taste Cant. 2. 3. The enjoyment of this love is the day and joy of a Christian But now if that there bee a withdrawment or clouding or restraining of the love of God unto sense let God I say but hide his face and seeme to forget and forsake his let him but cover himselfe with a cloud and absent himselfe for a time covering his with his wrath and just displeasure now 't is all night and darkenesse yea and death it selfe unto Christians as you may see in these Scriptures of experience Psal 30. 7. 88. 14. 44. 24. 77. 3 7 8 9. 13. 1. 31. 22. Lam. 3. 18. 42 43 44. Esa 45. 15. 49. 14. Ionah 2. 4. Reason And all this is by reason of that conjunction and relation that is betweene God and them and the wonderfull sweetnesse and joy wherewithall they were filled and refreshed in tâ—â— daies of their
lost them for ever if sense must bee his judge and give the sentence Christ therefore doth shew him his weakenesse and failing in saying to him Thomas Blessed are they that have not seene and yet have beleeved verse 29. you that will have all by sight and feeling or else you will never bee quiet I tell you 1. That sense is not a fit judge of a Christians spirituall condition it cannot at all times see into our estates much lesse report our estate unto us the spirituall Psal 73. 28. condition may be without all feeling eyes may faile and flesh faile and God frowne and faith onely expresse such acts as are pure and hidden grounding it selfe upon the naked promise and how can sense report and give sentence 2. That sense is yea and nay it maketh our condition to bee good and bad lost and found and that many times in one day nay in one hower and all because it looketh on the outside of things judging according to outward appearance I yeeld that it is uncomfortable for a man to walke without his feeling but it is as uncertaine to walke alltogether by feeling 3. That the spirituall course of Christians doth many times goe against all the sense of Christians sense and the promise are many times at a contradiction the promise goeth on when sense cannot perceive it but behold the contrary and how can sense meeting with contrarieties resolve 4. That sense goes mans way but faith goes Gods way sense mooves upon what appeares and takes Gods deed whereas faith relyeth upon Gods Word and pitcheth upon things invisible I will waite upon the Lord that hides his face from the house of Iacob and I will looke for him Esa 8. 17. to this purpose reade Esa 50. 10. Hab. 3. 17 18. Ninthly maintaine and set up faith beleeving is the ground of setling after yee beleeved you were sealed saith Paul Ephes 1. 13. a man cannot have the fruit before hee hath the tree nor safety before hee hath laid himselfe on the rock nor assurance before hee beleeveth looke as the soule Simile breeds seeing in the eyes and hearing in the eares so true faith doth breed in the soule true setlednesse and assurance if Christians could rise up to the granting way of faith their doubts would more and more vanish faith is 1. The first ground of all a Christians assurances and experiences if any man hath either in his soule he obtained them by faith 2. The prime instrument bringing home the comfort of all divine good unto the soule the joy of Heaven merit of Christ and favour of God cannot actually comfort and quiet mans heart untill that faith hath done its part Faith at liberty and in authority doth compose a Christians doubtings keeping him from sinking under them two waies 1. By yeelding a ground for setlednesse all the while the soule can finde and feele no bottome it cannot but doubt and stagger can the ship but rowle up and downe when the Marriner cannot finde a place to Simile fixe his anchor but when a man can finde in and by beleeving the truth and goodnesse of a promise to rest upon and can say as David Remember the Psal 119. 49. word unto thy servant upon which thou hast caused mee to hope now is hee resolved and become quiet I beleeved and therefore I spake and what reason is there that a man should doubt his safety when hee is once fully set upon the rocke 2. By overmatching all the causes and grounds of doubtings imagined by Christians Christians doubt many times when as they have little reason to doubt and sometimes they thinke their reasons for their doubtings are unanswerable but faith prevailing will put the lie and folly upon al that can bee said for doubting it will shame and silence the foolish reasonings of the hearts of Gods children you may see this in David when his thoughts ranne wild upon the prosperities of wicked men and the adversities of Gods children how did his doubts come in upon him even to his sinking he saith Verily I have cleansed my heart in vaine and washed my hands in innocency for all the day long I have beene plagued but how doth he recover himselfe Surely it was by the exercise and liberty of his faith he went into the house of God and there his faith found matter and ground to worke upon and hee became better setled in his soule Psal 73. 13 14 15 16 17. and truth it is that every thing appeares in all causes of feare when faith is not the master and cannot have full power to bee agent and factor for a Christian Beleeve in the Lord your God and you shall bee established 2 Chron. 20. 20. Tenthly subdue and keepe downe sinne in the love and power thereof If iniquity bee in thine hand put it farre away and let not wickednesse dwell in thy tabernacles for then shalt thou lift up thy face without spot yea thou shalt bee stedfast and shalt not feare Iob â—â— 14 15. where wee plainely see that the more sinne doth die in its love and power within the soule the more will doubtings die too kill sinne and faith lives and doubts vanish The Apostle would that men should draw neere with a true heart in assurance Heb. 10. 22. of faith i. e. to cast away doubtings in their approaches to God and not to come indifferently may bee I shall bee accepted may bee I shall not but as verily perswaded of Gods acceptation happily some Christian might say to him how might a man doe this hee answereth having the heart sprinkled from an evill conscience q. d. faith cannot well perswade nor the heart settle till you get quit of sinne if your consciences doe charge and condemne you of evill you will bee doubtfull truth it is that doubtings are cured by Mortification the heart must bee circumcised of its unbeleeving and hardnesse and ungodlinesse ere ever wee shall get quit of doubtings if wee resolve to bee evill wee must resolve to bee doubtfull were it not for sinnefullnesse faith would bee quicker and stronger and wee more setled and staied in our mindes a heavie rhume falling into the eyes doth hinder a man from looking up and sinne entertained in the soule reares up contrary reasonings and denials to faith making the incouragements of it to bee so difficult that a Christian spirit doth faile him and hee shall not bee able to looke up Psal 40.12 CASE III. Of personall unworthinesse IT hath not a little troubled the minds of many of Gods deare children to consider what unworthy creatures they are in themselves and that they are so ill deserving at Gods hands having no more goodnesse in them to commend them to Gods acceptation and love wee finde them many times complaining and that with much griefe of heart that they have nothing in them but sinne and wickednesse and how should God ever accept such as they are to love and life under the presence
the present deferre his comforts and put off thy complaints and the time is long and tedious unto thee yet know that a Christian is sure to speed well with God at the last and he shall have his recompences in the best things at the best time there is a time and day which God will not overpasse The vision is yet for an appointed time but at the end it shall speake and shall not lie though it tarry waite for it because it will surely come it will not tarry Hab. 2. 3. Thou hast done God much service and made many prayers unto him and yet nothing commeth of it waite and thou shalt never repent thee of thy paines and patience consider but these three things 1. That a man cannot waite too long for promised mercies they being the most excellent and usefull of all mercies for Christians 2. That God is wise and good in causing spaces betweene our endeavours and his recompences God herein is either chastning some for former neglect of accepting grace offered in the day of grace or preparing the soule for the receiving and enjoying of his recompences 3. That the longer any one stayeth without Gods wages the better and greater it shall bee when it comes God will give unto his their wages with an increase hee will give them double comfort Esa 40. 2. doubt not of this but that God will fulfill your desires to the full and comforts first or last shall come in such a plentifull measure that they shall make amends for all Abraham waited long for Isaack and hee had him at the last and though the world recompence the best worke with the worst wages yet God doth not soe but will crowne all our endeavours to his owne praise and the comfort of his CASE VII Of Relapses into sinnes after resolutions and premises and pardons THe impudencies of sin are such that they make their returnes upon the chast hearts of Gods Saints and the weakenesse of Christians is such that they fall into sinne often multiplying sinne very farre and here they rest not but many times notwithstanding purposes and promises and better resolutions they slacke againe in their watchfullnesse and notwithstanding their recovery out of sinnes they returne againe unto folly and act the same sinnes againe it may happen to them Relapsing into sinne what it is as unto many men under their diseases they may in some good measure recover strength and health and there may bee certaine discontinuations of the violent workings of the disease but yet there may be a falling back of them into the same disease even unto great danger just so they may not only lapse and receive a recovery out of the same by the hand of mercy but after along space of discontinuance even when they have seemed to have parted from their old sinnefull practises they may bee brought backe againe to the second acting of the same sinnes which evill doth befall them upon Causes of relapses nine these or the like grounds 1. From boldnesse without a warrant they adventuring upon their owne strength and forgetting the strength of sinfull occasions presumptuous patients feeling their legs againe will abroad into the aire and finding some appetite will feed on any kinde of forbidden meate and hereby they fall backe againe and presumptuous sinners soone forget themselves and soone relapse into sinne 2. From feare against the promise they having their eyes too open unto troubles which they desire to shun and out of feare of enduring misery they have adventured so farre that they have miserably brought themselves downe againe by sinne I know nothing which made Abraham more to redouble his lying then the redoubling Gen. 12. 13. 20. 11. of his feares he had his eyes too much upon the preservation of his life he was afraid that they would kill him for his Sarahs sake and therefore once and againe hee hazarded her chastity and his owne truth 3 From dislike without a cause discontentednesse among the Israelites made them in their soules to long the second time for the flesh-pots of Egypt though Egypt was formerly unto them a house of bondage the desire of alteration and mens unwillingnesse to bee that which God would have them to be hath beene and is a great cause of their fearefull relapses into sinnes 4. From standing without a watch when Christians minde not a falling whilst that they are standing but remit their watch and holy jealousie omitting the meanes of stedfastnesse they quit their owne strength of standing and quickly relapse if a sicke man grow carelesse of his diet or a lame man throw away his crutches and a Christian grow mindlesse of his falling they are in a like condition of slipping back 5. From straites without faith crosses not borne by faith have returned many to their old way the want of water and bread caused the Israelites more then once or twice to glide into the sins of murmuring and distrust 6. From company without choise all society hath a force in it it brings with it fire or water it is an encouragement or discouragement unto sinne the Israelites being mingled among the Heathens learned their works and fell to idolatry the second time Psal 106. 35. flaming brands will not more set on fire quenched sticks then sinfull companies will revive dead purposes unto sinfullnesse experience sheweth that the joyning with old companions hath made men to resume their former excesse of riot contrary unto their former resolutions and promises 7. From the Spirit without assistance if the Spirit take away his hand or deny his actuall assistance the Christian presently relapseth take away the fire from the water and it will Simile returne to its native coldnesse let the Sun once set and the ayre will returne to its wonted darknesse and let the Spirit which is our strength once withdraw or suspend and wee sinke and fall and sinne and sinne againe 8. From extremities forgotten time was that Christians did finde and feele the bitternesse and horror of sinne the stinging effects thereof remaining fresh and sensible in the conscience and then they did abhorre and feare to sinne they did vow and promise not to sinne take wee a drunkard that hath surfeted with wine or strong drink and whilst hee is under the scorchings of his sin-sicknesse bring unto him wine and strong drink O he cannot abide it but when the sicknesse is over and the experiments of sinnes extremity buried he will rise from the smaller beare to the strong and from that to the strongest wine againe and as certaine it is that when men do forget what their sins have cost them they will gradually slide into their old course of sinning againe 9. From brethren despised there is a great evill among Christians they are not onely many times ungroundedly too too suspicious over-credulous and censorious of their brethren but over incompassionate and strangely insulting over their brethren in their failings especially where they least
affect wee shall heare such griefelesse and disgracing narrations of Christians miscarriages even by Christians themselves that it would make a man to question whether all wisdome and mercy bee not banished out of their hearts now when God seeth this proud and envious and spitefull spirit in any of his owne children hee lets them also bee tempted and under temptations they are permitted to fall that they may learne to be more mercifull to the names of their bretheren and to make them know that the sinne that overturnes one Christian may overturne any Christian and that one Christian seeing another to fall should compassionately helpe him up and not scornefully cast him off reade Gal. 6. 1. These things with many other causing the relapsing of Christians into sinne doe make the soules of Christians under its relapsings heavie and sad they considering within themselves that the basenesse of relapsing is likened to the dog turning 2 Pet. 2. â—2 to his vomit and the sow that is washed wallowing in the mire it doth greatly trouble and disquiet them concerning the setling of Christians labouring Five settlements under relapses under this evill I shall onely propound five things of principall knowledge and use First that all Relapsings into sinne are great evills wheresoever they are found relapsing argueth corruption yea and a sinfull disposition in man There is not onely the evill of sinne in this condition but wee shall finde many bitter effects and issues befalling Christians under their relapses for they do not onely hereby object themselves to many temporall punishments Psal 78. 61 62 63. but unto these foure spirituall evills 1. Soule-disquietment the peace of conscience being broken by every relapse I say relapses are of a disquieting nature to conscience in these five respects 1. Because they bring back Relapses disquieting to conscience in five respects all former guilts and with that all the former burdens and feares and terrors 2. Because they yeeld unto conscience matter of undeniable accusation the doubling of sin doth double the accusation and vexation of conscience 3. Because they are the aggravation of sinne unto man 4. Because they make the foundations and resting places of the soule questionable relapses put a man to cleare and proove his former grants and assurances to Heaven and his owne sincerity to God and in Religion 5. Because they doe greatly advantage temptations unto despaire Christians are never more apt to despaire then upon the consideration of their often falling into sinne 2. Discouragement in all accesses unto God the Christian cannot with that confidence and boldnesse draw neare unto God in prayer having relapsed as els hee might have done how can such beleeve that God will love them and heare them when as they have dealt so falsly with him having promised him not to sinne and mocked and abused him in his mercy and pitty and patience he having formerly pardoned them their sins 3. Disablement unto renewed repentance Now Christians doe finde it more difficult to returne from sinne their soules being sunke deeper into sinne and more entangled by sinne then formerly it was take mee a Christian that is but single in sinne and hee findeth the difficulties of repenting to bee great but how doth Satan renew his power and a Christian loose his strength when that the same sinnes are repeated over and over assuredly there is strange strengthenings of sin in relapsing into sinnes one sinne living in and by another 4. Feares of death O how unwelcome is the newes of death and how unwilling are such to die who have often fallen into the same sinnes Relapses doe put a sting into death making it very terrible unto the sonnes of men 2. That the Elect of God may fall backe againe into the same sinnes there is I say a possible incidency of relapsing unto persons of all sorts it is most certaine that wicked men who are ordained to destruction may relapse Pharaoh though humbled for the present did notwithstanding harden his heart againe and againe yea and they who are good and holy and have soundly repented them of their former sins may yet relapse the example of Abraham Lot Peter and Israel doth declare it how often doth God lay this sinne unto the charge of his people Ier. 3. 12. 14. 2â— Psal 78. 57. and no marvaile for though their repentance bee sound yet their mortification is imperfect in this life there is no sinfull disposition wholy rooted up and dried in sanctified persons and corruption remaining will put forth its nature into more and more acts yea and into the same acts of sinning as long as sinne retaines its nature it doth and will retaine the inclinations and operations of that nature also if the fire be not wholy put out who will thinke it impossible that it should catch and burne againe 3. That though the act of relapsing bee incident both to good and bad yet it is in a differing manner which I shall open Relapses into sinne by the godly different from relapses into sin by the vvicked Relapses 1 Naturall unto you in the distinctions of relapsings First there are relapses 1. Naturall 2. Accidentall Naturall relapses are such as spring from a disposition and temper that is wholy sinnefull and for sinne if a man by a coard pluck up very high the Simile weightof a jack or clock yet it hath a naturall propension to fall downe againe you need not drive the sow to the mire nor the dog unto his vomit their owne naturall love and delight will returne them the truth is that though externall and intervenient occasions may pen up or restraine the violence of corruption for a time yet such is the inward disposition of a naturall man unto sinne that hee soone returnes to his old course againe skin up the soare and the ulcer will breake out againe and if the heart bee not changed but chained by the power of restraining graces alone man will returne to his old vomit and vaine course Accidentall Relapses are 2. Accidentall such which befall the godly by sudden and strong temptations a land flood may carry back pieces of timber from the banke into the remote places of the ground an unexpected gale may drive the Marriner backe into the harbour againe and it is as possible that temptations may breake in with that violence that Christians may bee over-borne and carried away to those sinnes which their soules doe most sincerely abhorre and they have solemnely covenanted against yet here the effect and the intention are contrary heart and sinne being at difference and upon tearmes of defiance Secondly Relapses may bee either into the acts of sinne or else into the exercise of sinne one sick person falls back into some fits onely another returneth under the power of his disease againe the godly man falls backe into some particular sinne but there hee staieth not for though hee fall hee riseth againe hee is as a man fallen into the water